Commitment

Finally, I "feel" what is commitment about.

You may be curious and ask "Really? You were so active in high school- sports, uniform bodies, GB- and you can manage your studies well also? I think you are quite good at managing your commitments la~~ "

I gotta say that:

Previously, in high school, the time is fixed (i.e. time to go school, time to join koko, time to go GB). I just need to go according to the routine. Well, maybe there are some events, but compare to university, that was like kacang seriously. University got so many events that I need to commit a lot with my team, especially in student councils- because we are there to serve students' needs.

As for now, 

The main responsibility of mine is to study. University level is sooooooo @@, I've tried very hard in doing my assignments and stuffs but I still can't get an A (i.e. 90 and above); how can I get my First Class Honour then? :(((( Next, I am currently the vice president of HELP University's Psychology Department. Honesty speaking, I can feel the level of commitment that I need to put in, it is much more than GB. In GB, there are still other officers, BB, or church members to work things out. In student council, it is either we do the job or no one else will do. Sooooo, my commitment in GB will be lessen for the coming months. However, I know I will learn a lot in student council even though it is stressful and etc. 

Speaking about commitment, it reminds me of Boey who spoke about commitment of love to me. He told me what he broke up with her ex-girlfriend because of the different level of commitment. At that particular moment, I only "understood" the definition of commitment but I did not "understand" the deeper meaning of it; now, I do. Then, I wonder did I commit enough in my previous relationship? Ermmmmmmm, I think I did. Well, one of the reasons that I am not ready to involve in relationship now is because at this period I know I am unable to commit in relationship  due to the workloads I have in hands. However, if the right man is willing to wait until I am done with all these- studies and councils, I will then show my commitment to him. 

:)