wei yi

why am i so afraid
this is just so wrong
the whole thing
is just so wrong

came home from shopping with julie and macy=D
HAHA.
seriously.. this is the first time we went out together beyond clementi area
haha
jolene. u shld join us yah=D
you're so missed.
hahas
it was fun=)

today's early morning lesson was so -.-zZ
i ended up writing song
according to the melody of
曹格 - 世界唯一的你
may be a little off melody though
=)

click to enlarge

曹格 - 世界唯一的你
speaking of this song=D
a little very cute inner joke between me n macy=D
HAHA=)

You’re the sweetest memory in me
You’re the greatest love in me
I know that you are the only
You are just the one I need
You’re a slow melody in me
You are my fastest heartbeat
And you know you are the only
The only thing
You’re all I ever need

紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
woaini
i still.

no matter wad

earlier on i posted the phrase from a children book
still they shine in the evening skies, love like starlight never dies =)
here's the very sweet story=)

copied over frm nicole's blog
=) thanks girl!

No matter what
Debi Gliori

Small was feeling grim and dark.
Playing toss and fling and squash,
yell and scream and bang and crash,
break and snap and bash and batter…


“Good grief,” said Large. “What is the matter?”
Small said, “ I’m a grim and grumpy little Small
and nobody loves me at all.”
“Oh Small,” said Large. “Grumpy or not, I’ll always love you no matter what”


Small said, “ If I was a grizzly bear,
Would you still love me,
Would you care?”
“Of course,” said Large, “Bear or not, I’ll love you no matter what.”


Small said, “If I turned into a bug,
Would you still love me and give me a hug?”
“Of course,” said Large, “Bug or not, I’ll love you no matter what.”


“No matter what?” said Small and smiled. “ What if I was a crocodile?”
Large said, “I’d hug you close and tight and tuck you to bed each night.”


“Does love wear out?” said Small. “Does it break or bend?
Can you fix it, stick it, does it mend?”

“Oh help,” said Large, “I’m not that clever, I just know I’ll love you forever.”

Small said, “ But what about when we’re dead and gone,
would you love me then, does love go on?”

Large held Small snug as they looked out the at the night, at the moon in the dark, and the stars shining bright.

“Small, look at the stars and how they shine and glow,
but some of those stars died a long time ago.”

“Still they shine in the evening skies, LOVE, like starlight never dies.”




nomatterwad
iwillalwaysloveyou

=)

my love for you is blind

HAHA=D
im in class
im suppose to be reading on environment=.=
but NAH=)
im gonna blog

haha.. we were talking about first day of sch=)
me julie macy jolene
(but jolene ponned)
haha!
i knew macy first and we kinda clique on=)
den julie joined us.. but julie n macy werent talking
rmb i was the talkative one that kept trying to make the both of them talk
julie was the ultra quiet on first day of sch..
i went home with her on day one..
she was SO quiet! AH
haha!
den jolene came sch on second day with her emo look
kinda scary..
whole person black
din dare to talk to her=P
HAHA
den julie started talking to her first
and yups.. now here we are =D
hahas.
it's weird how the four of us have lk such different personalities can be such good frnds
and when i say different, i mean different=)
oh well
with difference we complete=)

anw
i found my long lost drink!

saw it in alumni house.
it looks poisonous dont it? haha
GREEN

=)
ytd macy n jolene tried to give julie n me a "makeover"
so they brought their make up stuff XP
thank goodness they only put eyeliner and mascara
haha.. refused to let jolene put this thing to make me look "bronze" -.^
=P
they tried to put it on julie too
which din work=(
JULIE!
HAHA.. julie rebonded her hair. but she still refuses to get contacts
she doesnt like the idea of "poking your finger into your eye"
lol
seriously wasnt used to eyeliner n mascara
was so scared that i wld smudge it and look lk some sadded black eye thing

look at my eyes=D HAHA
kinda weird but yups it was a good experience=)
and tadaa.. my two make up eyes artists

lol. everyone in the washroom was practically looking at them trying to draw the eyeliner and mascara on me.
haha=)
and me
which looks kinda twit =(
somehow the eyeliner made my eyes look even bigger

lol.
go ahead and laugh =P
like that evil julie did
HAHA=D

one last thing

a phrase my friends presented from a children book
still they shine in the evening skies, love like starlight never dies =)
loves.

lol.
took off some posts.
this blog is getting too emo nemo.
lol

some ppl are just pure dumbness.
open ur eyes and figure the things out yourself.
wadever.
you don't belong here

october is coming to an end
time is like.. flying
it's 27th again.
imissyou
lol.
sometimes i hate it when time flies so fast
i dun want to grow up so fast
reality sucks at times
i rather view the world from the eyes of a child
innocence of a child
so beautiful.
the world will look so much prettier
lol. randoms

hang in there melisa=)
God's in control.
im thankful to noe that im not alone=)
thanks girl for telling me that
you noe u're not alone too yah=)

woaini.

if only life has such a button

~~*

today.. went back to sch for 2hr CD lecture
such a waste of time
jessica n jolene ponned.
LOL
wasnt exactly listening
i TRIED to.
but it was just just
so not engaging
dread Fri's tutorials.
lol.

went clementi with julie n macy to makan
brunch was so fulling=D
and i love the you tiao!
hahas.. u hardly find nice you tiao in areas lk cck.
suhui! ur childhood area got lots of good food leh=)

lol
i guess im feeling slightly better today
got to spend some time alone ytd
went to my little quiet thinking place=)
*secret secret* =)
sat there for two hrs
just watching the time pass.
sometimes it's good to just step out of life
to be alone
and away from everything.
close my eyes
and try to breathe.

~~*
"Do you know which is northern star?" her eyes sparkled as she looked towards the clear night sky.
"You mean stars have names?" he lifted his head and scanned through the same sky.
"That," she pointed "is north star. The brightest star in the sky. They say that when you lose your way, you can use the north star to navigate, though i'm not sure how. But i like north star.. i make wishes upon it.. when i see her, i feel less lonely."
"Ahh.. I see it now" and he pulled her closer to him."so it shall be Mr Sun, Mrs North Star and their baby stars." She snuggled closer to him as he wrapped his arms around her. Turning her attention to him, she saw such gentleness in his eyes. It's always times like this when it felt as though it was just the two of them in this world. She wanted time to stop, and this moment to go on forever. Just him, her and the stars. But with love, comes fear. She feared that someday, this will all come to an end. That someday, the past will haunt her again. If that day comes, will he still love her, or will they be strangers?
"You know," he said "I think i can love you forever." As though reading her thoughts, he looked into her eyes. "I never felt this way before.. I just want to be with you for a long long time. I want to share your burden. I'll carry it for you. Or else you so small in size, if i let you carry all the burden, it would have dropped flat on you. I'll always be here for you. My heart is yours."

weekends

weekend have been cool.
lol.
rather=)

ytd had PRCL meeting as usual=X
event is lk getttin nearer and nearer
the stress is just building up
and the freaking small venue and large num of participants is lk.. AHhHHHH
lol
sometimes aft sch it's just so tiring to do the PRCL stuffs
so yes yelyn. our poor programmer=)
*patpat*
lol
i realli duno how trix manages to do all the stuffs=)
amazing. lol

aft meeting went to huix house to assist her in her project
hahas=)
i love her mom's cooking=D
delicious
her mom made guo tie (gel!!! LOL)
huix shall go find out hw to get to the very nice guo tie stall in chinatown which me her n gel wanted to go since... sec3? =)
anw, watched "Love Actually" with her while waiting for aaron
I LOVE THAT SHOW=D
so nice so nice
despite the vulgarities and rated portions=)
it's a lovely show about christmas love=)
sosweet~*
this remind me that Christmas is coming~~~*
hahas=)
it was fun doing huix's project with her=)
goodluck yah! =)

today
i went church=)
hahas.. kinda sleepy all the way cus went home realli late ytd
aft church met up with aaron n joel to go for some career fair
walked arnd.. kinda cool=)
but macham all nothing to do with ECH=P hahas!
the airforce thingy n navy kinda cool though
too bad ECH is lk SO UNRELATED.
came home aft lunch plus dinner=)

now in sian mode=.=
mondayblues=(
shitty timetable tmr
wake at 6am. end at 6pm
tuition aft sch till 8=(
sadded.

im so hating mondays.

changed blog song.
a song we all love=)
tata young's I Think Of You
who do you think of as u hear this song?
think of one important person in ur life
family.friend.love.
treasure this person in ur life.

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused
When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do
Is think of you


~~*

lol.
monday blues makes me moody=(
lol.
duno wads wrong
but these few days
little stuffs kept popping into my head
little memories i din realised that i remembered
funny ones.
lovely ones.
which made me smile=)
well.. if u rmb,
then hear me whisper
4445556668883399966688
444.777332555,555999.64447777,7777.99966688.
you know=)

I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

ponponpon

im so sleepppyyy -.-zZ
two hrs tutorials ltr=(
at 2pm =X
im just SO tempted to pon=(
argh.
the lecture that day was a total waste of time
i miss julianna=(
at least her lectures are interesting
and she prints lecture notes for us=)

JESSICA! YOU BETTER DUN PON=D
hahas!
i wanna see ur caramelised hair =D
and according to some source
jolene's ponning today too
eheheh
PPL=) stop thinking of ponning and go sch=)

you noe.. i realli feel lk ponning=(
lol.
im sllleeeeeeepppyyy-.-zZ

~~*
kupped from jessica's blog

if i dont call you
[ im waiting fer u to call mi]
When i walk away from you mad
[ chase after mi ]
When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]
When i miss you
[ im hurting inside ]
When you break my heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]
When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

misses.

=)
no school today
happiness=D

watched Secrets today
lk FINALLY
that movie was like out so long ago
and i only watched it nw =P
so nice=)
i like TOTALLY din expect that twist
it left me lk SO shock lah!
wahh
though it dun quite make sense
lol.. but still
it's a good show=)

anddddd
i just watch High School Musical 2
OKOKOK.. i noe im lk SO late
lol..
nice show..
happy end as usual=)
if only such stuffs happens in reality then it wld be really sweet=)

anw
today i was lk so blur=x
took the lift with my sis and another lady
when the liftdoor opened, i followed the lady out
then i realised "eh? why look so weird?"turned and realised that my sis macham disappeared..
lol.. THEN
i realised.. i went out at the wrong storey =.=
and my veryvery nice sister
was standing at the staircase at my level
(i walked up the stairs=.=)
luffing at me
i was lk "wahlau.. u duno how to open ur mouth and ask me to go back to the lift is it"
so evil=(

~~*

lol.. sometimes
im so tempted to just talk to you
but i realli dont know if i should
lol.. before i get my answer
i guess..
i'll just wait
don't make me wait too long okay?

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

today=)

i went to school for two hours
becus the lecture is only two hrs=(
make me wake up at 6am for 8am lecture..
den finish at 10=.=
dumbdumb
so went KAP with julie n jessica=)

julie is gonna get her hair rebonded=D
we'll see a super straight hair julie on friday=)
cus tmr no sch=D
and jessica is going to get her hair highlighted=D
so we'll see a different hair coloured jessica on friday=)
two reasons to look forward to friday=)

anw, macy and jolene may appear in the next issue of Lime=)
cus we were having lunch ytd when the Lime magazine ppl approached them to take a photo of their shirt=)
hahas.. according to jessica n deborah, we're going to get a copy of the mag den colour photocopy=P
hahahaha!
and..
yanling they all gonna start a new CCA 'modern dance"
so today they were passing a book around
and i wrote my name=X
i cant dance for nuts=(
but nvm.. they say just write name first..
lol..
afterall,
think my entire class wrote their names=)
so at least if im going to dance,
im malu-ing myself in front of C02 girls nia
muahahas..

i recieved a nicenice gift from jessica=)

so nice right!
and it's pink!
hahas.. theres a piglet in it too

thanks girl!=)
this realli make my day=)


~~*
last night
i had a beautiful dream=)
so beautiful it made me smile
so lovely that i just didnt want to wake up
i could stay in the dream forever
because in the dream
it was just so real.


star light, star bright
the first star i see tonight
i wish i may, i wish i might
have the wish i wish tonight

the story

i think i cant drink coffee in morning
it gives me headaches
=(
but the early lectures are realli hard to survive without coffee..
i guess i'll just have to get immune to it=)

today in Creative Arts, we have phillip as lecturer
he's fun lah=)
hahas.. our kukabura dance and push the elephant
and LOL.
we were supposed to use out CREATIVITY to draw things out of what he gave us
and make up a story..
lol
this is mine =D

Mr Raindeer

and Mr Bird

went to find Mr Cat

at Mr Cat's house

to celebrate Christmas =D (my very ugly tree)

Mr Bird gave Mr Cat a Fish-Cake

and Mr Raindeer got him a tie. Because Mr Cat is Fat and short, Mr Raindeer got him a very fat tie

Then, Mr Cat brought them to the table to eat=)
(my very uglllyyy table)

*tadaaa* the bento box =.=
THE END=D


lol. now u c why i fail art? =)

~~*


Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?

school.. is good
keeps me occupied
makes me smile
but no.
it's still not okay
is it okay?
that you're still everywhere.
that i still wish that you will be here.
=X

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

day one

school is such a headache=X
literally=)
im having a bad headache now..
and IT'S DAY ONE ONLY!

well.. i mean.
when you have to wake at 6am and have lectures until 6pm
it's okay=)
when you have four hours break which is a friggin waste of time
it's okay=)
BUT
when on day one, u realised you have already have 3 major projects for ONE module
it's NOT okay=)
screw it=)
this is going to be a tough tough term=X
Language Arts is lk.. chim.
and for Creative arts.. is lk..
drama.song.dance.art.
everything that i sucks at=)
oh wow-wow =D
lol.
im frigging dead basically
and i duno wads wrong with the system=(
looks like no shorts on monday=(
and CANNOT be late anymore=(
cus the lecturers are really going to start the "late and absent" system.
SO JOLENE! *hints* LOL=)
it would realli help if they make the mountain less steep.
or shrink the campus a little.
or best, move the HMS building to ground level.
=)

lappy to be brought to sch on EVERY TUESDAY again=(
lk jolene said "tuesday lk damn sway"
=( yups.. and there's art on tues..
so gotta drag the art stuffs too..
=( so heavy... *sigh*
poly timetable definitely helps to grow muscles.
speech tmr=(
according to module outline,
we're gonna have to do individual speeches for tests
shit.
byebye GPA *waves*

i need a massage badly now=)
im going to sleep soon.
despite the fact that my plan to sleep super early failed ytd..
im going to attempt again. LOL=D
wish me luck
and yes.. im going to need so much of it this Sem.
=)

~~~~*
it's interesting how God works
it never fails to amuse me..
like something i met with today
Thank God=)
You're so great=)


hope you're doing fine
loves.
the stars are holding you tonight=)

I remember the days we spent together were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin' except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now would hurt so much

ALRIGHT
it's sunday=(
last day of freedom..
ahhh.. shitty monday coming=(
it's alrite *nods*
it's JUST monday melisa
5more days to weekends=)
hang in there=D

im already excited about the dec hols..
lol. suhui and denise are counting down the days=)
ahh=X
school.. why must you appear so soon..
im going to sleep SUPER early today=)
i've forgotten wad time i shld wake up=X
shall calculate later..

new semester=)
go go melisa!

~~*

i changed my blog song=)
again.
my new craz.
tonight by FM static.

ytd was Eugene's birthday..
though we werent very close friends
but oh well.. we've known each other since primary4=)
went to celebrate with unitians at clark quay.
beautiful place=)
went to eat at *ahems* shall skip the name.
which was cool..
but.. eww..
LOL=)
who cares. i wasnt even bothered by the *ahems* waitress
i was enjoying the food=D
delicious.
prob gained a kg or two from the meal
=( my 38kg just refuse to increase =(
hahas.. aft dinner, we tried to find somewhere to eat the cake
but we ended up without a place=(
becus the place is full of pubs.
lol.. NEXT YEAR!
haha=)

takecares!

And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight
imissyou.

looking thru my friendster testimonials
lol..
i realised.. how much i've changed
i miss the old days.
shall share a few special ones=)

Oo.im so proud of this one! from ZHANG LAO SHI=D
ZhangLao=)
To the members of MGJS. The pioneer group who have the guts to ask the Principal for them to study Higher Chinese in Unity, in addition, best HCL marketing unit, best daughters of the world...The only bad thing I knew of was they trick an old guy into taking neo-prints with them:D
Here is the testimonial I owed for ages. Haha.

Mel, in short. Well, we sometimes tease her that she is dark for Chinese. And she just took it easy and narrate her experiences of being misunderstood as Malay.

She is kind, courteous, friendly, soft-spoken, helpful and etc. She is sunshine! Or the Sun must love her, and her warm lights have toned her complexion.

~*

Yelyn dearest=)

MEL!! i'm gng around writing testi for all my dearest frens... do u think i'll even forget u?! hahaa. my fren of 8 years.

yea. EIGHT EIGHT. okay mind u. 8 YEARS LEH! hahaha.

:) yay. i love u mel!

its soo rocks to have mel around. like our gentle little angel. smiling everyday. its sooo rare to see her sad, and if she's sad. that's WAY BAD.

she's one person ANYONE can trust. i also dunno why leh. but i jus noe that. hahaha.

i'm so blessed to have met u.

PS: it's raining now as i write this! yay. memories of the ladies flying back to me. :)

i cant wait for the MYE to be over, and ten, we'll so crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

hehe. thanks for being a part of my life my dear!

i love u always. :)

take care! and like wad u always say,

SMILE ALWAYS !!!

~*
danial shah=)
lol. actually i was realli touched to see wad danial wrote. l
ol.. in fact when i took of "smile always" frm my msn nick, he noticed it lk immediately and came to ask me about the change =)


Testi frenzy!

Here's a testimonial for you.

First, I would like to wish you a happy
15th year of life! Look ahead, leave the
past for you to reflect.

Melisa......the first girl I got to know from
Unity Secondary. Still remember the
first few days.......too shy to talk to you
(and goddamnit it won't go away)....with
Jeremy and Yelyn behind us....Esther
and Fiona in front. Sec 1 days. :P

Melisa is prolly the nicest girl in Unity
IMO. Pretty, clever (3/9 power sia), got
leadership (she can be the leader or
CCA leaders :-) ) and is always happy.
It's virtually impossible to wipe the smile
off her face. Not that I've tried :-). Nope,
a diamond crowbar won't pry the shiny
smile off.

The heart of 2/8. She's one of those
responsible of keeping 2/8 constantly
active with all your plans and
outings....the greatest chalets ever! But
of course, she couldn't do it
alone.....she had 2/8 by her side! I know
you miss 2/8....but you're not alone. We
all do!

Good luck, Melisa.

~*

this one..
GEL! omg.. u were so twit =D
but so sweet=)

hEyz mEl...gElliEs hErE...wAnA wRitE
soMethiNg fEr yA..cOz yOu mY beSt
[aT leAsT goOd la] frEn mA...goiN to
pArT le? thiNk oUr cOmbiNatiOn likE
diFfeRent nEh..bUt frEns foRevA kaYs?
wE f4 cAn't paRt hOr..bEeN thRu sO
muCh..thErE's tOo muCh tO pArT
riGht? nOw, liKe wE sEldoM cHaT loNg
loNg le lEh..mUz bE aLwAe iN coNtAcT
hOr..lAst tiMe eVerYdAy wiLL sEe yOu
iN klAss dE..dUn niD tO woRry tHaT
yOu wiLL diSappEar..hAhA..nOw?
duNo lEh...aBit sAd sAd nEh...nO
maTtEr wHat kLasS wE iN..yOu
coNtinuE tO rAwK oN oKieS? mUsT
tAkKairE dE..gT pRoB oF coS muS tEll
mE [heEx...iT's uR cHoicE =PpPp]..
mY "beSteSt beSt wiShEs tO mY liL
fReNziE heRe...mEl..sEriOusly..fReNx
fOreVa..[tOo sEriOuslY le..heEs..duN
beAr tO pArT] rEmEmBer mE aLwAe..
chEEriOs! ``gE|z cum cUcuMbeR cum
bUtacUp cum chArliE's aNgeL
cum "wAh laO..eRm.thiNk nO moR
le..=)) bUaiX`` *mUakiEs*

~~*

suhui =)
this realli made me miss secondary school days lk SO MUCH

LOL go melisa go (: ! suhui dying. redcross please rush over now

~*
rmb the medic runner days=)
rmb the days where we wld fantasise things about npcc and redcross
and FRIDAYS!
going to mac or just chilling in sch aft ccas on fridays=)
redcross n npcc day.. with our full U=)

can we turn back time?

thankyou=)
i'm smiling again=D

school is starting in TWO DAYS=X
ohmy ohmy
why time flies suddenly=X

im notnotnot looking forward
not when monday is 8am-6pm=(
not when i have 4 hrs break
not when i still have tuition after sch=(

i decided that i shld just remain cca-less
im not sure if i can handle cca and the project stress together
damn.
im not looking forward to sch already=X
poly is just..
so hard to survive..
all the politics
the types of ppl you meet..
screw it.

im actualli a little afraid too=X
becus..
he wun be there for me anymore
no one to hear me rant on and on
whine on and on
and.. yah..
it's just that whenever im realli realli on the verge of breaking down
jus having him arnd..
jiu gou le=)
aiya.. dun hw to say=X
Sem2 is going to be much tougher.
like SUPER tough..
modules which i realli dun have confidence in.
modules that have projects that are lk damn big scale..
lol.. it's not that my course is so lucky to have only 17hrs in sch
but becus, we have tons and Tons to do for the projects..
more than u think we have.
x1000 =)
yucks.

i have an ART module..
i used to fail art.. and only do well for abstract art=D
i have a Speech module..
and i sucks at pronounciation and tongue twisters=D
i have a literay module..
and i cant do storytelling.. ever..
and i have a global issue module
on GEOGRAPHY
mind u.. geog
and the last time i did geog was 3 yrs ago
and i have no idea where indonesia or phillipines are located=D
i.am.so.dead.

two more days..
to gather my courage=)
and face a new beginning.
go mel go!

so.. encouraging=)
~~*

suhui jiayou!
michelle jiayou!
fiona jiayou!
macy jiayou!
julie jiayou!
jolene jiayou!
jessica jiayou!
joel jiayou!
aaron jiayou!
luffy jiayou!
siulung jiayou!
=D

ni ye shi..
yao jiayou!
i'll still be here for you=)
4445556668883399966688=)

just finished my 10th epd of one litre of tears
lol.
that show probably made me cried lk
two litres of tears
a story about a girl with a spinal nerve mutation
which eventually caused her to lose her ability to move and communicate
the most torturouse thing is that while having lost her physical and verbal ability
she is still concious.
of everything.. watching herself fade away
knowing that wad awaits at the end of it
is death.
it's a true story
and that's wad made it even more sad
knowing that this is not a happy end
makes it more =(

life is just so so
unpredicatable.
wad if today was ur last?
wld u "grumble to God all the way to heaven"
or smile becus
life was beautiful to you.

no matter how tough things are
we'll have to learn to be contented with what we have
with contentment, comes happiness
yups=)
wads ur definition of contentment
it's realli up to you.
as for me...
give me some time..
I'll learn to be contented again=)

I'll smile
not becus it's a mask
but i'll smile
becus i have my God in my heart
and becus.. i have you, you and YOU in my life=)

and i'll smile
becus
i love you=)

photos photos=)
just got photos frm jessica
time to blog!
hahas=)
jessica and i went to join macy for ice skate ytd=)
skated for lk 5 hrs=X
okok.. wasnt skating the entire time there
but oh well=)
it still left muscle aches=(

but it was fun=)
lol!
havent seen jessica n macy since
a month plus plus ago?
WAH! it was nice to see them again=)

=)

anw, macy was lk the pro pro=)
and i was lk the slow slow
lol!
wad do you expect..
the last time i skated was lk .....
hahas=)
but with help of jessica n macy
i finally got used to it again=D
and..
I DIN FALL=D
HAHA!
no lah.. several times i almost fell.. but macy or jessica would catch me=)
yups..
jessica brought her camera
(i wonder if she ever goes anywhere without her camera=P)
so..

hahas.. my hair grew!
see.. im not a twit anymore=)

proof that im on ice=)
hahs! look at my red skates!
becus my feet was so small.. they had to give me the "differenr colour one"
hahas..
*brrr*

jessica and me=)

macy and me=)

three of us=)

~~~*
school is starting really soon=(
looked at MEL(mobile E-learning)
and saw some stuff from last yr's yr1
the projects look damn sucky=X
i think we're supposed to set up some learning corner..
diediedie
ahhhhh
im so not looking forward to the new modules=(
~~~*

if i were blue,
would you be there for me
and whisper in my ear that's okay
would you stand by me
let me hold you tight
and say you love me one more time

open my heart

reading yel's tag..
realli..
so sweet.

it made me think..
that perhaps i shld just open up my heart
and just talk bout everything..
for once.
read if you want, or skip it=)

life isnt easy=)
u and i we know it too
sometimes we would wonder
why are we doing all this?
it's just so tiring.
many times, i realli realli just want to pack a bag
and run away from this place
from this world
to where i duno
but i want to go far far away.

last time, i would think
that as long as i have shengxun here by me,
everything would be fine
to have him, i was the happiest girl.
so when he left, i felt my whole world crumble down..
i didnt know what to do..
i just walked on and on and on..
i felt as though if i just walked on
i could just walk out of this
all the tears, all the pain, all the misery
i could run out of this place
but then i stopped..
at least i knew that if i were to run
i cld ask the rest of unitians with me=)
lol.

looking at unitians, makes me heartache at times
the tired and worn-out faces
the way, i can sense unhappiness in them..
but still, when unitians are together
no one would let these feelings affect them
they let themselves be the happiest they can be=)
and this made me realise
that even if the sky falls
unitians will be there to hold it up
with their laughters
and their craziness.
unitians.

with them, im happy=)
but with dem, it hurts too=)
becus.. there are just too much memories
looking at the clique now..
there's someone missing
and that's shengxun.
with his absence
i rmb memories of the times we share while with unitians
try as i may, not to let it affect me
when i look at yelyn (LOL!)
i just feel lk crying..

[[ no yelyn dear=)
not that you r scary. hahah
just tat looking at you, gives me a sense of familarity
a sense of gentleness? HAHA
i guess it's prob cus we were frends the longest
yups..thank girl.. for that nite=)
and hey.. if you need to cry out all the frigging things in the world
mel is here yah=)
and same thing=)
smile for me yah=D
*hugs* ]]

the tears.. always work
just that now when i cry
i dont have shengxun here to wipe them away
and i dont have him to say the magic words=)
and i dont have the hug to take away everything i hate.
and perhaps this is also the reason
which made me stop crying..
becus even the simplest thing like crying
would remind me a little something of him.
it's this hard trying to let go..
i still wake up everyday, thinking about him
wishing that i still have him with me..
this whole entire thing has come too sudden for me
i realli didnt see it coming
and with the sudden end, there's regrets
we used to think that we are going to be together for a realli long time
and with that, there's things we didnt do, thinking that we have all the time to do them next time.
and regretting is something i always hated doing.

can lovers be friends?
i realli duno
friendship and relationship
are two different things
and thus, it came across my mind before that
NO! WE CAN FRIGGIN BE FRIENDS
becus
i dun want to be arnd to see you with a new girl
knowing that she has everything i lost
knowing that you're treating her the way you treated me.
and it seems.. lk you were doin the same thing youknowho did
u disappear.
u've disappeared to the point that all i cld do when i miss you
is to wait for you to come online
or to walk pass ur blk and see if you're in ur room.
just a glimpse..
lol.. but you are like so unaffected..
like.. this whole relationship was nothing to you..

i still love you
and i still duno how to stop loving you
and i still duno why im still loving you
i was naive
but i realli believed.
i realli believed that your love for me would last
lol
no point talking bout all this now..
reality is reality

but if i were to do this again would i do it?
yes.
i will.
the 462days with u were the happiest days of my life
thou we do have our downs
but it's little things you do
that makes it all worthwhile=)
the email
the puzzle
the surprises
the cake and this

your promise
and your promise was my reason to smile=)

thou the promises are gone
not broken
but gone,
at least..
unitians give me reasons to smile and to laugh lk siao
n, my girls makes me smile=)
and seeing the little tags=)
realli warms my heart=D

when u lost a hope
continue counting your blessings.
u will realise
there's more reasons to smile
than to cry.


it's ever little thing you do
that makes me fall in love with you=)
istillloveyou.

came home from shopping=)

not exactly shopping lah..
siulung was the one who was shopping to be exact.
lol. it was nice to get out of the house
get a lil fresh air

maybe i'll go find macy at jurong ice-skating tmr
=)
and learn to have faith in myself balancing on two blade of knives.
oh well, u cant blame me
the last time i ice skated was 3 yrs ago in unity-on-ice.
lol.. now that we come to that
they cheater lah.
make us pay $5 bucks for that card=(
and the programme lk suddenly no trace.
lol..

moments missed.
just too many regrets.

im officially bored now
i've finished blog reading
friendstering
lol
i wanna eat salmon=(

i have nothing to do now=(

*pouts*

a glimpse is all i need.

lol!
i finally figured out why my current blog song sounds SO familiar!
cus mich has it in her blog!
well=)
good to finally figured out why=)

just finished reading
"where rainbow ends"
the same author as "ps i love you"
this writer is good..
seriously..
where rainbow ends is about two childhood best friends.
the guy had to move away, but they kept in contact with letters and chatting messenger.
meaning the entire book is lk in email, chatting messenger and letter forms.
the fact was that the both of them actually love each other, but none dared to said.
many things happened along the way, they married someone else, divorced etc.
the guy finally found the courage to write to the girl that he loves her
but the letter was "lost". lol. cus the girl's then-husband saw it and hid it
lala~
the girl only saw that letter lk 12 yrs later, but the guy had remarried
then it was only at the age of fifty plus (or sixty)
when they finally realised that they both actually love each other all along.

" And as the magical silence once again embraced them, after fifty years, all they could do was to look at each other. And smile. THE END"

cliche..
but magical=)
that's the story of love.

i love you anyway
~~*

seriously, how small can this world get..
lol..
i realised that that day i seriously was thinking too much
*knock my own head*
melisa, where have your trust gone
yups.. i shldnt think that way..
thanks to a certain green pig for making me realise that=)
this world is just too.. small..
there are just too many coincidences
=)

trust.
trust.
believe.

that's when i love you

let's do this all over again
let us go back right to the start
back to when our love first sparked
let's press 'restart'

let's go back to where we begin
let us turn back time again
make time freeze at that moment
so we'll fall in love again

i can never understand myself
my mind always don't agree with my heart
and always
i contradict myself.
i confuse myself.

but, you.
you could speak to my heart
you could say out exactly how i felt
you could tell me the feeling i was denying.
you could hear my mind
you could say out exactly what i thought
you could tell the thoughts that were so inside.
and when im confused
you know exactly how to piece right things for me
you know exactly the words i need.
when im troubled or hurt so deep inside
you knew it.
and you knew exactly wad to do.
you knew i dont need words
i just need to unlock the tears
and you would let me cry
then,
you knew the right words to end my tears.

when i myself, didn't even know.
you knew it.
you always do.
you were that amazing.
you were that special.

which i why..
i still can't let go.
i can't let go the only one
who could speak to my soul.

yes, we may be different
very very different
but with the difference
we complete.
but this is something
you would never see.

~~*
sch is starting officially in 1 week.
lol..
it's time..
time to find back myself.

i ain't letting go yet
but i gotta move on with life
hopefully with the new sem
days would be less empty
and time will pass..
it'll be much more easier

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
=)

my love, my valentine

=)
presenting the new blog song
which yelyn played ytd nite
and made me cry
=)
lol.
i like the way it's slow...
and nice=)

to my love, my valentine=)

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time...
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
~~~*

I kup this over from my friend's blog=)
shall do it while i let the last epd of huan huan ai load..


RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the
next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN
NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

1.IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU
SAY ?
= superman, caoge (LOL!)

2.WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE
YOUR PERSONALITY?
= Fly Away, Corrine May (yups! i wld love to fly far far away)

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
= tweety three, yellowcard (lol.. no link? hmm.. mayb deepdeep inside i like 23 yrs old guys)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
= Let Me go, 3 doors down (lol.)

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
= Ice Kachang (lol.. i dun lk to eat ice kachang)

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
= 小手拉大手, Liang jingru (my small hands shall go hand in hand with all ur big hands)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
= 遗失的美好 angela (eheheh! treasure me ok..)

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
= My world, avril (lol. well.. without them there's no me?)

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
= World of Our own, westlife (lol..how true)

10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
= it's all about you, mcfly (YES!!!)

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU
LIKE?
= Believe, Yellowcard (lol.. i alwayes believed)

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
= Boulevard of broken dreams (wah.. this is damn emo answer)

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW
UP?
= won't give up, 5566 (hahahs.. im determined!!)

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE
PERSON YOU LIKE?
= 千年之恋, FIR (lol.. forever love??)

15. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
= Back Home, yellowcard (YAH! always call me to go home)

16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
= Umbrella, Rihana (LOL! i'm not going to dance like mr chia)

17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
= Tears, X japan (lol.. eh. pls dun cry when i die.. must smile 4 me alrite.LOL)

18. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
= Majesty, planetshakers (lol.. )

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
= one more try, A1 (hm?)

20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
= 可以爱很久, angela (lol.. wow..)

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
= 手心的太阳, angela (perhaps this means that they are always there?)

lol=)

=)

it's 7.40 now=)
and im bloggingggg from yelyn's house=)
and the rest are still asleep..
lk so cute lah.. haha

me yel gel huix denise aaron ah bang wenjin eugene baoxiang dallas luffy
had a sleepover over here last nite after the celebration of fiona's + dallas's + after promos celebration. lol
went cck park for dinner again
i loveeee the zhi char there=D

anw.. ytd nite was wheeeeeee=)=)
fun fun fun=)
it started with a very du lan yelyn who opened the door for me n siulung
and WHY?
becus.. they were playing the frigging zhi bi game again
HAHA
yes! the one that yelyn hate hate hates
not in the game, i was like talking to everybody.. passing messages=)
den we played a few other
INTELLECTUAL games.. lol
but wad made dem realli fun were becus of...............
lalla~~
lol=) secret.
melisa is SO NOT for intellectual games. lol
i was lk so so so stressed.. hahahaha
but it was fun lah=)

it was just sooo nice being arnd them..
but at times, being arnd them realli bring back memories
lol..
happy memories which i realli miss
the existence of a certain someone.
yups.. thanks yel=) and gel..
and the rest too=)

anw, we talked bout many many stuffs ytd
reviving our childhood days
lol
primary sch trends
lower sec memories
=)
rmb the ahmah looking hairnet hairband
mb the type of erasers, pencils, pencil cases we had
the days where we wld take a 50cent coin, stand outside the bookshop thinking what to buy
lol..
and according to gel
the experience of trying to figure out how to cross from the library to music room.
=)
tempted to turn back time along with me?

slpt for 4hrs
cldnt sleep.. lol.. im not sure if im going church=X
im kinda missing my bed now...... =)
school starting officially in 7days..
ahhhhh
so much catching up to do with the girls.. lol
was reading jessica's blog.. and yups
like wad we were talking that day..
this hols have been.. realli tough for a few of us....
lol..
well, we still got each other rite=)
we still got the girls=)
lol.. this hols is just pure swayness lah.. lol
it'll get better=)
i hope
and i pray.

alrite.. im lk... falling asleep
even though my eyes are lk open.. lol
so tata!
gonna end the post here=)

~*
goodnight
sleeptight
sweetest dreams tonight

somewhere out there

WAH
i finally typed finished the minutes for PRCL meeting =.=
sadsad secretary life.. LOL
it took lk fffooorrreevvveerrr
long long minutes..
lol
*whines*

meeting units later
dinner=)
i miss dem soooo much
lol
happy promos over celebration=)
not sure if i'll stay overnite at yel's house..
see how it goes
and
there's church service tmr
which i cant pon becus i promised aunt daisy that i will be there.
lol.
haish..
i wonder if he'll be there.. lol
i abit.. no courage to see him.. after...
34days
i wonder how he is now..
=)

was email chatting with akira, my japan friend
and it seems lk it's fall now in Kobe, Japan
lucky ppl=)
hahas.. i want to go far far away=)
i wish that im rich =)
then i can travel around=D
find the dreamland that's waiting for me somewhere out there... =)

lets dream=)
lets fantasize=)
tonite.

pig..lol..

this is wad i wanted to say

imissyou.
ineedyou.
iloveyou.

=)
there i said it
=)
well... at least i said them here
=)

pardon emo nemo

it's 1.48am
and im sitting here.

lol.. just finished watchin the 7th episode of why why love (huan huan ai)
and im missing you so much
took off an emo post just nw=)
kangzhi must be the only one who saw that post
cus aft he said it's emo,
i came back took a look and..
WAH SIA
emo
*deletes*
haha=D
but this seems like another emo post again=D

haish..
i hate it when it's nite time
it makes me feel
lonely and cold
and emo=)
lol..
but i've discovered that the best way to sleep now is to stay up till im realli sleepy
den head to bed=)
this way, i wun get to think about you
=)



The weirdest thing happened the other morning...
I woke up with tears in my eyes...
and one rolling down my cheek...
and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again.



lol
like i said before
i hate falling asleep
knowing that tmr, things would remain the same
and i hate waking up
knowing that nothing have changed.
pardon emo nemo
this is not something i can get over like
*poof!*
*tadaa!*
lol..
this is not at all easy for me=)
no matter how strong i may be or i may seem
i am also a girl=)
i can't be strong all the time
i am not strong all the time


What do you do when the only one
that can make you stop crying,
is the person who made you cry?


haish.
im so sad=)
i think i need a hug.

never let you go

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

~~~~~*
im in loveeee with this song now.
lol=)
there's suppose to be cantonese version i think
not too sure though
but me n michelle heard it in one of the shops ytd.
anyway..
i like the melody=)
and the song is rather catchy i wld say
dont believe?
stay in my blog a while more..
and you'll have the song stuck in ur head=D
lol.

anyway.. ytd was rather nice=)
fiona woke me u early in the morning-.-zz
lol.. cus i was suppose to meet her to go shopshop=)
so, i went to meet her in SP for lunch..
NEVER ASK FIONA TO GIVE YOU DIRECTIONS=D
you may get killed
being a non-SPian, i was of course lost in the big SP=(
and fiona was like
"ok. u go down the escalator, den u turn left and walk straight"
lk.. HUH?
go down escalator.. turn left.. is road leh?
walk straight = walk into road??
lol.. in the end, she had to pick me up from wherever i was=D
anw, it's weird being in SP..
lol.. it was a good experience though=)
i saw Leonal (duno how spell), whom i heard ALOT about=D
and suhui's eye candy... HAHA..
=)

went to bugis again.. lol..
but we werent realli shoppping..
hahas..
it was just too warm and lazyy..
so we went to the hawker to get some desserts.
and i ate this super gross thing in mine..
u noe.. some bubble tea shop have those they call it "tadpole" i think =.=
lk some ball shape jelly that has red green yellow white colour..
its lk frigging gross=X
lk tasteless.. rubbery... gross.. gross..
and it BOUNCES!
i accidentally dropped one and it went 'boing!' on the floor=)
went to the aircon bugis shopping centre
saw a 2008 schedule book which i realli like alot=)
but they din have pink=( so i din get it.. LOL
not that i LOVE pink..
just that i dun lk blue and green=)

anw, met up with mich and aaron in town. and we walked arnd a little more before meeting huix denise n huimin to get the remaining of our job pay n have dinner..
on the train we were talking about flowers. roses=)
which i felt was a realli interesting topic.. becus
diff colours and num of roses represent diff things=)

the language of rose=D
just some common one:

RED roses show love, passion and respect. Red roses of any color say "I love you
PINK roses communicate happiness, appreciation, admiration, friendship
YELLOW shows friendship, joy, gladness or freedom
(so guys.. dun give ur gf yellow roses=P)

1 red rose means "you are my one and only"
2 roses "it's just the two of us"
3 red roses "I love you"
24 roses "Remembered fondly every moment" (24hrs)
108 Roses "Please marry me" <- i never knew about this.. lol=D
999 Roses Everlasting and eternal love

~~~*
When you feel alone,
just look at the spaces between your fingers,
remember that in those spaces
you can see my fingers locked with yours forever.

i wish i wish

it's a clear night,
glittering stars
i traced the steps we took so far
you were right here
you disappeared
you seem to have have faded with the dark

it's our night
with baby stars
are we looking with a same old smile
you're long gone
i'm now alone
i make a wish upon our star

once upon a northern star
i wish i wish for you, my heart
if you could hear my wishes now
you would know how precious you are
now upon my northern star
i miss i miss my beloved heart
if you could hear my misses now
will you come back and mend my heart

~~*

12 more days to the end of holidays=(
lol.
perhaps it's good that sch is finally starting
hahas.. im kinda like rotting at home=)
but
im definitely not looking forward to the projects=(
lol.. somehow.. the time in poly passes realli fast=)
(so deadlines come pretty fast too)
we'll be graduating..
in 2 and a half yr time=)
lol.. ytd my elder sis was whining to me about her project mates
"welcome to the world"
poly peeps wld noe wad i mean=)
well.. so end of hols means
goodbye dream, hello reality
it's time to get on with life
lol..
im not ready for it yet
not now..
but hopefully by the time sch starts
it will be no more emo nemo=)

p.s. i love you

Stupid Cupid you're a real mean guy,

I'd like to clip your wings off so you can't fly.

I am in love and it's crying shame

& I know that you're the one to blame!

Hey hey, set me free

Stupid Cupid, stop picking on me

hahas..
this is a very funny song
i think there's an original version in the earlier days
but im listening to Mandy Moore version now
woo~
lol..

~*
happy children's day!
to the young at heart=D
being seventeen isnt too old=)
just that we are JUST five yrs passed the age of childhood=)
revive ur childhood today!

anyway, i finished reading P.S I Love You ytd
lol..
irritating book lah..
makes ppl cry
but it's a REALLY nice book=)
read it if you havent read it.
it's the sweetest story i've read so far..
i like the way the writer writes the story
best=)
yups..
UNITIANS CHALET is booked=)
wheeee~~
hahas.. something to look forward to i guess..
we're gonna celebrate christmas together again=D
yay!

~~*

misses