ohh ya! I almost forgot... I have some very inspirational quotes from furuba (fruits basket) to share with everyone! It's just a little meaningful little gift for the new year! =D
"Mingling with people, hurting them, getting hurt by them... That's how you learn about others...and about yourself. If you don't, you'll never be able to care about anyone but yourself."
Shigure, chapter 3
"Mom told me...it's better to trust people than to doubt them. When we're born, all we have are...selfish instincts... Kindness is something that grows inside of each person's body...but it's up to us to nurture that kindness in our hearts..."
Tohru, chapter 4
"...In your case...it would be okay...to complain... Be selfish... Say what you want...once in a while. It's okay...to let yourself be sad."
Kyou, chapter 6
"Kyou-kun's heart is very delicate...just like Yuki-kun's. It's as though it will break if I touch it. They hold onto pain, suffering, anxiety... I hope I can wipe that all away...like they did for me. Because I want both of them...to be happy."
Tohru, chapter 15
"A warm place... A warm person. It exists... I know it does."
Yuki, chapter 20
"There are times...we want to run away. But we're learning to cope... All of us."
Tohru, chapter 35
"...There might not be anyone who was born with a reason...to exist. I think everyone might have to find it for themselves...and decide it for themselves... The reason you're living might be vague, unclear...and uncertain, but as long as you're alive...you have to keep searching for that reason."
Tohru, chapter 45
ok tt's about all. =) I find the quotes very touching... sometimes I do use some quotes in my previous entries about the meaning in life etc... there're quotes by kyou! =) haha.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Friday, December 30, 2005
Happy New Year!~*
I'll be heading for chalet in the afternoon. =) so this is the last entry in year 2005. hmmm... one more day and that's it. End of the year. But then again, it will just be like any other day. Don't you sometimes feel that year 2005 seemed like it didnt exist? well, I felt this way. haha.
An end to a year. A new beginning.
This year was probably the most rotten year in my life. Both my grandmothers passed away, which means I have no grandparent left... My parents are going to divorce after my o'levels... there had been more sad incidents happening to me than good things... going to hospital due to bacteria infection... oh well.
no matter how painful the memories are, they are the ones that mould you into the person you are today... The painful memories will only make you stronger in future. Cos if you live a life without downs, you will just take every 'up' for granted. Sometimes when I walk on the streets, I see happy families laughing together, eating together and playing together... I may not have a complete family like most of you out there, but I will not hide the fact that I will not have either parent when I grow up. Just like wat Ayu sang in 'Winding Road', no matter how muddy, how winding the road in front of me is, and no matter how awful are the footprints left behind me, I will still continue walking on this road, bcos it's mine.
I wish everyone out there can face life with strength.
I lost a lot in this year.
But I learnt a lot in this year.
I lose some, I gain some.
I learnt that I have to cherish the things around me. Bcos I did say that in the past, but I had not done anything. It was just plain speaking. No action. Therefore, I lost a lot. So, I hope in the next year, I can REALLY cherish every second of my life spent with others, especially with my family...
You guys are truly lucky. =)
To be able to see, listen, talk, laugh, cry, walk, run, play, jump, love is enough. I don't want much. Bcos if I want too much, I'll lose too much.
haha.
one yr ago I spent my new yr watching gackt and ayu video. one yr later, I'm spending my new yr at the chalet... hahaha... oh nvm. I'll ayu concert VCDs along. =D
Anyway, I had the weirdest dream in my life last night... I realized I learnt a lot a lot from my dream... about the defination of kindness...
Oh oh! I finally got hold of 'Fruits Basket book 18'. Kyo had lyk... 5 lines the most? URGH. and tohru had like... 9 lines the most? haix... but nvm la. haha. it's another inspirational story. Another super touching book... =)
anyway, this is for anime lovers
http://www.animenfo.com/statistic/top.php?type=anime The top 200 anime series.
ooooh. Kimi ga nozomu eien is ranked 1st! congrats! and tt's a really deep anime. =)
Fruit Basket is ranked 9th. not bad not bad. haha.
to my cousins (how can I forget about them???)
Hey guys!! thanks guys sooooooooooo much! haha. thanks for all the happy times! and still rmb when we joked about yi liang washing his feet? haha. and weilong's hair? lolx.. haha. really wish to hang out one day when everyone's free. =) haha. alrite, see ya on 1st!
okiez.. so to everyone out there:
*~Happy New Year~!~*
may year 2006 be one filled with happiness and best of luck! =D
An end to a year. A new beginning.
This year was probably the most rotten year in my life. Both my grandmothers passed away, which means I have no grandparent left... My parents are going to divorce after my o'levels... there had been more sad incidents happening to me than good things... going to hospital due to bacteria infection... oh well.
no matter how painful the memories are, they are the ones that mould you into the person you are today... The painful memories will only make you stronger in future. Cos if you live a life without downs, you will just take every 'up' for granted. Sometimes when I walk on the streets, I see happy families laughing together, eating together and playing together... I may not have a complete family like most of you out there, but I will not hide the fact that I will not have either parent when I grow up. Just like wat Ayu sang in 'Winding Road', no matter how muddy, how winding the road in front of me is, and no matter how awful are the footprints left behind me, I will still continue walking on this road, bcos it's mine.
I wish everyone out there can face life with strength.
I lost a lot in this year.
But I learnt a lot in this year.
I lose some, I gain some.
I learnt that I have to cherish the things around me. Bcos I did say that in the past, but I had not done anything. It was just plain speaking. No action. Therefore, I lost a lot. So, I hope in the next year, I can REALLY cherish every second of my life spent with others, especially with my family...
You guys are truly lucky. =)
To be able to see, listen, talk, laugh, cry, walk, run, play, jump, love is enough. I don't want much. Bcos if I want too much, I'll lose too much.
haha.
one yr ago I spent my new yr watching gackt and ayu video. one yr later, I'm spending my new yr at the chalet... hahaha... oh nvm. I'll ayu concert VCDs along. =D
Anyway, I had the weirdest dream in my life last night... I realized I learnt a lot a lot from my dream... about the defination of kindness...
Oh oh! I finally got hold of 'Fruits Basket book 18'. Kyo had lyk... 5 lines the most? URGH. and tohru had like... 9 lines the most? haix... but nvm la. haha. it's another inspirational story. Another super touching book... =)
anyway, this is for anime lovers
http://www.animenfo.com/statistic/top.php?type=anime The top 200 anime series.
ooooh. Kimi ga nozomu eien is ranked 1st! congrats! and tt's a really deep anime. =)
Fruit Basket is ranked 9th. not bad not bad. haha.
to my cousins (how can I forget about them???)
Hey guys!! thanks guys sooooooooooo much! haha. thanks for all the happy times! and still rmb when we joked about yi liang washing his feet? haha. and weilong's hair? lolx.. haha. really wish to hang out one day when everyone's free. =) haha. alrite, see ya on 1st!
okiez.. so to everyone out there:
*~Happy New Year~!~*
may year 2006 be one filled with happiness and best of luck! =D
For Fruits Basket~*
Lyrics
Title: For Fruits Basket (the song u're listening to now)
I was so happy, you were laughing
With a smile that melts everything away
Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth,
Waiting for the time to sprout
For instance, even if today is painful
And yesterday's wounds remain
I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on
I cannot be reborn
But I can change as I go on, so
Let's stay together always
Smile only at me and touch me with those fingers
This simple desire is everlasting
I want things to be simple
Let's finally get across this sea of mournful sorrow
For instance, even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you leave everything up to your heart
I understand the meaning our living here
It is to know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always
For instance, even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you leave everything up to your heart
I understand the meaning our living here
It is to know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always
The lyrics are so moving... It makes me wanna cry whenever I listen to the song while readin the lyrics... and somemore it's for fruit basket, it reminds of the various stories of Fruit Basket... be it Kyou's, Hatori's, Yuki's, Kisa's, Momiji's stories.. even tohru's... I realized I learnt alot from the animes and comics...
Title: For Fruits Basket (the song u're listening to now)
I was so happy, you were laughing
With a smile that melts everything away
Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth,
Waiting for the time to sprout
For instance, even if today is painful
And yesterday's wounds remain
I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on
I cannot be reborn
But I can change as I go on, so
Let's stay together always
Smile only at me and touch me with those fingers
This simple desire is everlasting
I want things to be simple
Let's finally get across this sea of mournful sorrow
For instance, even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you leave everything up to your heart
I understand the meaning our living here
It is to know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always
For instance, even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you leave everything up to your heart
I understand the meaning our living here
It is to know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always
The lyrics are so moving... It makes me wanna cry whenever I listen to the song while readin the lyrics... and somemore it's for fruit basket, it reminds of the various stories of Fruit Basket... be it Kyou's, Hatori's, Yuki's, Kisa's, Momiji's stories.. even tohru's... I realized I learnt alot from the animes and comics...
Messages to everyone I love~*
Grrr.. what's wrong with friendster? can anyone tell me? I got so freaking frustrated trying to approve testimonials and they still can't be approved. URGH. tried to write testimonials but still cant show that page. haix... It was like that yesterday and today there is nt much progress... damn #@$@#%#$%^@^$%$%^$%*%^~@!$!!!
Today's gonna be the last day I post before going to chalet, unless miraculously I can use the com... perhaps. haha. After using com, I'll be busy packing up my stuff alr... I was very worried about Milo aka Hakuryuu initially but cos my mum n dad wont b going to the chalet at all, I can finally entrust my mum with the very important job of feeding, changing water and giving milo exercises. =)
I'll be going out alone to pay for the house installment or watever it is. My dad asked me to help him go to the housing board or watever place it is, in the building nxt to lot 1 to pay for it... =( anyone went there b4? I have completely no idea what to do there, which counter to go to... haix... If not for thr $25 ... OOPS. lolx. Will be going library to return books as well.
I have to complete all my unfinished business b4 going off to chalet. .... how come I sound lyk I'm dying or smthg? lolx.. but it's true.. cos I'll only be back on 1st Jan and immediately after that I guess I'll be going to my family gathering. yawns... I'll be so tired la..
Wateva it is, most probably I'll be counting down with ivan alr. lolx. cos my sister's frens might be heading to esplanade after bbq. but it's obvious I cant hang around her frens. lolx. it'll be weird... yea... none of my frens can stay on 31st.. yea... so the only person left is ivan. haha. he's nice la. really.
Fruit Basket book 18 chuangyi version still not out yet?! $@#$@%#$^#%*!!! haix...
This entry is lyk to sum up wat I've done so far.. lolx... so ya..There'll be messages left for various ppl who left impact in my life. I'll be writing my new yr resolution later on. Same as a yr ago, I'll have 31 new yr resolutions...
Yesterday I was reading my older entries and guess wat? I realiZed I did fulfil most of my new yr resolution last yr. lolx... haha. the love inuyasha, ayu, 3o8 etc etc... haha..
My family:
A lot of things has happened for the past 2 months... I understand everything perfectly. It's impossible to wish for our family to be united, to go out together, to sit down together like last year to eat reunion dinner together, to play mahjong together, to watch movies together etc... but still, this incident has made me stronger... I've understood many things. Thanks for all the good times, all 15 yrs of upbringing... I'm really grateful that for all these yrs, all of u stood by me... be it when I started learning piano or anything... u would always support me. I noe things are different now but still, in my heart, I wish all of u the very very best. I wish you would be happy, healthy forever.
The time when I received the news of divorce, I cried.
but after crying, after the hopelessness and helplessness went awawy, I wiped away my tears...
thank you, mum, dad, sis... u guys are the most treasured ppl in my life... =)
My Friends (girls):
hahaha. thanks for everything, girls... u guys are the most wonderful ppl I've ever met =) When I was feeling down, be it the divorce, both my grandmothers passing away, u guys really supported me, talked to me and cheered me up. I really needed the support. U guys gave me the strength to walk when I felt tired. I simply just love you guys. Especially my clique. Serene, Yeeyan, Joyce. =) You guys are the best. haha. and thanks for everything. U guys gave me strength and happiness. thanks, girls. haha.
Choir clique:
Bernice! Serene! Zoumei! Yuntian! haha. u guys rock! =D hahahaha. still remember all the good times we had together? Cultural pot? going to k-box together and singing that grasshopper song? LOL. teasing yuntian? haha. there are so many great memories we had together. =) thanks for comfortin me on the 88th anniversary dinner.. haha.
Friends (guys):
lolx... was thinking wat to write here... hmmm.. ok. so hey, baboon, cement head, ugly creature who keeps tinking he's handsome, the person who lyks to call me er xing, all the rest of ppl who teases me and some truly nice frens lyk raphael, yihang etc... thanks la. haha though smtimes u guys can b really mean, u guys still brought happiness to me and the class la. hahaha. thanks for everything. continue to stay lame la. haha =)
Friends (outside school):
Lingxi, Huiming, KAREN. hahaha. thanks girls. though we can only meet up during the hols, I believe it's enough alr.. haha. thanks for everything. lingxi n huiming, u guys still rmb the frogs? haha and eating instant noodles outside cheers lyk idiots. hahaha. not for forget, when we talked about our sch stuff. lolx. i really miss u guys. haha.
KAREN. lolx! thanks gal, for the 10 yrs of happiness u brought to me. 10 yrs and still going on. haha. continue counting! =) It's a miracle I can still keep in contact with u. lolx. B4 the invention of computers, we used to write letters to each other. call, but very rare. haha. there were good n bad times. haha. u're the one who knows me the best since I was a child. haha. and I treat ur parents just lyk my own. rmb the time we went out together? u, me, ur dad and mum? we were lyk a family. LOL. and my parents treat u lyk their daughter too. esp since they've seen u since... 5 yrs old? hahaha. ok girl, thanks for everything. =)
Teachers:
All the teachers teaching me, MR LAI as well, THANK YOU! lolx.. though my results didnt really improve, I guess it's my fault la. lolx.. thanks for the coaching and everything. though sometimes the lessons are boring, (oops) u guys were just trying to help us pull up our scores. haha. thanks... Mr Lai, haha. thanks for everything as well. for talking to me when I was feeling down. haha. and playing with me on stage. lolx! =D
YOU:
THANK YOU! No matter what u did, u guys have an impact in my life. No matter who u r, even if u just walked past me, u've changed everything. Life without everyone of you will be different. Mayb bcos u banged into that person, someone else helps u up and u realize she/he's ur long lost fren. hahaha. yea... so thanks. =)
haha. wat a LONG entry. lolx. my new yr resolutions:
1. My family stays happy and healthy
2. My friends stay happy and healthy
3. Everyone else stays happy and healthy
4. Be nicer to everyone
5. Cherish everyone / everything around me
6. Be more hardworking (i'm so lazy, it's unblievable)
7. Be more filial
8. Have a better memory (LOL!)
9. Do well for exams, piano or school
10.Be more understanding
11.Listen better (my ears have prob. yea)
12.Love everyone around me more
13.Sms lesser (This is IMPT!)
14.Decrease bills
15.Use computer lesser
16.Change my perception on certain things
17.Be more polite
18.Be more feminine (mr lai, look! hahaha)
19.Be more active
20.Treat Milo better
21.Read more chinese books
22.Watch fewer ayu videos
23.Clean up my room occasionally
24.Love 4o8'06 more
25.Smile more
26.Like even the ppl I dun like (???)
27.Love Ayu
28.Love animes
29.Be kind to plants
30.Cry less
31.Stay myself
pretty lame stuff. lolx... if I have a chance to blog tml, I bet I'll change half that resolutions. haha.
URGH. FRIENDSTER STILL CAN'T WORK! #$@#%@#$%@#^$%#$%!@#$@!#$%#%$^%$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today's gonna be the last day I post before going to chalet, unless miraculously I can use the com... perhaps. haha. After using com, I'll be busy packing up my stuff alr... I was very worried about Milo aka Hakuryuu initially but cos my mum n dad wont b going to the chalet at all, I can finally entrust my mum with the very important job of feeding, changing water and giving milo exercises. =)
I'll be going out alone to pay for the house installment or watever it is. My dad asked me to help him go to the housing board or watever place it is, in the building nxt to lot 1 to pay for it... =( anyone went there b4? I have completely no idea what to do there, which counter to go to... haix... If not for thr $25 ... OOPS. lolx. Will be going library to return books as well.
I have to complete all my unfinished business b4 going off to chalet. .... how come I sound lyk I'm dying or smthg? lolx.. but it's true.. cos I'll only be back on 1st Jan and immediately after that I guess I'll be going to my family gathering. yawns... I'll be so tired la..
Wateva it is, most probably I'll be counting down with ivan alr. lolx. cos my sister's frens might be heading to esplanade after bbq. but it's obvious I cant hang around her frens. lolx. it'll be weird... yea... none of my frens can stay on 31st.. yea... so the only person left is ivan. haha. he's nice la. really.
Fruit Basket book 18 chuangyi version still not out yet?! $@#$@%#$^#%*!!! haix...
This entry is lyk to sum up wat I've done so far.. lolx... so ya..There'll be messages left for various ppl who left impact in my life. I'll be writing my new yr resolution later on. Same as a yr ago, I'll have 31 new yr resolutions...
Yesterday I was reading my older entries and guess wat? I realiZed I did fulfil most of my new yr resolution last yr. lolx... haha. the love inuyasha, ayu, 3o8 etc etc... haha..
My family:
A lot of things has happened for the past 2 months... I understand everything perfectly. It's impossible to wish for our family to be united, to go out together, to sit down together like last year to eat reunion dinner together, to play mahjong together, to watch movies together etc... but still, this incident has made me stronger... I've understood many things. Thanks for all the good times, all 15 yrs of upbringing... I'm really grateful that for all these yrs, all of u stood by me... be it when I started learning piano or anything... u would always support me. I noe things are different now but still, in my heart, I wish all of u the very very best. I wish you would be happy, healthy forever.
The time when I received the news of divorce, I cried.
but after crying, after the hopelessness and helplessness went awawy, I wiped away my tears...
thank you, mum, dad, sis... u guys are the most treasured ppl in my life... =)
My Friends (girls):
hahaha. thanks for everything, girls... u guys are the most wonderful ppl I've ever met =) When I was feeling down, be it the divorce, both my grandmothers passing away, u guys really supported me, talked to me and cheered me up. I really needed the support. U guys gave me the strength to walk when I felt tired. I simply just love you guys. Especially my clique. Serene, Yeeyan, Joyce. =) You guys are the best. haha. and thanks for everything. U guys gave me strength and happiness. thanks, girls. haha.
Choir clique:
Bernice! Serene! Zoumei! Yuntian! haha. u guys rock! =D hahahaha. still remember all the good times we had together? Cultural pot? going to k-box together and singing that grasshopper song? LOL. teasing yuntian? haha. there are so many great memories we had together. =) thanks for comfortin me on the 88th anniversary dinner.. haha.
Friends (guys):
lolx... was thinking wat to write here... hmmm.. ok. so hey, baboon, cement head, ugly creature who keeps tinking he's handsome, the person who lyks to call me er xing, all the rest of ppl who teases me and some truly nice frens lyk raphael, yihang etc... thanks la. haha though smtimes u guys can b really mean, u guys still brought happiness to me and the class la. hahaha. thanks for everything. continue to stay lame la. haha =)
Friends (outside school):
Lingxi, Huiming, KAREN. hahaha. thanks girls. though we can only meet up during the hols, I believe it's enough alr.. haha. thanks for everything. lingxi n huiming, u guys still rmb the frogs? haha and eating instant noodles outside cheers lyk idiots. hahaha. not for forget, when we talked about our sch stuff. lolx. i really miss u guys. haha.
KAREN. lolx! thanks gal, for the 10 yrs of happiness u brought to me. 10 yrs and still going on. haha. continue counting! =) It's a miracle I can still keep in contact with u. lolx. B4 the invention of computers, we used to write letters to each other. call, but very rare. haha. there were good n bad times. haha. u're the one who knows me the best since I was a child. haha. and I treat ur parents just lyk my own. rmb the time we went out together? u, me, ur dad and mum? we were lyk a family. LOL. and my parents treat u lyk their daughter too. esp since they've seen u since... 5 yrs old? hahaha. ok girl, thanks for everything. =)
Teachers:
All the teachers teaching me, MR LAI as well, THANK YOU! lolx.. though my results didnt really improve, I guess it's my fault la. lolx.. thanks for the coaching and everything. though sometimes the lessons are boring, (oops) u guys were just trying to help us pull up our scores. haha. thanks... Mr Lai, haha. thanks for everything as well. for talking to me when I was feeling down. haha. and playing with me on stage. lolx! =D
YOU:
THANK YOU! No matter what u did, u guys have an impact in my life. No matter who u r, even if u just walked past me, u've changed everything. Life without everyone of you will be different. Mayb bcos u banged into that person, someone else helps u up and u realize she/he's ur long lost fren. hahaha. yea... so thanks. =)
haha. wat a LONG entry. lolx. my new yr resolutions:
1. My family stays happy and healthy
2. My friends stay happy and healthy
3. Everyone else stays happy and healthy
4. Be nicer to everyone
5. Cherish everyone / everything around me
6. Be more hardworking (i'm so lazy, it's unblievable)
7. Be more filial
8. Have a better memory (LOL!)
9. Do well for exams, piano or school
10.Be more understanding
11.Listen better (my ears have prob. yea)
12.Love everyone around me more
13.Sms lesser (This is IMPT!)
14.Decrease bills
15.Use computer lesser
16.Change my perception on certain things
17.Be more polite
18.Be more feminine (mr lai, look! hahaha)
19.Be more active
20.Treat Milo better
21.Read more chinese books
22.Watch fewer ayu videos
23.Clean up my room occasionally
24.Love 4o8'06 more
25.Smile more
26.Like even the ppl I dun like (???)
27.Love Ayu
28.Love animes
29.Be kind to plants
30.Cry less
31.Stay myself
pretty lame stuff. lolx... if I have a chance to blog tml, I bet I'll change half that resolutions. haha.
URGH. FRIENDSTER STILL CAN'T WORK! #$@#%@#$%@#^$%#$%!@#$@!#$%#%$^%$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 29, 2005
My ranking of (miss)understood~*
My newest ranking of songs from (miss)understood
1.Criminal
2.(miss)understood
3.Ladies Night
4.Beautiful day
5.In the corner
6.Rainy Day
This is just for the songs that were not released as singles.
btw, the song u're currently listenin to is 'M'by ayumi hamasaki.
"Maria" There is someone I should love;
every person who has ever been hurt...
As I look around,
everyone busily
hurries on by.
I noticed that this year, too,
the signs of winter have
come very soon.
Again, somewhere in this city today
two people will meet and fall in love;
the curtains are violently opened.
Even so, everything eventually,
someday, has an end.
Again, somewhere in this city today
two people split apart;
the curtains are quitely dropped.
"Maria" There is someone I should love.
At times I feel very lonely.
But my needs are all filled
by the person I should love.
"Maria" There is someone I should love.
At times I bear very deep wounds.
But my they are all healed
by the person I should love.
"Maria" Everyone is crying.
"Maria" But I want to believe.
"Maria" So I'm praying now
that this is my final love.
Beginnings come at random,
but endings always have a reason.
beautiful lyrics, as always. haha. anyway the one u're listenin to is to incomplete version. hmm... but nvm. I still like it.
1.Criminal
2.(miss)understood
3.Ladies Night
4.Beautiful day
5.In the corner
6.Rainy Day
This is just for the songs that were not released as singles.
btw, the song u're currently listenin to is 'M'by ayumi hamasaki.
"Maria" There is someone I should love;
every person who has ever been hurt...
As I look around,
everyone busily
hurries on by.
I noticed that this year, too,
the signs of winter have
come very soon.
Again, somewhere in this city today
two people will meet and fall in love;
the curtains are violently opened.
Even so, everything eventually,
someday, has an end.
Again, somewhere in this city today
two people split apart;
the curtains are quitely dropped.
"Maria" There is someone I should love.
At times I feel very lonely.
But my needs are all filled
by the person I should love.
"Maria" There is someone I should love.
At times I bear very deep wounds.
But my they are all healed
by the person I should love.
"Maria" Everyone is crying.
"Maria" But I want to believe.
"Maria" So I'm praying now
that this is my final love.
Beginnings come at random,
but endings always have a reason.
beautiful lyrics, as always. haha. anyway the one u're listenin to is to incomplete version. hmm... but nvm. I still like it.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Ladies Night~*
DAMN! 'Ladies Night' PV, included in ayu's newest album to be released on 1st Jan is SOOOO CREEPY!! ok so now my list changed.
Top 3 scariest Ayu's PV:
1. Ladies Night
2. Alterna
3. Ourselves.
I mean it... especially the faceless ayumi.. my god! and the last scene. I really didnt realize that till the very end when they closed up on ayu. It freaked me out REALLY badly... my gosh.. u guys just HAVE to watch it.
Anyway, I feel lazy to update anything new that happened these days. Currently listenin to Ayumi's new album (miss) understood 'Criminal'. It's a great song. The whole album's great. Much MUCH better than My Story. There are just sooo many songs that I love. For example, there's Criminal, Ladies Night, Heaven, Will, Step you, Is this love, Pride, in the corner, tasking, are you wake up?, beautiful day, rainy day, fairyland, alterna. hmm.. that's every song. lolx... ok yea. the album rocks. People, do buy it! it's great! =)
6 more days to sch reopening... darn. haix..
anyway, I just cut my hair. gosh. I look...lyk shit. haix... nvm. Isn't that wat happens to my hair EVERYTIME I cut it?
24th December:
The wonderful wonderful party! I mean it man! It rocks! haha. At first I was cleaning up my room, which sucks. I mean, running 2.4km is so much better than cleaning up my room, if u ever saw the condition my room was in. Den serene came and we prepared the 2 inch thick ham and diluted soup and charred pizza. lol. hey, but the salad was nice, isn't it? haha. and after tt si aun came and we played a round of UNO b4 Nicholas n Bernice came. lolx. Si aun LOVES to take multi shots with my phone camera. In the end I had to lyk spend 15 mins +++ deleting all the stupid photos. and after that we dug in. and yh came. haha. they were disgusting, when they dumped tissue box, ham, green bean soup into the soup. I dumped salad into si aun's water. haha. I admit. lolx. and after the disgusting dinner, they tortued milo. haha. I was lyk hittin si aun's head with the empty bottle. den we went downstairs to walk around. It was really dark so I used my phone's flash light.
We saw a toad and si aun attempted to catch it. haha. and there were lots of snails too. and after tt we ended up at 711 and bought ice creams and alcohol. sat at the void deck. 'HUAT AH!' lolx... den we went back and played asshole taidee. there was, unfortunately, no asshole revolution. I was the 'prostitute' throughout the whole game. darn.
den they left and serene and I went to watch some jap vids. haha. the gackt ones are real funny. haha. den I showed her my photographs. haha. how come someone so young, hopeful, cute and innocent can grow up to be someone lyk me? haha. and we talked. yea.. lolx. and I LOVE her present. haha. Hung it up. =) Thanks serene! =D
Den my COUSINS came. hahahaha.
25th Dec
Supposed to go out but everything was cancelled in the end. My umcle had something on, I guess. yea, so everything was postponed to nxt sun. Wasted the whole day watching some stupid music award shows. haix.. and animes, of cos. haha. It was a hot day, unlike Christmas eve, which was a cool and great day.
26th Dec
Went out to causeway point with karen. It was so boring, we went back to my house. lolx. Ate lunch at Mac. We're really creative, I guess. lolx. We came up with great ideas.. haha. after that, it was lyk a journey to the past. We talked about our kindergarten frens, our past, from the kids who played cooking and dolls, to the kids who pretended to be Betty and Veronica, to the kids who played the ABC games, to the girls who wrote letters to each other, to the girls who hung out at JP, to the teenagers who visited each other's homes, to the teenagers who chatted online so often. haha. yea... 10 yrs.. haha.
27th Dec
Went out AGAIN. lolx. with karen. cos her bro's out, which is SOOO rare. so I decided to go over. haha. recorded stuff AGAIN. and we went to make Karen's specs with her mother. haha. Her mum bought lunch for us. I planned to make a trip back to my old house, cos I miss it sooo much. But the whole place was lyk under renovation so none of us could enter. darn. It was so scorching hot so we didnt wanna make a huge turn to go up to my flat. haha. It was fun. today. =)
Currently listening to 'Beautiful Day' by Ayu. Karen, it's ur fav song in the album. haha. what a beautiful day... wat a beautiful day... haha.
Chalet coming.
Honestly speaking, I dun care about the number of ppl who come. haha. As long as everyone enjoys themselves, it's enough. It's pointless forcing ppl to come, just lyk the time at Seoul Garden, Joyce's BBQ etc... It's really pointless. I tink it's better this way. Give them a choice whether they wanna come or not. It's all up to them. =)
Anyway, was thinking about a lot of things lately. People who instill fear in others... are they truly the mean guys? Or are they the most insecure guys? hmmm... They're really just the weaklings themselves, who have to be violent, threatening in order to prove that they're worth respecting. Why become lyk that? I mean, seriously, there's no point in trying to do things in forceful manner. If people lyk you, they do. If they dun, den y bother threatenin to get them to like you? YOU should noe who I'm talking about...
But then again, who's perfect?
Top 3 scariest Ayu's PV:
1. Ladies Night
2. Alterna
3. Ourselves.
I mean it... especially the faceless ayumi.. my god! and the last scene. I really didnt realize that till the very end when they closed up on ayu. It freaked me out REALLY badly... my gosh.. u guys just HAVE to watch it.
Anyway, I feel lazy to update anything new that happened these days. Currently listenin to Ayumi's new album (miss) understood 'Criminal'. It's a great song. The whole album's great. Much MUCH better than My Story. There are just sooo many songs that I love. For example, there's Criminal, Ladies Night, Heaven, Will, Step you, Is this love, Pride, in the corner, tasking, are you wake up?, beautiful day, rainy day, fairyland, alterna. hmm.. that's every song. lolx... ok yea. the album rocks. People, do buy it! it's great! =)
6 more days to sch reopening... darn. haix..
anyway, I just cut my hair. gosh. I look...lyk shit. haix... nvm. Isn't that wat happens to my hair EVERYTIME I cut it?
24th December:
The wonderful wonderful party! I mean it man! It rocks! haha. At first I was cleaning up my room, which sucks. I mean, running 2.4km is so much better than cleaning up my room, if u ever saw the condition my room was in. Den serene came and we prepared the 2 inch thick ham and diluted soup and charred pizza. lol. hey, but the salad was nice, isn't it? haha. and after tt si aun came and we played a round of UNO b4 Nicholas n Bernice came. lolx. Si aun LOVES to take multi shots with my phone camera. In the end I had to lyk spend 15 mins +++ deleting all the stupid photos. and after that we dug in. and yh came. haha. they were disgusting, when they dumped tissue box, ham, green bean soup into the soup. I dumped salad into si aun's water. haha. I admit. lolx. and after the disgusting dinner, they tortued milo. haha. I was lyk hittin si aun's head with the empty bottle. den we went downstairs to walk around. It was really dark so I used my phone's flash light.
We saw a toad and si aun attempted to catch it. haha. and there were lots of snails too. and after tt we ended up at 711 and bought ice creams and alcohol. sat at the void deck. 'HUAT AH!' lolx... den we went back and played asshole taidee. there was, unfortunately, no asshole revolution. I was the 'prostitute' throughout the whole game. darn.
den they left and serene and I went to watch some jap vids. haha. the gackt ones are real funny. haha. den I showed her my photographs. haha. how come someone so young, hopeful, cute and innocent can grow up to be someone lyk me? haha. and we talked. yea.. lolx. and I LOVE her present. haha. Hung it up. =) Thanks serene! =D
Den my COUSINS came. hahahaha.
25th Dec
Supposed to go out but everything was cancelled in the end. My umcle had something on, I guess. yea, so everything was postponed to nxt sun. Wasted the whole day watching some stupid music award shows. haix.. and animes, of cos. haha. It was a hot day, unlike Christmas eve, which was a cool and great day.
26th Dec
Went out to causeway point with karen. It was so boring, we went back to my house. lolx. Ate lunch at Mac. We're really creative, I guess. lolx. We came up with great ideas.. haha. after that, it was lyk a journey to the past. We talked about our kindergarten frens, our past, from the kids who played cooking and dolls, to the kids who pretended to be Betty and Veronica, to the kids who played the ABC games, to the girls who wrote letters to each other, to the girls who hung out at JP, to the teenagers who visited each other's homes, to the teenagers who chatted online so often. haha. yea... 10 yrs.. haha.
27th Dec
Went out AGAIN. lolx. with karen. cos her bro's out, which is SOOO rare. so I decided to go over. haha. recorded stuff AGAIN. and we went to make Karen's specs with her mother. haha. Her mum bought lunch for us. I planned to make a trip back to my old house, cos I miss it sooo much. But the whole place was lyk under renovation so none of us could enter. darn. It was so scorching hot so we didnt wanna make a huge turn to go up to my flat. haha. It was fun. today. =)
Currently listening to 'Beautiful Day' by Ayu. Karen, it's ur fav song in the album. haha. what a beautiful day... wat a beautiful day... haha.
Chalet coming.
Honestly speaking, I dun care about the number of ppl who come. haha. As long as everyone enjoys themselves, it's enough. It's pointless forcing ppl to come, just lyk the time at Seoul Garden, Joyce's BBQ etc... It's really pointless. I tink it's better this way. Give them a choice whether they wanna come or not. It's all up to them. =)
Anyway, was thinking about a lot of things lately. People who instill fear in others... are they truly the mean guys? Or are they the most insecure guys? hmmm... They're really just the weaklings themselves, who have to be violent, threatening in order to prove that they're worth respecting. Why become lyk that? I mean, seriously, there's no point in trying to do things in forceful manner. If people lyk you, they do. If they dun, den y bother threatenin to get them to like you? YOU should noe who I'm talking about...
But then again, who's perfect?
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Merry Christmas EVE!~*
Merry Christmas Eve, everyone!!!
haha. yesterday stayed up pretty late to watch Rumbling Hearts on central. Well, it was the last episode. The ending was pretty bad... I didn't expect Narumi to end up with Mitsuki again but.. oh well... anyway, there's Beckett Anthology again last night. wahaha.
Something really creepy happened last night...
I watched Gundam with my sister till 1130 last night and I asked her to watch Rumbling Hearts with me. haha. she didn't want to cos she hated the ending and had to sleep early cos today's gonna be a busy day. ya... so in the end I watched it alone. and exactly at 12midnight, the phone rang. I was so freaked! I tot it was someone to ask me about tml stuff or smthg but guess wat? once I picked it up the person on the other line hung up. = It was THAT scary... nevermind. I just treat it that someone wanted to wish me merry christmas eve. =p
I didn't know it was 12midnight when the phone rang. but cos Beckett Anthology started when the phone rang....
Anyway, today's a busy day, lyk I said. haha.
Last night went shopping with my sis n mum to buy stuff for today's dinner. haha. we went completely broke. u won't wanna noe how much everything cost in all. haha. and it was sooo heavy la! My arm nearly broke. lolx.
I have to say smthg.... I have yet to clean up my room. argh! haha. I planned to do it last night but my mum dragged me out of the house to go shopping. not my fault arh! (she's just making excuses...)
I really really hope everyone enjoys themselves today. haha.
It looks kinda cloudy and windy.... I love it! haha.
To you-noe-who-cos-i-dun-wanna-say-ur-name-in-case-anyone-finds-out-about-'IT':
take things easy alrite? Give her some time to adjust and to realize if she's truly ready for a relationship or not. Cheer up. Cos i'm sure she still loves you. ya great to see u smile again. things lyk that do happen, but it'll only make ur relationship even stronger. just wait for her, and let her noe u'll wait for her... =) oh ya, dun call me 'teacher' k? hahaha.
to dad: hahahaha! zoo closed! thanks for ur grape sweets! I noe we hardly talk anymore cos... yea.. but it touches me so much whenever u put sweets on my table everyday... =D I love you! thank u for the sweets! I finish them in a day though. haha.
to mum: thanks so much for paying everything for the food and stuff! It's so ex la! I should pay half leh. haha. thanks thanks and love you!! =D
to sister: eh. where's my ice wine? wahahaha. alrite thanks for everything till now. =)
to friends: damn! I have so much to say! haha. u guys sure are testing my summary skills. alrite. THANK YOU SO MUCH for the past one yr of love and care! u guys rock so much!! merry merry merry christmas!
to cousins: thanks for all the greetings and stuff! haha love you guys to the core!
YOU: thanks for reading my blog! haha really should wish u guys a merry christmas too. u guys rock! haha.
Me: oh. JUST GO CLEAN UR ROOM ALRITE?
lolx. merry christmas again!
haha. yesterday stayed up pretty late to watch Rumbling Hearts on central. Well, it was the last episode. The ending was pretty bad... I didn't expect Narumi to end up with Mitsuki again but.. oh well... anyway, there's Beckett Anthology again last night. wahaha.
Something really creepy happened last night...
I watched Gundam with my sister till 1130 last night and I asked her to watch Rumbling Hearts with me. haha. she didn't want to cos she hated the ending and had to sleep early cos today's gonna be a busy day. ya... so in the end I watched it alone. and exactly at 12midnight, the phone rang. I was so freaked! I tot it was someone to ask me about tml stuff or smthg but guess wat? once I picked it up the person on the other line hung up. = It was THAT scary... nevermind. I just treat it that someone wanted to wish me merry christmas eve. =p
I didn't know it was 12midnight when the phone rang. but cos Beckett Anthology started when the phone rang....
Anyway, today's a busy day, lyk I said. haha.
Last night went shopping with my sis n mum to buy stuff for today's dinner. haha. we went completely broke. u won't wanna noe how much everything cost in all. haha. and it was sooo heavy la! My arm nearly broke. lolx.
I have to say smthg.... I have yet to clean up my room. argh! haha. I planned to do it last night but my mum dragged me out of the house to go shopping. not my fault arh! (she's just making excuses...)
I really really hope everyone enjoys themselves today. haha.
It looks kinda cloudy and windy.... I love it! haha.
To you-noe-who-cos-i-dun-wanna-say-ur-name-in-case-anyone-finds-out-about-'IT':
take things easy alrite? Give her some time to adjust and to realize if she's truly ready for a relationship or not. Cheer up. Cos i'm sure she still loves you. ya great to see u smile again. things lyk that do happen, but it'll only make ur relationship even stronger. just wait for her, and let her noe u'll wait for her... =) oh ya, dun call me 'teacher' k? hahaha.
to dad: hahahaha! zoo closed! thanks for ur grape sweets! I noe we hardly talk anymore cos... yea.. but it touches me so much whenever u put sweets on my table everyday... =D I love you! thank u for the sweets! I finish them in a day though. haha.
to mum: thanks so much for paying everything for the food and stuff! It's so ex la! I should pay half leh. haha. thanks thanks and love you!! =D
to sister: eh. where's my ice wine? wahahaha. alrite thanks for everything till now. =)
to friends: damn! I have so much to say! haha. u guys sure are testing my summary skills. alrite. THANK YOU SO MUCH for the past one yr of love and care! u guys rock so much!! merry merry merry christmas!
to cousins: thanks for all the greetings and stuff! haha love you guys to the core!
YOU: thanks for reading my blog! haha really should wish u guys a merry christmas too. u guys rock! haha.
Me: oh. JUST GO CLEAN UR ROOM ALRITE?
lolx. merry christmas again!
Busy busy busy!!~*
Good good. So now confirmed list of ppl goin to Orientation Camp Mass game is Me, Bernice, Zou Mei, Serene and Peiyu.
Yesterday had a briefing conducted by councillors at SAC in school. haha. Before that I had my last piano lesson this yr. and my tcher's forcing me to enter the audition for Grand Concert 2006. oh shit. I can't perform in front of an audience. Trust me. I'll get nervous and forget everything. Stage fright. haix...'
met zoumei for lunch at westmall first. haha. and i told her another one of my disgusting stories about lizards. lol. it freaked her out badly.
Gave my hp number to the rest of the group of ppl. haha. and choir planned with guzheng. haha. It was great. They were really good at planning. haha. and alfred seemed pretty sian or tired. we came up wif lotsa disgusting ideas. haha. zuhui, xinfang, sharine, meiyi, liza their group had LOTS of even more disgusting ideas! haha. my fav is the watermelon one. hahaha.
Had fun den settled on zoumei to email the proposal. haha. anw, stupid yuntian asked us to wear sch u and in the end only the 3 of us wore sch u. It was really uncomfortable wearin sch u. lolx. all thanks to the super-nice yuntian.
den after that me bernice n zoumei went to canteen to eat. hey! attention peeps of NHHS: hey!! the western stall's selling mashed potato made frm the machine. 100% same as the one sold in 711! woohoo! serene's gonna love it. hahaha. it tastes great!
and we talked a lot about a lot of stuff. it was great to finally be able to have a good talk with them. haha. den nicholas came with his sec 2 junior. and we left to take 96. the sec 2 junior was lyk sticking to nicholas wherever he went. lolx. and we ate at clem mac. zm was so scared of the junior! haha. and nic n that junior seemed to share some secret tt ber zm n i dun understand. haha.
One more day to Christmas Eve!!!
Merry Christmas everyone in advance. haha.
Anyway, I suck at plannin for parties. so ya. u guys must give me 'face' alrite? haha. but everything's lyk so last min. haha. I'm afraid I cant get anything done by then. and the food. no bbq lyk last yr so guess u guys have to settle for some normal stuff to eat. haha hope u guys dun mind... sorry. haha.
It has been raining for the past 2 days alr. good good. haha or i'll be burnt at home.
Lots of things to do today. Lyk clearing up my room and changing Milo's bedding. urgh. busy busy busy.
Christmas wishes:
errrr...
1. My family to be happy. very very happy.
2. My friends to be happy too. =)
3. errr... everyone around me to be happy. haha.
4. hmm... everyone stay healthy.
5. ....hope my above wishes come true?
lolx. I feel I'm too greedy. that's a little too many wishes rite? lolx. watever la. hahaha.
haha i'm trying to slack a little more b4 proceeding to clean my room. urgh.
What I did for my past christmas:
Year 2000:
hmmm.... pushing my memory to the limit. .... I was at home the whole day doing nothing. played with my sister at void deck or smthg. was busy sending christmas cards the day b4. sent one to KAREN and received a black one. i tink. haha. and my pri 2 fren sent me too. lolx. received lots of cards from my frends and cousin. haha. tt's all I rmb. it was the last christmas spent at my old house.
Year 2001:
errr...my first christmas in the new house. I spent it staying at home and watching tv. there was decorations hanging all over the house. lolx. we had a family dinner together. hmm.. tt's all I remember.
Year 2002:
lolx. spent the christmas online with Karen and another 3/2 peeps from the Ayumi and Boa fansite Karen and I created.lolx. The peeps came from USA, Japan and err.. cant recall. lolx. One woman was from Japan and she used a translator machine thingy to type eng and none of us understood. we had to guess wat she was saying. it was really funny cos the Japanese had christmas first (their time is an hour faster than us), den karen and I, den the nxt day, the guy frm USA was just celebrating christmas. lolx. It was super fun. haha. international celebration. lolx.
Year 2003:
It was BORING. stayed at home the whole day and my sister's frens all came over to eat and stuff. Watched Love Hina Christmas Special on TV and spent the rest of the time reading books. pretty much sucks.
Year 2004:
GREAT!!! the best yr! haha. refer to my archives 1 yr ago. I recorded everything in there. haha. had soooo much fun with my friends! they just rock.
Year 2005:
??????????????????? Hope it'll turn out as smashing and fun as last yr's. haha. my sister plannin to being Ice Wine over. Ice Wine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's soooooo freaking EXPENSIVE!!! my sister's bf told me the story about Ice Wine. oh man.
To make Icewine, the grapes are left on the vine until after the first frost hits. These grapes are harvested after being frozen in the vineyard and then, while still frozen, they are pressed. They must be picked early - before 10 a.m. During both of these processes the temperature cannot exceed -8 degrees C. At this temperature (-8 degrees C) the berries will freeze as hard as marbles. While the grape is still in its frozen state, it is pressed and the water is driven out as shards of ice. This leaves a highly concentrated juice, very high in acids, sugars and aromatics.
sounds great rite? haha.
oh ya! Christmas = Boon Kiat's birthday. lol.
alrite! I shall slack no mare. got loads of things waiting for me to do!
Yesterday had a briefing conducted by councillors at SAC in school. haha. Before that I had my last piano lesson this yr. and my tcher's forcing me to enter the audition for Grand Concert 2006. oh shit. I can't perform in front of an audience. Trust me. I'll get nervous and forget everything. Stage fright. haix...'
met zoumei for lunch at westmall first. haha. and i told her another one of my disgusting stories about lizards. lol. it freaked her out badly.
Gave my hp number to the rest of the group of ppl. haha. and choir planned with guzheng. haha. It was great. They were really good at planning. haha. and alfred seemed pretty sian or tired. we came up wif lotsa disgusting ideas. haha. zuhui, xinfang, sharine, meiyi, liza their group had LOTS of even more disgusting ideas! haha. my fav is the watermelon one. hahaha.
Had fun den settled on zoumei to email the proposal. haha. anw, stupid yuntian asked us to wear sch u and in the end only the 3 of us wore sch u. It was really uncomfortable wearin sch u. lolx. all thanks to the super-nice yuntian.
den after that me bernice n zoumei went to canteen to eat. hey! attention peeps of NHHS: hey!! the western stall's selling mashed potato made frm the machine. 100% same as the one sold in 711! woohoo! serene's gonna love it. hahaha. it tastes great!
and we talked a lot about a lot of stuff. it was great to finally be able to have a good talk with them. haha. den nicholas came with his sec 2 junior. and we left to take 96. the sec 2 junior was lyk sticking to nicholas wherever he went. lolx. and we ate at clem mac. zm was so scared of the junior! haha. and nic n that junior seemed to share some secret tt ber zm n i dun understand. haha.
One more day to Christmas Eve!!!
Merry Christmas everyone in advance. haha.
Anyway, I suck at plannin for parties. so ya. u guys must give me 'face' alrite? haha. but everything's lyk so last min. haha. I'm afraid I cant get anything done by then. and the food. no bbq lyk last yr so guess u guys have to settle for some normal stuff to eat. haha hope u guys dun mind... sorry. haha.
It has been raining for the past 2 days alr. good good. haha or i'll be burnt at home.
Lots of things to do today. Lyk clearing up my room and changing Milo's bedding. urgh. busy busy busy.
Christmas wishes:
errrr...
1. My family to be happy. very very happy.
2. My friends to be happy too. =)
3. errr... everyone around me to be happy. haha.
4. hmm... everyone stay healthy.
5. ....hope my above wishes come true?
lolx. I feel I'm too greedy. that's a little too many wishes rite? lolx. watever la. hahaha.
haha i'm trying to slack a little more b4 proceeding to clean my room. urgh.
What I did for my past christmas:
Year 2000:
hmmm.... pushing my memory to the limit. .... I was at home the whole day doing nothing. played with my sister at void deck or smthg. was busy sending christmas cards the day b4. sent one to KAREN and received a black one. i tink. haha. and my pri 2 fren sent me too. lolx. received lots of cards from my frends and cousin. haha. tt's all I rmb. it was the last christmas spent at my old house.
Year 2001:
errr...my first christmas in the new house. I spent it staying at home and watching tv. there was decorations hanging all over the house. lolx. we had a family dinner together. hmm.. tt's all I remember.
Year 2002:
lolx. spent the christmas online with Karen and another 3/2 peeps from the Ayumi and Boa fansite Karen and I created.lolx. The peeps came from USA, Japan and err.. cant recall. lolx. One woman was from Japan and she used a translator machine thingy to type eng and none of us understood. we had to guess wat she was saying. it was really funny cos the Japanese had christmas first (their time is an hour faster than us), den karen and I, den the nxt day, the guy frm USA was just celebrating christmas. lolx. It was super fun. haha. international celebration. lolx.
Year 2003:
It was BORING. stayed at home the whole day and my sister's frens all came over to eat and stuff. Watched Love Hina Christmas Special on TV and spent the rest of the time reading books. pretty much sucks.
Year 2004:
GREAT!!! the best yr! haha. refer to my archives 1 yr ago. I recorded everything in there. haha. had soooo much fun with my friends! they just rock.
Year 2005:
??????????????????? Hope it'll turn out as smashing and fun as last yr's. haha. my sister plannin to being Ice Wine over. Ice Wine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's soooooo freaking EXPENSIVE!!! my sister's bf told me the story about Ice Wine. oh man.
To make Icewine, the grapes are left on the vine until after the first frost hits. These grapes are harvested after being frozen in the vineyard and then, while still frozen, they are pressed. They must be picked early - before 10 a.m. During both of these processes the temperature cannot exceed -8 degrees C. At this temperature (-8 degrees C) the berries will freeze as hard as marbles. While the grape is still in its frozen state, it is pressed and the water is driven out as shards of ice. This leaves a highly concentrated juice, very high in acids, sugars and aromatics.
sounds great rite? haha.
oh ya! Christmas = Boon Kiat's birthday. lol.
alrite! I shall slack no mare. got loads of things waiting for me to do!
Friday, December 23, 2005
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Love urself~*
Yesterday was a Jpop/Jrock videos and music marathon with Serene. haha. It was plain crazy, the number of videos we watched of the Japan artistes. haha. had sooo much fun. ^^ It has been quite long since someone last watched SOOO many videos with me. haha.
Currently obsessed with Ayumi n Gackt n Boa. wow... Gackt sure has lots of fans. haha. Listenin to Boa's songs over and over again, thanks to Serene, who lent me 'Girls on top' CD n VCD. That stupid girl didn't know there was a VCD till I pointed out to her. -___-"" I mean, how long did she own that CD? hahaha. she's a really gong girl. My favourite so far is Girls on top, Love can make a miracle, If you were here, breathe again and Moto.
Ayu's new album (miss)understood's releasing soon. 1st Jan.
Anyway, just thought of something.
What do human beings truly want?
Personally, I feel human truly want someone to believe in them. Imagine if you don't have anyone believing in you... the pain and misery. No matter what you do, no matter how good u can get in certain things, it's meaningless. soon, even u urself won't believe in urself. That's the end of everything already.
One more thing. Before others like you, you have to like yourself. hmmm... If you dun even love yourself, who will love you?
Currently obsessed with Ayumi n Gackt n Boa. wow... Gackt sure has lots of fans. haha. Listenin to Boa's songs over and over again, thanks to Serene, who lent me 'Girls on top' CD n VCD. That stupid girl didn't know there was a VCD till I pointed out to her. -___-"" I mean, how long did she own that CD? hahaha. she's a really gong girl. My favourite so far is Girls on top, Love can make a miracle, If you were here, breathe again and Moto.
Ayu's new album (miss)understood's releasing soon. 1st Jan.
Anyway, just thought of something.
What do human beings truly want?
Personally, I feel human truly want someone to believe in them. Imagine if you don't have anyone believing in you... the pain and misery. No matter what you do, no matter how good u can get in certain things, it's meaningless. soon, even u urself won't believe in urself. That's the end of everything already.
One more thing. Before others like you, you have to like yourself. hmmm... If you dun even love yourself, who will love you?
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
This story brought me tears...~*
When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.
Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together.
I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides,stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.
Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.
She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her? affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.
Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."
As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose.loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.
There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.
Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.
I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers."
You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life.
You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you.You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"
They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us,of course, but I lost my appetite days ago.At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me.
When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room.
A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.
She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"
Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.
And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.
Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together.
I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides,stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.
Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.
She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her? affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.
Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."
As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose.loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.
There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.
Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.
I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers."
You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life.
You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you.You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"
They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us,of course, but I lost my appetite days ago.At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me.
When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room.
A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.
She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"
Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.
And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.
Monday, December 19, 2005
Nthg special~*
It looks lyk it's going to pour any time. maybe that's good, cos these days are scorching hot!
Anyway, yesterday I went shopping with Mum. Why without my sister? Oh, cos she's so so so lazy to get out of bed and when we left at arnd 1 plus, she just woke up. oh well. haha. anyway, I finally, finally got a new watch. Well, in case you dun understand the frustration you get when u realize ur watch has stopped for the millionth time, I felt lyk pulling out my hair. anyway, I had a tough time choosing between Fossil, 25 hours and Guess. But in the end, I ended up choosing Guess. It's a simple and small watch with a metal strap and the face's black. I love it! nono I'm not being mean to my mother by choosin such an ex watch. I paid with my own money, alrite? haha. nvm. It's just a little gift for myself.
After shopping for the whole day, we went home for dinner. My sister was watchin Matrix Reloaded. haha. anyway, after dinner, I joined her and watched Lord of the Rings the fellowship of the ring. hmm... It was alright but I have to agree with my sister that Legolas's pretty good looking. haha.
Had an awful awful dream last night. Oh I slept without air-con last night and it was so so so hot, I had nose bleeding. Due to my laziness and drowsiness, I didnt care about it and continued sleeping. =P yes, with the nose bleeding away. haha.
Hmm... to my friends who are concerned about my welfare: no worries, girls. haha. I'm fine, really. Just a little trouble but dun worry, everything will be ok. thanks, for ur concern. haha. =) Love u guys lots.
still remember what the speaker told us during the leadership seminar?
In the end, everything will be ok. If they are not ok, it's not the end. =)
It's the first time Choir's involved in Sec 1 orientation games. wow. haha.
The sky cleared. It's bright and sunny. DARN IT.
Anyway, yesterday I went shopping with Mum. Why without my sister? Oh, cos she's so so so lazy to get out of bed and when we left at arnd 1 plus, she just woke up. oh well. haha. anyway, I finally, finally got a new watch. Well, in case you dun understand the frustration you get when u realize ur watch has stopped for the millionth time, I felt lyk pulling out my hair. anyway, I had a tough time choosing between Fossil, 25 hours and Guess. But in the end, I ended up choosing Guess. It's a simple and small watch with a metal strap and the face's black. I love it! nono I'm not being mean to my mother by choosin such an ex watch. I paid with my own money, alrite? haha. nvm. It's just a little gift for myself.
After shopping for the whole day, we went home for dinner. My sister was watchin Matrix Reloaded. haha. anyway, after dinner, I joined her and watched Lord of the Rings the fellowship of the ring. hmm... It was alright but I have to agree with my sister that Legolas's pretty good looking. haha.
Had an awful awful dream last night. Oh I slept without air-con last night and it was so so so hot, I had nose bleeding. Due to my laziness and drowsiness, I didnt care about it and continued sleeping. =P yes, with the nose bleeding away. haha.
Hmm... to my friends who are concerned about my welfare: no worries, girls. haha. I'm fine, really. Just a little trouble but dun worry, everything will be ok. thanks, for ur concern. haha. =) Love u guys lots.
still remember what the speaker told us during the leadership seminar?
In the end, everything will be ok. If they are not ok, it's not the end. =)
It's the first time Choir's involved in Sec 1 orientation games. wow. haha.
The sky cleared. It's bright and sunny. DARN IT.
Friday, December 16, 2005
Blah blah blah...~*
Seriously, I don't know what to blog about... oh well. today I'm going to Elaine's church's musical with zoumei n serene. Yuntian n Bernice can't go... anyway, i'm bloggin for the sake of killing time. nothing special happened these few days.
hmm... anyway, do u noe wat's the universal defination of 'beautiful'? It's having a perfectly symmetrical face. Ayumi, as reported by some people, has a NEAR symmetrical face, which is crazy, cos only a handful of ppl in the world can have symmetrical faces. my my.. anyway, u can try by flippin ur photo over by photoshop or smthg. If it looks exactly the same, well, congrats, u're defined as 'beautiful'.
Today's showing 'Beckett Anthology' again. haha. u guys can try watchin it. =p anyway, I watched 'Kungfu Hustle' last night on AXN channel. it's not bad. but I only watched a little here n there cos I had to help my sister build this GIANT Gundam. It's Kira Yamato's 'Strike-Freedom Gundam'. haha. it has lights too. Just lookin at the parts of it gives me major migraine. haix.. that thing probably costs 100++. o.O She's mad. oh my!! just looked at the packaging of it. It costs $169.90. My gosh. I can buy... approximately 10 Ayu singles. MY GOSH.
9 days to Christmas.
Anyway, gonna list out my list of favourite animes. not a lot.
Inuyasha
Saiyuki Gensoumaden
Saiyuki Reload
Saiyuki Reload Gunlock
DNAngel
Fruit Basket
Tactics
Full Metal Panic
Full Metal Panic Fumoffu
Full Metal Panic TSR
Love Hina
Love Hina Christmas special
Midori no Hibi
Gundam Seed
Fushigi Yuugi
Ayashi no ceres
Avenger (watched a little but it's pretty nice)
Kimi no nozomu eien AKA Rumbling Hearts
Argentosoma (just a little too)
Galaxy Angel
tryin to watch more. haha. my top 5
1. Fruit Basket
2. Full Metal Panic
3. Inuyasha
4. Saiyuki
5. Love Hina
had a hard time choosing between love hina n tactics. haha.
i'm bored..
so u guys when u're free, take a look at this http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/mind.php
actually it's not all that fascinating, though it really did freaked me out. haha. but oh well, u can figure it out too. it's just some trick. =)
*~Happy birthday Karen!!~*
Best of luck in wateva u do kz? Take care! =)
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AHHH. I feel so so so bad... Sorry, elaine, none of us turned up tonight.... oh man...
hmm... anyway, do u noe wat's the universal defination of 'beautiful'? It's having a perfectly symmetrical face. Ayumi, as reported by some people, has a NEAR symmetrical face, which is crazy, cos only a handful of ppl in the world can have symmetrical faces. my my.. anyway, u can try by flippin ur photo over by photoshop or smthg. If it looks exactly the same, well, congrats, u're defined as 'beautiful'.
Today's showing 'Beckett Anthology' again. haha. u guys can try watchin it. =p anyway, I watched 'Kungfu Hustle' last night on AXN channel. it's not bad. but I only watched a little here n there cos I had to help my sister build this GIANT Gundam. It's Kira Yamato's 'Strike-Freedom Gundam'. haha. it has lights too. Just lookin at the parts of it gives me major migraine. haix.. that thing probably costs 100++. o.O She's mad. oh my!! just looked at the packaging of it. It costs $169.90. My gosh. I can buy... approximately 10 Ayu singles. MY GOSH.
9 days to Christmas.
Anyway, gonna list out my list of favourite animes. not a lot.
Inuyasha
Saiyuki Gensoumaden
Saiyuki Reload
Saiyuki Reload Gunlock
DNAngel
Fruit Basket
Tactics
Full Metal Panic
Full Metal Panic Fumoffu
Full Metal Panic TSR
Love Hina
Love Hina Christmas special
Midori no Hibi
Gundam Seed
Fushigi Yuugi
Ayashi no ceres
Avenger (watched a little but it's pretty nice)
Kimi no nozomu eien AKA Rumbling Hearts
Argentosoma (just a little too)
Galaxy Angel
tryin to watch more. haha. my top 5
1. Fruit Basket
2. Full Metal Panic
3. Inuyasha
4. Saiyuki
5. Love Hina
had a hard time choosing between love hina n tactics. haha.
i'm bored..
so u guys when u're free, take a look at this http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/mind.php
actually it's not all that fascinating, though it really did freaked me out. haha. but oh well, u can figure it out too. it's just some trick. =)
*~Happy birthday Karen!!~*
Best of luck in wateva u do kz? Take care! =)
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AHHH. I feel so so so bad... Sorry, elaine, none of us turned up tonight.... oh man...
Meaning in living~*
Trying to search for pics. postin them later, as promised. haha. anyway, got inspired by Serene's blog. haha. For ppl who dunno, I'll give my list of Jpop n Jrock singers whom I love.
Ayumi Hamasaki (obviously)
BoA
Nakashima Mika
Utada Hikaru
Namie Aumoro
Every Little Thing
Globe
Gackt
Larc~en~ciel
Malice Mizer (dissolved a LONG LONG time ago. Gackt was the vocalist, btw.)
Hitomi
Kinki Kids
SMAP
Arashi
NEWS
W-inds
Ai Otsuka (okok)
Mr Children
etc...
well, that's all I remember. haha. I have poor memory..
Anyway, another thing.
I dun tink there's any useless or hopeless ppl around. People definitely have talents within them that they've yet to discover. You may not b good in ur CCA, there'll definitely be another part which makes up for it. You might not be rich, you might be living happily. Everyone's born with a meaning to live. Sometimes when you feel really down and feel lyk giving up, mayb it's just that u've yet to discover ur meaning to live. For example, some ppl live to protect her/his loved ones while others live to bring happiness to the ppl around them. Some live to earn lots of money while other live to fulfill their dreams n goals. Everyone definitely have something to live for. No one is hopeless. Cos no one truly noes the defination of 'useless' n 'hopeless'. Everyone's born with a certain something. =) haha.well, that's wat I feel la. haha.
anyway, yay, here comes the pics!
Ayumi Hamasaki (obviously)
BoA
Nakashima Mika
Utada Hikaru
Namie Aumoro
Every Little Thing
Globe
Gackt
Larc~en~ciel
Malice Mizer (dissolved a LONG LONG time ago. Gackt was the vocalist, btw.)
Hitomi
Kinki Kids
SMAP
Arashi
NEWS
W-inds
Ai Otsuka (okok)
Mr Children
etc...
well, that's all I remember. haha. I have poor memory..
Anyway, another thing.
I dun tink there's any useless or hopeless ppl around. People definitely have talents within them that they've yet to discover. You may not b good in ur CCA, there'll definitely be another part which makes up for it. You might not be rich, you might be living happily. Everyone's born with a meaning to live. Sometimes when you feel really down and feel lyk giving up, mayb it's just that u've yet to discover ur meaning to live. For example, some ppl live to protect her/his loved ones while others live to bring happiness to the ppl around them. Some live to earn lots of money while other live to fulfill their dreams n goals. Everyone definitely have something to live for. No one is hopeless. Cos no one truly noes the defination of 'useless' n 'hopeless'. Everyone's born with a certain something. =) haha.well, that's wat I feel la. haha.
anyway, yay, here comes the pics!
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Gackt~*
For Final Fantasy fans out there, for those who probably dunno who's Gackt, well, if u guys played 'Final Fantasy VIII', u guys will probably know who's Squall Leonhart. Well, Squall was supposed to be a figure of Gackt. haha. yea, so u know who he is already rite?
Today's just another boring day. Buying theory past yr paper later on with mum. anyway, yesterday was darn fun. haha.
instead of writing about my life and everything, I'll just post some pics. u guys will probably find no connections between them but... haha. someone will. ^_~
Today's just another boring day. Buying theory past yr paper later on with mum. anyway, yesterday was darn fun. haha.
instead of writing about my life and everything, I'll just post some pics. u guys will probably find no connections between them but... haha. someone will. ^_~
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Walking Proud~*
I felt rather guilty whenever I entered my blog. My blog is FULL of ayumi's pics and stuff, so y isn't the background music Ayumi too? haha. alrite. I finally changed the music to ayumi's 'Walking Proud', which is a rather sad song. anyway, in the end I'm still loyal to ayu. haha..
I slept for 5 hours plus last night. haix... *yawns* still feeling pretty tired now.. haix...
Anyway, last night I completed the 'Perfect' novel. The 'perfect' girl's parents are divorcing as well... When everyone around her felt that everything was just perfect about her and everything was fine and nothing's going wrong, the girl was actually crying herself to sleep practically every night. That's y she had eating disorder in the end and ended up in GROUP, which is something lyk a therapy thingy, and met the main character in the story, another girl with eating disorder.
she had the perfect body and perfect tan, the perfect blue eyes and the perfect blond straight hair, the perfect scores in her tests and was the most popular and prettiest girl in the whole school. But that was just the surface. things underneath are not perfect. not even close to perfect.
"You can't tell anything just from the appearance," she said to the main character.
oh well. I feel lyk I'm writing a book review or smthg... but things are lyk that. ppl likes to pretend that everything's ok, everything's fine, when deep down nothing's going right...
anyway, today's Joyce's birthday. =)
*~Happy Birthday Joyce! Take care!~*
anyway, will b going out with 3o8 gals later on. =)
Lyrics for 'Walkin Proud', which was pretty touching..
walking proud
My lips told a lie
For a trivial reason
I suppose it was for no one else
But only to protect me
When I was thoughtless
When I noticed, I was trapped and at a loss
Surrounded by countless lies
(*) The sky I looked up at was beautiful
I thought of you
I wished I could walk with firm steps
Facing forward like you
But I escaped from the reality
Escaped from all the pain
I said to myself
"I'll be my ideal self some day
Though I'm far from that now"
After such excuses, my eyes were opened
What I could do was only to live in the present time
(**) Does this voice reach you?
Does it ring in your heart?
I'm walking on today
Looking at your back as a guidepost to live
(*) repeat
(**) repeat
I slept for 5 hours plus last night. haix... *yawns* still feeling pretty tired now.. haix...
Anyway, last night I completed the 'Perfect' novel. The 'perfect' girl's parents are divorcing as well... When everyone around her felt that everything was just perfect about her and everything was fine and nothing's going wrong, the girl was actually crying herself to sleep practically every night. That's y she had eating disorder in the end and ended up in GROUP, which is something lyk a therapy thingy, and met the main character in the story, another girl with eating disorder.
she had the perfect body and perfect tan, the perfect blue eyes and the perfect blond straight hair, the perfect scores in her tests and was the most popular and prettiest girl in the whole school. But that was just the surface. things underneath are not perfect. not even close to perfect.
"You can't tell anything just from the appearance," she said to the main character.
oh well. I feel lyk I'm writing a book review or smthg... but things are lyk that. ppl likes to pretend that everything's ok, everything's fine, when deep down nothing's going right...
anyway, today's Joyce's birthday. =)
*~Happy Birthday Joyce! Take care!~*
anyway, will b going out with 3o8 gals later on. =)
Lyrics for 'Walkin Proud', which was pretty touching..
walking proud
My lips told a lie
For a trivial reason
I suppose it was for no one else
But only to protect me
When I was thoughtless
When I noticed, I was trapped and at a loss
Surrounded by countless lies
(*) The sky I looked up at was beautiful
I thought of you
I wished I could walk with firm steps
Facing forward like you
But I escaped from the reality
Escaped from all the pain
I said to myself
"I'll be my ideal self some day
Though I'm far from that now"
After such excuses, my eyes were opened
What I could do was only to live in the present time
(**) Does this voice reach you?
Does it ring in your heart?
I'm walking on today
Looking at your back as a guidepost to live
(*) repeat
(**) repeat
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