I am taking too many things for granted.

I always wanted a headphone,
and Guangxiang bought it for me.
Just in a month time it seems so natural.
And i didn bother to stow it neatly in my bag.
On my way home, my ipod battery went low.
My headphone couldn work properly.
No sound came out of it.
I tried everything to get it to work but it couldn.
I started to panic,
I thought i spoil it!
den i remembered how happy i was to receive it at first.


Then i had a revelation that
i have been taking too many things for granted.
Everything that i had received was once a blessing,
but soon it became normal.
I didn appreciate 'things' as much as i used to,
how ungrateful i am!
Such a simple incident teach me a lesson to be grateful,
appreciative and not take things for granted.

Im lazy to blog again.
Anyway, im trying to use computer only on weekends.
O level is passing real fast.
I've got to work hard.

Oh, i almost witness an accident yesterday.
There's this family crossing the road.
Once safe, the little girl started running,
the father just let it be,
they were suppose to walk straight i think,
but the little girl turn left and continue running.
The father then started to chase.
The lil girl thought they were both playing,
smile and run even faster.
The father couldn catch up.
the lil girl turn and ran into the road.
Cars are driving past.
The father panic, shouted,
Girl continue running.
She continue to run to the road,
Thank God the cars slowed down,
if not it'll be undesirable.

Not that i dun wanna help.
I was wayyy behind, just past the first road.
Den i walk faster to see wad happen at the end.
Thank God, I was panicking too!
Anyway, yeap,

Must be careful to handle children.
Think the girl just a toddler, bout 3 or 4 yrs old.

OMG!
PRELIM IS IN 3WEEKS TIME!
OMG!
3MONTHS, CHIONG AR!
PLEASE, I NEED MOTIVATION!
AMELIA GOH, U CAN DO IT!

Cars are really fantastic!
IT WILL BE MINE ONE DAY!

Red Porsche


Yellow Ford


I like Audi, Porsche and Lexus.
But i cant put the photos here :((
I think cars are like, damn chiooo!
I think im a man....

Today School is BORING.
Practically do nothing.
National Day celebration.
Just banner-making only.
How fun can that be. >.<

I dragged my feet to school today.
Real tired and i couldn stand properly this morning,
I almost fell down, think im too tired. ><

In class seriously bored.
Just watch a few shows on youtube.
Tom&Jerry, tweetybird etc.
Lols..

I was sleeping,
and when i wake up,
saw many ppl crowding outside.
HAHA!
Im a SINGAPOREAN,
so i 发 挥 my kiasu inborn nature.
I walk to the crowd and saw the BIG2 there.
The Principal and the Discipline Mister.
WOAHH. It was rare man.
Hhahaa.

A series of scolding, moving of chairs.
And then i heard
"Someone from 3e4 kena cane"
Hahaa.
I noe im SUPPOSED to sympatise,
but i dunno who is the person.
So anyway, yeah
it's quite rare to see it la.
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Anyway, after my school there's bio afternoon program.
It's short and sweet. 45mins.
Productive.

Then Tiffany and i went to eat at mac.
Waited for Elizabeth and they come to my house to study.
But Liz ended up as the Tutor. :DD

I love them all, together with Yunhan etc.
Frens from Sec1 till now..
Yeah, well. :))

Today, FOP and Church 20th anniversary ended.
Yeap, the service was good undoubtedly.

My revelation for this week is:
No matter how poor i am/will become,
I can be stingy to anyone, just not God.
God will never give up on me,
God loves me no matter what i've done,
how imperfect or broken I am.

As Pst.Alex Abraham pray for the church,
He blew into the microphone,
and a wind swept over me.
Instantly i recognise it, the same power,
the Power of God.
Not once, but twice.
Each time, sending a greater conviction in me:
God loves us and wanna bless us.
Nothing beats the love of God.
It was truely amazing.

Teared when we sang the songs
'Whose hand are these, holding my trapeze'
and songs from the album: Light of the City.
I remember I got the album from an uncle, Uncle Maurice,
whom i met at Asia Conference during the 3-minute fellowship time.
He blessed me with this CD when i know him for less than an hour.
He said he had the prompting of God,
and i feel joy as i received it.
Joy of the Lord, not out of greediness.

Anyway, the album always bring tears to my eyes.
The Separation and Trial,
The transition that I am going through still,
The emotions and effects.
Soooo many many more.
Sigh,
I wish i know someone who is going through the same thing as me.

The service is amazing,
I love the 3D Glass box,
the umbrella, the ballons & the boards.

There's school tmr.
Haven got my momentum for 'o' levels yet.
Im fearful of it.
Wish time will pass slower....

Im into bloggin mood now.
I feel like changing my blogskin.
I just update the links,
edit my profile,
and finally change the songs.

Im into oldies now,
especially carpenters, beatles.
My daddy loves them.
I used to tell him oldies where got nice,
the new songs are nicer.
Now that i really listen,
realised that oldies are really much way better.

Anyway,
yeap, school is still boring for me.
O level less than 90 days,
I haven lifted my books to study.
I really wanna score well,
but i just cant bring myself to study.
I used to really love studying,
but i dunno wad happen to me.
Hope the PSLE miracle will happen again.
Sigh.
I NEED MOTIVATION!
:)))

Weather is finally cooling now.
As in really FINALLY,
the weather has been pretty bad for the past 6 months.
Sigh.
I shall start by picking up bio and history first,
hope i can find my momentum from there.

Also, hope i can blog more often too.
:)))

Hello!

My once in a blue moon blog post again.

Im very disappointed.
I thought x is a place of refuge.
But it is not now, it was.


Heard some comments that i should not hear.
At that moment, old impulse came,
feel like saying
"Please examine yourself before you comment on others"
"If u are the same, den shut up."
But i noe i cant,
it will cause division among ppl.

Im so sick of gossips and tales spinner,
here's a verse.

Proverbs 26:20-23
²⁰ Without wood a fire goes out;
without gossip a quarrel dies down.
²¹ As charcoal to embers and as wood to fire,
so is a quarrelsome man for kindling strife.
²² The words of a gossip are like choice morsels;
they go down to a man's inmost parts.
²³ Like a coating of glaze over earthenware
are fervent lips with an evil heart.

So sick of ppl telling me wad to do,
Hypocrites that feign concern.
It tells me to be wise and not deceived by ppl.


Proverbs 16:28
²⁸ A perverse man stirs up dissension,
and a gossip separates close friends.

Trust takes a year to build,
but it takes a minute to collapse.


Well, that's all i can say.
Im not deaf, nor am i a pushover,
nor am i stupid.

P.S Dont forget the hand that fed you.

Haha, i noe i haven been blogging.
I didn update the photos i took in taiwan cos i lost my usb cable.
Sorry :X

Anyway, I am moving house soon!
Really happy..
No more staying at my older sis place
means
- No curfew
- More freedom
- Can stay and fellowship!

I am moving to
Tampines Block 294,
across the road from N2 Shopping street
aka 201 coffeeshop.
I will be sharing a room with my sis, cecilia
There's 2 living room and 3 bedrooms,
the toilet is really small, no walking space.
Really excited because from young,
I always share a room with my family.
I can finally deco my own room,
and there's tatami! :)

Oh, My brother will be buying iMac for us,
3 person share 1 :((
But i will get the iPod touch!
Really excited for it!

It's under renovation now,
3 weeks to complete.
probably bout July 6 den can move it,
and GX is booking in on 7 july:((

oh well. Still excited though.
Cant wait to move in to my new house
and see my pui botak.
HAHAHA

HELLO!
Im blogging my trip to Taiwan soon.
Sorry for the late updates,
Got to get my homework done.
Sorry, I'll try to update by next monday (:

Really thank God!
I have been receiving many things
for the past few weeks.

This week,
Spiritually, the fire in me starts to spark off again,
reinstated and starting to serve.
building up many relationship that grew distant,
trying to make more friends and stuff.

Feeling more normal nowadays.
Getting back the lost momentum.

Faith and perseverence is really needed.
Got to learn to tear down my mask of pride.
There are just some relationships that are hard to reconcile.
Accumulated dislikes, bad encounters and impressions.
Man, it's just soo difficult.

But really wanna thank my mom,
she blessed me with a new handphone and sim card,
she said it's the last x'mas gift from my dad.
And offered to pay my bill for the first month,
because first payment is for 2 months.
and sponsored my braces next year
because my dad promised me earlier on.
I really loved my parents lots man!
I really feel that i got the best parents on earth.
They are super nice and super friendly!

After i moved to punggol.
Had curfew till 1opm.
I was really having a GREAT BIG problem with it,
i couldn reach home on time.
Everywhere i go, have to leave at 8.30
because punggol is very new, very inaccessible.
Not much amenities there too.

Thank God,
My sister say she's gonna extend it to 11pm,
from next week onwards.
Now i can finally attend cg and enjoy fellowship,
moreover multiplication is near.

This week was really blessed.
Sorted out many of my thoughts.
It was good la.
Everything truly happens for a reason.
God is good all the time(:

(:(:(:

I finally can go online!
Im still lazy to update blog.
Im now staying at Punggol,
Really feel like marionette.
I really wished that
I could rent a place outside on my own.
Tampines, Bedok area,
So much better and accessible.
Soo much more freedom,
Sooo much more joy,
Many many more...

Too many things had happened,
and all at the same time.
A great sacrifice in return for many blessings.
Nonetheless, I still love God.
I believe everything happened for a reason.
Learn many many things too.
Time to wake up and start anew!


I realised through many events that
though I have a lot of friends.
But bosom friends,
Can be count with just 1 hand.
Most of the time i feel so lonely!
even when friends are around me,
i still feel soo lonely, so alone.
Maybe it's just me that is too inapproachable?
or just me that thinks too much.


Feel so slacken nowadays,
In many many areas.
it's time to charged up again.
Seems to be on vacation for too long,


The feeling is so funny,
Waiting for things to clear up,
Waiting for permission and stuff.

Man, I feel soo funny nowadays,
So limited and so helpless!
Sooo not me, arggh!

(:(:(:(:(:(:

Im reading the book : The kiss of Heaven

I feel that this part is really applicable

"In Exodus 36,
We read about the people who labored to build God's tabernacle. Every skilled person to whom the Lord has given ability and skill was willing to come and give to do the work, driven by their dream to build a magnificent temple that would be worthy of housing His glory. God is calling you to use your gifts and develop your skills to serve the world in some way. His plans and purpose for you outweigh anything you could ever imagine. He has made His intention clear for us saying in

Jeremiah 29: 11 -13
11: For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil,to give you a future and a hope
12: Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you
13: And you will seek Me and find Me When you search for me with all your heart "


I think this whole part impacted me a lot.
If only we have the desire to build God something worthy of His glory. If only we are willing to give everything we possess for God's kingdom. Breakthrough will definitely come into our lives.

I was thinking yesterday,

The generation now will eventually grow old and die.
Wad will we become when we grow up?
Will I really become World Shaker and History maker?

Who will be the next
Author like : John bevere, Mary Baxter
Worshipper like : Darlene Zschech, Reuben Morgan?
Preachers around the world like : Pastor.Kong, Benny Hinn, Mike Connell

What will i become when i grow up?
Wad is my calling and my purpose in life?

I dun wanna be tied down with career or things when i grow up.
I wanna continue running this race.
But sometimes i fear,
when i grow old,
wad will become of me.


MANY ARE CALLED,
FEW ARE CHOSEN,
FAITHFULNESS IS THE KEY

Daddy God, please help me to stay faithful,
and to draw strength from you to overcome all obstacles.
Amen.

PERSEVERENCE

Darkness may come,
Trials seems so long,
You are the LIGHT,
I Depend on.
Through valleys and storms,
Your word keep me strong,
My shelter, refuge and storms,
I TRUST IN YOU.

Everyday I live I noe, You are my God,
I lift my face and look to You my Lord.
Even when the mountains tremble
and a thousand fall,
I'll stand with you,
My Jesus, Take my all.

I was just thinking on the bus,
listening on the MP3,
and i had a revelation.


When im going thru storms in my life,
When things arent going my way,
When Im broken, sad, tired
feeling negative all these.
I seek God, pray and cry out to him.
Singing songs after songs with conviction.
Telling God that i surrender to Him.
Everything of me belongs to Him,
He's my peace, shelter and everything.
Calling out to him with my heart and soul.
When God touched me,
Im recharge and everything seems to be okay ald.
And then i thank God for everything.

After a while, when everythings seems fine,
Things are going well for me,
I will neglect God again.
I will think that without God i still can manage.
Pride will start forming and everything will be back.
I will eventually fall again.

So Just feel that in everything,
must really give thanks to God,
Without him we are really nothing.
Nothing at all.

God is always dere for us,
Thru thick and thins.
Must not take him for granted.

I LOVE YOU MY DADDY GOD
FOREVER AND EVER MORE
AMEN.

Went out today with beehwa and the AUSTRALIAN Lorraine.
So many funny things happen la.
I didn go for afternoon program because it's chinese.
Meet at 4.30 after school at simei,
den went Lorraine's condo to swim,

Being out with an AUSTRALIAN,
i was wet before i even reach that place,
the AUSTRALIAN poured water onto me,
and i was like wet before i swim!
After swimming for like bout 45 mins,
it began to drizzle,
and we went to the suana.
Super shiok! and Beehwa sweat a little only.
went there for bout half hour,
super SHIOK!

Den after that went to Lorraine's place,
den to East point to eat the chicken rice.
Heard from quite a number that it was nice.
And she forgot how to order food

The AUSTRALIAN soo funny,
bubbletea = bubble cup.
She ordered colourful jelly,
but after beehwa told here there's mini pearl.
She immediately SHOUT out!
"BU YAO! BU YAO! BU YAO!"
She was super agitated!
I exchange glances with beehwa and we laughed!
She macham want save her baby lidat.
I burst out laughing for very long!

And the AUSTRALIAN again so funny,
went to value shop and she was like soo cheap so cheap!
Den went to pay,
she was like,
"it's liang kuai shi rite? ($2.10 in chinese)
i laughed den she was like
"It's liang kuai shi cent rite!"
Den i told beehwa and we laughed.
It's "liang kuai yi!"
Den she ask the person to separate the carrier in chinese,
and the person like dun understand.

It's super funny la today!
I enjoyed myself!
Love LORRAINE!
I really treasure the short time that u were here,
mus come back really soon,
i'll miss u a LOT a LOT!
LOOVVVEEEDDD.
**HUGS

Took some photos before she left.

Went out with noodles today! :DD
Didn meet for almost a week le.

We meet at Tampines mall,
went to watch movie.
I wanted to watch the horror movie
or Dun messed with the Zohan.
But cant, NC 16 ARGH!
In the end we watch HanCock!
Funny movie.
I was shock by one commercial and i literally jump!
1 part touching but the ending was good!
The girl is also superrr HOT!
Nice eyes! :DDD

After that went to ehub!
It was nice to be with noodles.
After soo long!
Went dinner together den walk to whitesand.
Played at the playground first.
Use the swing den dey push me sideway!
Super scary la!
Bee was screaming for help,
but i didn noe it was so scary until dey do on me!
Den after that took train with them.
Wanted to stop at bedok,
but i missed my stop!
HAHA

I enjoyed myself today
LOVE NOOOOODLESSS :)))