.Wednesday, October 31, 2007 ' 11:02 PM Y
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Mood: Somewhat neutral.
i am not 70% girlish. i am not.
I AM NOT. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
DUMB TEST. FINEE.
anyway..
school lately has been somewhat okay..just a tad tiring..
and i lost five bucks to subhas..i think im not cut out for small time gambling..everytime i win i feel too sympathatic anyway..
although my daidi is owning. ehehehe.
just came back from bball. was really tired today. too much time playing..and i couldn't find anyone online and stuff. no tom or waik or jamies. =(
i was bballing with yi feng, and i've been teaching him quite a lot..im really impressed at his enthusiasm and adrenaline..he's improving as fast as waik, if not faster. but the thing about waik is that of course, he learns and makes his own unique moves, making him better in some aspects than i could have ever taught him.
still, yi feng's improving pretty fast ba. last time he couldn't dribble properly or shoot properly or defend properly or rebound and now he can do all these things incrasingly fast. im glad...
is this how it feels like to coach? or teach? I mean, the satisfaction is..well. not a new feeling, but one i rarely experience. i only get a taste of it but i figure it's this satisfaction and the sucess of teaching...as well as a sense of being needed that keeps poor overworked and underpaid teachers on their jobs. =)
wee lin and i are talking again, and it's been going quite well i guess. i still have doubts about a relationship, since i don't really feel that way about her anymore,but she's a good friend and we still get along well. hope it stays that way.
im going to get a hangover tomorrow. =(
writings and working out is going well...and my homework both mrs lee's and sch work is somewhat maintaining...
a life of singleness can't get any better than this.
thanks god.
im not going to sin intentionally if this keeps up.
promise.
ShadowFighterX
.Monday, October 29, 2007 ' 3:55 PM Y
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Mood: Sleepy.
im getting a little worried.today morning i had some really wild dreams about jen.not like it was very sexual or anything. just that..i dunno. you ever have one of those days where you wake up and somethings like that or something's no longer like that?i mean, why am I so crazy about jen?apart from the fact that she has the sweetest voice and the sexiest bod and her smile makes me go wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.and she's so beautiful.god, she's so beautiful.i mean anyone who thinks she's not must be crazy. and it doesn't help that she's so sweet and nice and...shit im so fickle and obnoxious and hypocritical. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.fucking post withdrawal syndromes.i have got to stop getting hurt by crazy females.but wowee...
Okay, seriously.
I DREAMT ALL THE ABOVE LAST NIGHT. IT WAS DAMN FREAKY. IT WAS LIKE WATCHING MY SUBCONSCIOUS TALK TO HIMSELF AND BLARING ABOUT GIRLS. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW SCARY THAT IS?
I MEAN, 'HOT BOD?'
IT'S LIKE..
..secretly admitting all those things to myself? am i really so..
infatuated/crazy/fickle/etc...
its like i have to tell myself im totally obsessed with jen.
which im not.
nono.
if i get another dream like that, it means i am./
keep that in mind, god.
please don't scare me again.
anyway, school today was good. i mean, physics was just about understandable and chinese went relatively well.
hope it goes on like this.
im sleepy.
ShadowFighterX
.Saturday, October 27, 2007 ' 10:39 PM Y
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Mood: sleepy.
ain't life complicated?
random quizzes again. two of them say im 19 and 20 respectively. either cool or im getting old.
maybe it's a maturity thing. hehe.
anyway.
life has been pretty dreadful, but now that im over it, it's actualy getting better.
church was okay and i paid attention in service and cg, so i learnt quite a bit. im pretty indebted. feeling all holy and stuff. haha.
broke into pearl's house. LOL. just kidding.
we invited ourselves somehow for her sister sheryl's party. for some reason the little girl's quite fond of me, which i find quite cute. she's a bit enthusiastic though.
anyway./
free beef steak and chicken steak and fries! STUFFED.
i didn't have the heart to tell mum i did spend her money on offering and a comic book, so i think i'll pay her back later. haiz. im so ungrateful...
yeah thanks pearl's mum!
anyway.
getting new tuition and extended chinese tuition. haiz.
but if tom trusts her, i guess i would too. otherwise i wouldn't have chosen her in the first place.
i hope im right. she seems nice, but what really boils down to is how much she can help me improve..and i need to improve, fast.
other stuff's complicated..
my reborn feelings for jen..could be because of withdrawal after the whole wee lin thing..
and wee lin..dunno what she wants from me now..
im so scared to hurt people...or get hurt..
it's always like that..there's no other option..no matter how hard i try...
like im not good enough for anyone.
haiz...
tuitions..timetables..relationships..work...sickness...games...bbal...writing...
zap me.
im tired.
ShadowFighterX
.Thursday, October 25, 2007 ' 2:33 PM Y
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Mood: haiz..
yesterday was a REALLY bad day, for more than just one of us.
so tired..
today i tried to relax by bballing..hoping that somehow things would get better..
but then my flu kicked in..couldn't aim straight..couldn't even see straight..
had to take off my glasses a lot cuz it kept fogging. irritating. should really stick to contact lenses, but im just too lazy to wash them, plus my eyes are getting more sensitive. after everything, they're just not very watery anymore.
haiz. hate being sick.
im just glad that other ppl solved their problems..
once again, im ..
well i don't know.
alone.
saw wee lin dancing quite by accident. she gave the clarissa roll eyeball look. huh. if there's one fault i have, it's probably that i keep falling for people who just have immature crushes.
if there's another fault is that i just want to be committed to a relationship. guess people nowdays just aren't all that mature.
obviously, im disappointed..
people shouldn't use the word 'love' when they don't understand it..
weelin's not the only one, i guess.
i don't blame her. life is hard.
maybe love ain't all that cracked up to be.
i've tried not to blame myself. in this experience, i'm trying so hard to place faith in god. to remember job, someone who suffered more than me but didn't curse god or give up on him.
to remember to love my enemies, no matter how much it hurts.
to still believe in humanity and goodness..im not giving up. maybe it's my fault that people classify me as arrogant, but it's better than losing them after they actually start caring about me. you can never please everyone.
i just can't go on...but i can't give up either..people are still counting on me like they used to and it isn't academic results that count the most now, though i still need to put in a lot of effort for them. this is what i do. this is what i have always done. it doesn't make me a braggart, nor does it make me a saint. if people are too immature to understand it it's okay. im not trying to please everyone.
im just trying to make sure people are not going to suffer like i have, and also to make sure that they're going to be okay.
everywhere you look around you, people need love. people need God. I need God. but it doesn't make me any better just because im Christian..im human too. i have weaknesses and flawed morals. maybe im not exactly a popular basketball star or a socialite anymore, but this is a better calling.
someone said that if you are looking for someone to fill the gap in your heart you will never find that person...because ultimately, you love someone for who they are, for the good and the bad.
maybe that's why love hurts.
adios, weelin. if you ever find this, i just hope you'll take care and be happy. really.
i care.
but im over you.
and your little friends.
ShadowFighterX
Night Phantom
.Wednesday, October 24, 2007 ' 4:33 PM Y
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Mood: Sucks.
LIfe SUCKS.
ARRGH.
okay report book coming up on friday, so i've only got a few days of freedom left.
studying everyday with some weird schedule.
and im obviously, not attached.
haiz.
well that's pretty much it, isn't it?
..
im so..
..
..
..
tired.
forget it.
haiz.
i just need to think about everything, get over it again, and...
there are so many ironies here. seriously.
i hate letting go of my reality..
one of these days im going to break and then everyone will be just..
i dunno.
what would happen if and when i break?
sigh..
so you really chose them, huh?i don't blame you.
ShadowFighterX
.Tuesday, October 23, 2007 ' 5:45 PM Y
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Mood: Moody.
God, I feel so terrible inside..
sickness is getting to me. can;t speak properly can't breathe, feel like coughing all the time.
arrgh.
every year some crappy disease thing happens to me.
pr 6 it was dengue.
sec 1 it was MPD, which would have me killed before my fourteenth birthday.
sec 2 it was near kidney failure.
and this year just SUCKS.
need to go to joels' ceremony to see him collect various prizes..my brother's a genius, but talk about a total waste of time. im so badly sick and tired i can barely think properly, so i can't write my novel, and with my injured ankle, i can't work out either.
damnit.
relationships with people aren't exactly going that well...they're busy with things or with other people. surprisingly, i feel rather lonely. which is weird. guys do not say they feel lonely.
in fact, tom couldn't come over today, which kinda sucked. im so bored.
irony's a bitch.
i think im cursed to live like this for the rest of my life.
and i can't wait forever.
ShadowFighterX
.Sunday, October 21, 2007 ' 12:35 AM Y
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PEarl and Jean have been doing these, so I thought I might try them. You know. FOr fun laughter peace and joy. but since i am so hopeless with blogger, ican't post them. =/ except here. by words. wow.
Your Inner Color is Blue
Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.
You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.
Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.
Nurse.
NURSE?!
WTH. HELLO.
okay nvm./
500 hundred posts. wow.
so..
well blue has always been my favourite colour anyway. =)
so..
writing a bit lately..
still trying to recover from screwing up my exams..but say. i guess im recovering quite nicely.
happy about quite a few things...even if some things still hurt and it's hard to sort them out. i've never wanted more to be me in my life than now. i think.
doing another random quiz..
yawning.
im so tired. and sleepy. maybe i overdid it at church and the gym..
today was okay i guess. cna't complain.
lolz HOW DO YOUR KISSES RATE.
WTH.
I HAVEN'T EVEN BEEN KISSED OR KISSED ANYONE YET.
WAH LAO.
it's a sign that im totally doomed.
okay this is better, what type of writer you should be.
You Should Be a Romance Novelist
You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart.You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer...And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories.As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.
lolz. pretty amazing. im not saying it's accurate, but..well. according to wei yuan and gang as well. haha. i guess i am kind of dreamy about writing mushy love stories.
now my mind is pg13 rated.
okay i DATE LIKE A WOMAN.
WTH.
WAH LAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHIT I'VE GOT TO STOP TAKING THESE DUMB TESTS.
although i think 'men' and 'women' is very subjective. not all girls are very deep and romantic and take love seriously.
..
shit.
did i just..?
right..
we'll ignore that.
i'll ignore that.
this is the part where tom says im just saying this to make myself feel better.
almost 1 am.
fine. 1 or 2 more of these dumb quizzes b4 sleeping. it's better than nothing.
....
You Are 38% Evil
A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.
im dangerous. like. beware..
yeah RIGHT.
it's not fair. most of that stuff 'how evil are you' just happened to apply.
one more.
You Are 72% Sexy
Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High
You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.
...
you know, if that were true i probably wouldn't hate my life sometimes.
last one. 'what is your love based on.'
Your Love is Based on Commitment
You believe that love is something that develops and grows.You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love.For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding.You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run.
Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily
Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship
..
haiz.
maybe it's not all that stupid.
sleep.
im always sleepy.
nights.
ShadowFighterX
Night Phantom
.Friday, October 19, 2007 ' 12:56 PM Y
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Mood: mm..
sometimes things still don't go my way. not that they're supposed to. but i still like it.
sometimes I still regret a lot of things. pearl. and my past. and things that i should do better but i can't and i keep trying but nothing seems to go right..
sometimes I still indulge...I sin, and I regret a lot also. it's hurts more when you try so hard each and every time but still fail.
yet lately, I have a reason to smile...
the whole things so confusing but for some reason, I'm really happy.
anyway. today's friday. got hol. =)
for new towners anyway.
mum's buying back fast food for lunch, so im not complaining. =)
i just lost in sonic riders for the umpteetth time.
some of the guys should go over my house in the next few weeks to help me type out my stuff.
and maybe if it stops raining i'll bball..
but more likely to go tom's house.
i just realized i didn't work out yesterday..
was so tired.
finished a 2 hour A math paper and chinese tuition.
mum's back.
gtg.
.Thursday, October 18, 2007 ' 8:00 PM Y
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Mood: Sleepy.
just woke up again.
can't seem to focus on anything lately..
my parents are trying to be nice about my results, but they're not doing a great job..
so tired..
some part of me is thinking about all the stuff Im going through..
and to be honest, if I could redo it all again, I would.
so many regrets. so painful.
-what was I supposed to do today...?
so confused about my feelings.
how many times I've been hurt and still paranoid and afraid..
too stupid really. to do anything right.
hmm..
but then again, somehow, I feel safe.
like I can do something, even if it's not just anything.
and I want to. I do. just that there's so much stuff that's been on my mind..
I don't want to keep hurting people or getting hurt either.
maybe.
just maybe.
it's time for another change.
Night Phantom
.Monday, October 15, 2007 ' 7:19 PM Y
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Mood: Blank.
Okay based on how I spent my holiday, I am completely unproductive.
I mean, today morning i promised myself that I'd study for like. maybe an hour at least. it's a holiday right? seeing as how i screwed up my exams i should offer myself some feelings of redemption.
then i spotted the ps2. big black, shiny thing. on the living room floor. joel had come back from chalet like..a few hours b4 and...
well basically.
i slept at 3 yesterday after beating sauron's and saruman's palantir by myself. (lolz. applause.)
and then i woke up at 12.45 or so. answered smses, promised myself i'd study again.
thought i'd relax while eating fried rice for lunch so i put in resident evil apocalypse.
ended up watching the whole thing. then as i put the cd away, i saw the ps2 again.
guess what happened.
yep.
sonic riders!
it's really difficult. and i kept getting distracted by stuff.
which reminds me.
something i did not expect happened today.
im not sure what to do yet. between what i want and what's right.
thinking.
mm.
dinner.
mum came back, asked for my phone so she can call some annoying parent without that person calling back.
then after it was done she handed me her phone. lol. turns out she got confused.
ah well.
hopefully she doesn't bother mum.
later going pine grove to teach yi feng bball. don know why he's so crazy about it all of a sudden. im guessing along the lines of impressing some girl. but maybe he just wants to take up a physical activity at last. after all, he's already pro with an electric guitar, but that sure doesn't help him lose weight.
speaking of weight.
all that fast food eating has been productive.
so now i am no longer depressed or stressed about everything so far.
yeah..
except im sitll putting on weight.
oh, and yesterday i went pandan valley to train. trained for an hour, got too tired and bored. it's good training by myself, but it gets boring..maybe like after an hour i should call people to join me. not like i didn't already try though.
o levels next year, thus mrs lee is probably coming tomorrow..
oh, school tomorrow! lol. now then i remember.
xian yang's sister is a knockout now. seriously. bet she doesn't even remember me taking care of her when she was a small kid who couldn't talk properly.
price you pay for not talking to old friends so long.
at least now i only owe xian yang another $120.
yeah well. yesterday was fun. hopefully i can teach xian an bball as well..
hmm. reminds me of when i wasn;t so concerned about being the best..now that i've achieved my goal, i can teach people again..haha..
not that i think im great or anything i guess. but since i'm pretty much semi-retired in a way.
so many things to do..
so many decisions to make.
so little time.
Night Phantom
ShadowFighterX
(so what's it going to be, Luke Ho?) =/
.Sunday, October 14, 2007 ' 6:21 PM Y
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Mood: Grouchy.
Hangover..
not from drinking. no.
waik's going away for a month. really hate that. i guess i won't be getting much time with him these hols.
beastly headache. coincidentially happened after my mum told me mrs lee has to come 3 times a week to prepare me for o levels during my holidays. it does not make me feel too good.
slept a lot or very little today. can;t really tell..
didn;'t call back a lot of ppl who messaged me from my sleepysleep.
anyway.
dad and mum went to get stuff and my shoes.
i could tell dad was a bit disappointed that i didn;'t wanna go help get my own shoes. frankly speaking, i was a bit disappointed in myself. i reasoned that it was the hangover, then after that because of my exams i didn't want to exert myself but its' all bullshit. hopefully next time i can do better.
sigh...
hate it all. ahhhhhh crap. things just do not seemt to go my way.
oh, and service was boring.
honestly, i got to find something to help revive a bit more of my faith and dedication to God, as well as to my family and friends, and even to myself. got to make things right.
dear god, i pray you'll help me do just that.
Amen.
Night Phantom
ShadowFighterX
(still sleepy. bball tonight i guess..hope it goes well.)
.Saturday, October 13, 2007 ' 11:17 PM Y
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Mood: argh.
today was supposed to be a good day. hari raya and all.
sometimes when i see my relatives, i feel guilt for not getting to know them..if I were them I would think im a bit of a rich spoilt brat but even in all modesty, I know im not that...
anyway after going grandmas' house went out with tom and waik to taka to buy stuff with my kinokuniya voucher from the essay competition prize and then went to cine to play lan.
couldn't get halo 3..had to live with gears of war..but versus is fun. hehe.
anyway after that (and tom being stuck on my new spiderman vs black cat comic, which i sahll elaborate on. spiderman/blackcat is so much better than spiderman/mary jane. even gwen stacy is better. mary jane just sucks. =) went home after eating haato icecream. mum came back, gave a lecture on the situation and said a lot of rude and mean things about me and this family. i hate it when she's like that...
sometimes, i know that im changing into her..but then i remember how my future self is like. no matter how evil he is, he's not..like that.
people feel better after talking about their troubles..but my mum just dwells on it..and her saying it out is much worse than her keeping it in..but maybe she feels she can't keep it in..
i don't blame her. there are so many people to blame.
like today morning, after i talked to jeanette, i learned an important lesson. not that she taught me it, but she helped me realize it at least...no matter who you want to blame, sometimes everyone is just at fault and you can't blame a certain someone..after that, the most you can do is pick up the pieces and hope it fits right.
i can't blame people for hurting me..
then i can't always blame myself either..it's not healthy..
it's just that everytime i get hurt my personality changes..and the more i change the worse i get..
so much more cynical, paranoid, under a mask of things to hide my fear of getting hurt.
to appear cold and arrogant so i can have just a little confidence in myself.
it's quite pathetic.
i have 5 novels to complete.
and A math papers to practice.
and 3 3 hours trainings blocks for the next few weeks.
got to put my life together.
haiz.
ShadowFighterX
Night Phantom
(if one good thing could happen to me now, I'd change my mind.)
.Thursday, October 11, 2007 ' 11:45 AM Y
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Mood: Pissed.
First I can't do a freakin easy 'A' Math paper, then I can't play bball against a bunch of sec 2's.
okay maybe the bball is cuz of not playing it for 2 weeks plus.
and not working out.
but the paper?
god i hate it.l
FUCK. AHHH.
DAMNIT.
...dont talk to me. im pissed.
.Wednesday, October 10, 2007 ' 9:54 PM Y
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Mood: shrugs*.
okay so today's math paper was a bit..what. yep. i was too complacent..could do the questions but was way too slow..not only did i end up rushing it, i also didn't finish a question.
real good.
well...tomorrow's the last exam. talk about finally. im just sick of the whole thing.
haven't blogged cuz of them..and cuz i've been doing part of my new novel, 'Rain' starring my latest hero Night Phantom.
I think writing this is somehow more satisfying than writing ShadowFighterX (although I hate to admit it) because ShadowFighterX's events are based on alternate reality events so it's very unpredictable and long winded, not to mentin slightly unrealistic. i don't even know when the story ends. maybe it'll be like a diary to me or something. in a way.
for Night Phantom, I can relate more to it...although sometimes I get carried away and I feel like I'm pouring my heart out. so...
probably update some part of the story in future.
tomorrow is a math. mastered most of it, except for some part chapter 8 and am totally clueless about chapter 10. so screwed.
ah well.
chances to take.
ShadowFighterX
;)
.Friday, October 05, 2007 ' 1:41 PM Y
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Mood: Neutral.
Okay.
Math and SS was really well. not difficult. at all. period. seriously.
i was so surprised when my prediction about only needing to study chapter 4 for SS was right. looks like no one is going to be burning my stories anytime soon.
speaking of stories the guys (yatwang, weiyuan, gavin, wilson,yaowen) have more or less decided to take me up on my job offer, probably going to drop by during hols or something. yep. so after they type out the stuff and all that, i can edit it, and then make it more story-formatted so it doesn't drag or whatnot like it's doing now, and maybe in a year I will have 3 novels. =), and another few months for my other 2 novels.
what im going to do with them is..well. unsure. i doubt my SFX stories will get accepted for like publishing or something? haha. im really not that good, but im sure i can edit them eventually, get help from tom and whatnot, etc. as long as people stop telling me that it sucks.
so far i've had more positive than negative reviews but its really not all that reliable.
physics on monday.
anyway, after the exams i pretty much planned to go back myself..
so i was thinking that maybe i should buy a mcspicy on the way.
and then who should be at the bus stop but jamie, so i talked to her awhile and asked her where tom was and etc. their exams have ended already.
WTH.
anyway she was going back home to get her art stuff, so we took 96 together and she gave me all her loose change. =)
then i decided to be kind to derrick (yeah right! i'm going to treat him to kfc when he least expects it so he doesnt think im such a horrible friend.) and let him give me his last $2 instead of having to treat me to kfc so i can afford my mcspicy.
jamie went back, and i was about to go get my burger when I noticed that 7 was leaving, and I thought of running after it so i did, but it was too late.
then i saw 165 and 156 leaving in the opposite direction. wth.
so i ran, again, and outran the bus after it hit a red light, and i have NO idea what the HELL i was thinking, but since i was already moving so fast...
lolz you should have seen the lady's face on the bus when i waved to her while running after the bus.
and then it overtook me, but good thing it stopped at the next busstop, so i managed to get on.
so altogether i ran slightly more than 2 busstops before being overtaken. not bad. =)
anyway im kinda tired after the run.
ate lunch and stuff.
god forgive me for what i just did. messed up again. shit.
=(
i think i've come to terms about..
well.
jamie and i talked a little on the bus..
and well. it shouldn't be..real love. apparentely.
i guess i got carried away.
but it's so hard to accept.
i really thought I did. if anyone knows, its me. i was so sure.
maybe love does involve a bit of your mind.
i don't know. sigh.
i just dont like being told that I'm always wrong anymore. it's not fair.. after all. what if im right?
what if I still am?
haiz.
exams have a long way to go.
and i need to sleep.
ShadowFighterX
(yesterday's adventure is going to remain in my subconscious for a long, long time.)
.Thursday, October 04, 2007 ' 9:34 PM Y
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Mood: nervous.
well lolz NO. im not that nervous.
haven't updated since the 1st. lemme see.
tuesday weiyuan, gavin, wilson and yao wen went my house to do music project. played ps2 and ate lots of kfc and other food. after slides and deciding on song they left.
wednesday was a bit..ahem. i sang 'when you say nothing at all' and i was actually in pretty good singing condition that morning, but then i got so much stage fright that i started shivering and closing my eyes and it was HORRIBLE AND EMBARASSING. AHHHH WTH.
today was okay. lots of free periods..gota lot of time to study and talked mostly to gavin, yat wang, wilson, yao wen and weiyuan. felt it went pretty well. haha..
tomorrow is my exam and im not sure whether im confident or because the realization hasn't sunk it yet. im still okay, and i think i know most of my stuff, but..
there's always that but.
dear god, please bless me with an open mind and help me recall what i'm studied so hard for. please don't make me
1. fall asleep.
2. be distracted.
3. panic and forget everything.
goodnight.
ShadowFighterX
.Monday, October 01, 2007 ' 6:46 PM Y
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Mood: Slightly aggravated.
thought I'd type a little before studying later.
To Jamie: Happy birthday. =) um. yeah. pretty much cheered up. thanks.
To Elaine: Haha. Just who are you?
To Someone Better To Do: Um. thanks for saying those nice things about me. I'm really flattered. it would be nice to know who you are though.
To Pearl: Yep. McSpicys. ;) hopefully you win the bid. haha. that way you can come over. maybe after that can get icecream and chocolates. =) and thanks for the song.
today was frustrating.
well. so far.
let's see.
it took me like 4 minutes to attach and detach the chain for my bike to the bike-post things, and my hand got caught between and it really HURT.
bball was okay.
school was essentially boring, except I...
1. did two whole math papers. so proud of myself. =)
2. calaculated my chinese CA2. got 58.45 (4sf) which isn't too bad. the zhuo wen is seriously screwed up la. 6 scores add then divide by 6, then divide by 5 times 2.
results :50, 50, 50, 50, 44, 56
WTH.
just passed for that one anyway.
and i lost to yao wen by 1.3. i was so sure i was going to beat him this term. =(
not thinking about relationships, love or anything.
i swear that if I make it past 2 months of swearing off bgr, then I'll continue for at least till half a year.
otherwise it just makes me. rather desperate and pathetic. which i pretty much am right now.
been talking with a certain girl online a lot lately. not supposed to mention her name. i don't think i planned to talk to her at all at first but she's been so nice I thought I'd mention her. yep. haha.
though I suppose I am a seriously boring person on msn...
keith don't laugh.
then again, you're grounded, so you can't even read this. (I think) AHAHA.
lolz. jk.
okay.
then on my way back, my bball bag snapped and it rolled away. and when I stopped the bike with a screech to pick it up, after almost tumbling a part of my pants ripped and..um. basically I had to cycle back slightly slower. (don't get any funny ideas people. it's just the pant leg. well. a long part of the pant leg.)
got my math book and my comics from pam./
then was so tired. decided not to get my haircut till later.
came home, talked on msn for a while, ate lunch, played lotr with joel (tried three times, died three times. =(
it's sauron's palantir. bet tom can't do it.
went to get haircut. first place the shop was closed. turns out it's closed on mondays. it took me almost half off half an hour to even get there la. wth.
then went to second place. very. very. crowded.
by the time I got home after traffic and whatnot, i was gone for 40 minutes.
40 minutes of CYCLING around clementi for NOTHING. wah lao.
really tired now.
still got lit. assignment to complete by tonight...
and i wanted to know more about shakespeares play..can't remember the name.
ah well.
sleepy.
mcspicys and zingers, poke ball.
;) later.
ShadowFighterX
(I hate exams. can't sleep properly, can't relax that much, lack of bball, lack of running, lack of hanging out with friends, lack of ..her.)
(and the nightmare from the other day is still emblazoned on my mind. and no pearl, I can't tell you. not yet.)