school today was quite funny for the first part! haha tried taking photos of laoshi and she stared at me like i was nuts. hehe no choice but the photos are somewhat blur, sad huh! anyway ive sort of finished the ppt with one missing photo of mrs chan. :)

anyway we were laughing away in maths, especially when she got us to stand up and answer her questions cos the three of us are supposedly ways knowing the answer but not telling it to her so anyway she made us stand and we were giving nonsensical answers and laughing away. laughed till my stomach, my cheeks hurt and there were tears! haha funny. its times like these which make school fun :) and i asked her the happy question finally ! but only the first one and she didnt even answer me, she just went on and on about how.. she can disprove it by giving a example or something :x

anyway after that i got kinda.. mellowed down until i was somewhat.. thinking too much and making myself __________. that always happens, and its rather upsetting ! lol, i feel so constrained in school, its like so sleep and draggy. so unlike me(me as in me)

haha anw the moment i walked out of the school gate, i was really happy ! like for no reason. saw mel, took 171 with her :D and yep i was happy on the bus ! haah i felt freeeeee and training was floating up and down again

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i picked myself up at 7:14 AM
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i wanted to put up a photo of my digusting leg thing, but i decided against it so save YOU from being grossed out; it looks horrifying

my swimming floating up and down the pool was rather enjoyable today, though I really couldnt move. BUT surprisingly my times were okay.. :/

so im staying up to complete the horrible MATHS PORTFOLIO because ... because i have to finish it. and my weekend seems very filled already. ): okay im almost halfway there !

all the exams are starting to freak me out despite the fact that there's a month to go. i cant wait to get the exam timetable, then i can start counting down to the day of my 'fake' freedom. because official freedom starts on the 30nov ((: FREEEE TILL THE END OF THE YEAR !

hmm considering giving tuition to get some extra $$$ hahaha and its fun dont you think? im just afraid that i cant meet up to expectations, that is wats holding me back because according to my mum, quite a few people have asked me (through her so i dont even know) before. BLEHH it sounds fun! and its good to have extra $$$

i shall .. pray about it ! :D

off to complete the last 4 pieces. blah

i picked myself up at 8:02 AM
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i think i should really stop this whole asdfjkl; thing because no one ever meets up to them and i can all asdfjkl; and make myself upset, its all not worth it.

iffy's party yesterday! yep HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY IFFY ! (1 day in advance)
cheryl came to my church ! oh and we took neoprints and ate longjohns! and bought the card. in which i did horrible stuff to iffy's card, im sorry ! >< then we met britt after church and britt talks and laughs really loudly so please dont stand too close to her in buses and trains !! haha ;p

its IBLP this week! but im not going today cos i have to "look after my brother who has CAs this week" so yay because i get to stay at home without my parents meaning that i can watch youtube and watch television and yay ! because that makes me happy :D

the other day when i was collecting my shirt for the SAFRA run which is OMG this week. i bought a spongebob and paddington bear shirt! its really cute although its a little small, but it was really cute so i bought it anyway.

i picked myself up at 1:31 AM
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what is wrong with your stupid attitude

i picked myself up at 11:16 PM
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why is it always happening at the wrong time? no, im not going to let it happen this time.

anyways, during pccg we had interview stuff today. and i really dont know how to answer all those crappy questions. sucky! i really dont know how to answer like what is my greatest strength ?? helppp !! to get my future scholarship(unless of course, you want to sponser me and save me all the trouble), i NEED to think through all these complicating questions and get nice, pretty answers.

okay i just finished this whole huge bag of twisties. ouch. and the gum thing's hurting a little more now.

anyhow, went out with britt to find a pink shirt today! did not find one but she bought a pink toga ! hahaha i bought one later on on the way home anw ;) not saying too much before i get killed

tata~

go away bobo

i picked myself up at 5:00 AM
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went out today haha.. for like quite long

bought lots and lots of stuff ! fun. haha and catched a movie too.. so last minute haha but it was fun! :) yep.. spend all my money and now im broke..

school tmr ! yikes. ><
lazy to blog much.. cya!

sometimes i really wonder whats going on in your mind

i picked myself up at 6:23 AM
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ah! youtube isnt working! ): sad .. i want to watch my show... ><

anyways, finally back to training after such a long time.. soo tired. i just died lor. ): must train more !

ahhh you tube you tube !!!! annoying.
bleh. school's getting a tad more interesting these days. anyhows, no school tmr ! ;) going out.. shopping !! yayyyyy.

<3

i picked myself up at 7:42 AM
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NUS triathlon today! i must say it is really an experience! swimming in the sea is ten times more tiring then in the pool. and its like you cant really pace yourself cos ure just fighting against the waves. and you cant see which direction you're going, its like even if you swim head up you cant really direct yourself. just floating around under the control of the waves! and when you're so tired you still have to fight against the current! cant like just float and relax your arms and legs a while. when you put your head into the water, you cant see anything! no sense of security at all. yeps. so all in all --> it is super tough. haha but i suppose i could get use to it if im going to do triathlons! it seems really interesting to me now. :) well anw thank God i completed the swim because.. it was quite tiring actually !

i need to learn to bike ! haha. im gng for tt aquathlon on 2nd sept. yay :) hopefully i wldnt spend so much time drying myself this time eh. must be positive positive!

its been great spending today with livingstones people anyway. you guys rock ! because you guys are all so nice and sporty and .. nice ! lol although all of you are like.. older? most of you are older.

planet shakers came for church today! but they sang the same songs.. haha :) yep pastor preached about going beyond the superficiality of rituals, rules and regulations but going into the true meaning of christianity, ie a sincere/true relationship with Jesus Christ. :)

sleepy! bio file and physics sia. i feel quite free this wkend.. so nice to be free. enjoyed today at the beach !! looking forward to more. :D

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I have been tagged! (by darlin' ems!)

1.Do the following WITHOUT complaints
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.(btw ems u dint do this!)
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

Current Mood: hyper ! kinda.. bored.. looking for something to do.. someone to talk to
Current Taste: ? cornflakes and sweets!
Current Clothes: shorts and the black collar tshirt! haha and im not wearing my ___ cos its so hot
Current Desktop: hmm the photo i took with cheryl and my brother through the spongebob background!
Toenail Colour: normal colour? havent painted em in ages
Current Time: 6:52pm!
Current Surroundings: computer table? next to the tv. cupboards around.. haha who wants to come to my houseeee :)
Current Annoyances: bio file? but its not really annoying me. nothing much at the moment ! happy :)

First Best Friends: mymy.. how to remember.. i think it was frm kindergarden. melissa choo ? yeps ! went to her house for slpover on my 7th birthday!
Crush: uhh.. primary sch i suppose? lol t*o*g h*n? dont suppose you count tt ___ frm kindergarden. but i suppose i dint know wat i was doing then..lol..
First Movie: hmm .. lion king? or bambi. cried both times! one my parnets had to take me out of the cinema, the other one i refused to watch the rest of the show cos so sad. as a result, my parents never brought me to the cinema again until i was super old and we went during cny as a big family :)
First Lie: cant rmb.. tsktsk probably when quite young
First Music: dont know?
Last Crush: who says i have to tell you. ;) its ______
Last Movie: hmm.. pirates!! haha
Last Phone Call: from hew yenn. she wants her number tag :)
Last song played: planet shakers evermore! haha at the end of service :)
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: havent dated anyone! HAH
Have you ever broken the law: jay walking? haha !
Have you ever been arrested: nahh xP
Have you ever skinny-dipped: what is this?
Have you ever been on TV: ya.. when my dad was on tv and i was on his lap? haha apparently the aquathlon also. haha !
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: ?! of course not.
5 things you are wearing: hmm.. shirt, shorts, specs, hair tie, ___
4 things you did today: swam ! laughed ! worshiped! blogged! ahha
3 things you can hear right now: tv! typing! mum cooking
1 thing u do when you're bored: surf the net.. blog.. chat.. stone! think too much until become depressed, ie DONT THINK SO MUCH

tata~

i picked myself up at 2:23 AM
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after thinking lots and lots, and after reading my archives and some people's blogs, i realised how ____ ive become. i think i need to learn to let go. learn to accept myself as i am. and learn not to be over-dependent on things i shouldnt be dependent on. only after i truly let Him take control over my life, only after i truly let Him fill that empty space, will i be able to lead a true and happy life. yep, I really need God in my life.

but after so long, i still find it very difficult. no matter how many times i have tried to dedicate my life to Him, how many times ive tried to truly, sincerely, once and for all make Him the one. I always find myself in search for something more, until eventually i find i dont even know what im looking for anymore, and i just dont seem to be able to get it. which is probably the reason why im really quite unhappy these days. looking back, i always find myself so innocent, so happy, and i really want that again. and when im not happy, i find myself being deserted from the people around me, and then it becomes even more depressing, and its a cycle all again. its time to break that cycle. you cant expect the people around you to stop and wait for you, to give you that ___ you're looking for, but you have to go out and reach the people around you. no one said it was easy, but its worth your while.

and i want to say im sorry, i think i expected too much out of you. the world does not revolve around me, i know. i also know that at times though it might seem that you dont care, i know that we will still be the best of friends forever. :)

now i just want to end this endless search for something that will never be enough to fill my heart because what is the only thing that can fill it is actually right in front of me. it is everywhere, waiting for me to grasp hold of it. in a way this is linked to lst night's concert, because when he spoke i thought to myself; do i really know God? is it a relationship or just knowledge. what He wants is not just knowledge but a true relationship with Him.

i need to learn to let go and to walk in faith. many times have i failed. many times has it not happened. but let it be no more! it is a process, a learning journey that i shall stepforth today.

never give up. till the very end.

after all these i truly feel a great freedom somehow! its like this great happiness just fell upon my head. right here, right now! its amazing.

its no longer the superficiality of life.

i picked myself up at 1:20 AM
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physics test ! i dont think i did too well. owell. initially i thought i finished the paper and only 25 minutes had passed. so i thought, how come the paper is so short? and everyone was still busy scribbling, so i checked through the paper once or twice and i started falling asleep. luckily for me there was some noise tht woke me up and my paper happened to move, so i saw TWO EMPTY PAGES which i had missed out somehow or rather while doing the paper. i was almost panic-ing. ><

chem spa on the other hand. had really weird values which i didnt know which one was exactly the end point!! >< i had three values which were all 0.2 apart. so i didnt know what to do. so i did another titration and it didnt even turn orange(teh supposed endpt) it turned pink, and pinker, and pinker until it turned RED. ?!?! so i just took 2 values. i hope its right!!

now im totally hooked onto the ge dou tian wang show on youtube. hahaha cos i still think that that girl is really sweet and cute. :)

went to nus yesterday to get the race package. it is freaking big ! and they made us go there for nothing.. waste my time la ! lol

i picked myself up at 6:33 PM
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physics test tmr !! what am i doing here. lol i just feel as though its like END OF YEARS OVER already. this is really bad..

next week = play week !!
haha today during training i was really HIGH, dont know just felt like laughing and being.. happy :) technique was fine but i cant really feel anythg, just all the waves especially on the way back. ><

ems&i has decided to go for the bangkok trip ! hehe i do hope my parents let me go :)
i suppose im just like her
the queensland thing is really cool but its far TOO expensive ):
afraid to get hurt, once again

i picked myself up at 6:24 AM
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ahh all my photos are disappearing ! and i lost tt photo cd tt i had the last time. ): SAD.

anyway school's really sian nowadays. shall attempt to make it more lively. my life needs some LIFE. lol

bio test was fine but i really didnt know what they were asking ): and i think i made some silly mistakes. ohwell ! considering tt i dint study like tt much. like i dint memorise much.. cos by last night i was like ah nothing's gng into my brain so i didnt bother to memorise.. AND guess wat i was doing la.. so anyway, physics up next !
as i said, you just didnt understand, stop being such a spoilt brat.
is there a possibility
it pains me to think of what could have been

i picked myself up at 3:35 AM
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