Manipulate!

// Monday, October 27, 2008 4:10 PM

It's scary how history keeps repeating itself again and again.

And once it starts all I can do is just to shut my eyes and delude myself into believing that I am thinking too much and to give everything some time and soon soon, it will be gone.

I want to be the one thinking too much. But yet..

On the very bright side, I lost my phone but a very nice person at IKEA gave it back to me. OMG! So, to the person who found the silver-blueish k850i phone, you are the best and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! =D

If it wasn't for the other half, I don't think I would know what I would do. Probably break down and cry. Just like always...

Anyway, to sum up the last few days... The loonnnggg weekend was just simply heavenly..

Except for this -The other women in the other half's life.

Powerwalking with the friends is da love!

I nvr wanna hear the words, " It's ONLLYYY 2 bus stop away" ever. Anyways, look at Angela's muscular hands! It's like she walked on her hands for the whole journey!

This just cracked me up. HAHAHAHA !!

Ultra cute photo of the sample starbucks coffee

Ultra cute photo of the BF! =D

Annnddd....

Sweet sweet love~ Heh heh!

Situation Breakdown

// Thursday, October 23, 2008 10:49 PM

=(

My eyes are still smarting and the cramps just won't give up ( Vivi says it's the uterus squeezing the blood out.) but still nothing hurts more then that.

Somehow, tears seem to aggravate the eyes so I guess sleep is the only way out.

Except that for the second night in a roll, bed is the sofa couch cause the bedsheets are still being washed and dried.

=(=(=(=(

Oh yes I am uber miserable. =(

// Wednesday, October 22, 2008 2:40 PM

As the com says, someone loves me and I love someone back.

And I am uber tired. I wanna sleep but the tables of 2044 are awfully hard. =(

// Wednesday, October 15, 2008 10:57 PM

Today is freebies day. <3

Thinking back to the music lesson days.

You guys made me feel like part of the family for once. And for 3 hours each week I could be away from them all and into the family that I love.

No humanities focal studies. OMG! <3

I wish I could go back...

/edit: Omg, we are now ALL attacted. <3 We have really grown!

// Monday, October 13, 2008 10:56 PM

School isn't half as bad. Somehow the people there makes it btr.

Hello PeiLing, I LOVE YOU~ =D

Anyway, go to sch and make me feel btr okay. <3

Btw, FREE shampoo samples @ http://www.pantenemiracle.com <3

And I wonder...

// Friday, October 10, 2008 10:41 PM

School is starting and I'm still lost. Can I actually stay true to myself and still get my diploma with merit?

Let's face it, you might love your song and all, your classmates may like it but they don't get to grade it.

I guess it's the same as the outside world, no? Sometimes to survive, we just have to commercialize ourselves. A great example? Avenged Sevenfold ( which I heart hearts now btw)

Passion? What is passion if it can't feed you? What is passion if you can't make it? What is passion when you find out that you did your best but still didn't make it in the end?

When it comes to the crunch, what is it that you will choose in the end? Your pride and passion or food to feed your family?

Clinche as it sounds, sometimes love just isn't enough...

// Wednesday, October 08, 2008 3:59 AM

Somehow this song always reminds me of you.

Of how we sat in the swing at 12 under the hot sun just because that stupid club was playing this song. Of how you spammed my ibook with Eric Clapton songs in ChangChun. Or of you just singing or humming along to it everytime it pops out on the playlist.

Happy 99th my dear. We'll make it to the 999th and even the 9999th~

<3

// Sunday, October 05, 2008 11:05 AM

Dear (friend?)

Please don't make it seem like we're the ones ostracizing you (oh, maybe we are) because Hidhir doesn't come from the same institution as us and, the last time I checked, he had a lot of things to say.

Perhaps you should look in the mirror and wonder why we no longer have anything to say. Maybe it's because you never bothered to say a word of concern when I was alone in China? Or maybe it's because you actually would ps your (and I quote from you) "close friend"'s birthday party for a (free!) concert. Oh, and the so many instances that if I were to list out would take me a century and a half.

As it seems, a 6 yr long friendship is < FREE concert

So where does that leave us now?

Dancing and singing is your life and in your quest for recognition and the what-nots you went on without us.

As an OCFBNN2S (once close friend but now nothing to say) I really hope you find whatever that you are looking for - not because you deserve it but for your mum and (esp) your dad. They make me believe that a parents' love is indeed unrivaled.

You'll probably emo after reading this (if you even do and understand) but if it makes you a better person (even though it will only last max 5 months) I'll be happy enough.

Just remember -The things you leave behind for too long? Yeah, it won't be there anymore when you look back.

Friends for life? LOL. That's our phrase, not yours.

P.s: Karma goes full circle. I doubt you understand what I am talking about but just remember.

// Friday, October 03, 2008 5:04 PM

Heh heh, I keep going to Zhenny's blog because of...

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many days in a year
She woke up with hope, but she only found tears?
And I can be so insincere,
Making her promises, never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes
And how many days disappear
when You look in the mirror, so how do you choose?

Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way,
You never seem to run out of things to say...

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
and while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her
When she smiles...

And how many lovers would stay
Just to put up with this shit day after day?
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say.
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose
How do we get there today,
When we're walking too far for the price of our shoes?

Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way,
You never seem to run out of things to say...

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
and while she looked so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her
When she smiles...

And your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And you hair never falls in quite the same way,
But you never seem to run out of things to say....

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a girl,
Her pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looked so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her,

This is the the story of a -- girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her
When she smiles...
When she smiles...

Can't write songs. =(

// Wednesday, October 01, 2008 10:02 AM

Still thinking bout the movie and wondering... What is love really all about?

爱情是永有, 放弃还是守护?

Funny how a liao zhai show can make you think so much...

Anyway, obsessed over this song again, it's the only song that I can loop over and over again and not feel sian. It's funny how I can do this for RJA songs but never for Secondhand Serenade. Hearts hearts RJA! =D