27th.

today God blessed me with a special day!

=)
it's nice talking to a friend whom i havent talked to in a longgg time
was surprised to see his name appear on my hp screen
but it was really nice chatting with him over the phone again like the old times
the last time we had such conversation over the phone.. must be like two years ago?
wow.
time really flies.

in the midst of the conversation,
i remembered those late night phone conversations we used to have
LOL. they made me want to laugh.
we could talk about everything happening under the stars
and we'll never run out of things to say.
songs on the guitar were sweet love.
those were really beautiful days.
really good.
although things became bad for some time, im glad everything is better now
i really am.
=)

andandand
SOME nicenice soul bought me donuts from DONUT FACTORY!!!
THANKYOU nicenice soul!=D
HAHA.YES. I've never eaten donuts from donut factory b4
and he was nice enough to buy for me=D
and the donuts made me happy today=D

=)
im glad that today turned out to be a wonderful day<3
loves.

confessions.

You are my strength when I am weak'

You are the treasure that I seek

You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel

Lord, to give up I'd be a fool

You are my all in all

hahas. my blog songs are very short lived i realised

im always changing my blog song depending on my mood=P

and yes right now,

im finding serenity=)

with all the things happening around me or to me,

sometimes, it really gets tiring..

not just physically but mentally and emotionally

and i realise that i tend to shut down as a way to stop thinking about all these

and perhaps that explains my absentmindedness recently

i scanned my ezlink card at the dustbin

i forgot about my tuition until macy mentioned about tuition

i mixed up my days of the week

etc. =)

i guess,

there are many things that are unpredictable.

or you'll never know the answer

and i really hate regretting

so i really give it my all

and i gave my all..

and when it all failed me..

i really wonder, if it was worth giving it my all.

and so, many many times i really felt so discouraged

i really felt like giving up

and i ever felt on the verge of a breakdown

but i always managed to pull myself together

now, i do understand that i really need to learn to stop hiding and face whatever awaits me in the future

courage. courage.

i just want to be less afraid

=)

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.

~*

it's the 27th again.

for this month, it marks my third year in recieving Christ as my personal saviour.

God has been really faithful towards me and loving me in a way greater than anyone

He has blessed me with so many wonderful people in my life
and that includes you who is reading this now=)

i've backslidded, but when i was unfaithful, He remains faithful to me

and when i had wrong priorities, still He never stop loving and never forsake me

thus, i'm really thankful

and i really thank God for the strength when i am weak.
for picking me up when im down and
for His presence in my daily walk.

You are my all in all=)

27th..

holds a special meaning in my heart<3

iloveyou.

how can i keep these blessings but let them go at the same time?

but when we touch, i realised.

old boy band songs are such love=)
it's really nice listening to all these old songs once in a while
hahas..
i rmb spending many days of my primary school days going crazy over this boyband "A1"
which sadly disbanded when i was in my secondary school days=(
those melodic and heartbreaking/heartwarming songs from westlife..
and i rmb not being able to differentiate n'sync from backstreet boys
and actually, i still can't =X
but who cares.
it's the voice that matters yah=)

used to have a sketchbook where i wld keep all the magazine cut-outs of A1
and i used to have this childish dream of giving the sketch to them IF i do see them at their concert one day..
but of cus HAHA that was a "childish dream"
never got to see them cus they disbanded.. and i cant exactly rmb where i kept the sketchbook =P
O WELLS=)
i'm falling in love with them all over again after hearing their songs
*melts*

used "everytime" as my blog song the other time..
so this time im going to use "heaven by your side" =)
i rmb my younger sis and i used to sing "carbon dioxide" instead of "heaven by your side"
don't ask me why. i have no idea why too
but they rhyme dun they =D


i could fly, when you smile
i'll walk a thousand mile, to hear you call my name

i need to breathe.

i can't let this go on.
but i can't stop it either.
this feeling of frustration,
is hurting me even more.

i never felt so afraid before.

disappointment.

stupid GPA =.=

i screwed up.
i practically "skydived" (as quoted by ms jhope) down.

shit.

kinda expected though..
this sem i let my emotions get in the way too much=X
haish.
but i really really tried very hard..
but the marathon was too intense
i lost my stamina
i grew tired.
i guess i only have myself to blame.

WHATEVER.

it's another new semester ahead.
不要气馁
要加油!

but,
perhaps the self expectations
it was really disappointing=(
i really feel discouraged

好啦! 没关系.
一切都过去了.
没有失败哪里会知道成功的甜美
right?

when you look me in the eyes.

teach me,
how to forget.

because i hate the fact
you can do it so effortlessly
and
i can't.

and i hate the fact i need you with me.
when i know that i have to do this alone.

EVIL EMO THOUGHTS
DISAPPEAR from me
go away~*

我想要说

new song new fave
i found this in my music folder
din even noe i had such a song=P

this week been kinda boring=(
everyone is practically going overseas
my short term memory make it hard for me to remember who is leaving when and who is coming back
lol=X
my stm is getting from bad to worse.

went back to sch ytd for the diploma plus briefing
ms jhope is in thailand
enjoying herself b4 bangkok sinks
so i went alone.
signed up for the diploma plus which sounds RATHER promising
and it's cheap.
hahas=)
michelle fiona and suhui has been saying that one diploma plus is $1000+
but weirdly, the one that they offered was at 30bucks per module.
LOL. and there's three modules nia
hmm maybe it's not a real diploma plus.
HMMM. heck.
LOL=D

so so so
im rotting at home today,
typing this ultra boring post
waiting for time to stop.
so far in the hols
i've managed to finish 2 anime
and i FINALLY watched jumper CJ7 ratoutullie online
and im in the midst of watching "reaching for the stars"

~*

If you love someone,
put their name in a circle,
instead of a heart,
because hearts can break,
but circles go on forever.

to my dearest JC units.
school is getting tough
especially with all the term exams and Alvl stuffs
but hang in there!
=)
HUGS.

to a very dear friend.
stay strong.
i'll be praying with you.


perhaps certain things are better left unsaid.
在这一切之后

monday tuesday

when she walks away from you
follow her
you looked on.

BOO.
im into the third week of my holidays
and suddenly i realise
AH!
i dun want time to pass so fast.
i dun want to go year2 T.T
i hate projects.
i hate school.
=,(

i got my voice back
=)
so i can crap again.
it sucks not being able to talk as much as i usually do =P
so yah..
spent my mondays and tuesdays with unitians

on monday met up with fiona aaron and michelle..
headed to douby for
pizza hut student lunch
then to grand cathay for the student offer tickets=)
one reason that makes it worthwhile to be a student
are the student offers you get on weekdays=)
and when u're lk on holiday when everyone else is in school
it's even more fun.
=D
we movie marathoned
caught Juno and PS iloveyou.
hahas=) 2nd time i watched PS.
the cool thing was that, both the movies were at the same theatre
andandand, we got the same numbers. except Juno's was in row C and PS was in row B=)

=)

then today had a rather eventful trip back on the mrt train with michelle
=)
we both bought this same design ring
and on the way back, i tried it on and realised that it was lk much looser than when i tried it on at the shop
so in an attempt to show michelle, i let the ring slide off my fingers.....
AND it dropped off my lap
to the MRT FLOOR =(
and it rollleeeddd
and landed
there

see the red circle.
LOL that's my ring!
and then michelle laughed and laughed..
while i malu-ed and ahhhhhh
cus. the lady was lk ALMOST stepping on it like a 1001 times =(
andandand i was =X
becus.. this foreign talent lady in front of me.. she saw the ring.
AND SHE REFUSED TO PICK IT UP FOR ME
it's lk right BESIDE HER.
she stared. and returned to reading her newspaper.
=.= SO EVIL.
and. so waited for michelle to finish laughing
then nicenice michelle retrieved the ring back for me
=D *muacks*

THEN.
silent killer.
someone.. farted=X
LOL. michelle smell it first. and she went
"WAH. someone farted"
and then the smell diffused to me..
XP
i wanted to die.
LOL.
and then it was a moment of enlightenment to me and michelle
when we realised how many butts there were in front of our faces
(we sitting, they standing)
XP
the smell was terrible..
cannot tahan.. me and michelle just kept laughing
evil michelle said "who fart?" haha =P
=X the smell is in my memory.
someone get it out=(
MICHELLE!!
LOL=)
so yups. that was my very eventful mrt trip home=D

note~*
GOOD LUCK SUHUI for ur piano exam=)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZELNUTTY!!! u're finally Sweet Sixteen!