I was born to love you~*

currently obsessed with 'I was born to love you' by Queen
it's the opening song for 'PRIDE' the Jap drama starring Kimura Takuya!

yeaps. the drama rocks.

Actually I have a whole list of things I'm obsessed with currently.
1. 'I was born to love you'
2. 'Will' by ayumi
3. many many boa's songs.
4. 'PRIDE'
5. Full Metal Panic. a damn damn nice n funny n sweet anime. =))
6. Moonlight Sonata
7. Studying (?) nt really an obsession though...
8. Thinking of my new phone which had to b delayed cos it's outta stock. gaak.
9. Being lazy. darn it.
10.Inuyasha movies.

DARN IT. I tink I'm procastinating too much.
People around me are studying lyk they've lost their minds
and I'm here surfing net and wasting my time away.

Major procrastination taking place.

I keep telling myself to study, study, study
but once I approach the awfully huge pile of books,
my head throbs.
my heartbeat stops.
my dinner last night comes up to my throat.

darn darn darn darn it.

Wake up Jasmine!

8 days to EOY.

3 days to paper 1.

I need to find cure quick.
cure for my phobia for books.
DOCTOR!

I Was Born To Love You

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day ...

(Chorus)
I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

You are the one for me
I am the man for you
You were made for me
You're my ecstasy
If I was given every opportunity
I'd kill for your love

So take a chance with me
Let me romance with you
I'm caught in a dream
And my dream's come true
It's so hard to believe
This is happening to me
An amazing feeling
Comin' through -

(Chorus)

I wanna love you,
I love every little thing about you
I wanna love you, love you, love you
Born - to love you
Born - to love you
Yes I was born to love you
Born - to love you
Born - to love you
Every single day - of my life

An amazing feeling
Comin' through

(Chorus)

Yes I was born to love you
Every single day of my life

Go, I love you babe
Yes, I was born to love you
I wanna love you, love you, love you
I wanna love you
I get so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Yeah, I want to love you
Yeah, give it to me

in Long Vacation when he played the piano 

dun ask me y he's so handsome. 

Ayumi 

=) 

full metal panic sosuke n kaname =D 

hehe full metal panic rocks! 

full metal panic again 

full metal panic 

full metal panic! 

Thoughts of my life~*

Sometimes looking back at ourselves, we'll feel we're really silly.

Silly to believe life's gonna be beautiful.

Silly to believe the rainbow will appear after the rain.

Seriously, just look into the sky.

Counting the number of times u see a rainbow is easy math.

Counting the number of storms n rainy days is gonna blow ur mind.

Believing in everything is beautiful is simply crazy.




It's only when u crash into reality, will u seriously find out how pitiful we are.

Lying to ourselves.

And refusing to admit it.

Living is hard.

We can't stay happy forever.

If being happy is easy, wat's difficult?

Killing me~*

Bad things that happened recently:
1. Mrs Wong announced that Amaths EOY paper's a KILLER paper.
2. Have yet to finish Amaths homework (which is SUPER difficult) and compo and other hw tt I've forgotten.
3. Worried about EOY
4. Yet to send CME proj to serene.
5. Theory.
6. Extra lessons nxt week.
7. Haven't finish tching some chapts.
8. Screwed Eng oral yesterday.
9. No motivation to study.
10.Tired mentally n physically.
11.Feet hurts a little still.
12.Screwed piano today.
13.Bad mood.

Good things:

1. Today's my dad's birthday. =D
2. Yesterday went to Mid-Autumn celebration. Had sooo much fun with
Serene, Bernice, Yuntian n Zoumei. =D
3. 'PRIDE' on monday. =D


Try and compare and guess u noe wat I'm feeling now.

U haf this, u can't have that~*

Suddenly realize I'm blogging here without noeing who reads it.
really really wish YOU, yes YOU to tag my board to let me thank u. =)

Anyway, gettin stressed up for EOY exams le...
Oh man...

Will be in depression for a period of time before and during the EOY.

I'm super super worried about both my maths paper.
Somehow I noe I'm gonna flunk them. urgh.
Is there any chance I can pass? 50+ oso can already...
Common Test 2 results were really depressing for most of the sec 3s.
Super super worried about EOY now..

cant afford to fail anymore.
or else I'll b retained...
shit...

These days I always find myself leaning against the railings outside my class
feeling the wind caressing my cheeks
thinking about many many things.

many many things...

There are so many things we can't have.
When u haf this. u cant have that.
God's fair.

Btw, currently watching the drama 'Pride' starring Kimura Takuya.
it's a great show. =)

so pretty! 

ayu as a black angel 

ayu 

ayu n her band. =) 

his zhao pai dong zuo. super shuai.  

the female lead. she rocks. =) 

Kimura! 

And A Meadow Lark Sang ~*

End of yr exam 3 weeks away.
just GREAT.
no revision.
no study mood.
only the mood to slack.
haiz...

nthg special happened today.
except that our class had this major hair-cut trend.
lols.
many ppl cut their hair and suddenly lots of new faces popped up in class. haha.

We have another eng tcher.
our supposed eng tcher.
nt really certain how to spell her name though. =P
shall learn it tml.

Oral's this friday.
GREAT.
I'm the second last.
Guess the tcher probably cant wait to get rid of me bahz.

Went to Choir concert at Esplanade last sat.
It's was TERRIFIC! serious.
at the beginning it was pretty serious and all.
but when we came back after the interval, the songs were great!
Gospels and blues.
the second last song was the best.
the conductor joined the choir and everyone clapped to the rhythm. =)
A standing ovation. partly.
Den it ended with a touching lullaby. =D
Worth the $16.
anyway, the seats were fantastic as well.

My sis bought Samsung E730.
the pure black phone with mp3 n blue tooth etc etc.
it so totally rocks!
still waiting for my dad to bring me to get a new phone.

Startin to feel a little happier.
although it still hurts a little.

Anyway, my ic is not, I repeat, IS NOT cut into 2!
WOW!
I was still panicking about wat zuhui said about cutting ICs up.
Come to tink of it, it sounded silly. haha.

Anyway, Ayu's new single 'Heaven' sounds great!
Really touching ballad. =))

A short meaningful poem to share which totally ROCKS:
And A Meadow Lark Sang

"The child whispered, 'God, speak to me'
And a meadow lark sang.
The child did not hear.

So the child yelled, 'God, speak to me!'
And the thunder rolled across the sky
But the child did not listen.

The child looked around and said,
'God let me see you' and a star shone brightly
But the child did not notice.

And the child shouted,
'God show me a miracle!'
And a life was born but the child did not know.

So the child cried out in despair,
'Touch me God, and let me know you are here!'
Whereupon God reached down
And touched the child.

But the child brushed the butterfly away
And walked away unknowingly."


it's my favourite lor. Really touching. =)

Goodbye, grandmothers~*

k larh. this is the WORST holiday in my life la...

Events leading to me cursing this holiday:

1. Firstly, everyday's packed with remedials, how on earth are we supposed to 'enjoy our holidays' lyk wat some tchers say?
It's total crap.

2. Den my grandmother passed away. It's saddening... and everyone's grieved about it... today her body's cremated. shall not comment too much to prevent myself from gettin emotional again... anw, on the last journey when we must follow the coffin, everyone started crying...
My cousins cried very hard and I was lyk telling myself not to cry cos if I cry, it'll make the other ppl cry. and I must be strong. and my grandmother won't want to see us cry as well...
The pastor was lyk tokin on and on about loads of things which made us sadder...
den the band was playing 'Amazing Grace', which is such a sad song la...

Den we took the bus and reached mandai crematorium... we went to the hall and listened to the pastor and sang 'Amazing Grace' and other songs. den we were given a rose each. (I gt the pink rose) den we prayed together and placed the roses on the coffin...
den everyone started crying when cousin Monica said 'Ah-ma, bye bye!'
den we went to viewing hall to see the coffin being pushed into the furnace...
it's always the saddest part.. den my aunts and cousins kept crying and wailing and calling out 'Ah ma! Mother!' den it was really heart breaking...

den we went to take our drinks n calm down n blah blah blah we went back and ate lunch and went home.

It's really depressing... really really heart wrenching sight that no one will ever want to witness...

3. I just got to noe that there's choir performance tml. was supposed to celebrate mum's birthday. Plans ruined completely.

4. I tink I'm so freaking stupid... I passed the A maths book personally to Nicholas and I didn't hand in mine! I feel stupid.

5. I just realized the holidays so over. and I've yet to accomplish a single thing.

6. EOY coming. Makes me wanna knock my head against the wall RIGHT NOW.

7. Holiday homework not done. haiz... I dun even haf the time to do.

urgh. this holidays just suck.

I'm slowly learning to forget certain things...
I keep telling myself everything will be ok with I wake up the next morning.
I keep telling myself I have to be strong...
But crabs are hard on the outside but soft on the inside.
I'm a crab, a Cancerian...

I dun tink I can act strong any longer.
I have no grandparent left, in half a yr.
In just 6 months, I lost both my grandmothers.

but my mother's mother left at age of 87.
my dad's mother left at age of 79.

To both grandmothers:
I love and miss you forever... No matter what happens, no matter how much time has passed, u have made a difference in my life and will always be a part of me...

anyway, I just noe...
I noe that no matter how sad I am, I still haf to pull through.
I have to wake up and wipe away my tears.
I have to continue walking... no matter how rocky and winding the road in front is..

Bad News

To break the news is hard, but to keep the news is harder.
My grandmother passed away yesterday.

Yes, she's the grandmother I worried so much for the past few entries...
Life's lyk that.
Now it's way in the basement.

I told myself I have to be strong..
but somehow everything comes out forced.
Today went to sch as usual, with serene, yeeyan n joyce.
Even yeeyan found me weird.
I tink my happiness is so forced.
but den again...she won't want to see me sad, doesn't she?

Why is life lyk this.
One moment I was still laughing with all my frens,
one moment the phone call just sort of took away my smile.

Anyway, it's really hard to bring myself to go there every evening.
To see my relatives so dead quiet and on the verge of crying.
the atmosphere is so grieved...
everyone's forced to talk to everyone else...

I walked up and saw my grandmother in the coffin.
My very last grandparent.
I didn't cry.
I dun wan her to see my tears...

Just want to tell everyone reading this blog,
cherish the people around u.
u can make a huge difference by just making them happy.
Most importantly, treasure the time u have together...

A short story which really touched me.

Hospital Windows

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man
was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain
the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

And every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old trees graced the landscape, and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Days and weeks passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to
find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the world outside. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it for
himself.

He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It
faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window. The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."



After reading this story, u'll realize how ur little actions everyday can make a person feel so much happier.

Although my life's never been so down b4, I still wish everyone of u to live life to the fullest and enjoy the company of ur frens n relatives.

Once in a while, think about what will happen when they're gone. Then u'll noe how important they are to u.

It's not too late to say 'I love you'...

sucks. Sucks. SUCKS.~*

well, life sucks.
aiya, it never, un-suck b4 wat.
hahaz.
anyway, yesterday was tchers' day celebration.
There was nothing to do at all, except to do planning for the 100th anniversary.
the concert was ok. it was pretty messy but OK.
lyk the previous yrs, it didn't really haf much changes.

Anyway, nowadays I'm super addicted to my com game.
It's really fantastic~! The graphics are sooo cool! =D
will post a pic of the cover box of the game.
It's really really nice man.

Well, nxt week is holidays but there's not even a single day when I'm completely free.
It's crazy ok?

Mon-Maths remedial 10-12pm
chem remedial 1-2pm
physics remedial 3-4pm

Tues-Higher MT 9-12pm
Social Studies 2-3pm

Wed- Physics 8-10am
Maths 1-3pm

Thurs- Maths 8-10am
OK. THIS IS ABSOLUTELY NUTS. 5 HOURS OF CHEM?!?!?!
Chem- 10- 3pm!!!!!!!!!!
Choir Chung Cheng High exchange. 8-1pm

Fri- Higher MT- 8-10am

It's plain crazy right?
HAIZ...
Life sucks.
not even a single day for resting.
Honestly speaking, I'd rather haf school.
This sucks.
No breaks and stay in sch for a longer time than usual.
URGH.
I'm sooo damn pissed.
somemore friday there are only our class n 3/1 havin the remedial.
the other classes haf a break for one day larh.
haiz...
blame it on my fate.

Anyway, sometimes I feel that ppl forget I have feelings as well.
there are things I lyk and dun lyk.
I'm not an unfeeling creature who can stay happy forever.
but sometimes ppl dun remember...
I'd rather be an unfeeling creature.

I want to swap life.
Anyone interested?

the game i'm playing currently~! =)