Hello Diary

Hey diary,

I kinda miss you there. I have been going through minor rollercoaster ending 2011 and beginning 2012. Not much major changes, just aged heart and feelings; like everything became old and rugged. Not much to look forward to, not much drive to live a more vibrant life like how others do!

How did they get the drive? I am thristy for one too. Steps are getting heavier and I drag to move ahead. Becoming more and more slient and I think that is the killer inside; not wanting to expose what I really feel I hide behind that slience mask and pretend to move like everyone does. I have no choice.

I wanted more, too much that it disappoints me know I am just capable of talking without action. Even if there is, there's no response and it daunts on me. I know I must stay positive and my head is always encouraging me to look ahead and not be dejected. Afterall, what is life without failure and ups and down? My heart is heavy, I appeared heavy. No smiles, only forced one.

Let my beacon shine on me soon will you?

Aja Aja Fighting,
Kate