It's the start of the new journey

I am yet to enter adulthood and I am already taking a big challenge for myself to live in another country, of totally different lifestyles, language, place, food, culture. And here I am embarking on this journey. Afraid and fear as I am, I would be willing to give it a try and hope for the better.

Thanks to all who came and send me off. I didn't expect to see many people because I didn't make clear of the date that I am flying. I didn't also think so much about it and neither do I make the effort to catch up with my friends before I go. Everything came so rush. I didn't have the time to spend with my mummy before I fly too. Hai, maybe it is a good time to train myself to be more indepedent. Well, I think I am independent too. Am I? Well, not to certain people, especially my parents and "parents".

I really miss my parents and "parents"! No one for me to joke and disturb around. Though the two guys I am travelling with first are rather capable and good, but I still think because I am not very close with them initially to begin with. Well, let see how as time passes.

Once we touch down at Canada on 16 Aug afternoon, we took a cab to the warehouse and put down the stuff. Canada is quite a unique place to begin with. Well, I have just been there for less than 6 hours so I shan't say much. Then we took the same cab to the bank to open a bank account. The officers were rather nice and they really make my little stay there fruitful. Then we walk all the way under the hot sun to the airport, making our way to the USA. Crossing the border may be a little troublesome. But crossing the customs has never been the problem for me =P We ate at the airport and my first meal costs around $10, two sandwiches and a cup of hot tea. Then we touch down at Boston and head straight to the hostel through their subway. I really admire their subway system. Though it can be very confusing but I just like the whole idea of it. Reminds me of the times I played Maplestory. It is my first time staying at hostels but I quite like the feeling, but I just don't like the feeling that I have to climb up beds. I could adapt to the homely feeling of hostels quite fast because the toilets are good =P Closette toilets rocks!

Breakfast everyday are the same. Cereal, bread (all kinds), hot drinks, apple, banana. Then we tour around Boston. I should talk more about it since I have already finished my tour there.

Boston give me the kind of really USA feeling as you would see in movies. The way shops are built and structured. One shop by one shop, has their own designs. The people there were also friendly. More nightlife and busier (as compared to Washington). I kind of like that feeling. We have been to their two famous universities, and also historical places and trails. It is a city, seriously a busy city. Colourful city. Very special. It reminds me of the olden days as portrayed in shows of how people live in the past. I don't know how to describe. It is like something I have seen since young and now it appears right in front of me. Actually, I still can't believe I am walking down streets of USA!

Fastfoods everywhere. All of you know I am definitely not a fastfood eater. Clam chowder is awesome. Come here, two words to remember: BB-bo bian, must eat or else you would rather die of hunger. Their fastfood like bread, sandwiches and pizzas are good too. Not like in Singapore with small serving. Oops. I am also trying to adapt to the food here. Hopefully I can. I suddenly thought of this, "Abstaining from fastfood for the past 5 years is a good choice for me to get prepared living in a Western country for 4 months."

And here I am in Washington DC, still trying to look around but I am definitely amazed by Smithsonian and the different types of political buildings to look at. Their architecture is fanstatic. Even just a office building can look like castle. I shall update more once I finished with Washington DC.

Can't wait for my roomie to join me!

My last night before I leave!

Time flies. I am really not prepared for the whole thing at all and now I am going to fly in less than 24 hours. I still don't want to leave yet because I think there are things left undone. And also starting to get more rest for the trip. I am still not very very close to the two other guys, and I still think it is abit weird to tag along with them. But I hope things will turn out fine. I just hope I will be safe, healthy and happy... Bye Singapore! See you 4 months later! I will miss you, especially my Mummy! Alright, go spend more time with my bed now!

Stranded

How to go overseas like that? Singapore I also will get stranded, even if a bus guide and my phone. Hai, blame it on my gay kiang, boarded the bus which I think I can get to my destination but actually not, same road name but different busstops totally. It's the first time I felt so terrified. Walking up and down the road and it is already dark by then. No people around. In the end got helped by my fellow friends, otherwise I would just rely on a taxi.

I am really physically tired, mentally tired, emotionally tired, financially tired (added by phong).
Physically tired because I rushed to alot of places at one go. And more to come in USA as we are rushing off here and there all around the world.
Mentally tired because my mind just can't stop about thinking of living and traveling in another country all by yourself. Okay there is friends, but still, the feeling is different. Not your territory. And I can't stop thinking of what to bring, what to pack in my luggage, what to take note of overseas.
Emotionally tired, seriously I feel I am not prepared yet. A sudden mind to change my plans. I feel there are things I haven't let go of here. A lot of things I haven't say, a lot of things I feel I should have done.
Financially tired. I think I will be broke after paying my residence fees. And I think the amount my father give me will not be enough to tide over a month. I need more money!

I feel that I have not been eating well too.

Anyway I had a nice time with my woodpeckers, though it was a short dinner but a last chance to meet them, especially my dear seniors for this year. I love the zi char in the heartlands, and also my yuzu icecream! And of course the homo-ing, which I will miss in the months to come.
I just feel that, you still don't care about me.

Heart attack.

Upon hearing that there are not much tickets left. I hurry change my flight over without checking properly for the plans in Boston and Washington. But in the end, with much effort, I manage to book whatever there is. Luckily there are still availability, just that my domestic flights are way too expensive, it's okay, nothing beats the safety and the accompany. It is gonna be the first time I am out on the other end of the world alone. It's gonna be a little scary, but more to the exciting part. Party in the USA! An unexpected party though...

Thinking that I will be leaving in 10 days time made me very tensed. I just had my vaccine. For the next few days, it will be planning and getting ready for the trip. Really really few days. I hope to spend a little time catching up with my friends, but I think I have to give it a miss. Most importantly, I would want to spend time with my parents. Hai, so sad, haven't learn a little cooking from my mother yet. Will I get to cook in Canada? Hmmm... Time is running out.

I would really hope I can leave quietly this time. Sending people off has always been a sad thing to do.

I have been feeling emotional quite lately. Was it because I'm flying to a totally new place in like less than a month's time. And everything is so unprepared. Even the tickets. I reminded her again and again but still, something has to go wrong. But never mind, no point worrying now. Thanks to the "vinegar wine" every night which makes me less frustrated, more calm, more daring, and less nervous. We have to think of alternative plans. I hope we will get this settled on Friday. Die die have to settle. I don't care.

The feeling of unknown. Safety. Health. The most important thing for me is how well I can adapt to Canada. The weather, the way of life, the people most importantly. I hope it will be a fun experience. I am definitely looking forward to it after looking at USA pictures. Who knows? We may be going to Washington too, one added stop. Hai, I should have been more persistent and fly on the 16th instead.

A whole new experience coming up. And I definitely looking forward to it. More excitement than fear actually. Because I know I can if I try and things will go well. What is most important now is the air ticket. With the air ticket (first step) on both of our hands, things will be easily solved.

I will be away for 4 months. Things will change sooner or later after I come back. People are all wondering what will I turn out after I come back? More ang moh? Still the same? Will my friends still remember me? A whole new life after that too. I may be going for local exchange. If it is then, one year not in NTU. I will join a new CCA too. I haven't decide on what but it will definitely be volunteerism again, or something related. I hope to get this spirit going. Or maybe fulfil my teenage dream of singing?

A new phase of life as I am turning 21 soon. A new phase of education. A new phase of friends. What will I be? ^_^

吳克羣 我能給的MV

妳爸媽劈頭問我一句話 我不回答
他問我能不能給妳一個家 我愣在那
不回答不代表我沒有想法
不回答不代表掙扎
有些事心裡明白 卻不能夠明講

我沒有權 沒有錢 沒有房 只剩夢想
但未來的路實在太漫長 我也害怕
害怕讓她陪著我一起闖蕩
害怕她空轉了時光
所以我不說大話 怕說的比做的差

有些話不能表達 有些話當時我沒有講
但是我不會讓她陪我累
但是我不會讓她流眼淚
能給的我都給她 這是我心裡面說的話
就算會累死我都不會怨 因為她就是我的全世界

Thanks to Sijia for sharing this song on facebook. It is so sweet but emotional, which suits my current mood for now.