i told myself to leave this space open so that when am feeling down there is somewhere i could run to, you must be wondering why am i unhappy, but you know what, i do not know the reason either.

till i find out whats wrong with myself,

Is it because home doesn't feel like home anymore that cause my sleepless night ?
My bed doesn't seem to feel the same , my blanket doesn't smell the same , my pillow doesn't let my head sink into it , I don't fall asleep in 5sec anymore .

History is repeating , feeling all hopeless cause i can do nothing about it . Everytime i think about this , i think my whole life is gonna be screwed . It's like a mega scar on my forehead .

It's disappointing to know how much someone you knew changed . Anyway , today's picnic was fun although they made me wait 1 whole hour . Waiting for janice to upload photos photos !!! Had my first experience with kite-flying , it was amazingly fun and not as boring as i thought , i totally wanna try again !! Anyway , am here cause my video totally not loading therefore am bored to the core . Sigh ,

(tell me how big this world is)

I've been constantly finding the meaning in living which make me realise for the past 15 years I've been living in vain . Have been keeping myself at home , feeling mundane . It doesn't really sound so bad as am able to relax and enjoy the peace and mull over my life .

Anyway , i cannot keep myself too free . I wanna lead a busy life , occupy all my free time to stop myself from thinking more before i go crazy .

peace ,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUz-aF8xXdU
everybody should just watch this
if you can dance so amazingly i will call you , eunhyuk
HAHAHAHAHA ^^

anyway if you notice , am back MUAHAHAHHAHA

The Last Run

will i forget you if i close my eyes and turn away
tmr will be a happy day , no ?