I LOVE THIS SONG.. IT'S TOTALLY ME!

TAKE A BOW - RIHANNA


Ohh
How bout a round of applause
yea
Standin ovation
Ohh yeaa
yea yea yea yea

You look so dumb right now
Standin outside my house
Tryin to apologize
Your so ugly when you cry
Please
Just cut it out

And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You betta hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin bout girl I love you your the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please
What else is on
Ohh

And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow

Ohhh
And the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin me believe that you could be
Faithful to me let's hear your speech out

How bout a round of applause
Standin ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow

But it's over now

damn.. i am so LOST!

anyone kind enough to show me the right way? *sigh* i promise not to ever put any heart breaking and mood wrecking post in here. but then again here i am pouring my heart out. (my apologies bloggers) my weakness, my downfall, and my insanity.. emotions.. contradictory of what the picture shows. (see that image on the the right?) i am, yes.. i guess have to let go. sooner or later. so fed up and tired of clinging on that little something we are holding on to. *sniff* you are way up there while i am here drifting at the edge of this cliff. hanging on was way too much to bear. there's just nothing left worth fighting for. stupid me. i am supposed to be so over you a long time ago. but you just wont let go. how do you expect me to be happy with someone new, if you are there getting always in the way. i remember the song "because of you by kelly clarkson" the chorus goes this way:

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

damn right.. because of you.. i am afraid.. you! and nothing else.. you made it so hard for me to put my complete trust and love to someone new that i guess will be the only person who would really make me happy. i've been thinking lately.. he'd been there for me ever since. through thick and thin, through all the controversies of my damn life. he was there supporting me. my ever loyal friend. but now, i don't know. i am so confused. i am so torn. something behind my mind is telling me it's worth a try for me to give us a chance, yet on the other part of this heart and mind there you are trying to push ur way again. you really don't want me to be happpy.. ur so good of making me feel guilty of something that i am not. please, help me forgive and forget. i am lost. let go.. i just want to move on.. but i just don't know how and where to start... aaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh

I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT!