zutto.

heart say.
heart thought.
forever in my heart.

2C02

i am so proud of myself.
*pats my back*
i actually went to jog.
yes. i FINALLY ran after..
NAFA in sec4? hmm
i think i did ran once last year
but yups.
im so proud that after that many days of procasination,
i finally ran =)


we did something interesting today =)
in FP tutorial class, our lecturer distributed post-its to all of us
asking us to write a note to our classmates
to encourage, thank them etc=)
and so we all did
recieved several sweet thoughts =)




im really glad that im in this class with these awesome girls=)
being in this class was a HUGE deal of transition for me
becus its an all girls class and its weird after being in a mixed school for 13 years of my life
but being with these girls is really nice
i really made many valuable friends who were there through my tears, heartaches, smiles, laughter, joy. =)
everyone is really supportive and lovely
encouraging each other on especially when projects get really tough
so im really really realy thankful to be in C02 with them=)

and of cus..
these girls who added so much fun to my mundane life=)
and taught me to be a better person.

thankyou C02=)
thankyou girls=)
mel love you all!

salmon!

i am a happy girl because.

SALMON SUSHI =D


i cannotcannotcannotcannot RESIST those soft orange thing with white stripes
so yups! there i was with julie at lot one, and i spotted a new sushi stall at basement.
and YES. SALMON =D
so i just happily ate SIX of it
so im a satisfied girl for now=D

i lovelovelove salmon sushi to the max. =)
and i lovelovelove salmon SASHIMI to max's max.

i can NEVER resist this=D
add some lemon to it. along with the jap soya sauce

i can flyyyy=D

so yes. im dreaming of more salmon sushi now as im typing.
salmonnnn
my comfort food number1.
i miss eating salmon at the food court with yelyn=)
my salmon sushi partner in sec sch.
hahas. and the lovely memories that comes along with my salmon sushi
makes my num1 comfort food even more comforting=)

so yups!
enough of my salmon.
though im dying to have more of it
yesterday was my grandma's birthday
so went down to ah mah's house after redcross meeting.
i love bukit ho swee. my hometown. my childhood place.
those who heard my childhood stories would agree that i grew up in a kampong way. LOL i love my primary school back then.
but it's no longer there already=(
but still, i love that place ALOT
though i was really young back then, i can vividly rmb many things=)


and of cus, im always amazed by how 20+,30+ ppl can fit into that 3room flat.
you barely have space to walk around.

hahas=)
so this is where i grew up (at least till i was 7)
and i love my childhood home.

( done by my elder sis=) )


i know deep in my heart
it doesn't matter if it's wrong or right.

today.

im happy today=)

cause today i heard the wonderful news from hazelnutty=)
lots of luck for tues!
i'll be seeing her in np next tues as well=D

went for the ECH homecoming thingy with julie

the school was sooo empty

see from the top of the mountain view=P
hahs. anw it was a little boring.
was kinda expecting them to talk about the future perspective fields
and have interesting stage perfomance
but yups! photos!




hahas.
then i met yus on the bus home from school=D
with her very cute mom=)
so HAPPY to see bestie=) the funny thing was that julie actually spotted her before i did and even though i was lk right in front of yus, she didnt notice me! haha

then at cck, i met dallas=)
hahs. havent seen him for a longgg time
in fact havent seen unitians for a longggg time
yups then when i was going home, i met baoxiang=)
talked for awhile before heading back=)

seeing unity ppl always make my day.
miss secondary school days.
lol

on a random note, im sooo in love with this new pair of high heels i saw in mondo T.T

OKAY.
time to do work. byebye


add some colours.

crazy friday

today is friday=)

i love fridays!
though the weekends are packed
still, it's FRIDAY! =D

hahas=) today was rather eventful
first was speech test.
this time round we had to promote something
so i promoted P.OSH BROWNIES =D
i lovelovelove the brownies=)
rmb those sec sch days where josiah used to bring to sell in sch
then i guess when he graduated, it kinda disappeared.
and then i found it back at douby ghaut xhange!
now there's more flavours.
TOASTED MARSHMELLOW=D made my day today


yups. so i bought samples to class to share while promoting
and my lecturer told me that she'll definitely go get it=)
hahas. YES GO GET IT. the brownies are d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s=D
lovelovelove!
hahas. another to add on to my list of comfort food=)

yups. DLE was interesting too.
did a right brainer or left brainer test
and im a right one and one of the characteristic of a right brainer is to be "random" =) SO that explains my superrr randomness at many times=)
hahs. met maurice in the library while doing project
and he was nice enough to lend me his lappy cus mine, macy and deb's lappies refused to connect to NPnet.
=) seeing unity ppl in sch always makes me happpyyyy =)

went down douby to meet julie who was nearby then headed to HQ to collect keys for meeting.
AND. i fell again T.T
cus of the slippery drain thingy
i slided rather gracefully and landed without a sound. T.T
and i fell right in front of this driver who was Just nice getting out of his car
and yes. His reaction was classic=)
i think i stunned him=)
hahas AND according to julie, i was clinging to my lappy for my dear life so yups.
somehow rather, she caught my lappy and not me again=(
HAHA.

anw, tuition today was crazy.
my tuition kid proposed to me. LOL
SO FUNNY. kids are so innocent.
he went "tmr i going imm with my mummy. then i go buy flowers then we can have wedding"
and i was like "huh?" LOL
"you marry me okay? we have wedding and marry"
LOLLOLLOL i really couldnt contain my laughter
then he asked "are you pri 1,2,3,4 or more"
and i was like "im not in primary. I finished primary school, secondary school. I'm very old"
and he said "nvm, tmr we can marry. i love you"
LOLLOL
T.T how do you explain to a 7 year old that you can't marry him.
hahas=)


just want you to know
but you'll never understand.

rest.

tireddd.

i feel myself getting more and more tired each day.
with major headaches on and off
with all the work that's piling up and exam's round the corner
i really am praying that i wun fall sick any time soon

i know i should be doing my projects
so many that are due next week
but i just find myself unable to think of anything
my eyes closing.
i feel like sleeping.
but i have not gotten anything done.
like nothing done.
i don't even know if i have time to study for the FM test and exams

and
sometimes, its so disappointing.
sometimes, its so frustrating.
and it made me ask myself
"what am i doing all this for"
and many times, i really feel like giving up.
because all the effort sowed really reap almost nothing

lol. but it's always a passing thought.
i guess this thought just came back to me again for this while.
it'll be gone in a jiffy.
i guess i just need a break.

at times like this, i really miss him.
and i really miss those walks in the park.
the stars.
it has been so long.

ANW
YUPS. last fri i finally went down to renci

havent visited them for a longg time.
nice talking to uncle goh again=)
too bad din get to see jinghua aunty cus she shifted to another renci
but im really glad i went down=)
and i was so proud of myself
went down to visit my grandmas on sunday after soooo long
managed to converse in hokkien with them=D
hahas although my dialect is rather CMI one.
but still, im glad i went down.

last attachment ytd.
didnt manage to take photographs with the kids
but im glad i got to go to toddler class=)
i guess im thankful to be attached to this centre cus i really learnt alot through the challenges
and in fact just when we were about to go off, i felt a little sad to leave
i guess even though the K2s can be a handful,
they can be a really sweet bunch.
and the playgroup toddlers are just so adorable and sweet.
with their "i love you *muacks*"
ur heart can really melt=)
lol. owell.
attachment is really a good experience i guess.

on a random note=D
EH MELISA.
you better jiayou!

thats me
=)

sundial dreams.

beautiful beautiful 'sundial dream' playing on my itunes now.
the memories that are just so precious
so beautiful.
i don't ever want to forget.
=)

tots.

what can i do to make you happy?
i just want to see you smile.

原来要忘记一个人并不容易

school.

im feeling slightly relaxed now after wed and thurs=D
i deserve a good break now
before i continue the project marathon XP

next wed's last attachment!
for this sem at least. and somehow im really glad that it'll be over soon
because i really need a break from it.
this sem's attachment wasnt as enjoyable as the previous year
so YES. im glad that the last lesson was implemented and assessed by my mentor
and thank God the children actually listened and enjoyed themselves=)
so yay!

today was another load off my mind
because Maths Learning coner set up is O-V-E-R =D
hahas. thanks ALOT to jolene and her dad=)
cus they picked me and the huge cardboard and stuffs from my house over to school
yups.
this time round i guess we made our learning centre less sophisticated
but it was still rather welcoming i guess=)
pictures!
welcome to our maths corner=D




hahas=) and that day we were making this


sticking the ladybirds to the pegs
and i was thinking of YELYN=)
if you're reading this, YELYN, u're so missed=)
yups!





WAH
im so proud of these=)
HAHA. i actually succeeded pretending to be a 5yr old kid and do all these =P
see my handwriting like small kids'=) hahas
yups!
so after corner set-up =)
took photos with the girls=)


with macy=)

with jolene=)

and julie=)

=) i realise i din take with deb an jess =(
yups and leonice=)

and busmate dorothy=)

and yanling! lol i miss attachment at ulu pandan with her =(


so yups


after all the hard work and mess
we eventually have to clean up the place
and throw away many of those materials made=(
but i really enjoyed looking at everyone's centres
yay!
i think everyone did a great job! hahas=P

so im really tired now from all those projects
so im going to sleep really early today =D
and get rid of my nemotic eyes!

OH did i mentioned what nana mich wenjin ahbang got me for my birthday?

this L’OREAL Hydrafresh Gel which provides "all day freshness anti-dark circles eye cream gel"
HAHA=) get rid of my nemotic eyes!

In one of my random mood today
where i just don't want to care about anything
there's just too much thoughts in my head
and i don't want to think about any of them

last week was a crazy week.
everyday was packed.
so in between school and poly experience
me julie and jolene headed down to IMM to get our baking stuffs

i wanted to bake gingerbreadman
but the neck broke=( so yups
i baked my star cookies which turned out to be pretty cute=D

yups. So on saturday morning, i headed over to yus=)
i think her mom is so cute and so cool! HAH
they were so nice to let me crashed their house to bake=)

tadaa. all the ingredients=) plus my mom's oldschool recepie book which wasnt very helpful=P

this is yus who was trying to seive the flour.
lol! baking with this girl is crazy.
we had a great laugh trying to make the mixer mix the butter and sugar without the mixture flying all over the place.
And yus did it! HAHA=) we discovered the secret manual on working the mixer ;P
yups hahas! and when the recepie says "add a dash a salt" THAT crazy girl really took some salt and dashed it to the mixing bowl. LOL




so after much mixing, moulding and learning quite a bit of baking things from yus's mom, we finally managed to get the mixture ready..
and so I cut out all the stars =)
and yus added the m&ms
and we sent them to bake =D


so proud of the final product =D

thanks to yus! =)
i was able to make a bottle of cookies=D

yups.
my cookies are all gone now. either given away or eaten by my dad who kupped so many when i wasnt at home.
hahas.
i wanna bake again! =D

anw, as mentioned earlier,
im in a very random and sian mood today.
where i refused to set my mind thinking.
so i ponned AW and came home.
after blogging i have to start on my work.
T.T

~~*
in the silence of the night, she sat under the tree, music blasting through her earphones. Overhead, she watched the stars sparkle in their beautiful nightgown. Such serenity that surrounds, yet it was fear within her. She had been waiting. Each minute that passed felt like a slow motion of the seconds. When will he appear? Will he even be here?
A shadow loomed over her, that familiar figure with a voice that was once so dear. He sat down beside her. Was he too afraid to look at her? The two sat, absorbing the silence, with an invisible membrane separating them, filtering away each thought and emotion. She could not break through this wall he built, can he break through that shield that surrounds her?

her story.