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Pisces Year 2011 Career

This is the year to build your resources, fatten your savings account, and stash money away for some of your bigger dreams. Don't be afraid of spending either. Money has a way of finding its way right into your humble bank account, especially this spring. You're not used to such an effortless cash flow and may unconsciously attempt to sabotage your own good fortune. Tell yourself a thousand times a day that you deserve the riches that are coming your way, because you truly do.

You've got to take your talents more seriously, Pisces. No more undercutting yourself and humbly accepting crumbs when you're worth gold (wow, what a statement hehe). Take an honest assessment of all of the gifts you bring to the table and you'll quickly realize that you have been shamefully underpaid. But let any residual false modesty be a thing of the past now that 2011 has come to bring you the big bucks you so deserve.

When Jupiter leaves your money sector in June, in order to keep the cash flowing you'll have to work those networking skills. (so true, I'm graduating in June) Make sure you've got a strong online presence and don't be afraid to revamp your image (now not girly enough? any sponsors?) and make yourself more visible. You have a tendency to keep yourself invisible. But once people see you and all that you have to offer, they will be all over your talents. Stop doubting yourself and letting that legendary Piscean paranoia interfere in what promises to be one of the most successful and lucrative years of your career. (yes! Hope its true!)

Year 2011 Romantic

You're at your gorgeous, glamorous best in 2011, Pisces. It's easier than ever to keep a good physical regime going this year. A little effort goes a long way in getting your body into amazing form with the plethora of planets in the super-physical sign of Aries. No more zoning out in front of the tele, it's time to get back into your body. The better you feel about your physical appearance, the more open you are to love.(so true once again!)

Romance and sensuality are synonymous with the strong influence of fiery and sexy energies surrounding the physical side of life from spring onward. Regardless of your age, you'll feel like a teenager when all of those planets enter Aries this May. July is especially romantic when Venus enters Cancer and brings loads of pleasure to your love sector. Let your primal instincts take charge and spur you on to greater romantic risks than you ever thought your delicate nature capable of. You might even surprise yourself. Your gut won't steer you wrong this spring. After June, you're more inclined to get grounded and mellow your pace in love. This doesn't mean you should resort to your old defense mechanisms per se. But it does mean that you might want to consider letting things build slowly to prove they are solid. When Neptune enters Pisces in June, you are simply in love with love. This could magnetize a soul mate or a total delusional disaster. It all depends on how grounded and centered you are.

HK Trip Day 1 and 2

Friday, December 31, 2010 9:03 PM

I had a wonderful trip to Hong Kong with Vanessa this year! The idea came about when I decided that I would want to go back Hong Kong again because I didn't get to eat certain food and visit certain places that are supposed to be attractive. And Vanessa decided to have a getaway to a colder country than Sg. And HK came about.

After 100 over days of anticipaton, we were thankful that nothing went wrong to our Tigerairways flight. The plane left sg on the dot of the stipulated time. The 3.5 hours plane ride is not too long, not too short. Imagine going to and fro Pasir Ris to Joo Koon three times.

Van couldn't believe that she landed in HK. Her soul was still left in Simei. But slowly, as we begun to settle down, adjusted to the fine and cool weather of about 16-18 degrees, her soul also flew to HK with her.

Day 1:

We heeded Van's colleague suggestion of taking taxi to our hotel. As it turned out, the cost of the taxi is cheaper than if we take our hotel's airport bus shuttle service. The fare was HKD$195, while the bus shuttle service is HKD$130/pax. What a steal!

We were famished after checking-in into our room. We promptly went to find Tsui Wah Restaurant for lunch. They are famous for their fish ball noodles. One thing to note. I realised that fish balls in HK and China are chewy, and not bouncy like those in Sg. The food in Tsui Wah is not WOW kind of standard. But probably because I was too hungry, so to me it tasted fine.

Ok I couldn't remember the sequence of events. But I remembered that we went to see Symphony of Light which was nothing but office buildings shooting out laser lights accompanied by music. The whole stretch of river/harbour was packed with people. After 5 minutes, we walked away because we were too bored. Then we walked to Avenue of Stars which we didn't enjoy because of the crowd. We couldn't take as much photos as we wanted.

Look at the photo below. It was a Monday and the crowd there was horrible. There was a huge influx of people from China. We were annoyed not because they were from China, but because of their behaviour and attitude. They are very self-centered, and do not know the existence of the word QUEUE. They can slowly push you until you are out of your place, so as to take over your place. This is the end of Day 1.

Day 2:
According to Van's colleague, Jay, she told us how to walk to the MTR via a shorter route by cutting through Kowloon Park. And we took this route for the 7 days that we were in HK. This park cannot be compared to ALL the parks in Sg. Every morning, a group of ducks and flamingos will welcome you. There were also many people sitting by the bench relaxing, painting, chit chatting, and some did Taiji, and meditation.

From the park, we needed to walk quite a bit to the MTR. As it was our first time cutting through the park, we couldn't find our way to the MTR. We randomly asked a young guy who seemed to be rushing for his badminton class. He turned out to be really nice, and asked us follow him as he will be passing by the MTR. This was the first good person we met.

Our first destination of the day was Luk Yu Tea House situated at Stanley St. We took to Central MTR Exit D2. I added this timsum tea house as recommended by http://www.openrice.com/.

Upon knowing that we were not locals, the worker directed us to Level 3, instead of Level 2 when there were enough space in Level 2. I really felt like blasting at them, but I will be at the losing end because I doubt they will be able to understand what I'm saying. We went up to Level 3, sat down, and waited. Turned out that the HK style of ordering timsum is to wait and wait and wait. Wait for the worker to bring out the timsum and we order from her. We had to wait quite awhile in order to take the photo below.

That teahouse was overated! It doesn't taste fantastic as what the website claimed. Maybe it's my expectation. But it was not worth paying S$35 per person for the meal.

Next, we went to shop at H&M, the largest branch is at Central, three storey high. After shopping, we went to The Landmark. Then we left for The Peak.

As we bought the 3-in-1 combo set, we took the tram up. The tram was going up at an angle of 45 degrees. It was scary! Oh befor boarding the tram, we witnessed this young teenage girl who pushed herself through to secure a place just right in front of the tram door, and we were actually standing there initially. Once the door opened, she ran all the way to the first seat. The kiasuism displayed by the CCB (Van and I created this acronym to describe the China nationals. I won't mention it here in case I get sued) is more worst than Sg.

After taking photos with Andy Lau, Lady Gaga, Lee Kuan Yew, just to name a few, we walked around to enjoy the cool air. Van spotted this magnifying scope (as seen the photo below). It was interesting to know that the place they position the scope is so strategic. One can look directly at the condominium at the bottom of the peak. And you can clearly see everything inside the house.

I think that's the reason why the height of this magnifying scope is made high, this is to deter children from looking at it. But I'm born to a short family, so I had to stand on it to be able to see the scope. DON"T LAUGH!

After that, we went to have early dinner at Mak's Noodle. They are famous for their Wanton noodles and beef brisket. The Wanton soup had a very strong yellow noodle taste. The soup was not nothing special. But the wanton was good. I strongly recommend their beef brisket. The beef was so soft and tender, and the soup was really good! Just thinking about that makes me drool.

This is the view of the Peak at night. We stood there for very long, and took video commentary of the condition on the Peak. It was a fun night! Truely enjoy it! When we wanted to take the return tram down, we realised that the queue was like from Tampines to Orchard Road, it was very long! Before that, Yap told me that we could actually walked down (I thought it's walked down, but actually she said she walked AROUND for 1.5hrs). So we went to the tourist information counter. The lady said it was too dangerous and long to walk down the peak. She even suggested taking Citybus or Xiao ba (green minibus that you would seen in TVB drama). This is the second kind person that we met.

End up we beat all the CCB and reached the bottom of the peak first. hahaha.

When we walked back to our hotel, we found Haipong Road and saw Koi Kei Bakery. Bought my seaweed pork roll and the walnut cookies that Van introduced. It was very delicious! Regretted not buying more.

Then we bought mango dessert from Xu Liu Shan or in Cantonese, it's called Hui Lau San. We took the take-away express one. Didn't get to take a good photo of it. This mango dessert should be franchaised to Sg. Such a pity!

That's the end of Day 2. To be continued...

Day 4

Wednesday, November 10, 2010 12:24 PM

Day 4 - 9 November, Tuesday

I was in school the whole day, got my sister to feed him medication. He pee in his diapers overnight.

This really means he could no longer control his urine till morning. But good though, that means he is flushing out the impurities via his medications. The doctor gave us one of the medications which is supposed to flush out the alkaline stone in his bladder. Given the size of his 'stone', it will take months to year for it to dissolve. Fortunately it's not acidic stone where it needs to be removed by surgical means.

http://www.peteducation.com/article.cfm?c=2+1634&aid=400

Bobby is so much better today. I don't know what happen the whole day, but when I came home in the evening, he happily wag his tail and welcome me. He even bark when Max tried to come near to me. He is jealous!

This is him in Day 3, able to get up to drink water. But he looked very dazed and confused... he stood there for a good 5 mins smelling the water and the bowl, before we intervene and teach him how to drink water from the bowl.

And no, we didn't feed him Listerine... but honey water =) and that's the syringe.

Day 3

Monday, November 08, 2010 1:56 PM

Day 3 - 8 November 2010, Monday

Early this morning, my maid tried to feed him bread like she always do every morning. She peeled one small piece for him, he didn't want it. But he hasn't eaten for 2 days!!! So she forced it into his mouth and he chewed it. Think his tastebuds are working slightly better, he wanted a second piece. End up, he ate the whole piece of bread :) Then he continued sleeping in his tent.

Between 11 to 12noon, I crush his medicine and mix it with honey water and feed him through the syringe. I reckon feeding him the cheeseball wouldn't work well. Then I fed him some honey water to ease th bitterness of the medicine. Shortly after, he got up by himself and I saw him walking to the toilet. At this point in time, he was still wearing his diapers. And so I wonder what is he going to do next. I took a peep and saw him standing at his usual peeing place.... he urinated!!.. but on his diapers. He was oblivious to the thing sticking at his privates. It was funny to see that scene!! :)

We changed the diapers as it was heavy. Then my maid soak his food until it was very very soft, until it feels like soil, then she roll it into small balls and force feed him. He ate it, but couldn't finish all. We keep the remaining for his evening mall. I fed him another 5 syringe of honey water. And he slept.

When I came home after school, I was told that he ate up the remaining food :) He even drank water on his own accord. And he happily wag his tail when he was brought down for his walk. He even attempt to run.

Fed him his medication and gave him his favourite chicken stick which I previously tried to give him on Day 1 but to no avail. This time round, he ate it!! More like he snatched it from us! =)

I'm very happy today! He showed improvement! =)

But I'm also worried when the time comes, when his medicine finishes...

Day 2

1:44 PM

Day 2 - 7 November, Sunday

As early as 5am, my maid woke up to clean the room, and Bobby because he pee in my sister's room in the middle of the night. She brought the two dogs down for their big and small business before she went for her offday.

For Bobby, he couldn't control his pee before he reached the lift...and he actually pee outside my neighbour's house. She has to wash the common corridor. Stupid Bobby! But I still love you. And so she said he walked very slowly throughout the walk downstairs. At least he did managed to walk and breathe in some fresh air.

At around 11am, my sister and I woke up and we fed him his medicine. We stuff the medicine into cheeseballs and fed him the cheeseball. Last night he ate the cheeseball with the medicine. He loved eating junk food. He is like a vacuum cleaner. However, this time round, he refused to eat the cheeseball stuffed with medicine. We had to flatten the cheeseball and force it into his mouth. Then we gave him honey water fed through using syringe.

He still don't want to eat his food. We decided to feed him honey water every hour to hydrate his body and also so that his kidney won't be overloaded with medicine. The glucose will also give him some energy.

He slept the whole afternoon, waking up ocassionally to change his position.

Evening: We went out for dinner, and bought back diapers and this energy gel. The sales person recommended this energy gel for dogs who need extra energy supplement or dogs who has no appetite for food. We put on the diapers on him and he looked cute! We smeared the energy gel on his tongue and he licked it.

At night, he managed to go to the toilet himself and pee. Fed him honey water before he sleep.

Basically today, he was still very restless, no energy for anything.

Day 1

1:08 PM

Day 1 - 6 Nov 2010, Saturday

Morn: Bobby woke up at his usual timing at around 9am. Mum put him on the sofa to continue sleeping before she left house for work, but he didn't like it and could still jump down by himself. He slept in his tent instead.

Noon: When it's time for lunch, Bobby didn't have appetite to eat. We changed their food from Fish to their long-time favourite holistic meal on 5 November, both of them ate greedily because they missed that food. However today, Bobby just shun away from the food when it was brought close to his nose. He was lethargy all day long, slept the whole day.

His body jerked ocassionally when he sleeps. He looked lost and dazed when he got up to go toilet. Sometimes, he went to the toilet not knowing what to do.

We tried feeding him some dog's tidbits, his favourite small bun. He ate about 8 pieces only. And we even resort to feeding him water by using syringe as he was too weak to walk to the kitchen to drink water.

Mum was reluctant to bring him to the vet. My sister and I decided to fork out the money and bring him to the vet, Animal Recovery Clinic. The clinic we usually went to was closed. We don't know how good or bad is Animal Recovery, but we went ahead because he seemed quite critical.

This time round, I felt something different towards him losing his appetite and all other symptoms he's showing. For the first time in Year 2010, I cried. I cried till my eyeball almost dropped off.... Ok, not that serious. But it was really puffy and all.

I waited for my sister to come home from work before we fetched Bobby to the vet. As I brought him down, he walked very slowly, he wasn't wagging his tail. Can see that he was in pain. He accidentally stepped into the gap and I don't know if he's shocked or in pain, he just stood there not moving at all. Next, he couldn't climb up the car. Got to carry him. And he just lay there and sleep.

Before we went to the vet, my sister and I agreed that we will not do blood test and whatever test that the vet asked us to do because we have financial constraints. And so while in the clinic, the vet did a number of checks... and he said it was critical for Bobby to have his chest and abdominal Xray, and blood test taken. Each Xray cost $110, blood test the maximum it can go is $270. We only did the chest Xray. The vet was kind enough not to be pushy because he knows we have constrains. And so the results are out:

Diagnosis:
Enlarged heart 75% of the ribcage (normal only occupies 50%)
Heart murmur (an extra heart beat)
Alkaline stone in the bladder

Thankfully he doesn't have water in his lungs otherwise it can be very fatal. However, as we did not have his blood test taken, we do not know the conditions of his kidneys and liver. A failed kidney means a lot of things. Nonetheless the medications that the doctor gave was little in dosage, so he said it wouldn't really affect the kidney. We just hoped Bobby can have enough water to drink to flush out the impurities.

I was telling the doctor that we just hope he can live another year or so, because he is 14 yrs as of 26 Dec, so we didn't want to spend so much on healing his arthritis and other minior illness. The vet was honest enough... he gave Bobby 6 months to live. But he said he can be wrong. When we heard that, both my sis and I couldn't control our emotions again.

It was an emotional and stressful day for us.

On the way home,Bobby couldn't control his pee. He actually pee on me while I carried him to the car. Stupid Bobby! Nvm, I still love you. Put him down and he still pee along the way.

At night, he pee in my sister's room. Guess he's old and has a really weak bladder.

At night, I reflected, I need to learn to let go. I need to prep myself if anything goes wrong. Same for dogs, and same for human beings. There's the lifecycle of birth and death, I got to accept it as a fact. We can't deny death, it will happen to every living things.

Saturday, November 06, 2010 11:11 PM

Tears flow uncontrollably everytime I think about you.

I believe you can surpass the 6 months period. Please activate the fighter spirit in you. You have fought hard the past 2 years with cateract, only seeing shadows and nothing else. You have endured being unable to hear our voices, and our calls for you. Now, you must fight even harder to overcome your heart murmur.

It pains me to see you being so weak, standing there, unable to lie down.
It pains me to see you looking so lost and oblivious to the surrounding.
It pains me to see you getting skinnier day by day.
It pains me for me to feed you water using a syringe.
It pains me when your legs suddnly go numb and you stood still, unable to move.

Despite loving Max so affectiously, I realised deep down, you're still my number one.
Recalling how I used to dislike you when you first came 14 years ago, and how you become my close friend as time goes by, I knew you have changed my life.

Let's prove that damn doctor that you can outlive the 6 months!! JIAYOU!!

4:14 PM

It's only now that I realise how much I love you.

Please be strong baby!

Race

Sunday, October 31, 2010 11:11 PM

2008
Shape Run 5km - 36 mins, 47 secs

2009
Shape Run 5km - 38 mins, 3 secs

2010
Shape Run, 10km - 1hr 11mins, 40 secs
Nike Race, 10km - 1hr 16mins, 18 secs

The timing for Nike race could be better if not for stopping and walking with my friend. But well, I don't think it could be any better than 5 mins. I remembered running my first 10km with much sweat and pain. The last 5km was torturous probably because I did not anticipate that 10km will be that long. I returned home with an aching thigh muscles, bruised left toe and painful right ankle.

My second 10km run, I promised to accompany my friend and she paced me, so we literally jog and walk for the first 5km. After the 6th km mark, I badly need to release my adrenaline. I decided to run ahead. I ran for a good 2km before I jog because I felt my left toe is being bruised again, and my weak right ankle is hurting quite badly. I ran and stopped, ran and stopped. Finally I tried to sprint across the finish line but I don't know why my legs were not supporting me at all. My timing was of course worst off than the previous race, but overall I'm glad I paced myself slower at the beginning, because there was still stamina left for the second half of the race. And I didn't felt so in pain after the race.

This race make me realise something... that is I have a weak right ankle. I need to find a good pair of shoes that can give me good support and cushioning. Looking at Nike LunarGlide. Hope to find a cheap pair in HK.

Talking about HK, I've just planned the itinerary. While searching for food and teahouse, my mouth went watery upon seeing the photos and reviews. I can't wait to go and enjoy the cool weather and the nice food! Irony how I didn't get to eat good food while in HK last yr.

Till then peeps, I have to buck up on my studies before I can leave Sg in peace. =) 1 more month!

Thoughts

Saturday, September 11, 2010 6:08 PM

Anyone remember this? Today is the 9th anniversary of this fateful event that happended on 11 September 2001. I still remembered watching the news early in the morning before I went to school. That was in Secondary 3. Nine years later, I still vividly remember the images flashed on TV. I remembered people leaping the building because of the intense heat that was burning on the top level of the Twin Tower. This happened in the US. Very far from us. If it can happen there, it can also happen here in Singapore. It was also reported about the plan to bomb our local airport.

Also recently, the demise of my friend's father makes me feel that our life is very vulnerable. I am quite saddened by it because I used to be quite closed with this friend of mine for a period of time. I am glad she is able to take it strong. I don't think I can do it if I were her. Anyway, my point is anything can happen to us. So we must treasure it, treasure our love ones and spend our time doing what we love to do. I don't understand how can one plot such a plan to take 'revenge' and kill innocent people. Don't they have a little love, guilt, and apathy in them? Why and how can a religion motivate and cause somebody to mass muder (if I can put it this way)? It's kind of scary thinking about this.

I strongly believe we are in control of our mind. It's very hard to do it. Imagine if we are brainwashed through crowd manipulation, peer pressure, etc. It's very easy to fall for it. We ought to reason out with ourselves, whether to accept the things that are being said. Are they logical? Absurb? Anyway this has got nothing to do with any religion in particular. I am saying things in general.

Our mind needs to be strong to be able to resist, whether is it negative thoughts, negative emotions, false teachings, etc. This reminds me of Inception.

Ok I'm gonna end this abruptly because I don't want to go further in case I say something which is not very nice.

My school is starting in 1 week's time. Having a class on Sat morning sucks totally. But it is better off with having it on Sat mid afternoon (12-3pm) which I had initially. My Saturday is going to be packed with school in the morning, and tuitions in the afternoon. Going to endure this till May, and it's bye to student life, and welcome to the world of hypocrisy and competition.

Life like this.

Thursday, September 02, 2010 7:07 PM

I'm back!! Holiday work has finally ended! Reason why I didn't blog much is because working life is so routinal and mundane that I got nothing interesting to talk about. Now that it's over, I hope my remaining days of being a student will have some fresh and happening events.

Reflecting on work
My time spent in RVR was good. I did something different from PGP and of course I learnt new things. The office is small, there are only a handful of people there, but the whole place felt cosy and like a family. I am glad to know my colleague A, who helped me a lot, especially during the mass changing of mattress, she helped me saved $100. And she's very approachable and like a friend. All of them left memories! I will not forget my experience there. It's bittersweet.

On my last day, they gave me a present & a card! It was unexpected. They bought me an Adidas sports bag! =) I was totally shock, didn't expect it to be that because it's not cheap! Despite the imperfection of people, everyone still have their good and kind side.

Life after work
It's Day 2 of my holiday. On Day 1, I met up with my trainer. Trained together with her. I think that is really called workout because I'm aching all over now. For the past 1 month training on my own, I only manage to lose 1kg of body fats. With her I lost about 2kg. Now, my fats-hip-waist ration also increased. But I thank god for this opportunity to train together with her:)

Day 2: Sent my parents to the airport as they went China for holiday. Slept very well in the afternoon. I think it's the acumulated hours of the lack of sleep that caused me to feel so lethargic.

Tomorrow is my ecR, meaning it's time to select my modules for next semester. I did better than I expected during my last yr's exams, but was very disappointed with IBM. On average, I score 9/25 per question? That's insane. I don't know how I did that. But I'm gonna pay GBP50 to double check. Don't want to regret my whole life. If it's true there's nothing wrong with the marks, I will accept it gracefully. But I hope and pray miracles can happen!

I'm going to catch some TV, and then sleep. Having a headache. I still have a lack of sleep I think. Tomorrow will be a great day!

Saturday, August 07, 2010 12:17 AM

There is a lot of drama at work this week. It makes me see how insensitive and selfish one can get in order to protect their ass.

Just today, my colleague got so stressed up with the CONSTANT nagging and scolding from the manager that she screamed while doing her work. Yeah, suddenly burst out screaming. It kind of scare everybody. I think she was just releasing her stress by shouting out loud. And then she stormed out the room crying. The manager can still f***ing say she's throwing temper. No sympathy or whatsoever. Honestly I beginning to dislike this manager. He keep saying he don't like to work with older people cuz they are inflexible and slow. But hello, you claimed to know abt MM Lee's speech regarding "no retirement age", yet you despise slow and older workers. And I wonder why he like to touch his private area so much. So disgusting! My gosh!

Yesterday this same colleague of mine did nothing and yet she was scolded by another colleague, the lazy M woman. This lazy woman said in an irritating tone, "You are getting very irritating you know!" And the thing is....this lazy woman is seeking help from my colleague! Yet she still can say she's irritating when she tried to help her! Don't know where her brain go to. So rude!

I feel very sad for my colleague. I need to do something to cheer her up :)

Saturday, July 17, 2010 9:18 PM

My current temp job so unfulfilling. I dread every single day going to work. It's not the job scope that makes me dread it. It's a person. This person is so lazy that she tai-ji me all the tasks that required going up and down the blocks.

For instance, once a student checked out, she's supposed to open the door, check for any defects, and ask the cleaner to clean. However, she tai-ji that to me. NEVER ONCE did she did it on her own accord. One of the reasons I suspect is because we need to climb up the stairs, there's no lift. And the student's room is so dirty and smelly. After doing 3 rooms, one would be all sweaty! I wonder how she will survive without temp staff. I don't mind helping her out, but this continues every single day! She is also very eager for me to extend my stay for another week. Everytime when they talked about Hari Raya, she would keep asking me to extend. But I made up my mind not to extend.

I can earn/save up that 1 week worth of pay through other means. Now I learn that we should follow our heart, and not follow money. I used to be very poor (still poor now), hence I would go all out to earn money. My personal mantra was "Suffer first, then enjoy the fruits". I remembered how I chiong tuitions and OT in NUS last yr. But now, when happiness, and mental well-being is concerned, this statement does not hold true.

Argh. Shan't continue blabbering on such demoralising issues.

Let's talked about GYM! :):)
Going to amore really makes my day. I never felt so happy working out. I only have Zah as my workout partner. Hopefully will have more. Yesterday I went for this class and I kind of like the instructor, not the lovely-dovey kind of love, but more of admiration! She is damn fit! Though abit too muscular, but she is very tonned. I wish I can tone those loose fats of mine. Anyway, while doing some toning exercise, she commented smthg about me, she said "Why give this expression?" argh.. I wonder what was my facial expression at that time. I remembered somebody used to ask me this question. It's like deja vu. Need to be conscious about my countenance!!!! deja vu again!

Recently I have been eating a lot. It's 12:20am now and I've just finish a bowl of milk with cereal.Throughout the day I've eaten a bowl of meepok, 2 small bowl (soup bowl) of fried rice, porridge, and now the cereal. This is much more than my usual! Gosh. ALL CARBO!!

Tomorrow is Sunday and I"m going gym!... cuz gonna have Korean BBQ for dinner!

Wakeboard

Sunday, June 27, 2010 6:54 PM

It's been quite some times since the last update.

I made a trip down to Penang with Yap, Qian and Agnes. It was a great time of bonding. We let ourselves loose and ate char kway teow, laksa, lassi, nandos, etc... And we played a lot, and camwhore a lot too! Though it's only a short 3D2N, it was really fun this time!

Today, I went wakeboarding with zah, my PT cass, and her fiance. It was rather impromptu. It rained early in the morning and we were initially quite worried that we were unable to wakeboard. I believe God has answered my prayers as I desperately prayed earnestly the night before and early morning that the rain will stopped. The weather forecast said there will be thunderstorm from morning till afternoon. But it stopped right when we reached Punggol!

For first timers like Cass and Pete, I can say they are very good...esp Cass. She learned things so fast, very easily could get up. I still remembered I struggled a lot during my first time.

Amazingly this time round, I didn't. In fact, everything went so smoothly. I managed to get up the first time, and thereafte. The instructor taught me how to ride left and right. And I actually rode on the crest, whch is pretty scary! It's really fun today!! Love the companion!

Something More

6:53 PM

Secondhand Serenade - Something More

I lie awake again
my bodies feeling paralysed.
i cant remember when
I didnt live through this disguise.
The words you said to me,
they couldnt set me free.
Im stuck here in this life i didnt ask for.

There must be something more,
do we know what we're fighting for?
breathe in breathe out
breathe in breathe out.
And all these masks we wore,
we never knew what we had in store,
breathe in breathe out,
breathe in breathe out.

The storm is rolling in,
the thunders loud,
it hurts my ears.
Im paying for my sins,
and its gunna rain for years and years.
I fooled everyone, and now what will i become?
i have to start this over,
i have to start this over.

There must be something more,
do we know what we're fighting for?
breathe in breathe out
breathe in breathe out.
And all these masks we wore,
we never knew what we had in store,
breathe in breathe out,
breathe in breathe out.

I fooled everyone now what will i become?
i have to start this over
i have to start this over.

There must be something more,
do we know what we're fighting for?
breathe in breathe out
breathe in breathe out.
And all these masks we wore,
we never knew what we had in store,
breathe in breathe out,
breathe in breathe out.

There must be something more,
breathe in breathe out
breathe in breathe out.
There must be something more,
breathe in breathe out
breathe in breathe out.

Sunday, June 06, 2010 12:51 PM

阿妹-分生

一個我像不會累一直往前
一個我動彈不得傷心欲絕
我不確定　幾個我　住在心裡面
偶爾像敵人　偶爾像姐妹

一個我在網路上朋友一堆
一個我在房間裡獨自面對
灰色的音樂　塞滿黑夜　HIGH的像麻醉
好讓翻攪的胃　安靜一點　忘了全世界

分裂前的熱淚　分裂後的冷眼
越愛誰　越防備　像隻脆弱的刺蝟
分裂中的心碎　分裂後的假面
不快樂　不傷悲　情緒埋藏成了地雷　等待爆裂

一個我相信用心會被感覺
一個我大喊真心會被欺騙
開始的熱烈　不停奉獻　後來剩決裂
謊言吞噬了心　帶來刺痛　撕裂的蛻變

分裂前的熱淚　分裂後的冷眼
越愛誰　越防備　像隻脆弱的刺蝟
分裂中的心碎　分裂後的假面
不快樂　不傷悲　情緒埋藏成了地雷　等待爆裂

Saturday, June 05, 2010 9:44 AM

Yesterday, I went gym.

Skipped Kickbox because the class is overwhelmed with people. Was also very tired hence decided to go gym and do workout at my own pace. Focused on cardio. Tried the X-trainer but I don't like it. I felt so exhausted just 5 mins into it. My weak right knee started to feel strained. So I hop over to treadmill and did different variations of gradient and walking speed.

Saw Zah's friend! In the end, she didn't join me for Newbody after that. Went alone :(
Newbody was taught by this guy... Not bad. Not as tiring as Jasmine's.

I'm going cycling with sec sch friends later. And StretchFit and gym tomorrow at Amore again.

I never felt so energetic ever since leaving secondary school. I used to be very active back in sec sch when I joined NPCC and Taekwando. But after I left, I"m hardly active. Only few years back I started exercising after numerous feedback that I gained weight. It affected me so much that I die die wanna prove them wrong, that I can be fit and lean again. It hurt my inner ego. Haha.

Despite my physically-demanding jobscope, I was amazed that I still can workout at night. And during work, I don't feel lethargic. Exercising work wonders!!

I don't know whether it's a psychological thing. But my overall being felt so good!
I'm loving it!

Wednesday, June 02, 2010 9:44 PM

why did it even happen
i hope it gets better...

mind is twirling now.
droplets dropped.

My goals

Sunday, May 30, 2010 8:45 PM

Went for a hair cut because my hair is getting out of shape. Presenting to you my new old hairstyle! Why new old... cuz it looked exactly like my previous hairstyle.

Above: May 2010
Bottom: March 2010

After started working, I realised how much I treasure this long weekend. Just staying and lazing at home also can give me fulfillment. This coming week gonna be hectic again! Let's see...

Mon- Gym

Tue - Tuition

Wed - Stepworkout

Thur - Tuition

Fri - Kickbox and Newbody

Sat - Cycling with the girls

Sun - Stretchfit

I think I can hit 1 kg weight loss this week! Of cuz being able to maintain it is another thing. I am determined this time. I realised the true meaning of "taking ownership of your own things". Paying for the membership with my hard earn money makes me wanna work even harder and not let myself down.

I have not achieved my goals ever since I made the decision to exercise and lose weight many years ago. Yes I have exercised, joined Shape Run. But that is not good enough to burn the stubborn fats off. It only makes me feel good, thinking that "yea I did exercise... by jogging twice a week only." And it's not even intense workout. Many times, I gave in to temptations by eating my favourite chips and chocolate. And food at home is never healthy. Herballife did help me to shed 5 kg. But I'm not satisfied. I want my fitness level to increase too.

I hope that I will not give up fighting for what I desire. To be healthy = Exercise regularly + healthy lifestyle. With that, I have decided to set aside 1 day per week where I can eat junk. CHEAT DAY!

Sher sher, no more lip service, but action is louder than words!

Ganbatte! がんばって！

12:57 AM

Went for the complimentary Fitness Assessment. The trainer name is Cass, recommended by Zah. She arranged it at 7pm which I thought was quite a late timing. Nonetheless, I am really glad because Cass actually purposely put it at that timing where there is very few people in the gym, and hence she's able to fully and slowly teaching me how to use different equipments. From a hourly session, we extended another 30 mins.

This 1.5hrs session is tough! I thought it's gonna be easy, just using those machines. But this circuit training prove me wrong! Did warming up on the treadmill, followed by the killer squats, then legpress, cardio again, triceps, biceps, etc. Did a few rounds of each. She also taught me the proper way of warming up. Now I know I have been warming up the wrong way all the while!

She's very friendly and nice, not intimidating at all. I burnt a big hole in my pocket because I signed up for 3 sessions worth $180 of personal training with her. It cost like $100 plus per session outside. It's an exclusive offer for new members. If I don't take up the offer, there won't be any chance.

I know family members and friends will think I'm crazy to waste such money, especially when I'm not working full time. But I see it as an investment which will guaranteed reap benefits. Money can always be earned. I forsee myself giving many tuitions + working + saving up money. Still need to pay the monthly gym fee and my Penang trip! Haiz.

I'm getting pumped up now. Yesterday went for Stretchfit and Kickbox, and I'm feeling all sore and aching now. But my adrenaline is high!! I wish holidays are over so during school days, I can attend those classes frequently. I really wanna see my fats going down, and muscles mass going up!

我可以的！

Friday, May 28, 2010 1:40 PM

幸好今天是公共假期，要不然我看我很快就会病倒。
这次的学校假日，我还在 NUS 打工，但是做的东西却不一样。现在，我几乎每天都必须跑上跑下，只有一段的时间能在班公室里吹冷气。每天走到脚又痛又酸，而且满身大汗，真是累死人。还有三个月，我还是加油吧！！！

最近我每个星期五、六、七都会去健身中心运动。我不能给自己理由不去，因为我做工不到四天就已经胖了一公斤，肚子也凸出来了！真可怕！说到运动，我感谢舒恩能够在七月份和我一起跑十公里！这对我们来说是一个大挑战，希望能顺力和安全地跑完。我很期待下个月和她一起训练跑步，忙路的生活令我们很久没见到对方。舒恩啊，你要加油喔！要不然我在10公里时，你还在5公里。哈哈！

我去休息了！假期愉快！

Friday, May 21, 2010 9:52 PM

Resistance

Wednesday, May 19, 2010 7:15 PM

Muse - Resistance

Is our secret safe tonight
And are we out of sight
Or will our world come tumbling down?

Will they find our hiding place
Is this our last embrace
Or will the walls start caving in?

It could be wrong could be wrong, but it should have been right
It could be wrong could be wrong, to let our hearts ignite
It could be wrong could be wrong, are we digging a hole?
It could be wrong could be wrong, this is out of control
It could be wrong could be wrong, it could never last
It could be wrong could be wrong, must erase it fast
It could be wrong could be wrong, but it should have been right
It could be wrong could be…

Love is our resistance
They‘ll keep us apart and they won‘t stop breaking us down
Hold me
Our lips must always be sealed

If we live a life in fear
I‘ll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again

Kill your prayer for love and peace
You‘ll wake the thought police
We can‘t hide the truth inside

It could be wrong could be wrong, but it should have been right
It could be wrong could be wrong, to let our hearts ignite
It could be wrong could be wrong, are we digging a hole?
It could be wrong could be wrong, this is out of control
It could be wrong could be wrong, it could never last
It could be wrong could be wrong, must erase it fast
It could be wrong could be wrong, but it should have been right
It could be wrong could be…

Love is our resistance
They‘ll keep us apart and they won‘t stop breaking us down
Hold me
Our lips must always be sealed

The night has reached its end
We can‘t pretend
We must run
We must run
It‘s time to run
Take us away from here
Protect us from further harm
Resistance

Sunday, May 16, 2010 11:42 PM

从前，有一个像天堂的小岛，住着我们人类所有的感觉和特性/品质，如 “幸福”，“难过”和“知识”等等，也包括了“爱”。有一天，所有的感觉接到了通知，由于“自私”的重量，小岛就快被淹没了，所以大家要尽快离开。

所有的感觉都不敢怠慢的做好了准备要离开，除了“爱”，因为她对小岛有了感情，希望能留在那里直到最后一分种。

然而，探访了岛上所有的朋友和去了喜欢的地方，“爱”才发现，小岛被淹没的速度很快，快得她不得不向其它正在离开的感觉求救。

“爱”看到了“财富”正乘着豪华的游艇准备离去，她带着爱的口气请求：“财富，可以带我走吗？”，“财富”冷漠不悦的回她：“不行，我的游艇载满了金银珠宝，已经容不下你了。”

紧跟在“财富”后面的是“虚荣”，也乘着最精致典雅的船只准备离开。“虚荣，请你帮我吧！我必须赶快离开小岛。”“爱”非常有诚意的求他。“我帮不到你啊爱，要是你湿了就会把我的船弄湿，那我的船会坏的。”“虚荣”傲慢地回答。

“妒嫉”离不开“财富”和“虚荣”，很快的就追上了。“妒嫉”的船只，很明显的是前面那两个的翻版，但是翻得很差，“爱”并不在乎，她只想赶快离开快淹没的小岛。听到了“爱”谦逊的请求，“妒嫉”反击说：“当然不行啦，你上了我的船还得了啊？那大家眼里就只有你不会注意到我。这世上最好是没有你的存在。”

“爱”察觉“难过”就在附近，就对“难过”说：“求求你带我走吧！”，但是“难过”惨淡的为自己找借口：“不，你走开，我很难过，难过得我只想一个人静一静！”

到了这个时候，“爱”开始很焦虑，因为水已经升到她的脚面上了。她仿佛听见一些欢乐的笑声，回头看，原来是“幸福”快乐的带着一些船队经过。“幸福，幸福，嗨幸福！”无论“爱”怎样对“幸福”招手，无论她用什么方法引起“幸福”的注意，“幸福”还是没看到她，因为“幸福”太过于沉浸在自己幸福的世界里了。

“爱”在想，自己会变成什么样呢，会不会就因为自私的重量，就永远消失了呢？当她眼睁睁地望着其它感觉慢慢离去时，她怜悯他们，他们拒绝了她，从此就不会懂得爱的存在了。

突然，有人对她说：“来吧，爱，让我带你离开。”这声音的主人是个长辈，样子看起来是属于智慧型的，他很绅士的实现了对“爱”的承诺，把“爱”送到陆地，一路上保持着沉默。他的身份是个谜，因为“爱”太高兴了一时忘了问他的名字。其实，小岛到陆地的距离是很遥远的，可是很奇怪的，一转眼就到了。长辈和蔼可亲的给了她一个微笑，然后离去。

之后，“爱”觉得自己欠长辈的实在是太多了，于是，她去请教“知识”，到底是谁救了她。

“是时间”可敬的“知识”回答，“时间？”“爱”奇怪的问，“为什么时间要帮我呢？”，“知识”微笑着，充满智慧的对她说：“因为，仅有时间才了解爱的重要性”

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Once, there was a beautiful paradise-like island where our Feelings and Qualities lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge - all the array of human emotions, including Love. One day, it was announced to the Feelings that due to the weight of Selfishness the island would soon sink, and everyone should prepare their boats and leave as soon as possible.

All the Feelings made ready to leave without delay – except for Love who had grown so fond of the island she wanted to stay until the last possible moment.

However, after some time of visiting all her friends and favourite places, she realized that the island was fast disappearing and she needed to ask for help from the other departing Feelings to escape.

She spotted Riches leaving in a large luxurious yacht. Love called out in all affection, "Riches, can you take me with you?" Riches replied in a cold and huffy voice, "No, I can't. There is so much gold and silver on board that there is no place for you."

Close behind Riches, came Vanity who was departing the island in a most elegant vessel. “Vanity, please help me! I need to get off the island" Love said in all sweetness. "I can't help you Love. You will get wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered, rather haughtily.

Love then spotted Envy, who seemed inseparable to the duo of Riches and Vanity. Envy’s boat was a rather poor attempt at emulating the other two, but Love did not care – she only wanted to escape the sinking island. On hearing Love’s humble request Envy retorted, “No way. If you come on board who will notice me as people are always thinking about you. The world will be better off without you."

Love then spied Sadness who was coming close behind Envy, so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me go with you." But Sadness excused himself saying rather drearily, "No - go away. I am so sad that I need to be all by myself for a while!"

By this time, Love was growing a little anxious, as the waters were lapping at her feet. But she picked up on hearing the sound of laughter and merriment and saw Happiness coming in a joyful flotilla of small boats. “Hey Happiness! Happiness, hello!” But as much as she tried to get Happiness’ attention it was to no avail – Happiness was too wrapped up in her own pleasure to notice Love’s calls!

She wondered what would happen to her? Would she be lost forever as the island went down under the weight of Selfishness? And as she watched the other Feelings disappearing out of view she felt a well of compassion for them – they had rejected her and would never know the gift of her presence.

Suddenly, she heard a kindly voice, "Come here, Love. I will take you." The owner of the voice was a wise looking elder and true to his word he took her to dry land, all the while keeping a rather reserved silence. His identity remained a mystery as Love felt so overjoyed she forgot to ask his name. And though the journey was over a vast distance, it seemed to go by in a twinkle of an eye. Then the elder went on his own way, giving Love a parting smile of affection.

Later, Love realized how much she owed the esteemed old gentleman and sought out the help of Knowledge. She asked him who had come to her aid.

“It was Time," venerable Knowledge answered. "Time?" wondered Love. "But why did Time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because, only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

我的回憶不是我的

Tuesday, May 11, 2010 2:36 PM

海鳴威我的回憶不是我的

傷心的總會任性　灰心的總會用氣力
將最好的過去　將最多的細碎　鎖到　屬於你的眼睛
失戀的不夠耐性　失戀的不信是注定
于最黑的世界　於最光的刹那感動　屬於你的氣息
即使很多一起過的　想起的通通你的　爲著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見　但承諾可再聽
什麽可不變色

Oh baby
當晚與你記住蒲公英　今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我我承認　回憶也許你的
當晚與你記住流水聲　今晚站在大地　自己傾聽
難道送別你　回頭總是虔誠
誰能怪我　總是太感性

失戀的都有惰性　失戀的都記住約定
當理想的世界　當理想的刹那　因愛無分你的我的
即使很多一起過的　想起的通通你的　爲著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見　但承諾可再聽
什麽可不變色　

Oh baby
當晚與你記住蒲公英　今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我　我承認　回憶也許你的
當晚與你記住流水聲　今晚站在大地　自己傾聽
難道送別你　回頭總是虔誠
誰能怪我　總是太感性

當晚與你記住蒲公英　今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我　我承認　回憶也許你的
當晚與你記住流水聲　今晚站在大地　自己傾聽
難道送別你　回頭總是虔誠
誰能怪我　總是太感性

Exam

Wednesday, April 28, 2010 1:26 PM

My exams start next week!
And my OTIA prelim paper has not arrived from London! Waiting till I grow roots. Damn the school! So slow!

I have summarised notes for Business Mgmt module, I just need to get the models and theories into my brain by next week!

Mgmt maths... I'm quite ok with it. Aiming for A.

Orgn theory... haven't even started memorising because I've been spending too much time studying Business mgmt.

Managerial econs... my last paper... haven't done any past yr paper yet though I've revised through the notes.

I am not well prepared this yr!! It's too late to regret. All I can do is to be productive in my self study sessions.

I've got a friend, crazy over some actor, went to the Star Awards, and doesn't seem to be in her mugging mode. I wonder if she's able to pass her papers...

I can't wait for exams to be over. And I can start exercising again.
6kg to go!

Pizza

Sunday, April 18, 2010 2:53 PM

I added Marilyn, one of the contestants from The Bigges Loser Asia in FaceBook. She showed us what she ate for breakfast and lunch and how to eat healthily. I benefited alot from it, like how I should control the amount of intake and what is considered healthy. Recently she showed us how to make pizza that is only 440 calories! So how much is 440? A Saussage McMuffin burger, BURGER ONLY! is approximately 360 calories, a double cheese burger is about 450. A plate of Hainanese Chicken rice is about 660 calories.

And to burn 440 calories, you can cycle for 1hr non-stop. Jog for 1hour about 230.

So today is actually a cheat-day for me. Actually I had my cheat day yesterday too. Had McBreakfast for brunch. Boo sher! Cheater. haha.

Stay tune for more photos!

The Woman In Me (Needs The Man In You)"

Tuesday, April 06, 2010 3:04 PM

"The Woman In Me (Needs The Man In You)"

I'm not always strong
And sometimes I'm even wrong
But I win when I choose
And I can't stand to lose
But I can't always be
The rock that you see
When the nights get too long
And I just can't go on

The woman in me
Needs you to be
The man in my arms
To hold tenderly
Cause I'm a woman in love
And it's you I run to
Yeah the woman in me
Needs the man in you

When the world wants too much
And it feels cold and out of touch
It's a beautiful place
When you kiss my face

The woman in me
Needs you to be
The man in my arms
To hold tenderly
Cause I'm a woman in love
And it's you I run to
Yeah the woman in me
Needs the man in you

Yeah the woman in me
Needs the man in you

I need you baby
Yeah yeah Oh baby...

Two months! I have not listen to my ipod for close to two months. The chinese fever had died down. Mum introduced me to a few 'newer' oldies after I introduced to her a website that can download music. I'm listening to Lobo (very nice!), Shania Twain, Cliff Richard, Bee Gees, John Lennon, Bellamy Brothers. There's tonnes of other singers that she wants to intro, but I didn't even hear about them before.

Saturday, April 03, 2010 12:45 AM

My cute dog - Max
Happy 2nd Birthday Mireille

Mango New York Cheesecake

Chocolate Truffle Cake

24th Birthday

Wednesday, March 24, 2010 12:14 AM

First and foremost, I want to sincerely thank all of my friends who took their time, effort, and money in celebrating my birthday; and those who have wished me birthday in fb, sms; I really appreciate them. Never would I have thought people would bother to click and comment a Happy Bday in fb despite not seeing and contacting them for ages.

On Thursday, I went out with Agnes. The rest couldn't make it due to work. had mushroom chicken burger, while she ate her heathy salad. So much for losing weight Sherylyn! Then we had Peach Waffer with Vanilla icecream for dessert. Wonderful.

On Friday morning, the actual day, I was told that something would be at my doorstep by 10.30am. Turn out....... tada!! A macdonald's delivery man delivered a Deluxe Breakfast Set from dearest Van to Sher. Was craving for this actually:)

That night, I went on my second date with Carol! But there were no photos because I forgotten to pack my camera after charging the battery! This celebration with Carol is indeed a memorable one. She bought me to Parkroyal Hotel for a buffet! And silly me thought she's gonna bring me to geylang because I mentioned eating anywhere is fine, even 85. haha.. And we had not just one mystery guest, but two! Lihao and Phebe! This bubbly Phebe hasn't change abit in her bubbly attitude, oh she did change! She became slimmer. I wish I had her legs.

And so after that we went to catch a movie "Remember Me". Both of them dropped me another surprise. When I got home, Carol smsed me to ask me look for my presents. Apparently she secretly sneek them into my bag! I like the creative 'S' in a box that you did :) Talking to them just remind me of the past. Time flies. Wanna thank CAROL and PHEBE for spending the whole night with me.

On Saturday, met up with Van. After we reached our destination, she gave me my present which left my mouth wide open for 30 seconds. I didn't wanted to accept but I know she will say I'm siao. She gave me a Gucci bag. No la.. Just kidding! Haha. Thanks dear Van. Maybe this phrase learnt in church is still applicable "When you love somebody, you will willing give with all your heart and soul" something to that point. I waited with anticipation for the wagyu beef burger that we will be eating @ PS Cafe. Here's some photos:

PS Burger: Wagyu beef, bacon, fried onions, tomatoe, veg, fries, unique sauce (w tinge of lemongrass)

Mushroom penne with cheese

Our day ended at Timbre. I drank Sol beer for the first time, upon Van's recommendation. It tasted nice! Feel refreshing! Band was good! Companion was great! It was truely amazing how things went so so so so smoothly. Never did I experience things like that, especially on a Saturday. What happended was...

#1 We parked at a certain paking place in Orchard that has the cheapest parking rates. I was expecting myself to wait aimlessly for a lot. Who knows... the moment I got in there, a couple was getting out. Got a parallel parking lot. But it's ok :)

#2 Drove down to PS Cafe without getting lost. Found a lot near PS Cafe.

#3 Drove down to Timbre without getting lost too. Found a lot in Liang Court within a few mins.

#4 Timbre was packed by the time we reached. We waited for hmm...30 - 40 mins for our seat. Initially we got the aircon seats, inside the bar. But after requesting, they gave us seats right beside the band.

#5 Didn't get lost going home

Wanna thank Van for spending the whole day with me!

On Sunday, went to meet Jianrong and Van (again! haha). This time, tai-tai Van took us to an ATAS place called Spruce. By then, my stomach is upset. In fact, on Sat nigh, I was in discomfort. Couldn't sleep well as I was feeling nausea. I guess it was the the concoction of food and alcohol and constipation that cause this discomfort. I nearly wanted to cancel the appointment, but knowing they made the effort and all, I don't wanna be a wet blanket. Nonethless, had my English Breakfast Tea, while JR had his mega huge sausage, and Van and her burger.

No photos because I wasn't feeling well. No mood.

I think it's because of all the food and all, my stomach was churning and churning, feeling SO bloated and queasy. Feeling nausea all the time. I slept on Sunday 3pm (e moment I reached home) till next day 8am. Had fever the whole night. Doctor said it was due to indigestion and constipation. No appetite for the next few days. Now, I am 3kg lighter, and with slight bloatedness. =)

I honestly truthfully don't blame anybody for this, only can blame my weak stomach.
But I'm getting much better as days go by :)

To sum this whole 24th celebration, I felt so blessed and fortunate to have good friends around to celebrate with. Thank you guys so much for your effort.