Understand

Once one of my friends told me, I am the person who will only friend with people that benefit me. I strongly denied this statement until I realised that the friendship towards certain friends tended to be "faded" once the event is over and then I would meet another group of friends which help me in another way. In another words, I knew how to make friends, be friends, but not maintain a long term quality friendship. Until I met these people who taught me - friendship will never maintain unless you are willing to contribute to it.

With the experiences that I experienced in university  it makes me appreciate my beloved friends more despite the powerpuff girls or my long-term friends in primary. These are the people who taught me what is friendship. Well, we neither talk 24/7 nor every week, but when we start it will be an endless talk. We treat each other as friends not servant- we don't expect friends to be there helping us every moment. However, we are ready to catch the others when they are falling; we support the others to stand up again! We put friends at the first place and wish the best will happen on them; there is neither secretly jealous nor backstabbing behind.  Even there is jealousy (girls), we turn them to praises and learn from one another.

All of us are busy, but we make time for each other.
All of us are busy, but we do concern for the other about the latest updates.
All of us are busy, but we support the others to go through the downs.
All of us are busy, but we don't wish friends to worry about us.
All of us are busy, but we will be there when one of us really needs us.

This video reminds me of the powerpuff girls
- 3 girls - crazy ones- talkative ones- noisy ones-

- pray that our friendship will last like theirs, I wish to get one of you to be my bridesmaid-

girl #1 : 

the baby girl among all, always cry yet strong, the one can make ppl laugh without doing anything, the one who always think and wish about lovy stuff, the round face girl.

girl #2 :

 the talented girl in singing, the fashion-est, thinnest and coolest girl, sometimes is the most violence ones as well, the one who always complains she never couple before.

girl #3 :  

used to be slight boyish and now very lady already, the most funny entertainer, always give people a sense of friendliness, good in imitate, the joker.

December 2012

Sorry blog, I've abandoned you for months.

This makes me realize something- I've grown up and I am no longer a high school students who have lots free time to do blogging. Nowadays, I rather tweet because it is fast, easy and simple; however, I think blog is a good record for me to know my life changes from form 4 until now. I am impressed when I see my friends are still active in blogging, not to say they are not busy; perhaps I am too greedy and wanted to join so many activities in university which ended up I have no time.

 

It was a hard time for the pas few months where a girl who knew nothing about sponsorship became the head of sponsorship team in the annual ball. There was no one to teach her, guide her, and assist her during her first month; all she could do was asking people and praying to the God. Thank God for answering her prayer by sending many experienced seniors to guide her, but not assist because God wants her to learn something. Yes, not only she has learnt all the skills required in looking for sponsors, but also how to be tough enough to go through this huge obstacles and balance with her studies and other commitments (council, clubs, and GB) as well. Not easy, but she did it ;)

 

Recently, there were many people approaching this girl and asked "do you have boyfriend?" "why you are not coupled yet?" because their mindset is : She has been deeply hurt in previous relationship and she couldn't let go; hence, she is still single now. It is even weird when ppl ask her "how's you and kit ee now?" when they knew they broke up long time ago, even her mum asked about it. Well actually, she had overcame and let go everything in the past; there are people chasing her until now. She is still single because she has too much commitment on the other stuffs which leave her no personal time- then how can she commit herself in a relationship? But mainly, she couldn't find or hasn't meet the right person yet. So there is no point to rush ;)

HELP psychology dept standard is real high till she is a bit tired. "A= 90 to 100; A- = 85 to 89; B+ = 80 to 84 and etc....." In other uni, A or A- is 80 and above; and they have no research.... Hmmm, no matter what is it... just deal with it. Although it is hard, nothing is impossible. Just try and get as much B+ as possible and hopefully more A-.

Well,
sometimes it will be tired
but I know this will only last for 2 more years....and
 I will become a degree holder with practical experiences

who has high stress tolerance.

 

No pain, no gain ;)

上了大學才知道...

上了大學才知道...
01.上了大學才知道，兩個天天在一起的人不一定是朋友，有可能什麽都不是。
02.上了大學才知道，從來不要和別人爭論什麽，因為那是沒有結果的，無論誰對誰錯。
03.上了大學才知道，手機是有事的時候用的，並不是為了交流感情。
04.上了大學才知道，真心對一個人好不一定有回報，而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重視你的。
05.上了大學才知道，很多東西是可遇而不可求的，很多東西你只能擁有一次。
06.上了大學才知道，戀愛不一定是真心的，有可能是利益關系，有可能是攀比心理。
07.上了大學才知道，原來中學老師………教的是那麽好，那麽負責任。

08.上了大學才知道，很多時候自己遇到不開心事，千萬不要渴望別人同情，大多數人會采取冷漠回敬的。那樣會更讓人家看不起。
09.上了大學才知道，有很多東西是不屬於你的，你使勁強求會遭天遣的。
10.上了大學才知道，生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正視，相信實力和群眾的眼睛。
11.上了大學才知道，人的性格可以差異到如此之大。
12.上了大學才知道，一個人要自己對自己好，因為真正關心你的人很少，有了事他們也不一定會在你身邊。所以要自己照顧自己。
13.上了大學才知道，課程會在你不經意間，拉下很多，期末考試前不一定能補回來。
14.上了大學才知道，錢用的是那麽快，用錢的地方是那麽多。
15.上了大學才知道，從現在開始應該把握每一個你能把握的人，放棄你留不住的人，不要因為想留住個別人而失去一群人。
16.上了大學才知道，自己一定在乎自己的自尊，因為你的自尊在別人眼裏根本不算什麽。
17.上了大學才知道，不要心情不好的時候對周圍人發脾氣，渴望他們諒解你，人家不是你的父母，現在你可以明白父母對自己多麽重要。
18.上了大學才知道。即便有人對情感看的無所謂，你一定要堅信，人之間的感情，有可能會令所有東西無法超越的，但記住，只是有可能。
19.上了大學才知道，會遇到許多自己看不慣的人或事，但那與你無關，別人愛咋整隨他便，別生不該生的氣，不值。
20.上了大學才知道，許多曾經的人會變的讓你認不出，但請留住回憶。
21.上了大學才知道，會遇到很多誘惑，無論別人怎麽樣，你是你，你有你的原則和底限。
22.上了大學才知道，會有人很討厭你或者和你過不去，但是他愛怎麽樣就怎麽樣，我們要大度，不和小人計較，但前提是你正確。
23.上了大學才知道，很多人無法理解男女之間的朋友關系，在一起就一定是戀人，不是戀人就一定不能在一起。
24.上了大學才知道，學習要刻苦，因為憑聰明就能應付大學科目的人是風毛翎角。
25.上了大學才知道，原來時間一空閑下來是那麽無聊，絲毫沒有中學的充實的感覺。
26.上了大學才知道，太在乎別人了往往會傷害自己。
27.上了大學才知道，對自己好的人會隨著時間的流逝越來越少。
28.上了大學才知道，可以不把所有人當朋友，但千萬不能把一個人當敵人，至少可以當同學。
29.上了大學才知道，玩你能玩的起的，玩不起的千萬別玩，不然會輸的什麽都沒有的。
30.上了大學才知道，快樂常常來自回憶，而痛苦常常來自於回憶與現實的差距。
31.上了大學才知道，原來上課，吃飯，上自習常常得自己一個人。
32.上了大學才知道，有很多人的想法與做法你無法理解，或是根本不知道他在想什麽，千萬別在那揣摩或者瞎猜，那樣會讓自己累，既然人家要保持神秘感那就讓人家保持去啊，自己又不是占星師。
33.上了大學才知道，每個人都是帶有“地方特色”的。
34.上了大學才知道，別人請客吃飯或著自己請別人吃飯都是很平常的，甚至請一個不怎麽熟的人都是有可能的
35.上了大學才知道，每個人都是認為自己的家鄉最好，無論他的家鄉貧窮或富裕。

New Arena

Before this, I used to be a president of XXX club and YYY club in high school time, and I held lots important positions also. I shall say the leadership during that period and now are different- which makes me need to change myself to fit in thou.  THE MAIN DISTINGUISHED between previous leadership and now (council): - 

1. Programme planning vs programme planning + LINKING
2. Communicate to committes and members vs Communicate to and for your department + communicate between departments
3. Speaking in front of members vs speaking in front of all the GENG ppl

Programme Planning +Linking

Leadership in high school is more on leading the members and committees to carry on meeting until it fulfilled al the meetings which required by the school or GB. And it focuses more on programme planning only, as long as it attracts the members and keeps their spirits.We are more on serving like customer service as well as lead as a leader to motivate them. Besides planning programme to the members of the department, we need to link the students to the department as well as department to the students. Linking job is not easy. It's like when you do assignment, it is easy to state all the points out, but when your lecturer asks you to link all your points and present it out--> You scratch your head. Because there is definitely some outlier. However, as the vice president of the psychology council, I should and cannot ignore them no matter how non-sense it is. I need to find ways to communicate to them politely.

Communicate to & for Your Department + Communicate between Departments

Communication is a hard bit too. We should know when to speak or not, as usual. As a department's representative, I need to voice out for my department in the Student Representative Council meeting. This is a great challenge for me because whatever I decide and say on the spot will influence not only me but my department; in the mean time, I can't just keep quiet throughout the meeting also. Another challenge of stepping into this new arena is I need to say inspiring things and words to encourage others (i.e. committees and juniors). Due to my personality, I wish to encourage others but I find that my words are not inspiring enough. How??? @@ Another thing, my English proficiency- the thing I worry also. 

Speaking in front of all the GENG ppl

Speaking in front of 1000 members and speaking in front of all the clubs' presidents, graduates, as well as all the department's heads is totally diff. As metaphor, I wasn't fear of a single thing when I spoke in front of few hundred members during my high school time; however, I'm fear when I am in the the meeting with all the 9 council's presidents. HEY GIE!! Be confident kay :) 

I've learnt a lot and met lots challenges during the process of shifting my leadership from a club to a council and  department's representative. 

BUT I KNOW I CAN ROCK THIS OUT!!! :D 

Friendship

In mandarin "在家靠父母，出外靠朋友" has showed the importance of friends, but can you define friendship? We all know that we should be loyal to friends, treat them nicely, and etc. However, I realised I don't know how to maintain a good friendship when I grow up. *well, I do have good friends; just that something happens make me think of this question* One of my friends always ignore or neglect us (all) when she has a boyfriend; vice versa. The level of ignorance is totally @@

Case:
A, B, C, D are quite close to one another and they promise to tell the others if one of them is involved in relationship (romance). As friends, they are glad to share, support, and even bless the others. One day, A coupled and she didn't tell anyone of them; yet B found out. *conversation below*

B : Why you did not tell us you couple? Didn't we promise that?

A : Why do I have to tell you all? I don't think we are close.

B : What? We are not close? We know each other for so long.

A : Well, we just meet once a week for so many years; I don't think we are close enough and I don't think it is necessary to update you regarding this matter. 

Reflective:

I understand it is not a necessary to update friends about it, but words that spoken are really hurt. So, who are B,C,D to her for these few years? Chatting machines that be with her when she has no man? This is not the first time A treated her friends like this. Before this, she even ignored C because of her boyfriend; however, she would find C when she broke up with her boyfriend. Is this taking friend for granted? Hmmm I don't know. Well, no matter hoe she treats her friends, I will still be a good friend for her. "Treat others like how you wish to be treated" ;)

Lies- M vs F

Sorry to be slightly bias as I will tend to speak from a female's perspective

"I love her, thus I dont want to hurt her" 

is always the reason to lie. 

Doesn't this hurt her deeper when she finds out the lies? Well, unless you plan to break up with her with a beautiful ending, or else please be honest to her. Man knows the consequences of lying to woman; he knows he gotta pissed her off, but due to he manage to resound her with laughter, she will forgive the matter temporarily. Lies are like bombs in a romantic relationship, because the next time the couple has argument, there is a high chance that the woman will bring up the previous "lie" matter which totally annoys the man. 

Man's mind : Over means past, why she wants to mention about that? Too free is it?

Woman's mind : He had lied to me once, there are chances that he will lie to me again. 

Speaking from a woman's stand, 

Lie creates uncertainty to a woman. The key point is she does not have the courage to trust the man anymore. The more he lies, the lesser she trusts him; even though she doesn't show it externally (which the man thinks he has got over it). If you choose to lie, you are choosing to break her trust towards you; thus, do not blame why she questions you again. Well, the man may later realised it was his fault and he wants to turn over a new leave, yet his woman still questioning him- man gets SUPER frustrated. Remember, you choose to break the trust, you need to pay much more hard work to rebuild the trust; unless you do not want her, that's a different story. If you love her why do you want to lie to her at the first place? Man always think that woman wants the best answer; in fact a real woman, who truly loves her man, wants the truth- she wishes to understand, to assist, and to be with him always. 

Life IS Fragile

Life is so fragile, life is so cruel.My deepest condolences and prayers go out to her family and loved ones. You will always be in our hearts, Shu Ern. May you rest in peace.

I still remember one of my friends passed away because of heart attack when we were form 4, and now another friend (Shu Ern) drown in Tioman. It was supposed to be a wonderful and happy trip but ..... I suddenly feel that no matter who you are despite of gender, height, weight, capabilities, and etc, your life will just ended in a second- and that's the end. How can life be so fragile? You just can't do anything but leaving your soul from your body. We always have the mindset that only old people will pass away; in these cases, my friends who were so energetic and enthusiastic about their lives, ended their lives at the climax of their lives.

I talked to my little friend, he said "That's why must appreciate the moment with your loved one". Then, I feel bit worried because I am going to Pulau Redang next week, will this happen to me? *touchwood* Seriously, if this happens to me, I think I cannot let go as I have so many things haven't done in my life; like I haven't graduate, I haven't step into the real world, I haven't find my Mr Right, I haven't marry, I haven't give allowances to my parents, I haven't go so many places around the world. There are too many things that I haven't do or accomplish.

Well, Life IS fragile, enjoy and appreciate every second that you have passed, don't take it for granted. Life does not take two. 

Updates

WORKLOAD

I am currently.....

1. Full time study degree student- psychology
2. AW in 2nd KL GB
3. Vice President of HELP Psychology Department Student Council
4. Vice President of Rescue Club
5. Publicity of Circle K

*look at the workload that I have to face in coming years @@  No time to couple already T.T

SEMESTER BREAK

Finally, the short semester has ended. It's summer timeee!!! Well, I have many plans for semester breaks as usual HAHA, but I wish to find part-time job as well (to gain experience). Hmmm, what to do leh? 

Please introduce me if you have any nice jobs :) 

RELATIONSHIP

Well, I am currently single and you may wonder why I will take about relationship here. Hmm, recently there is a guy who treated me seriously nice (I din misund), but I have no feelings at all; reason, he has a girlfriend. I wonder why guys who have girlfriend still wanna flirt so much with the girls out there? Well, they can treat girls nicely but not over like randomly stood behind me and massaged for me when I were tired (ps : I am not close with him). If we were close, I can understand la. 

My point is guy who has girlfriend can be friend and close with other girls' friends but  not too over until those actions can lead to misunderstanding or what. 

Commitment

Finally, I "feel" what is commitment about.

You may be curious and ask "Really? You were so active in high school- sports, uniform bodies, GB- and you can manage your studies well also? I think you are quite good at managing your commitments la~~ "

I gotta say that:

Previously, in high school, the time is fixed (i.e. time to go school, time to join koko, time to go GB). I just need to go according to the routine. Well, maybe there are some events, but compare to university, that was like kacang seriously. University got so many events that I need to commit a lot with my team, especially in student councils- because we are there to serve students' needs.

As for now, 

The main responsibility of mine is to study. University level is sooooooo @@, I've tried very hard in doing my assignments and stuffs but I still can't get an A (i.e. 90 and above); how can I get my First Class Honour then? :(((( Next, I am currently the vice president of HELP University's Psychology Department. Honesty speaking, I can feel the level of commitment that I need to put in, it is much more than GB. In GB, there are still other officers, BB, or church members to work things out. In student council, it is either we do the job or no one else will do. Sooooo, my commitment in GB will be lessen for the coming months. However, I know I will learn a lot in student council even though it is stressful and etc. 

Speaking about commitment, it reminds me of Boey who spoke about commitment of love to me. He told me what he broke up with her ex-girlfriend because of the different level of commitment. At that particular moment, I only "understood" the definition of commitment but I did not "understand" the deeper meaning of it; now, I do. Then, I wonder did I commit enough in my previous relationship? Ermmmmmmm, I think I did. Well, one of the reasons that I am not ready to involve in relationship now is because at this period I know I am unable to commit in relationship  due to the workloads I have in hands. However, if the right man is willing to wait until I am done with all these- studies and councils, I will then show my commitment to him. 

:)

Student Council

I feel glad when I know I get presidency with Ross :) Well, there might be some people who dislike this result, people who think I am running because of the post, or even question my capability of work. That's alright for me, but I feel bad when friends who are always close to me, judge me a lot. Hm, they even comment about it too. 

Vivian Tang said: 

Friends not always supportive for us and this thing actually shouldn't let urself worries because it is not worth it..

Be the way you like to participate for the council. 

Bei said:

You just have to stay yourself doing your way. 

Then I speak to myself, 

You (I) know that it is impossible to get everyone agrees with your ideas and your ways of working based on the leadership experiences you had throughout the years, then why are you afraid or stress of? You may not be the famous in the department; all you need to do is be yourself and show them who you are. Always remember the aim of you running this post- SERVING and LINKING. People may question about your abilities and purposes of running this post; well, you need to not to explain to others but yourself and God. You just can't peace everyone but majority, and as long as you have done your best, God will do the rest.

Amen.

So Blessed- Love Life

It has been a long time since my last post in this blog. I used to be VERY ACTIVE in blogging, but due to this semester is a short semester (super stress) and currently I am quite active in twitter, I have neglected my blog. SORRY BLOGGIE. Well, before I wanted to update my blog, I wished to share about how busy my short semester was, how stress was I, how grateful it was when God answered my prayer, etc stuff. But I found something that really touch my heart, "Love Life" which conducted by Hei Ren and Fan Fan, and I wish to share it to my friends.

At first, when I first looked at the name of the album, I thought it is an album regarding the love life between this couple; thus, I just ignored it. Later, I realised my thought was totally wrong. This album speaks about people with bone cancer are willing to fight till the last second of their life, they really want to stay alive; they wish to exchange lives with those who just commit suicide whenever they face problems. Then, my mind told me "aiya, these people never experience how lives are, and of course they want to exchange lives with others"- because  my perspective is they had bone cancer when they were very young, and they never knew how lives were. In fact, I am wrong again! These people were once the champion in their specialities, and they experienced the climax point of their lives. However, their lives changed when they found out that they have bone cancer. They are unable to achieve their dreams even though they are really passionate. They want but they can't. 

Besides that, I also found out a little girl, who only has one arm, participated in Triathlon. She did not win the competition but I am really touched by her spirit, enthusiastic, as well as the hard work she paid to achieve her dreams. Although she has only one arm, she can play piano and guitar; the society will question how can she made it? Well, I question about that too as I have both hands yet pressing those chords (guitar) with my fingers is really hard for me and I complaint that my fingers are not long enough, my tips of fingers are pain, and etc. After I watched her video, I realised I totally have no reasons to complaint any single thing; in other words, I am not the qualified person to complaint at all. 

Who am I (are we) to complaint that learning musical instrument is hard?

Who am I (are we) to complaint that assignments stress is too much?

Who am I (are we) to complaint life sucks?

Who am I (are we) to complaint about things when I am (we are) born healthily with perfect organs and body structures? 

LEARN FROM THEIR SPIRITS and stop complaining :) 

Life will be so much better. 

And I want to thanks William Tang, who approached to me regarding the project of sponsoring a child by BB, for giving me a chance to help them. The satisfaction gained is more than anything else, and this intrinsic motivation is the power that drives me to study psychology as well. 

Hold On

【 爱一个人并不是找一个完美的人.. ♥ 】

而是找一个聊的来的人才会幸福！

找一个你爱聊的人做伴，因为当你年龄大了以后，你会发现喜欢聊天是一个人最大的优点..

当时还以为这只是小女人情怀，现在看来，不只女人，

男人更有这样的要求啊。

那就找个你爱聊而兴趣相投的人做伴吧。

因为外表会老去，赚再多钱也带不进棺材，唯有心与心的距离是无价的！

拉住一个你时时刻刻、随时随地想跟她说、又有说不完的话的人的手，你就拥有了比那些用物质享受物色爱情的人都没有的幸福..

Love

She is married :) YES Ella Chen, one of the SHE member!
I remembered she was a little tomboy and I thought she would never get married because of his tomboy-ish, like HEY which guy like a tomboy girl? Look at her, she is so much lady look with sexiness and prettiness, AND she is married NOW!! i mean this hour.
God just has His plan for everyone of us :) #somuchlove

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I love guys looking at me like this
#somuchsweet

 My view towards L.O.V.E.

1. I have a friend who thinks himself is able to change his girlfriend's personality. Hmmm I shall say, Love is not about changing someone's personality but LOVING him or her as who he or she is. ♥
2. We always think, wish, or imagine how our future partner look like. Well, God has His plan for us. We need to give trust to Him, He will reveal it when the day has come.
3. Don't people feel weird or awkward when they tell the current partner about how much they love them and etc. Yet the same words are repeated on the other person. I don't know??
4. God hides your partner somewhere in the world, it could be in ANY distance. The point is He wants you to go and seek for it because He knows that we won't appreciate things that come easily. Like Gigi Leung, she got married with her first love after sooooo many years later. 
5. I love the feeling communicating with a simple eyesight!
6. I do believe love at first sight but we still need to learn how to manage the relationship when time passes by. I think coupling for years seem sweet :) Like Hong Ee says "time shows the preciousness of that relationship." However, it is still depends on the timing :)
7. Last time I used to think this statement "有一种爱叫做放手" is a bullshit; now I believe it! Last time I think if you love, you must own him or her. Well now, I understand that you do not need to own him but wait for the right time to come. Give God some time to work out your plan.
8. To me, I won't be the one taking first step in a relationship; it sounds so tradition-ish. Why I don't behave so? Because I believe no matter how shy, coward, or introvert the guy is, he will find ways to get rid of ALL the obstacles just to get her,if he really loves her. 
9. There MUST be a sense of freedom and independent in a romantic relationship. Both can depend on the other but not all as too much dependency and too little freedom will make the partner suffer, it will make him or her feels that he or she is taking care of a kid instead dating a life partner. 
10. 人总是问怎样才能让他人爱上自己。答：如果真的爱上，第一眼就会爱上了！ (TVB)

Perhentian Trip

This is the first time I've been to Pulau Perhentian. GOSH!! It takes 9 hours bus just to get to T'ganu and almost 1 hours of boat to the island. But everything is worth when you sea the beautiful sun, sea and sky!! It looks so much like those pictures that I googled in internet before LOL. *cant believe my eyes at all! 

 Of course we have ice breaking games BUT  it is 12pm @@ The sun is so much burning hot. A lot of us got sunburn even though we put on sunblock!! Imagine, it is 10x worse than the kawad moment. Even the sand itself is like an oven!!!! 

 This couple is so sweet :) <3

 Me, who have no partner, just play with the camera LOOOL.

Can you see the crystal clear sea waterrrrrrr *awwwwwww with the BLUE sky at the back! YESH they are all bluessss

 Canoe time :) 

 The next day, snorkeling!!!! HAHA I try to snorkel without a life jacket, it is so much tiring because you need to keep kicking the water keep your head above the water. The sea water is sooooooooooooo much salty. Ewwww!!! And it is so hard to dive into the water because of the water's density and pressure; so much strong and hard to overcome. I wonder how can ppl swim for marathon on the sea @@

First time being buried under the sand LOL. It was so hard to breatheeeeee but nice to sleep thou HAHA

And that was the first time I wore bikini in my life time. Yeah, achieve something new during my last year of being a teen. But still there are lots fats @@ Need to work out more to get FITTER!! 

i got bullied by them but I enjoyed it. They swung that float up and down, left and right; that's why my legs were in that position XD and can see two colours on my tights. 

 Sunrise at perhentian :)
We din sleep at the last night. We played mafia and truth or dare for the whole night. Oh ya, the stars at night is so pretty, they are huge and shine on us. How I wish I can just sleep beside the beach at night watching the stars.

 Time to back and group photo :)

 I am lazy to describe every single thing I did and experienced in Perhentian like what I did last time. But overall it is an AWESOME trip. I am looking forward to go Tioman or Redang next time. I also wish that I have a chance to go all these islands with my future partner :) 

THIS TRIP

oh ya, I saw many fit and sexy males and females there LOL. I like dark-skin guys because they just look sporty. The foreigners are really open-minded, they just kiss in front of people like no one else is there. Before I come to Perhentian, I have thought of having my future wedding by the beach; after this trip I cross this idea out from my mind. The beach is so much hot and we need to apply lots sunblock, which means I gotta look so ugly in the wedding ceremony NOWAY lol. Perhaps I will take some wedding photos by the beach. :) Haha, I don't even have a boyfriend now yet already thinking of wedding ROFL

Enrolment Service 2012

Actually there are too many things to be posted, many events come at the same time. Well, I will just post the meaningful ones :)  

The most meaningful one should be Enrolment Service 2012 because this year's enrolment felt so much different from the usual one. As usual, we were all busy like hell in morning especially girls, we needed to help them check uniform, accessories and even help them to tie their hair etc. I didn't know why it felt so much different being a colour party this year and those years before, perhaps this was my last year to be a colour party with GB girls' uniform. Overall, I had been a colour party for about 4~5 times LOL. However, this was the first time I got the "feeling" colour party is representing the company. 

HAHA. This was the first time I got gastric in between of the service. Guess what, I went out and stole food; witnessed by Mun Hoe lol. (picha). Service was continued with those appointments, awards, promotions moment which everyone has been waiting long. 

What's so difference this year, my ex-captain and chaplain going to resign and officer vivian is leaving too due to her studies. The main point was captain's resignation I think, I seriously burst into tears when they were about to announce it. Actually my tears was out when I was standing right behind of the hall (before presenting the flowers) and I purposely back face my YLs and the BBs. At the end, I really couldnt resist and PUFF. 

People may not understand what's the big deal of resigning? She will be church anyway! To me, it feels so much different when she leaves the company. She was my first officer when I first joined GB, she taught me drill, leadership, life matter and many things include relationship. I remembered when she became captain and I coupled with Kit Ee at that moment; I thought she gotta be pissed off or what cause she seemed so strict and fierce from outside. Eventually, she came and talked to me telling me how to balance between studies and relationships etc. She cared so much of my studies during that period. Every time when officers from BB side or GBM side "attack" me, she would be the first one who protected me *really protect* because she understood me well enough and knew that I wouldn't be doing those things. I see her from being a single lady to a married woman now. Honesty, she is really like my 2nd mum and friend as well. She looks fierce (if you dont know her), but she is real good actually. --- words cannot express all these--

I cried till eyes swollen lol. Look so much ugly in photos @@ Actually I admire Vivian Tang a lot since I first joined GB. I still remember the first I came GB, I was attracted to her YL's uniform so much. First, she looks yeng in that uniform. Second, she looks good too. Then I found that she has lots similarities like I do, so much like my sister. I often look for her to seek advices. To me, she is a very strong female although she looks thin and etc; especially if you have read her blog before. Last time, when I was chatting with Joanne, she said "you're just llike ah ling, me like ah dia", and I agreed to it a lot :) HAHA 

Right after crying, I still needed to march out as a colour party. I resisted my tears so much! I told myself I had to stop my tears for that few minutes because I was representing the company. After then, ex-captain found us and talked to us. We understand, respect, and support her decision although it is harsh. God has His plan for she and 2ndKL GB. He has His plan for everyone. For the moment now, we will stay what we have and continue to move on :) WE SERVE MINISTRY.

We 3 and Chee Hao are promoted to be officers. #macamyes HAHA
One of sad thing becoming an officer is I CANT WEAR ALL THOSE BADGES ANY MORE :'(

Obsess

Honesty to say, when I first look at guy, I will spot whether he is fit or not. People always think I like muscular guys like those gym gym type; sorry I am not. I like sports guy and preferable fit guy as like the top right guy in blue shirt. He is totally FIIIIT with prefect shoulder. And I prefer guy with normal guy hairstyle like his, short and simple yet looks good. (curly hair, long hair or long fringe, errr not really my type)

A guy who has elements above already enough to gain my attention on the first sight. XD

 Why he so leng zai ??? I sot liaaaaoo @@ 

Entertainment in between studying. lol 

The Last Time

Yesterday was the last time I commission as a Young Leader. 

Next Sunday will be 

my last time wearing a girl's uniform with those COOL badges.

my last time being colour party as a girl; although I've been colour party for four times.

Pray that I can be an excellent senior officer. 

will upload pics soon

未来

未来，我不要躲躲藏藏的恋爱。

若你仔细想，凡恋情需要隐瞒都是不健康的。

我要个光明正大及得到大家祝福的恋爱 ♥

Updates

Recent activities

1. Twitter seems to be my another blog. I'll update every single feeling there. lol check it out!
2. Exam is coming soon, no motivations to study, hoooowww ?? @@ 
3. Enrolment is coming. Im the colour party AGAIN (3rd time ad) -.-; backup worship singer (a new experience, hope i won't screw it up); practise dance lo as usual
4. Sports sports sports sports!!! 

Recent news

1. Maybank scholarship rejected me haizzz, im looking for more scholarships now. 
2. My kai didi, edmund married yesterday. Hope they will live happily la.
3. I am in the rescue team- the cool one B-) #likeaboss
4. Im addicted to Sherlock Holmes. :D 

Recent feeling

1. I just don't get him, just don't get him. hmmmm~~~ #takeabreathe
2. Having dilemmas between short and long hair 
3. It feels real bad when you do not know if the person you like likes you or not. 
4. Am waiting for sem break HOHO
5. Cried for daysssss and no one knows. fullstop

Hunger Games

Personally I think Hunger Games is a good movie. It is something different from the normal movies, the story line perhaps. Anyway, I believe this game will happen in the future, perhaps the next century; a game to kill the others for survival. I haven read the book before but my friend told me :

It is a game created by the Capito, which is their government to show they have the power to control the people in the country. The residents have no rights to escape but to kill others for survival.

During the time of watching the movie, my mind keeps asking myself "what if I'm the chosen one? what will I do to keep me alive? will I kill others? will I be the one who survive in the game?" Katniss is a really smart girl, she doesnt kill others for survival but she has the survival skills and she makes others like her. Even that the end when the organizer suddenly changes the rules, she manages to make him touched and hence allowing to have 2 winners instead of 1.

Besides, my mind also pops out a male. I wonder will I kill him at the end of the game or will I sacrifice myself, hmmm i don't know. Anyway, i think "we" are able to work it out if the rule is they allow 2 winners as long as they are from the same district. I just trust him a lot; just trust. Anyway, I wish hunger games will not happen in future; I seem to be a vegetarian after watching this movie. #fingercrossed

''Winning won't help in my case... because she came here with me.''

Peeta Mellark about Katniss Everdeen.

Wonderful Weekend

Yes, I am an organ donor :)

I pledged to donate my organs after life; many people think i do this because of the influence from on call 36. HEY NO! I just want to do some charity, even after life. Instead of benefits your nutrients to the worms, I think saving a life worth more.

We went for hiking at Bukit Gasing before the actual trekathon LOL.

Well, we were not suppose to be here, but we just explored and climbed up this tower haha. Yeah~ they are sporty peeps! *like

That was the first time I took photo by lying down in the middle of the road like a boss. Aly is really a crazy girl LOL. Anyway, she enlightens my uni life :)

Then the actual trekathon day, psychology dept was the CHAMPION hohoho.

although it was a 1.5km distance run, but running up the hill aint easy (I had my KK training here). I even sprained my leg slighty, thank god i still can walk and dance.

*look at my medals haha

Yeah!! The top female treakathon-er from psychology.

I felt shy when everyone viewed me differently when they know I am a sport girl; for instance, my friends (guy) came and talked to me more, which they never did before; my seniors (guy) came, congratz and etc. *i shy *^_^*

Lastly, movie with these pretties :)

HUNGER GAMES!! *figure out in the next post

Not just a ceremony

Marriage is not about the ceremony or romance while pledging alone,

but commitment from both parties.

The pledge never says about love the other till the old age but love the other regardless they're healthy vs unhealthy, alive vs died. ♥

*kindly click to enlarge if you want to see the words more clearly :)

I'm a Daddy's Girl

Today was the first time i cried in the interview, even I myself was shocked about it. This interview is an application to be a mentor- like a small training to be a counselor or perhaps clinical psychologist. I cried when they asked me who was the person that inspired you in life; I answered "my dad". Then, my tears were like a heavy rain happened in a sunny day.

I am really a daddy's girl; even my mum jealous sometimes. Personally, I think my dad is handsome, and I will consider him as a real good man. One day he told me, "It's an usual thing that a father loving his daughter, so does your future husband; you'll need to bear with it- that's the cycle". LOL, I wish I have a son instead of daughter XD I said my dad inspired me in my life because he shaped me since i was young, he taught me many lessons seriously; i learnt a lot from him. He never ever hit me from i was born till now; he just scolded me once in a 19 years.

Sometimes, I will think that if a man treats me like my dad does, I will marry him. He buys my favorite food in this bike even though it is raining. He closes his shop in the middle of the day just to fetch me home from school or lrt. He gives me allowance and extra money just to ensure I will never starve. If one truly knows me, he or she will find out that I'm actually quite "ye man" in a way but outsiders view it as "ok" coz I wrap it and backup it with reasons, which are actually quite nonsense also.

Well, if a man treats me and loves me like my dad does, I will marry him.

Perhaps that's what psychologist says, a woman will find husband who is similar to her dad; a man will find wife who is similar to his mum.

Hippocratic Crush

Just had drama marathon on /Hippocratic Crush/, which is known as " On Call 36 hours". I love to watch how all the doctors work together as a team to save one's life. We never know one thing thoroughly unless we have gone through that path. I have learnt many things from this drama.

1. Hope is always the thing that keep us alive and get rid of all the obstacles!
2. A true relationship doesnt need full time commitment, but full understanding of the other :)
3. A true relationship will never pull you away from your friends and family; it tightens both relationships indeed.
4. God is always fair. The more you gain, the more decisions you need to make; perhaps the more sacrifices need to make as well.
5. Everyone has his or her Bandura's box.

I was comparing my life with the drama throughout the whole process of watching the drama. I realized character that always act by "Yong Yi" suits me a lot; I am not girl who wants my boyfren to be 24 hours on call. I am not girl who thinks i am a princess. I am not girl who loves only places with air-cond. (Especially when I chatted and went out with my friends).

I am independent as who I am; I don't dress fancy fancy usually as who I am; DOESN'T MEAN I AINT A GIRL. "girls can use their natural inherited benefits to claim for something, but not take guys for granted nor take advantages from them." I am still a little girl deep down my heart and wish caring from people. Just a girl; the normal one.

Maybank Scholarship

I was very down when Kar Wen got the call for interview from Maybank yet I didnt; I was totally depressed that night. I talked to kit ee and cried while sms coz I really cannot imagine if I continue my studies without scholarship. True, there is PTPTN as backup but PTPTN does not fully cover my coarse :( I even thought of quit study and so on.

After one week~~~ On the tuesday night, I received a call from an unknown number. "Hello, I am calling from MAYBANK", the sound from the phone. I was like... Maybank???!!!! *are you kidding me? Thank God, I know He loves me. Then I went for the interview and I din expect that I was able to make it to the final round coz I think I din really do well in the personal interview.

Then, maybank once called me again when I was on kit ee's car. *LOL, sounds like he is my lucky star. "Congratulation, you've shortlisted to proceed to the final assessment of our maybank interview"; in my heart "WOW, I made it!" On the same night, Kar Wen called me and told me the final assessement was freeeeeaking hard, he talked to me about 10 mins. I AM DEAD -.-

I just back from the final interview, i dont know what will the result be but I am glad that I have a chance to go through this assessment center as the assessor said this kind of interview normally is for those CEO, COO, CLO, and etc. Wow, I have an opportunity to experience it. : D

no matter what,
I've done my best and I believe God will do the rest for me

Appreciate every little thing in your life

Malaysians are actually the most lucky people in the world as there is no natural disaster in our country. *although there was once, it was pretty minor compare overall. For instance, Taiwan had a terrible tsunami last year (11 Mac 2011). What was worse? They even experienced fire when they were floating on the water; we thought fire will only happen on land as water is able to extinguish the fire. I really salute those alive-rs; they tried everything to keep them alive. Although it was pain to lose everything in one night, staying alive worth more.

However, some Malaysians are not appreciating what we've and create all sorts of non-sense problems out from no where. Is it because life here is too easy and they want to find some "fun" to make life feels better. We should really appreciate everything we have like

• having a complete body with all the organs and limbs, regardless of the beautiful factor
  
• having both parents, as we are not orphans and parents are not divorced
• having chances to study, although we may not like it
• having a comfortable house and home, as we own both
• having friends, throughout the happy and sorrow
• etcccccc
• and, having God loving you.

We would not appreciate all these until we see, experience, and compare with those unfortunate ones; we will know how lucky we are. I used to feel bad as I am short, ugly, and fat; I aint 165cm, I have lots pimples, I am not like a model. How BAD it is! Beautiful things are living from inner out, believe it or not. Inner beauty is also the one everlasting, if you're worrying no guy will chase after you because of your look; I just want to say, the guy who truly loves you cares more on inner beauty than your appearance look. I am REALLY PROUD of my height now, I do think I am pretty, and I am not fat, just the face a bit chubby *idunmind*.

A lot of girls are trying to "shape" themselves into someone whom they think is ideal and pretty; they fail at the end. No point to force yourself to become some one else, even though you manage to shape it, it wouldn't be natural thou. So, what's the point to force yourself so hardly to gain that little happiness while you can enjoy the rest of the happiness if you're able to be yourself. :) We do wear different masks everyday towards different people at different time, BUT we MUST have a way or place where we can truly express and be ourselves; if possible just be yourself throughout the days, months, and years!

BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE, AND APPRECIATE IT!

Ignore the point no guys chase after because the one who truly loves, understands, and appreciates you will love you for who you are.

:)

Just a Typical Taurus

金牛的沉默不代表他们的心也在沉默，其实很多时候他们只在等你的一句话,一个动作,一个表情,哪怕是一个眼神，因为金牛喜欢对真正懂他的人敞开心扉，可是金牛的一些行为总让别人误解了他的内心。对金牛多一份理解，多一点感受，金牛也会毫无顾忌地为你敞开他七彩斑斓的内心世界。

HAHA

【暗恋第一名：金牛座】牛牛几乎表现不出一丝一毫喜欢对方的模样。即使意中人站在眼前了，他们看起来还是正经八百，跟普通人没啥两样，但内心里却波涛汹涌了起来。尤其是事后他们会特别想捶胸顿足，埋怨自己错失良机。谁叫他们永远要当后事之师，慢慢吞吞的，自然是不见天日的“暗恋”达人啦。