// Thursday, July 31, 2008 7:50 PM

Thinking thinking...

Have I done what I promised to do? I really don't know...

I wonder how POD and other stuffies will turn out.. =(

// Wednesday, July 30, 2008 6:05 PM

AWWWWW...

=) And my idollll... One day I'll sing as well as her.. HEHEH

// 12:34 AM

( Taken from Alex's blog) Meaningful lo!

A teacher told each of her students to bring a clear plastic bag and a sack of potatoes to school.
The teacher suggested to her pupils that for every person they had refused to forgive in their life's experience, they were to take a potato, and write on it the name and date, and put it in the plastic bag.

The teacher then told each of her students to carry this bag with them over their shoulders and on their backs everywhere they went for one week -- keeping the bag next to them at all times even beside their beds at night and by their desk throughout the school day, basically 24-hours a day!!!
Some of her students complained that the plastic bags were too heavy to lug around.

The hassle of physically lugging these heavy plastic bags around with them made it clear to the students what their teacher was trying to convey to them about the value of friendship and forgiveness. The students realised what a weight they were carrying spiritually!

This is a great metaphor for the price we pay for keeping our pain and heavy negativity! Too often we think of forgiveness as a gift to the other person, but it clearly is for ourselves.

Of all the things we can give other people in life, forgiveness is one of those that require the most effort. This phrase seems to make the process of forgiving easier for me: "To bear a grudge against someone is like burning down your house to get rid of a rat."

Forgiveness is something we "give other people", but forgiveness, really, is a gift to ourselves. When we wreak vengeance on people whom we think have done us an injustice, we invariably end up bitter and resentful. Worse still, if our vindictiveness provokes retaliation, we might start a cycle of vengeance. And when you bear hatred within your heart, what you're essentially doing is destroying your own state of mind and potential to be happy.

Each day yields opportunities for us to let go of or hold on to grudges, although the severity of each situation may vary.

Are you better off holding on to them, or letting go?

Ahs wells, it's tiring to be damn kei kao over everything. Since what's done is done, I guess all I can do is TRYY to forgive and yeah...

Let's hope that the good karma would equate good grades!! =D

// Tuesday, July 29, 2008 9:49 AM

Yes yes, so I'm supposed to do work buttttttt...

You Are a Strawberry

You are friendly, outgoing, and well liked by many people.

You are popular, but there's nothing you ordinary or average about you.

You a very interesting person, and you have many facets to your personality.

Sometimes you feel very conflicted. Your different sides of your personality pull at you.

You are a very sensual and passionate person. You are fiery... you can't help it.

In general, you keep your passionate side under wraps. You are only wild in private.

What Type of Fruit Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Personality at 35,000 Says...

Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking.

You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are.

Your gift is dreaming and imagining. You can take yourself to another world anytime you feel like it.

You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you.

It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

The Personality Test at 35,000 Feet

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility.

Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships.

Whoever you love should be your best friend.

And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question.

Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you

Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

What Is Your Love Based On?

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)

You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.

You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.

In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.

Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

Annndd the horror!!

You Are 48% Girly

You're a little girly, a little boyish, and probably a whole lot indie.

You have your own unique style, and it pretty much defies gender lines.

How Girly Are You?

This cannot be! I'm the most girly girl around!!!!!

Gemini - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

Your lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go.

You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire.

You're adaptable enough to flirt with anyone - and people tend to fight over you.

Your negative traits:

You get easily bored in relationships, and tend to jump from person to person.

You tend to be a bit of a player - and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships.

Not the most empathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems.

Your ideal partner:

Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested.

Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave.

An open minded person, who's willing to have a non-traditional relationship.

Your dating style:

Exciting. If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you're very happy.

Your seduction style:

Experimental: it's rare that you try the same thing twice.

Ultra kinky - you do stuff that's not even in books yet.

Hot and cold... sometimes you're just not into the whole sex thing.

Tips for the future:

Settle down a little. Sometimes good things come with time - so don't let people go so fast.

Acknowledge that you're a player and flirt. If your mate can't live with this, find someone who can.

Give your partner a little more attention. You don't have to be a social butterfly all the time.

Best color to attract mate: Sunny yellow

Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul.

Brainy and intelligent, you are intellectual to the point of being incomprehensible.

Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

Okay okayyy... back to work! =D

// 1:19 AM

How do you make people who are out of tune sound in tune?? =(

Yes, hello Stan, I'm doing your song now... Honoured?? =D

I really feel like sleeping but when i think about the MOUNTAIINNN load of things to do. Sleep just miraculously flies away. =(

On a flip and totally random side, NO VIOLIN TODAY! YIPPEE! <3<3<3

// Sunday, July 27, 2008 2:25 PM

One of the most bimbotic songs ever... But am damn hooked on it ever since ST sung it to me yesterday...

I want fabulous,
That is my simple request,
All things fabulous,
Bigger and better and best,
I need something inspiring to help me get along,
I need a little fabulous is that so wrong?

Yup, you're fabulous =)

// Wednesday, July 23, 2008 11:19 PM

When Rachel asked why I am always so optimistic I nearly fell off my chair.

If only you can hear the thoughts in my mind now.

I am not an optimist. I guess I just try to not think so much of what sucks and focus on what keeps me sane.

=)

Through the years~

// Tuesday, July 22, 2008 10:26 PM

HEHEH, I just realised that I have TONS of DMAT photos

This was us in year one...

Retarded photo of the boys.

Two of the prettiest girls in class. Still are btw...

Ahhhhh, Azlan... What can I say?? =)=)=)

Moving on to year 2...

Happy Racial Harmony Day!

Happy Birthday!

Happy Cheryl!

But of course, The happiest photo of Cheryl would be...

Yes, Cheryl + SOCCER ball= Happy!

As for Amanda...

Yeah... I guess we ALL know what makes Amanda happy...

Kinda miss those days with Amanda. If she was around now, everything would be much much livelier.

And now Wan Yee's gone too.

Probably the last class photo with Amanda inside... =( Btw, Vivi looks damn different lah! LOL

I guess most of us are tired of this course and can't wait to get out le. But I guess, when that day comes, or somewhere after that day, we will all remember the times we shared and, hopefully, we'll smile.

There are so many things we shared and weathered together. Good, bad... But I guess I am much better off here then in JC.

Still going through the photos. They all make me smile in spite of all the shitty assignments I have to do.

We'll make it through... =)

/edit

I know you all want this... =)

// Sunday, July 20, 2008 8:12 PM

In the words of Ginny...

一但拥有了,就会有失去的一天.最后还是回到了原点,回到了当初的我.唯一不同的是,心巳伤痕累累.

The same old fear is coming back to haunt me again.

I don't understand.. Should we be looked up upon for believing even though we know it just opens us to more hurt or are we just stupid?

I think I'm falling deeper and deeper and I'm scared. If in the end, this all turns out to be a dream, I don't know what I'll do. =(

And I think humans are weird lo. You can try your best to be a good friend by telling them everything but in the end it will backfire and so much shit happens.

On the other hand, there's this one person that you probably didn't know too much of who thinks the world of you and somehow, makes you feel that the world is much much warmer after all.

I guess you win some and lose some.

Maybe it;s time to see what I should see.

Scared. =(

// Wednesday, July 16, 2008 10:27 PM

Happy birthday Daddy and Sam! =)

Sometimes you realised that the older we grow, the more immature we become but ahs wells...

And I'll stand by you no matter what. =)

// Monday, July 14, 2008 1:45 AM

There's something I would like to say.

If there's anything that you don't like about me and the boy then please tell me.

Cuz if you find me turning into the very person I promised not to become, I do need people to tell me and preferably slap me out of it.

If you find that there's something wrong with him and such, just say it out cuz I and you would feel better about it.

I'll try and accept the other halves in your life and you'll have to try and accept mine.

I might not accept everything that you all say about him but I will listen to everything. Or at least I'll try.

Just know that I value all of you guys and none of you are of less importance then him.

We made a pact to keep our friends and we will. =)

Was planning to blog about my wonderful friend SQ but I was just to pissed to do so.

Maybe what the boy, the bro and the good friend said is right.

It's time to keep these emotions in check before they consume everything. Maybe one day we'll laugh over it as I thought we could do. Maybe I'm just making a big deal over nothing.

But whatever it is, I don't know if what I believed in is right anymore...

// Sunday, July 13, 2008 11:10 PM

Argh! Embarrassing embarrassing!!

Do not believe whatever is said in Stan and co's blog. NONSENSEE!!!!

Anyway, all I wanna say for today is this...

If you think I've said too much then forget it. Frankly speaking I cannot wait for you to put your hands tightly in his and say, in ten years time, "See Jo, you were wrong and I was right all along."

Frankly everytime I see you getting hurt my resolve in love falls. I admire your spirit. I frankly think that you are very brave for believing in love even though relationship after relationship failed.

But everytime you get into a new relationship I fear. I fear that the ending will always be the same. You crying and me not knowing what to say.

I don't want it to be like that this time.

I thought our friendship would be one that would be deep enough for you to understand that that was where I was coming from but it seems that it wasn't and I misjudged everything.

For that I apologise.

If I wasn't clear enough that day then let me make it clear now.

He's your bf and there's nothing that I can do about it. And if he's the one that can give you the happiness that you want, then I really, from the bottom of my heart, will give you all the blessings that I can.

Hopefully, in the years to come you will say that I was wrong all along and trust me, that would be the best thing that I was ever wrong about. In fact I'll probably hug him and apologise for everything.

P.s: And, just so you know... I can't remember faces. But I'll try and remember his now okay... So that I can wave to him when he's around.

Hai, the things you do for your baby's baby...

// 12:37 AM

=)

" You must like him enough for him to be your husband..."

PeiLing never fails to amaze lo. HAHAH! Didn;t know that such words will actually come out from her mouth.

And well, I didn't get to see the movie. But at least I got to eat sushi with him =)

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Chorus:
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Chorus:
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I’m just rollin’ home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

I just like the fact that I can sit down and talk to you about everything and anything. =) You might not be as handsome as Donghae or TEIGOSHIII but... <3

// Thursday, July 10, 2008 2:04 PM

I'm starting to believe that the shuay-est human beings are always the happiest.

Why? Lemme tell you a story..

There was this girl who went to the MRT to go to school. If she were to miss the train she would definately be late for class. On the way she decided to get some food for her BFFs, so she went to Q Bread and picked hot dogs and walnut bread. When she was about to pay, she felt about in her bag and realised...

" OMFGBBQWTH! WHERE'S MY WALLET?!"

So she made a biiigggg detour back home and tried in vain to search for the wallet.

She searched high and low and low and high but that BLOODY wallet was nowhere to be found!

When she finally decided that, hey, nvm, we'll just get a standard issue card and get the hell to school. She looked out of the window.

"&**(@&#*(!*#((!! RAINING!"

So now she's stuck at home typing this entry. Highly amusing seeing as she had lectured her dear friend PL on missing REMT lessons.

The irony of life.

P.s:It;s okay I'm not sucidal yet. I am doubling up in laughter as I type this. WHO CAN BE SO SHUAY ONE?! LOLOL! And, that's not the worse... My headphones are getting wonky. Just at the time when i have to mix the song.

Sometimes i wonder if God hates me and why. But ahs wells, at least I have the rest of you all. =D

// Wednesday, July 09, 2008 9:31 PM

1 Please live patiently with me.
2 Please believe in me. Just doing that makes me happy.
3 Please don't forget that I have feelings.
4 There's a reason when I don't listen to you.
5 Please talk a lot to me. I can't speak human, but I understand.
6 Please don't hit me. Don't forget that I'm stronger when we fight.
7 Let's get along even when I get older.
8 I can only live about ten years. So please spend a lot of time with me.
9 You have school and friends. But I only have you.
10 When I die, please, stay by my side. And please remember. That I loved you my whole life.

Omg, I'm already crying when I watch the trailer. Think I will brawl at the cinema lo.

Think I;m at the verge of a breakdown le. I don't think I wanna do this anymore.

// Tuesday, July 08, 2008 11:37 PM

Was doing the presentation for the OITP brieing just now.

Saw all the pictures that we all took together and smiled.

It's weird that it was only 5 months ago. 5 months ago, I was stress free and happy with all of you all beside me.

Now school is...

If only I can return to those days again...

// 10:39 AM

Reason why sch is still worth going too...

And of cuz...

The best reason of all... =)

My Finale

// Monday, July 07, 2008 10:22 PM

._.

I think Vera and gang are starting to worry bout my sanity.

I take one look at Finale and I just cannot stop laughing. Looking at it gives me like 100829 reasons why Death looks more and more appealing each day.

Okay lah, may not THAT kua zhang but still...

Com Tech asked if they needed help transporting me to IMH. They said that me going there was loonnnggg overdued.

Idiots! ><

And I don't understand why we love to complicate things so much. Everything jian jian dan dan is already good enough lo.

It;s weird that I think too much on the things that shouldn;t and think too lil on things that should be given more thought...

And have I said before? I love my new friend. =)

// 8:07 AM

我想就这样牵着
你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单
没有伤害

=)

Happy happy~

// Sunday, July 06, 2008 9:56 AM

Dear God of Music,

Please bless me with some form of inspiration or I will never be done with the song.

It's really sad to just be staring at it for the past 3 days and having no output at all. =(

And I think I will have to be mindful of what I say around people. Darn darn darn. Keep having the habit of saying wrong stuff. =(

// Saturday, July 05, 2008 2:41 PM

Heh, it was only on the phone to XY that I realised one thing.

The palm reader from year one was right on both accounts.

Freaky freaky.

And yet, it's also slightly amusing. Heh heh heh...

Seems like we're just meant to be. =)

And yah, I gave ST the permission to slap me if you guys think that I'm turning into another her, so, scold me if anything happens okay. =)

<3

Off to being the free baby sitter. =(

// Friday, July 04, 2008 11:03 PM

Stan and I were supposed to meet at home and, over the game of mahjong, discuss bout the song...

We both ended up K-Oed on the couch. LOLOL!

He is like 10x times more jia lat then me lo. At least the phone woke me up. No amount of shouting, kicking and pillow throwing could wake him up.

I pity his future wife lo. =P

And and and... =)

That was probably the best 45 mins long train ride ever. =)

// Thursday, July 03, 2008 10:31 PM

MMMM, the best snack in the world.

Even lifts a very depressed Joanne into heaven =)

// Wednesday, July 02, 2008 11:40 PM

It's only at then end of a fight that you realise that some things are just not worth fighting over.

Maybe what Cheryl said is right, by competing against her and dressing up, I'm just becoming another her.

Ahs wells... At least I make a prettier her then her. =)

And what ST said is LOL! " She sit down reveal butt crack, stand up reveal underwear." Nope nope nope. Can't be like her.

Happy happy. =)

// Tuesday, July 01, 2008 10:32 PM

Awww, poor Zhenny. =(

My boy's not gonna be attached as soon as I hoped. Heh, my dad was threatening to call up the girl and scream at her for him.

I think he should change his surname to Wong soon!

I guess what YG say is right, better to have done something then nothing at all. So, I'll start doing my part now okay...

And and and, I saw the most beautiful sunset with Ginny today on the MRT. I just don't understand why no one cared. I was like WOAH WOAH WOAH, jabs at the door but the others were just ._.

=(

And yes I'll try and reduce my swearing rate for ST's sake. She was close to strangling me by my 5th swear word.

Ang Moh guys tmr. We'll see what magic she'll cook up. =)

Btw...

June 16 Birthday Astrology

Enthusiasm and a genuine curiosity about life mark the personalities of Geminis born June 16. They have the ability to rise to any social occasion and make exceptionally fine hosts and hostesses. They are perceptive, bright, and as interested in those around them as in their own concerns.

Gemini Information
for June 16
You should embrace: The wisdom of time, happy memories, being yourself

You should avoid: Manipulative people, going to extremes, bickering

Friends and Lovers

June 16 natives have no problem making friends. They are usually the most popular in their set. Although love can be a rocky road, they make loving, loyal mates who know how to keep romance alive.

Children and Family

Anxious to maintain family ties, June 16 natives are likely to act as people-pleasers long after that role is necessary. With their own children, they make strict but affectionate parents, eager to present the best possible example to their youngsters.

Health

June 16 individuals have considerable nervous energy and need to channel it. Since they tend to make food choices out of convenience, it's important they augment their diet with vitamins and other supplements. Excitable by nature, people born on this date should stay away from caffeine.

Career and Finances

Talkative and intelligent, June 16 people are happiest when pursuing careers related to the written or spoken word. Cavalier about money, they may seem spendthrift but possess a keen money sense.

Dreams and Goals

June 16 natives prefer spontaneity and are often reluctant to plot a course of action. They enjoy taking each day as it comes, knowing that it brings them one step closer to a cherished dream.

True true?

// 1:42 AM

I think I'm letting go of what I should be fighting for and fighting for what should not be fought against.

I don't know if what I'm doing is right.

I'm scared that I can't be the best that I should be.

I;m starting to not care about my grades. Let it spiral down. Kick me out of school okay??

I don't want to see you guys so stressed.

I want 2044 to be filled with happiness.

I want to be filled with courage.

Gonna camp again today.

I pray for our sanity.