Tuesday, November 27, 2007

emo shit=(

feeling like terriblehorrible=(

in global issues class now
and im dreading tuition later on.
i just want to wrap myself in bed now
and rot in there.

no.i want to wrap myself in ur arms right now=(
shit
i miss you so much now=(
being sick makes me feel lk shit=(
miss u like shit=,(

today.. on the way to sch
freezing in the bus
feeling ultra sick
my stupid ipod just have to play this melody
when the vision around you, bring tears to your eyes
and all that surrounds you are secrets and lies
i'll be ur strength, i'll give you hope
keeping ur faith when it's gone.

and tears just rolled down.
what if i say that my vision are blinded by tears
and i dun believe anymore
wld u tell me that u're still there

never thought you'd leave me alone

nah. you wun be.
i know..
u cant be there for me anymore
i have to face all and all by myself.
it's so hard to be strong.

it's the 27th again.
dry your tears with love

Monday, November 26, 2007

sickly monday

melisa..
is feeling like s-h-i-t now=)
i think im s-i-c-k=(
throat is painful
nose is runny
head is achinng
die.
please please keep me healthy at least until after my STB test tmr.
i need my throat.
keep my voice alive please.

and i have no idea why im falling sick suddenly.

but falling sick is such shitty thing
becus...
=(
it makes me miss and need you even more.
=,(

TODAY
we finally cleared LA assignment1
i was practically dying the whole of today.
i killed lk ten trees today looking at the amt of tissue i used
but besides that,
today was rather eventful i guess=)
whywhywhy.
JOLENE WORE HEELS TO SCHOOL
like WOAH
heels and mountainous NP just dun go.
in the end.. her heels broke=P
LOL
so jessica tried to help her fix the heels with superglue=)



and well.. at least jo's heels managed to stay superglued till the end of the day=)

and.. today
met some XX woman
who realli deserve a slap
she got me and jolene lk SO PISSED OFF
we were in the library toliet
and there was an old cleaning lady who appeared to have been waiting for the XX woman to come out of the cubicle. so the old lady asked her if she can stopped talking on the phone and come out of the cubicle so that she can get the new roll of toliet paper. somemore she was lk choking up the toliet cus there was only 2 cubicles available.
and that XX woman scolded the old cleaning lady and claimed that she wasnt talking on the phone and asked the old lady to shut up.
im like wad the =.=
HELLO. u XX woman.. duno something call respect is it? and like jolene said.. u mean u were talking to the toliet bowl? or u mean the technology in XX is so lag that u have to talk via toliet bowl. LOL
i was more pissed by the fact that she asked the old cleaner to shut up.
we wanted to see who that XX woman was.. so me and jo stayed in the toliet a little longer....
and she talked on her handphone(or maybe the toliet bowl) and din come out.
so the old cleaner came back again.
so poor thing lah.. she's only doing her job..
and the poor cleaner din noe wad to do..
so jo knocked on the door and spoke in English for her to pass the toliet roll thingy, which she din replied.
so jolene was lk "wah. i think XX ppl dun understand english. u talk to her in XX can"
so lol.. i said in XX language and the girl was lk "dun have."
so the cleaner left and our dear jolene said "wah..toliet SO many ppl"before we left the toliet.
LOL
and we were wishing
if only macy was here=)

lol. i dun have anything against XX ppl
im just pissed off by her freaking attitude which polluted the toliet.
=)

PRCL in 12 days.

we turned this to

=)

k lah=)
im heading to bed
headache's killing me
goodnite=)


i miss you just so much still.
tell me what i shld do.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

-.-zZ

im so drained XP
physically,mentally,emotionally.
lol. sucks.
my sleeping timetable is so screwed
slept at 4am, woke at 2pm
slept at 2am, woke at 8am
i gotta get it back to normal by monday
bleah.

home from PRCL meeting
so much to be done before the actual event in 14 days
counting down.
till den
it's going at full blast preparation
lol
*breathes*
i gotta breathe.

first project down on monday
goodluck to us all=)
im so guilty of not putting in my effort in sch this sem
i gotta buck up
concentrate.
concentrate.

went for arabian nights ytd
YOU GUYS ROCKS=D
yelyn is SooOoo SEXY
mark is sooOoo HOT
=D
lk wahwahWAH
you guys were reallllii GREAT=D
*nods*
i loved the entire show like SO much=)
the story the songs
and it left me thinking quite abit
lol=)
love is never easy.
the show was great=D
love it=)
O. and i saw "eye candy"
HAHAHA=)

i hate.
u hate.
i hate.
u.
love me.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

one chance

random tot of the day.

do you believe in second chance?
i do.
maybe that's why i expect people to do the same

do you believe in giving third chance?
i still do.
i always think that if someone wants to try.. the most they can ask for
is for someone to give them that chance to try

do you believe in giving chances to the same someone over and over again?
i do.
and that's me
something abt me that i can't change
today ben said to me
"then u can't blame that person for doing that. u chose to give him the chance to do it. you only have urself to blame"
it's true.
ouch. but true
but i refuse to believe in such sad truth of life

but chances.
chances dun come to us. we create them
chances are like hope.
hope we create for ourselves
hope we create for someone else
but like they say, the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment
sometimes i find that i believe in hope too much
so i get disappointed.
but still..
i believe in chances
i believe in hope
and i dumb to believe so?
i realli duno

but just think about it
what if one day
you ask someone for that one chance
but that person refuse that chance


maybe that's why


if you gave me one chance to tell you
misses.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

=X

it's 1.35am
and why im here?
i have no idea
im so tired but i jus cant slp=(

ponderings

there's just so many things going on
sometimes i realli duno where to go
*sigh*
i realli wonder

these days im just not myself
and sometimes, i realli wonder which is my real self
people changes
the experiences the environment mould them
then again
everyone has more than just one "self"
we're like ever-changing our masks
dun u agree so
these days im just walking edges
i find myself getting irritated easily
i really should do something about this
but im just too tired to be "proactive" abt it=X
alrite im guilty.

what's wrong?
i really duno.


'so open up your heart and let me in'
u came,u left.

Monday, November 19, 2007

monday

MONDAY!

no monday blues today=D
cus..
it't blank space week
*muahahaha*
cus they are having some redcamp thing and they are using the HMS building
so we have no lesson for this week=D
except sukuna which i almost forgot
and belinda's lecture today was kinda fun
much better than the few weeks
she told us a scary story XP
and we danced! hahas..
super funny lah=)
but i enjoyed it=P

but..
not so nice yah
blank space is for E-learning and PROJECTS=(
gotta complete LA and do FP's lesson plan
*go melisa! you are only 9 more projects away!*
so motivating=.=
lol
my poor left hand is suffering from carrying my 2.35 lappy for the past few days
old injury starting to hurt again=(
yucks.
i need a massage badly
and im just so tired these days
ew.

PRCL is 20days away =X
im kinda getting stressed now with the stuffs to handle
lol.. hang in there

randoms
currently addicted to this jap drama "Liar game"
really cool show=D
watch it=)
except the sadistic guy
the whole shoe is lk.. WAH =D
hahas..
but im halfway thru nia..
hope the ending is good=)
go watch on you tube if u're bored=P


good luck yel, mark, isaac for ur drama on fri =D
jiayou jiayou!



look deep inside and you'll see

Saturday, November 17, 2007

tonight is just one of those nights
imissyou.

darling,istillloveyou

Friday, November 16, 2007

friday

friday!
thank God it's friday=)
but like julie say
we're like living mondays=(
monday is coming again X(
eww.

tuition kiddy cancelled tuition
so din have tuition today
am not in the mood either=P
nothing to teach liao.
went sch for two hrs CD tutorials =.=
projects projects
time to get into the project mood
and yah...
concentrate.
concentrate melisa=)
i'll try lah
(^^) lol.

in CD we were doing on scaffolding
so we had some activity in class
we were suppose to use the different shapes and form this


it's not easy
lol
and we had super evil teacher name julie

LOL
i told u im going to blog this photo =D
julie's evil twin
julie was suppose to role play a bad teacher
and man, was she evil
"why so slow one"
"hurry up.. so slow"
"eh, why u not doing anything. do something"
HAHA
but guessed what
evil teacher just dun work with US=)
julie ended up being cursed by us.
LOL
she kena all the "shut up" and "wahlau"
hahahahhaahaha.. so funny ok=)
i mean.. she was SO evil until we all cldnt stand it
so surprise surprise
she kena by the rest of us
julie's evil twin i mean=)

went back unity to see my RCY unit
=)
saw Peter again.. lol
and he gave me the whole "why go poly not JC" lecture again.
lol.. Peter is the sch security guard btw
and he has been trying to make me go JC since sec4
HAHA.. but it's nice to see him again lah
no need take visitor pass=)
tsktsk
well well
good to see my darling juniors again
looking at them is lk
wahhh... time realli passes so fast
my dear sec 1s next yr sec 4 liao
saw them training the squad
feel realli proud of them=)
all zhang da le=D

standing at the same old place
so much memories=)
rmb how i used to stand under the torturous sun training for fdc
how me and yelyn used to spend our fridays there just commanding and drilling
so much memories in the sch
the street soccer court
the playground
the pond
sat at the parade square and cant help but emo little
those were the happy days
the medic-runner days
those days.. irritating but yah =)
and i rmbed the time when he wanted to send me home
we were on the phone trying to find each other
den i heard the discipline mistress "shengxun!"
and he was lk "oh shit" LOL
den yah.. there was ng say hong (duno how to spell)
where baoxiang and sheng xun will have alot of memories with =D

i miss those days so much
with unitians
with him
sometimes i wonder
if i have chosen to go pj instead of poly
wld things be different?
lol.
imissyou.

ANW UNITIANS
ms lim was saying that next yr got some unity thingy in Republic poly
there'll be display of work by students etc
she wants me to pass the msg
keep ur 5th july 200EIGHT free
$10 per tic
think nearer to date ms lim will tell us again=)


i need more than time to let you go

Thursday, November 15, 2007

typed a super long post
but decided not to post=)

nice surprise today
met nana at bus interchange
somehow we were on the same bus but we never noticed each other until we got off at interchange=P
nana looked so nice in her formal wear=)
she tied up her hair
hahas.. i almost cldnt recognise her
we talked on the train
but got separated by some evil passenger=(
but still, managed to get some juicy news from her=D
HAHA
fiona n michelle gonna do d-r-a-m-a=D
im soooo going to watch the performance ok=D

attachment was cool=)
but today i almost lost my patience
the kids can be reali havoc at times
helped them changed for bathing
funny lah
i mean i tot only teenagers like us will talk bout fats(for girls) and muscles (for guys)
kids do too okay
LOL
girl A: Eee ur stomach so fat
girl B: ur one oso loh
girl A: ur one like pregnant one
oh wells=)

im so tired
i have no idea why im so tired recently
i kinda miss ur hug=(
im going to bed now=)
long day tmr
but im in no mood to think abt anything
eww.
gdnite

ifyoulovemetoo.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

The weirdest thing happened this morning...
I woke up with tears in my eyes...
and one rolling down my cheek...
and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again.


im starting to hate my dreams
=.=
maybe i shld get a dream catcher
hmm..

ponned school today
first time okay
lol.
woke up to hear the rain pouring
snuggled into my blanket
wanted to go back to slp
but realised that i have to wake lk ten minutes later =(
i hate it when it rains at night
lol.
plus im lk so tired
so i just smsed julie macy jolene jessica that i feel lk ponning=(
i dun want to wake on rainy day..
and just go sch for 8am to 10am lecture
plus we are not having lecture today but some game thingy=.=
and im realli drained
lol.. macy replied me that she planning to pon too
den jessica telling me that she n deb ponning
den jolene telling me she was sooo tired n ponning too
so yah=)
i decided to just ponned =D
SORRY JULIE XP
feel so bad XP

anw, i fell back asleep waking up at 8am..
it was weird
the dream..
so real
and it made me woke up in tears
lk damndamn weird ok=.=
the dream was lk.. so real...
hmm..
i thought of going for lecture
but realised that it was too late lah..
so i went back to sleep =D

woke up arnd 11 =)
but i still feel lk sleeping now
im in major lazy mode today
so im just gonna sit in frnt of my lappy lk a piece of thing
and rot here =)
im not going to do any form of productive thinking today
i just wanna stone here=)
=D

i miss you.
one day i'll get over you.
woaini

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

emonemo shoo

tag replies

F4:
meet up soon=D
pool @ rp!
=)
hahas.. kaye n gel..
moments of peace are rare=) rite yus?

shahila:
HEY=D surprised to see u here!

meiwan:
thanks dear! =)
u must be enjoying life now=)

macy:
ur art is lk pro=)
today's oso so nice!

hji:
hi.. sorry but who's this?

==+==
let this melody bring us back to a year ago..


=(
these few days havent been good
everytime i seem to get better
things just have to turn for worst
and take me back to square one again
ouch.

haish
sorri for the emoness

it's time
..
right?
everything will be fine, won't it?
but i really can't find the courage
i realli duno how to
不过我真的真的舍不得
我也不想学会懂得
every time when i think i have the courage
i lose it all again
我真的不明白
心为什么那么痛
i need more than courage

because i miss him so much
because i need him so much
because i love him so much
is it selfish of me to want him back in my life
=,(

i love you=(


but i know i can't
so im sorry

maybe someday..
i'll understand
someday

Sunday, November 11, 2007

why cant you see?

i knew it
i knew you only too well
damnit
regrets
no.
no no no
i said what i had to say
lol

look into my eyes

Friday, November 9, 2007

=)

thank God=)
You're amazing

and yes.
im happy for you
and all i can say now
realli is
Praise the Lord=)
hope u're happy too=)

~~*
hellohello=)
im in a good mood now
cus of some stuff
but im realli tired now
i have no idea why
i guess the whole "school" thing is realli draining off my energy
slept at NINE am ytd
but im lk so tired the whole way thru today still.

i need to whine a bit
THE PROJECT MARATHON IS STARTING AGAIN=(
diediedie
this sem projects realli.. tough=(
i wanna give up already just looking at the assignment descriptors
*sigh*
but no i cant
one step at a time
go go melisa!
you wun die!
=.=

attachment today=)
i love the nursery kids
though they can realli give me headache at the end of 3hrs
but they are so cute lah=D
but it's realli gross when there's rice all over the floor during lunch
and i just have to step on them=.=
the rice i mean.
n i love my kid=)
my WC
he like sealion one
ver cute=D
andandand
today the teacher was telling me about this girl in the class
how she wld keep the food inside her mouth
den chew on them later on
lol.. the the teacher was lk
"like hamster like that"
lol. funny

met up with my redcross juniors aft tuition at u t mac=)
miss them so much=)
alrite
im gonna help out for their fancy drill=)
but dearies
forgive me if i screw up my footdrills XP
the last time i marched was lk sec4?
yups
hmm..
yang tinggi ke-kenan, renda ke-kiri, dalam satu barisan, baras.
OOOO
i still rmb yang tinggi!
okok =.=

Unitians gathering tmr=D
finally we're going marina
baoxiang must be the happiest=P
lol
random pic=)


lovesu

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

F4 gathering=D

F4 GATHERING=D
hahas..
funny why we called ourselves F4 when we were in sec one
it's suppose to mean 'fruit4'
which origin was lk -.^
HAHA.. nvrtheless
theres orange(me),papaya(kaye),watermelon(yus) and cucumber(gel)
and cucumber is lk not a fruit
XP

aniwae
i love those babes to bits=)
i realli enjoyed myself today
so happy=)
we went to ms clarity cafe in bugis=D
recommended by jessica=)
the food there realli rock!
comes with soup,drink and dessert
and it's cheap

i ordered roasted chicken *yum*
yus ordered fish n chips

kaye had baked rice

and gel had...

a cup of lemon tea
hahas.. and i got my ben n jerry icecream!!

loves=)
but i still like the marshmallow flavour more=)

hahas.. we took LOTS of photos
like LOTS

me n yus

me n gel

me and kaye

when the four of us get together
we go crazy=)







=)

den we randomly walked around
and we found this realli old shop in this old street
and they have lk freaking cool stuffs inside=D
den we cant help bt HAVE FUN=D





and they have mask!
why din we discover this shop lk last yr before prom


haha.. aft spending so much time in the shop
taking lk tons of photos
we felt guilty=D
so we bought the bubble thingy=D
and we went to the road side
sat there
and started taking photos

like along the road
haha
and playing!!
and for once, the ever arguing kaye and gel

stopped arguing for that few minutes=D







=)
so happy lah

hahas..
den we went sunglasses "shopping-trying"



before we went home=)




=)

hahas.
i realli am happy today thanks to those lovelies=)
it was realli fun
thanks!


LOVES <3

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

=)

GLOBAL ISSUE CLASS=D

means time for blogging=)
hahas..
so far today have been pretty nice=)
we're doing on tsunami now

hahas.. earlier on we have speech lesson
well, its fun lah
at least it was better than i expected
i guess sch can be fine afterall=)

aft speech was creative Arts=D
and im glad we have phillip as our art teacher
he's realli nice
anddddddd
photo photo=)


this was what we were supposed to do
a colour wheel=)
lol.. look at the colours and the mess=D




andddd
TADAA

my final product
XP
eheh.. not bad le loh
considering the fact that i painted was lk three yrs ago=D
look at how my pencil case and my picture blends=)

haha=)

lunch at alumni house was nice
got my fav fried rice andddd
MILO DINOSAUR=D

the milo dinosaur rocks=D

havent drank such nice milo for a reallllllyyy llonggg time=)

[[continued at home]]
I FINALLY DONE MY PRCL STUFF!!!!

=D
meeting yus kaye n prob gel tmr
cant wait!
i miss those babes SO MUCH!
f4days=)misses.
im gonna crash nyp with yus first=)
hope we dun get lost =.=
hahas..

anw, had a very entertaining conversation with julie jus now
that girl..
realli made me luff out loud
lol=)
and she said i looked kinda stressed these few days
lol.. got meh?
hmmm.. weird=)
anw
im going to head off to bed now=D
maybe sleep will make me look less stress
LOL
tmr CD lecture got 60slides
-.-zZ
jiayou melisa
nites!

your eyes can't lie