simplicity please..

hmmm if those of u have noticed my current nickname is about why we cant be like those innocent little kids. Why do we have to grow up and feel all the complexity!? why cant we just stay the way we were? all simple-minded.

let's see as we grow older we enter into a lot of decision-making junctions. and then we have to make choices not knowing the consequence neither the outcome. as we grow older we know what is meant by wrong choice, bad choice and good choices. But look at little kids. Whatever they do are so experimental, not caring whether it is a good thing, bad or wrongful things to do.

Being a grown up is also faced by a lot of uncertainties, and the complexity of being able to survive in this world. u face a lot of risks in all the decision. And sometimes we just cant run away from these decision makings. At times we are in a dilemma. Stuck in between two choices with unknown outcome. Dont u just see this in most aspects of ur life? be it a relationship, be it making choices of the course u r going to take, be it deciding what path in life to take.

Look at little children all the things that they do, they dare to do it. They are not even afraid of making mistake. They believe in everything they do and look at their faith. Look at their trust. It is often 90% to 100 %. unless u tell them that this is wrong and that is wrong. then it will always be only 30% trust.

As a kid, i was one mischievious kid, loud, boisterous, tomboy and really naughty. But i remembered how i always make other laugh with my stupidity or mischiefs. I have always love to eat grapes. And once when i was a kid of about 5 years of age, Dad bought grapes and told us the kids not to eat them since it was meant for some guests or sumting like that. Know what i did. While all the adults were so busy into their conversation, i opened up my fridge and took some grapes and quickly hide behind the curtain (thinking that none of the adults would see me) and savouring each grapes that i managed to take. ANd then at the next moment i know.. My aunt spotted me and opened up the curtain! And yeah all the adult all looked at me, so amused that im actually hiding behind the curtain eating stolen grapes. And all i could gave them were my sweetest and most innocent smile.

Another time, i was so naughty that i actually caused my lil brother to be almost hospitalised. Cos while playing, i pushed him towards the table and he hit his head. He was bleeding profusely and had to be stitched up for it. I got one hell of a scolding from both mum and dad. And yeah i only felt a little guilty for it.

Nata was telling me some of her funniest childhood stories. They all showed how she at that point acted so smart but actually come to think about it, it's very stupid! But that is what innocence is all about! And yeah nat.. u've got to be proud of it.

Being a grown up also gives lots of headaches about relationship!(since every1 seems to be talking abt tiz, so i shall follow and blog abt it) Let's see you are in a position where u like someone. But you dunno whether the other party likes u and as you know more abt that person, you find yourself falling deeper and yet you see no response from the other party. Should you continue in trying to woo her? Or should you not? My advice has always been it's better to try it cos though you didnt manage to be with that person, at least you tried. Rather than giving up even before trying. But is it that simple? It takes a lot of determination. It takes a lot of courage and definitely mental preparation. Be prepared for being in a lot of heart aches. Be prepared to know that she may like someone else. Be prepared to also be trying very hard to chase and let the other party felt ur feelings. It is hard and it gets discouraging at times. How much perseverance do we have to deal with all this?

Oh actually this topic isnt fun anymore.. Let's move to the difference of best friend and bf/gf? To me (at least) the difference is really only the physical involvement. What do i mean by that. Best friends do not smooch and make out. Other than that, they are free to give hugs, hold hands just like bf/gf. ANd definitely they tell each other everythign to the other parties rite? i mean u tell ur best friend everything and anythign under the sun! Sometimes u even gossip about ur respective partners. Bf/gf also tell one another everything and anything rite? bEst Friends also love one another, unless u have a diff meaning of best friends than me. To me bEst FrienDs are no different frm my partner except yah the physical involvement. Dont u agreee with me?

ANyway back to the little innocent kids. Why do i suddenly thot of wanting to be little kids? Cos i see that somehow now that im older, i just wish that everything is simple. I look at the people around me being surrounded with dilemmas. I see how i may also at 1 point in time have to face the same thing. And sometimes i just cant see how i can help these people, so i ended up thinking why is the world so complex. Why is the adult world can never be simple as ABC? Why cant we just have ABC and foget about alpha, beta, gamma. Whenever i look at my niece, i just wish that she never grow up! I cannot imagine how she would turn out when she grows up! The looks that my niece always give me just makes me so envious of her. Look at her life. It's just playing and playing. Why does the world needs money also! We work hard to support ourselves. We study hard to find a job with a decent pay! Everything eventually boils down to money. The money that we lose to get education is gonna be reclaimed when we start working. The money we spend on things will be replenish. THe money we save will also be finish in the end. SO why is there money if everything will just be the same. it's all in a cycle.

Bear with my nonsense here. It is probably due to the lack of sleep since my parents are here. I know somehow im not making sense! But i am just writing how i felt! =p.

Oh life's been heavenly for me and nata (i hope she does). Well my mum cooked up a storm and gosh! the food can really last us for weeks i think! Everyday there is food for us to eat! in the morning when my parents go for their morning walk, they would always buy breakfast! hmmm this morning i had porridge.. though i stole some from my dad! tomorrow they have ba chang!! yummy! Oh yeah got a hi-fi set for my bday!!! hahahaha of cos from them! And we have an additional member to the family of house-cleaning apparatus! Got a new vacuum cleaner! hahaha. Cleaning will be a breeze from now on! ^_^

Thanks to Elaine, my room looks heavenly and even more cosy! she and her sis got me 2 coffee table which i connect them to look like a study table. they are in 2 colours light blue and white. And she helped me arrange it in a way that when i study, i can see the view outside! And then i put the carpet at that corner too! plus all the pillows! but i think i wanna get those big huge pillows! hmmmmm... another time i shall take a pic of the room k??

finally the bday pic!!!!... finally mel passed all the pics..  

i like this pic..  

fusta lyd and me.. fusta is supposedly lyd's wife, lyd's my wife.... 

the picture that nata had been waiting for.... =) yeap i went on my knees for her.. O_o... 

Hear the Good news.

Hear the good news; While we were yet sinners, God sent His beloved Son, Jesus Christ to redeem and atone our sins. Jesus was crucified, died and buried. And on the 3rd day, He rose from the dead.

Happy Easter everyone. Hope u had eaten ur eggs?? Well they symbolise new lives. Our new lives after God had redeemed us.

Anyway, may not blog so much since mum and dad are here.. yeap they are sleeping rite now while im here, disturbing nata in her room! hahah.. They brought lotssss of food here.. yummmy.. hehhehe

Trust His Heart

jus came back from Sbass's church in Bt Batok. Again it's indo service, but i decided to come since they have a musical drama there. It is the story of Joseph son of Jacob. How he stood and believed in God in every moment of his life. When he felt left, and unreached and struggled in his life, he places his trust in God. The choir sang this song


Trust His Heart

All things work for our good
Though sometimes we cant see how they could
struggles that break our hearts in 2 sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
so when your pathway grows dim
And you just can't see Him
Remember you are never alone

Ref:
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you dont understand
when you dont see His plan,
when you cant trace His hands,
TRUST HIS HEART.

He sees the master plan
He holds the future in His hands
So dont live as those who have no hope,
All our hope is found in Him
We see the present clearly
But He sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry
He's weaving you and me
To someday just be like Him

ref

Bridge:

He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you

ref.

a different Good Friday than the rest.

I just came back from an indo service. Apparently he is pretty well known speaker and supposedly to be very good. He is good but i do not the harsh approach as well as the too theological and idealistic ideas of his.

But he raised some good points though despite those flaws. He iterated that actually the best day in Christian calendar is not Christmas. Neither is Easter. But it is actually Good Friday! It is easy for God to send His son to be born as well as to ressurect His son. Afterall He is God. But to send His son to die to redeem OuR sins is greater than any other things. He showed how much He loved us. And i really like that! That point that he said got me thinking and thinking. ANyway this is kinda the few times that i actually understand indo sermons.

What is Love? To me now, the definition of love has changed. A definiton that i think can cover all kinds of love. In 1John 3:16, This is how we know what love is; Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. Love is giving. Love is sacrificing. Giving time, sacrificing our needs, giving way and foremost sacrificing ourselves for our loved ones. To me that is true love.

But i dont like the way he is always comparing things. He spoke about holy communion. How people misunderstood the meaning of body and blood of Christ. Some says that the bread that we partake is the body, while some says it symbolises it. But the actual meaning that was given by sumone (i forgot who) was that when we partake the bread and wine, our faith recognizes the presence of Christ the Lord in us. He(the preacher) kind of condemned Catholics who have all these while been tricked into thinking that they are eating the flesh of Christ and Blood of Jesus. And defintely this had kind of make Hana felt offended. Hana left the church after that. I find that whatever teachings that He want to make or whether he feels tht other religions are not right, he should know show it such harsh way! By saying this, he will create a religious disharmony as people believe everything he says and just went on proclaiming it. Furthermore, as much as i want Christian to be the sole religion on earth, i would not go to the extent of publicly dissing another religion. People make the choice. Just like God gave each man a choice to do what they want. It is just the path they have chosen to believe and whether it was right or wrong, God still tries to bring u back but it is ur choice to accept His help

Oh and he was one fierce preacher too. He scolded someone during his sermon for laughing and being distracted from God's word. I didnt like the way he tries to make himself great by saying how many of sermon CDs had been sold in indo itself and how he is trying to break through into China. I find that it is unnecessary to do so. What is most important was to be humble about it.

When i was unhappy with these points, i remembered my English service church. I felt i missed it so much! Even nata felt the same. This morning we both didnt go to our respective churches since we could not wake up.

Oh we were late just now, but when i got into the church and saw the skit that they were playing. Guilt swept over me again. It was the skit when Peter denied Jesus for three times without even realising it. It was really an eye opener and my heart was wrenched with pain and guilt. Really, tears almost rolled down my cheeks.

Have Mercy On Me,
Have mercy on Me Lord.
Regard my bitter weeping!
Look on me, heart and eyes both weep to thee bitterly.

Police.

I forgot to add about my encounter with a road block last nite. There were 6 of us, so defintely 4 of us sat at the back and Sean said somethign about if we see police make sure we have our seat belts on and that one of the people at the back just bend down or something. On our way home, while going towards the direction of bt timah from clementi road, Sean and I saw the roadblock and we went.."Ohhhh Sh****ttttttt" while the rest thought there was an accident when they saw the roadblock, each of them was jittery (is this the word?). ANyway Sean and I tried to be calm, tried to calm each one so that the policemen was not suspicious of us. ANyway the roadblocks were meant for those cases of drink-driving and we didnt. So i wasnt afraid of anything. Anyway the policemen asked us to go to the roadside and get down from the car. They checked and our ID and warned us that in Singapore only 3 person are allowed to sit at the back. So we were let off after that. One of the policeman thought me and nata are sisters since hung2 and jia2 were twins. hahaha.. Nata was like "how can it be??????" hahaha..

Anyway i guessed it already that there will be roadblocks since it is a public holiday, and at nite people tend to drink drive. But i never guessed that i would meet one. Thank God they were nice policemen.

Good Friday

Slept at 6 am this morning. Last nite Sean, Twins and Tommy (another new friend) came over and brought me and Nata our for supper. This time round we went to Joo Seng. It was very yummy. The thought of food now really makes me hungry. COme to think of it. I ate at this timing as well so it's been 12 hours plus since i last had my meal. No wonder im damn hungry now.

ANyway about last nite's adventure. After eating at Joo Seng, we thot we would just go back as usual and maybe i can go back to doing my work. But who knows Sean didnt want to go home so early. So we went to Mt Faber instead! Yeap, it was damn dark and eerie. Jia2(Delvia) was scared. Hung2(Delria) was also scared. Nata refused to be the last one. So I was at the back with Jia2, with her grabbing my hand most of the time. I had to admit it was pretty scary! When we reached the supposed peak, the view was really beautiful and i had to admit that! Gosh i had a breath-taking view of SIngapore. And then we were really figuring out where is Indo in our loud voices. Yeap disturbed those couples that wanted private time. And i guess we really spoiled their moods (oops). So we stayed there for an hour plus. Just sitting there chit-chatting. Initially we wanted to stay longer, but hung2 was dying already. So made our way back to my house and then we taught jia2 how to play mahjong and i think she kinda grasped the way it's played.

Sean had to go back before 6 since his dad may use the car. So finally they all left at 530 am. Finally i slept at 6 this morning and just woke up at 2.

Last nite while i was at Mt Faber, the peak seems so peaceful though the journey up was so eerie. The moon practically gave us the light we needed. And it just dawns to me that this seem to be like the place where Jesus prayed before He was caught by the Pharisees. And it was also around that hours too. I just couldnt help but think of Him. Even before I slept this morning. Again I thought of Him being caught being denied. And somehow guilt swept over me. While I am supposed to remember this day as He sacrificed His life, and there i was playing mahjong. It is somehow just like Peter denied that He was acquinted to Jesus before the rooster sounded. And it was also during that same timing. I just had to pray my confession to God then.

Last Sunday, i went to Nata's church instead of mine. Well mine was kinda early and i had to give tuition after that. Going to nata's church is a better idea since her church is also much nearer to my student's house. I like the preacher in that church. He gave very clear and simple sermon, that ALL would understand and grasp the points of the sermon and in fact i can still remember his sermons. Anyway before he closed his sermon, he challenged us to find out what kind of Christians are. Or rather Which category of people do we fall into? The pharisee? The Christians who denied Him to save our own skin? Or are we the kind that just sit on the fence and watch what's going on?

It's 3pm now. And it Does seem like it is going to rain. Just like nata wrote in her blog.
his crucifiction started at 12 and He died at 3pm... tatz y at 3pm on Good Friday, it usually rains... it WAS raining 2000years ago when He died, it'd rain again this time, for us to remember His blood washes us all

my personality test

Your scores are below
Overall:
Melancholy:13
Phlegmatic:8
Sanguine:8
Choleric:11

Strengths:
Melancholy:7
Phlegmatic:3
Sanguine:4
Choleric:6

Weakneses:
Melancholy:6
Phlegmatic:5
Sanguine:4
Choleric:5

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Basically I am Melancholy Choleric.

What Kind of Friend Am I?

You Are A Loyal Sidekick

While you aren't the most visable one in your group... You're always up for a good time or conversation And you stick with your friends no matter what You may feel underappreciated - but it only seems that way!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

oh dear!

oh dear! maybe wont be getting my ipod from indo.. i think have to get it either from here or HK.. we are not even sure abt going HK now.. havent loook at the plans yet... if im not going HK, im thinking of Aust.. but since wont have anything to do till 3rd week of May where i will have my mission trainings.

i was just telling this new friend of mine about never having a middle-person to go n chio girls.. and i remembered those days i was a middle person to CY n KY! used to be their go between.. the 2 of them said that they wont talk to each other on the phone during weekdays.. but u know wat! the both of them called me instead and asked me to convey messages... goodness... and i still remembered how thigns got complicated after that.. well i cant really remember them.. Actually being a middle-person is not only meddlesome but troublesome also.. To make the 2 works, you have to give info to both and sometimes a wrong info would make the both of them get misunderstandings. I believe , now, that matters of the heart should be handled by the 2 parties n others should not interfered. hmmm.. i dunno this is wat i gather from those go-between cases.. Just leave everything perfectly natural as it is.. and things will work out nicely and the feeling when u manage to win the heart of that girl will be utterly wonderful feeling. Dont u think?

anyway i did some seduction test thingy! and the result!! goshhh... =p =p =p =p =p

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

I was kinda thinking... What if Lyd (my companion in school) n Nat(someone whose companion, i always look forward to) both find their special someone... Oh no then im kinda left alone hor.. And then i'll be so lonely then... Most probably i will be doing nothign except staring at my com... or maybe i will spend more time burying myself in my books! haiz... things wud be so different i think! =(

Love Number

Your Love Number is

4 You are a creative and expressive lover - a true romantic at heart. An introspective soul, you know exactly how your ideal relationship should be. But if you don't get that ideal, you tend to get a bit pouty and dramatic. You need someone who can roll with the punches, that's for sure!

What Is Your Love Number?

10 people

somehow the idea of writing about 10 special people by hana n nat really intrigues me.
maybe i wont even reach 10! and yeah the idea is no names!!! oh yeah they write about their 10 special people, while i write about how i feel towards these people and wat i wanna say to all this people...

1. You've been a very special friend to me. Though sometime i feel that you dont treat me as special as i do to u! But yah watever! what matters is that I love u no matter wat! All the laughters and bickerings that we often have is just the things that i love doing since it amuses me to see u gone all red with all the naggings or just laughings. You've changed me so much that i dont even realise that i can be like this (for the better of cos). You've brought more ups than downs in my life. Though your hot-temperedness is very "spicy"(hhehe =p) and scary but u will always forget that u are angry at the next moment. Thanks for always being there for me. Hope you will find a guy who will be able to cherish, love and care for u as much as u do to them! For now, i'll always be there for u no matter wat!. N definitely i will not let anyone hurts my friends. defintely not u! especially u!

2. Definitely i dont know how i am going to cope with my studies without u. You've been encouraging, disciplining, nagging at me all these while. You know how hopeless i am with school work and yah without you i dont thnk i will ever manage to get thru this 6 modules this sem. All the days that we meet are always filled with laughters. Everything about you always make me wonder "how did i ever manage to find a friend like you?" truly not one of my friends is like you! That's y u r special to me. Cos u are so unique. But i feel that sometimes u r too perfectionist towards ur work. I know you always strive for the best and that is good but dun get too stressed out yah?! Thanks so much for all that u've done for me.

3. You've been one hell of a friend! You are a true best friend! How you've put yourself into a lot of dramas (unintentionally) defintely if not often amuses me. Okay im referring to those funny ones ok! Sometimes when you put yourself into sad dramas( from the old point of view of me) i would just wonder why are u doing this? but you opened up my eyes to see that you are not putting urself into the drama, you just unintentionally make them look as if it;s a big drama altogether. My life here has been so colourful with our friendship! It's been so long and yet we are still together thru a lot of ups and downs too! But hey we are still the best of friends! I can practically tell u about anything and everything without awkwardness due to our distance! You are a wonderful concillor and listener. Thanks for being there for me whenever i need u!

4. Time has passed so fast and yet we are still friends. I know how much we used to bicker last time. It was just such a fun thing to do daily. It was lke drugs. Dont u think? even till now when we meet, wat would we be without any bickerings?! You are one special friend that i always wanna keep till the day im gone from this earth! Though sometimes u seem unemotional but i know deep inside you arent. Let's always meet up and catch up!

5. We've been close for one period of time when i was still living in the east. Or at least before u find ur special someone. I could tell u and confide in u about evrything. And you will always be there for me no matter wat! I am happy that you found ur special one and i am glad that you've grown to love him so much. But becos of that we have somehow grown apart. And i dont blame u for it. And dont worry.. whenever you need someone to talk, you can always look for me! I will always lend u my ears, my shoulders anything that i can give to u, i will give them to u! But sometimes, you cant blame me for wanting things to be like before.

6. This chilly padi is really fierce. But that is only your outward appearance. Inside you are a wonderful friend who will always stand by your friends no matter wat it takes. She is a pretty emotional friend too! And yeah it's been my pleasure to have her as one of my best friends! You never fail to defend ur friends. To stand up for them, that is what i like about u. And i hope you will stay that way!

7. Okay this one is to a group. Thanks for always creating all the fun in all our outings and meetings. You have brought me smiles and laughters. All our funny candid shots will always be in my memories and my computer so that i will never forget 1 moment of them. Somehow without you guys my house will never be noisy! will never have so much life! Hanging out with u have defintely given me a refreshing start to my days.

8. To another group. Knowing each one of u has opened up my eyes to know that there are better and smarter group of people around. You are my motivation to get my grades since it wud make me look pretty odd one out in the group. Knowing each one of u has widened my indo circle to be even bigger. Though some of us rarely meet but we will never forget to always have a dose of laugh when we meet! It's not fun going for lectures when none of u is around! Seems so pointless. Thank u for being u.. Each one of u is unique and I like it that way!

9. You are a new friend which i hope that u r not befriending me for hidden motives. I know we havent known each other for long but i hope that we will get to know each other better. Cos somehow i have an impression that you will make a wonderful best friend. You are funny in ur own way and it always amuses me to see u how careful u r to keep ur image good (in indo= jaim). Hope tht u will be able to get ur special someone soon! And i wish u all the luck. And just remember that you can always count on me to lend u a listening ear!

10. To another group. You guys have brought me closer to Him. You've guided me and walked with me to know Him on an even closer basis. You've helped me to open up and widen my knowledge about Him. When i've gone astray, you helped get back on track. You 2 have been such a blessing to me. God's very own soldiers to remind me to serve Him. Thank u for all the sharings and I know i can count on you both for help!

Okay basically all i wanna say is thank you my dearest friends.. Each one of u is unique in my life and defintely i can never be thankful enough to God for giving u to me.

so far...

hey havent been blogging constantly.. been pretty busy with my works.. and now more is coming at least most of them are project works so should be pretty okay! oh i havent told the story about 2 weeks ago someone stepped on my bag (dunno who is that guy) during physics lecture i think. He or she spoilt my mp3!!!! my calculator!!! and my umbrella!! urghhhh!! and i didnt even realise that they were broken until the next day when i took out things from my bag! saw that my mp3 was crushed! the screen of my calculator was broken! and the handle of my umbrella was broken in pieces.. I REALLY FELT LIKE STRANGLING THE PERSON!!! though i wanna get an ipod soon! he doesnt need to spoil my current mp3 rite! now all i do in the bus is practically day-dreaming!! urgh!

Almost bought one mp3 just now in school..and it was such a good deal since they had a promotion. But u know wat! it was out of stock and lyd went "then how come it is still included in the brochure if it's out of stock!" Becos u see i got to know the promo thru the brochure.. ah so peeved. But then bro sms-ed me.
bro: jie, have u checked the price of 7610 yet?
me: not yet. still not free
bro: mum asked u to hurry. if possible before she leaves for sg.
me: eh! dun tell me mum is getting u the new phone for ur bday!
bro: yeah lah!
me: hey help me check the price of ipod then! if it's cheaper there get for me k? haha. i dun want ipod mini and ipod shuffle. i want the harddisk the 5 gb one.
bro: ok.

hahah hope my mum will get me one too! since they still owe me my bday present! SO EXCITING. hehehe

talking abt bday presents.. the chair that my cousins supposed to get me was out of stock!!! aRhh!H!!! hix hix hix.. so sad rite.. but sunday we are going to get it from IKEA... hopefully can find a nice one from there..

Oh mum and dad are coming this sunday! cant wait cos they wud be bringing LOTS of FOOD! ENOUGH TO LAST me and Nat for A week! haha.. good food will be in the house... yummy! mum will be cooking home cooked food for us too! they will be here for a week.. =) really excited.. hehehe.. since it is quite possible that they will buy the ipod too! hopefullY! hahaha

anyway last sunday nite while rushing thru my presentation, hung2 and san2 decided to come and they brought Sean Low (gret's fren..this singaporean guy that can speak indo). LAst time i met him before.. and me and nat didnt realise that he was hung and san's friend too! Last time before meeting Sean for the first time, i had this dream ( nat get the dream rite! it wasnt him brainwashing u). In my dream, all of us were having lots of fun in Marina Bay playing kites and all. When it was nite time we all went to have dinner. And (i cant quite remember the dream) Sean just stood up and said that i am not worth it to be nata's friend. And all i remember is that i felt so hurt cos none of the people in the group defended me. I felt so hurt and just disliked Sean from that dream on. I know it;s just a dream but then i dunno the thot of having that dream was bad!!! oh yeah when i met him, he was in the same outfit as the one in my dream! and he looks pretty much the same like the Sean in my dream! so can u imagine the possibility of the dream coming true? so i ended up not talking much to him! BUT that sunday nite,when he first came my face was pretty black. I was like wat the hell is this guy doing in my house! arhhH.. so i pretty much ignored him until all of them were in the room i felt bad to hung and san.. so went into the room as well and just talked and then yeah ended up talking to him. he didnt remmember me so i was like wat the hell, it was just a dream and i changed my mind about him when he helped me with the internet configuration and he also brought us for supper at newton circus.

i am a person that rarely changes my perception over someone unless that person can prove me wrong (which is very rare, they just prove me right instead). Sean proved me wrong and i accepted that and put him in my new circle of friends rite now. I dont know sometimes though i havent met the person, just by hearing things whether good things or bad things, i would just have a bad feeling or a rather strong of dislike. Yeap that's me. Maybe weird to u guys but that's the way i am.

study study study

have to start studying for exam... also must catch up with my lecturers.. up to date i havent been listening to maths webcast.. am currently doing another essay for my GEM course.. okay got a little distracted so went about cleaning the house instead..yeap again me and nata.. anyway yeah as i was saying gotta do lots of studying.. shall minimise going out on weekends.. shall be a homebird and try to keep up with the rest who's gotten good marks... dun feel good abt myself if i cant get grades like those who are always with me.. hix hix.. so please be a good friend and refrain from asking me out.. hehehe.. i promise i will go out with u guys after my exams.. =p It's really hard when i decided not to go out, everybody will just suddenly want to go and play.. the power of temptation really.. like tonite it's rather hard to reject the offer.. ended up having to have my tuition cancelled just to finish up my essay! =( just when i make the decision all sorts of temptations starts coming up! haiz.

Oh anyway i may not be able to go Aust this year =(! hix hix.. my both elder sis wants me to go back. The one in bandung insisted that i must go back so it's impossible if i just go back for 2 weeks.. cos defintely i will be spending a week in Bandung.. and dad will surely kill me if i were to go back for just a week! gosh just the thot having to postpone my aust trip is really killing me.

what lies behind your eyes.. seems so true people.. dun u think??

In your eyes, people see brightness in
everything.... and I mean... EVERYTHING! You're
so optimistic and think of everything as just a
new adverture! You're very energetic, happy,
fun, and loving. Everyone seems to want to be
just like you because you're a great example of
people who live life to its fullest! You don't
really have a sanctuary... That is... Besides
the whole world >.< You love to have a good
time and enjoy yourself among your friends,
family, even strangers or by yourself! However,
being so happy and energetic can also be your
downfall... Some people might see you as a
crazy person who doesn't take anything
seriously, but that's so not true! Just because
you see life better than them doesn't give them
the right to act crabby. Keep living life to
its fullest and hopefully you can drag some
other people along with you ^-^


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i like this pic.. haha.. looks like those that they use for competition... 

seee it;s me and the pink dolphin jumbo 

taking wacky pictures.. 

c sylvia( nata's relative), me and nata.. 

me and what fish is that??? 

where is marlin fish??? 

nata: yiiiiiii.. look at that horrible fish... 

nata..and a bunch of fishes... all the fishes were finding for nemo... 

at the underwater seaworld 

sentosa and escape

gosh couldnt imagine how me nata and her cousin can take 213 pics by ourselves the whole day of sunday! hahhaa.. we went to sentosa basically only went to 3 places there. We went to Underwater Seaworld, Dolphin Lagoon and Musical Fountain! some of the pic were wacky pics too! hahaha.. q

on saturday we went to escape. I had mission training in the morning was thinking of going to my cousin's place for nathan's tea party and then nata called wasking me to go Escape. So i went there and met them and made new friends too! had a whole lot of fun there. Playing the go-kart, wild and wet, panasonic and there;s a new game too.. Oh not forgetting the wet boat!! u know the one that u spray other players.. Yeap i was the attacker!! i sprayed most of them till they were pretty dripping wet! haha.. Wihu was the worst hahaha.. he really was dripping wet! Oh after that game we decided to get even wetter by taking the wild and wet! Nat insisted that she would be wet if she sat in front. And i proved her wrong. I sat at the back while her cousin in the middle. And yeah i was SOAKING WET from TOP to BOTTOM! and mind u our outfit were clothes that we wore to school ( t-shirts and jeans) some were in clothes that is supposed to be worn to Orchard!

After that for the last ride nat made me took the viking ship and gosh my head almost splitted into 2! Each rising up my head almost burst!! Felt so sick after that.. I didnt want to spoil the fun by not taking the ride.. but seriously i really felt sick after that. Oh you know each time we took the wet and wild, our picture will be taken rite.. We posed and got a very nice pic! hahaha so we each bought a picture! Now i put them in the hall for all to see.. Very nice u know.

Oh in sentosa we also took picture with the pink dolphins... They are really cute... will show u the pics later..

He is always with me

Last nite i did my QT and seek God to help me and guide along his way again. I seek him to help me be committed in what i do and to help me concentrate on the things that i need to do. I told him how sometimes i just feel unsure about doing and committing myself. and He gave me his answers in Jeremiah 1:4-8. In this passage, Jeremiah was appointed to be his prophet but he voiced out his fear that he does not know what to do and God gave him this reply. "Do not say 'I am only a child'. You must go to ervyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them for I am with you and will rescue you." Somehow this applies to a lot of aspects in my life. Whether it is being a disciple group leader, committing my time to God, trying to evangelise or even trying to excel in my studies. Somehow the phrase 'I am only a child' really represents me. I am still green and does not know anything. this become my barrier to do great things for Him. The Lord is with me tht i always know but somehoiw this little voice will just keep on springing up in me and taking control of my life. I really need to build up my faith so that i can be determined again as before. He is great and i know that He will guide me .

me and my 2 gals 

me and fusta!  

the 2 jewelries that i got 

my presents 

during the dinner 

with the present from nata, tony and qkho 

me and the birthday cake 

with my buddies from PJ 

this one is during the SAJC concert band performance 

scare the hell out of my wits

had a bad scare this afternoon when nata called to say that the gas in the house leaked. and that sylvia is at home alone, and does not know what to do. she was nagging at me and scolding me when i told her i was the one who cooked this morning. In my mind, how was it possible that i do not switch off the stove properly. Anyway the smell would have been pretty instant. and wouldnt take hours to appear. Anyway nata asked sylv to call the gas man and in my mind, I was like "you shud've asked her to call civil defence" but anyway then i tried to rush home. Was hailing for cabs like mad but none of the cabs are going to my home direction. After 10 mins nat called. "Lin, it wasnt the stove. It was just the rubbish chute fogging!" and i was like "WAT THE......." aiyohhhhhhh scare the hell out of my witz you know. In my mind was what is gonna happen? how can the gas leaked! thank god it wasnt the stove.

im sick

haiz.. fell sick after my bday! yeap maybe too tired then im down with flu. quite a bad flu these 2 days. Most of the time i am half asleep while attending lectures and tutorials. Most of the time very very blur. Today went to do project research in Sim Lim! Thank God we found this uncle who was very willing to assist our primary research. Then went on to police office to look for more research. Oh yeah while at sim lim i came across ipod and i have been thinking of getting it. So i decided to check out the price and the person told me it was $399!!!! i was like wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so cheap!!! i knew outside price was like $488!!! i was like wah i think i shud buy! I thought for a long time. And when i have decided to buy it, who knows that actually that guy told me the wrong price! arghhh.. felt so cheated. haiz. almost bought it u know. aiyohhh.. was really a good deal u know. Once i get that i will not buy a hi-fi liao! but if i find a nice hi-fi, i wud still buy it! hahaa.. okay im thinking of getting my ipod in HK. Im thinking of going there for 3 4 days during the may hol! lydia will most probably be joining me. Anyone wanna come with us? it's a better deal than going to Thailand since 300++ bucks can get u 3-4 days F&E with hotels included.

anyway that is just a plan.. I must plan my time when to go home also! aiyoh.. everyone is asking me to go back indo while i want to travel! i hope australia trip will not be affected.

my bday!

hmmmm let's start with fusta's bbq yesterday! yeap helped her to prepare the food over friday saturday nite.. goodness me.. trying to feed 40 people was really challenging.. was dying when i tried to cook mie goreng..i cooked 6 rounds of mie goreng, till my hands were damn tired! then we had to ferry the food over to PGP and then i had to go for my test! goshhhhh me and lydia was almost late.. Knowing how kan-cheong (nervous) she would be when she's late, we brisk-walked climbing the hills in NUS.. really2 nearly dropped dead i tell u! but at least we were still early and was enjoying the air-con of lt 7A. when we went into the lecture theatre, goshhhhh they didnt even switch on the room conditioning.. It was very very very stuffy! most of the students complained to the invigilator. I started to have running nose then. really bad one. was on the bringe of really collapsing and dropped dead! but of cos i had to survive for the party! Then after the test was over, (thank God!)i went to meet nata and hana at pgp terminal.We then go and helped her to prepare some more food. then more and more people came including tony, hany, harry, hody, qkho and hanjin. Sbass and Leo came next. Then my cousin came over and helped us to set the fire. Must admit he was good man!!! i guess its the army skill! haha.. xiaodi and harry and hany was his assistant.we booked 2 bbq pits, fusta's friend lit the 2nd one. Evryone was starving but we had to wait for some more people to come. Finally we started when everyone was present, including meiyi, sheena, caiying and huijing. We started by singing birthday song ahaha.. definitely in diff languages. Then we attacked the mie goreng.. was glad that every1 said it was very nice.. *grinnnnn* my hard work didnt go to waste. Not long after that, the whole aluminium tray was empty! then we bbq-ed all the food that we prepared, chicken wings, stingray, squids, prawns, otahs, and the best was banana chocolate! yum yum yum! anyway we entertain ourselves mingling with all the NUS people, introducing ourselves and had some entertaining by Askar. He rendered a few songs.. vry few and short actually! Most of fusta's friend then left while the rest of us was playing with the sparklers. We were like those deprived-childhood kids. We finished 3 dozens of them! but definitely the pollution was great man! And we were choking on the smoke.

When it was midnite, my friends "surprised" me with this chocolate cake. Dunno how they managed to hide the cake. Thanks so much guys! Had a wonderful time there.
Got lots of present from everyoneee (thank u people) but im still waiting for my 1 and only expected present!!! the present i hvae been dying to see.. yeap stef's present.. i think most people have seen it except me.. ahhhh... nvm tomorrow is tuesday i guess im expecting it tomorrow.

then on the day itself, i had dinner with nata marisa and lyd.. yeap the 4 of us went t Tony Roma's. Had a good time laughing and chatting over there. we stayed there till the waitress almost chased us out.

anyway thanks for all the presents people.. really had a good time during my bday!

me and nata going for my bday dinner 

me and my fave niece