Sunday, February 28, 2010

GRADUATED ! Last paper marked the end of my Poly life and i wont have to attend school for at least the next 5 years. To alot people, it feels good to graduate, but to me its sort of a mixed feeling somehow. Good thing is that i can finally get proper sleep and meals without the disturbance of school test and projects, but i will really miss school like hell, seriously.

Imgaine everyday you wake up with a objective, to go school and complete something for the day, be it lectures or tutorials or projects so on and so forth, you can see your friends and talk alot of craps together, all the fun and kills alot time. At least you know you are living with a goal, to study. Now everday wake up to just think about my future, looking at the obstacles ahead, dam emo.

Its kinda contradicting when you have people who keep telling you to have goals, work hard for it and you will definitely succeed, and you have people who also tell you goals are often different from dreams, most people cant achieve these and that. Almost everytime i talk to people who have more experience in army, they will give me both sides of story. Although it wont affect me from changing my mind to try for it, but somehow i felt scared to see the dark road ahead, would i ever be able to see the light at the end of the path.

Although i will have the weekends to myself, but i am doing to spend it on dragonboat to make myself tougher. It's really lifeless to spend weekdays inside and weekend on a boat and people keep telling me to get a girl to talk to and share stuff with them so that life in army would not be as lonely and aimless. I choose to be alone, it would be only causing misery to the other party.

Hopefully after i go in, i would be able to change for the better and grow my character inside. I have a feeling somehow i might like army life though at times i know i will be cursing and swearing inside, i would choose a army career to a office job or sales etc. I chosed it and hope you guys respect it too. Good luck to me and all other pre-enlistees.
~me~ at 7:36 AM