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There are days where you just wanna be left alone.

There are days you hope that someone is there for you. 

There are days where u want the specific one to be there. 

But these days seems so far away. People annoy you when you wanna be alone. When you want to not be left alone. Everyone is gone. 

I feel like everyone now have their own goals to work on, now they have no time for you anymore. Even those dearest to you. When you start at a new environment, it changes people. For better or for worse. But it seems like some cases is for the worse. Just keep drifting away and be busy with your own work life balance, and leave me alone out there to struggle. To always try too hard for so many things that tire me out. 

I hate to feel like im not important anymore. I hate to know that im not important anymore. I hate to be the only one trying. I hate to not be able to share my own troubles and difficulties i have at work. I hate to not have someone who understands how i feel. 

I feel terrible, neglected. And maybe selfish to want more.