me ish nort ur typikal scholar.

I.
don't.like.to.be.called.as.a.scholar.
I.
don't.like.to.be.introduced.as.a.scholar.
I.
don't.like.to.wear.a.name-tag.with.the.word.scholar.
I.
don't.even.feel.like.a.scholar.

really. i dont feel smart at all, so dont treat me like im all smart and all able. I really dont like expectations like these. My scholarship is a gift from God and so I am extremely grateful for it, but i really dont like the strings of expectations that go along with it.

first day at a new place. having to adapt to a new team and a whole centre of children. overwhelming to a certain extent. please please God, help me able to handle all these (plus expectations T.T)

live life

havent been bothered to blog because of my new 8.30-6 job=) am at the HQ to do some research tasks with the other few scholars & spon-sers. Work is really alot of fun here, being constantly entertained by the other five of them, the jokes that pops out and hilarious moments. I got to know my classmates better, especially the few whom i thought were very fierce (because of their default faces. HAH julie you're not alone). ate alot of snacks and good food (since we're near old airport hawker) and cup noodles. will be going to the caterpillar cove next week to continue some research projects, im hoping that it'll be fun, and im certainly looking forward to Christmas. =)

and,
i JUST HAVE TO blog this. HAH.
work is a lot of new topic to talk about everyday among the six of us. we've covered all the weird topics you can think of and today we were just talking about the recent news about the murder case. and it is just extremely impactful in the sense that the guy probably didnt see it coming for him, just like how i believe most of the time we don't see the end of a life. and as usual, since we're doing research, we decided to research/stalk some people/information related to the case, and it saddens me to realise that hey, the boy and the group of murderers are normal students, just like any of us, with dreams and hopes, and JUST a wrong decision led to an irreversible consequence.

SO, here the six of us were talking about brain-dead, coma and stuff...
Me: "i think its very sad if you die without being able to talk to or tell your loved ones."
Sheila:"That's why we must all start blogging regularly so that when we die people (like us) can search for our blog and read about our lives"
Yen: "then the blog call what? i know, Death Note (the movie)"
Yen is the best, seriously=)