Jinmeri
// Tuesday, January 17, 2006 3:59 PM
Who am i trying to kid?
Really confused right now; but who would understand? I really don't know why can't life just revert back to the good old days. Back to when everything was simple and clear cut.
I just wish for a simple life. One without bitchiness, inane gossips, senseless backstabbing and boring lecturers. Is it really that hard?
I just want to find a place that I belong. One in which i don't feel unwelcomed nor feel lost in the thousands of faces.
I mean, even with the CT thingy, I still feel.. I don't know.. Weird. It just shows you what a failure the system is. Then again, perhaps it shows you how insociable I am.
Don't get me wrong.. The people there are really nice. But..
Somehow, i just feel so odd in there. The people there are just simply too different. And the lectures are simply too boring. Thus, I've decided..
If the rainy season is over and if Shruthi has settled down nicely, I'll leave Pj. That way, I won't feel like I'm abandoning her. I'm not really worried bout the peeps in og16. I'm sure they'll be happier without me. ^^
Friday. 20th Jan. The day when I'll be free. I'll be waiting.
Sai!!
// Thursday, January 12, 2006 9:32 PM
I am so freaking scared. I so don't wanna go to school and i really have nuthin to say to my OG.
And people still dare say I'm the sociable one.
I'm so not. I only can say "Hi" to people I don't know at all because I have a friend beside me
Strip me of my friend and I'll be so damn quiet that you wun even notice me.
I know it's stupid to be so dependant on them but...
I can't help it okay. I go to school afraid that if i fall down, no one will laugh with me and help me up. I am freaked that I'll die in school and no one will notice my abscence. I don't even know if anyone will come and comfort me when i have my monthly cramps!
I hate having to start all over again with on one at all.
No Stan, no Zh, no Xiangyi, no Hidhir and not even Colin.
Heck, I don't mean to be mean or cynical, but i dun even know if my OG groupmates are gonna be with me anot. I mean, ya, we're friends and such, but how long will this go on? Seriously, we are so different and the only thing that keeps us together is that we have no one else to be with.
Okay.. that's unfair and not very true but..
When they find someone else, I doubt OG lunching will be a daily affair. It's a sad fact in life but i guess it's true. I really hate it.
It's already hard enough for me to make friends and Pj is not helping. Darn.
Confusion, confusion. Really must play the electone to destress..
Wat? Again??!!
// 5:04 PM
I have been posted to a new class. And I really mean new. There's not a single familar face at all. I seriously cannot believe that I'll have to re-orientate myself all over again. Me is very upset.
WHY IN THE WORLD MUST THEY DO THIS TO ME??!!
I feel so depressed man. It freaking took me so long to finally hang out with OG16 and now... The thought of going thru everything again stinks to the high heavens.
Feel so odd.. I guess I'll never fit in ba. I mean, what if it's another 4/7. I worked and prayed my ass out to leave 4/7. Going back to a class like that would be so totally blah. ARG!!!
Please let there be some enthu ppl in class. Or someone mad. Please let it be like 1/8. If it's not...
Urg.. I don't even wanna go there..
ARGXX~
// Wednesday, January 11, 2006 10:18 AM
I am still undecided. Should I continue to stay on at Pj or should I join everyone else in slacking?
I mean, after Feb 15, i wun ever get the chance to slack anymore. Like what Mel said, now's the best chance to slack! However, I don't like the feeling of being a bum. I mean, you see everyone contributing in one way or another to the society and you, just contributing to the electricity bills.
But the thought of doing homework and listening to lectures is just so blah. Can you imagine doing GP? Oh god. The mere thought of listening to yet another Econs lecture isn't very pleasurable loh.
Gah. Why in the first bloody place must they have a first 3 mth thingy anyway?
Thinking.. Thinking..
Should I?
Orientation
// Saturday, January 07, 2006 2:33 PM
It's gonna be over!! Yesh! Just have to tong till Monday and I'll be gone frm Pjc =)
Hmm.. thinking of how to escape from the games on Monday. Praying that I'll have a slight flu cause flu=cannot get cold= cannot get wet= no wet games!!YAY! Hmmm.. Or should i tell them that the painters are in and thus, I cannot play wet games.
Looking forward to dressing Ivan up. Hope that SockHong has made the pretty bikini le. This is gonna be amusing.^^
I gues there shd be a song session on Monday. You know what that means... WEISHENG!! WOOHOO.. Go Keala. wo yong yuan zi chi ni! Gonna try and stalk ask him for his picture. WEISHENG!!!
Eugene is not bad as well. Come to think of it, MingJie and John also not bad.. Muahahaha!! Hottie heaven, here i come^^
Hmm... must take photo of ALL the OGLs on Monday. Esp of you-know-who^^.. See if i can snap some of Pris' as well. Wanna try and photoshop her pix^^
Just a mnth and 3 days more to the release of O lvl results. Must enjoy before it's too late..
jc? YUCK!
// Tuesday, January 03, 2006 6:00 PM
Well, if you're a sec 4 student now and, if you can, is planning to go for the 3 month PAE. please don't go to sch on the first day. IT IS SO FREAKING BORING!
Don't think that i wanna stay on in Jc anymore. Can't mix with the people there. Moreover, my main purpose for JC is to move on to Pharmacy. However, i was rudely informed that, unlike what my sec sch teachers told me, i am NOT eligable for bio. WTF! Then how am I gonna go to NUS?
What am I going to do in JC? What goal am i gonna strive for? What faculty can i go to? They dun even have freaking music.
If that's the case, i rather go poly. At the very least, they have pharmaceutical science, new media etc. Much, much more interesting than history, geog or maths.
yawns. JC is so totally not the life fr me.. =)
^^
// Sunday, January 01, 2006 12:07 AM
Well, the end of the year sucks. No gatherings, no friends and no fireworks. =(
On the flip side, i got a new hairstyle^^!! Yippee!! (Btw,I'm listening to Fann Wong slaughtering "Eyes On Me" now. YUCK!)
Now, for the resolutions...
1) try to update my bog everyday so that Zh will not have to maple all day^^
2) achieve 3rd job status in Cassio in 6 mthns (Rp is wireless!! MORE MAPLE^^)
3) top the cohort
4) pass my grade 8 exams and violin exams
5) learn the dizi, xiao, flute, guitar, yangqin...
Hmm.. let's just leave it at that. See how many I can achieve. Maple, here i come^^
