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Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Romaji Lyrics

kami wo nade ru yokaze michi wo tera su seiza
nemuru mado ni yane ni sosogu minori no ame

kimi wo tsutsumu keshiki no ichibu ninaritai
itsu de mo soba ni itai kara

I WILL NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU
negaigoto gahitotsudake kanau nara
omoi wo kakushi temo onaji yume oi kaketai
I'M GONNA STAY BY YOUR SIDE
demo kidu ite dare yorimo mitsu meteru
kirei na mama de ite mune ni sai ta garasu no hana

namida iro no inku atena nonai tegami
nagai yoru mo kako mo chigire kumo no kanata

kimi to onaji jidai ni umare teyokatta
koushitemeguri ae takara

I WILL NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU
kono sekai ga ashita owa rutoshitemo
kawa ranai tsuyosa de kimi wo mamore rudarouka
I'M GONNA STAY BY YOUR SIDE
demoitsukaha kanau to shinji sasete
eien ni kare nai demo hakanai garasu no hana

I WILL NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU
negaigoto gahitotsudake kanau nara
omoi wo kakushi temo onaji yume oi kaketai
I'M GONNA STAY BY YOUR SIDE
demo kidu ite dare yorimo mitsu meteru
kirei na mama de ite mune ni sai ta garasu no hana

English Translation:

The night wind brushes my hair, the stars illuminate the city
The ripening rain falls down from the roof, onto the sleeping window

I want to be a part of the scenery that surrounds you
Because I want to be with you all the time

I WILL NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU
If I can have only one wish to come true
I want to pursue the same dreams you have, even if I hide my feelings of you
I'M GONNA STAY BY YOUR SIDE
But please realize that I look up to you more than anyone else
Remain just the pretty way you are, oh glass flower that blooms in my heart

(Written with) ink of tears, a letter with no address
The long nights, the past, all of them are over the distance, among the scattered clouds

I'm glad we were born at the same generation
Because in this way I was able to meet you

I WILL NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU
If the world is going to end tomorrow
Will I be able to protect you with this same strength
I'M GOING TO STAY BY YOUR SIDE
But please make me believe that it will come true someday
Blooming for eternity, yet fleeting, is my glass flower

I WILL NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU
If I can have only one wish to come true
I want to pursue the same dreams you have, even if I hide my feelings of you
I'M GOING TO STAY BY YOUR SIDE
But please realise that I look up to you more than anyone else
Remain just the pretty way you are, oh glass flower that blooms in my heart

Poured My Heart Out ; 10:13 PM

Saturday, July 12, 2008
A R M T H G F

A R M T H G F - Absence Really Makes The Heart Grow Fonder?

I seriously do wonder. Haha. Its been a long time man.. as i stared back into the depths of my handphone. But well, it could probably be this that i have finally woken up. I can now relate to the process

1st Stage --> You start hating a person and you dont tell the reason to him/ her and get each other so frustrated and u swore upon yourself that u will not care, you will not contact anymore.

2nd Stage --> You start to loosen up a little and begin thinking: Maybe i should just forgive the person. After all technically he/she did not do anything wrong and so i should just forget about it. It could probably just be due to oversensitivity on my part. And then the contemplation about whether to start the friendship again comes in.

3rd Stage --> Now this is divided into 2 different groups i believe
- 1st group: I start the conversation first and everything soon goes back to normal again hoping for a happily ever after only for the 3 cycles to repeat.
- 2nd group: Im still not gonna give a damn and the person apparently not giving any hoot about me also did not even contact me so since he/she doesnt bother.. i dont see my point in doing so as well ^^

Well lets just say dat after countless cycles, it is time to finally break out of it? Haha. Ive really got so sick and tired of this existence of emotion that makes the thing in the left portion of ur chest go so heavy. Day in day out worrying about shit that shouldnt even be important in your life at all. Not saying that you did anything wrong but u can blame me for being selfish. I really dont want myself to continue. This leading on, this hope that keeps getting crushed. Maybe you did believe in it for a few more times but somehow it just did not happen. Oh wells, im really wondering where it will all go from here... is this really worth the friendship? =) ive yet to pray and figure.. guess i need more time out.
God i really need an answer!

"Without darkness, there can be no light. Without suffering, there can be no happiness. Without hate, there can be no you."

Poured My Heart Out ; 3:39 PM

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Poured My Heart Out ; 8:53 PM

Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Zzz...zzZ

Haiis. I am super scared. Super Super Super scared. I need a scissors once more.

Poured My Heart Out ; 11:26 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we’re not fighting
It couldn’t be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core..

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind

Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible to find

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep

And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

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Well anw.. on to today's post.. dat was just a song i felt which was nice and i kept hearing it over and over again on the radio. >< got addicted.. so yeap

Better is the word.
Been quite a long time since i have posted i see. Its been a long ardous journey these past few weeks since the time the incident happened quite awhile ago. But well, I guess it really did me good. In fact, i am feeling almost on top of everything i do now. No longer enslaved to anything or everything, to circumstances and most of all. To myself. The freedom from the emotions that had me imprisoned for so long and it is only now that i realised that i myself am the gatekeeper and prisoner. I had the key to unlock it all this while, just that i chose to remain inside and let myself fall victim to the circumstance that i was in. Now i realise that with this new found power and ability and knowledge. The same things i assure shall not happen once more. A path with a new light, a true hope over untreaded water. Fool I may seem, lucky i may turn out. The cycle ends here, its time to use a ruler. =]

Poured My Heart Out ; 9:47 PM

Tuesday, May 6, 2008
=)

Quoted from a song in the SRJC musical:

" I need to know you care
I need to know that you’ll be there
Promises and empty words
Are no use to me

Let your word be true
Let my heart so find that them real
So that I may always
Believe and trust in you "

*Onegai....*

Poured My Heart Out ; 11:24 PM

Sunday, May 4, 2008
The point of no return?

Sometimes i begin to think. Whether it was wrong of me to do such a thing and whether it is possible to reverse things all over again. But then again, it would just be fucking selfish as it would be like i happy then i do this and when im not happy then i dont. So why should people adhere to what i like and according to how i feel when i myself hardly consider other people's feelings and emotions in the picture. To date, i only have this to say to myself. Im a failure, a great failure. A good for nothing because i excel in nothing but bullshitting and offering lip service. I promise i would do this and promise i would do that. Yes i would do in the end, but due to my procrastination and lazy ways, i would only offer my very last minute best effort in almost everything i do for others. I am born selfish la. its not like i could help it, i am trying hard to change, I DO I DO!!! but i dont think it is enough. Always letting my emotions into everything and getting flared up and hot tempered and easily irritated. Thing is sometimes i do know that i might have been in the wrong. But i do reason that it takes two hands to clap. With that.. have i really signed the warrant that confirmed the destruction of two of my most precious friendships in this life time?

*When all hope seems lost, i yearn to see your light my Lord*

Poured My Heart Out ; 6:11 PM