Blocked

Honesty is the best policy and confession is good for the soul. To be honest, 2013 has been a pretty rotten year for art (so far). I've been creatively blocked for months. Sure, I sit in my studio and dabble. A little here, a little there. It may amount to a few decent pieces before it's all said and done. But, for someone who has been as prolific as I have since 2004 when I started this collage madness, it's been a pretty frustrating few months. The last couple of weeks I have experienced a small surge of passion again. I'm hoping that will snowball into a furious time of art-making. Forgive the rambling mess this is going to be. I don't have the words to make sense of all this. I'm just tired. To the best of my ability, I'm going to try and put all those things that make me tired behind me. I want art-making to be fun again. I feel like somewhere along the way I lost myself. I feel like I've been making art for other people. In the end, I've gotta get back to making art for me. I need to recapture the passion, the joy that I've experienced in the past. I'm not sure how I'm going to accomplish this but I know it needs to happen. If I can't make it happen, I'm not sure I can continue. I can't tell you how many times I've thought of just canceling all my shows, clearing out the studio and just stopping. It got to the point where art was making me feel bad instead of good. That has to stop...one way or another. So, this is my confession. It's been a rotten year but it can be salvaged. I just have to figure it out.