Today is my grandfather's 2nd death anniversary. Sadly, after a year my grandma had to go with him in heaven. Me and my siblings used to live with 'em ever-since we're kids. That's why we have this closeness way far from of our parents. Every time I think of them I can't help but cry, oh how I really missed them! T_T
I have written a letter right after the day my Lolo (grandpa) died, I am away from home because I already have my own family and we're living in different side of the country so I wasn't there when he left the clan. I was crying alone while browsing the family pictures in friendster and decided to write my heart out instead. I made this letter for him, I just wished even if I didn't get the chance to be with them before they gone, they'd understand and never forget how I love them.
July 6, 2009 at 4:12 am
i don’t know how to start.. his absence still lingers.. the fact that he’s really “not around” makes me wanna shiver.. maybe separated by death which is inevitable but deeply in my heart we are forever intertwined by our love.. for all i know, no one will gonna call me “naneng” and “balasang” again, for he is the only one who calls me that way.. it’s his way of making lambing sa aming mga apo nyang babae, sa aken, kay gwen, kay gelai.. And now, who will be the one to comfort us when our feet hurts after the whole day of playing? wala na c lolo..T_T
Natatandaan ko pa dati di ako mahilig magtsinelas nung bata parati akong nakayapak kaya pagdating ng hapon masakit na paa ko, ang sabi nga ni lolo “nirarayuma na naman c naneng ko” then he will come up to me and kakargahin nya ko papunta sa tindahan which is siya yung bantay and there he will give my tired feet the best lolo’s soothing massage at pagkatapos non bibigyan nya pa ko ng piso (that’s the sweetest thing!) haha.. Natatandaan ko din pag hinahatid nya ko sa skul nung elementary “not literally hatid” pero pag umaalis ako ng bahay papuntang skul na madilim pa (pang-umaga kc ako) lagi siyang nakasunod sa likod ko hanggang sa gate ng skul (ang akala niya di ko alam).. Siya din ang gumigising sa akin dati sa umaga, kapag kinalampag nya na ang dingding ng kwarto pagka baba ko nakapagpainit na siya ng tubig na pampaligo ko lalo na pag “ber” month na, nakasaing na rin siya (kahit bihira lng samin’ ang nag-aalmusal ng kanin), nakapagbukas ng tindahan, nakapag-dilig ng halaman, nakapag-walis ng bakuran at nakapag-linis ng kanal ng buong kalye namin, lahat ng yan bago mag-alas syete ng umaga.. ganun siya, morning person tlga yan c lolo at mahilig siyang kumilos at maglinis..
Hindi rin problema kay lolo pag wala akong pambili ng usong goma o text (sisimple yan sa tinda ni lola ibibigay sakin), jolens (bibigyaan ka niya ng pambili na galing din sa tindahan ni lola haha’) at bingo (di yan mapapakali sa paghahanap ng lumang tsinelas o tsinelas na walang pares maigawa ka lng ng ‘sang katerbang panantos).. Nung naghigh-school na’ko groovy pa din yan c lolo walang kupas! polo shirt, short pants, tuck-in, belt, with matching shades and pomada at laging naka-usong running shoes name it - nike, puma, reebok, fila meron yan.. At yan ang malaking kapakinabangan ko, isa ko sa mga panatiko ng mga rubber shoes ni lolo magka-paa kc kami dati kaya kapag P.E. nagagamit ko ahehe.:p
Super lambing din ni lolo kay lola akala lang ng mga batang lolita dati napaka-suplado ng matandang lalaking nagbabantay sa tindahan ni aling loring (kung makapang-asar kasi ng bumubili, super! nyahahaha!) pero di lang nila alam napaka-mapagmahal talaga nya.. Saksi ako sa don, kung pano at kung gano niya mahalin ang lola ko.. at kung gaano din siya katindi magselos haha.. Natatandaan ko pa nung nagkasakit na siya year 2007, (nasa Manila din ako that time) he would knocked on my room’s door umiiyak, pinoproblema niya na matanda na daw siya, di na siya makakapaghanap-buhay at pano pa daw nya bubuhayin ang lola and all that.. nakakaloka man isipin for a 73 year-old (he’s 75 now) na nag-aalala pa sa mga bagay na tulad ng ganun it just simply show how responsible he was as a family man and as a person. Mahal niya kaming lahat magmula sa asawa niya hanggang sa kaapu-apuhan, absolutely no biases! Sayang nga lang at di niya na matatawag na “naneng” o “balasang” ang anak ko..
Lo, we are so much grateful for sharing with us your 75-years of beautiful and well-celebrated life! We will cherish the memories, the lessons, the learnings and the love you gave and showered us. You will be forever in our hearts, beyond life, your memories lives on..
Miss na miss na kita Lo’..T_T
I know my Lolo and Lola are now in heaven, happy together and with our Lord, may you look after our clan and may we continue what you've started. Truly to have grannies such as loving and supportive as the both of you is one of the sweetest thing this life has given me. Thank you so much Lo and La, both of you will always be in my heart. I will never forget how much you've loved me. I love you both so much!
