ma memoir

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

Have u ever felt that he is the one for you, but as time goes by he is proving the opposite of it? I've gone through it sadly, i know my post has always been sad these days. Grandma is no longer with us.. I missed her. Everytime my bday arrived the memory of his grandma pass away reignite in my mind. I feel sad that he wasnt there for me as much as i was wif his that time. It has always been him him and more him. He only thinks of himself while i think of others before myself. This shows how selfish he can be to people around him. Just imagine his cousin is my pri sch gd fren, when she bump into me yesterday i dunno how i shud tell her. Im lucky she understands my position. I mean she is in btwn an old fren and her family. Maybe what my fren mention is true. My life is full of drama, how entertaining~ I just want a simple life with less drama and more happiness. Too much to ask for? Or could it be just be who is being very expressive after getting herself in this school. Oh well, Im just hoping to get the job that I've applied. And Prince charming, or frog prince, or watever prince u're plz be quick and take me away from all this dramatic life of mine. I just want to be happy. Can someone do that for me?

Friday, January 14, 2011

Dear blog,

It's 2011 now.. it has been a busy year so far. Being single once again, losing my frenz which i dun feel like talking abt and also having my side business. Alhamdulilah i guess that things happen for a reason.. But what ever it is I'm gonna work on my life as much as i can. Im sure god plan something for me.. InsyaAllah..

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Have u ever trust someone so much that u least expected he/she is ur enermy.
I did face that.. She was my gd fren, she was always there for me. Now it's not
that way anymore. I lose my life at that point, i was instantly replaced. I lose the
guy i admire back then, my closest fren, the ppl i once knew.. I was simply forgotten. Years past and the month of forgiveness is back again. Shud i forgive her for what she have done? I tried to accept the fact that things happen for a reason. The hatred feelings are there at times. I can't ignore that. If she can do it once y cn't she do it again? It feels really sad that i trusted her so much. And this is what i gt. Do u even deserve my friendship in the first place??

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Dear blog,

The only way i keep my anger away is to keep myself super busy wif my work. Work has been quite a demand these days. One person to keep to alot of ppl dateline is killing me at times. But my brother always tell me something that i think i can nvr agree more. "Nisha can work under pressure" - that reminds me that i can do it *thinking of my cheerleader doing their routines* Speaking of which im done for duty on sunday and malay comp on saturday.. there goes my weekend burned....

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Seriously i feel so tired today. not in any mood to do work. Thinking what is gonna happen to dad. For the first time he is going for a surgery this august. I pray hard that the surgery will go through smoothly. *Sigh* What should i do? I feel so blank right now.. Common Nisha, think! u always be able to work under pressure. but y nt today? arghhh

Monday, June 07, 2010

I just realized the more u dun wanna be that way, the more likely u turn to be wat u dun wanna be.
Too much of comfort zone cause a particular person to demand more than what the person actually need.
This feeling is controlled by the inner ego of a particular person when he/ she least expected. Hence when failed
to receive coz a deep disappointment towards the person. So how can a person nt turn to the wrong side of his/her
character? According to a certain law i read abt, what u ask is wat u get.. The mind works as a powerful tool tht no humans
will knw. There is no such thing as "not" or "don't". Nt that easy to understand huh? Hmmm...

Friday, May 21, 2010

It was'nt that simple to care abt other ppl's feeling.
I try my best not to offend others yet ppl do that to me
without they realized. I thought there is always this saying
how u treat people is how u want to be treated.. I'm really
disappointed. I'm the midst of trying to make a big different
yet the other party offended me. Fair? Totally not! I hate this
feeling i try to push aside yet the actions are repeated. How
can i simply ignore it? I nid to cool dwn.. I need to be alone.