Charity cafe day. A few rather interesting things happened.

Joel Khoo is the mochi commando. He was supposed to bring a carton of mochi to sell at the charity cafe today. So he came this morning with a trolley and the cartons tied to it, and came through the back gate of our sch next to UWC. But there was a problem. The back gate was locked! So with his amazing leet skillz as teh mochi commando, under the cover of darkness in the morning, he slid the trolley under the gate, and proned and crawled under the gate. Suddenly, the searchlights focused on his still prone body, and guards armed with assault rifles cornered him. Undaunted, the mochi commando used his leet kendo skillz and pwned them. hahaha. no just kidding. no searchlights no armed guards and no leet kendo skillz. Just UWC security guards curiously staring at him as he did his stuff. i find that very amusing indeed.

and james managed to destroy joel khoo's router adapter today. how amusing. what a james thing to do. oh well. off to prep chinese oral. raagh

hoho. today was fun. played soccer during PE. haven't done that for a long time. they had the girls do some cheerleading thing after sch today. sadly i had to rush to seletar so couldn't stay to watch. boo hoo.

another circuits sortie today. 1 more sortie left before i hopefully can go solo =D somehow managed to pwn the OLEO extension (read: hydraulic suspension/shock absorbers) on one of the main landing gears today. after taxying back to the parking bay, we got out and checked the aircraft. The OLEO extension on the landing gear strut, which was supposed to measure 4.5 inches, had become 0 inches, with hydraulic fluid sprayed all over the floor and trailing the path which i took back to the flight line. how interesting. hopefully it wasn't really due to my landings (which were way better and softer than my previous few sorties btw)



the oleo extension is the metallic part between the wheel and the...white thing. a compressed one doesn't look that bad from this pic, but the one on the aircraft i used really looked quite bad. especially with all the hydraulic fluid coming out all over. ahhh.

anyway, the actual flight was rather nice. First time since i started flying circuits that i had the time to look out of the side windows and see the Singaporean landscape with the sun just above the horizon. Quite a beautiful sight, especially when you're only 800 feet off the ground and everything is still quite big =) had some really smooth landings too. yaye.

oh i had KFC O.R. chicken chop for dinner. i like =)

Food for thought..
"Open your doors, O Lebanon,
That fire may devour your cedars.
Wail, O cypress, for the cedar has fallen,
Because the mighty trees are ruined.
Wail, O oaks of Bashan,
For the thick forest has come down.
There is the sound of wailing shepherds!
For their glory is in ruins.
There is the sound of roaring lions!
For the pride of the Jordan is in ruins."
- Zechariah 11:1-3

Sortie 15 DCO on 9V-BOE
Thank You dear God for everything

results day today. I did better than I expected, however it was still rather horrible. Regardless, i'm rather pleased with my results. For one, I did reasonably well for math for once, and i didn't fail chem despite leaving out a whole section which was worth 22.2% of the whole paper. Credit must go to God, Who helped me through the exam period even though i was feeling rather sick throughout the whole 2 weeks =)

In other news, Ike See, the dude who got accepted into Curtis institution (some uber leet music place) has been granted deferment by MINDEF. Rather happy with the decision...talented kids like him should be encouraged to follow their dreams

Had another circuits sortie today. Rather strong crosswinds, and had engine failure after take off emergency practice...as well as radio failure emergency practice. The latter was rather fun, as visual cues had to be taken from the control tower in the form of flashing lights.

It was rather amusing that this kind of weather was considered CAT I (highest) lightning risk. The CAT I warning was due to this huge cloud formation that was moving in from the south at a speed of 5-10 knots...but didn't really reach us before it broke up.


Also managed to take a grainy pic of a Bombardier Learjet 45 on runway 03 in seletar before I flew.


This was taken this morning in school...a rather nice sky i must say. The beauty of God's creation =)

Sortie 14 DCO on 9V-BOI
Thank You my dear heavenly Father

done with my mock IOP. have to say it was rather not good, but it isn't the real one, so doesn't matter.

first time flying in the rain today. it was a very nice experience, and thank You dear God for holding back the lightning =) had many rough landings though, but still, it was nice to take to the skies after more than a week. First Solo, here we come...You and me Lord =)

Sortie 13 DCO on 9V-BOK
Our God is an awesome God

lots of work to rush, in addition to Mock IOP tmr, Chinese oral on friday, and I have yet to prep for either one. Flight was cancelled due to lightning on friday morning. prospect of getting back probably lousy marks for my common tests. I'm not getting enough sleep cuz i've been sleeping much later. Thank you dear Lord for all this.

Thank You that I am able to worry about all these mundane things, rather than what i was worrying about few weeks back. Whatever I was complaining about a few posts ago, actually is happening to me again.

I miss waking up at 6 grumbling that I could not get enough sleep.
I miss the times where I would get upset by something as trivial as lousy test/exam results.
I miss worrying whether the weather would cancel my flights
I miss worrying about major projects that are due 12 hours away and I only started on it.
I miss laughing without worries.
I miss falling asleep in lectures and missing out important points.
I miss feeling very annoyed at my handphone when the joystick doesn't seem to work.
I miss the feeling of being anxious about exams cuz I didn't study enough.
I miss falling asleep at my table doing work.
I miss worrying about where i'd end up after university.
I miss being able to wake up refreshed, and enjoy the cool morning air
I miss having the ability to be happy for the little things in life
I miss feeling normal.

yep. all these things i missed are all coming back now. my handphone is acting up again..and i'm feeling more normal than ever..praise God =)

Indeed, God did have a reason for putting me through all that.

But still. I wonder what if things hadn't turned out so nicely. Would I have blamed God? I don't know. I know that i'm no Job, for now at least. But I pray that in time, I will learn to have greater faith.

Thanks to everyone for their concern and prayers over the past month or two =)

Had a really nice birthday, even though I didn't get to fly due to lightning on that day. I guess birthdays are meant to be spent with ones we love, rather than inorganic pieces of winged metal =)

oh well. off to do the stupid IOP.

haha. weather permitting, I'll be going round in circles to 800 feet tmr afternoon. win!

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

I am healed in Jesus' name

woot. i am the win =D



circuits are quite fun =)

neh. back to earth. have to study for 2 more papers for common tests. sian.

Sortie 12 DCO on 9V-BOE
Thanks Lord, for everything =)

iamsingaporean

I have a nickname, and I don't know where it came from.
and no, i do not resemble an aquatic creature in any way.
I speak in broken english most of the time, as it is easier that way.
I grew up playing Super Nintendo, Sega, and watching power rangers
I once brought digimon to schools, and everywhere else i went, and would fight other kids' digimons.
I failed to collect 150 pokemon back when I was 12.
I learnt how to ride a bike at peirce reservoir
I spent hours of my childhood at the road parallel to runway 2R/20L at changi watching aircraft take off and land.
I learnt how to multiply multi-digit numbers before I learnt how to speak proper english
I'm learning how to fly a plane before I even know how to drive a car.
I was sick during SARS period and was sent to Tan Tock Seng Hospital
I could sing the SAR-vivor rap by heart
My parents compared my school results with other kids
My parents wanted me to go to RI, like most Singaporean parents.
My parents want me to be a doctor, lawyer, or a scientist, not a pilot.
My highest educational qualification is the PSLE
I have trouble with the chinese language
I do not know whether i'm a jc student or a secondary school student
I am here now because I was too lazy to take the O levels.
I did not get streamed in P4, nor do I pay as much school fees in secondary school or even now as most of my contemporaries.
I get all that for doing a test back in P3 better than others.
I fly for free because the Air Force sponsors me
I know how tyco I am.
I have my gripes about this place, but I love my country
My name is Victor Ang, and I am a Singaporean.
So say we all.
So say we all.

hmm. apologies for the semi-angsty post.

opiates aren't much good for health anyway.


But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. - 2 Corinthians 12:9

It never rains but it pours.

Why does misfortune come in such a big stinking pile at once.

stupid thing. did not see section B of today's chem paper till i had to hand the thing up. So much for thinking i finished the paper before everyone else. 20 marks just went poof. And it doesn't help that those were far easier than section A. 30% of promos some more. what a turd. along with that, i still can never get to sleep at night and i still have some piece of organic shit jammed somewhere up my windpipe/trachea and its making it hard to breathe. With all these things happening to me, I won't be surprised if my ceiling collapses on me this very moment.

aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

The most frustrating period of my life ever, and this new shit comes along and plonks its ugly rear end on the mountain of trouble i'm having now. Just great.

what a turd.


grr. angst is the opiate of the youth.

I know this spirit, this soul, this mind, was made to fly. All I pray for now is that the body will be up to the task. It hasn't been functioning well for quite a long time, for reasons unknown but hopefully not serious. Couldn't really enjoy today's flight as much as I wanted too due to my current state of health. Kinda wasted though. At least it was quite good. Circuits, take off land take off land take off land over and over again. Very fun =)

For people who are reading this and believe in the power of prayer, please pray for me. I have no idea what's wrong with me but i'm still hoping and praying for the best. Thanks

God, please don't take away my wings.

Sortie 11 DCO on 9V-BON
Thank You my Lord

I miss waking up at 6 grumbling that I could not get enough sleep.
I miss the times where I would get upset by something as trivial as lousy test/exam results.
I miss having relationship 'problems'
I miss being able to appreciate days which i can sleep-in.
I miss worrying whether the weather would cancel my flights
I miss worrying about major projects that are due 12 hours away and I only started on it.
I miss laughing without worries.
I miss falling asleep in lectures and missing out important points.
I miss feeling very annoyed at my handphone when the joystick doesn't seem to work.
I miss the feeling of being anxious about exams cuz I didn't study enough.
I miss falling asleep at my table doing work.
I miss worrying about where i'd end up after university.
I miss being able to wake up refreshed, and enjoy the cool morning air
I miss having the ability to be happy for the little things in life
I miss feeling normal.

Something's really wrong with me. Physically. I can feel it. Went to two doctors already, a GP and a specialist, and they both concluded there was nothing wrong with me. The lymph nodes that I thought were enlarged turned out to be normal sized, according to the docs. But somehow, I feel really sick. Been feeling like that for over a month. Haven't been able to sleep for more than 4 hours straight, and i feel fatigued and half dead but not sleepy all day and all night. The nights are especially agonizing, being unable to sleep or do anything else except lie there and let thoughts run wild. Perhaps I should have gone for scans, x-rays or even biopsies to put my mind at ease. But the doc didn't think those were needed. Sigh.

Exams and all these internal assessment things are all around the corner...and shit. I'm not really worried about them. I can't seem to worry about anything else besides endlessly worrying about what's happening to my body. I think i'm screwed. Everyone says its stress or anxiety, but I really fear its something worse. Maybe i'm hypochondriac. Hopefully so. I never find anything satisfying or fun anymore. Perhaps only flying. The adrenaline produced then probably overrides everything, but as soon as I leave the cockpit, everything sinks in again. If this feeling of sickness or real sickness goes on, I might have to withdraw or get phased out from my flying course. Any more of this and i'll go into clinical depression.

I pray that I will remain sane until at least my 17th birthday.

"Because I fly, I envy no man on earth"
hmf. I fly, but I envy everyone now. for being able to go on with daily life without any strange things to worry about, besides mundane, temporal problems.

Lord, I beseech You. Help me.