Sister Rosette =)
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Chrona Crusade~*
我没有一刻想起你，因为我没有一刻忘过你。
Was watching Chrno Crusade (Chrono Crusade）yesterday.
Cried when I watched the last episode.
This is the story of Rosette Christopher, a young exorcist and her close friend Chrono, a demon with a dark history, as they go on a quest to find and rescue Rosette's younger brother, Joshua, from the villian, Aion.
Sister Rosette's a violent, cheerful and energetic girl and Chrono's a poor demon who's constantly taken advantage of by Rosette. (she makes him carry luggages, do lots of things for her. lol.) Sorta reminds me of Kaname Chidori (Full Metal Panic) and Hakkai (Gensoumaden Saiyuki) cos Chrono's really gentle and nice while Rosette just keeps bullying him. LOL. they get into trouble in practically every episode.
Anyway, Chrono can only transform into his original form by absorbing Rosette's life and thus shorten her life span. They made a contract when they were young.
There's a clock which Rosette always wears around her neck, which displays the amount of time she has to live.
While the goofy pair hunts down Aion and find Joshua, they also exocized demons etc etc. Then, they met Azmaria, a really adorable apostle of charity. She is sorta like an angel. When she uses her powers, her wings will appear and the Virgin Mary will appear to bless her. She sings to heal. The last person to join the team is Satella, a jewel summoner. Rosette and Satella were constantly fighting. haha.
The ending is so SAD cos well, Rosette had only a few minutes left to live. When Rosette dies, Chrno will also cease to exist. Oh ya, Satella also died earlier on from a battle with her own sister. The last scene of Rosette and Chrno hugging and Rosette crying that she wished she could live a little longer. Her time was almost up. 30 seconds left. the sun set and the 2 of them died leaning against each other, with serene smiles on their faces...
So in the end, the only person who survived was Azmaria. she became a sister also, just like rosette.
I DISLIKE sad endings. =(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aF7ZLkBzpk&search=chrono%20crusade%20episode%2024
The ending song is SUPER SAD as well.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zgKjgmlBtEM&search=chrono%20crusade%20ending%20song
oh well. =(
Anyway, this show just makes me realize that well,
if it were you, will you have the courage to offer your life to someone else?
will you have the courage to sacrifice for someone else?
Rosette's only 16 when she died, btw.
life and death is just a thin line away from each other.
当我们得到很多， 是否同时失去了很多?
纵使回到当初，只怕还是多少有些微妙的不同。
只要有你，无论何时，我都能微笑。
只要有你，无论何时，我都有微笑，都有泪水，都又生命。
曾经失去多少？
曾经牺牲多少？
虽说我不能成为一个完美的人，但我仍会绽放出我扭曲的光芒。
Was watching Chrno Crusade (Chrono Crusade）yesterday.
Cried when I watched the last episode.
This is the story of Rosette Christopher, a young exorcist and her close friend Chrono, a demon with a dark history, as they go on a quest to find and rescue Rosette's younger brother, Joshua, from the villian, Aion.
Sister Rosette's a violent, cheerful and energetic girl and Chrono's a poor demon who's constantly taken advantage of by Rosette. (she makes him carry luggages, do lots of things for her. lol.) Sorta reminds me of Kaname Chidori (Full Metal Panic) and Hakkai (Gensoumaden Saiyuki) cos Chrono's really gentle and nice while Rosette just keeps bullying him. LOL. they get into trouble in practically every episode.
Anyway, Chrono can only transform into his original form by absorbing Rosette's life and thus shorten her life span. They made a contract when they were young.
There's a clock which Rosette always wears around her neck, which displays the amount of time she has to live.
While the goofy pair hunts down Aion and find Joshua, they also exocized demons etc etc. Then, they met Azmaria, a really adorable apostle of charity. She is sorta like an angel. When she uses her powers, her wings will appear and the Virgin Mary will appear to bless her. She sings to heal. The last person to join the team is Satella, a jewel summoner. Rosette and Satella were constantly fighting. haha.
The ending is so SAD cos well, Rosette had only a few minutes left to live. When Rosette dies, Chrno will also cease to exist. Oh ya, Satella also died earlier on from a battle with her own sister. The last scene of Rosette and Chrno hugging and Rosette crying that she wished she could live a little longer. Her time was almost up. 30 seconds left. the sun set and the 2 of them died leaning against each other, with serene smiles on their faces...
So in the end, the only person who survived was Azmaria. she became a sister also, just like rosette.
I DISLIKE sad endings. =(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aF7ZLkBzpk&search=chrono%20crusade%20episode%2024
The ending song is SUPER SAD as well.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zgKjgmlBtEM&search=chrono%20crusade%20ending%20song
oh well. =(
Anyway, this show just makes me realize that well,
if it were you, will you have the courage to offer your life to someone else?
will you have the courage to sacrifice for someone else?
Rosette's only 16 when she died, btw.
life and death is just a thin line away from each other.
当我们得到很多， 是否同时失去了很多?
纵使回到当初，只怕还是多少有些微妙的不同。
只要有你，无论何时，我都能微笑。
只要有你，无论何时，我都有微笑，都有泪水，都又生命。
曾经失去多少？
曾经牺牲多少？
虽说我不能成为一个完美的人，但我仍会绽放出我扭曲的光芒。
Friday, May 26, 2006
PTC~*
Hey everyone, I just returned from Parent-Teacher Conference.
And look at the time! It's only 8.41?? Lol.
Yea. My mum gotta work later on so we arranged it out of slot.
7.30am!!! WOW.
My mum and I reached at around 7.10 so we waited for a while and talked to Mrs Lim at around 7.20 and it lasted 10mins.
Well, Mrs Lim said the usual things to my mum and as usual, the only concern my mum had was my A MATH result. hmmm...
Anyway, after all the talking, Mrs Lim asked me to help her carry water bottles to my class, which is on the 5th level. Well, actually she asked me to get help from the guys but no one was in sight! Serious. I couldn't see any living soul from my class. OH NO.
So the poor me carried a box to the 5th floor and rushed back down to carry the second box. goodness. It's VERY heavy ok? my arms were aching and I was perspiring like I just ran 454651178453km.
when I ran up the second time, I saw Waihou and Kathy in class already with their parents. It was only 7 plus. yup. I was so tired, I didn't have the strength to even wave. lol.
ok but here I am back in my room. =)
Tell you what, I bet that most of my frens are still sleeping. lol.
but I'm pretty surprised I had no negative comments from Mrs Lim.
and when I agreed to help her, she was like almost hugging me already. haha.
now i know why.
Ok. anyway, yesterday was the last day of school.
It was a complete waste of time.
The ONLY lesson we had was chinese and it's not very useful too, since we spent half the time sorting out chinese worksheets.
So we slacked most of the time. lol.
Oh ya, the fun part was at the end of the day, when the whole class cooperated to clean the class and arrange the tables and chairs.
and Nicholas, Boon Kiat and Ivan started pretending to be teacher and parents.
And they ended up throwing dictionaries at Ivan (who's supposed to be the teacher)
Then, Angela, Yubing, Siong Aik, Nicholas, boon kiat, shon fan all joined in and the rest of us sat and watched, laughing away.
they were really funny.
Angela: eh. 讲英文。我听不懂华语。
Ivan: THEN you're still speaking chinese??
Ivan: your child is very good academically but not in other aspects.
Shon Fan: ...F*** LA!!! *pushes boon kiat*
(for this, everyone laughed like mad and we even applauded for Shon Fan)
Ivan: hmm... Mrs Toh. eh no. Mrs Ang? no. Mrs Toh?
Boon Kiat: aiya. 随便 la.
LOL.
We had such good actresses and actors!!! Why didn't they act in last year's musical??? Lol.
Anyway, today's the start of June holidays.
Which also means remedials/supplementary lessons and revision and piles and piles of homework.
cos well, right after this, we'll be having our common test 2, PRELIMS and 'O' LEVEL!
*gasp*
haix... life sucks.
And look at the time! It's only 8.41?? Lol.
Yea. My mum gotta work later on so we arranged it out of slot.
7.30am!!! WOW.
My mum and I reached at around 7.10 so we waited for a while and talked to Mrs Lim at around 7.20 and it lasted 10mins.
Well, Mrs Lim said the usual things to my mum and as usual, the only concern my mum had was my A MATH result. hmmm...
Anyway, after all the talking, Mrs Lim asked me to help her carry water bottles to my class, which is on the 5th level. Well, actually she asked me to get help from the guys but no one was in sight! Serious. I couldn't see any living soul from my class. OH NO.
So the poor me carried a box to the 5th floor and rushed back down to carry the second box. goodness. It's VERY heavy ok? my arms were aching and I was perspiring like I just ran 454651178453km.
when I ran up the second time, I saw Waihou and Kathy in class already with their parents. It was only 7 plus. yup. I was so tired, I didn't have the strength to even wave. lol.
ok but here I am back in my room. =)
Tell you what, I bet that most of my frens are still sleeping. lol.
but I'm pretty surprised I had no negative comments from Mrs Lim.
and when I agreed to help her, she was like almost hugging me already. haha.
now i know why.
Ok. anyway, yesterday was the last day of school.
It was a complete waste of time.
The ONLY lesson we had was chinese and it's not very useful too, since we spent half the time sorting out chinese worksheets.
So we slacked most of the time. lol.
Oh ya, the fun part was at the end of the day, when the whole class cooperated to clean the class and arrange the tables and chairs.
and Nicholas, Boon Kiat and Ivan started pretending to be teacher and parents.
And they ended up throwing dictionaries at Ivan (who's supposed to be the teacher)
Then, Angela, Yubing, Siong Aik, Nicholas, boon kiat, shon fan all joined in and the rest of us sat and watched, laughing away.
they were really funny.
Angela: eh. 讲英文。我听不懂华语。
Ivan: THEN you're still speaking chinese??
Ivan: your child is very good academically but not in other aspects.
Shon Fan: ...F*** LA!!! *pushes boon kiat*
(for this, everyone laughed like mad and we even applauded for Shon Fan)
Ivan: hmm... Mrs Toh. eh no. Mrs Ang? no. Mrs Toh?
Boon Kiat: aiya. 随便 la.
LOL.
We had such good actresses and actors!!! Why didn't they act in last year's musical??? Lol.
Anyway, today's the start of June holidays.
Which also means remedials/supplementary lessons and revision and piles and piles of homework.
cos well, right after this, we'll be having our common test 2, PRELIMS and 'O' LEVEL!
*gasp*
haix... life sucks.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
You are my pride~*
4o8 peeps who took part in the basketball tournament and netball tournament
(Angela. Yubing. Weixiang. Jason. Darrel. Wai Hou. Shon Fan. Eng Ngee. Li Qian.):
You guys did the class proud. =) What's truly important is not the results, but the process. You guys did your best and we, though we only watched, could really feel the amount of effort put in. That's all that matters. =D You guys truly rock. =D
Cheer up, everyone. =D
AUDIENCE
Singer: Ayumi Hamasaki
Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping our hands
When you start to run
Just come here and begin together
I don't mean to
Walk ahead of the others
But it doesn't mean
I follow behind someone
If one of you
Shouts "Yes !"
I'll fall into line
And shout "Yes !" too
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping hands
When you start to run
Just come here and begin together
You are my pride
In our daily life, seemingly worthless
Hidden is a trick of happiness
And it's surely made
For everyone to share
If you can't win cleverly
It's all right
Then, let's lose in a good way
Together with me
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping our hands
I hear your voices
Now I'm afraid of nothing
I'm no longer alone
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping our hands
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping our hands
When you start to run
Just come here and begin together
You are my pride
(Angela. Yubing. Weixiang. Jason. Darrel. Wai Hou. Shon Fan. Eng Ngee. Li Qian.):
You guys did the class proud. =) What's truly important is not the results, but the process. You guys did your best and we, though we only watched, could really feel the amount of effort put in. That's all that matters. =D You guys truly rock. =D
Cheer up, everyone. =D
AUDIENCE
Singer: Ayumi Hamasaki
Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping our hands
When you start to run
Just come here and begin together
I don't mean to
Walk ahead of the others
But it doesn't mean
I follow behind someone
If one of you
Shouts "Yes !"
I'll fall into line
And shout "Yes !" too
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping hands
When you start to run
Just come here and begin together
You are my pride
In our daily life, seemingly worthless
Hidden is a trick of happiness
And it's surely made
For everyone to share
If you can't win cleverly
It's all right
Then, let's lose in a good way
Together with me
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping our hands
I hear your voices
Now I'm afraid of nothing
I'm no longer alone
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping our hands
Let's spread our arms
And walk together clapping our hands
When you start to run
Just come here and begin together
You are my pride
Monday, May 22, 2006
Updates + you're tagged~*
ok. apart from the ultra lame entry I just posted, I'm gonna update about recent stuff I've done. exciting, isn't it? Ok. not really.
1. The outing to Bugis was a BLAST. yes. Enjoyed myself so much! I just love Joyce, Serene and Yeeyan. =D
2. Spent 99% of the time laughing over matters concerning yy and xXx. haha. Really. I just adore PEANUT. hahaha.
3. All the spinning and ancient china houses made me laugh even more. haha.
4. Went coffee bean tt day. It was really FUNNY alright?
5. Yesterday went on a shopping spree with zuhui, yeeyan, joyce and serene!
6. OH YES. We shopped from Queensway to Ikea (don't ask y we were there cos we're not sure ourselves) Lunched at Anchorpoint.
7. The bad thing is we didn't shop for ourselves, we shopped for 3 belated birthday presents. tt's pretty sad, isn't it?
8. Had so much fun at Ikea. Created chaos. =D
9. Did I mention we got back all our papers? Oh it just seemed like nightmare to me. Goodness. don't remind me.
10.Had 2.4km run today! FINALLY it's over. PHEW.
11.Poor Joyce fell down. Must take care arh, Joyce. =)
12.Watched netball match. WOW. Our class really rocks! <3
13.I simply love this feeling when you can choose what to do. =D
ok tt's about all. was reading Yuntian's blog and was horrified.
to yuntian: HEY! I'm not dating that 'fishmonger. ah chek.' hor! hahaha. I know you and that W****** ok??? LOL!! =p
Well, was pretty bored so decided to play that game too. HEEHEE.
Name 20 ppl u can think of at the top of your head. Dun read the below questions before you write and tag 5 ppl to do this survey.
1. Serene
2. Yeeyan
3. Joyce
4. Karen
5. Zuhui
6. Angela
7. Cindy
8. Yubin
9. Jiayi
10. Pei Rong
11. Yuntian
12. Bernice
13. Zoumei
14. Raphael
15. Yi Hang
16. Siong Aik
17. Jun Liang
18. Chee Wee
19. Shon fan
20. xXx
1.How did you meet 14?
Through Karen! Last year. =)
2.What would you do if you never met 1?
My life won't be the same. I would've been more normal. HAHA.
3.What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! Well, Jiayi'll get killed.
4.Did you ever like 19?
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Goodness. I'm not weina ok?? jkjk. =)
5.Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
LOL!!! Angela and Junliang? They're totally opposites! you know wat I mean. and someone will kill someone too. *grins*
6.Describe 3.
CUTE. SWEET. ADORABLE. XIAO KE AI. LOVABLE. SUPER SMART. ok. I'll get killed tml. =D
7.Do you think 8 is attractive?
Totally. haha. Esp when the sweat glimmers in the sunlight. alright. i'm not a les. HAHA.
8.Tell me something about 7.
I love her, man. Everything about her, including her laughter! YES. I can hear it now. haha.
9.Do you know any of 12's family?
hmmm... Nicholas? HAHAHA.
10.What's 8's favourite?
ME. ok. HARRY POTTER LA. =)
11.What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?
OH MAN. I'll be killed by tons of guys outside alright?
12.What language does 15 speak?
Chinese. English. Hokkien. Malaysian (???)
13.Who is 9 going out with?
ME. HAHAHA.
14.How old is 16 now?
16!!!
15.When was the last time you talked to 13?
last week. she scolded me for teasing her. LOL.
16.Who's 2 favourite band/singer?
ME. of course. who else?
17.Would you date 4?
Of course! *winks*
18.Would you date 7?
YES! I wanna laugh everyday. =)
19.Is 15 single?
*shocked* so ZHUN? well, YES.
20.What's 10's last name?
TAN. She's called LAO CHEN. lol.
21.Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
No way. I don't wanna live in fear fearing guys chopping me up. lol.
22.What school does 3 go to?
NHHS!!
23.Where does 6 live?
where 198 leads to. =)
24.Whats your favourite thing about 5?
Her EVERYTHING!!! =)
25. Have you seen no.1 naked?
HAHAHA NO!!!
Well, kinda funny, for some of the answers. lol.
ok whoever reads this is TAGGED!
1. The outing to Bugis was a BLAST. yes. Enjoyed myself so much! I just love Joyce, Serene and Yeeyan. =D
2. Spent 99% of the time laughing over matters concerning yy and xXx. haha. Really. I just adore PEANUT. hahaha.
3. All the spinning and ancient china houses made me laugh even more. haha.
4. Went coffee bean tt day. It was really FUNNY alright?
5. Yesterday went on a shopping spree with zuhui, yeeyan, joyce and serene!
6. OH YES. We shopped from Queensway to Ikea (don't ask y we were there cos we're not sure ourselves) Lunched at Anchorpoint.
7. The bad thing is we didn't shop for ourselves, we shopped for 3 belated birthday presents. tt's pretty sad, isn't it?
8. Had so much fun at Ikea. Created chaos. =D
9. Did I mention we got back all our papers? Oh it just seemed like nightmare to me. Goodness. don't remind me.
10.Had 2.4km run today! FINALLY it's over. PHEW.
11.Poor Joyce fell down. Must take care arh, Joyce. =)
12.Watched netball match. WOW. Our class really rocks! <3
13.I simply love this feeling when you can choose what to do. =D
ok tt's about all. was reading Yuntian's blog and was horrified.
to yuntian: HEY! I'm not dating that 'fishmonger. ah chek.' hor! hahaha. I know you and that W****** ok??? LOL!! =p
Well, was pretty bored so decided to play that game too. HEEHEE.
Name 20 ppl u can think of at the top of your head. Dun read the below questions before you write and tag 5 ppl to do this survey.
1. Serene
2. Yeeyan
3. Joyce
4. Karen
5. Zuhui
6. Angela
7. Cindy
8. Yubin
9. Jiayi
10. Pei Rong
11. Yuntian
12. Bernice
13. Zoumei
14. Raphael
15. Yi Hang
16. Siong Aik
17. Jun Liang
18. Chee Wee
19. Shon fan
20. xXx
1.How did you meet 14?
Through Karen! Last year. =)
2.What would you do if you never met 1?
My life won't be the same. I would've been more normal. HAHA.
3.What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! Well, Jiayi'll get killed.
4.Did you ever like 19?
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Goodness. I'm not weina ok?? jkjk. =)
5.Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
LOL!!! Angela and Junliang? They're totally opposites! you know wat I mean. and someone will kill someone too. *grins*
6.Describe 3.
CUTE. SWEET. ADORABLE. XIAO KE AI. LOVABLE. SUPER SMART. ok. I'll get killed tml. =D
7.Do you think 8 is attractive?
Totally. haha. Esp when the sweat glimmers in the sunlight. alright. i'm not a les. HAHA.
8.Tell me something about 7.
I love her, man. Everything about her, including her laughter! YES. I can hear it now. haha.
9.Do you know any of 12's family?
hmmm... Nicholas? HAHAHA.
10.What's 8's favourite?
ME. ok. HARRY POTTER LA. =)
11.What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?
OH MAN. I'll be killed by tons of guys outside alright?
12.What language does 15 speak?
Chinese. English. Hokkien. Malaysian (???)
13.Who is 9 going out with?
ME. HAHAHA.
14.How old is 16 now?
16!!!
15.When was the last time you talked to 13?
last week. she scolded me for teasing her. LOL.
16.Who's 2 favourite band/singer?
ME. of course. who else?
17.Would you date 4?
Of course! *winks*
18.Would you date 7?
YES! I wanna laugh everyday. =)
19.Is 15 single?
*shocked* so ZHUN? well, YES.
20.What's 10's last name?
TAN. She's called LAO CHEN. lol.
21.Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
No way. I don't wanna live in fear fearing guys chopping me up. lol.
22.What school does 3 go to?
NHHS!!
23.Where does 6 live?
where 198 leads to. =)
24.Whats your favourite thing about 5?
Her EVERYTHING!!! =)
25. Have you seen no.1 naked?
HAHAHA NO!!!
Well, kinda funny, for some of the answers. lol.
ok whoever reads this is TAGGED!
Lim Theory~*
Today, I feel enlightened.
Ok it's all bullshit. haha. just wanna share this theory. It's called the...
LIM THEORY.
ok lame.
anyway, wat is LIM THEORY all about??
Ok. here it comes... *takes a deep breath*
We go up to go down.
We go down to go up.
We die to live.
We live to die.
We wake up to sleep.
We sleep to wake up.
We smile to cry.
We cry to smile.
We walk to stop.
We stop to walk.
We feel frightened to feel assured.
We feel assured to feel frightened.
The sun rises to set.
The sun sets to rise.
Get it?
ok I doubt so.
Anyway, one classic example is a quote by Chairman xXx
"We put on our shoes to take them off. we take them off to put them on"
So, I used it to cheer myself up a little bit.
Our grades go up to come down and come down to go up.
see? haha. Don't you realize LIM THEORY is truly ingenius?
Ok. maybe not.
After a while when you look back at it, u'll get what I mean. *winks*
Ok it's all bullshit. haha. just wanna share this theory. It's called the...
LIM THEORY.
ok lame.
anyway, wat is LIM THEORY all about??
Ok. here it comes... *takes a deep breath*
We go up to go down.
We go down to go up.
We die to live.
We live to die.
We wake up to sleep.
We sleep to wake up.
We smile to cry.
We cry to smile.
We walk to stop.
We stop to walk.
We feel frightened to feel assured.
We feel assured to feel frightened.
The sun rises to set.
The sun sets to rise.
Get it?
ok I doubt so.
Anyway, one classic example is a quote by Chairman xXx
"We put on our shoes to take them off. we take them off to put them on"
So, I used it to cheer myself up a little bit.
Our grades go up to come down and come down to go up.
see? haha. Don't you realize LIM THEORY is truly ingenius?
Ok. maybe not.
After a while when you look back at it, u'll get what I mean. *winks*
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Who is Jasmine???~*
I was in a pretty good mood until I started discussing the PTC time with my parents.
Sometimes, I feel they don't understand me at all.
What they really care for is not me. not me as a human being, but me as a working machine.
Sometimes I do wonder do they even view me as a daughter?
Do they even care about my existence in this family?
Or has everything ended ever since the day they announced the divorce?
Do they ever realize I STILL have feelings?
Do they spend the effort to know me?
If something happens to me, will they care?
Other than money and a shelter and perhaps some facilities, what do they give me?
When I was sick, who cared?
It was ME, who had to take care of myself. It was ME who had to crawl out of bed to cook for myself.
When I was feeling stressed, who ever cared?
NO ONE. When I was crying to myself while studying, all they cared was that YOU BETTER STUDY EVEN HARDER. and stuff like WHY DO YOU ALWAYS GO SHOPPING?! alright. If I go shopping everyday, why am I studying at home?
When I was upset, confused and depressed, who was the one who cheered me up?
Most of the time it was my friends or cousins. When did they care? When I was upset about my piano thing, all they cared was how awful I played the pieces, why don't they ever wonder WHY.
When I touch my com once in a while, they'll start screeching at me.
They don't expect me to do anything but study and play piano. Did they even care about me?
All they cared about was themselves. Did they even spend just a minute looking at my results or just asking about how well i've done in school? Do they even know my exams are over? Do they care?
Sometimes I feel neglected.
I feel lonely.
They go out to work early in the morning and return only during evening. I hardly talk to them at all. During holidays, I spend the whole day at home, cooking my own lunch, buying my own meals etc. Since when did they ever care about whether I have enough food, I have enough money to buy lunch?
I tried very hard to accept the fact that they're divorcing.
And I also know they tried very hard to stay together till end of O'levels.
I tried very hard to see them as the parents they were before, loving them, respecting them
Did they try to love me?
I don't want money, presents, ipod, mobile phone, laptop or any other things.
All I want is love. To be able to view me as i am. to be able to see me...
One day, if I die or simply vanish, I wonder if they'll realize.
Jess: Eh? Where's Jas?
Mum: HUH? Is she even gone?
Dad: HUH?? Who is she?
Jess: The other girl in the family, dad.
Mum: OHHH... ARGH!! DAMN IT. I suddenly rmb her report card. a sea of red. TSK.
Dad: Oh. since tt's the case, it's better she's gone.
Mum: of course.
oh well. my mum won't use 'damn it' but I can't find another suitable word.
I was telling them about PTC and they were pushing responsibility around. Mum claimed she doesn't have time and Dad retorted that he doesn't have time as well. I have no idea what to say. And finally, Mum relented and decided to go. Dad found a lame excuse to cover up for it...
alright. enough of ranting.
got back Chem, HMT and E Math.
My E math's the worst out of the 3. It's expected...
I originally planned to blog a happy entry about my trip to Bugis with serene, yeeyan and Joyce but in the end I have 0 mood to blog about it. Maybe next time.
I'm feeling so sad, I can't even laugh about the XXX and yeeyan incident...
Sometimes, I feel they don't understand me at all.
What they really care for is not me. not me as a human being, but me as a working machine.
Sometimes I do wonder do they even view me as a daughter?
Do they even care about my existence in this family?
Or has everything ended ever since the day they announced the divorce?
Do they ever realize I STILL have feelings?
Do they spend the effort to know me?
If something happens to me, will they care?
Other than money and a shelter and perhaps some facilities, what do they give me?
When I was sick, who cared?
It was ME, who had to take care of myself. It was ME who had to crawl out of bed to cook for myself.
When I was feeling stressed, who ever cared?
NO ONE. When I was crying to myself while studying, all they cared was that YOU BETTER STUDY EVEN HARDER. and stuff like WHY DO YOU ALWAYS GO SHOPPING?! alright. If I go shopping everyday, why am I studying at home?
When I was upset, confused and depressed, who was the one who cheered me up?
Most of the time it was my friends or cousins. When did they care? When I was upset about my piano thing, all they cared was how awful I played the pieces, why don't they ever wonder WHY.
When I touch my com once in a while, they'll start screeching at me.
They don't expect me to do anything but study and play piano. Did they even care about me?
All they cared about was themselves. Did they even spend just a minute looking at my results or just asking about how well i've done in school? Do they even know my exams are over? Do they care?
Sometimes I feel neglected.
I feel lonely.
They go out to work early in the morning and return only during evening. I hardly talk to them at all. During holidays, I spend the whole day at home, cooking my own lunch, buying my own meals etc. Since when did they ever care about whether I have enough food, I have enough money to buy lunch?
I tried very hard to accept the fact that they're divorcing.
And I also know they tried very hard to stay together till end of O'levels.
I tried very hard to see them as the parents they were before, loving them, respecting them
Did they try to love me?
I don't want money, presents, ipod, mobile phone, laptop or any other things.
All I want is love. To be able to view me as i am. to be able to see me...
One day, if I die or simply vanish, I wonder if they'll realize.
Jess: Eh? Where's Jas?
Mum: HUH? Is she even gone?
Dad: HUH?? Who is she?
Jess: The other girl in the family, dad.
Mum: OHHH... ARGH!! DAMN IT. I suddenly rmb her report card. a sea of red. TSK.
Dad: Oh. since tt's the case, it's better she's gone.
Mum: of course.
oh well. my mum won't use 'damn it' but I can't find another suitable word.
I was telling them about PTC and they were pushing responsibility around. Mum claimed she doesn't have time and Dad retorted that he doesn't have time as well. I have no idea what to say. And finally, Mum relented and decided to go. Dad found a lame excuse to cover up for it...
alright. enough of ranting.
got back Chem, HMT and E Math.
My E math's the worst out of the 3. It's expected...
I originally planned to blog a happy entry about my trip to Bugis with serene, yeeyan and Joyce but in the end I have 0 mood to blog about it. Maybe next time.
I'm feeling so sad, I can't even laugh about the XXX and yeeyan incident...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Flying~*
Once upon a time there was a little boy who was raised in a orphanage.
The little boy had always wished that he could fly like a bird. It was very difficult for him to understand why he could not fly. There were birds at the zoo that were much bigger than he, and they could fly.
"Why can't I?" he thought. "Is there something wrong with me?" he wondered.
There was another little boy who was crippled. He had always wished that he could walk and run like other little boys and girls.
"Why can't I be like them?" he thought.
One day the little orphan boy who had wanted to fly like a bird ran away from the orphanage. He came upon a park where he saw the little boy who could not walk or run playing in the sandbox.
He ran over to the little boy and asked him if he had ever wanted to fly like a bird.
"No," said the little boy who could not walk or run. "But I have wondered what it would be like to walk and run like other boys and girls."
"That is very sad." said the little boy who wanted to fly. "Do you think we could be friends?" he said to the little boy in the sandbox.
"Sure." said the little boy.
The two little boys played for hours. They made sand castles and made really funny sounds with their mouths. Sounds which made them laugh real hard. Then the little boy's father came with a wheelchair to pick up his son. The little boy who had always wanted to fly ran over to the boy's father and whispered something into his ear.
"That would be OK," said the man.
The little boy who had always wanted to fly like a bird ran over to his new friend and said, "You are my only friend and I wish that there was something that I could do to make you walk and run like other little boys and girls. But I can't. But there is something that I can do for you."
The little orphan boy turned around and told his new friend to slide up onto his back. He then began to run across the grass. Faster and faster he ran, carrying the little crippled boy on his back. Faster and harder he ran across the park. Harder and harder he made his legs travel. Soon the wind just whistled across the two little boys' faces.
The little boy's father began to cry as he watched his beautiful little crippled son flapping his arms up and down in the wind, all the while yelling at the top of his voice,
"I'M FLYING, DADDY. I'M FLYING!"
The little boy had always wished that he could fly like a bird. It was very difficult for him to understand why he could not fly. There were birds at the zoo that were much bigger than he, and they could fly.
"Why can't I?" he thought. "Is there something wrong with me?" he wondered.
There was another little boy who was crippled. He had always wished that he could walk and run like other little boys and girls.
"Why can't I be like them?" he thought.
One day the little orphan boy who had wanted to fly like a bird ran away from the orphanage. He came upon a park where he saw the little boy who could not walk or run playing in the sandbox.
He ran over to the little boy and asked him if he had ever wanted to fly like a bird.
"No," said the little boy who could not walk or run. "But I have wondered what it would be like to walk and run like other boys and girls."
"That is very sad." said the little boy who wanted to fly. "Do you think we could be friends?" he said to the little boy in the sandbox.
"Sure." said the little boy.
The two little boys played for hours. They made sand castles and made really funny sounds with their mouths. Sounds which made them laugh real hard. Then the little boy's father came with a wheelchair to pick up his son. The little boy who had always wanted to fly ran over to the boy's father and whispered something into his ear.
"That would be OK," said the man.
The little boy who had always wanted to fly like a bird ran over to his new friend and said, "You are my only friend and I wish that there was something that I could do to make you walk and run like other little boys and girls. But I can't. But there is something that I can do for you."
The little orphan boy turned around and told his new friend to slide up onto his back. He then began to run across the grass. Faster and faster he ran, carrying the little crippled boy on his back. Faster and harder he ran across the park. Harder and harder he made his legs travel. Soon the wind just whistled across the two little boys' faces.
The little boy's father began to cry as he watched his beautiful little crippled son flapping his arms up and down in the wind, all the while yelling at the top of his voice,
"I'M FLYING, DADDY. I'M FLYING!"
One last paper to go!!!~*
HUH. Lucify's out?!
NO WAY MAN.
ok, my sister's gonna be pretty upset about it, since her fren's inside the band.
OH WELL.
Anyway,
YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ONE MORE DAY to the end of exams!
It has been 3 horrible weeks of exams.
I really need to spend more time on other stuff other than book-related stuff.
All the Physics formulae, A and E MATH formulae, Geog and Hist and SS facts, Chem equations and horrible composition (both lang) topics are enough to KILL.
I think I must have lost (n)kg of weight over the last few weeks, serious.
My mum commented yesterday that I look GHASTLY and PALE.
SEE?
well, whatever it is, it's going to be over in a days' time.
*celebrates*
ONE LAST PHYSICS PAPER 1 TO GO!!!
Actually, I feel this exam has dragged on WAY TOO LOOOOONG.
People are dying of intense stress, dying from restlessness, dying of lack of sleep and having itchy fingers, eager to touch the com for just ONE SEC.
And I have some GOOD FRIEND who just loves to GEK me. yes.
WC: YESSS!!! I'm going to Perth on Saturday! It's a one week camp. (last sat)
Jas: I still have exams till next wed... (this wed)
WC: So whatcha want, my dear? =D hehe I'm in the mood. Sry to dampen your spirits though. =D
Jas: DAMN. just SHUT UP. Life's unfair.
WC: haha im on my way to changi le... LOL. happy studying!!! =D
well, I deleted some unneccessary parts of the smses and only typed out the GEK-ing parts.
Life's unfair. Period.
After exams, we still have to go through a few torturous days due to the releasing of results. *groans*
Yes, I know I've done badly... yea.
Whatever it is, I'm going to ENJOY myself till next mon (I guess they'll only release results on mon) =)
I was staring at the calendar this morning and suddenly had a horrible realization.
It's only...4 months to PRELIMS??? and 5 months to O'LVL??? ONLY??????????????
MY GOOOOOOOOOODNESS.
I'm so So SO DEAD.
*grabs someone to strangle*
alright. meanwhile, I'll try not to think about it.
Let's talk about something happier.
err... piano? LOL.
ok my tcher taught me this really nice thing.
Ok. you just grab a piano and play the following chords: C Aminor F G C
and your right hand just play anything you like, you get a really nice tune!
It's like a background music for some kinda songs
and I tried and realized TONG HUA has starts on these chords, Think Of Me by Namie also starts on this and unchained melody (I forgot the title) starts like this too.
Cool eh?
Right now my teacher's teaching me some Jazz piece.
I love it, but it's really tough so ya.. gotta practise more.
I'm gonna have to go and study for my very last paper in the evening.
I'm such a slacker.
nvm, I like being one. haha.
alright. for all the poor peeps studyin for exams still,
goooood luck! =) ONE LAST PAPER TO GOOOO!!!!!!!
NO WAY MAN.
ok, my sister's gonna be pretty upset about it, since her fren's inside the band.
OH WELL.
Anyway,
YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ONE MORE DAY to the end of exams!
It has been 3 horrible weeks of exams.
I really need to spend more time on other stuff other than book-related stuff.
All the Physics formulae, A and E MATH formulae, Geog and Hist and SS facts, Chem equations and horrible composition (both lang) topics are enough to KILL.
I think I must have lost (n)kg of weight over the last few weeks, serious.
My mum commented yesterday that I look GHASTLY and PALE.
SEE?
well, whatever it is, it's going to be over in a days' time.
*celebrates*
ONE LAST PHYSICS PAPER 1 TO GO!!!
Actually, I feel this exam has dragged on WAY TOO LOOOOONG.
People are dying of intense stress, dying from restlessness, dying of lack of sleep and having itchy fingers, eager to touch the com for just ONE SEC.
And I have some GOOD FRIEND who just loves to GEK me. yes.
WC: YESSS!!! I'm going to Perth on Saturday! It's a one week camp. (last sat)
Jas: I still have exams till next wed... (this wed)
WC: So whatcha want, my dear? =D hehe I'm in the mood. Sry to dampen your spirits though. =D
Jas: DAMN. just SHUT UP. Life's unfair.
WC: haha im on my way to changi le... LOL. happy studying!!! =D
well, I deleted some unneccessary parts of the smses and only typed out the GEK-ing parts.
Life's unfair. Period.
After exams, we still have to go through a few torturous days due to the releasing of results. *groans*
Yes, I know I've done badly... yea.
Whatever it is, I'm going to ENJOY myself till next mon (I guess they'll only release results on mon) =)
I was staring at the calendar this morning and suddenly had a horrible realization.
It's only...4 months to PRELIMS??? and 5 months to O'LVL??? ONLY??????????????
MY GOOOOOOOOOODNESS.
I'm so So SO DEAD.
*grabs someone to strangle*
alright. meanwhile, I'll try not to think about it.
Let's talk about something happier.
err... piano? LOL.
ok my tcher taught me this really nice thing.
Ok. you just grab a piano and play the following chords: C Aminor F G C
and your right hand just play anything you like, you get a really nice tune!
It's like a background music for some kinda songs
and I tried and realized TONG HUA has starts on these chords, Think Of Me by Namie also starts on this and unchained melody (I forgot the title) starts like this too.
Cool eh?
Right now my teacher's teaching me some Jazz piece.
I love it, but it's really tough so ya.. gotta practise more.
I'm gonna have to go and study for my very last paper in the evening.
I'm such a slacker.
nvm, I like being one. haha.
alright. for all the poor peeps studyin for exams still,
goooood luck! =) ONE LAST PAPER TO GOOOO!!!!!!!
Monday, May 15, 2006
No way out~*
I feel my personality rotting...
My character corroding...
I'm not sure what's wrong with me but...
I feel so screwed up.
I'm a total mess.
With mixed emotions.
Yes, I HATE myself...
Things are going all wrong.
Why is it that we can't choose the path we wanna take?
The life we wanna have?
Why must I keep hurting the things around me?
Why does my life suck so much?
I'm total crap.
Whatever it is, I feel I owe too many ppl too much.
They've all been so nice to me.
Every single one of them.
But I just... I feel so... so bad.
Criminal
As your silence remains longer
I feel as if I heard your voiceless cry
And my heart would break
Why am I so powerless and stupid?
I can't even protect the hand I surely held
I don't ask you to forgive me some day
If you are fighting alone now
That's the definite sign for me
You wished to be strong so much
That you hid something with tears just for me
* You see? We will get to that place some day
I want to show you a superb view
That's the sign for tomorrow, our future
* (repeat)
My character corroding...
I'm not sure what's wrong with me but...
I feel so screwed up.
I'm a total mess.
With mixed emotions.
Yes, I HATE myself...
Things are going all wrong.
Why is it that we can't choose the path we wanna take?
The life we wanna have?
Why must I keep hurting the things around me?
Why does my life suck so much?
I'm total crap.
Whatever it is, I feel I owe too many ppl too much.
They've all been so nice to me.
Every single one of them.
But I just... I feel so... so bad.
Criminal
As your silence remains longer
I feel as if I heard your voiceless cry
And my heart would break
Why am I so powerless and stupid?
I can't even protect the hand I surely held
I don't ask you to forgive me some day
If you are fighting alone now
That's the definite sign for me
You wished to be strong so much
That you hid something with tears just for me
* You see? We will get to that place some day
I want to show you a superb view
That's the sign for tomorrow, our future
* (repeat)
Saturday, May 13, 2006
They're all right~*
perhaps they're right.
perhaps all of them are right.
I'm just another irresponsible owner who treats Milo like shit.
I'm just another BO CHAP and SUPER LAZY person who treats Milo like a toy.
Yes I've failed as a petowner.
And I'm sorry about it.
perhaps all of them are right.
I'm just another irresponsible owner who treats Milo like shit.
I'm just another BO CHAP and SUPER LAZY person who treats Milo like a toy.
Yes I've failed as a petowner.
And I'm sorry about it.
A nightmarish week~*
Ok. I'm addicted to BoA's 'Nanairo no ashita ~brand new beat~'
It's a really good song which can make you jump out of your chair and hops around.
ok, mayb it only applies to me. hahaha.
Well, at least it made me feel much better during the horrible exam period. haix.
one and a half week of exams are over and I still have THREE MORE DAYS of exams.
Ya. I wonder what's wrong with the arrangement of papers.
It seems to make Mid-yr exam extra long and draggy.
For the past few yrs, mid-yr exam was bearable, considering it only lasted for at most one week and 2 days.
Now, exams last for 2 weeks at least. (excluding practical exams)
HAIX. A NIGHTMARE.
I still have History Paper 1, A Math Paper 2, Chem Paper 1 and Physics Paper 2
*DIES*
ok, ppl out there, I WISHED history paper 1 was MCQ or short ans question or map reading.
but, unfortunately, it's not. It's SEQ and SBQ!
And we, the POOR PURE HIST students, have to study from chapter 3 to 10! WOW.
I felt really bad last night.
Life's really unfair.
The geog and lit students seem exceptionally relaxed and we seem so stressed up.
someone please kill me.
Alright, enough of depressing issues.
My sister and I played Tales of Phantasia last night.
Played till... 12 midnight? LOL.
ok before tt we were watching TERMINATOR 3. WAHAHA.
And my sister treated us all to Pizza Hut. =D
heehee. Actually, it's an early Mothers' Day celebration, since I'll probably die studying by then.
Yes, I accept your condolences. =)
Anw, my sister FINALLY bought this pair of new speakers.
I LOVE THEM.
Music never sounded THIS good before.
haha. ok mayb it's just me. =P
That day my sister told me smthg really interesting.
Jess(my sister): Hey, you know smth?
Jas: what?
Jess: Why do ppl help one another?
Jas: huh?
Jess: It's to help themselves.
Jas: ... true.
Jess: So, actually everyone helps one another to help themselves. They do everything for the sake of themselves.
SO true.
Human beings are really really ugly.
Ok, anyway, I'm currently addicted to a show 'Supernatural'
Heard of it b4?
It's shown on AXN channel every thurday night.
Please watch it cos it's really nice!
And the main characters are really good looking as well.
Well, it's pretty scary la.
Summary:
Supernatural stars Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki as Dean and Sam Winchester, two brothers who travel the country looking for their missing father and battling evil spirits along the way.
I've watched 2 episodes. They ran into 'Lady in White' and an Indian beast known as the Wendigo.
It's really a good show.
Anyway, Jensen Ackles's really good looking.
Half the time my sister's scrutinizing him instead of watching the show.
Yes, despite the fact tt she has a BOYFRIEND. haha.
I shall post a few pics of him. =)
For peeps still having exams, JIAYOU!!! =D
Good luck and all the best! =)
It's a really good song which can make you jump out of your chair and hops around.
ok, mayb it only applies to me. hahaha.
Well, at least it made me feel much better during the horrible exam period. haix.
one and a half week of exams are over and I still have THREE MORE DAYS of exams.
Ya. I wonder what's wrong with the arrangement of papers.
It seems to make Mid-yr exam extra long and draggy.
For the past few yrs, mid-yr exam was bearable, considering it only lasted for at most one week and 2 days.
Now, exams last for 2 weeks at least. (excluding practical exams)
HAIX. A NIGHTMARE.
I still have History Paper 1, A Math Paper 2, Chem Paper 1 and Physics Paper 2
*DIES*
ok, ppl out there, I WISHED history paper 1 was MCQ or short ans question or map reading.
but, unfortunately, it's not. It's SEQ and SBQ!
And we, the POOR PURE HIST students, have to study from chapter 3 to 10! WOW.
I felt really bad last night.
Life's really unfair.
The geog and lit students seem exceptionally relaxed and we seem so stressed up.
someone please kill me.
Alright, enough of depressing issues.
My sister and I played Tales of Phantasia last night.
Played till... 12 midnight? LOL.
ok before tt we were watching TERMINATOR 3. WAHAHA.
And my sister treated us all to Pizza Hut. =D
heehee. Actually, it's an early Mothers' Day celebration, since I'll probably die studying by then.
Yes, I accept your condolences. =)
Anw, my sister FINALLY bought this pair of new speakers.
I LOVE THEM.
Music never sounded THIS good before.
haha. ok mayb it's just me. =P
That day my sister told me smthg really interesting.
Jess(my sister): Hey, you know smth?
Jas: what?
Jess: Why do ppl help one another?
Jas: huh?
Jess: It's to help themselves.
Jas: ... true.
Jess: So, actually everyone helps one another to help themselves. They do everything for the sake of themselves.
SO true.
Human beings are really really ugly.
Ok, anyway, I'm currently addicted to a show 'Supernatural'
Heard of it b4?
It's shown on AXN channel every thurday night.
Please watch it cos it's really nice!
And the main characters are really good looking as well.
Well, it's pretty scary la.
Summary:
Supernatural stars Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki as Dean and Sam Winchester, two brothers who travel the country looking for their missing father and battling evil spirits along the way.
I've watched 2 episodes. They ran into 'Lady in White' and an Indian beast known as the Wendigo.
It's really a good show.
Anyway, Jensen Ackles's really good looking.
Half the time my sister's scrutinizing him instead of watching the show.
Yes, despite the fact tt she has a BOYFRIEND. haha.
I shall post a few pics of him. =)
For peeps still having exams, JIAYOU!!! =D
Good luck and all the best! =)
Saturday, May 06, 2006
New layout!~*
Hey! I genuinely didn't know KAREN changed my layout till I came and look.
I got the shock of my life.
WOW.
haha. GREEN with AYUMI everywhere. goodness. everyone must tink I'm AYU-OBSESSED.
Nevermind, cos I really am. lol.
THANKS KAREN FOR THIS WONDERFUL LAYOUT!!!
Well, I had to caps since I can't shout to you. lol. anyway, it's really gorgeous. =D
Btw, I tink I'm probably the SLACKEST human being in this universe.
Next week is a whole week filled with exams.
Which means, I have only SUNDAY left to study. How many hours do I have left?
QUICK! do the math.
Anw, Milo's gettin a lot better.
Maybe cos everyone in my family is fussing over her.
It really makes me feel SOOO MUCH relieved. =)
The past few days was hell to me. Filled with such intense anxiety, worry, sadness and depression. haix.
Well, but I'm still pretty angry at some ppl though.
nevermind.
I'm PROUD of my flaws, sorry to say.
So you guys can go ahead and criticize all you want and I'm not gonna give a shit.
oops. guess I sound pretty vulgar.
ok. anyway, I see a bleak future in me.
oh well.
Admiring my new layout makes me feel like announcing to everyone
AYUMI'S RELEASING A NEW SINGLE 'BEAUTIFUL FIGHTERS' in June.
yup yup. smth to look forward to, I guess.
Heard 30secs of it. Didn't sound too bad.
Sounds like another GIRL-POWER song.
Just like her 'My name's WOMAN', 'Alterna' (though it's nt really a girl-power song, just another song about freedom) and 'Ladies Night'.
Rumors say 'beautiful fighters' come together with 'Ladies Night ~another night' which is a remix of Ladies Night, one of my fav songs. =) Good good.
Btw,
*~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~*
No matter how many '!' I type won't tell you how much I wanna shout it out loud.
cos you're the LIGHT OF MY LIFE. <3
Hey, you've been a wonderful buddy! =D
Take care and all the best!
Enjoy your birthday! =)
You can watch NC-16 shows now. HEEHEE.
Anw,
Special thanks to:
1. KAREN. yes. u've been WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks so much girl, for being there for me when I'm upset about milo. =) really thank you!!! and the layout! I love it. you rock girl! (just a little more than me. ahh. just kidding. lol.)
2. SERENE. THANKS! thanks so much for cheering me up when I was upset. =D really means a lot to me. haha. anw, congrats about ur BROTHER'S GF! lol. anw, really thank you. u made me a lot happier. =D
3. YEEYAN. thanks for the msg altho i noe u dun mean it. LOL!!! anw, ya I understand about ur hamster. oh well. Life sucks. I'm sure chairman toh will make a good husband. HAAHAAHAA!!!!!
4. JOYCE. haha thanks for lame-ing with me to make me feel happy. I noe I'm too lame but hey, you're always there to cheer me up with your stupid 'FLOWER TONGUE'. hahaha.
5. ZUHUI. thanks for ur encouraging entry! =D really. I will jiayou and pray hard for milo de. you must jiayou for mid-yr exams too. =) take care lots. all the very best! =D
6. SIONG AIK. thanks for msgin me about milo too. =) really. thanks for the care and concern you gave. haha. =)
7. RAPHAEL. thanks for the encouraging words. =) yea. really, i hope everything will be alright for her. you too. haha. =)
8. 4o8 girls! =) you girls are such a wonderful bunch of ppl. =D
9. EVERYONE ELSE!!! thanks for everything! you guys (no matter who you are) rock! haha.
Ok. anw, polling results are out.
I shall be POLITICALLY SENSITIVE and aware.
ok I shall go take a look. =)
I got the shock of my life.
WOW.
haha. GREEN with AYUMI everywhere. goodness. everyone must tink I'm AYU-OBSESSED.
Nevermind, cos I really am. lol.
THANKS KAREN FOR THIS WONDERFUL LAYOUT!!!
Well, I had to caps since I can't shout to you. lol. anyway, it's really gorgeous. =D
Btw, I tink I'm probably the SLACKEST human being in this universe.
Next week is a whole week filled with exams.
Which means, I have only SUNDAY left to study. How many hours do I have left?
QUICK! do the math.
Anw, Milo's gettin a lot better.
Maybe cos everyone in my family is fussing over her.
It really makes me feel SOOO MUCH relieved. =)
The past few days was hell to me. Filled with such intense anxiety, worry, sadness and depression. haix.
Well, but I'm still pretty angry at some ppl though.
nevermind.
I'm PROUD of my flaws, sorry to say.
So you guys can go ahead and criticize all you want and I'm not gonna give a shit.
oops. guess I sound pretty vulgar.
ok. anyway, I see a bleak future in me.
oh well.
Admiring my new layout makes me feel like announcing to everyone
AYUMI'S RELEASING A NEW SINGLE 'BEAUTIFUL FIGHTERS' in June.
yup yup. smth to look forward to, I guess.
Heard 30secs of it. Didn't sound too bad.
Sounds like another GIRL-POWER song.
Just like her 'My name's WOMAN', 'Alterna' (though it's nt really a girl-power song, just another song about freedom) and 'Ladies Night'.
Rumors say 'beautiful fighters' come together with 'Ladies Night ~another night' which is a remix of Ladies Night, one of my fav songs. =) Good good.
Btw,
*~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~*
No matter how many '!' I type won't tell you how much I wanna shout it out loud.
cos you're the LIGHT OF MY LIFE. <3
Hey, you've been a wonderful buddy! =D
Take care and all the best!
Enjoy your birthday! =)
You can watch NC-16 shows now. HEEHEE.
Anw,
Special thanks to:
1. KAREN. yes. u've been WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks so much girl, for being there for me when I'm upset about milo. =) really thank you!!! and the layout! I love it. you rock girl! (just a little more than me. ahh. just kidding. lol.)
2. SERENE. THANKS! thanks so much for cheering me up when I was upset. =D really means a lot to me. haha. anw, congrats about ur BROTHER'S GF! lol. anw, really thank you. u made me a lot happier. =D
3. YEEYAN. thanks for the msg altho i noe u dun mean it. LOL!!! anw, ya I understand about ur hamster. oh well. Life sucks. I'm sure chairman toh will make a good husband. HAAHAAHAA!!!!!
4. JOYCE. haha thanks for lame-ing with me to make me feel happy. I noe I'm too lame but hey, you're always there to cheer me up with your stupid 'FLOWER TONGUE'. hahaha.
5. ZUHUI. thanks for ur encouraging entry! =D really. I will jiayou and pray hard for milo de. you must jiayou for mid-yr exams too. =) take care lots. all the very best! =D
6. SIONG AIK. thanks for msgin me about milo too. =) really. thanks for the care and concern you gave. haha. =)
7. RAPHAEL. thanks for the encouraging words. =) yea. really, i hope everything will be alright for her. you too. haha. =)
8. 4o8 girls! =) you girls are such a wonderful bunch of ppl. =D
9. EVERYONE ELSE!!! thanks for everything! you guys (no matter who you are) rock! haha.
Ok. anw, polling results are out.
I shall be POLITICALLY SENSITIVE and aware.
ok I shall go take a look. =)
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Help her...~*
Damn.
I'm crying right now.
the reason? I'm so worried for Milo... She's getting thinner each day... I don't know what to do.
She's reduced to skin and bones...
I was busy searching all websites about guinea pig health care, common diseases, vets in Singapore.
I've pounded her pellets to powder yet she still refused to eat.
I've added vitamin C into her water but she hardly touches it.
She only drinks when I hand-feed her with the water bottle...
She still eats a little vegetables but...
She squeaks and her squeaks just make me feel worse. Heartaching.
I just can't bear to see her like this.
The pain is smthg you guys might not be able to understand...
Milo has become more than just a pet...
Please...
I'm really helpless right now.
I'm crying right now.
the reason? I'm so worried for Milo... She's getting thinner each day... I don't know what to do.
She's reduced to skin and bones...
I was busy searching all websites about guinea pig health care, common diseases, vets in Singapore.
I've pounded her pellets to powder yet she still refused to eat.
I've added vitamin C into her water but she hardly touches it.
She only drinks when I hand-feed her with the water bottle...
She still eats a little vegetables but...
She squeaks and her squeaks just make me feel worse. Heartaching.
I just can't bear to see her like this.
The pain is smthg you guys might not be able to understand...
Milo has become more than just a pet...
Please...
I'm really helpless right now.
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