urcy.

united, we stand. divided, we fall.

you know how bits and pieces of what we go through form parts of who we are today? those days in unity redcrossyouth formed a large part of me. urcy gave was the place i begin to grow my interest in community services, where i developed much of the leadership skills which i have today. Through it, i overcame a large part of my fear of speaking in from of a large group, and i developed the self-discipline, endurance and the ability to remain calm in bad situations. a large part of me today.

it contains precious memories, too many to share, formed precious friendships.

ms kowk would always remind us, "because we are small, we must stand united, and show others that although we are small, but we are strong."

yes, we are small, but that is why we are a family. I knew of schools where the seniors and juniors are in their own separate group. but in urcy, we were always one. because we are small. i knew of how in other schools, juniors have to stop and say "good morning sir/ma'am" when they meet their seniors anywhere in school on a normal school day, but we would smile and wave and i even declared that kingngee was mine on a random school day. because we are small. every friday, we would be at macdonalds. even after graduation, i could join them for dinner, as though I was still part of them. because we are small.

but because we are small, people tend to ignore our existence among the large groups. not realising that this small bunch has been the ones restocking the first aid supplies in school offices, always ready to attend to the sick and injured as and when required.

because we are small, now they say, we can be done away.

as much as i would like to do something about it, the fact is that, there is little that i can do, after graduating and not knowing the new YO. they have been trying to close us down since i was in secondary two, we have indeed survived a long way from then. yes, we had our good years.

so to the seniors who taught me much about "in order to be a good leader, you have to first be a good follwer", and juniors who worked so hard to build things up,

we have built a beautiful legacy together, and let's just say, it's worth it.

united, we stand. divided, we fall.

we have not failed our vision.

what is no-life?

when its friday and you're home doing assignments.

ramblings.

back in the world of endless readings and reflections.

yes, i feel intellectual suddenly. yay.nehhhh.

did i mention that i like school? as nerdy as it sounds, i enjoy school and i enjoy the fact that i get to sit around with my textbooks, two highlighters and my pencil just reading and scribbling. i just dont like assignments. but this is what it becomes of me when I get deprive of good storybook reading time; i read textbooks. lol. this is call... finding joy in what you are doing. so i declare that my new hobby is now reading!...textbooks. sad no life i know. and i am maintaining this no life life for the next 5 more weeks. looking on the bright side, its just... 20 more school days.

at times i get amused at myself.. how you know some people would rather socialise and all,and i prefer sitting in a corner reading. super autistic, but at times i really do feel that i lack the social interaction ability (except that rare incident with julie). but this semester's module is on literacy, speech acquisition, mentoring and helping children cope with stress.. and i am learning more about myself in such interesting ways. OH and the irony of it all, we get stressed out doing the assignments for 'helping children cope with stress'.

SO, today, we watched a documentary "fingers of God" collated by darren wilson in church today, and I just had to blog about it. very often, we wonder about miracles... and honestly I am a skeptic myself at times when I hear of miracles and healings. In this documentary, darren wilson went around for about a year filming and documenting the miracles in churches all over the world where God was pouring out His Spirit upon and throughout the movie, I just kept feeling a stirring in my heart. can you imagine.. lame that were prayed and they walked, the blind that see, the deaf that hear, and the ultimate of it all, the dead coming back to life and testifying. The radical christians in china, in Iraq, and places where they are persecuted, the gypsies who are hated by the people but so loved by God. And from the video, I was reminded of the pure faith of children, and what "normal christianity" is really about.

and as disgusting as it may sound, i actually wrote a reflection after watching the movie. HAH! win hands down i know. all those drilling from wheelock about reflections reflections reflections. I may just become a reflective practitioner afterall muahaha.

did you know that the famous writer C.S. Lewis was a Christian?

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."
— C.S. Lewis

beautiful quote that explains it all.

WHEE 2011

haha i know this space is practically dead i wonder if anyone else actually does come here. owells, good for memory keeping, after all this blog has been with me since.. 2006. I guess the blog kinda started with the intention of keeping secondary school friends updated about my life, but i guess along the way we all grow up and moved away from "blogging" and gradually i also lost touch with many of them. and yes, every year at certain times, i look back at the past memories, and i miss those good old days of countdown. our first attempt at orchard on Christmas eve was horrendous I remember, scary in fact. then the overnights at yel's, tonning pass midnight and having her dad as santa clause. I remember the birthday celebrations... those were good memories=) sometimes i think i want to be sixteen again.

2010 has gone in a flash. 2010 has been a significant year with graduation and wheelock. And i foresee another interesting year this year, with its fair share of school stress and commitments. and through 2010, i learnt to trust God in His plans, and in 2011, I really hope to taste more of His goodness, and to become more discerning towards His voice. haha other than these, I refuse to do further reflections because I have like a WHOLE LOT of reflections waiting for me to complete for school, starting tmr=(

haha, so yes, the holidays have been well-spent. even though majority of my holidays were spent at work, I came to know my cohort-mates better, made new friends, and had the opportunity to work at a child study centre. On hindsight, I now realised that it was a blessing God has blessed me with, because the weeks there have caused me to realise a whole lot about my own teaching philosophy and allowed me to have a privileged experience. And then there was my family trip to genting which was amusing for me. and then there was youth camp=) even though i spent alot of free time in my room reading reading reflecting (YES, no life please), I thank God for giving me the get-away I really needed, and just to be refreshed in Him once again. OH and i especially love my room! haha its really comfy and the bed is wahhh best. and not to forget the very fact that i could see the sunrise from my window=)





and how can i forget Christmas!=D this year, deon and I baked nutella cupcakes for churchies=) spent a whole-half-day at his place just baking.. we baked likeee 100 cupcakes in all i think. used a combination of a recipe that Julie passed me, plus one i saw off the net and YAY! it was a success=) and of course, credit goes to my labourer deon=) haha he's always the one doing the labourous jobs.








now time to say goodbye to all the fun, and crazy six weeks, I WILL CONQUER YOU!

im a blessed blessed one.