Left or Right?
// Saturday, November 26, 2005 12:06 AM
There are so many things that i would just love to say and for once I just wish that i would not have to care about everyone's feelings and say it out.
How do you tell a your bud to stop waiting for her boyfriend to come back? To tell her to give up? And how in the world would you tell another to go and get the girl of his dreams? I mean, wth, I don't know anything about these stuff. How i can advise you? I'm clueless myself!
Very unfortunately, these are just at the bottom of my list of problems to solve and till today, I just can't find the right words to use to advise them.
I don't know why, but I always feel a sense of guilt everytime I cannot help them. I know that it's not my fault but.. I don't know..
Ironically, i don't who I'll turn to if I have problems. Not that i don't trust my friends or family, but i just can't phrase how i feel properly in words. Truthfully, i really admire those who tell me how they feel because it's something that I can never do.
What am I supposed to do now? I really am at a loss. It's just too difficult to find someone to talk too. To find someone who would just listen.
I guess that's life right?
wat we have wldn't always be
// Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:02 AM
in just two days, i have been to 2 chalets, bbqed for hours and ate more bbqed chicken to last me for an entire lifespan. i'm not complaining.. i'm just happy to be alive after eating the chicken tt andy bbqed.. i mean, he dropped the crabmeat on the floor and just promptly dump it back onto the pit.. *pukes*
i guess we can nvr return back to the past, can we? after getting cold shouldered by my cousins in last sat's bbq, i feel tt that's wad the later 4/7 gatherings will be.. cold, lifeless, just plain weird...
are all the hours tt i have spent with my cousins in the years b4 gone? do they even notice my presence? i really guess not... and i realy dunno wad to do about it.. i'm worried tt me and pris' relation will become like tt too...
i guess in 4 yrs time, those in 4/7 wldn't remember joanne wong anymore.. call me a cynic but i was nvr close to them anyway.. i dun blame them... we just dun click.. maybe i shd have just made an effort.. but den again.. it really doesn't matter anymore..
i guess our pathes must have crossed for a reason.. but i still cannot figure out wad it is.. were we being taught tolerance or is it just a form of punishment for something tt we have done in our past life? i really duno..
heck.. when in the world did i bcum so chem?
haix.. guess it's time to let go.. time to move on and get a fresh start.. and maybe a new romance^^ !! i wouldn't continue waiting anymore.
