Im reading the book : The kiss of Heaven

I feel that this part is really applicable

"In Exodus 36,
We read about the people who labored to build God's tabernacle. Every skilled person to whom the Lord has given ability and skill was willing to come and give to do the work, driven by their dream to build a magnificent temple that would be worthy of housing His glory. God is calling you to use your gifts and develop your skills to serve the world in some way. His plans and purpose for you outweigh anything you could ever imagine. He has made His intention clear for us saying in

Jeremiah 29: 11 -13
11: For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil,to give you a future and a hope
12: Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you
13: And you will seek Me and find Me When you search for me with all your heart "


I think this whole part impacted me a lot.
If only we have the desire to build God something worthy of His glory. If only we are willing to give everything we possess for God's kingdom. Breakthrough will definitely come into our lives.

I was thinking yesterday,

The generation now will eventually grow old and die.
Wad will we become when we grow up?
Will I really become World Shaker and History maker?

Who will be the next
Author like : John bevere, Mary Baxter
Worshipper like : Darlene Zschech, Reuben Morgan?
Preachers around the world like : Pastor.Kong, Benny Hinn, Mike Connell

What will i become when i grow up?
Wad is my calling and my purpose in life?

I dun wanna be tied down with career or things when i grow up.
I wanna continue running this race.
But sometimes i fear,
when i grow old,
wad will become of me.


MANY ARE CALLED,
FEW ARE CHOSEN,
FAITHFULNESS IS THE KEY

Daddy God, please help me to stay faithful,
and to draw strength from you to overcome all obstacles.
Amen.

PERSEVERENCE

Darkness may come,
Trials seems so long,
You are the LIGHT,
I Depend on.
Through valleys and storms,
Your word keep me strong,
My shelter, refuge and storms,
I TRUST IN YOU.

Everyday I live I noe, You are my God,
I lift my face and look to You my Lord.
Even when the mountains tremble
and a thousand fall,
I'll stand with you,
My Jesus, Take my all.

I was just thinking on the bus,
listening on the MP3,
and i had a revelation.


When im going thru storms in my life,
When things arent going my way,
When Im broken, sad, tired
feeling negative all these.
I seek God, pray and cry out to him.
Singing songs after songs with conviction.
Telling God that i surrender to Him.
Everything of me belongs to Him,
He's my peace, shelter and everything.
Calling out to him with my heart and soul.
When God touched me,
Im recharge and everything seems to be okay ald.
And then i thank God for everything.

After a while, when everythings seems fine,
Things are going well for me,
I will neglect God again.
I will think that without God i still can manage.
Pride will start forming and everything will be back.
I will eventually fall again.

So Just feel that in everything,
must really give thanks to God,
Without him we are really nothing.
Nothing at all.

God is always dere for us,
Thru thick and thins.
Must not take him for granted.

I LOVE YOU MY DADDY GOD
FOREVER AND EVER MORE
AMEN.

Went out today with beehwa and the AUSTRALIAN Lorraine.
So many funny things happen la.
I didn go for afternoon program because it's chinese.
Meet at 4.30 after school at simei,
den went Lorraine's condo to swim,

Being out with an AUSTRALIAN,
i was wet before i even reach that place,
the AUSTRALIAN poured water onto me,
and i was like wet before i swim!
After swimming for like bout 45 mins,
it began to drizzle,
and we went to the suana.
Super shiok! and Beehwa sweat a little only.
went there for bout half hour,
super SHIOK!

Den after that went to Lorraine's place,
den to East point to eat the chicken rice.
Heard from quite a number that it was nice.
And she forgot how to order food

The AUSTRALIAN soo funny,
bubbletea = bubble cup.
She ordered colourful jelly,
but after beehwa told here there's mini pearl.
She immediately SHOUT out!
"BU YAO! BU YAO! BU YAO!"
She was super agitated!
I exchange glances with beehwa and we laughed!
She macham want save her baby lidat.
I burst out laughing for very long!

And the AUSTRALIAN again so funny,
went to value shop and she was like soo cheap so cheap!
Den went to pay,
she was like,
"it's liang kuai shi rite? ($2.10 in chinese)
i laughed den she was like
"It's liang kuai shi cent rite!"
Den i told beehwa and we laughed.
It's "liang kuai yi!"
Den she ask the person to separate the carrier in chinese,
and the person like dun understand.

It's super funny la today!
I enjoyed myself!
Love LORRAINE!
I really treasure the short time that u were here,
mus come back really soon,
i'll miss u a LOT a LOT!
LOOVVVEEEDDD.
**HUGS

Took some photos before she left.

Went out with noodles today! :DD
Didn meet for almost a week le.

We meet at Tampines mall,
went to watch movie.
I wanted to watch the horror movie
or Dun messed with the Zohan.
But cant, NC 16 ARGH!
In the end we watch HanCock!
Funny movie.
I was shock by one commercial and i literally jump!
1 part touching but the ending was good!
The girl is also superrr HOT!
Nice eyes! :DDD

After that went to ehub!
It was nice to be with noodles.
After soo long!
Went dinner together den walk to whitesand.
Played at the playground first.
Use the swing den dey push me sideway!
Super scary la!
Bee was screaming for help,
but i didn noe it was so scary until dey do on me!
Den after that took train with them.
Wanted to stop at bedok,
but i missed my stop!
HAHA

I enjoyed myself today
LOVE NOOOOODLESSS :)))

This week service is good!
Seeing them being delivered sent tears of joy to my eyes.
Learn some key things.

#1 : Emotions indicate the conditions of your heart,
not to control you.
#2 : Make disappointment into a stepping stone,
to expand ur territory and grow!
#3 : Dun keep enduring, release everything under
the pressence of God.

Learn this 3 things during service.
And to dun form barrier around our heart.
Dun becoz of a hurt, wrap ur heart wth protective layer.
Let God do the restoration for us.
Amen! This week service is great!
:DDD

Had Bio experiment on Thurs.
I took photo of the image in the microscope
HAHA,
Im so sua ku! But i dun care.
HAHAHA.


Onion / hydrilla cell

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My Cheek Cell.
I scrap den dun have,
den i scapr more den in the come out a lot!


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I wanted try my strand of hair,
but no more time.
Mr. Mukmien is going reservice. so sad!
I hope Mr.Mukmien can survive and come back soon ;DD

I'll be going service a few hours later.
Super exicted!
Cellgroup yesterday was great!
Praise and worship is good,
The pressence of God is strong too.
Breaking down every walls of unforgiveness,
receiving god's love and forgiveness.
It's just great!
I wanna spread this great love around.
The love of God is sufficient to fill my love tank.
I dun nid BGR or wadsoever love.
God's love is all i nid.
:DDD

I read in my book, Grotesque.
A crime novel of 2 protitute from elite sch.
They were both murdered.

I read this paragraph
(Dun mind the names)

"In contrast to Mitsuru and me-who knew how to polish our natural gifts in order to survive-Kazue was overly ignorant of her own self. A woman who does not know herself has no choice other than to live with other people's evaluation. But no one can adapt perfectly to public opinion. And herein lies the source of their destruction."

I dunno why but somehow i agree to a certain extent in that paragraph. It says out how i feel about a woman's adaptibility or ability to survive to a certain extent. A woman' s nature?

I think the world is full of hypocrites.
If only everyone could be who they really are.
Mean and do wad they say.
The world would be a better place.

Today is a bad day.
REN REN REN!
Super irritated by Ms.Chua
I really on the verge to scold back le,
think we her dog ar.
Happy den ar girl here ar girl dere.
Not happy ask us to eat shit and die.
Super pissed off.
For nothing scold me.
Skipped one afternoon programe only.
And im like not the only one.
And eriously it wouldn help much,
and moreover it's not even the subject she teach.
Also i dun always give empty promises lor.
I really go home try do those assignments as i promised.
But i really dunno how do wad.
Asked her teach me she not free,
not my fault wad,
I mean i pay school fee for the teachers to teach wad.
Den she say im not suppose to
go school as and when i like.
CRAP.
Obviously i dun go when i really dun feel like wad.
Not like she can do anything.
And every teachers always say.
"U are responsible for ur own learning"
So im the one responsible for my own Learning wad.
Wah, buay tahan lei!
I was like controlling and controlling.
Den after still ask me sarcastically when hand up maths file.
Give me that kind of smile.
It's so wad lar!

ARRGGHH!
People have limits de lor.
Students have students rights.

It's Pastor.Mike this weekend.
So excited for this week service!
It's gonna be great!

If u happen to read this,
Please pray for my school revival.
HaiSing Catholic Revival!
I want it to happen!
I want great outpouring of spirit in my school.
Where people starts praising God,
Life changing everywhere.
Even teachers will start noticing.
I want HaiSing to shake the world!
To make my school a better place,
Where people starts maturing with God in them.
Maturing mentally and spiritually.
Im sure if that happens,
I will rarely skip school.
I will go school with expectancy,
i want Haising to be the next Antioch church!
Where people starts reaching out everywhere,
Not just stopping at Haising,
but really throughout the nation.
Hallelujah, Amen.

Just the thought of it makes my day,
I want it Daddy God!:DD

HELLO :DD
I've receive smses to encourage me.
Thanks a lot especially Ronnie and Weilong.
Thanks for the encouragement,
No worries,
Im not sad or emo-ing.
Jus thinking through things only.
Im still super high and happy okay
:DD


THANK GOD FOR FRIENDS LIKE U BOTH
:DDDD

I've been reading a book on the diary of prostitute.
And i really sympathy them.
I ask BeeHwa how she feel about prostitute.

(F) Mate --> BeeHwa
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com --> Amelia

(F) Mate says:
Lol.
(F) Mate says:
Not all prostitude are good.
(F) Mate says:
only some.
(F) Mate says:
for me. i think they sucks.
(F) Mate says:
there are always way out in life. why so cheap. sell your body.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
but maybe they have difficulties in their live
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
maybe some are force becoz of family circumstances? some maybe they feel lonely, loveless?
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
some might just have their desire to want a man because they are born lidaT?
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
prostitution could be a career.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
just a negative one
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
hmm, i think prostitute are so ke lian
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
but maybe they dun feel that way
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
could be a way that actually find love
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
a way that is wad we normal children dun understand ba
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
maybe we think that it is betraying their body and their soul
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
but maybe to them,
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
is just the way they are
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
like us , we are born to study and learn
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
maybe som brought up in a way to fulfil man's desire"
(F) Mate says:
What's with born to fulfil man's desire. what's so great about man that women needs to fulfil their desire using their body? since it's a negative career than how could it be a good career. like I say, thr are always ways out in life. force under family circumstances aint an excuse for selling your body. THough it was easy money. But you're hurting yourself, betraying yourself.
(F) Mate says:
so how could this type of job be okay?
(F) Mate says:
if someone is born like that. it would be really terrible than.
(F) Mate says:
i'll never agree in selling their body. i rather work hard than to earn this type of easy money.
(F) Mate says:
i'll feel really dirty.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
yeap , same her e
(F) Mate says:
since this is their choice. than i dont even feel kelian for 'em. since they dont even know how to love themselves.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
but the thing is, wad if they dun have their rights, maybe u think they have a choice to make for themself, but sometimes circumstances around them left them with little choices to choose from. The way we are brought up is different form them. We are brought up knowing how to love ourself and the importance of protecting our body, but maybe they never learn before? they dunno wad is sex and wad will happen to them in an intercourse, or they themself is not aware that they are being used.
(F) Mate says:
It's really impossible for 'em not to know the consequences for having multiple sex partner. they will definately hear stories about it from their co-worker.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
wad if they kena cheated the first time
(F) Mate says:
whr can you be fcuk-ed without knowing yourself? (besides being raped)
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
den subsequent they gave up hope on themself
(F) Mate says:
When you've got cheated once. Why do it again?
(F) Mate says:
Since you were so unwilling?
(F) Mate says:
Hope is given to you by yourself. Not others.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
lol, why use the word 'u'
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
LOL!
(F) Mate says:
LOL!
(F) Mate says:
No lah. Referring to the character~
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
as in , when u were a baby, no body explain the word sex to u, den u will never know wad is sex. Maybe one is not aware, force into a room with a guy she doesn noe, suspecting nothin, she didn even noe that she was rape because she doesn noe wad is sex. she might sense something wrong but she doesn noe wad is it. After realising the fact, she gets all dirty and cried and utterly disappointed in herself, because of hatred an everything, she decided to go into prostitution, to avenge the guy that rape her
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
thought out of hatred choose prostitution bu zi de ke lian, but dun u think is very ke lian her background. she chose prostitution because of wad had happen earlier to her. to me i feel ery kelian for a person lidat
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
;((((
(F) Mate says:
I feel that this is base on how the person is like one. You see. If I were the one. I wouldnt wna dirty myself again.
(F) Mate says:
work hard and try to forget what happen. use millions and zillions of words to console myself.
(F) Mate says:
try to start afreash.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
yeap , true, but i still will ke lian the person
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
u lei?
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
how will u feel?
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
wad is ur opinion of that girl in my story ? i made it up , HAHA
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
too engross in my storybook
(F) Mate says:
For what had happen to her is really very sad. like, worth sympathic. But i dont think by making yourself cheaper and cheaper each time is worth any sympathic.
(F) Mate says:
For every once that she fcuk with a guy for those easy money. or that she give up herself and become a prostitude, it simply reminds her more and more of her past-time. So not worth.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
maybe not because of money, money may not be 1st, it could be emotional hurt. hurt by the first time. Emotional hurts not easy to heal.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
I will feeel very bad for that kind of poeple
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
if watch movie like that i think i'll cry out lol!
(F) Mate says:
Yeah. Like I say, making herself cheaper and cheaper each time doesnt worth any sympathic from me.
(F) Mate says:
since it's emotion hurt should you be trying to make yourself forget what's hurting you? Why rub on to your wound by doing what's making your wound hurt?
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
to release the hatred she harboured for the man, to release the dirtiness she felt herself, to hate herself for being too naive to force into doing it. to be release
(F) Mate says:
How could you be released whenyou're rubbing to your wound?! Like hello! The guys gaining advantage if she's being fcuk-ed by him. ISNT IT?
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
relax relax! im making up stories that im engross now
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
hmm, have u heard of stories that in oversea
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
america students fuck each other because they hate each other
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
difference ppl different mindset.
(F) Mate says:
If she wants to release her hatred for guys she should try to overtake 'em in everything instead.
(F) Mate says:
But cannot everything also used differnt people different mindset to cover ah!
(F) Mate says:
It may be diff people diff mindset. But thr are also right mindset and wrong ones
(F) Mate says:
Ha. Than too bad for america students.
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
rubbing salt into wound might mak them happy?
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
happy in terms of pai
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
pain*
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
because of circumstances
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
it mades them crazy
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
crazy till the intensity of the pain cause them to feel release
amelia RIANE thatnerdd.blogspot.com says:
so ke lian!
(F) Mate says:
Than they are sick in mind already. so what is thr to talk about this type of people?
(F) Mate says:
For me, I dont care about 'em. They are polluting the world.
(F) Mate says:
Making the lovely world I always wanted further and further.

SUPER NICE SONG.
Heart of a servant! ;DD

STANDING IN AWE OF YOUR
GRACE
SETTING MY FEET IN YOUR
WAYS
ENTERING INTO YOUR PRESENCE
TO BEHOLD YOU FACE TO FACE

GOD OF ALL HEAVEN AND EARTH
HOLDING ME IN YOUR EMBRACE
UNFAILING LOVE THAT SURROUNDS ME
OH..GOD I STAND AMAZED

MY JESUS, MY LORD
YOU’RE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE
WHEREVER YOU GO
WANNA BE BY YOUR SIDE

NO LONGER I
BUT CHRIST LIVING IN ME
SERVING YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY

MY EYES SET ON YOU
IN THIS RACE THAT I RUN
NO LONGER MY WAYS
LET YOUR WILL BE DONE
MAKE ME A SERVANT
MY HEART'S EVER TRUE

CLINGING TO THE CROSS
I'LL FOLLOW YOU
I'LL FOLLOW YOU

But i cant find the song on the net.
Sigh.

Natalie ask me to do this quiz,
i wanted to go offline,
but i decided to do.
If u are curious, click the following link
http://memoriter.net/flash/test.html
before reading below

Personality test
Blue: Question and my answer
Italics : Answer

1. Put this 5 animals in order of your preference
(Cow, Tiger, Horse, Sheep, Pig)

Sheep Love
Horse Family
Tiger Pride
Cow Career
Pig Money


2.Write 1 word that describe one of the following
(Dog, Cat, Rat, Coffee, Sea)

Loyalty My personality
Sluttish My partner's personality
Disgustin My enemies personality
Relaxing My interpretation on sex
Comfortable My life

3. Think of someone who knows you and is important to you,
which can relate to the following colours.
(Yellow, Orange, Red, White, Green)

Benjamin Someone i will never forget
Waiyin Someone i consider as true friend
BeeHwa Someone i really love
God My Twin soul!
Elizabeth Someone i will remember for the rest of my life



Kinda of accurate.
Kind of.
Not all
;DD

I was walking home the day before yesterday.
On my way home,
I was thinking if i die, my funeral,

How many people will turn up,
How many people will actually feel sad,
How many people will actually cry.
How many people will feel the loss,
How many people life will change if i die,

How will my family cope,
Wad will happen to my parents,
Wad about my siblings,
Wad changes will there be in my house,

How long will people remember me,
Wad of me will they remember,
How many people will actually remember me.
How many people will visit my grave
and when will be the last time my grave will be visited.

I feel so pessimistic,
but seriously,
i have no answer to my question,
maybe i should set up a poll?
Hahahahaaa.
Shall see....




amelia RIANE goh

I miss my past.
I wan back my condo.

I slept just now, short 3 hours,
and i had a dream.
I dreamt that My family and
I move back to our condo,
and my grandmother is still alive.
I dunno why the random dream.
The dream felt so real!
But after a while in my dream,
my grandmother pass away.
And im super sad.
I couldn stop crying,
and ppl around me are like consoling me,
and we were all in my condo,
my good friends all there around me.
Super Random .

I wan back my last time life.
I wan my grandmother,
I wan my condominium.
I wan my grades back.
I wan all my good frens.
Especially 1 very good fren.

I lost so many things.
In just that 1 year.
If i knew this would happen,
I will never splurge my money like i used too.
I will be more mature.

I missed my grandmother now lar.
I missed my past.
I want back my happy family,
and the only House i had.

;(((

I sleep a lot this few days,
I slept at 9 yesterday and i overslept today.
I woke up at 5.45 instead of 5.20.
And i have to take MRT to school.
Reach school le super tired.
I can sleep while walking i tell u!

I tried very hard to stay awake during
History and POA class.
I didn noe i fell asleep,
my head wasn even on the table.
Mdm.Zaibon is like giving theory,
i open my eye very big and look at her,
if not sure will sleep one.
somehow it just close.
I didn noe until a open it a while later,
She was staring at me.
But the rest of the day i was quite awake

Ms.Ng give us lesson in her office,
Give us food to eat.
Give us the food that Zhengping brought from china.
And ask us to finish her grapes.
Ms.Ng is really good,
Though strict,
but she is really a good cher.

I wants to sleep whole day.
I want sleep.
I NID SLEEP!
Im gonna spend my full Youth day sleeping at home!
YAWNN