Manipulate!

// Sunday, March 30, 2008 12:55 AM

Msn keeps dying on me.

Hotmail doesn't wanna let me in.

They say Erica sent a mail, but till now I still dunno what the heck it was about.

I think now I understand why a long distance relationship can't work.

To make things worse, I;ve lost my phone. No ways to contact me now ehh. =)

If only they had broadband...

Anyways, Bastie says that the network has a virus going on, so it means that EVERYONE's com is infected again. ><

Okayy, so I promised someone that this would be a happy post, so...

In spite of all the things I said, I;m glad that i came here. I now know that if I ever have a bf in NS, I'll definately break up with him. LDR isn't my kinda thing... (opps, not exactly happy ehh)

But to see how some managed to carry on their relationship in spite of the 4000 miles between them does give a warm fuzzy feeling in one's heart. =)

I hope you guys like whatever I brought for you. Even if you dun like it, just lie to me and tell me that you like it okay..

<3 you guys!

// Thursday, March 27, 2008 7:29 PM

It's taken so long to get it right
Could it be so wrong
To maybe find someone
A miracle

If I'm gonna protect you, who's going to protect me? Where's my kryptonite when I need one?

But then again, when I see how love brings out the worse in everyone...

Late night, come home...
Work sucks
I know

I miss those days...

// 12:44 AM

What do you want me to do?

Protection is one thing that I can no longer offer- This is your own battle.

You're so strong and yet, you're so weak.

I don't know what to think anymore.

// Saturday, March 15, 2008 11:39 PM

It was a waste of my weekend but hearing the voices of thy loves makes it 1 million times better.

I;ll try to call again next time okay, till then, you guys btr miss me!

Annd BaobeiS, I love you ALL so much.

Hooked on Hana Yori Dango again.. BAH! Luckily China doesn;t block Crunchyroll, or I will be BORED STIFF! =(

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

tomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten de
shuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsu
ato ippo ga fumidasenai sei de
jirettai no wa nande?

arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

amai dake no sasoi monku ajike no nai doku
sonna mono ni wa kyoumi wa sosorarenai
omoitoori ni ikanai toki datte
jinsei suteta mon janai tte

doushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to "uun. nandemo nai"
sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunai
sinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai
"aishiteru yo" yori mo "daisuki" no hou ga kimi rashii janai?
The flavor of life

wasurekakete ita hito no omoi wo totsuzen omoidasu koro
furitsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yo

daiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana mirai
teni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai
"arigatou" to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness.
The flavor of life

Stuck midpoint between friends and lovers,
like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
because of being unable to just move one more step forward
what’s causing this frustration baby

When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
it sparks no interest in me
even when things do not go the way you want
it doesnt mean you’ve thrown your life away

When asked ‘ whats wrong?’
I answer ‘its nothing’
The smile that disappears after goodbye
It’s unlike me

The more i wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
‘i like you a lot’ instead of ‘i love you’ sounds more like you
the flavor of life

the period when you suddenly remember the scent of someone you had almost forgotten
I want to be able to openly and honestly cherish the white purity of the falling snow more

A future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, i want to spend it with you

when you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesnt
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness
The flavor of life

Happy early bday Grandma.

Happy early birthday my lovely love!

I hope you guys had fun.

I love you! =)

// Friday, March 14, 2008 8:52 AM

I saw this from a person's nick..

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they've got.

So true isn't it? =)

// Friday, March 07, 2008 11:35 PM

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another airplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

By the way, is Hidhir still alive? Haven heard A SINGLE WORD from him so far. Before i start throwung darts at his photo, he BTR send some email. =)

// Thursday, March 06, 2008 7:28 PM

Even amongst the vast amount of human beings, it's still so silent.

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

It's just me and the music now.

// Wednesday, March 05, 2008 7:20 PM

Sometimes at night, it's so quiet that you really can hear a pin drop.

The silence here is unbearable at times. It's hard to know that the rents and the sisters are not just 42 km away. Hard to believe that I actually survived so long without normal food or mahjong without any of the besties.

I miss you guys. Hope you guys miss me too.

"Last Flight Out"

I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[c h o r u s]
I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I'm afraid that
You will leave
As my secrets
Have been revealed
In my dreams
You'll always stay
Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[c h o r u s]

I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more

[c h o r u s]

Can you guys fly here? Please?