graduation=)

first, i shall rant.=) i am extremely angry with the woman who refused to refund me my deposit for the graduation gown because there was a stain on it (SO TEENY=.=) and it was at a super weird place where i dont think i would have touched it to stain it. she said that stain is cause by ink when the robe was placed on a table or something and my robe/gown/whatever was stuck in the plastic holder all the way how could i stain it. =.= seriously. she said that stain cannot be removed and hence, my 30 bucks deposit cannot be reclaimed and she ask me to just bring home the robe/gown. 38 bucks. SO YES. i have a robe/gown sitting in my house and i duno what to do with it. anyone wanna purchase it from me =.= (julie you can wear it as your pyjamas in UK. I bet harry potter is pretty popular there)

OKAY=)

So for graduation gift, i bought some of them wind wheels (im sure there's another name for it. hmm.) initially wanted to get them flowers, but i spotted these instead. To me, it symbolises freedom and simplicity. graduation is the final end to our three years of studies, we're finally free. But i guess most ultimately what i wish for my friends is that even as each of them pursue their dreams, as they face an entire new set of challenges, they'll always remember the innocence of children, that they'll always be honest and true to themselves.

so yes=) graduation was pretty alright. havent woke up so early to get to school before. haa=) was supposed to report at 8am. So met busmate doti (sadly probably for the last time=,( ) and we took bus tgt=) it is always nice chatting and catching things up with her on bus journeys. I'm really going to miss my busmate alot when i get to wheelock. Lonely busrides=( owells. in the conference hall, was seated separated from the rest as i was receiving the diploma with merit. felt so "outcasted" as nicole described. i was hoping that we could all sit together as a class, but every one was separated. it felt weird watching my friends go on stage, thinking of how we used to walk pass the covention centre telling each other "two more years!" and "one more year!". Graduation which felt so far back then, was unfolding before my eyes. so ya-da ya-da ceremony, it was finally my turn. my tiny little figure in harry potter robe julie says my shoes was glaring. HAHAHA=)

after the ceremony, managed to gather part of the class to take class photo=) but presenting first, my parents=)
my very brave daddy and mummy who braved through the boredem of the ceremony. i think my parents like more excited than me for my graduation. lol! and deon came for it too=) thank you for waking up early to attend before rushing to school=) appreciate it=)

then it was photo taking with some of them cus i couldnt find many of them=( firstly macy=) photos are blur though=( macy macy=) my very first friend in class. you've always been someone who stick by me through these 3 years, im going to feel so lost without you in wheelock=X
quek quek who made my life in poly so much more interesting=) thankyou for teaching me to be louder and braver=)
ms jhope, my good research + whining to friend. despite you being the kind that cannot stand whiners, you still bear with me, let me give you occasional hugs and call you cute and sweet=) im seriously gonna miss you when you go UK=( missing macy cause i couldnt find her. M2J2 since year one=) busmate! dorothy tay, im going to miss you so much. bubbletea time at least once every 6 months okay! HAHA=) (deborah missing cus she enjoying her holidays) jess=) im so glad that you're back in church now=) hahs! im gonna miss someone calling me "mother melisa" at every beginning of every new module when we have to introduce ourselves. leonice dear=) who has really been a sweetheart these three years. you're a really sweet and kind-hearted girl, dont let anyone take that away from you okay!=) with bubbly ana and shelby=) gentle yanling sweet nicole=) i still rmb that day sitting outside esplanade with these few of them, and them telling me "mel! go for it". hahas. and you know, this is what i would say to you too nic! when you find it back oneday "nic! go for it" *winks* and shikin! i'll see you in wheelock=)

Lastly, this awesome class of girls. im going to miss each and every one of you so much. thank you for giving me such a-we-so-me three years. let's all really do try to keep in contact okay! 3C02!


so graduation has ended, this chapter has ended.
i'm grateful for these memories.

Countdowns

In the sleeping room now watching the kids nap. And the thing I want to do now, is to sleep-.-zz

but I can't. So here am I.

Counting down 4 days to graduation, 5 working days to end of work, and a 18 days break before I'm heading back to school. Three months has gone so fast. Today before one of my babies went to sleep, he kissed my hand goodnight. Back at class, one boy told me that 'ms neo, I love you.' and this loyal boy told teacher Pauline that he wants nobody else but 'ms neo'. Sweet moments like these that makes me want to stay on with them in this class. But I know when I leave, pretty soon they'll forget me. And it's kind of sad because I love each of them very much. Especially my full day babies. Though they can really frustrate me at times, but they do, say and think hilarious things at times, it's still a joy to be with them.

One who constantly gets himself into trouble but has a really nice heart, one who cries every morning but really bubbly by noon, stubborn one who has learn to share, tiny ones who knows how to take care of tiny friends, cheeky ones who really make my day.
My partner teacher is also really fun to work with, the teachers around are helpful and has good sense of humour. I enjoy work here each and every day.

Can't help it, I'm a sentimental person. I hate farewells.

Soon it'll be back to mugging and chionging. Oh, and thank God, I managed to qualify for the scolarship I applied. It's really by God's grace, because I did horribly for the interview I know. So I guess perhaps those tests that we took impressed them? Don't know. But best of it all, it's God's providence.

feeling your heart beating.

i wish time would stop there and then.
such beautiful melody, such precious company.

you see, we are all not perfect. some times things happen that is not within our control, but God is still in control. whatever it may be, i know that it has all already been established in God's hand.

Friends friends

It was nice being at yel's house with yel, gel, huix, dy, baoxiang and dallas last night=) despite not meeting them since a long time.. It was good to be there with them, basking in the presence of familarity and unit-ness. I kinda miss those stayovers. It was like a tradition to stay over on yel's birthday and Christmas back then. Didn't stay over ytd though because I was worn out from work. But it was nice, that few hours just rotting on yel's couch watching 'the proposal' and a short catch up with huix. Nice to have baoxiang calling me huiwan and knowing that Dallas is more girl than me. Lol! Maybe I'm just a no-life girl who didn't have time to watch shows like brides war, ugly truth, Julie & Julia (or something. Only rmb Julie. Ha!) so yes, I miss the remaining polymers michy, nana, Aaron, siulung.. Those stuck in army like eug, wenjin.. Those I've not met for a long time like val, mark, yus

Haha I think the whole 'growing up' thing is making me think alot about fun happy crazy unity days with units. Cca leaders days. Redcross days. Macs days. Chalet days. This is a whole good 4/5 years part of my life. Until I started being so packed with school and work.

Maybe I'm a little insecure knowing that I'll be out of comfort zone soon with graduation. And maybe I'm insecure now that Deon has started school with many new cool fun friends. Maybe because I'm a super introverted slow-to-warm up person.. I want back times with these friends.

But of course HB you don't have to worry=) u're secured as my bestie

He is in control

how could i miss, Lord Your lordship over all

i was so blind, that i couldn't see

You were in control, of my every situation

and now i stand in awesome wonder

I'm so grateful that You're still in control

I'm so grateful Your love is always faithful

now i see Your hands o Lord

in my life You're moulding me

into Your likeness, Lord have Your way in me.

in the past, i used to confide in a very good friend during a difficult period of time. I used to question coincidences, telling him that i believe that coincidences are as though God's way of telling me that i am right, because during the period of time, i was so consumed by my own selfish intentions, i failed to see that it was something else. It wasn't a matter of "God's will" or not, but it was God's way of showing and telling me that He is in control. Whenever i wanted to see this person, i would pray and ask God about it, and boom! I'll see that person the very next moment. haha now that i think of it, it's pretty funny.

But as time passes, I saw things more clearly. God was trying to show me, that He is in control. that nothing was out of what He has planned for me and by allowing it to happen, He was still there with me. And each time i look back, im just so grateful that He remained faithful.

and so, i told my very good friend, that coincidences are God's way of showing us that He is in control. and today as we sang this song in church, i was just amazed, in awesome wonder of God's love and His faithfulness.

and i remembered about a testimony i shared previously. A few weeks ago, i fell sick and was really tired. however because thursday is my full-shift at work, I didnt want to trouble another teacher to take over my shift that day, so i went ahead to work. While on the way, i was praying and telling God that I really was well that day and I hope that my shift could end early that day so that i can go see a doctor. Working there for the past weeks, i knew that it's difficult to leave by 7pm and there are chances of parents coming even after 7pm. But somehow that day, I just told God that it would be great if i could leave by 6.45pm.

and so, came evening when i finished my last "lesson" and i went down to the classroom, i was surprised to find that those few children whose parents are know to be late usually have all gone home already! (it was like only 5.30). gradually over the next hour, children left and by 6.30, i was left with a few more children. initially i thought "there goes going home early". but within the next minutes, parents came one after another. finally when all the children were gone, me and another assistant left the centre. As i walked out, i checked the time on my phone, and it was 6.45pm sharp.

you see, it's so wonderful being a child of God. it isn't at all all about coincidences. But because God is able, He is faithful, and He is in control of our every situation.