1) I've felt pretty good for the last couple of days. I decided to sleep 10 hours a night during my TWW, starting the night of the transfer (Thursday), thinking that the extra sleep might increase my odds. It is not so easy to sleep that long, but I really love the 2 hours of snooze this creates in the morning. There have been a few nice side effects: a) when I'm asleep I'm generally not stressing over whether or not I'm pregnant, so that's less time spent thinking about it all; b) dh said that I look really good with all this rest, wrinkles have reduced (I have a bad habit of furrowing my brow). Maybe sleep could replace the need for botox in my future. :)
2) I need a plan. Dh thinks we shouldn't make any plans until we know the results of the pregnancy test, but I need to have a plan so that I can go on autopilot if the result is negative. He doesn't quite get this, yet.
3) If I'm not pregnant, instead of spending all the rest of our available income on a second attempt, I should use some of that money to get a personal trainer, get in shape, decorate my home office, get myself all together for a new stage of my life. If I decide to do a second attempt, I lose all of my potential productivity for the end of July and August. I could kick butt at work, but would I? Or will I continue to have the motivation problem that has plagued me for 2.5 years?
There are just never any answers. I guess that's the hard part about being a grown-up.
Yup sometimes being a grown up sucks...but it's good to have a plan for both outcomes. Hoping the BFP is coming your way SOON.
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