Learn to be strong~*

Recently I'm really too lazy to blog, sorry people.
Anyway, I'm learning to look at the bright side of things, so, give me time and I'll learn to be stronger than before. =)
I think the incidents that happened to me and even the incident that just happened not long ago, a week and 3 days, to be specific, have made me stronger than before.
However, I'm not that sure if I can still be strong when I really go to court or something... cos... right now I'm ok bcos things are not THAT bad YET...

Today was a darn fun day.
Karen visited my place the first time in... 10000 months? haha.
It was the first time she saw Milo aka Hakuryuu (tt's the name that only my sister and I use on her)
Anyway, we watched many MANY boa and ayu's videos. haha.
we ARE Jpop obsessed freaks anyway.
We played with Milo and she's really amusing. haha.
Walked all the way to 711 to get instant noodles to eat. Really pathetic of us.
Worked on the darn lame story.. haha.
Watched the interview of gackt n ayumi. It was really funny and we laughed like mad. haha.
Then the best part of it was when we played 'Chicken Invaders'. It's a highly lame but fun game in which Karen kept dying. hahaha. We managed to play till level 18, I guess. Anyway, I broke the record and went straight to level 38. =)

I realized I'm wasting my time away using computer 24/7 and have YET to touch any holiday assignment. =)
I have successfully recovered from my cold, though after eating that ice cream, I started coughing like crazy.
I've finished Full Metal Panic The Second Raid. Man, it rocks! Looking forward to the third raid, if there's any. haha.

Take care everyone~ The weather's cold these days. I love cool weathers! =)

full metal panic! 

silver haired is tessa. 

kaname n sousuke again.  

the usual violent kaname. hahaha. 

full metal panic fumoffu 

kaname and sousuke 

Tomorrow~*

Look people!
Blast ur speakers!
Full metal panic's here to rock!

hahaha.

to serene:
I was tinking about putting ayumi's HEAVEN on my blog but realized that Full Metal Panic's songs sounds happier. hahaha.
I tink u must be thinking to urself 'Jasmine rocks! I love her!' rite?
haha. okok i'm nuts.

I'm sick.
haix.
down with cold.
HAIZ...

Lyrics for 'Tomorrow' the song u're currently listenin to:

Together we searched for a place to hide
As we ran in the rain

Even if I loose something
There's one thing I must protect

That's the meaning of my birth in this world
I'll go search with you even if it maybe painful
While clinging onto the fresh scenery around us

The prism reflected the orange of
The sunset when the breeze slips through my fingertips

I wish I could devote myself to you so
I want to become more gentle for you

Even if I collect the light which fills this world
Within my pair of hands it'll light up the darkness
So I won't get lost as it shines in the long continuous journey.

That's the meaning of my birth in this world
I'll go search with you even if it's painful
While clinging onto the fresh scenery around us
Let's travel further away

Orchard~*

Didn't really feel lyk bloggin so i'll just post a few pictures on the outing with Karen yesterday to Orchard. =)

It was fantastic and really funny! haha.

scroll down for the pictures! credit goes to... *drumroll* KAREN! haha.

in front of the christmas tree. haha.  

arbish! i boxed karen. 

wow. tt's me, btw. haha. 

haha. artistic shot. the caption really made me laugh. haha. 

artistic shot. haha. the slurpee really looks huge.  

a coconut tree frm orchard. haha. 

dun worry. we're straight. haha. i was just leanin to see the phone! not on her shoulder! haha. 

it has been raining so much...~*

I was reading my past entries just now.
they made me smile.
they made me remember the happy and funny moments. =)

The 88th anniversary clashin with my birthday, the musical, swensons, slacking, the cheer com, NEWater visit, gettin obsessed with various artistes and animes...

In one of my birthday wishes, which is for family to stay united forever, is completely crashed.

lyk i mentioned in one of the earlier posts, my life is filled with EXTREME ups and downs.. really extreme...

It's pretty weird but I cant really recall anything that happened on Sunday, when the announcement of the divorce took place. It's lyk my mind rejects the whole incident and I cant remember... my mind bounces off the incident and bring me to another incident...

it's weird.. but I can't remember.
it's lyk... my mind senses something bad from that incident and refuses to go there. like u feel warned when u approach a minefield and so u'll quickly run away.
It's better for me... i guess.

Life's as normal for me. except that my mum and dad doesn't speak to each other.
my mum sleeps with me in my room.

It seems to me that it's gonna rain again.
It has been rainin so much...
.
.
.
.
.

thanks Mr Lai, for ur encouragement. =) Dun worry, I'll stay strong.

thanks frens... i'm really happy to receive support from u guys. =)

dun worry, 3o8, the chalet is still going to take place. =)

and si aun, dun worry, i will. haha.


The world doesn't stop moving even when u're in depression
so why dun u give the world ur best smile, and move together with the world?

take care everyone. =)

Mending the shredded hearts~*

my parents are divorcing.

i'm bloggin about it cos i blieve there's really nthg to hide.

my father announced it to us when I was watching Ayumi's videos.

my sister cried. I didn't.


It's their choice about divorcing... especially since no matter how I look at this matter, no party is at fault. no party is right, as well. It takes 2 hands to clap.



I didn't cry on the spot. but it was the first time I felt my hands trembling continuously. It hurts. It feels as if your heart was shredded into pieces. I mean, I really felt that pain and emotion in me. It's not lyk when I fail a test or smthg and cry, but something which can really impact people and tear hearts apart.

I went back to my room after that and cried. I cried.

Thanks to all my dear frens who stood by me. I really appreciate the help and support u guys gave me and asked me to stay strong and take care. =)

I decided to be strong.

What hurts me the most is separation.

I dun wanna leave my father.

I dun wanna leave my mother.

I dun wanna leave my sister.

I dun wanna leave my house, my estate, maybe even my school, my frens, my everything.

But I'm going to stay strong.

It's inevitable.

So I must face up to it.

I have no say in anything. the judge will decide who i'll stay with when they divorce. if it's after o'level that they divorce, my sister can choose who to be with.

We'll definitely have to move out.

I noe my parents love me.

I love them too.

But... they just dun love each other.

Just now I realized the marriage cert was gone.

I wish... that it can be delayed till after o'level...

I hope life can continue as normal.
I felt as if life has come to an end yesterday... as if it's really the end for me.

but I looked on the bright side.
what can crying the whole day and locking urself in ur room help?
I'm going out today.
I'm going to be strong.

I can't promise a laughter
or a genuine smile
or the usual chirpy and cheerful me
or the lame, crappy person i was
since this matter really changed me...
but, i'll promise to mend my shredded heart... =)

Thanks, my frens. u guys are simply wonderful... =)

To all ppl reading this blog, please remember to cherish the ppl around you... u will nvr noe when they're gone. =)

Whatever...~*

!~Happy Birthday Li Qian~!

Ayumi's new song 'Bold and Delicious' is great.
a totally new style
yet she's still as good as before.
Gives me a really refreshing feeling. =)

Btw, when you have this, you can't have that.
It's simple.
There's no way u can have THIS and THAT together.

Lyk if you're smart, you might not be athletic.
if you're good at singing, you might not be good at basketball.
whatever. just giving examples of y we can NEVER have all qualities in life.

Somehow, I feel that it's probably a waste of time competing with one another to be the 'Number 1', whether in terms of academic excellence or cca or anything.
Since no one has the same strength, it's useless trying to compete.
you might be better in math than another person,
that person might be better in Eng than you.

something lyk that.

watever, i'm blabbering nonsense again.

Going out with my frens again tml.
Anything's better than rotting at home and wasting my time in front of the com or tv.

just finished watching 'Silence of the lamb' part 2.
it's a show about this serial killer who eats human beings.

anw, sometimes dun u feel life sucks?
and life's unfair?

but then again, when have u thought that life's fair and wonderful?

cd cover 

single cover 

bold and delicious plus Pride 

Writer's block~*

it has been... 100 yrs since i last blogged?

Having writer's block currently.

hmmm...

1. Having Chemistry remedial later on.
2. Realized that my sister can't seem to find the Fruit Basket vcd. groans. not again...
3. gave up on my msn. it really sucks.
4. have yet to touch even one page of my holiday assignment. well, this is expected.
5. 3 more choir practices and open house.
6. loads more days to my chalet. =)
7. exactly a month away from KAREN's birthday! =)
8. borrowed... 6 books? lolx... spending most of my time reading.
9. having theory grade 6 exam nxt yr march 11. darn it.
10.had the greatest shock of my life yesterday after i stepped out of MRT. haha.
11.procrastinating
12.feeling really hungry now..
13.christmas coming! BBQ?
14.listenin to 'Minamikaze' frm Full Metal Panic the second raid.
15.approximately 3hrs before remedials start.
16.sesshomaru and inuyasha are hot.
17.kyo sohma's hot.
18.sagara sosuke's hot.
19.genjyo sanzo's hot.
20.kira yamato's hot.

alrite, that's about all. =)

btw stupid si aun,

you suck. haha.

sucks...~*

it has been ages since I last blogged. haha.
been pretty busy with sch, choir, 3o8 forum and all.
anyway, pretty sad to say, i'm here to blog to vent my frustration.

ok. life already sucks (rite, yeeyan?) and now it sucks even more.

I'm serious.

Why are some ppl just so... FAKE?!
they appear to be really nice and sweet to you and bhind your back, they start telling everyone else how bad you are etc etc...

Have we done anything to make you angry or what?
Have we ever rubbed u the wrong way?

What's the point of it? haix...

btw, there's an exchange tomorrow with Chung Cheng High and other sec schs.
I really hope NHChoir can do their best and prove to the other schs we're a good choir.
Good Luck Choir! =D


'Nothing sucks more than life'
-Black Ribbons(TAS).

Happy birthday n halloween!~*

Oh. how can I forget?! *smacks head*

*~Happy Birthday Weina!!!~*

and also,

*~Happy Halloween!~*

=D

Relieved!~*

Finally O'level Chinese paper's finished!

hahaha. feeling super relieved la. =)

Went Wee Sze's house today with 3o8 peeps.

Super fun la. haha. the guys played mahjong with wee sze and ivan dey all played blackjack.

the rest of us waited for pizza to come while watchin a NC16 show. sssshhh. haha.

Watched 'Along came Polly'. It's really nice and funny. haha, considering the number of times we laughed. haha.

Den we watched 'San Geng - Jiao Zi', the horror film rated M18. haha.

It's not scary at all, just that it's grotesque and a little erm... porn? haha.

Anyway, spent most of the time watchin TV and eatin pizza and chicken wings.

Tml's the long awaited BARBEQUE! =))

so damn excited la. haha.


To Wee Sze:

Thanks gal, for the food and everything. =) the chicken wings were really great! and the movies too. =P