よこそ (Yokoso)
[*] Be sincere
[^^] Always smile from within
[♥ ] Believe in miracles
信じるひと ひと (shinjiro hito)
§tëphänï£ aka honeydew
18 years old
31 Aug 1990
Singapore Poly
Diploma in Accountancy
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
hehe!
Finally update after a long time. I'm thinking: Life throws us many adversities and challenges. You fall and you climb up again. You get hurt and you recover. You love and be loved. You cry for and be cried for and you laugh because of and another laughs because you. And so many things in life make u smile.
The papers say people who smile and get happy over small things and make others happiness as theirs tend to overcome and better face adversities. hey that's really true. The state of mind is a wonderful thing isn't it. Its so within your control. You don;t have to be unrealistically optimistic butits the angle at which you choose to view things and smile cux you didn't lose the lesson. HAHA. I just love this baby picture i got from an email. Isn't she sweet? Hehe=D So pinky! ^^ I wud dress my daughter that way IF i get the chance. WAHHAA. Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 9:35 PM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Don't judge me!
Everyday is a learning experience and no two days are really the same at all. Cux you today and tomorrow is never the same. People are constantly changing by the day and everyday bit by bit there is a little more understanding to the world around us..
I've come to realise why is it that although my parents love my sister and me a lot, why do we always feel stressed up around them. Its cause of judgement.
People always tend to judge others including myself. My parents judge me from their point of view. They don't understand me and they never will but they love me a lot.
They judge me for my feelings my actions and my thoughts.
My mum always ask me to be myself with them but i am always unable to. I asked myself why many a times and now i seem to catch a glimpse of why. This is because they judge who i am. And they have never truely accepted me for who i am.
I 've always understood its natural for people to judge others but i guess i always thought that being the most true to my feelings with my family is the best but maybe its not.Cause maybe to me their judgement is weird to me cause i felt the whole world can judge you but at least ur little haven (family) shouldn't. Cause i'm more real with my friends. And this is cause my really close friends don't judge me that much. At least that's what i believe.
Maybe its an innate characteristic that parents will be critical of their children for the sake of improving and re improving one's character. But i suppose the case with my family is that we are really a family of people with ultra different personalities. My Dad is prob a mix of Mel and Chol and my mum Prob a Phleg, my sis prob a mel and me sanchol. Ok maybe its just me lol. HAHA.
Its so hard cux they're always judging me. I can't cry( kena scolded) can't laugh( dad too serious) can't be myself so i'm just quiet at home. I dun really like being at home with my family cause it just reminds me of how not me i am at home. So i usually am in my room at home. ( usually sleeping). I noe its very unfilial of me. But i'm trying hard mum n dad! Maybe as hard as u are too! Spending time with u guys can be very tiring to me cause its a mix feeling. Like i don't know u but i love you very much. And i see all you do as a parent i noe its not easy! And your love for me and sis is something i prob will only understand when i have my own kids.But then again. You have taught me many things. Your good characteristics that me a San dun have WAHAHA. You taught me to learn on my own two feet. You taught me to struggle with my emotions. You taught me by conduct to accept others because of your say only but didn really mean it acceptance of me. I have learnt to see others for the person inside them. Instead of using purely judgement. So many things to learn in life!
I guess i really want to improve my relationship with my family members and i really do love them=D But i guess theres still a long long way man!
I really want my parents to see my strong points as well. Instead of always seeing the bad.I couldn't undertsand my dad perfectionsim(even a holiday also must according to schedule de. Chill man!Work den on schedule, holiday just run ard lah! SO STRESSED FOR WHAT!!) and his anti socialness and my sister's hatred for almost everything. Now i guess is still don't really.
But my Gems teacher taught me about different personalities and when i put my family members into each one and try to understand them it makes it a whole lot easier to see it from their point of view! No wonder MS Rachel said it helped her a lot!
Now i see it from their eyes, it makes them more human to me i guess. I suppose asking a Mel to accept a San child and be a hair pulling experience huh? So i've learnt to be Chol at home. Isn't a bad thing though. (I'm a high san n high Chol, 53,50)Guess they think i'm a scary monster.
WAHAHHA. I wish you could open your heart to see who i am. Don't just say. You don't mean what you say.Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 8:39 PM
Monday, June 22, 2009
Where do i go from here?
Been not able to study for a long time. ( Not exact words)
Dad: (Looks at me) Its been a long time since i saw you studying with so much enthusiasim and vigor.
Me( thinking): Its been a long time since i did something i like.
Dad: Accounting has never really been what you wanted from day 1 am i right? Actually u can't really do accounts cause XXX and i'm not saying you can;t.. but u'll struggle.. and be careful.
The rest is history,
HAHA.
Truth is i joined accounting because i thought you believed i could do it. I know u are convincing yourself that ur daughter can. But too bad she's not really for that kinda line and neither is that her interest. Sorry.
I got through year 1 faring borderline with a ending GPA of 3.2. Comforted that i struggled through not only with the syllabus but also with the fact that i joined accounts knowing that's not where i wanna go.
Took me a long time to realise that i shouldn't join things cause of other's opinion and confidence in me. It should be for me . I should live my life for myself essentially. Even though i know i have to consider other's feelings. But ultimately its me. Only i can determine what i want the most.
So after not studying for so long. With a new resolve, i shall make the best of my present , keep the future in mind, Plan for the future and last but not least. Live for myself.
Plan 1
Study hard for MST
Plan 2
EXCERCISE to keep fit! So as to not waste medical resouces and medication. Cheers to a healthy lifestyle=DLabels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 5:25 PM
random
I wanted to continue posting the Redang photos but theres just too much! HAHA . So i'll blog about something else before continuing.
This morning i had somewhat of an onset of Asthma. Its my Sister's birthday today. I feel bad not being able to celebrate it with her. I tried to hold the Asthma back as far as i could but in the end i cried because i just suddenly felt like a burden cause it was such a happy day and i had to have an asthma attack.
When mummy asked me why i just didn't want to explain anything. I just wanted my sister to go to her fav K box and sing so i wasn't reluctant to go there just that i wasn't feeling very well so maybe i didn't look too happy.
But this incident did teach me something . That i should stop taking everything as my fault and don't feel as if i'm responsible for everything. Cause i'm not. Like today. I shouldn't have cried. I DIDN'T ask for an attack. And the late night sleeping that might have caused it? I dunno. I guess i was thinking about tons of stuff bahs. HAHA. I had to sort it out if not i cannot sleep.
I realised one thing. Only i can help myself. If i was to know what was my inner self i had to search for it myself. And i didn't have a choice. Because i am such a person. I need to find out my inner voice.
Sure i enjoy each present moment and enjoy my sweet treasure of past memories but sometimes things happen and i get to know myself more and more. And then i realise there's so much more about me i don't know. I am my biggest mystery.
It feels sweet to be alive. I should't cry. There are many things to learn. Like to learn to be stronger. I'm growing each day. Learning to be stronger. Someday i'll learn when to keep my tears and when to let it out. Someday i shall find my balance=DLabels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 4:51 PM
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Redang Part1.1
These are some pictures taken before we headed for the beach. Ting yu is up up and away! Hui Fen and i trying to make a heart shape. LOLS. Not bad lah. Wanted to upload Hui Fen and Lynn and Ting Yu de but couldn't squeeze it in. ARGHH..
Me wearing my SP black shirt. I love that shirt. I thought i lost it forever. But i found it again!! We were going to look for a place to put our stuff. And my photographer was Ting Yu!
Hui Fen trying to act Hip Hop! LOLS. She coup the hat from You Yi de lol.
 YAY! My Star Formation! Finally! HAHA. Using legs. In Redang waters!! hehex! Phtogrpahed by me! kk tired le. I post more pictures next time. HAHA. Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 12:50 AM
Friday, June 19, 2009
Redang Part 1
Back from Malaysia Redang! went with a bunch of sweeties. Hui Fen, Lynn, Pearl, Katherine, Ting Yu, You Yi and Wilson!!
It was a super long journey. 16 hours on the road. =D I shared a room with Hui Fen and You Yi.
I'm so gonna upload the pictures. ^^
14th June. 8+ pm.
Met the whole bunch of sweeties. Saw You Yi first. She was carrying a small bag. Stun tio! why go Redang bring so little thing. Shocked!But its cuz she left her other bag with the rest of the people. LOL=.="
Anyways we headed down to Golden Mile Tower. We walked to and fro in front of the tower without knowing that was the tower. Funny lol. HAHA.All of us feel cheated.
Later we met Hui Fen who cabbed down to the tower cause she couldn't meet us at the station.
She look like air stewardess. Elegant and high class. HAHA, With the scarf around her. LOLS.
I wear Singapore Polytechnic Black shirt. HAHA. Got contrast when stand beside her. WAHHAHA.
Our next problem was we couldn't find WTS.When we finally found it we feel cheated again. Cause the place is just in front of us again. We walk one big round to come back to where we left off. The name not the same de lol. Cheated. HAHA
But anyways there was a jam at the causeway.Our dear bus was 45 minutes late. Couldn't blame bus-y cause the jam wasn't his fault. BUT next time BU KE YI LE WOR!. HAHAHA. I feel so childish.
 You see the picture here? This was taken while i was peeing. Win liao lol. Never wait for me. WAHAHA. But nice right! hehe. This is in the toliet after passing Singapore Customs. Everyone say Cheeze!! CHEEZE!! Reminds me of Meng Xi HAHA.
The Bus ride was a long and cold one. Really feel very cold. The aircon was freezing me. I only brought my cardigan along. Super Duper Ultra cold. Maybe without the ultra la. In the end i couldn't take it i took out my towel to provide me some warmth. Thanks towel! My towel is cute. It has rabbits and flowers and is a sweet yellow in colour. I'm so childish, But i just like my towel!
Upon reaching the jetty we had to take a 1.5 hour ferry ride to Redang! I was famished!
Saw lotsa coconut trees along the way. Wooden and concrete one storey houses dotted the sides of the roads. A bit like doll houses. There eateries were more like same restaurants rather than food courts or hawker centres like in Singapore.
This is when we reached the jetty! This is pearl! isn't she sweet! =D Smile sweetheart! HAHA . Me pinching my nose in the bg. AH CHOO. BUT its not H1N1. Its the aircon!
Ta dah! Bejaya Beach Resort. A bit outta the way but still ok! HAHA. Nice right! the architecture. Serene would love it. You yi kept snapping pictures like nobody's business.
The two pictures you see here on the right are those taken from the business centre.There really is a treasury of books.
This is our hotel room. Really nice ya. HAHA. Hello Hui Fen! Dun peek at ppl taking bath la! The toliet had a bathtub and a shower, You see the furthest right picture. I slept in that bed. Close to the toliet. The windows can be opened at will. Tempted to open when they bathing. NO LA. Joking. I like guys. Ok i gonna separate the day's event into another post! HAHA
The beach one!
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her sweet memory was written @ 10:06 PM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
treasure=D
Past few days since Friday everyday was filled with a mixture of sadness and happiness.
Happy cause i got to pray to Buddha and although i wasn't really focused, i'm still happy i went. During the prayer i had headaches and some breadthing difficulties. Really wanted to go back to the hotel. HAHA. but i guess all these are obstacles. Training for the mind and faith.
Anyways feeling terrible about the what i saw. Saw a lot of suffering which i dun intend to rewrite it here. Because most people already noe what kind of suffering i 'm talking about. But seeing it first hand so near to you is something of a novel experience. Staying at P2 , near a residential area, you could really see the difference.
Dirty cramped and smelly alleys and run down dirty old buildings. Polluted brown water trickled down the streets and the smell of petroleum filled the air. Beggars dotted the streets and it seemed like it was part of their city landscape. The hotel seemed like a safety haven for me then. It was like looking at all the suffering at ur doorstep while sitting on a some comfory sofa.
There was a sense of helplessness and sadness that kinda consumed me those few days. I dreaded walking down the roads not because it was smelly or dirty, but cux of how bad living conditions could be. Guess its normal there but it doesn seem normal to me at all.
Beggars were seriously cripped.One even lied on the pavement near a highway. Half of this body wasn't even there. I guess it might be a syndicate or something cux like he couldn't have lied like that on the ground like that himself. Someone prob put him them to beg. He was dirty and unkempt. Holding a bowl up for people to drop some coins into it. I reckon the money doesn go to him but the syndicate that prob gives him only enough to survive. Just a mere existence for him to be used as a tool to garner sympathy so that people would give him some money. If he doesn get enough money he may be brutally beaten.
He also has parents and a family. People who care for him. He may be from a loving family. Maybe he was kidnapped and his poor parents cannot find him. Maybe they miss him. Maybe he was sold by his parents to the syndicate, There is just too many maybes.
I didn quite see him when i walked along the pavement. It was dark and the pavement was relatively narrow. Many people bypassed him. Some gave him some money, some tripped over him and just quickly walked off. It must have felt terrible to be ignored. No one bothers about your existence . Some pity you for that moment and then forget about you. Nevertheless he begs and there is the will to live on what i see as a meaningless life.
But life is precious isn't it. Water finds its own level just like every man finds his worth and place in life. Understands his contributions to the world.
I almost tripped on this beggar and i ran. It was a painful sight to see. I was silent for the rest of the journey.Either that or i didn't know what i was saying anyway.
The next day i went back to the same pavement, the beggar wasn't there anymore.
The rest of the days i saw more beggars. Mostly handicapped. Like the legs or hands weren't even there anymore. It was such a common sight it became distrubing.Children were begging. People were laying a thin sheet and selling cheap stuff.Some screaming their heads off, some on wheelchairs , some just looking dazed,
7.30pm- overhead bridge . A mother was carrying her child. asleep, looking sick. It was cold and windy. My dad gave my sister some money to donate.
11plus pm- roadside. We were shopping for clothes. But my mind wasn't really there. Saw that hey! the make shift roadside stalls at night was all located near lamposts and i remembered seeing all those dark roadside stalls on the way back to th hotel.I realised that they used
the light from the lamposts to light up their stalls! how clever, but also how poor they are.
Its been 2 days since i came back. The helplesssness is still there. Nagging at me. Dun really noe what i can offer. Its hard to just forget what i saw. Jin hao say vv fast forget de. Wun sad tt long. Wow. imgaine how short can one's emphaty be.its quite true.U can help that person once den forget him.feel saint for that moment. But u can't really make a difference i guess.. After the toil of exams comes on i prob really nt feel anything liao. ( Life goes on). Its sad to noe one will always be forgotton after a while.
Feel like so sad. Though its not my fault. Walked a lot this trip. Wanted to see for myself... see more. Not sit inside the taxi n see nothing. Save money n my family from traffic jam 2=P
study hard ba. So that a difference can be made=D
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her sweet memory was written @ 11:58 PM
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
TT
Back from Thailand religious trip. Many things running through my mind. Really a lot.
Knew many things that i might have rather not known. Affected my thinking a lot these days. As in not at this point of time. Woke up on the last day feeling really sore. I clutched my pendant on the plane as a form of comfort but i think i accidentally dropped it. Now i feel really sore. And my parents think i'm weird. I kinda think so too. Like even though i was very sad it wasn't an excuse for me to clutch the pendant and lose it. I 'm quite sure i put it in my bag. But its not there, Now i feel really bad. I didn't try to explain anything. Cux its really my fault. Now i really wanna sit in front my altar table and cry. Sometimes i'm struggling to find my worth in life.
I'm always making mistakes and i really do try to avoid them. But it seems the more i want to change for better i always screw up. Screwing up makes me a better person later on in life but the process is painful. This time would be a good lesson learnt. I needa be more focused.Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 9:29 PM
Sunday, May 17, 2009
refelction=D
I want to blog about some stories.
On the MRT train, its always easy to see pregnant women, familes with young children, mothers carrying babies..
Each and every little child i see makes my heart fill with joy and peace. Seeing their parents showering children with love. Its interesting to see how parents educate their children. Some shower encouragement, some give hard facts, some are strict and firm. And then you see what kind of children they become.
I thought about it, its always to enocourage a child. Only then will he grow up with a happy and confident soul. A child's smile is ever so precious. Cox its never fake.
And here i see children well loved by parents , i think of the really poor kids in Siberia that i saw on History Channel. Many are orphans, often tortured by state institutions. Lack of food. Being a orphange not state run is considered fortunate...
And i really would like to take some time to appreciate my family. Treasure my parents who didn throw me away. My parents for trying their best...
Sometimes i hope i'll c my guardian angel somewher. Maybe in my dreams.. to tell me everythings gonna be ok. But look at the kids like that...
sometimes i wonder why..
why does a human being so innocent have to go through this. When life gets real tough will people support each other through or try to outlive each other.Can you really blame them. Will even close relatives be like that.
I hope i never come to this.
I learnt in this period that its easier to forgive someone than forgive yourself ... cux of the guilt...Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 12:18 AM
Sunday, March 8, 2009
WHY?
Where is the dream ?
where is my drive ?
where is my identity ?
Where have i gone to?
Why am i so confused?
What is wrong with me?
Where is my focus?
Will someone understand me?
Why am i still so lost!!
Sometimes i cry
Sometimes i smile
Sometimes i get lost
Many times i can't find myself.
Maybe i think too much
But its necessary.
I believe in a better tomorrow.
Today i struggle for tomorrow's happiness.
Stephanie pls believe in yourself.Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 12:03 AM
Friday, March 6, 2009
I miss..
I miss CS events... I miss the whole CS going tgt like the past. I Miss the aspiration kids. I miss being a befriender( though i didn do vv well)i miss the children and elderly. I miss dancing with them.. i miss dancing like a fool and rushing the stuff. Giving speeches last minute. I miss volunteering. HAHA.Its ok! i'll find time to do them again! juz be happy n treasure the present!
O man.. But i'm tired. and i 'm really tired because i can't sleep well. Its frustrating. its my silly excuses. I really think those that can still help people even when they are really busy are people i really take my hat off to. HAha like the youth leader i read in Teenage.. haha..
AND GUESS WHAT! the ice cream man just left. O MAN! my potong ice cream. My childhood ice cream.... i wan potong red bean ice cream...Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 8:32 PM
Friday, August 29, 2008
Random thoughts
hellos blog! its the holidays again!~ however this time round it feels so empty=D. well... after exam went home instead of going out as usual. I reallli miss mi sec sch. Can nv be the same. Poly frewns have their sec sch frens. HAHA. haix... i miss them so much. Bt vv hard to ask them out=D all having EXAMS. sO depressing. Sometimes i wonder if i am the only one missing them? maybe i think too much. After all We HAVE to move on with life.=D i kp in contat with them though. aWW... stefy...WAKE UP AND MOVE ON STUPID GAL.
Anyways tml gotta wake up early. gO club=D dunno do wad eh. 10am.. sobs. cannot slp... =D k shan't complain.
BYESSSSSSS>>>>Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 12:02 AM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
i randomly choose to love you. NL- no link
Watched 18 jin bu jin yesterday. Got hooked liao. HAHAHA. Dead. haven even go and find wad events to do for CSCC thing. Tot of doing with someone i'm nt that close with. Like bonding since Julia say le. But then the scenerio would be...
Me: Erm.. (* smile*) Hello.
tt person: Yes?Why are you looking at me like that? ( me erm.. its juz the way i look at ppl.. can't be helped de.. heheh. Bt i will juz smile. HAHA)
Me: Erm....so can i do an event with u.
tt person: ??!Sure( bt thinks i'm weird).
Me: HAHA. Sad. i'm weird. HAHAHAHAHA.( runs ard in circles with raised hands)
Tt person: OMG!! o.O
Jia yi: she's like that de.See i have to bear with it everyday. ah yo.
Me: Its your honour. MUAHAHA.
Jia Yi: Dots. ( typical everyday conv with my sweet fren. HAHAHA)
Ok so forget it.This is juz soo gonna spoil my reputation. Either i do on my own or do with Jia yi. HAHA.
O man i haven done my a/c tutorial..Tomorrow gg get back paper liao.
Scenerio tml:(In chinese)
Jia Qi: How How, my left eye keeps twitching!! 86 shut up~
Me: Aww.. you can de! dun worry.
Jia Qi: how how!! i'm scared!!
me: its over le. dun worry!
But i am nervous like shit.
* when i go to the front to receive my paper, my heart skips a beat and my mind is racing like 10 sport cars on a racing track. Voomp~~*
To be continued....
BTW mi ITAB i got 75 for CA1. Was hoping for an A but i mean its not sometink i excel in so i'm happy!! Theres so many random thoughts in my head i tink i'mgonna explode and the police would have be arrested n try to cut the wire to stop me from exploding. HAHAHA. =.=Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 6:23 PM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
sAturdAy^_^~heLlOos..
tOday woke up at 11am. HAha. slpet very long. But den like didn't have a very good sleep.Like still got insufficient rest.LOLS.Slept while the computer was on yesterday. Realli very sick yesterday.( A bit naseuous n headache)Plus not in a very good mood plus bad appetite.So skip mentoring camp.. didn't realli feel like gg in tt condition. HAHA. A bit dumb la.Wait there for like 2hrs den go there tell the person: i feel very sick realli needa go home. HAHA dots...teh girl say i realli look sick. i am aniway. LOLS.Lucky had the sweet frm teh Q n A by a grp of classmates.( cux low blood, sweet vv impt in times of headache)LOLS.
Aniways, EC ytd present over le. Damn relief. Just anyhow crap some stuff on environemnt. Lucky teacher not fierce not that scary baRhxx..
While working on my accountinglab, had to blow nose. The mucus got blood!( like inside the muscus.) damn disgusting. Yesterday morning also. LOLS. lucky no body saw the digusting mix. HAHA.Hand gt a bit rash too. Like ytd when i wait for the camp to start.
Sometimes vv de sian lol. sick muz all come tgt.Dun wan to tell my parents cux i dun wan them to worry den argue.. ah ya. troublesome la.
Muz rmb go take mediaction le. cux i think gg to have asthma attack. HAHA. i shd slp WELL. bt den cannot slp well also.sians..
Draining my energy la.
Went to c a concert today with a good fren(instead of resting, cux i hate doin ntg bt lying in bed). YJC de. Bu chuo la. Its called Arts Fusion. Like they mix CO with Chinese Drama and GEM(Guitar Ensemble dunno wad la). Damn cool la. Missed Canon in D. ah ya! damn it la. shd have walked faster(late for the concert)But fun la. Took Taxi home with my fren. Sit taxi so shuang. cux my leg pain, no need to walk frm YJC to mrt station which is like damn far.
O yes! MUZ SAY. They play by the Chinese Drama damn good leh. Its the story of Madam White Snake.Sad ending. The students realli acted very well. Rather humourous also, the performance. not bad.
hMmm.. today still got what ar..
O ya. went out tO meet Chailing. Juz for chit chat la. N 4 her to return me something.HAHA. my conclusion: JC is very de stressed.Discussed some BGR issues, Conclusion: dun anyhow. HAHA. actualli BGR, sometimes have is very burden de lor. Trust me bloggy.its not ani gd exp if u dun realli like the guy. its juz sianess. HAHA. aniways..
Went to visit a place with bad childhood memories.Of cux after Chailing left la.. LOLS.haha. muz face if nt will always haunt ba.Most of the time its juz at the back of my mind. HAHA.
damn tired now.. gO du tutorial den slp le.Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 11:34 PM
Saturday, May 3, 2008
sha la la la la
tOday i woke up at 745 am and i was like OMG i'm gonna be late.
But i acted in a calm manner and pretended that everything was just fine. At 8am i left the house ( Thank goodness my father sent me to PR MRT station) and reached dover mrt station at around 8.50am.Then i went to meet Jia Yi and Jia Qi before heading to the classroom. and teacher was not there yet! so we had to stand outside the classroom to wait.Actualli it was alright waiting but the sun was like shining on us!! lols. so hot.
Yesterday slept late to finish FOM and CD . Wasn't very satisfied with my work la but no choice le, in the end sent the i not proud of it work to Kerrin.HAHAs.
Actualli poly ok la. but suddenly eh going to week 4 le MUZ cheong all the projects. den i was like OMG so fast. In week 3 i still in lala land lor.
Now very awake le cux nxt week have to do presentations for FOM,CD and EC liaoxXx.
Not being of any help was that i am sick. Like i have runy nose and cough (with phelgm) den i cannot sing liaos. O WELL...
Today gO sch like never go lol.During lectures, i was like zoning out la.And during PACC i realised that THE WHEAT POTATO from SP KFC was still in mi bag and it was SQUASHED. and mi PACC TB and mi file DIO the potato LOR.i was like... i dunno wad to say.and i was like short of tissue and mi mucus was almost DRIPPIN. lucky Jia yi ask teh girl in front for tissue paper~~ haha used up almost all of herr tissue. -.-"
Den econs.. HAHA econs. eyes almost close liao. become-.- le. yi tiao xian. den today gt mentoring briefing, i also wan 2 slp sia. bt ok la. made it home safely.
den wanted to like slack slack but haf to go out for dinner.( muz be thankful 4 food so i shdn't complain..LALALA)
aniways now vv tired le so go slp liao. tml gg to play badminton n they will noe hw losuy i play. HAHA. lalala.
eyes yao close le. so tata bloggy~~Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 12:04 AM
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Sunday 6th April. One day b4 Oreintation
tOday i woke up at 11 am. I looked at the clock and then...WOA.. 11 am le. I seldom wake up that late..
Tomorrow is the first day of oreintation at SP. I haven really decided what i'm gonna wear tml. Plus i nidda bring extra clothes cux there r water games. This means i needa tink twice as hard .. namely think about what to bring and what to wear. I stare at my wardrobe and i still can't decide so i have decided to put it off till 7pm b4 deciding. Through SAS i know mi class is DAC01 . Hopes it'll be a nice class.
Aniways, my head hurts now. It has been hurting since like 2 days ago. T_T.
Realli hopes it gets better tml^^.
Aniway today i read a book tittled manage your mind. I borrowed it from the library and i thought it was a really nice book.
Basically it talks about how to maintain mental well being. In its first chapter it tells us to value ourselves independently of your achievements. People tend to value themselves according to their achievements. But some people with very low self esteem,may feel that if people praise them, its because people's expectations are lower and not because they are deserving of praise. This is actually not a good thing because the person will have grave self doubts and this is not good to mental well being at all.
The books has many chapters and if i feel like it i will discuss it in future posts.^^
Actually in my point of view, people are always knowingly or unknowingly feeling self doubt.( to varying degrees) Even for people who are arrogant. Deep insdie they have a greater , more incomprehensionable sense of self doubt.
Self doubt is being unfair to yourself. it sucks out your strength and lowers the quality of your life. It is valuing other people's values and opinions more than yours and more than you should.
A miserable person may perform well if they are equipped with the skills to excel in their choosen fields. However they will constantly feel stressed and discontentment.
Self doubt may also stem from double standards. This means you set 2 different standards for yourself and for others. And you set a much higher standard for yourself compared to the standards you set for others. This is not a very good thing to do as it makes one feel even more useless and it underrates and buries your true worth.
In my opinion, it is ok to have higher expectations of oneself to push yourself to the limit you think you can endure.. If you should fail to reach that higher expectation, you should credit yourself with trying and facing the challange, and not berate yourself.
^^ in any case, rmb to feel good about yourself dear readers. Tommorow will be a better day if you let it be^^.
Ok BB. long post. hands also tired le. Brain dead n head still pain. dots. HAHA. until then. lalalaLabels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 5:57 PM
Thursday, March 6, 2008
First Jap lesson
Today i had my first jap lesson at Cambridge learning centre. It was pretty fun but i couldn't concentrate very well cux i was sleepy.I tried though. The sensei was pretty funny. Her name is Fumie Kuriyama. Quite a mouthful.
Aniwayes ,Japanese have super lotsa ways of saying one thing, like formal informal etc...Had a hard time trying to catch up. Haha. Takes me a lot of effort when i'm trying to learn sometink new.Can't usually get things right the first time. Try bahs^^.
They have these wad particle, subject verb thingy.Woa....
Chong hun le nao dai.Hahas. Currently i am trying to finish my Jap homework before i forget anitink else. However, i probobaly will not be able to finish it today since i am like half asleep-.-"
Now i realli wish i have a good memory....Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 11:37 PM
Friday, February 29, 2008
Juz too sian to say anitink.
currently nt in a vv gd mood. I woke up this morning n all of a sudden i wasn't in a gd mood, so the whole day was like sian sian one. Also dunno why. Juz sian + emotionless. Feel like an unfeeling thing. LOL. Wadeva. Dun really noe wad to tink of feel. Nw the hse damn quiet.Vv sleepy also cn't slp. LOL. hmm.. juz go slp better. Tml will be a better day^^ LALALA.
A busy life is not equal to a meaningful life. I have no interests wadeva. Sometimes i wonder what is my calling in life. I dun even noe why i am here. I juz noe i am so i have to make mi best effort to find out why i am here n wad i'm gonna do.....
Be thankful for what i have and strive for what makes life more meaningful.( which i dunno luh) LOLS, LALALALabels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 12:25 AM
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Hamster
it's raining heavily outside now. And i think i'm gonna get a fever soon. O man! better not. I hate being sick. >_<-ta bian da bu chu de face. I gotta go drink lotsa water and take panadol(last resort) haha...
Today Coco(Ke ke) my favourite hamster is as cute as ever. She clinged onto my finger with her paws ^_^ . She always stands by the cage door whenever i'm near and will jump out when i open the door. She will only jump out if its my hand which is at the cage door. She's really adorable and of cux i simply adore her. LOL. ^^
She is a responsive hamster. Just the way i like her. Keke the cute hamster... LOLLabels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 7:01 PM
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Jiu shi random lol.
^^...Wo de peng you Zong yu kao wan le. Online you ren pei wor le^^. Tml shi kan dao Hui fen for the last time b4 A levels. O~ xiang nian o.. haha... you ke hao bei ai de gan jue o. haha. A level ma. Mei ban fa de la^_^. Hmmm.... Da jia yao hao hao du shu jiang lai cai neng zuo ke you yong de ren...HAHA...Poly the exams will be over by this week ba. LOL.Labels: Random
her sweet memory was written @ 11:03 PM
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