over.

midterms are finally done with! ending off with a tricky C programming paper. Math was killer. Physics was irritating. and C. well, let's just say i don't feel good about any of them at all! which totally sux. could check math answers now but i can't bring myself to do it. Anyway, that certainly doesn't mean complete R&R. ok maybe can go out abit now! haha. but it's time to focus on the finals and upcoming papers and labs! i'm feeling crappy about how i did for all 3 papers. which is totally gross. henceforth i don't feel like blogging anymore. so byee.

p.s. happy 19th birthday! bff <33 hahaa cya.

eye bagged

another late night! this is the first time i'm blogging on my lappy, in hall! and it's only because my daddy's arriving soon to pick me home.. haha yes crazy hours.

glad i went for mini-class-gathering today and met up with people i haven't seen in quite awhile! it also put things in perspective: how much harder i have to work to be as pro as math-whizzes.. i wonder how they get there. but the thing that struck me today was what a senior said, and how the mindsets are so different!

"You don't need to take all the time they give you during the tests. It's definitely enough (to do all the questions you actually know how to do)."

The moment i realised that was what was meant, i wanted to burst out laughing! ok i think yh did.. because it's so different from what we're used to, i.e. taking up all the time and being able to do all the questions! i'd never want to convert to the above-mentioned mindset because it's so, well, for lack of a better word, complacent! It feels like you're not giving it your best shot, because the best guarantee of your grades is to get full marks.. seem elitist? even more ironic that it was a dean-lister talking.. but i guess because it's a bell-curve, that point-of-view can be understood! still, i can't get my mind around that. Quite irritated about my essay getting a B.. need to start working on the second essay after midterms are done! and plan like study time per module per week apart from what i need to do/submit.. i want to be better!!

then again more stuff needs to be settled too =) uni life is quite interesting. esp hall! i think without hall i'd probably be bored OR have found a different way to occupy my time. need an external cca! find me one or hope one drops in my lap (quite hard). rawr.

back here while mugging! and there's a bunch of stuff to think about. haha but i've been putting it off forever because it isn't very happy! i shall set a day to run off into the wilderness that is uni campus, find a spot alone (although that's kinda freaky coz weird people might pop out too) and make my decisions. everything's been pushed back coz of my indecisiveness and that rather makes me irritated because i feel like i can't commit myself to anything! why was i made responsible to this degree?! if i were slightly more frivolous, i'd have just chionged everything and ignored the consequences.

on a different note, staying home from hall makes me realise how much time i actually waste! then again this is the holidays, and there are no classes.. so i guess frames of reference don't really match huh. inertial frames of reference are where Newton's first law can be applied. studying today wasn't very nice either. i feel distracted! plus they just informed us of the change in c programming midterms - it's one day earlier! boo. need to reschedule.

somehow the mundaneity of life and the myriad things that keep cropping up keeps me (for the moment) contentedly preoccupied from actually directing my time purposefully. laugh. or not? =) smile because you never know who might be falling in love with your smile?! ROFL. loser.

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wow i haven't blogged in more than a month! and these days have been really full of activities.. if you made me try to recall them, i'd probably take an extremely long time! uni life so far has been BUSY! like extremely. the good thing is we finally have sports trainings, without a coach though.. still, it's been fun staying in hall and filling my time with studies and random stuff! interactions with people are really cool too. i need to be more extroverted! sometimes i just clam up, randomly!

nowadays sleeping at 5am isn't really such a big deal anymore.. i did it 3 days in a row once, so you can probably guess how horrible my eye bags and dark circles are. should probably get something to remove them :S trying to manage my time more properly now so i should be able to sleep at more normal times.

i'm blogging because i'm finally home for the week, and i'm going to stay home this whole week to study for midterms! hahaa =) i hope the plan works. but maybe i'll go back to stay one day when i have class. we'll see.

what exciting stuff happened this week (since it's still saturday).. hm. yesterday was RH concert bash! it was quite amusing to see people from hall getting drunk or wasted, although watching them puke isn't very nice. you kinda feel bad for them while thinking that they are seriously noob! we went dblO. and i realised clubbing is fun if you're with happy friends! missed the games and activities part of bash tho, coz i'm in marketing comm and we had to stand outside to man the gates and sell tix. rawr i kinda wanted to see the games. oh well. i sorta broke my rule to not drink except at home! would say that "rules are meant to be broken" but i think it's more like i've changed abit and i know mys limits better!

the first time clubbing, it wasn't good to drink because i hadn't drunk in quite awhile so i didn't know my own limits! and after usp d&d i didn't feel like spending (because i'm extremely broke). but last night there was a free drink! argh we didn't know the coupons were only valid until 10pm.. as marketing comm, we had a whole stack left! what a waste. should have changed jugs dammit. =( anyway it was better because i knew my limits after drinking at home! and dancing was fun after 1am, when the songs got better. they played funny but dance-able stuff, very old school - nsync, britney, maroon5! quite amusing.

experience was eye-opening though. we saw alot of couples groping each other and making out like mad in random spots (not even the dark spots), like in the middle of the dance floor also! but the irritating thing was that when we were dancing with a group of hall people, some guys came and tried to get closer and closer.. urgh. luckily we noticed that they weren't from our hall! super annoying.. they refused to go away! and when they finally did, it was only to take a break before returning. zz. so had to keep a constant lookout. one guy kept trying to come closer to me! i felt like smacking him but it was public place and i haven't learnt taekwondo yet =( shouldn't pick fights. yup. so we made our circle tighter! the smoke was quite cool =)

after that we went to fongseng for supper (thanks to ryan who lives in pgp). grr. and i ended up sleeping at 5+! because it was 4+ when we got back from milo dinosaur without ice =D and i had to bathe and pack to come back. hmm bad thing about alcohol is it's fattening!!! :S and this week i might not run as much! luckily i brought the shoes back.

RH concert is soon! marketing comm's work is almost complete (phew). either way, this week i'm just gonna mug. gotta come up with a study plan! =)

home!

i'm finally home after one week, ok granted i was home for half an hour one day.. and that brief stay miraculously recharged me! hahaa i'm a home junkie i guess. probably the worst thing is the lack of computer, and the toilets aren't as nice as home's. i'll be going back today and it's probably gonna be a helluva week, because rag day is coming :x

will blog more about hall orientation later! although i ponned a few things.. RH orientation lasts 2 weeks, whereas other halls' take only a week! but there are quite slack times. apparently i need to be more sociable? or less anti-social when i'm tired.. someone teach me to reprogram my brain so that i get all high and random when i'm super duper tired, instead of stoned..

been sleeping 3-4h every day so yesterday's bout of 9hr sleep really felt wonderful! i wonder how tonight's activities will go.. and i don't know if i should go for engin oweek tmr or for usp acad talks. i do know i'll end up at USP at night to help with rag tmr night. i wonder how much sleep i'll get (: but hey, we only get to live once! HAHAA.. and add to the fact that i don't even know if i'll be in uni next year or somewhere else. better make the most of this time. actually i think local uni is probably more fun than elsewhere, because they don't really seem to have all the orientation crap any other place! but that's something i need to corroborate next time (:

acad-wise, i didn't get the module i wanted! i need to take a usp writing module this sem.. dead la. i'm so gonna spam all my points. heck it! esp w.r.t. wdv i said above. i might not need so many points next sem.. hehe

goodbye my computer. i'll miss you! but next weekend will probably be transferring of data into ext hdd day! and my laptop.. please come soon.



p.s. i realised i haven't whined about my "blister". it's not really a blister! i got it awhile ago while playing dodgeball barefoot on the hardcourt! it was like suddenly i was braking and doing the evasive shit when my foot hurt alot! and i looked down and saw blood! the entire piece of skin got ripped out.. damn painful when i had to clean it using alcohol wipes :x i think my expression must have been hilarious. quite hard to walk for the following days coz it was excruciatingly painful.. so sian. i think i got the blister on tuesday or wednesday?! but it healed quite fast (: the skin's grown back now and walking is better. the first two days it was like damn wth to walk! i was limping and disabled ): i think my ankles and heels have grown stronger coz i put almost all my weight on them walking. so the legs are quite tired now from using more muscles than usual.

btw, i wanna new phone! with wlan. hahaa

moving in, moving on

i'll be moving into hall, like for real - to sleep, eat, crap (in both senses of the word), wdv.. tomorrow! i hope it'll be fun. and tomorrow's the first day of orientation. hahaa as well as the first day without my comp. i will probably be unable to access msn, fb, the internet and wdv until 11august! the supposed delivery date of the thinkpad that i'm gonna buy because i was too lazy to go simlim to find an asus. ISOLATION. but the laptop models are freaking new.. the thinkpad not released yet and the fujitsu cannot be found in singapore yet?! so.. i guess it's a good deal.

apprehensive. but this is really a push towards something different! stepping out of comfort zone, no? we all gotta do it sometime. and this is my time! hahaa.. i'll exercise more, lose weight and become skinny =D yay.. esp since there are like too many slopes and staircases around the entire campus -.-"

have i mentioned how freaking awesome the dark knight is? i seem to have forgot all about monday movie outing with csc og on the 21st! the night is darkest before the dawn. and i liked the themes they touched on! =P

went for some ums tea session yesterday, it was rather useful.. but more like a see-faces networking session! i won't ever admit that it wasted time (: because after that i attended HALF the choir concert before deciding i couldn't take it and went home. not that the choir was bad, but i couldn't give them the attention they deserved! come to think of it, maybe i shouldn't have gone at all for the concert.. the free food was okay.

byebye my blog, msn and all the other stuff i usually do to waste time! until i get a laptop.. or cannot stand it and go online on my psp. which will be really quite pathetic.

wrong side of the bed

i feel inanely BORED and there's some random bigass ant flying about the room. i kinda feel like killing it. and kinda don't feel like killing it.

there's probably stuff to be done, i've just dragged out the clothes i'll be bringing to hall.. and felt rather bleh. like why am i doing this to myself. i should just stay at home within my comfort zone. and i thought about all the things i'll miss, like having so much space to myself. and all the things i'll have to put up with, that i don't know why i'm making myself put up with when i don't really have to put up with peeling formica, sleeping next to my study table. missing home and my mom. more blehh-ness.

now i understand why people have second thoughts.
i feel damn noob.
am highly irritated today.
don't like having nothing to do.. and don't like evening programs.. i wanna whine. i'm annoyed with my computer. it's boring. why do i like it in the first place. not making sense. SIAN is the word.
BLEH. !@#$%&())&^##$^@#$~!@#$^%&^*%!@%$!#

memory is the only real estate [vladimir nabokov]

i was trying to remember when i last met people! and wow it's been AWHILE. the last time i had a mini class outing was yonghui's farewell on 30th june, and before that ecp on 21st june. it's almost 30th july! time doesn't just fly, it's supersonic! ok, actually it's the 4th dimension in physics but i don't know how that works. anw while trying to recall, i remembered that i didn't blog about 8th july! one of the busiest days in the month.. went for PRK checkup at NUH in the morning, zoomed to JE to meet sam to check out creative and daiso for koala's present, went cway point to print photos for her present, home to dump stuff and did some preparation before heading to town to find ed to buy MORE of koala's present.. this was the day i had blueberry cheese tart from depot heights once again! travelled to dhoby to eat dinner at manhattan fish market and recount camp! i love the creamy sauce rice on the seafood platter! and everything else on the seafood platter was yummy oso. then home to do present until late..

and the next day was ubin! it seemed rainy.. and i woke up sort of late?? coz it was raining and outing was postphoned slightly. can't believe organiser was so dutiful and responsible as to check weather forecast with met station!! hahaa.. i made him wait quite awhile for me since we were gonna take bus down together. oops. then we still hiked around the sports place before finally finding the lockers in the badminton sports hall to dump koala's present in. we gave her the present at some tampines mall playground! with a uber exciting i love alot feature! some centripetal force thingy that's like a merry-go-round for 1! actually i think 2 people can fit but oh well (: so the 9th was the last time i saw singtel and nigger.

went for the first yishun reading stars on the 11th! (: quite cute. i went again today (friday the 25th) but was quite tired out from the week of cracking my brains over laptop choices, and cleaning hall room! so i wasn't very energetic. next week probably can't go coz of hall orientation. hm.

met csc people for kbox on 14th! but there was no a, b and b out of the freshies.

15-18 was usp camp. 19 was recuperate day. and then came this week! what did i do this week? slack on monday. go for usp outing on tuesday. slack on wednesday while deciding whether to check in. check in and clean like mad for the whole day on thursday. go back school check out laptops today..

today (friday becoz i haven't slept yet) i trekked a big part of NUS.. recce-d all the sports facilities and finally went down to help for USP rag, which just involved cutting up drink cans to get bits of shiny blue aluminium.. sorted out into light blue, medium blue and dark blue lol.

went to check out the feel of the laptops at matric fair too! i'm deciding on the lenovo thinkpad t400. which means i won't be online during weekdays until 11aug when it's delivered.. unless i find an asus i like at a price i like. OR go for the fujitsu because i can't stand losing connectivity! but the PRICE =( sob.

anyway. i still feel like i'm wasting my life! somehow.. nothing concrete seems to be materialising. gonna make this change because just hoping that it will change won't do anything to it! random stuff comes out late at night LOL i dunno what i'm talking about lalala~