Aww shucks...
Ms ang on some sort of course. Dunno wad it is. Anyway she wasn't in sch today. :(
WHY did cynthia tell nicholas all the bad stuff I've been saying about him ?! He threatened jokingly to kill me. At least i hope it was jokingly.
RATS. MS chong was so bossy and bitchy....which reminds me, april fool day is soon...so I will think of something to brighten things up. POssibly.
I am SOOO TIRED. Practice is just too tiring.got loads of tests next week......
I wonder how the girls are doin.'


I have no story to tell. I can't believe it. Hm..just not inspired.
I miss talking to Hpps ppl.
Sad....

Mat h tuition SUX.
Man. I can hardly type fast. Now i know got a lot of grammatical errors. Hehhe.
Ohz well. Yesterday Sam didn't wanta play...so 4 on 1 still. Gd thing Sam don wanna play...or else I sure lose.
Like I'm leading 69 to 51 and then feel too tired already. John wore me out too fast...and Joel kept getting in the way..so after that already 89-88...and i sure lose if I never wrench my ankle by accident and then stop game. Phew.
NOt like I like wrenching my ankle. It's a bit better now, but kinda irritated slightly.
I AM going to hit Jun jie tomorrow.
I AM going to pick a fight witgh the sec 4 gang if necessary.

PHew. Today Xi Min never come. Kinda strange not to have seen her for one week. Ohz well. I'm sure she's ok.
I wonder how jun is too. It's times like this when u think of certain crushes, ex-crushes, etc , then u worry what will happen if they both meet. HMm.

Angi might be coming over this month or next, so hopefully i can drop by jun's house to visit. Probably with fat yeo.
Um....ohz yarh. Never go for counselling cuz Reuben didn't come today...I guess he was too shy to show up in front of Joan.
Whew. Hate writing summaries.
Tomorrow i gotta pass ms ang the copied worksheet...I realli don want to upset her. Really.
She really isn't beautiful when angry.
Definetely...
whoops.

Sleepy. C.g games wore me out today..and next week got open sunday! PAm said she might come for it. Hope *
But then she never comes at all. Howz sad.
One of Jan's students commited suicide. Sad.
Rats...i wonder how the hpps pupils r doing?
Excluding Joeshua, Shawn and snobs.
Excluding me?
Hehheh.

sleepy character * yawnx*
PHew. This morn soooz sleepy.
Got lot of nightmares ok. I think that previous things that happened as well as HIJACK is causing these nightmares which have been happening for some months now.
Today am going to watch Ms con___ not sure 2. Dunno why DAD wants to watch it, I know goin wild wild wet is cancelled, but this is RIDICULOUS.
Neer mind...at least waikeat can tag along.....
I hope tom can make it.
Oww...my neck.
Tonight also got MATH tuition......who ever heard of Luke Ho having problems ith MATH?!!?!?? I can't believe my mum put me up with this. oh wellz. Since it's first time i'll just be a gd little boy and see how it goes. And maybe if the teacher explains something wrongly I'll correct her. Yarh.
Dan and Dave as well as John and Sam ae coming over tonight for dinner, then can play ps2, play bball, and if i beat them all at bball by myself, and if my brher joins their team and i STILL beat them all by myself i'll show dave hook shot. HEheh.

Whew.
Yeserday got no time to blog. Gd friday service was a little diff. from the usual one.....
I didn't see Xi Min's fce at all. I'm surprised she was able to come thoughz. That's still gd, even though she accused me of not coming.
Lately I think she knows I like her. I think that's scary cuz no one told her, and she doesn't know bt this blog. Yea.

I also had a nightmae abt ms ang, but all more perspnal stuff goes into the journal...so end of for today....
;)

I don't know now if I am too sad or too angry.
I broke a thermometer in school in the lab. Imagine my humiliation and utter embarassment.
I have quite had in with the guy in the red t-shirt from new town and his idiot frens like andrew, and I don give a damn whether they are gangsters or not, I am going to take dem down, and

And give them HELL.

I don't care whether i break any sch rules right now, I haven't had a fight in weeks. My patience is waning.


Try not to be so angry now.

I wonder how ppl can become happy just by thinking that they are happy even though they are not. That is relatively silly becuz you are only lying to yourself.

A year ago, i loudly proclaimed that my happiness has neer been my own. And now at this point of time, i realize nothing has changed, even without Junice. It seems i was put in New Town for a purpose.

Also, a lot of people are starting to either like or hate me. It is in this way i influence others, good or bad. Perhaps if only I had not attempted suicide the total shutdown would not have been considered.

When i HIJACKED, I found that I was able to getback my personalty...the quiet shy one from pr1 and 2, the one who is supposed to feel guilty from doing wrong. With my alter-personalties I can control this at any point of time. Hopefully i can fool others.

Apparently a lot of ppl, including ppl whose names i am not supposed to RECORD, disapprove of M.I. i hate to disagree. Not only am I able to spy and get my revenge on others, I
1. won't be called a busybody because no one will find out the mastermind anyway
2. get to uphold seniority above...seniors. (whoops)
3. Most importantly , a lot of people beneit from my selfish acts.

So anyway, I will still continue to change new town.

The first thing i will do is kick those bastards ass.

Dont forget me.

Just watch this....
Shadow rox!!! Hehe. I still play sonic heroes. :) Actually i prefer it to ffx2. Seriously.
I am NOT DEAD. HOORAY! Although still got very low chance of going out in the week. :(
Today the new town gals who played with us today made my thumb feel even worse after i genna whacked how many times. Just becuz i burned like 12 times? :(
Hehe. COnstantine rocks! Both of them. But then constantines performance on idol today kinda SUCKS.

I hate invitations to join something online. It's quite irritating, so if u have sent pleez don send anymore. And do NOT send me birthday calendar. So there.

Fighter....that idiot nicholas from upper sec tricked me into lending him my bball. -_-/
That guy who's his fren keeps pushing him around. I'm going to write abt a fight with him with him very soon, cuz i AM.

Got a lot of work to do..which i'm going to skip...for a while anyway.
Whew...so tired.
Does she know I exist?





Ohz. Today I saw Bryan and Shi Min ( class 1/1 ) sitting together. Like couple like that. So cute.
then after that Bryan confessed his love for her right in front of me and some of the guys! OMG. I have never met anyone not embarassed when confessing love or someone. But maybe love is not something to be shy abt.

Which reminds me...i swore.
Whoops.

Hmm...so cute together lorh....hahaha.....
Lolx.
:)

Hoo boy. I hate today.
i got b3 66 for geography test. At least it's better than the previous c5. Don't think mum is gonna look at it that way.
hen, bballl got called off and i went with the guys to singapore poly to eat and chat. n the end wasn't watching the time. Then forgot to call dad somemore. Crap.
I am DEAD! Forget abt friday's meeting for c.g, forget bt cg on sunday, forget the new bball practice on tuesday....dies liao.
I hate being me.
Whew.

Whew...am bk. Got lots of errors in the previous post...sighz.
Whitney houston's singing is POWER. Joel got some new love songs cd...and wahseh.
Careless whisper rocks too! Yee hahz! I always wanted to sing like that.
Back to the topic. Mum found the plan I made for ms chong. Wonder how. I probably misplaced the note.
Peh. Now what? Sighz. I gotta do something. I am the leader of M.I after all. Although the previous M.i was probably better. hmm....
I hate myself right now. Sighz. i gotta think so i won't feel useless.
Tom, I found the reason for the existence of the city and the village. I'll explain to you anoher day. in the meantime try to arrane another trio meeting.
Which reminds me. I lost all my powers temporily. I dunno when I'm going to get them back.
Oh wellz.
Nite guys.

Guess hern isn't going to forgive me. I'll have to settle that later.
Gee...i think lynette doesn't exactly like me since that day Marcus almost....welllz......
I hate Ms chong! Sighz.
Today in bio. ms chong confiscated Yi Jia's diary. It's kind aimportant so i was eal angry. I should be. I know how it feels like.
Hmm...than Nicole gave me some sort of pep talk kinda thing in my note...so I listened to her. At least she was right. But i kinda hated it. I still hope Ms chong will let
Gtg. Yi Jia get her diary back.

Hern. I want to get on my knees and apologize...lolz! Awwz...I love you!


NOT. NAhz. GAHAHAHA. I'm not serious at the current moment. I will say something truthfully to all the girls reading this....I'm glad you're normal.

After sch ( ms ang was not so sweet...so much homework! wahhz! :) ) I met joel's frens jonathan and Ubik. Lolx. Ubik is g at bball. Like me. Hehhe. But anyway after some talk and an invitation, I rushed upstairs, met joel, changed and got ready to go to Lot 1 for lunch. Den later got bball. Hehh.

After a long time of travelling and etc, then reached bballl court. yyayz. Except got lotsa girls from choa chu kang sec. Peh. Guess what happened.

Welllz...i was pretty impressed by their prwess, so when they challenged us, we accepted. We didn't know what was going to happen.

BAsically they were very vulgar...bloody bithces...and they got somme nerve continueously fouling us, so eventually we got quite fed up and started acting annoying too. I kept burning them until goodness knows how long and and how many shots.

Hehhe, in case u didn't know, burning* refers to shooting in front of the person and jumping higher so even with the pressure still score. And I was pushed somemore. WAHAHAHA. BITCHES. And they don't even look like girls.

So basically one of them punched Ubik and i was a little too shocked to punch for him. I was stunned actually. A GIRL acting like that! He was close to bleeding. I guess all the guys were stunned. Yea. Shocked.

Ubik threatened to call the police but the big black clothes one who punched Ubik was totally unreasonable. She wanted to hit me. I was pretty fed up with her. My own way. In other words, give her Devil glare* which I hadn't intended to do to girls. I kinda look like a demon like that, without my glasses. Fire burning....

Even after we led Ubik away to recover, that obnoxious girl said " that punch was from all of us..don't u mess with us.." that kind of thing. I was playing irrtiating, so naturally they were pissed. The same girl wanted to climb over the small ledge and hit me, but I hit the walll with a punch and scared them off. Turns out I happened to hit the part of the walll where it so happens some of the wall paper is loose and there are cracks in it...so it looked real good when the wall paper got crushed. But they didn't run off...just walked away. Disapppointing. BITCHES.

I tell you, they're not human. They're not girls. Bitcy tom-boyus, more like! They're all NT anyway. I look down on them. Peh. BITCH...

Actually I'm a bit tired of typing....my finger got wrenched on one of the times they fouled me. I'll keep the blaze going. Next time i'll call M.I along to have gang fight. Peh.

yayz...at least I'm not so tired anmore. So will just say sorry to hern and anyone I ofended due to mood swing. I'm not in the mood for hearing bad comments on my ag board. But if u feel like it just put them there anyway.

I kinda miss her lots.....
Sighz.
Gee...actually jun's behavior is contagious. I shall have to start acting cold and harsh again very soon. Lolx.

I hate being me. Except is that all I can say?
Phew.I'm glad i go to church. It's during that time i can think so i can snap back into my senses and stop acting stupid. I realize that I can't change the person that I am, and since i have yet to discover who I am, I will just accept that I am...who I am. Maybe that is the only way to solve my problems with this attitude.
It is too late to apologize...but i'll say sorry anyway. Better than not saying anything at all.
Hmm. It's the last day of the holidays. I can''t imagine life with sch work again. At least I have my goals to work for. Although I hate studying. But can just approach one week at a time. That kind of thing. Maybe so.
Arrgh.....I dunno what to do for the stupid chinese quiz. I wonder if anyone has started working on it yet. bleh* Chinese. Hmmph. Not everyone's born with the power to memorize instantly. Sheesh.
I wonder how she is doing.....


Hmm...Nus high sch isnt taking part in the bball competition...which means I can't exactly see Clarence. Oh wellz.
Rats...I have to go up against nan hua, clementi town...Actually secondary school changing realli sux. I have a 25% feeling of not wanting to transfer next year. Like it's so easy*. JEez. although I want to get out, it's a matter of choices. My decisions. Crap.
I guess sch in less than 11 hrs time won't be so bad if i try to be optimistic. TO finish today off...
1. Finish all the rest of the holiday homework.
2. Coax Dad into letting me buy Order of the Phoenix which I still haven't gotten after 2 years since I am a cheap character. ( Joel has already pre-ordered for half blood prince...ugh! )
3. Um...pray that I havent missed any homework out cuz most of the teachers are after me anyway.
I guess life is supposed to be beautiful and bright to those who choose to look at it that way, to do the best they can and accept bad things as they are. The modern reality is so gloomy..and maybe a little sad.
Maybe all of us make life the way we live it....which is why some of us just don't see it eye to eye......

thAT'S SAD.
Today I still couldn't find the freakin' books. Oh wellz. I guess i don't really care.
I'm not going to elaborate on personal issues somemore since nobody really understands anyway.
Whew. I think I finally understand why I have those abilities as a hijacker. Although I am quite tired of being me. As usual.
Hmm...now marion and ms nice are probably both angry rite now. It's rather apparent actually.
I kinda got to thinking of who am I. Except who am i? Exactly who am I? I have yet to find my personalty.
Now I bear a lot of hatred inside me, until it consumes me. I don't care. I wish I was dead, rather than be me.
I wish I was dead.
If it wasn't for.....

Ah well. It looks like ive lost again...just this time it wasn't becuz I was doing the right thing. Am I used to this yet?
It is seriously too late for anything, so i will still continue with who I am. I wonder if it's toool ate to make a personalty switch...though I already have...
Wahhz. Stupid chinses bks. Gtg library. Crap.

during the time I feel a little crazy, I might as welll type as much as I can.
To tom: The answer for the question is yes. Okay? and it's probably far stronger than that.
To hern and anyone else in particular :
What would you know about advice anyway! YOu have this ever so nearly perect life, and even if it's not it's fucking hell a lot better than mine. And I don ccare abt the bloody vulgarities.
Bloody hell. None of you have even com e close to living my LIFE and as far as as I know I don't WANT it.
and yes, I am totally jealous. YES@! And I am anonymous on amanda tan's blog since I decided to be annoying.
And sayz F*** again. I can't stand this. I want to ESCAPE. I want to GET OUT. I want to have a better LIFE.
All I want is to be someone else like YOU!!!!!!!!
i DON'T need to be great in basketball to be happy. I don't need to have met junice.
Oh hell with it.

Awwz...hern....r u stilll in a mood swing? Lolx....nvm. You're still nice anyway...I guess manipulation doesn't meet eye to eye. There are different ways of manipulation.
Oh jeez. It's so hard to keep typing out manipulation. Oh wellz.
Trithfully, I really do understand. The one in the previous episode was using intimidation. Its still part of manipulation, if you channel it. Jeez.
I have been manipulated b4, and it seems you have. I wish not. It's....semmingly breaking. Can't decribe.
I will not bring it up, cuz I feel like crying when I do. Awz.
I had Project work today with two um...frens. Wellz...yarh.
Kinda borin...jeez. I miss the excitement of primary school. Though I would not want to relive those memories. I don feel like talking much today, at least I'm not unhappy. Just confused.
-_-
:(
Oh well.

I kinda had a mood swing myself yesterday. Iwish considering other ppl first wasn't priority. People have to learn to look after themselves.
Ohz. I never got to say yesterday that i am finally on Team A for the basketball team...aka : Going to represent new town in competition! But then bryan and benjamin not in Team A. Wahhh.
I got a pic of jun's fren angi yesterday (at last) and hopefully if she comes to singapore i can say hi. But I probably won't since I don't plan to visit jun anytime soon. Especiallu with the amount of pimples on my face -_- :( But anyway hope larh. Yea.
Hmm....maybe will post her pic later? Maybe. Hehe. Wellz....I dunno...later got project with johan and justin and then later ALSO got stupid tuition so I just hope can clear it and get it over with. Then can slack. :)
Realli....I consider a social life at my age kinda wasted. But i have always wondered why I never really behave like zachary or david. hmm...not that they behave baly, but its the natural ability to argue and the charisma they posess, and of course a tinch of vulgarity. I guess I' not that kinda person.
I wish someone would tell me my future.
I wish.

Thanks for the offer ms nice...except ..
Ms nice.....is gone. Kinda sad. I don't understand. Why.
My fire burns bright....I feel that the time is now. Time to act.
I was going to write on something else. Really. I kinda thought that I would..until I kinda dropped by hern's blog. Kinda strange, the way life is. It realli is time for me.
Thelast tiem I manipulated someone was 2 weeks ago. Pretty easy actually. You just have to be a very gd actor, a gd emotion controller and very charismatic. Except I don apply for these things. which is why I have a group.
I don understand...don understand............



[ 'My time is waning.' I said coolly. " You don't understand, do you. The situation? You lose, I win. Get outta the way. "
He stared. I had to play the ruthless guy here. Otherwise I would never get my point across. He finally broke down, perhaps went a little nuts and tried to hit me. It was pretty much as good as over. I slammed him solid. He had a bleed nose. Started crying and ran away. Pathetic.]


Maybe people hurt you and manipulate feelings, cause distrust, and that's when you have to get hard. I hated violence. Now at these moments, I feel like i embrace it. I cannot resist it. So evil...so unpure......and yet I cannot control these things. What use is controlling emotions, manipulating others if you cannot control even the simplest evils........
I'm sorry for breaking out previously hern. This one is for you.

People think when they should act. Or act before thinking. Someday, I am going to have a total understanding of the human mind. Even if my education sucks. Which already does. It's not my fault. I'm never going to get my time of my own, only living as the servant for someone else?
Since it's this way, I can't feel sorry for myself. Only accept it. I hope hern will get over whatever trouble she has. The rest of you guys too. As for me.........
What about me?

Thanks for the offer ms nice...except ..
Ms nice.....is gone. Kinda sad. I don't understand. Why.
My fire burns bright....I feel that the time is now. Time to act.
I was going to write on something else. Really. I kinda thought that I would..until I kinda dropped by hern's blog. Kinda strange, the way life is. It realli is time for me.
Thelast tiem I manipulated someone was 2 weeks ago. Pretty easy actually. You just have to be a very gd actor, a gd emotion controller and very charismatic. Except I don apply for these things. which is why I have a group.
I don understand...don understand............



[ 'My time is waning.' I said coolly. " You don't understand, do you. The situation? You lose, I win. Get outta the way. "
He stared. I had to play the ruthless guy here. Otherwise I would never get my point across. He finally broke down, perhaps went a little nuts and tried to hit me. It was pretty much as good as over. I slammed him solid. He had a bleed nose. Started crying and ran away. Pathetic.]


Maybe people hurt you and manipulate feelings, cause distrust, and that's when you have to get hard. I hated violence. Now at these moments, I feel like i embrace it. I cannot resist it. So evil...so unpure......and yet I cannot control these things. What use is controlling emotions, manipulating others if you cannot control even the simplest evils........
I'm sorry for breaking out previously hern. This one is for you.

People think when they should act. Or act before thinking. Someday, I am going to have a total understanding of the human mind. Even if my education sucks. Which already does. It's not my fault. I'm never going to get my time of my own, only living as the servant for someone else?
Since it's this way, I can't feel sorry for myself. Only accept it. I hope hern will get over whatever trouble she has. The rest of you guys too. As for me.........
What about me?

Thanks for the offer ms nice...except ..
Ms nice.....is gone. Kinda sad. I don't understand. Why.
My fire burns bright....I feel that the time is now. Time to act.
I was going to write on something else. Really. I kinda thought that I would..until I kinda dropped by hern's blog. Kinda strange, the way life is. It realli is time for me.
Thelast tiem I manipulated someone was 2 weeks ago. Pretty easy actually. You just have to be a very gd actor, a gd emotion controller and very charismatic. Except I don apply for these things. which is why I have a group.
I don understand...don understand............



[ 'My time is waning.' I said coolly. " You don't understand, do you. The situation? You lose, I win. Get outta the way. "
He stared. I had to play the ruthless guy here. Otherwise I would never get my point across. He finally broke down, perhaps went a little nuts and tried to hit me. It was pretty much as good as over. I slammed him solid. He had a bleed nose. Started crying and ran away. Pathetic.]


Maybe people hurt you and manipulate feelings, cause distrust, and that's when you have to get hard. I hated violence. Now at these moments, I feel like i embrace it. I cannot resist it. So evil...so unpure......and yet I cannot control these things. What use is controlling emotions, manipulating others if you cannot control even the simplest evils........
I'm sorry for breaking out previously hern. This one is for you.

People think when they should act. Or act before thinking. Someday, I am going to have a total understanding of the human mind. Even if my education sucks. Which already does. It's not my fault. I'm never going to get my time of my own, only living as the servant for someone else?
Since it's this way, I can't feel sorry for myself. Only accept it. I hope hern will get over whatever trouble she has. The rest of you guys too. As for me.........
What about me?

Aww. Cynthia's birthday is today or not I am also not sure. Don realli care actually. But at least she got a present. Hehheh.
I finally got to meet Jeremy. Jeez. I guess he's a nice guy. I'm not sure whether he's a geek. And since cynthia claims she's not a killer, she can't kill me for my lousy comments.
My apologies, ms nice. Maybe u do look gd in a two piece swimsuit? Hehe. It's not realli that important.
I'm representing the school for bball! I knew I could do it. Yah har. Inter-sch championships.!:)
Yayz. Marcus and most of the guys got in too. But ben and bryan didn't. how strange. Hong kai and jia hui shldn't have gone in...well, Jia hui anyway. He's bastardic. :)
Bball training today sooo exhausting. Crap lor. :( My head is still reeling so I'll make this short.
I keep getting nightmares of amanda tan and jun lately..which is quite stupiid. I still hope to find out who thinks I'm a flirt. Maybe I shld not be troubled over this, but this kind of thing is what I take seriously. Doesn't seem to be Edumund or his fren George and probably not Farin Lord soz...well, I hope I can find out who it is.
SOmetimes I wish someone could teach me the finer things in life. Someone who's intellectually capable, and maybe involved in social etiquette. And hopefully not as gd in bball or as um...gd in plotting and scheming? Heheheh. But i would consider it fortunate to meet someone like that..I just wish, in fact, that I would BE that person! Whoever that would be. :(
I'm kinda hurt now, and discouragedas usual. So I'll make a confession...I have been secretely visiting someone i shouldnt be. I guess I won't relate now.
Hmm...wad to say....that I guess I'm done....
Awwz.....I still miss u./

Ehh. Today a weird thing happened. Harumi and her frens asked me to play bball with them! Sighz. hate them. Lolz/
The other day harumi said that there was no way i was way better than her. So I thrashed all 3 of them by an overhaul. :) Relating to that makes me very happy. Especially since they all pushed me b4 I took a shot. :)
hMMPH/ As far as I know i will never understand the crazy females like harumi .and her fren amanda. bleh* Crazy females. Today sano was not as irritatin thoughz. :)
Hmm..I guess today is relatively gd. I hope I can finish all my sch work..got lots of it...lolz.....
Phew.

Nightmares....come back to haunt me..all the time.
paulo came over from woodlands to play today. He showed me a couple of moves. LOLZ. That fat waikeat kept making fun of me after ilost to paulo 1-1 5 baskets to zero. :( I am starting to think I'm not so gd after all. Wahhhh.......
Hooooeee. I have been secretly spamming someone's blog for fun. Someone who hurt me. But I have decided to be nice and just drop by occasionally, wthout spamming. Ppl have feelings too. If only the person thought like i did. :( I hope tom visits this blog while he is overseas. The HIJACK system, the place i told him, has been overrun. Sad.
Madeline has very nice samurai x pics! Wah seh. Sagara looks damn cool. Then kenshee looks power like that. aoshi action only. Lolz.
Awwz...got lotsa homework to do. But today managed to do a lot of it. Hopefully joel will help me improve my math.. :)
Hmm....oh yahz, someone turned the tables on Farin Lord! Lolz....I never thought someone would have the audacity to do so. But Farin isn't a bad guy. Just a tad mischievious. I wonder wad happened to bortz_rulez?
Hmm...;)...cannot imagine ms nice in a two piece swimsuit. LOLZ. THe other day she post very funny.

Life is so confusing...just wishing I still could see you again....
Someday.

Thanks for your encouragement. :)
I was REALLI going to write on ida and i even remembered and incident...but...I really decided to write on a very sad memory instead. Really.
The poem.
[ It was somewhere in pr4 wen i was still in quite a crazed and distracted mood. What to expect? Within 1 month I already had a fight with daoyuan. Phew.
Mrs leong, my aka mentor now, was asking for volunteers to write a poem and say it on teacher's day. naturally i volunteered, just to take my mind of things. I didn't really know. Ohwell.
So there was avinash raju, subhas, raja, myself and one other guy. Yea. Then the girls were ida, Jia wen, I think boon hwee. I think. THen there was also Junice and another gal. Yea. I think there were eleven of us in total........
Avinash was the leader of the guys. I remember cuz it was the cause in the first place. I forgot who was the leader of the girls.
I worked quite hard on this, mostly together with raja. I like to think the 2 of us contributed the most to this. I even spent nights trying to think of new lines.
Eventually the poem was a ordinary 12 lines long, short and sweet. I figured the rest of this was easy. Read out together on stage, and get it over with. It WAS a nice poem after all. BUt then....
Avinash had a idea. We could sing out the poem and add a tune to it. Mrs leong had said clearly twice NOT to sing the poem. It was a poem after all. But even so, Avinash made out a tune and got the rest of the guys to show it to ms chua. She liked it. But I still persisted in disagreeing. It was all wrong!
The girls liked Avinash's idea, and yelled at me. Most of them anyway. Eventually i confronted Avinash to make a statement. He pushed me aside and cursed me. He drew the line.
I hit him. Hard, but not as hard as i would have liked to. He hit back. Eventually there was a fight, and Jia Wen convieniently went to tell Mrs leong. This was the first, and the only time i would ever be angry with her.
The rest..you can guess! Well, the two of us were drawn aside, and eventually mrs leong called for a vote...the boy with the most votd would stay in, and the other would be kicked out. I was kicked out. Quite brutally actually. I only got 2 voted out of the 11...ida's and raja's. So much for friendship. So much for putting in my best effort. How I wish I could take it back.
It was one of the moment's, even for a second, I hated junice. Maybe she hated me too, but she should have known what was right and wrong. after all, she was the one who taught me. but my mind cancelled that evil thought almost immediately.
After the performance, all the teams that had sung the poem were disqualified. The geps, apparently had decided to go for it too. What hurt me most was their lousy faith in me. I felt rejected, despite doing something right.
It was certainly a hard pain to bear.
I was comforted when Mrs leong scolded the team. She said, ' Maybe i should have listened to Luke after all! ' And boy right she should. But I will not hold it against her now.
From that day on, avinash raju was my enemy. And i still have a score to settle.
Peh.
I guess this memory still haunts me. It is one of the many occasions i have suffered to do something right, and even so, not making a difference. I only remember this because Junice was there, and it hurt so much....
At least jia wen and Ida, as well as subhas and most of the others are now my frens. Maybe It was n't so bad.
Maybe.
I still can't go on like this.

Saw those two idiots again...the ones who called ms ang a sexy babe ( -_- ). Oh well. At least she didn't hear them. Hmm...wonder.......
I wasn't very happy wif ms cheong. Had to put on my best acting job so as not to stay bk for friday's detention...that biased evil crazy old woman! BITCH. Hmmph. I voice my own opinions.
March holidays at last! Cept that I checked calendar and we got NO holiday the whole of april !! Cept for weekends of course. So much for free time. Tomorrow got borin flag day...wahhh!! Which reminds me. Now I can't attend the 6c meetin. Crap. Boo! Suck.
I have not exactly spoken to a lot of ppl lately. That is sad. Especially shion and eugene the exchange students from Japan who stayed over. :(
I guess I hae been quite depressed lately. Now I consider this : Quit. Give up. Sounds great? It depends for what. Fighting? Doing the right thing? All I've ever done for my life is mostly this. It's time...
Looks like I am no more.....?
Peh. I hate my life now. Everything abt it is so detestable. Looking at other people, I wish I could be one of them. No one knows what happens to me actually. Which is why..........
I don't want to be me........I don't want to be me..........

Exam rsults. Result? Crap. I might as well not have tried. Oh well. Can do better next time lah. If there is one. Peh. I hate exams. I hate geography. I hate bio. I HATE chinese!!!!!!!!!!
Played very classy bball today...bet the guys were very impressed. LOL. Jokin. But it's just not my day.
Goin to holland v for dinner. Gtg.
Later.

Exam rsults. Result? Crap. I might as well not have tried. Oh well. Can do better next time lah. If there is one. Peh. I hate exams. I hate geography. I hate bio. I HATE chinese!!!!!!!!!!
Played very classy bball today...bet the guys were very impressed. LOL. Jokin. But it's just not my day.
Goin to holland v for dinner. Gtg.
Later.

Phew. I'd rather not write on Ida right now. Just not in the mood. Realli......
Ohwee....had nightmares yesterday. Bt who else? Guess. I get the feeling that this is really infuriating. Pity I happen to be Luke Ho.
Which reminds me. I was finally able to set up a final new M.I league. Now there are 26 ppl from all over the different sec 1 classes. Pity not so many cases on nowadays. Nothing to do...borin......wahhhhh!
I am quite sad actually. I nearly died today when I ran 1km in 3. 45 min and 1.5km in 5.45. I guess it's not that great, but best in class! Ah well. Ppl have diff. opinions.
Later.

I forgot that i wrote my blog page on ms ang's paper for ben. I can only hope that she does not decide to look at this. Hmm.
I was continueing from earlier, and maybe I shld relate to a past incident!
[ It was sometime in Pr 6 when I was still engaged in HiJack. Evrything seemed clear then...
After school, Bryan went up to me. He asked for protection. I was 100% sure Iwould turn him down...but well...In the end, it turns out he annoyed YiLe and subhas again. So it started this way. Two on two fighting. After school. This was definetely not my idea of fun, but as leader of M.I, i just had to. My duty, my responsibility. As usual. Crap.
We did have a fight afterwards. Naturally Bryan ran for his life, and i had to take Subhas and Yi Le on my own. Obviously I fought well. In the end we discovered how silly it was. Bryan was let off with a warning. Phew.. I was lucky not to get beaten badly. Or to injure anyone. Heh.
Worse, the group of 4 were hitting that kid at the table tennis table. Great.
aww...shucks. Got no time to brag liao. Actually i shld be seriously. Will write on ida tomorrow.
Nite ppl!

Samurai X rox!! Okay.
Macus and nicholas came over today. We were very tempted to prank call harumi but decided against it. Rats.
I can't study properly! My bball sux! Oh sheesh. Now got to start planning liao. Math no longer 100% .Today is just not my day.
Ah well. MArcus nearly blabbered to the whole class that I like Lynette, which is obviously not totally true.

Xi Min scared me today. I mean, she was as nice and sweet as ever...but she really got scared by that guy. Reminds me of the time Justin went berserk and scared harumi. That was my second fight.
She cried...and when she did it felt something had pierced through me. Unusual. It hasn't applied, not even for junice. .....
Oh...recently i got into a fight when some idiot littered in front of me and his drink spilled on me. I wanted to corner him, but just gave him a fierce glance. He looked like he wanted to fight, but he backed out. I think he knows me! Wahahahaha. Guess i'm famed after all. Though..hmm...come to think of it, it's not so gd. at least he threw the drink carton away. Yea.
Ohweee......I forgot cynthia was visiting this blog! AhHH!! No one cept' marcus is supposed to know. Gd thing a lot of ppl don see this blog. I must realli cancel on ms ang. Hm...I wonder if Xi Min's ok.
Rats...soo tired after c.g..gtg soon...
oh, 1 last thing is that the stupid flag day prevents me from seeing Xi Min one extra day. Crap. And I haven't confirmed whether subhas will invite me to his party, and whether the 6c meeting is on, and got bball extra pratice on friday...stupid thing...and maybe another fight...and plenty of holiday homework.........
Crap. It's going to be a very lousy last week of the term.
Wish I cld tell u i luv u.....

i wonder who the person who called me a flirt is?! If it's jun or Xi Min, then I just cancelled my past or my future. and hopefully someone will run me down with a truck. Otherwise if it is cynthia or some idiot spammmer then I don reallly care. Crap.
Oh well. I've been excelling in bball lately! Hopefully the coach will choose me for starting 5. And besides..I'm planning to try and use my cca to get me into a gd jc ONLY IF I can't use my academic results to go there in the first place.Oh ya...I failed bio science. hehheh. Our teacher sux, but lately she's better. Maybe our form teacher told her we all think she's a bitch. Maybe. ;)
got some activities later on in the week...and this week is the LAST WEEK of the term! Next week march holidays. HOORAY. everyone at home cld use a break, though..1. Mum and Dad can't get one. Besides, even if we offered they probably wouldn't anyway.2. Joel is overstressed and his work is overrated. He's worked since afternoon today. Mum thinks he's hardworking. Rach thinks he's smart. I think he's crazy. But the rest of the stuff is true.3. LOADS OF HOLIDAY HOMEWORK! crap. Why they use the word holiday to be associated wif homework i also don know. Stupid thing. Gd thing ms ang was kind enough to tell us in advance.
Wahhh....I hate sch. But u just have to livve life.

Okay. I already have gone mad, insane, because of Miss Ang!! nOOOO! I can't control anything now! I can never ever ever decide.......who I like more!!
OKay..I'm siao already...........wwahhhhh!!! :( I feel like crying. THis can't be happening....not so soon after jun! cough* .....OH no................wahhhh!!!!!!!!!!1
Crap. I am practically dying liao. Everytime I feel so crazy over her....dyin in my head liao. I can only hope she doesn't know.......
Today I blushed in front of her. Come to think of it.....since jun last year I haven't blushed. In fact, I converted from alter to myself without trying! This is bad cuz i might lose some control...oh...better her than........
missing from myself....

Luke Ho
15 Years Old
15/02/1992
New Town Secondary School
Basketballer

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