I don't know what changed in the last 4 months (other than Londyn getting 4 months older) but it is like night and day taking her picture lately. Before, I could not bribe her for anything to face the camera. As soon as she saw me pull it out she ran away (something Jacey still does, therefore no picture of Jacey today.) But now she is old enough to think it's cool to see herself on the little preview screen on the back of the camera. Vanity? Perhaps. Or maybe just curiosity. After I took her picture this morning and showed it to her, I asked "Do you want to take another one?" She said yes, so I said "Okay - sit down and look at me." And she did! Can it really be that easy? (I really hope I'm not jinxing myself here.) How can I get Jacey to follow suit? Or William for that matter? He looks annoyed in every picture I take of him.
Do you see that yellow spot on her forehead? Poor bean took a tumble on Saturday and had a goose-egg like nothing I've ever seen before. I thought about cloning it out, but it is what it is.
I'm trying to think what we've been up to lately and it must not have been much because I'm stumped. Will's been working with Jacey on trying to sound out simple words (dog, cat, . . . you get the point) and she is getting pretty good at it. She is so excited about learning new things right now - it's really fun to see. Also a little scary for me as her mom - the whole mommy guilt thing kicks in. You know, the "these are her formative years where she absorbs knowledge like a sponge so I better not waste them" sort of mommy guilt. I really loved Elder Ballard's talk this past conference. I'll admit that when I first heard it, it actually made me feel really guilty. But I've read it again since then and I don't think that's the spirit it was given in. Although I realize that if I feel guilty it's probably because I do need to make some changes and adjustments. One of my favorite parts of that talk was when he quoted Anna Quindlen :
"The biggest mistake I made [as a parent] is the one that most of us make. . . . I did not live in the moment enough. This is particularly clear now that the moment is gone, captured only in photographs. There is one picture of [my three children] sitting in the grass on a quilt in the shadow of the swing set on a summer day, ages six, four, and one. And I wish I could remember what we ate, and what we talked about, and how they sounded, and how they looked when they slept that night. I wish I had not been in such a hurry to get on to the next thing: dinner, bath, book, bed. I wish I had treasured the doing a little more and the getting it done a little less.”
I love that. I've seen that quote floating around in different places but for some reason it really hit me differently coming from an Apostle. And while we're on the subject of quotes, let me share another one. First, a little background. I am scared of the world. I am terrified that someday the influence of the world may be stronger over my children than the influence of their mother. I feel that pressure. Every single day. And it doesn't help that that worldly influence gets more and more evil as the years go by. I've had this conversation with my mom, my sister, and just about every other mom I know. How do I keep them safe from this evil, screwed up world? Well on Saturday we went over to Marie and Ky's for Mason's birthday. After the kids had cake and ice cream, I hung behind to help clean up in the kitchen. As I went to throw some paper plates in the trash can, I glanced at the fridge and saw that Marie had put this quote up on it.
"You have a choice. You can wring your hands and be consumed with concern for the future or choose to use the counsel the Lord has given to live with peace and happiness in a world awash with evil. If you choose to concentrate on the dark side, this is what you will see. Despite pockets of evil, the world overall is majestically beautiful, filled with many good and sincere people. God has provided a way to live in this world and not be contaminated by the degrading pressures evil agents spread throughout it. You can live a virtuous, productive, righteous life by following the plan of protection created by your Father in Heaven: His plan of happiness." - Elder Richard G. Scott
It stopped me in my tracks. And without going into too much detail or making this post any longer than it already is, I'll simply say that know this is a true statement. And I think it really answered my question in a way that made sense to my spirit. Which probably sounds weird, but I don't know how else to describe it.
I really had no intention of going here with this post. But, alas, here we are. Still, I think that's enough deep thought for one day. Let's end with this quote instead.
Q: How do you shoot a blue elephant?
A: With a blue elephant gun, of course.
Q: How do you shoot a red elephant?
A: You strangle him until he turns blue, and then shoot him with a blue elephant gun.
Happy Wednesday. :)