“Don’t ever forget that, yes, you are missing him terribly tonight. But he misses you too. I feel like sometimes I think so much about how I’m the one sitting here thinking of memories or those cute inside jokes or his voice or his touch. Do not forget that he has a heart and soul and misses you like hell too. Do not forget that even though he may not show it as much as you, he’s hurting being away from you just as much as you’re hurting being away from him.Don’t ever forget that.”
- That little voice inside me every single time I thought about you.
Shark.
3:21:00 AM
28 December 2010
hard to do.
"Sometimes you have to run away so you can see who will run after you. Sometimes you have to talk quieter, just to see who's actually listening.
Sometimes you have to take a step back, just to see who's still standing by your side. Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, just to see who's there when it all falls down.
Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back.
But sometimes, just sometimes, letting go seems like the hardest thing to do."
Shark.
2:22:00 AM
27 December 2010
wtf.
Every.fucking.night.
every fucking night i have to cry for they guy who didnt care about me, who kept pushing me away when all i really wanted was him to be there. who kept telling me to leave him when he's the one who wanted to get the fuck out of my life.
wtf am i doing man. wtf am i crying for someone who treated me like trash. who would rather treat other girls better when he claimed that im his girl? wtf man, seriously wtf.
4:01:00 AM
23 December 2010
here, forever.
Some people laugh,
some people cry,
some people live,
some people die,
some people run right into the fire,
some people hide their every desire.
But we are the lovers,
if you don’t believe me,
then just look into my eyes,
‘cause the heart never lies.
Some people fight,
some people fall,
others pretend they don’t care at all.
If you want to fight,
I’ll stand right beside you,
the day that you fall,
I’ll be right behind you.'
To pick up the pieces,
If you don’t believe me,
just look into my eyes,
‘cause the heart never lies.
Another year over and we’re still together,
it’s not always easy,
but I’m here forever..
shark.
1:56:00 AM
22 December 2010
oms.
breaking. its slowly tearing up inside. i dont know for sure, really where have i gone wrong or what is it that i had did that things end up like this. it shouldnt. we all know that it shouldnt. its my fault for being unappreciative, for taking things for granted and for being that ungrateful brat. so far i've been really patient and silent in not paving way for the hurt to get to me but i guess this time there is no denying that fcuk yes, it hurts.
all i know is that i have been trying my best to be your best but its failing. i failed. but that doesnt mean that i wont try harder. i did, every single day, every single time. every time i fall, i get back up again, stronger. you may not see it but i can feel it. i am try my fcuking best to make things right for us but its all going down the drain. nothing i do is worth anything to you, it seems coz all i get is uncertainty in return.
where have i gone wrong, really? my god it hurts so.damn.fcuking.much.i.could.die. not literally, though but yeah. everything is in vain. its........ sigh.
i know ur hurt, but im hurt too.
sometimes i think that a communication breakdown can really lead to many unwanted events. its not that we dont understand each other, its just that we are afraid of saying it out loud to the other party. we are afraid to let our feelings show. we are afraid that they would look down on us. we are afraid of being a burden to one another. we are just, afraid.
but imagine if we put all that aside and really sit down and have a heart-to-heart talk. yes. i kinda missed that. being far doesnt mean we cant have one going one. it only means that we NEED to keep it going on. we need to talk. we need to let our feelings known. we need to let our feelings show. we need to let it all out. we just need to... talk.
and now we're mad for nothing. we dont talk. what do you want from me? where have i gone wrong? if you would have noticed, i repeated the same question thrice. it only goes to show how clueless and lost i am now.
dang we used to be so happy. but i watched it all fade. such a waste, a love so beautiful as ours slipping through our fingers, and we're not fighting to keep the flame burning alive. so what the hell do we now? :(
Instead, we fought to get our message across, to hurt, to point fingers but at the end of the day, no work is done. we're still at the same place where we first started and we both still feel as shitty as before. such things shouldnt happen, no, really it shouldnt.
what happened to working it out? nothing i guess?
shark.
3:31:00 AM
01 October 2010
I miss.
I miss.
12:53:00 AM
30 September 2010
The kind of guy.
Every girl needs a man; the kind that will treat you right as well as others; the kind that has enough respect for himself, family, and others; the one that will change for you to just be with you. The kind that searches for you with his heart, the kind that can be trusted alone with a room full of many other beautiful ladies, the kind that won’t cheat on you cause he knows he’s got all he wants and needs already, the kind that’s willing to be your friend and lover, the kind that doesn’t mind calling early in the morning to say good morning and late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning and tell you a good night story or talk to you until you fall asleep. :)
That kind that will do anything for you, even if it’s just to buy your favorite kind of candy. The kind that will defend and fight for you, the kind that won’t ditch you for his friends when you need him the most, the kind that won’t leave you lonely and wondering. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one.” The kind that appreciates you for the things to do for him, even if they’re small gestures. The kind that actually thanks you for the little love notes you leave him, the kind that is willing to wait for you when you’re falling behind, the kind that will actually open the door for you, take you out on dates once in a while and buy you flowers.
The kind that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him, the kind that reminds you that he loves you and that he’s happy with you in case you forget. The kind that kisses your forehead when you’re down, the kind that tells you to be strong and not to cry, the kind that will go through thick and thin with, and for you, the kind that just loves you for who you are. That kind of man, that’s the kind you keep.
<3
1:51:00 AM
05 September 2010
pouring it all out.
My ideal kind of love had always been with someone I have already been friends with for a long time, someone who has always been there, celebrating with me at my best, and keeping me sane at my worst. He was the only exception. I was a wreck back then, stressed about the amount of school work I was getting on a daily basis, frustrated with the lack of inspiration at the same time, and it was safe to say, I was falling apart. It started with a simple mistake, but after through it all, he was the good that came out of it. He became my inspiration from the start, and as the days passed, he slowly turned into something else.
At that time, we were now standing in the middle of the path of friendship and that of a relationship. It was evident that there were a lot of barriers that stood our way, both of our insecurities as number one on the list. We were so much alike, it was scary. We had developed a bond within a week that normally took a lengthy amount of time to accomplish. Whenever I was on the verge of giving up, his voice, singing to me would reverberate in my head, instantly seeing the brighter side of things once again. We related to each other in so many levels. Our thoughts seemed in sync with each other’s. Or so it seemed. I found out the exact opposite when one night, I decided it was just proper to tell him that someone like him, I needed greatly in my life. He claimed that this got his “knickers in a twist,” and he was certain I was putting myself up for another disappointment.
I gave him time, and space, with the hopes that eventually, he, too, would be willing to take a chance with me, journeying together towards self-development. Each day I didn’t hear from him became a struggle, but I constantly reminded myself why I was holding on, and the thought of that made every single thing worth it. About a few weeks ago, I had found out that he was now happy in the arms of someone else. As strong as my feelings are for him, I couldn’t bear myself to be selflessly happy for him, but I couldn’t blame him, either, with us, he had barely anything to hold on to.
As rubbish as this all might’ve been for him, to me, however, everything was real. This week-long thing had just been a glimpse of what it would be like in the future, I often tell myself. To this day, I still believe we will somehow be together again, and when that happens at the right time, and at the right moment, our hearts will lead the way towards each other – almost like we’d never been apart.
Shark.
1:29:00 AM
28 June 2010
multi-tasking now, diverting my eyes back and forth on the mex vs arg game and my lappy screen. hopefully my eyes wont get crossed by the end of this.
I know i havent been updating religiously. like hey, this means i've got a life to live too, kan? but sadly the 'life' we're talking about here is the life of a poly student who is struggling to live by each day just barely making it. (read:FYP)
oh yea! GOAL! power ah tevez, you make my sleep tonight worth missing! hehhe
sorry, sidetracked a bit! Lol. oh yeah, i was just checking out the date and its already nearing to the end of june. FAST OR WHAT! and then july's gonna come and then.. yeah. i bet on the 6th, its just gonna be like any other day. mmmmh.
actually like no point gitu i blog. HAHAH. merepek ajer klua! and guess what, its the (insert three digit number here) time that i forgot my password and then i had to like reset and reset and reset it.
kk da, imma go watch my messi and co now. big chance they are gonna face germany! :)
shark.
3:36:00 AM
13 June 2010
nut.
oh hai. so here i am back again. actually i turned off my lappy like an hour ago and then im like online, again. am currently watching the world cup match with lil bro, its ENGLAND 1- 1 USA now. just witnessed the first ever world cup blunder, yes? Hahha gosh GREEN. ok now, chill. ooh, not to forget, i saw Becky's annoyed look on the sidelines. whoa, he looked as if he can gobble up the whole of the stadium crowd! :/
so yeah, during the hour break, i opened a new loaf of bread and added nutella as the spread. it's been awhile since i last had that. and oh, i skipped the first bread, you know the one that was on the upper most layer of the loaf. i guess it's normal, isn't it? mmmmmhs. other than that, nutella with bread on this hour, spells total orgasm. Heh heh.
on top of that, im done wrapping the present for a particular award that was supposed to be handed down tomorrow or later, technically. and i have yet to start packing. i've to be at vivo in 5 hours time and i still haven't got any shuteye. oh please pray that i can get up early later, coz i do not plan to stay up all night. promised lil bro to watch football and now it's the half-time. :)
also, i gotta whip up some finger food for the event later, guess it'll be just some hot dogs and fish fillets! oh boy, oh boy! got lots to do man, to think i can still sit here and blog! sheesh, shark! to make matters worse, i am supposed to meet up sharir at jp at around 7, and we'll be having our first meal of the day at ljs. it's actually gonna be my virgin trip to a ljs breakfast set, mind you! Haha.
I suddenly feel so.. enthu. Just hope that I do not fall sick tomorrow sudah lah eh! I tend to get too over-excited that at times I will forget to take my meals. Hoho. And please, I pray for a nice cooling weather, yes? :) It's gonna be one hell of an event planned out for those whose coming along later! Bet we're gonna have so much fun and sweat in the sun! Hehhe look, they even rhymes! Oh golly, I CANT WAIT. :D:D
Ok da. I am going to pack. Like NAO!! :D
Shark.
3:15:00 AM
12 June 2010
muzzzietafa.
I am finally back! T'was an impromptu meeting with the boys man! Anyways, I really don't know what brings me here to blog but since I am already here, why not aye?
Actually I just got home not long ago, and really wanted to finish up my Android assignment. But since my shifu is currently not online and furthermore I think I just got bitten by the lazy bug uh, so that explains my lack of urgency to finish up from where I left. Gaaaaaaah. Not that I am lazy but y'know, the drive is not there.. :/
So yeah, back to our topic tonight. So Sharir picked me up at around 9.40pm and off we went to fetch Eddy from work. I watched 'Motherhood' in his car and had a few good laughs here and there. Heee. He drove madly, think he prasaan ala2 F1 ah like that. Even before we knew it, we arrived at Wheelock and waited for Eddy. Biasalah budak ni, lenggang kangkong jerrrr.. -.-"
Then off we zoomed to Mustafa. Got Sharir's DSLR ready and we're ready. It was kinda packed, I almost fainted. K la, maybe not so dramatic. Got the stuffs that we needed and the next thing we knew, we found ourselves at Al-Azhar. Again, its packed. Gaah. Saw a couple of familiar faces too. Filled the tummy with yummulicious food and then it's home sweet home!
Thanks boys for the night! Though it was short, I sure had a helluva fun! I can't wait for Sunday, so sexcited! :D:D:D
Shark.
2:15:00 AM
09 June 2010
if..
"If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way
To show her every day
That she's my only one
If my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes"
- If tomorrow never comes, Ronan Keating.
4:43:00 AM
05 June 2010
speaks nothing but the truth.
Dawson's Creek
Lilly :"What's a soulmate?"
Dawson :"It's a.. Well, it's like a best friend, but more. It's the one person in the world that knows you better than anyone else. It's someone who makes you a better person, well, actually they don't make you a better person... you do that yourself-- because they inspire you. A soulmate is someone who you carry with you forever. It's the one person who knew you, and accepted you, and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. And no matter what happens.. you'll always love them."
So have you found yours?
Shark.
1:44:00 AM
04 June 2010
toot.
Wazzup people of the world! It's the holidays yet again and I haven't done anything productive of lately. But I must say I have been spending the bucks on things I wanted, rather than needed. Guess the teachers back in the days didn't really stress on the importance of needs and wants, aye? Or, was it just me. An impulsive shopper. Hahha! I just have to deny that, it's called retail therapy! Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrright.
As Im typing this down, it's already Friday and one week of my holidays are gone, just like that. I planned to re-do all my schoolwork by the end of the holidays, though, and wish me luck on that! I had tonnes other of things to complete, and they are left piling, untouched. This is bad man. Whatever happened to datelines and whatnots? Craaaaaaaap. :/
I lost touch of blogging, uhh seriously and now my mind is totally blanked out.
*One hour later*
Oh hai there. I got so distracted whilst blogging and I just realised that I didn't touch this page for like the past hour or so? Hahha. Alerssssmak.
Ok, now now. What should I write? Erm. Dah ah.
Bye.
Yeah, I know. sorry for the abrupt ending. I couldn't get my brain juice to get to work. DAANG. Laters ya'll! :)
Oh ok, maybe let me try to squeeze in some last minute stuffs. As you all might have noticed, I have been pretty emo and under the weather lately, yes? Yeah. Thanks for noticing, guys! And and, especially those whose been entering this site but sees the same old thang, hahha my apologies. I shall try to update as and when possible. Provided that time is on my side la that is! :)
Number one, I am recovering still ok. Was hit so bad by the fever bug and alhamdulillah I am now on my road to recovery. Been almost a week plus, I guess? Jyeahh. The fever has thus subsided but I still do cough once in a while. The flu comes and goes and my voice is similar to that of a drag queen. Hold that, don't go on laughing! I am dead serious about it! I sounded like a guy lah, the hoarse and husky tone. Hahhaha but I kinda liked it thought! Macam sexyyy like that!
And two, no people, I ain't emo. Seriousssssssssss lah! Hahahah. Ok, this part you are allowed to laugh till you fall out of your chairs or beds. K la da da diam! Just that for the past months or so, hmmmm.. let's just say it's not really that exciting and we'll leave it at that. :)
Till then, I'll catch you all soon. soon enough! :)
Shark.
3:18:00 AM
18 May 2010
RIP RJD.
I am sure that many die-hard metal fans would have already heard about the loss of a talented singer and one of the most recognized voices in the world of metal music.
Well if you think you're a metal fan but have yet to heard about the news which is currently spreading like wildfire, I'd say...
GO SHOOT YOURSELF!
But no, seriously now, I mean.. How could you not knooooooooooow!?!?
I was so devastated when I first saw the tweet by LAMC Productions regarding the news. I thought that it was all just a hoax but no.. Well, at that very moment I secretly wished that it was untrue, though. And I had to bear the tears from flowing out, but I failed miserably. Yes, I cried in class, during lesson time. I just couldn't help it. I felt like a part of me died. :(
I am still trying to accept the fact that Ronnie James Dio has already passed on. Yes, even after two days of his departure. I was too sad, I can't even concentrate in class. I kept putting his greatest hits on repeat in honor of the charismatic singer. He was one of the greatest influences in my life, amongst many others of his counterparts. Such an inspiration to us since three decades ago. And still am. Jyeahh.
Thank You for the wonderful voice you shared with the world, thank you for the meaningful tracks, thank you for the beautiful music. I am proud to say that we, the Rock N Roll children, are thankful for all of your contributions to the Metal industry, and for introducing the 'Devil's Horns' that are now worldly known, but lacks the knowledge of its roots. Rock music is nothing without your presence, but you have left us the legacy, the legend of what is Ronnie James Dio.
What more can I say, you're a true artist, the ultimate performer, phenomenal showman and a vocalist above all others. I should thank you for sharing with all of us your gifts. We were all blessed to have you in our ears, heart and soul.And again, I feel like I lost a piece of my youth. Your music was a dear friend and companion to me through the good times and bad. I could not imagine my life without having truly been touched, moved and inspired by the music that I loved so much.
If there is a Rock n Roll Heaven, you know they got one hell of a singer!
And now, lets all the Metalheads in the world unite! Raise up the horns for Ronnie, We love you.
Rest In Peace Ronnie. Your legacy lives on. Long Live Rock N' Roll!
\m/
Shark.
10:20:00 PM
16 May 2010
the losers.
Last night be awesomezxzx!
Caught 'the losers' with mir and his bunch of wacky dudes. Hahha! I was late eh, because the lesson had to drag, drag and draaaaag. But its good, because the Frog of a faci I had wasn't in. And the relief Faci was as great as hell! RP should hire more Facilitators like him! (Y)
Like I had mentioned earlier, I was late when I arrived at the theatre. By a mere five minutes, I suppose? So upon arriving, I called Mir up and he invited me at the entrance. The usher was puzzled but then I said I was waiting for a friend. And then, to my horror, he showed me this movie ticket with the back facing me. It wrote "Fiquah". What the hell la dey, I was just about to complement on what pretty name he had. Tsk!!
Ok ah, whatever. As I entered the theater, the movie was just about to start. Phew! :) Mir then introduced me to his friends, Ahmad, Amal and Amirul. Amik kau, semua 'As'. But uhh, I couldn't see them clearly ah, especially Amal who was sitting beside him. No offence eh bro! What do you expect? It was pitch dark for goodness sake! Hehehehehe.
And as usual, I wouldn't wanna touch on the movie. Go watch it yourselves! Hahaha! But but I loved Cougar! He'd be hot! And he talks the least in the movie. Oh, and also the Geek guy in the specs. Oooooooh. :)
After the movie ended, we were kinda indecisive as to where to head to next. I was effing hungry and said that I wanted to grab some supper. So we settled for Puncak at Far East after we had to wait for some time. So while waiting, the cute Aunty was taking down our orders and then these guys just had to crack up some jokes. Hahahha funny! Ip man and what not semua keluar! Lol.
After dinner, we got bubble teas and just chilled. I then remembered I had to complete my RJ and these boys were sweet enough to accompany me to Mac where I had to rush through the RJ. And, only to find out that the awesome Faci extended the time to midnight, the next day! I was thrilled! I then turned off my laptop and there we go again, walking aimlessly in town. Heh.
Not long after that, we parted ways and made our way home. Heh. Thanks for the great night, boys. I had fun! Methinks we should really hang out more often, should we not? Heehhe! :)
Oh, and should I share the moment I was almost involved in a double accident on the road involving a bus and a car? Hmmmm. Maybe I should not.
But here's a lil gist of it. I could have died on the spot. If I hadn't dodge quick enough, I would get killed by the bus, first and foremost. Split seconds thereafter, I could have been run over by an oncoming car. But thank God I am still here, typing all these down. I could have been already hospitalized by now and I think that God still loves me. Or that's what Faruq said. I agree. :)
Here's to last night, for it was one of the best nights I had after so long. Now now, I should get back to thinking about the possibilities of me getting killed on the road. Or maybe not. I should go get some sleep. :)
Shark.
3:04:00 AM
14 May 2010
everything's gonna be fine.
I've come to the realization that this really does need to change. The way I’m feeling, the way I’ve been thinking, the way I’ve been acting, the way I’ve been living my life. It needs to change. I’ve been struggling so much more than people think I have. I’ve been struggling so much more than I ever thought I was capable of. And I don’t feel sorry for myself because I’m feeling this way, I feel sorry for myself for not doing anything about it. But that’s no ones fault, but mine. We can all stop blaming other people for our own faults and mistakes. We know we can do anything we want to, after all, it is our life. But how many of us actually take chances? How many of us actually change?
I go through hard times like everyone else. I’ve been sunk under the ground, but I want to be the one that gets out of all that pain and struggle. I want to be the one to let go of the past, and actually try to make change. I’ve been saying that I will for the longest time, and actions speak so much louder than words. I need to take action because I’m tired of being this way. I’m the only one who is getting in the way of my achieving happiness, confidence, and dreams. I will be strong, and I will stop acting this way, because I can’t tolerate it anymore. I’m wasting my life away, because my subconscious mind is telling me I’m depressed. Who says I have to be? I don’t have to be.
We are in control of our lives, and of our thoughts. And the way I see it is, you will be more sad over what you didn’t do than what you did do. You will be sad in twenty or forty years knowing that you did nothing you wanted to do with your life, only because you were scared, and you weren’t strong enough. But there’s no reason to be scared, and we all need to work on our weaknesses. Although it’s okay to be scared, we just have to know not to let that fear ruin our lives. Who wants to die knowing their life meant nothing? No matter how much anyone tries to deny it, I know no one wants that.
I’ve wasted my life working on something as simple as happiness. I don’t do what I want to do and I don’t take chances because I’m afraid of how I might make myself look. But a problem as small as that only lasts for a day, or a few days, it doesn’t affect my entire life.
I’m a coward is what I am. And I need to be strong. I need to feel strong. I need to believe it when I tell myself that everything... is going to be fine.
2:47:00 AM
30 April 2010
stuck.
here i am stuck within these four walls, all dark and alone. its been long since i last spent any lone time by myself. and it feels good, somehow or rather.
i've been feeling a lot of mixed emotions lately. mostly stressed up with fyp and whatnots. its really taking a toll on me, and its only the first few weeks. school's not being nice either. the modules are starting to get crazy. like seriously becoming more and more challenging and demanding. i guess its just a common sight for year three students, aye? ohhh wait. year three? feels like yesterday since i set foot in rp. haha. how fast time flies.
was having mobile apps development lesson earlier on. fcking screwed! initially it was all going so smoothly but the heck, my application that i had worked so hard on just refused to co-operate. fucking bugger! i was pissed at one point of time but i re-worked on it time and again. failure doesn't stop me from going, yo. but still, it doesnt work. oh wells. better luck next time huh shark?!
anyways, i teared a little in class just now. hahha felt like a fucking loser. meeeh. dont ask, i wont tell. but my group mates became concerned and got worried. hahha. they thought that i cried coz my app cant run. haha no la! i got better things to do. :)
its been awhile since i last cried. cant even remember when! its a great feeling, like ur reborn after all the tears flow. woooot. also not forgetting those who were online and trying to cheer things up for me, you guys were awesome. thank you, thank you sexy people! :)
still, no matter how hard i tried.. there is always this indescribable feeling that i cant put words into. i guess every sane person will feel the same way too, at some points of their lives. i guess a transition is taking place, soon but i rather not think about it. i've many other things to take care of but you know, when you are experiencing things like this, it always gets in the way. always. and then you cant get things done because your mind is wandering off somewhere. like your body is there, but your mind is like having a mind of its own. hahaha not pun intended but yeah. you get the drift.
so far, so good. 'cept for recently. not good for the health, they say. ahh my health's not in the best of conditions either. speaking of which, i have yet to see my specialist. sure thing im gonna get screwed big time. wonder whats my internal organs doing now. ok wait. lets not dive in there.
guess its time for bed now aye. aite, take care lovely peeps. i shall see you when i see you.
shark.
2:16:00 AM
27 April 2010
Moobs.
I've been enlightened today. Thank you, Stranger. I shall never forget today, ever. Your words shot right through the heart, the mind and the soul. Such an inspiration to me.
:)
2:02:00 AM
17 April 2010
LOG MOTHAFARKARS!
I guess as I'm typing this down, I am still suffering from post Lamb Of God syndrome sia! My body feels macam kena langgar with lorry balak den kene campak2, still imagining that I was in the crowd, pushing bodies, elbowing people. Oh ya hor, I kena elbowed too! Fucking countless of times! And, it sucks to be one of the shortest people there. You can't fucking breathe therefore you gotta tiptoe on your little cute toes to grasp for fresh air. Though the place was air-conditioned, it feels like i'm in a cargo tank filled with human-like animals! Yeah, you guys were like animals k, but its all good! But the good thing is kan, when I tiptoe, I have all the right reasons to push em mothafarkars heads down, in the name of support. So for those whose kapala kena tenyeh or jotos ngan aku, thanks alot brudders! korang la saviour si budak kurang tinggi ni. Hahahhaha.
Hehe! LAMB OF FUCKING GOD BABBY! FUCK YES I ENJOYED MYSELF! \m/
Ok wait, Idk how to like officially start this ah. Masih psyched sia! Mabok lightings dier. Mabok jangguts dorg. Mabok, just mabok. Hahahah. Kk shark, no.
And so, it was all surreal la. The fucked up thing was that, I had school la dey on the day. (HAHHA MACAM KELAKAR KAN GITU SENTENCE NI?) Therefore I had to like rush rush hush hush macam mad dog. Anyways, after school ended, I quickly settle my rj and all that stuffs ah. Passed my laptop over (thanks babbbbbby!!) and met Pak in school. We then called a cab and off we go! Dalam taxi, hanya tuhan sahaja la yang tau eh pak? Hahha. (Sorry, ini antara anak dan bapak ajer.) In short, I couldn't contain myself la eh basically. Belum pape da hyped up. Haha. K.
Den kan, after reaching downtown east-o, im like "hokay, this is it". ala but the sad part is the waiting part. so whilst waiting, we were like people gazing. macam2 karenah satu2. mana yg misai lupa nak shave, boots lupa nak kilat and many more. it was kinda raining though, shiok! and we were like queuing up at the inokii booth, feeling2 VIP kejap eh. hee. :D
I think nearly 8 pm, the front door opens up its doors to metalheads alike and everyone went high. We then rushed through the gates, da macam babi terlepas. Hahhha. Bought our LOG Tshirts and off we go! Fucking second row! I think we got the best spots! Made friends with random strangers and shared many tak perlu info. Tapi gerek ah korang. I got to meet metal heads from Brunei, Malaysia (OMG hot pe sia), and entah ah lagi kat mane. We got to like wait for almost 30 mins plus before the gig officially start. Buih! Hhahha. Tak la, I think they were busy putting leave-on conditioner on their glorious hairs and jangguts and kenings. Thats why la lambat. Tapi tak pe, janji melayu ni mmg daa macam jadi kebiasaan kan. Haha. K ah, no link but whatever!
Actually its to fill up the space coz banyak kengkawan metal kite ni sume maklomlah pekerja contoh i think, pastu dorg lambat. So whilst waiting, they played some random songs ah, just to warm the crowd up. Asl random? Sebab ade Black Sabbath. LOL. After almost every song, the crowd went "LAMB OF GOD! LAMB OF GOD!! LAMB OF FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!" all they way. But when the DJ (dier ni macho but cam gay sikit, tak paham aku) played another random song, everyone was like WTF! hahha. cute ah korang! :P
K la, fast forward to the concert k? Woooot! Kk part ni aku sexcited. AHHHHHHHHHHH! The double paddles and fucking great guitar riffs are still blasting in my ears! I was like having the time of my life down there. For once, I felt like........ an ant. Hahha. Abeh orang2 sume tinggi2 seh. Dah tinggi, besar pulak tu. Dah besar, ketiak masam pulak tu. Ala, common what. Ya la, but aku yang mangsa dier. Kene bau all the unwanted body odour. Apa lagi, I also raised up my hands and let them have a piece of shark. heee. itu macam, baru equality for all of men. :)
Anyways, we were crazily taking pictures and went wild with the crowd. I think after the third or forth song, Pak had to surrender himself. Guess there's not much oxygen. So the security had to carry him up, and off to a better place. At that moment, I was like " Oh-oh. ni confirm aku kene pijak ni, tak pon kene side swipe." Coz I was like literally alone sia! Then I was like " Ahhh fuck it, Imma do this alone!" Jyeaaah! Raised my both hands up in the air and head banged sampai terhantok kat orang depan. Benjol, youuuuuu. I got countless baluku on my heads. Worth it!
But above all else, I gotta thank this stranger who was like literally there, making sure at ever fucking second that I was doing ok. I swear I didn't know who he was but he was like "Are you ok? Nak pengsan tak? Nak head bang sesame tak?" all the way. The good thing, every time some ass started to bukak langkah, he'll be like "Fuck off, dude, you're fucking gonna hit the girl, uncool!" Hhahahahah. Kelakar sia. I think I banged his head too. Hahha. I just wished I could thank him after the gig but he was gone. Oh mans. I remembered at one point, the crowd was like literally swaying as one, macam many2 particles that moved together and I had to hold on to him for my dear life. It was damn scary, I tell you. If you loose grip, habes ah. Jadi supper for the night.
Macam best gitu kan korang ni tengah bace? Hahha. Actually kan, si budak ni kan (lets call him Dude) ku tak tahu dari mana dia datang. Alih2 ajer muncul. I think right, he noticed that I was all alone and helpless, lagi2 Pak da tak de. :( And therefore, Dude ni number one saviour aku la eh. Every time the security passed us some water, he'll be like "minom! minom!.." and then he'll be like "are you ready?" and at the count of three, we'll be like pushing everyone! like betol2 punya push, throwing our body mass around. hahah ni part, i like! coz then i'll have all the space to myself. even if its for 3 seconds. and then boom! kena bodyslam lagi. hahha! gerek!
Rugi korang yang terlepas! and i heard we had the biggest cicrcle pit in singapore! Yes!! Walaupun saya pendek, I still managed to see that with my own eyes! How come, you may ask? Biasa la dok, saya tenyeh kepala orang and jinjit. Heeeee! Then right, I saw flying shirts and shoes. Hahha. Selamat la eh siape yang kena ketok ngan kasut berkenaan itu. Hee! Ade yang rambut panjang sangat, sampai termasuk mulut member kat sebelah. Hahhha. Ni memang da lapar, last resort makan rambut ke memang rambut parking sekejap kat mulut korang?! Hahhahhaha.
Oh ya, like I had mentioned earlier, I kena elbow kan? Waaaaalauwei. Sampaaaaai senget! Yang penting, bila kita kena elbow, kita elbow dorang balik. Den they'll turn around, and look at you and scream.."FUCKK YEAAAH!" That what I love about things like this. Ni part je, coz you get to elbow someone without getting your ass kicked! && My specs almost dropped off many2 times, regretted wearing it. Oakley sia. Ishk. I couldn't imagine going home without my Rough House. Hehhe!
Hmmm apa lagi. Oh yeaa, there was this one time I think its Mark or Willie who smoked during a short interval and the crowd went "No smoking in here, man!!!!" HAHAHAHA. Classic ah that one. Then his reaction was " Oh wells, and shrugged his shoulders. Cute kan!! Heeee. :)
Man, what can I say, it was a great show, I had a great night, witnessed the biggest circle pit & mosh pit in Singapore and Lamb Of God left me wanting more. Kinda sad that it ended so fast, I still remembered I was silently counting down the days for this night. Being in the crowd with 2000 other metal fans, this only means that the metal scene in Singapore is still alive. It portrays one thing, more fucking metal!!! Most epic night of my life! Glad I could trash out with fellow metalheads yea! T'was sick man!!!!!! Cheers mothafarkars, we really tore the place up! Woohoooo!
And now Im proud to say, I survived walking with LOG in hell! HORNSSSSSSS UP!!!!!! \m/
shark.
4:21:00 AM
12 April 2010
ironic, isn't it?
Whose with me? :)
It’s amazing isn't it what one person can do? Some people build you up just to bend and break you. Some would bring out parts of you that you had no idea existed. All throughout life we meet people and every single one of them brings something to us; gives us some sort of purpose, hope or just another silver lining. We would also sometimes come across people who will hurt us so incredibly much that it hurts and seems unbearable to go on with our lives. But the truth is, we can overcome anything we want to, if we believe in it enough, if we have faith in ourselves, in who we are.
No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and probably actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing. Yes, nothing! Being lonely, being alone, for many people, sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn’t honor the person you are is worse. (Come on, I see you guys nodding you heads though). Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with. You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time. Who treats you well and who is deserving of what you may offer in return.
I'm the girl who believes in what goes around comes around. (Karma's a bitch baby, keep that in mind. )The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up on on the things or people she believes in. Apparently I'm the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying (for no concrete reason sometimes).The one who would still grant second chances no matter how much shit you're gonna throw in her face. I'm the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so damn strong, but feels rather so weak. I'm the girl that picks herself up every time I fall and yes, you can call me one helluva fighter. :)
It's just a continuous cycle of love and hate within ourselves, its in our heads. Deal with it.
A huge thanks to all those who ever walked into her life and leave imprints somewhere, somehow. Those who are worth remembering, I would and I can't thank you people enough for all the memories. But those who came only to walk out on me, just remember that I loved you people enough to be able to take you shit.No hard feelings yo, let the good times roll! :)
\m/
Shark.
5:04:00 AM
09 April 2010
makin giler = sayang.
Somewhere between the pig snorts whilst laughing too hard and giggling at the most random things, someone quoted "Makin giler makin sayang..." :) :) :)
Ehhh?!
Hahahha! <3
Find the 'darkness in the light' much? Lol. Giler!!
Caution : Adik-adik please do not follow the example yang kat atas ni k? Kalau degil & nak jugak ikut, suke hati kau lah nak. Tapi ni example salah, tersasul because I too get lost in my own words sometimes. Tolong perbaiki sentence ni dulu kalau korang nak pakai dalam composition korang k. Jangan cakap I give you the wrong sentence, da warning siang2! Peace!
Shark.
5:30:00 AM
05 April 2010
dinner.
I seriously need to stop splurging on impulse. Not only it burns huge holes in my pocket, it also means that I need to get a new wardrobe, pronto! Mum's been nagging the whole time to keep the current wardrobe neat and tidy but am I left with a choice? NO! Dah tak de space, mana nak letak? Solution? Stop buying new clothes! Sorry, but I can't resist unhooking the hanger off the rack. Hehs.
And yes, I went shopping with Mom again yesterday. Not that I wanted to, but its like retail therapy. Heehe! I got myself two pairs of sunglasses and a wristlet from Fossil and a sexy watch from Diesel. Cost a bomb, but whose complaining? LOL.
Mom got herself a new handbag from a boutique, and I'm glad she loved it. Ibu2 pun nak bergaya, betul tak kawan2? I bet she's gonna rock the wedding reception that she's going to attend in the future. Why? Coz she's my momma, yo! Haha.
After we're done shopping with paper bags full on our arms, we made our way home. Dad's gonna take us out for dinner together with Wak Atan's family. It's just a simple get-together dinner (held at Sinaran something2) for us all, but we still enjoyed good food and had great company. The little brother didn't join us though, bet it will make me a lot more happier if he was present. And the best part? Both my sister and cousin Kak Dilah brought their significant other along. Me? None. Zero. Zilch. But thankfully, I had cousin Muiz. At least tak lah lonely sangat eh? Hee. :)
I know I should have waited for Kak Dilah to upload the pictures up in FB but she's away in camp so we have to make do with whatever that I took with the phone, k? Haha! Seeing the food, masyallah, makes me drool to no end! Sedap pah! I only managed to capture a few shots before I chomp those yummylicious thangs down my throat! Too engrossed to even snap! :)
hungry face.
my 'boyfriend' for the day.
om nom nom!
*drools*
Shark : Eh, aku tak ada bf niari, kau substitute, ble?
Muiz : Huh? Muiz?! Tak nak la!
Shark : *Pouts*
With Kak Dilah ku!
Haha! Maid sesat alert!
That's kakak's Bf. Sis' bf was taking teh foto though.
Wheeee! <3
Thanks again Ayah for the treat and everything else! Love you and momma truckloads! :D
Also thanks to Wak Atan & Fam for coming down!! Last but not least, to dearest Nenek who never fails to make the atmosphere livelier! Looooooooooooooove you people to infinity and beyond!
I had a great night, so far everything's been so well. I'm thankful for the lovely people I am surrounded with, they're all just so full of life and positive vibe. Thank You Allah, for everything.Appreciate those little things that we've got now because we will never know when they will be taken away from us. Just cherish life, be appreciative and stay positive! :)
Shark.
1:31:00 AM
01 April 2010
awooo!
I missed my boys oh so much. More hiking trips soon, people! & come November, we're off from this tiny island, away from all the hustle and bustle. Insyallah! :)
& this is what I call, picture perfecto! Sayaaaaaaaaaaaaang korang! :D
A-wooooooooooooooooooooooo!
******
Today's the 1st April, eh?
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! :P
<3!
******
Shark.
4:43:00 AM
30 March 2010
oh yea!
So many things to update, so little time. I still gotta collate all those photos, yeah? Hang on people. But, no promises ohkay? Haha!
The month of March is coming to a close and say hello to April! Thats right, many many things are expected to happen. At least for me, school's like two weeks away, I'm probably gonna skip my first day due to the Lamb of God Concert. Heehe! Can't wait, yo!
Oh dang! speaking of school, I have yet to get the slides done. Gotta like do freaking loads of slides for the 1 hour long presentation when school re-opens. My Facilitator's like pestering me already! At least, by typing it down here some souls would kindly remind me to get those photos we took in Cambodia from Elmo. He have yet to upload them up on Facebook! Tak efficient eh Elmo! Hahha! :)
Other than that, things were going great (I hope). I've been going out with a lot of people lately. Mostly of whom I haven't met since the longest of times! I really needa do quick catch-up sessions with some of them still! Irfaan, Fadhil, Hawa, Nani & my AMB*! Missing them loads! Not forgetting my cousins too! :/
Everything before school re-opens, aye? Coz I bet FYP's gonna eat up all my free time after school, kan? This is the part I hate right here. Thank God that my CE points are left with only 2! Ohkay wait, why am I babbling about school? Chillax Shark! Hahha!
Aite, time for me to go. Take care all. I'll see when I'm gonna have time updating this space here. Feels like abandoning it again for dust-collecting session. Hahha! We'll see how it goes. Or not, I might consider moving somewhere else. Might, but still under consideration ohkay? Will let you guys know. Or not, find out yourselves! Hahahha!
Be strong people, no matter how strong love's gonna knock you down, you gotta find the strength to get back up! Cheers! :)
K da bye.
Shark.
7:19:00 AM
26 March 2010
ammeh. back from brunei.
a fairly short day, mom was pretty amused when i reached home earlier than the usual timing. heh! told ya imma good girl, tak caya kan? :)
well well, since imma good girl (plus friend) kan, i decided to fetch ammeh from the airport today. its been ages since i last saw him and besides, there were far too many times whereby we had to cancel our meet-ups due to some unforeseen circumstances. hmm so ya la..
i had a hard time trying to get through him because he was away in brunei for a nine day training course and getting a text reply from him would be a miracle la eh since member dok dalam hutan, tak de keje makan viper aje. haha! and so when i finally got a text message from him, i only got to ask his flight number and then thats it. no belt number, no terminal number and no timing of the flight arrival. power la! but me being the brainy shark, went to google his flight number and voila! :P
so i had to make my way down to the airport all by myself and all i had was my phone with a flat battery and a book. i totally dismissed the thought of charging the phone the night before and ahhhh, amik kau! gi airport battery flat! good thing it lasted till i was able to come face to face with him, kalau tak.. TAKE CARE ah! hahha. geez, i sound like a minah rep.. uncool yo, uncool!
err.. where was i? oh! ya la ya la.. gedebak gedebuk.. jumpe la mamat sesat ni.. think he was a tad startled the moment he saw me.. mane tak, member kaki jelly nampak superstar! hahahaha! kk diam eh.. he sat down to the empty seat next to me and shared his stories back in brunei.. i can see that he's serik already.. tak nak pergi lagi ye? HAHHA. you wait long long ah! its quite intriguing though, the way he had put everything in words.. made me think, if i were to be in his position, will i even survive the first day? haha.. and for that, i take my hats off you and your rota! :P
after much exchanging of talks and whatnots, he decided to bring me to Popeyes since i kept whining for the fact that i was hungry! hahha! ammeh said i was irritating him to no end.. abeh orang lapar seh! nyehehehe! all the while i kept mum and listened attentatively to him talk.. ayaaam sodaap! he only had four pieces of chicken drumlets and a fair share of fries, its obvious that the boy's too tired to even eat! konon nye tu 'jet lag' la kan.. HAHAHA! jet lag kebabai! -.-"
and this one particular word that he said made me roar with laughter seconds after figuring out what the heck it was supposed to mean.. TAIPAH. HAHAHAH. which, in his vocabulary means, "taik lalat terpampang.." HAHHA. now you tell me, got link a not? tak de kan? itu pasal, merepek ajer!
ammeh : eh tu..ape tu?
shark: huh? what? where?
ammeh : kat muke..
shark: ade ape?!?!?! (part ni i kanchiong spider already, mane tau ade comot2 ke..)
ammeh : itu ah.. TAIPAH..
shark: HUH!?!?!?! APE SIAAAAAA TAIPAH?!?! (ketawe golek2 gelek2 buat head stand skali)
ammeh : itu la, taik lalat terpampang.. itu bikin sendiri ke mmg natural? tadi tak de keje gi draw2 bulat eh kat situ..?
shark : (sorry, i cant recall ah what i said. but i do know that i put my chicken down and continued laughing like a hyena on a strike)
PECAH AH LU BOY! (again, minah moment right there.)
hahahha. sorry sorry. merepek kan? nasib baik i dont have dentures on.. if tak, high chances that it might have fly off and landed on some random patron's head! ni part tak bedek.. hahahhaha!
hmmm.. den ape? kite balik la, member tgh sakit.. no.. not the jatuh sakit pening lalat or the aduh mak sakitnya (ni ape aku merepek?).. but dia ni tgh sakit "dah-lama-tak-berjumpa-rindu-rasa-hati-nak-main-drum"! HAHAHA. betol nye berpenyakit!
after we parted ways, i decided to go and pamper myself a lil la eh. finally got the manicure done after eons of wanting to paint my nails! i know right, a lot of strong-headed protesters like you out there against me having my nails colored (you know who you are) but.. sometimes.. we all just cant resist to temptations.. can we? admit it! :P
& before i go, i just realised something.. all the while i was 'ammeh-ing' when in turn i should be 'amer-ing'.. hahha! get it? no? kalau tak dapat jugak, pendek umur tu korang! hahahahahhaha :)
ohkay i think im done here.. imma go sleep nao!
k da bye all!
shark.
2:46:00 AM
25 March 2010
keh el 2010.
caution : heavy post!
pictures from my three days gateway trip to KL with the paternal side! & also to commemorate kak nurul and abg mazi's big day! congrats to the two lovebirds! semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu ya! amin! :D
we took a four hour drive up to KL, and i tumpang-ed uncle rosli's car. thank you, thank you! in between, we stopped over for food and solat over at the suraus. they were playing hindustani movies in the car but i was too tired so i pasang my earpiece and the next thing i knew, i was away in lala land. :)
we arrived at our hotel at close to three or four plus in the afternoon. it was a suite, with three rooms and since luck was on our side, we got the room with bath tub in the toilet! woohoo! i got to rendam myself macam badak for a good one hour and it was la'or naaaaaah! :D
after we got ourselves familiarized with the place we call 'home' for the next three days, we decided to drop by klcc to shop! since it was a mere 10 minutes away from out hotel, we decided to be on foot! i remembered that the sun was exceptionally hot that day, and i suddenly recalled the days i had in cambodia, whereby the heat was extremely unbearable lah!
hahha sempat eh kite!
wooo great shot nadiah! but i looked troubled, some sort. hahha!
ini baik, paparazzi shot eh!
and this was after i got myself a diesel shirt, happy gila!
and then, we packed subway home! awesooooooome! and kita jakun gila k, first time nak order subway semua terkial2. hahha! but it was indeed a good experience i must say! :)
and this was day two, whilst having breakfast. if my memory serves me right, i woke up at around eight in the morning but golek2 thereafter. and then i found myself awake again at nine plus. hahha! apa lagi, was rushing to get dressed for our breakfast at the lobby and in the end, kita semua tak sempat mandi! ahahha! baik baik! i only get to wash my face and brushed my teeth! nak mandi? kirim salam ajer la!
i must highlight this particular omelette! i had specially requested for it to be made with cheese and mushrooms and it tasted awesome! of course all you see is a piece of omelette on the plate but trust me, it got us all asking for more! especially putra, whereby he had four pieces of this all by himself! ini baru nama nya 'gila badaaaak', as quoted from Dzul! eh abg D eh? hahhahahha! :)
and then, again we made our way to klcc after breakfast! sempat seh! we only had two hours of shopping because we're supposed to go for kak nurul's solemization at 12! woot!
ahem! i got myself a shirt from harley davidson! imma happy bird! :)
and this was while waiting for the rest to get ready. we're at the lobby busy taking pics and lo' and behold, meet our abg zai aka pimp! hahahha!
otw to kak nurul's place! hehhe!
woot! check out her dais! so beautifully decorated! feels like a dream wedding, kan? :D
heh heh.
with amirah and meet the bride's mom kat belakang! uat ape tu mak itam? hahahha!
the place where the magic takes place..
abg mazi, looking all smiley but inside, tuhan sahaja la yang tau yang dia ni nervous gile!
awwwwww!!! i pun nak! HAHHAHAH.
with lovely kak erna..
whee! meet the gorgeous bride, kak nurul!
and this is the epic moment! story goes like this.. while we were all busy posing for the different cameras in front of us, one fine moment, one of the photographer was telling us.. "ok, ok.. semua senyum.." and so we did.. after a few shots, he again commented, "ahh sekarang, AKSI BEBAS!!!.."
and exactly at that instant, i can bet on my whole life that everyone's mind went totally blank and the look on our faces was priceless.. "huh.. aksi bebas? ape tuu..?" confirm this was what that was playing at the back of our minds, kan kan kan?!?! HAHAHAHAHA.
spot our lost and confused face.. HUH? APE TU AKSI BEBAS?!?!?! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
And we were busy questioning each other, " eh, ape ah aksi bebas?!?! ape? ape? ape?!..."
all the while this few pictures were being snapped! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
and after we (finally) concluded that AKSI BEBAS was actually an INFORMAL photo of us, only then we began to go crazy, and yes.. hopefully give our mr. photographer a good shot of what our version of an INFORMAL photo would look like! :) hhahah kekek ah kite semua! \m/
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH.
sempat kan kite?
and then the girls bombarded the bride's nicely decorated room! heh!
with amirah at mid vally mall!
ni tgh tungu dorg tapau subway. yes, again it's subway for dinner!
wooohoo!
third day! the biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig day!
at the lobby again..
with cousins nadiah and amirah! <3!
inilah rombongan yang diterbangkan khas dari singapura.. cheyyy!
with our extended cousins whose names unknown! oops!
pretty in pink!
ahem!! i have no idea who this guy is.. all i know is that he is from sabah and that he is some what related to the groom.. kinda good looking i must say but heck, i couldn't comprehend a thing that he was trying to say! so that's kinda like a disadvantage eh? but ala, tak ape la..
wooot! incomplete family portrait..
all in all, it was a blast! a pity that it had to end early and i love overseas family outings like this! i am looking forward to the next trip back to our much missed kampong! yeaaah! cant wait! :)
aite, till then, boss dah capek deh!
k da bye!
shark.
12:13:00 AM
29 December 2010
I know.
“Don’t ever forget that, yes, you are missing him terribly tonight. But he misses you too. I feel like sometimes I think so much about how I’m the one sitting here thinking of memories or those cute inside jokes or his voice or his touch. Do not forget that he has a heart and soul and misses you like hell too. Do not forget that even though he may not show it as much as you, he’s hurting being away from you just as much as you’re hurting being away from him.Don’t ever forget that.”
- That little voice inside me every single time I thought about you.
Shark.
3:21:00 AM
28 December 2010
hard to do.
"Sometimes you have to run away so you can see who will run after you. Sometimes you have to talk quieter, just to see who's actually listening.
Sometimes you have to take a step back, just to see who's still standing by your side. Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, just to see who's there when it all falls down.
Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back.
But sometimes, just sometimes, letting go seems like the hardest thing to do."
Shark.
2:22:00 AM
27 December 2010
wtf.
Every.fucking.night.
every fucking night i have to cry for they guy who didnt care about me, who kept pushing me away when all i really wanted was him to be there. who kept telling me to leave him when he's the one who wanted to get the fuck out of my life.
wtf am i doing man. wtf am i crying for someone who treated me like trash. who would rather treat other girls better when he claimed that im his girl? wtf man, seriously wtf.
4:01:00 AM
23 December 2010
here, forever.
Some people laugh,
some people cry,
some people live,
some people die,
some people run right into the fire,
some people hide their every desire.
But we are the lovers,
if you don’t believe me,
then just look into my eyes,
‘cause the heart never lies.
Some people fight,
some people fall,
others pretend they don’t care at all.
If you want to fight,
I’ll stand right beside you,
the day that you fall,
I’ll be right behind you.'
To pick up the pieces,
If you don’t believe me,
just look into my eyes,
‘cause the heart never lies.
Another year over and we’re still together,
it’s not always easy,
but I’m here forever..
shark.
1:56:00 AM
22 December 2010
oms.
breaking. its slowly tearing up inside. i dont know for sure, really where have i gone wrong or what is it that i had did that things end up like this. it shouldnt. we all know that it shouldnt. its my fault for being unappreciative, for taking things for granted and for being that ungrateful brat. so far i've been really patient and silent in not paving way for the hurt to get to me but i guess this time there is no denying that fcuk yes, it hurts.
all i know is that i have been trying my best to be your best but its failing. i failed. but that doesnt mean that i wont try harder. i did, every single day, every single time. every time i fall, i get back up again, stronger. you may not see it but i can feel it. i am try my fcuking best to make things right for us but its all going down the drain. nothing i do is worth anything to you, it seems coz all i get is uncertainty in return.
where have i gone wrong, really? my god it hurts so.damn.fcuking.much.i.could.die. not literally, though but yeah. everything is in vain. its........ sigh.
i know ur hurt, but im hurt too.
sometimes i think that a communication breakdown can really lead to many unwanted events. its not that we dont understand each other, its just that we are afraid of saying it out loud to the other party. we are afraid to let our feelings show. we are afraid that they would look down on us. we are afraid of being a burden to one another. we are just, afraid.
but imagine if we put all that aside and really sit down and have a heart-to-heart talk. yes. i kinda missed that. being far doesnt mean we cant have one going one. it only means that we NEED to keep it going on. we need to talk. we need to let our feelings known. we need to let our feelings show. we need to let it all out. we just need to... talk.
and now we're mad for nothing. we dont talk. what do you want from me? where have i gone wrong? if you would have noticed, i repeated the same question thrice. it only goes to show how clueless and lost i am now.
dang we used to be so happy. but i watched it all fade. such a waste, a love so beautiful as ours slipping through our fingers, and we're not fighting to keep the flame burning alive. so what the hell do we now? :(
Instead, we fought to get our message across, to hurt, to point fingers but at the end of the day, no work is done. we're still at the same place where we first started and we both still feel as shitty as before. such things shouldnt happen, no, really it shouldnt.
what happened to working it out? nothing i guess?
shark.
3:31:00 AM
01 October 2010
I miss.
I miss.
12:53:00 AM
30 September 2010
The kind of guy.
Every girl needs a man; the kind that will treat you right as well as others; the kind that has enough respect for himself, family, and others; the one that will change for you to just be with you. The kind that searches for you with his heart, the kind that can be trusted alone with a room full of many other beautiful ladies, the kind that won’t cheat on you cause he knows he’s got all he wants and needs already, the kind that’s willing to be your friend and lover, the kind that doesn’t mind calling early in the morning to say good morning and late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning and tell you a good night story or talk to you until you fall asleep. :)
That kind that will do anything for you, even if it’s just to buy your favorite kind of candy. The kind that will defend and fight for you, the kind that won’t ditch you for his friends when you need him the most, the kind that won’t leave you lonely and wondering. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one.” The kind that appreciates you for the things to do for him, even if they’re small gestures. The kind that actually thanks you for the little love notes you leave him, the kind that is willing to wait for you when you’re falling behind, the kind that will actually open the door for you, take you out on dates once in a while and buy you flowers.
The kind that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him, the kind that reminds you that he loves you and that he’s happy with you in case you forget. The kind that kisses your forehead when you’re down, the kind that tells you to be strong and not to cry, the kind that will go through thick and thin with, and for you, the kind that just loves you for who you are. That kind of man, that’s the kind you keep.
<3
1:51:00 AM
05 September 2010
pouring it all out.
My ideal kind of love had always been with someone I have already been friends with for a long time, someone who has always been there, celebrating with me at my best, and keeping me sane at my worst. He was the only exception. I was a wreck back then, stressed about the amount of school work I was getting on a daily basis, frustrated with the lack of inspiration at the same time, and it was safe to say, I was falling apart. It started with a simple mistake, but after through it all, he was the good that came out of it. He became my inspiration from the start, and as the days passed, he slowly turned into something else.
At that time, we were now standing in the middle of the path of friendship and that of a relationship. It was evident that there were a lot of barriers that stood our way, both of our insecurities as number one on the list. We were so much alike, it was scary. We had developed a bond within a week that normally took a lengthy amount of time to accomplish. Whenever I was on the verge of giving up, his voice, singing to me would reverberate in my head, instantly seeing the brighter side of things once again. We related to each other in so many levels. Our thoughts seemed in sync with each other’s. Or so it seemed. I found out the exact opposite when one night, I decided it was just proper to tell him that someone like him, I needed greatly in my life. He claimed that this got his “knickers in a twist,” and he was certain I was putting myself up for another disappointment.
I gave him time, and space, with the hopes that eventually, he, too, would be willing to take a chance with me, journeying together towards self-development. Each day I didn’t hear from him became a struggle, but I constantly reminded myself why I was holding on, and the thought of that made every single thing worth it. About a few weeks ago, I had found out that he was now happy in the arms of someone else. As strong as my feelings are for him, I couldn’t bear myself to be selflessly happy for him, but I couldn’t blame him, either, with us, he had barely anything to hold on to.
As rubbish as this all might’ve been for him, to me, however, everything was real. This week-long thing had just been a glimpse of what it would be like in the future, I often tell myself. To this day, I still believe we will somehow be together again, and when that happens at the right time, and at the right moment, our hearts will lead the way towards each other – almost like we’d never been apart.
Shark.
1:29:00 AM
28 June 2010
multi-tasking now, diverting my eyes back and forth on the mex vs arg game and my lappy screen. hopefully my eyes wont get crossed by the end of this.
I know i havent been updating religiously. like hey, this means i've got a life to live too, kan? but sadly the 'life' we're talking about here is the life of a poly student who is struggling to live by each day just barely making it. (read:FYP)
oh yea! GOAL! power ah tevez, you make my sleep tonight worth missing! hehhe
sorry, sidetracked a bit! Lol. oh yeah, i was just checking out the date and its already nearing to the end of june. FAST OR WHAT! and then july's gonna come and then.. yeah. i bet on the 6th, its just gonna be like any other day. mmmmh.
actually like no point gitu i blog. HAHAH. merepek ajer klua! and guess what, its the (insert three digit number here) time that i forgot my password and then i had to like reset and reset and reset it.
kk da, imma go watch my messi and co now. big chance they are gonna face germany! :)
shark.
3:36:00 AM
13 June 2010
nut.
oh hai. so here i am back again. actually i turned off my lappy like an hour ago and then im like online, again. am currently watching the world cup match with lil bro, its ENGLAND 1- 1 USA now. just witnessed the first ever world cup blunder, yes? Hahha gosh GREEN. ok now, chill. ooh, not to forget, i saw Becky's annoyed look on the sidelines. whoa, he looked as if he can gobble up the whole of the stadium crowd! :/
so yeah, during the hour break, i opened a new loaf of bread and added nutella as the spread. it's been awhile since i last had that. and oh, i skipped the first bread, you know the one that was on the upper most layer of the loaf. i guess it's normal, isn't it? mmmmmhs. other than that, nutella with bread on this hour, spells total orgasm. Heh heh.
on top of that, im done wrapping the present for a particular award that was supposed to be handed down tomorrow or later, technically. and i have yet to start packing. i've to be at vivo in 5 hours time and i still haven't got any shuteye. oh please pray that i can get up early later, coz i do not plan to stay up all night. promised lil bro to watch football and now it's the half-time. :)
also, i gotta whip up some finger food for the event later, guess it'll be just some hot dogs and fish fillets! oh boy, oh boy! got lots to do man, to think i can still sit here and blog! sheesh, shark! to make matters worse, i am supposed to meet up sharir at jp at around 7, and we'll be having our first meal of the day at ljs. it's actually gonna be my virgin trip to a ljs breakfast set, mind you! Haha.
I suddenly feel so.. enthu. Just hope that I do not fall sick tomorrow sudah lah eh! I tend to get too over-excited that at times I will forget to take my meals. Hoho. And please, I pray for a nice cooling weather, yes? :) It's gonna be one hell of an event planned out for those whose coming along later! Bet we're gonna have so much fun and sweat in the sun! Hehhe look, they even rhymes! Oh golly, I CANT WAIT. :D:D
Ok da. I am going to pack. Like NAO!! :D
Shark.
3:15:00 AM
12 June 2010
muzzzietafa.
I am finally back! T'was an impromptu meeting with the boys man! Anyways, I really don't know what brings me here to blog but since I am already here, why not aye?
Actually I just got home not long ago, and really wanted to finish up my Android assignment. But since my shifu is currently not online and furthermore I think I just got bitten by the lazy bug uh, so that explains my lack of urgency to finish up from where I left. Gaaaaaaah. Not that I am lazy but y'know, the drive is not there.. :/
So yeah, back to our topic tonight. So Sharir picked me up at around 9.40pm and off we went to fetch Eddy from work. I watched 'Motherhood' in his car and had a few good laughs here and there. Heee. He drove madly, think he prasaan ala2 F1 ah like that. Even before we knew it, we arrived at Wheelock and waited for Eddy. Biasalah budak ni, lenggang kangkong jerrrr.. -.-"
Then off we zoomed to Mustafa. Got Sharir's DSLR ready and we're ready. It was kinda packed, I almost fainted. K la, maybe not so dramatic. Got the stuffs that we needed and the next thing we knew, we found ourselves at Al-Azhar. Again, its packed. Gaah. Saw a couple of familiar faces too. Filled the tummy with yummulicious food and then it's home sweet home!
Thanks boys for the night! Though it was short, I sure had a helluva fun! I can't wait for Sunday, so sexcited! :D:D:D
Shark.
2:15:00 AM
09 June 2010
if..
"If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way
To show her every day
That she's my only one
If my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes"
- If tomorrow never comes, Ronan Keating.
4:43:00 AM
05 June 2010
speaks nothing but the truth.
Dawson's Creek
Lilly :"What's a soulmate?"
Dawson :"It's a.. Well, it's like a best friend, but more. It's the one person in the world that knows you better than anyone else. It's someone who makes you a better person, well, actually they don't make you a better person... you do that yourself-- because they inspire you. A soulmate is someone who you carry with you forever. It's the one person who knew you, and accepted you, and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. And no matter what happens.. you'll always love them."
So have you found yours?
Shark.
1:44:00 AM
04 June 2010
toot.
Wazzup people of the world! It's the holidays yet again and I haven't done anything productive of lately. But I must say I have been spending the bucks on things I wanted, rather than needed. Guess the teachers back in the days didn't really stress on the importance of needs and wants, aye? Or, was it just me. An impulsive shopper. Hahha! I just have to deny that, it's called retail therapy! Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrright.
As Im typing this down, it's already Friday and one week of my holidays are gone, just like that. I planned to re-do all my schoolwork by the end of the holidays, though, and wish me luck on that! I had tonnes other of things to complete, and they are left piling, untouched. This is bad man. Whatever happened to datelines and whatnots? Craaaaaaaap. :/
I lost touch of blogging, uhh seriously and now my mind is totally blanked out.
*One hour later*
Oh hai there. I got so distracted whilst blogging and I just realised that I didn't touch this page for like the past hour or so? Hahha. Alerssssmak.
Ok, now now. What should I write? Erm. Dah ah.
Bye.
Yeah, I know. sorry for the abrupt ending. I couldn't get my brain juice to get to work. DAANG. Laters ya'll! :)
Oh ok, maybe let me try to squeeze in some last minute stuffs. As you all might have noticed, I have been pretty emo and under the weather lately, yes? Yeah. Thanks for noticing, guys! And and, especially those whose been entering this site but sees the same old thang, hahha my apologies. I shall try to update as and when possible. Provided that time is on my side la that is! :)
Number one, I am recovering still ok. Was hit so bad by the fever bug and alhamdulillah I am now on my road to recovery. Been almost a week plus, I guess? Jyeahh. The fever has thus subsided but I still do cough once in a while. The flu comes and goes and my voice is similar to that of a drag queen. Hold that, don't go on laughing! I am dead serious about it! I sounded like a guy lah, the hoarse and husky tone. Hahhaha but I kinda liked it thought! Macam sexyyy like that!
And two, no people, I ain't emo. Seriousssssssssss lah! Hahahah. Ok, this part you are allowed to laugh till you fall out of your chairs or beds. K la da da diam! Just that for the past months or so, hmmmm.. let's just say it's not really that exciting and we'll leave it at that. :)
Till then, I'll catch you all soon. soon enough! :)
Shark.
3:18:00 AM
18 May 2010
RIP RJD.
I am sure that many die-hard metal fans would have already heard about the loss of a talented singer and one of the most recognized voices in the world of metal music.
Well if you think you're a metal fan but have yet to heard about the news which is currently spreading like wildfire, I'd say...
GO SHOOT YOURSELF!
But no, seriously now, I mean.. How could you not knooooooooooow!?!?
I was so devastated when I first saw the tweet by LAMC Productions regarding the news. I thought that it was all just a hoax but no.. Well, at that very moment I secretly wished that it was untrue, though. And I had to bear the tears from flowing out, but I failed miserably. Yes, I cried in class, during lesson time. I just couldn't help it. I felt like a part of me died. :(
I am still trying to accept the fact that Ronnie James Dio has already passed on. Yes, even after two days of his departure. I was too sad, I can't even concentrate in class. I kept putting his greatest hits on repeat in honor of the charismatic singer. He was one of the greatest influences in my life, amongst many others of his counterparts. Such an inspiration to us since three decades ago. And still am. Jyeahh.
Thank You for the wonderful voice you shared with the world, thank you for the meaningful tracks, thank you for the beautiful music. I am proud to say that we, the Rock N Roll children, are thankful for all of your contributions to the Metal industry, and for introducing the 'Devil's Horns' that are now worldly known, but lacks the knowledge of its roots. Rock music is nothing without your presence, but you have left us the legacy, the legend of what is Ronnie James Dio.
What more can I say, you're a true artist, the ultimate performer, phenomenal showman and a vocalist above all others. I should thank you for sharing with all of us your gifts. We were all blessed to have you in our ears, heart and soul.And again, I feel like I lost a piece of my youth. Your music was a dear friend and companion to me through the good times and bad. I could not imagine my life without having truly been touched, moved and inspired by the music that I loved so much.
If there is a Rock n Roll Heaven, you know they got one hell of a singer!
And now, lets all the Metalheads in the world unite! Raise up the horns for Ronnie, We love you.
Rest In Peace Ronnie. Your legacy lives on. Long Live Rock N' Roll!
\m/
Shark.
10:20:00 PM
16 May 2010
the losers.
Last night be awesomezxzx!
Caught 'the losers' with mir and his bunch of wacky dudes. Hahha! I was late eh, because the lesson had to drag, drag and draaaaag. But its good, because the Frog of a faci I had wasn't in. And the relief Faci was as great as hell! RP should hire more Facilitators like him! (Y)
Like I had mentioned earlier, I was late when I arrived at the theatre. By a mere five minutes, I suppose? So upon arriving, I called Mir up and he invited me at the entrance. The usher was puzzled but then I said I was waiting for a friend. And then, to my horror, he showed me this movie ticket with the back facing me. It wrote "Fiquah". What the hell la dey, I was just about to complement on what pretty name he had. Tsk!!
Ok ah, whatever. As I entered the theater, the movie was just about to start. Phew! :) Mir then introduced me to his friends, Ahmad, Amal and Amirul. Amik kau, semua 'As'. But uhh, I couldn't see them clearly ah, especially Amal who was sitting beside him. No offence eh bro! What do you expect? It was pitch dark for goodness sake! Hehehehehe.
And as usual, I wouldn't wanna touch on the movie. Go watch it yourselves! Hahaha! But but I loved Cougar! He'd be hot! And he talks the least in the movie. Oh, and also the Geek guy in the specs. Oooooooh. :)
After the movie ended, we were kinda indecisive as to where to head to next. I was effing hungry and said that I wanted to grab some supper. So we settled for Puncak at Far East after we had to wait for some time. So while waiting, the cute Aunty was taking down our orders and then these guys just had to crack up some jokes. Hahahha funny! Ip man and what not semua keluar! Lol.
After dinner, we got bubble teas and just chilled. I then remembered I had to complete my RJ and these boys were sweet enough to accompany me to Mac where I had to rush through the RJ. And, only to find out that the awesome Faci extended the time to midnight, the next day! I was thrilled! I then turned off my laptop and there we go again, walking aimlessly in town. Heh.
Not long after that, we parted ways and made our way home. Heh. Thanks for the great night, boys. I had fun! Methinks we should really hang out more often, should we not? Heehhe! :)
Oh, and should I share the moment I was almost involved in a double accident on the road involving a bus and a car? Hmmmm. Maybe I should not.
But here's a lil gist of it. I could have died on the spot. If I hadn't dodge quick enough, I would get killed by the bus, first and foremost. Split seconds thereafter, I could have been run over by an oncoming car. But thank God I am still here, typing all these down. I could have been already hospitalized by now and I think that God still loves me. Or that's what Faruq said. I agree. :)
Here's to last night, for it was one of the best nights I had after so long. Now now, I should get back to thinking about the possibilities of me getting killed on the road. Or maybe not. I should go get some sleep. :)
Shark.
3:04:00 AM
14 May 2010
everything's gonna be fine.
I've come to the realization that this really does need to change. The way I’m feeling, the way I’ve been thinking, the way I’ve been acting, the way I’ve been living my life. It needs to change. I’ve been struggling so much more than people think I have. I’ve been struggling so much more than I ever thought I was capable of. And I don’t feel sorry for myself because I’m feeling this way, I feel sorry for myself for not doing anything about it. But that’s no ones fault, but mine. We can all stop blaming other people for our own faults and mistakes. We know we can do anything we want to, after all, it is our life. But how many of us actually take chances? How many of us actually change?
I go through hard times like everyone else. I’ve been sunk under the ground, but I want to be the one that gets out of all that pain and struggle. I want to be the one to let go of the past, and actually try to make change. I’ve been saying that I will for the longest time, and actions speak so much louder than words. I need to take action because I’m tired of being this way. I’m the only one who is getting in the way of my achieving happiness, confidence, and dreams. I will be strong, and I will stop acting this way, because I can’t tolerate it anymore. I’m wasting my life away, because my subconscious mind is telling me I’m depressed. Who says I have to be? I don’t have to be.
We are in control of our lives, and of our thoughts. And the way I see it is, you will be more sad over what you didn’t do than what you did do. You will be sad in twenty or forty years knowing that you did nothing you wanted to do with your life, only because you were scared, and you weren’t strong enough. But there’s no reason to be scared, and we all need to work on our weaknesses. Although it’s okay to be scared, we just have to know not to let that fear ruin our lives. Who wants to die knowing their life meant nothing? No matter how much anyone tries to deny it, I know no one wants that.
I’ve wasted my life working on something as simple as happiness. I don’t do what I want to do and I don’t take chances because I’m afraid of how I might make myself look. But a problem as small as that only lasts for a day, or a few days, it doesn’t affect my entire life.
I’m a coward is what I am. And I need to be strong. I need to feel strong. I need to believe it when I tell myself that everything... is going to be fine.
2:47:00 AM
30 April 2010
stuck.
here i am stuck within these four walls, all dark and alone. its been long since i last spent any lone time by myself. and it feels good, somehow or rather.
i've been feeling a lot of mixed emotions lately. mostly stressed up with fyp and whatnots. its really taking a toll on me, and its only the first few weeks. school's not being nice either. the modules are starting to get crazy. like seriously becoming more and more challenging and demanding. i guess its just a common sight for year three students, aye? ohhh wait. year three? feels like yesterday since i set foot in rp. haha. how fast time flies.
was having mobile apps development lesson earlier on. fcking screwed! initially it was all going so smoothly but the heck, my application that i had worked so hard on just refused to co-operate. fucking bugger! i was pissed at one point of time but i re-worked on it time and again. failure doesn't stop me from going, yo. but still, it doesnt work. oh wells. better luck next time huh shark?!
anyways, i teared a little in class just now. hahha felt like a fucking loser. meeeh. dont ask, i wont tell. but my group mates became concerned and got worried. hahha. they thought that i cried coz my app cant run. haha no la! i got better things to do. :)
its been awhile since i last cried. cant even remember when! its a great feeling, like ur reborn after all the tears flow. woooot. also not forgetting those who were online and trying to cheer things up for me, you guys were awesome. thank you, thank you sexy people! :)
still, no matter how hard i tried.. there is always this indescribable feeling that i cant put words into. i guess every sane person will feel the same way too, at some points of their lives. i guess a transition is taking place, soon but i rather not think about it. i've many other things to take care of but you know, when you are experiencing things like this, it always gets in the way. always. and then you cant get things done because your mind is wandering off somewhere. like your body is there, but your mind is like having a mind of its own. hahaha not pun intended but yeah. you get the drift.
so far, so good. 'cept for recently. not good for the health, they say. ahh my health's not in the best of conditions either. speaking of which, i have yet to see my specialist. sure thing im gonna get screwed big time. wonder whats my internal organs doing now. ok wait. lets not dive in there.
guess its time for bed now aye. aite, take care lovely peeps. i shall see you when i see you.
shark.
2:16:00 AM
27 April 2010
Moobs.
I've been enlightened today. Thank you, Stranger. I shall never forget today, ever. Your words shot right through the heart, the mind and the soul. Such an inspiration to me.
:)
2:02:00 AM
17 April 2010
LOG MOTHAFARKARS!
I guess as I'm typing this down, I am still suffering from post Lamb Of God syndrome sia! My body feels macam kena langgar with lorry balak den kene campak2, still imagining that I was in the crowd, pushing bodies, elbowing people. Oh ya hor, I kena elbowed too! Fucking countless of times! And, it sucks to be one of the shortest people there. You can't fucking breathe therefore you gotta tiptoe on your little cute toes to grasp for fresh air. Though the place was air-conditioned, it feels like i'm in a cargo tank filled with human-like animals! Yeah, you guys were like animals k, but its all good! But the good thing is kan, when I tiptoe, I have all the right reasons to push em mothafarkars heads down, in the name of support. So for those whose kapala kena tenyeh or jotos ngan aku, thanks alot brudders! korang la saviour si budak kurang tinggi ni. Hahahhaha.
Hehe! LAMB OF FUCKING GOD BABBY! FUCK YES I ENJOYED MYSELF! \m/
Ok wait, Idk how to like officially start this ah. Masih psyched sia! Mabok lightings dier. Mabok jangguts dorg. Mabok, just mabok. Hahahah. Kk shark, no.
And so, it was all surreal la. The fucked up thing was that, I had school la dey on the day. (HAHHA MACAM KELAKAR KAN GITU SENTENCE NI?) Therefore I had to like rush rush hush hush macam mad dog. Anyways, after school ended, I quickly settle my rj and all that stuffs ah. Passed my laptop over (thanks babbbbbby!!) and met Pak in school. We then called a cab and off we go! Dalam taxi, hanya tuhan sahaja la yang tau eh pak? Hahha. (Sorry, ini antara anak dan bapak ajer.) In short, I couldn't contain myself la eh basically. Belum pape da hyped up. Haha. K.
Den kan, after reaching downtown east-o, im like "hokay, this is it". ala but the sad part is the waiting part. so whilst waiting, we were like people gazing. macam2 karenah satu2. mana yg misai lupa nak shave, boots lupa nak kilat and many more. it was kinda raining though, shiok! and we were like queuing up at the inokii booth, feeling2 VIP kejap eh. hee. :D
I think nearly 8 pm, the front door opens up its doors to metalheads alike and everyone went high. We then rushed through the gates, da macam babi terlepas. Hahhha. Bought our LOG Tshirts and off we go! Fucking second row! I think we got the best spots! Made friends with random strangers and shared many tak perlu info. Tapi gerek ah korang. I got to meet metal heads from Brunei, Malaysia (OMG hot pe sia), and entah ah lagi kat mane. We got to like wait for almost 30 mins plus before the gig officially start. Buih! Hhahha. Tak la, I think they were busy putting leave-on conditioner on their glorious hairs and jangguts and kenings. Thats why la lambat. Tapi tak pe, janji melayu ni mmg daa macam jadi kebiasaan kan. Haha. K ah, no link but whatever!
Actually its to fill up the space coz banyak kengkawan metal kite ni sume maklomlah pekerja contoh i think, pastu dorg lambat. So whilst waiting, they played some random songs ah, just to warm the crowd up. Asl random? Sebab ade Black Sabbath. LOL. After almost every song, the crowd went "LAMB OF GOD! LAMB OF GOD!! LAMB OF FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!" all they way. But when the DJ (dier ni macho but cam gay sikit, tak paham aku) played another random song, everyone was like WTF! hahha. cute ah korang! :P
K la, fast forward to the concert k? Woooot! Kk part ni aku sexcited. AHHHHHHHHHHH! The double paddles and fucking great guitar riffs are still blasting in my ears! I was like having the time of my life down there. For once, I felt like........ an ant. Hahha. Abeh orang2 sume tinggi2 seh. Dah tinggi, besar pulak tu. Dah besar, ketiak masam pulak tu. Ala, common what. Ya la, but aku yang mangsa dier. Kene bau all the unwanted body odour. Apa lagi, I also raised up my hands and let them have a piece of shark. heee. itu macam, baru equality for all of men. :)
Anyways, we were crazily taking pictures and went wild with the crowd. I think after the third or forth song, Pak had to surrender himself. Guess there's not much oxygen. So the security had to carry him up, and off to a better place. At that moment, I was like " Oh-oh. ni confirm aku kene pijak ni, tak pon kene side swipe." Coz I was like literally alone sia! Then I was like " Ahhh fuck it, Imma do this alone!" Jyeaaah! Raised my both hands up in the air and head banged sampai terhantok kat orang depan. Benjol, youuuuuu. I got countless baluku on my heads. Worth it!
But above all else, I gotta thank this stranger who was like literally there, making sure at ever fucking second that I was doing ok. I swear I didn't know who he was but he was like "Are you ok? Nak pengsan tak? Nak head bang sesame tak?" all the way. The good thing, every time some ass started to bukak langkah, he'll be like "Fuck off, dude, you're fucking gonna hit the girl, uncool!" Hhahahahah. Kelakar sia. I think I banged his head too. Hahha. I just wished I could thank him after the gig but he was gone. Oh mans. I remembered at one point, the crowd was like literally swaying as one, macam many2 particles that moved together and I had to hold on to him for my dear life. It was damn scary, I tell you. If you loose grip, habes ah. Jadi supper for the night.
Macam best gitu kan korang ni tengah bace? Hahha. Actually kan, si budak ni kan (lets call him Dude) ku tak tahu dari mana dia datang. Alih2 ajer muncul. I think right, he noticed that I was all alone and helpless, lagi2 Pak da tak de. :( And therefore, Dude ni number one saviour aku la eh. Every time the security passed us some water, he'll be like "minom! minom!.." and then he'll be like "are you ready?" and at the count of three, we'll be like pushing everyone! like betol2 punya push, throwing our body mass around. hahah ni part, i like! coz then i'll have all the space to myself. even if its for 3 seconds. and then boom! kena bodyslam lagi. hahha! gerek!
Rugi korang yang terlepas! and i heard we had the biggest cicrcle pit in singapore! Yes!! Walaupun saya pendek, I still managed to see that with my own eyes! How come, you may ask? Biasa la dok, saya tenyeh kepala orang and jinjit. Heeeee! Then right, I saw flying shirts and shoes. Hahha. Selamat la eh siape yang kena ketok ngan kasut berkenaan itu. Hee! Ade yang rambut panjang sangat, sampai termasuk mulut member kat sebelah. Hahhha. Ni memang da lapar, last resort makan rambut ke memang rambut parking sekejap kat mulut korang?! Hahhahhaha.
Oh ya, like I had mentioned earlier, I kena elbow kan? Waaaaalauwei. Sampaaaaai senget! Yang penting, bila kita kena elbow, kita elbow dorang balik. Den they'll turn around, and look at you and scream.."FUCKK YEAAAH!" That what I love about things like this. Ni part je, coz you get to elbow someone without getting your ass kicked! && My specs almost dropped off many2 times, regretted wearing it. Oakley sia. Ishk. I couldn't imagine going home without my Rough House. Hehhe!
Hmmm apa lagi. Oh yeaa, there was this one time I think its Mark or Willie who smoked during a short interval and the crowd went "No smoking in here, man!!!!" HAHAHAHA. Classic ah that one. Then his reaction was " Oh wells, and shrugged his shoulders. Cute kan!! Heeee. :)
Man, what can I say, it was a great show, I had a great night, witnessed the biggest circle pit & mosh pit in Singapore and Lamb Of God left me wanting more. Kinda sad that it ended so fast, I still remembered I was silently counting down the days for this night. Being in the crowd with 2000 other metal fans, this only means that the metal scene in Singapore is still alive. It portrays one thing, more fucking metal!!! Most epic night of my life! Glad I could trash out with fellow metalheads yea! T'was sick man!!!!!! Cheers mothafarkars, we really tore the place up! Woohoooo!
And now Im proud to say, I survived walking with LOG in hell! HORNSSSSSSS UP!!!!!! \m/
shark.
4:21:00 AM
12 April 2010
ironic, isn't it?
Whose with me? :)
It’s amazing isn't it what one person can do? Some people build you up just to bend and break you. Some would bring out parts of you that you had no idea existed. All throughout life we meet people and every single one of them brings something to us; gives us some sort of purpose, hope or just another silver lining. We would also sometimes come across people who will hurt us so incredibly much that it hurts and seems unbearable to go on with our lives. But the truth is, we can overcome anything we want to, if we believe in it enough, if we have faith in ourselves, in who we are.
No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and probably actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing. Yes, nothing! Being lonely, being alone, for many people, sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn’t honor the person you are is worse. (Come on, I see you guys nodding you heads though). Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with. You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time. Who treats you well and who is deserving of what you may offer in return.
I'm the girl who believes in what goes around comes around. (Karma's a bitch baby, keep that in mind. )The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up on on the things or people she believes in. Apparently I'm the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying (for no concrete reason sometimes).The one who would still grant second chances no matter how much shit you're gonna throw in her face. I'm the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so damn strong, but feels rather so weak. I'm the girl that picks herself up every time I fall and yes, you can call me one helluva fighter. :)
It's just a continuous cycle of love and hate within ourselves, its in our heads. Deal with it.
A huge thanks to all those who ever walked into her life and leave imprints somewhere, somehow. Those who are worth remembering, I would and I can't thank you people enough for all the memories. But those who came only to walk out on me, just remember that I loved you people enough to be able to take you shit.No hard feelings yo, let the good times roll! :)
\m/
Shark.
5:04:00 AM
09 April 2010
makin giler = sayang.
Somewhere between the pig snorts whilst laughing too hard and giggling at the most random things, someone quoted "Makin giler makin sayang..." :) :) :)
Ehhh?!
Hahahha! <3
Find the 'darkness in the light' much? Lol. Giler!!
Caution : Adik-adik please do not follow the example yang kat atas ni k? Kalau degil & nak jugak ikut, suke hati kau lah nak. Tapi ni example salah, tersasul because I too get lost in my own words sometimes. Tolong perbaiki sentence ni dulu kalau korang nak pakai dalam composition korang k. Jangan cakap I give you the wrong sentence, da warning siang2! Peace!
Shark.
5:30:00 AM
05 April 2010
dinner.
I seriously need to stop splurging on impulse. Not only it burns huge holes in my pocket, it also means that I need to get a new wardrobe, pronto! Mum's been nagging the whole time to keep the current wardrobe neat and tidy but am I left with a choice? NO! Dah tak de space, mana nak letak? Solution? Stop buying new clothes! Sorry, but I can't resist unhooking the hanger off the rack. Hehs.
And yes, I went shopping with Mom again yesterday. Not that I wanted to, but its like retail therapy. Heehe! I got myself two pairs of sunglasses and a wristlet from Fossil and a sexy watch from Diesel. Cost a bomb, but whose complaining? LOL.
Mom got herself a new handbag from a boutique, and I'm glad she loved it. Ibu2 pun nak bergaya, betul tak kawan2? I bet she's gonna rock the wedding reception that she's going to attend in the future. Why? Coz she's my momma, yo! Haha.
After we're done shopping with paper bags full on our arms, we made our way home. Dad's gonna take us out for dinner together with Wak Atan's family. It's just a simple get-together dinner (held at Sinaran something2) for us all, but we still enjoyed good food and had great company. The little brother didn't join us though, bet it will make me a lot more happier if he was present. And the best part? Both my sister and cousin Kak Dilah brought their significant other along. Me? None. Zero. Zilch. But thankfully, I had cousin Muiz. At least tak lah lonely sangat eh? Hee. :)
I know I should have waited for Kak Dilah to upload the pictures up in FB but she's away in camp so we have to make do with whatever that I took with the phone, k? Haha! Seeing the food, masyallah, makes me drool to no end! Sedap pah! I only managed to capture a few shots before I chomp those yummylicious thangs down my throat! Too engrossed to even snap! :)
hungry face.
my 'boyfriend' for the day.
om nom nom!
*drools*
Shark : Eh, aku tak ada bf niari, kau substitute, ble?
Muiz : Huh? Muiz?! Tak nak la!
Shark : *Pouts*
With Kak Dilah ku!
Haha! Maid sesat alert!
That's kakak's Bf. Sis' bf was taking teh foto though.
Wheeee! <3
Thanks again Ayah for the treat and everything else! Love you and momma truckloads! :D
Also thanks to Wak Atan & Fam for coming down!! Last but not least, to dearest Nenek who never fails to make the atmosphere livelier! Looooooooooooooove you people to infinity and beyond!
I had a great night, so far everything's been so well. I'm thankful for the lovely people I am surrounded with, they're all just so full of life and positive vibe. Thank You Allah, for everything.Appreciate those little things that we've got now because we will never know when they will be taken away from us. Just cherish life, be appreciative and stay positive! :)
Shark.
1:31:00 AM
01 April 2010
awooo!
I missed my boys oh so much. More hiking trips soon, people! & come November, we're off from this tiny island, away from all the hustle and bustle. Insyallah! :)
& this is what I call, picture perfecto! Sayaaaaaaaaaaaaang korang! :D
A-wooooooooooooooooooooooo!
******
Today's the 1st April, eh?
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! :P
<3!
******
Shark.
4:43:00 AM
30 March 2010
oh yea!
So many things to update, so little time. I still gotta collate all those photos, yeah? Hang on people. But, no promises ohkay? Haha!
The month of March is coming to a close and say hello to April! Thats right, many many things are expected to happen. At least for me, school's like two weeks away, I'm probably gonna skip my first day due to the Lamb of God Concert. Heehe! Can't wait, yo!
Oh dang! speaking of school, I have yet to get the slides done. Gotta like do freaking loads of slides for the 1 hour long presentation when school re-opens. My Facilitator's like pestering me already! At least, by typing it down here some souls would kindly remind me to get those photos we took in Cambodia from Elmo. He have yet to upload them up on Facebook! Tak efficient eh Elmo! Hahha! :)
Other than that, things were going great (I hope). I've been going out with a lot of people lately. Mostly of whom I haven't met since the longest of times! I really needa do quick catch-up sessions with some of them still! Irfaan, Fadhil, Hawa, Nani & my AMB*! Missing them loads! Not forgetting my cousins too! :/
Everything before school re-opens, aye? Coz I bet FYP's gonna eat up all my free time after school, kan? This is the part I hate right here. Thank God that my CE points are left with only 2! Ohkay wait, why am I babbling about school? Chillax Shark! Hahha!
Aite, time for me to go. Take care all. I'll see when I'm gonna have time updating this space here. Feels like abandoning it again for dust-collecting session. Hahha! We'll see how it goes. Or not, I might consider moving somewhere else. Might, but still under consideration ohkay? Will let you guys know. Or not, find out yourselves! Hahahha!
Be strong people, no matter how strong love's gonna knock you down, you gotta find the strength to get back up! Cheers! :)
K da bye.
Shark.
7:19:00 AM
26 March 2010
ammeh. back from brunei.
a fairly short day, mom was pretty amused when i reached home earlier than the usual timing. heh! told ya imma good girl, tak caya kan? :)
well well, since imma good girl (plus friend) kan, i decided to fetch ammeh from the airport today. its been ages since i last saw him and besides, there were far too many times whereby we had to cancel our meet-ups due to some unforeseen circumstances. hmm so ya la..
i had a hard time trying to get through him because he was away in brunei for a nine day training course and getting a text reply from him would be a miracle la eh since member dok dalam hutan, tak de keje makan viper aje. haha! and so when i finally got a text message from him, i only got to ask his flight number and then thats it. no belt number, no terminal number and no timing of the flight arrival. power la! but me being the brainy shark, went to google his flight number and voila! :P
so i had to make my way down to the airport all by myself and all i had was my phone with a flat battery and a book. i totally dismissed the thought of charging the phone the night before and ahhhh, amik kau! gi airport battery flat! good thing it lasted till i was able to come face to face with him, kalau tak.. TAKE CARE ah! hahha. geez, i sound like a minah rep.. uncool yo, uncool!
err.. where was i? oh! ya la ya la.. gedebak gedebuk.. jumpe la mamat sesat ni.. think he was a tad startled the moment he saw me.. mane tak, member kaki jelly nampak superstar! hahahaha! kk diam eh.. he sat down to the empty seat next to me and shared his stories back in brunei.. i can see that he's serik already.. tak nak pergi lagi ye? HAHHA. you wait long long ah! its quite intriguing though, the way he had put everything in words.. made me think, if i were to be in his position, will i even survive the first day? haha.. and for that, i take my hats off you and your rota! :P
after much exchanging of talks and whatnots, he decided to bring me to Popeyes since i kept whining for the fact that i was hungry! hahha! ammeh said i was irritating him to no end.. abeh orang lapar seh! nyehehehe! all the while i kept mum and listened attentatively to him talk.. ayaaam sodaap! he only had four pieces of chicken drumlets and a fair share of fries, its obvious that the boy's too tired to even eat! konon nye tu 'jet lag' la kan.. HAHAHA! jet lag kebabai! -.-"
and this one particular word that he said made me roar with laughter seconds after figuring out what the heck it was supposed to mean.. TAIPAH. HAHAHAH. which, in his vocabulary means, "taik lalat terpampang.." HAHHA. now you tell me, got link a not? tak de kan? itu pasal, merepek ajer!
ammeh : eh tu..ape tu?
shark: huh? what? where?
ammeh : kat muke..
shark: ade ape?!?!?! (part ni i kanchiong spider already, mane tau ade comot2 ke..)
ammeh : itu ah.. TAIPAH..
shark: HUH!?!?!?! APE SIAAAAAA TAIPAH?!?! (ketawe golek2 gelek2 buat head stand skali)
ammeh : itu la, taik lalat terpampang.. itu bikin sendiri ke mmg natural? tadi tak de keje gi draw2 bulat eh kat situ..?
shark : (sorry, i cant recall ah what i said. but i do know that i put my chicken down and continued laughing like a hyena on a strike)
PECAH AH LU BOY! (again, minah moment right there.)
hahahha. sorry sorry. merepek kan? nasib baik i dont have dentures on.. if tak, high chances that it might have fly off and landed on some random patron's head! ni part tak bedek.. hahahhaha!
hmmm.. den ape? kite balik la, member tgh sakit.. no.. not the jatuh sakit pening lalat or the aduh mak sakitnya (ni ape aku merepek?).. but dia ni tgh sakit "dah-lama-tak-berjumpa-rindu-rasa-hati-nak-main-drum"! HAHAHA. betol nye berpenyakit!
after we parted ways, i decided to go and pamper myself a lil la eh. finally got the manicure done after eons of wanting to paint my nails! i know right, a lot of strong-headed protesters like you out there against me having my nails colored (you know who you are) but.. sometimes.. we all just cant resist to temptations.. can we? admit it! :P
& before i go, i just realised something.. all the while i was 'ammeh-ing' when in turn i should be 'amer-ing'.. hahha! get it? no? kalau tak dapat jugak, pendek umur tu korang! hahahahahhaha :)
ohkay i think im done here.. imma go sleep nao!
k da bye all!
shark.
2:46:00 AM
25 March 2010
keh el 2010.
caution : heavy post!
pictures from my three days gateway trip to KL with the paternal side! & also to commemorate kak nurul and abg mazi's big day! congrats to the two lovebirds! semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu ya! amin! :D
we took a four hour drive up to KL, and i tumpang-ed uncle rosli's car. thank you, thank you! in between, we stopped over for food and solat over at the suraus. they were playing hindustani movies in the car but i was too tired so i pasang my earpiece and the next thing i knew, i was away in lala land. :)
we arrived at our hotel at close to three or four plus in the afternoon. it was a suite, with three rooms and since luck was on our side, we got the room with bath tub in the toilet! woohoo! i got to rendam myself macam badak for a good one hour and it was la'or naaaaaah! :D
after we got ourselves familiarized with the place we call 'home' for the next three days, we decided to drop by klcc to shop! since it was a mere 10 minutes away from out hotel, we decided to be on foot! i remembered that the sun was exceptionally hot that day, and i suddenly recalled the days i had in cambodia, whereby the heat was extremely unbearable lah!
hahha sempat eh kite!
wooo great shot nadiah! but i looked troubled, some sort. hahha!
ini baik, paparazzi shot eh!
and this was after i got myself a diesel shirt, happy gila!
and then, we packed subway home! awesooooooome! and kita jakun gila k, first time nak order subway semua terkial2. hahha! but it was indeed a good experience i must say! :)
and this was day two, whilst having breakfast. if my memory serves me right, i woke up at around eight in the morning but golek2 thereafter. and then i found myself awake again at nine plus. hahha! apa lagi, was rushing to get dressed for our breakfast at the lobby and in the end, kita semua tak sempat mandi! ahahha! baik baik! i only get to wash my face and brushed my teeth! nak mandi? kirim salam ajer la!
i must highlight this particular omelette! i had specially requested for it to be made with cheese and mushrooms and it tasted awesome! of course all you see is a piece of omelette on the plate but trust me, it got us all asking for more! especially putra, whereby he had four pieces of this all by himself! ini baru nama nya 'gila badaaaak', as quoted from Dzul! eh abg D eh? hahhahahha! :)
and then, again we made our way to klcc after breakfast! sempat seh! we only had two hours of shopping because we're supposed to go for kak nurul's solemization at 12! woot!
ahem! i got myself a shirt from harley davidson! imma happy bird! :)
and this was while waiting for the rest to get ready. we're at the lobby busy taking pics and lo' and behold, meet our abg zai aka pimp! hahahha!
otw to kak nurul's place! hehhe!
woot! check out her dais! so beautifully decorated! feels like a dream wedding, kan? :D
heh heh.
with amirah and meet the bride's mom kat belakang! uat ape tu mak itam? hahahha!
the place where the magic takes place..
abg mazi, looking all smiley but inside, tuhan sahaja la yang tau yang dia ni nervous gile!
awwwwww!!! i pun nak! HAHHAHAH.
with lovely kak erna..
whee! meet the gorgeous bride, kak nurul!
and this is the epic moment! story goes like this.. while we were all busy posing for the different cameras in front of us, one fine moment, one of the photographer was telling us.. "ok, ok.. semua senyum.." and so we did.. after a few shots, he again commented, "ahh sekarang, AKSI BEBAS!!!.."
and exactly at that instant, i can bet on my whole life that everyone's mind went totally blank and the look on our faces was priceless.. "huh.. aksi bebas? ape tuu..?" confirm this was what that was playing at the back of our minds, kan kan kan?!?! HAHAHAHAHA.
spot our lost and confused face.. HUH? APE TU AKSI BEBAS?!?!?! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
And we were busy questioning each other, " eh, ape ah aksi bebas?!?! ape? ape? ape?!..."
all the while this few pictures were being snapped! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
and after we (finally) concluded that AKSI BEBAS was actually an INFORMAL photo of us, only then we began to go crazy, and yes.. hopefully give our mr. photographer a good shot of what our version of an INFORMAL photo would look like! :) hhahah kekek ah kite semua! \m/
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH.
sempat kan kite?
and then the girls bombarded the bride's nicely decorated room! heh!
with amirah at mid vally mall!
ni tgh tungu dorg tapau subway. yes, again it's subway for dinner!
wooohoo!
third day! the biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig day!
at the lobby again..
with cousins nadiah and amirah! <3!
inilah rombongan yang diterbangkan khas dari singapura.. cheyyy!
with our extended cousins whose names unknown! oops!
pretty in pink!
ahem!! i have no idea who this guy is.. all i know is that he is from sabah and that he is some what related to the groom.. kinda good looking i must say but heck, i couldn't comprehend a thing that he was trying to say! so that's kinda like a disadvantage eh? but ala, tak ape la..
wooot! incomplete family portrait..
all in all, it was a blast! a pity that it had to end early and i love overseas family outings like this! i am looking forward to the next trip back to our much missed kampong! yeaaah! cant wait! :)
aite, till then, boss dah capek deh!
k da bye!
shark.
12:13:00 AM
Reach my prismic soul.
Hello Earthlings, Sharkiee at your service.
I believe that Karma's the biggest bitch and it is life's greatest teacher.
They say that patience is a virtue but I'd say patience eats us all alive.
But its all good.
Unconditional Desires.
I know wishing for the perfect one is total bullshit, but I'm still gonna wish for that anyway.
