gastric =X
ouch


today
i feel much stronger

met up with unitians:)
i'll blog again soon

lyrics~

lol
somehow, the korean song 'Because I'm a girl' is lk the best song to listen now..
it's every word on the translated lyrics describe my every thought now..
lol..
i miss MGJS:)
rmbed how the four of us wld just cry while watching the song's mtv
lol
how the 3 out of 4 of us had a round table crying
lol
somehow, i wish i cld turn back time to sec sch days
sec4 days
even though it was realli tough
it was fun
cus we can find our strength in each other

and i have you.

~~~~~*
i need a hug:)

goodbye~

hope~

i'll still hold on to that little light of hope
cus i believe in God
i know He has His plan

it's not the end yet
i'll be strong

i'll eventually be

but now,
just let me cry a little
lol

cus if i cant cry out
i'll be crying inside..

I'll be strong
i just need a little break
let me just rmb the past once more
so that when i realli have to let it go
it wun hurt as much..

then i can hear this song without a tear in my eye
~*
I remember all the nights I used
to stay at home,
On the phone, all night long,
used to talk about the things
we'd really wanna do,
I believed in you,

I remember how you used to say,
Have no fear, It'll be ok,
When you told me anything you
want is possible,
we could have it all.

I believed in you,
I must have been a fool,
All my dreams where with
you...

[Chorus]
I say it's ok,
I can't promise you it's alright,
you ain't keeping me up all night, no more,
You're not here but it's ok,
I assure you, babe, it's alright,
you ain't keeping me up all night, no more,
You're not here but it's ok.

Well, now you got to where you
wanted like I knew you would,
Cash, car, house,
It's all good,
As to why you never come around
here no more,
Like you did before.

You got it all thats the
way it seems,
looks like you,
with your dream,
better hope you life had turned out for the better now,
when I'm not around.

I believed in you,
I must have been a fool,
All my dreams where with
you...

[Chorus]

I say it's ok,
I can't promise you it's
alright, you ain't keeping
me up all night, no more,
You're not here but it's ok,
I assure you, babe, it's
alright, you ain't keeping me
up all night, no more, (no more)
You're not here but it's ok.

Its all right, it's okay [x3]
That you're not here with me

Its all right, it's okay [x3]
That you're not here with me

[Chorus]

Its all right, it's okay [x3]
That you're not here with me

Its all right, it's okay [x3]

You're not here but its ok.

~~*

:''''(

lol
i duno wad to say
i just want to stare blankly
i wish time wld just stop

song by sun yanzi:

别再看着我, 说着你爱过
别太伤痛, 我不难过, 这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流, 我也不懂

就让我走, 让我开始享受自由
回忆很多, 你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱, 你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞, 这会是我, 最后的宽容

抱紧我, 再抱紧我,
这一份感动, 请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头, 是非对错
就让它随风, 忘了所有
过得比你快活
不要再说, 或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我
真正的解脱

~~
i duno if its the end
lol
all i noe is that wad you said realli hurt
i realli duno..
lol
this is the end?
lol... i'll be waiting for your answer
time will pass.. slowly
but i'll wait

~~
thanks huix yongna mich:)
~~
after looking for nana n mich
i went to the park..
traced back the steps we took..
and i realised,
how much i realli dun want to let go...
lol
~~

i walked back to the very spot
u first tried to hold my hand
dn i walked on
and ended at the spot you gave me a hug
the warmth i miss so much
lol.. i looked up..
today the northern star is shining
so far up.. just lk how far u're now..
here was where u tried to piggyback me
not realising that there was someone behind us
the ghost stories u love to scared me with..
lol.. i was not listening..
rmb the bench where we wld rest aft buying a drink, count stars.. somehow you'll always count more stars than me.. u must be cheating..
lol..
then i walked pass the very place where we had our first "fight"
but that time, we still held on tight..

so why cant we now?

~~

sobs.

somehow, yelloward's only one is lk my companion everytime im sad
lol

ooo
my house comp is lk screwing up
it's making me dizzy
the screen its lk so blur..
den so clear
den so blur

WAH =.=

WOOO
it's getting clearer now
LOL
i think i need a new house comp
and
WIRELESS:D

~~

today was a rather interesting day:)
met up with poly-unitian ppl at u t macs
supposedly at 10.30AM:D
but i found myself waking at 9.45:)
hahas
poor but typical aaron was lk already there:)
LOL
went to give wake up calls to fiona n huix
lol
we were supposed to go u t macs for BREAKFAST:D
but thanks to the heavy rain:)
my very-much-looked-forward mac breakfast flew away:(
sadded..
i cant rmb when was the last time i ate mac breakfast..
last year?
I WANT MY SCRAMBLED EGGS:'(
so i ended up eating student meal for breakfast:(

we went about doing stuffs
it was lk raining n raining..
i miss playing in the rain!:D
den the 6 very sadded, broke and jobless polymers
decided to buy a newspaper..
so we have to find coins...
(which i contributed 10cents =.=)
dn lk a pathetic bunch..
we stood at yew tee mrt station
highlighting jobs in the recruitment portion
:)

intially, things looked abit hopeless:)
so i ended up calling ppl asking if got lobang:)
nicenice jessica told me she was going for a job interview:)
Good luck! hahas
FINALLY..
we managed to get a rather hopeful reply frm this survey thingy..
going for briefing tmr..
hope the job is okay:)

~~*
just talked to someone
becus wad he said is always true
(n straightforward)
and truth hurts

im feeling a little sad now
actually im very sad:)

nvm.
stay strong melisa:)

today.

today..
27th august

Happy birthday to deon:)
that sway guy got prelims on his exams day
HAH:)

talked to him a little while on sms
nice to catch up after a long time:)
according to him
'whine' originates frm dog =.=
i din noe...

hmm=X
is he tricking me again?

~~*

today.. also marked the 15mth of my relationship
lol
truthfully, im not very sure how long it will last..
after all, i find wat ben said realli do make sense
changes change people.
things have changed
i have changed.
He changed.

Just a litle 'song' i wrote
LOL
maybe yelyn's rite.. i should join song composing..
(JESSICA:D:D how to join?)

有时而酸， 有时而甜
有时候真的尝到苦的滋味
有时而伤，有时而欢
有时候我真的不能忍着泪

我不是不听话，也不是不喜欢
只是偶尔想见见你，却无法遇见你
我不是想放弃，也不是不相信
怎么说，我还是需要你

Chorus
爱情，是两个人的感情
是两个人的舞曲
是心中我的你
爱情，是两个人的珍惜
是两个人的思议
是心中的恋曲

我想着你，我还要你
我需要你曾给的甜言蜜语
我想念你，我要定你
我怀念着似乎已遗忘的过去

我不是不听话，也不是不喜欢
只是偶尔想见见你，却无法遇见你
我不是想放弃，我一直都相信
怎么说，我还是爱着你

Chorus

两个人的心
手牵手心连心
这才是所谓的
爱情

lol..
a relationship shld be an attachment..
a dance:)
HAHA..
sound a lil' lk ECH:)

but realli
its hard when you're the only one working on it
a dance is a perfect analogy:)

hmm..
perhaps perhaps perhaps
i told deon a lil something that i may do
i'll see how it goes..
lol..

i cant wait for tmr!

~~2

it's almost 10 already..
nothing.
at the rate things are
i think if one day i just die liddat
u wun even noe

LOL
that's a super random analogy..

~*

im a lil' bored now
i just rmbed something that i wanted to say to ex 28ters:)
not sure if you guys heard yet
Mrs kelly chua is pregnant:D:D:D
GIRL
and due in november:)
lets all pray for her and the baby yah?

im so happy for her! :D

~~

stop thinking too much
=)
i seriously need to learn how to stop myself from thinking too much
analysing too much
argh=X
too much lit in sec sch days..

this coming week gonna be an interesting one:)
at least i wun be so bored
and i wun have time to think too much:)

this holiday..
perhaps i should fulfil some of my OWN stuffs
visit my ah mahs
=X im so guilty of not visiting them since a realli long time=X
go down to renci
i just got an sms from uncle goh.. ah..
it has been definitely more that half a yr since i last went down=X

i want a chalet!
i miss ECP..
why west side no sea one ar?
lol
ok.. maybe they have just that i duno:P
i want THE chalet with unitians..
gonna be hard organising one this yr?
lol.. dun care
lets book a chalet and celebrate xmas!:D
hahas.. im thinking a lil' too far:P

~~*
take a little initiative can anot?
im not going to give in this time round
im not:)
im going to be stubborn
im going to be unreasonable
im NOT going to take the initiative this time round
i dun want to always be the one who makes the step
if you want me
THEN
you have to get me.

there.
i said it.



:)

cry on my shoulders

ohmygosh:D

kaye just sent me VERY NICE SONG
you gotta hear it!!!
im trying to load it as my blog song =X
not sure if it works
so if you hear it mean it worked:D

YOU GOT TO SEE THE LYRICS

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home


You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life They're free


But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do


If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue


When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

turn back time

UNTIY BBALL GIRLS IS IN NATIONALS
:D
im happy for my sis
lol
and of cus..
UNITY:D
im such a pro-unitian
HAHA:)

cus it has been a lovely home for me for four years
memories~

in the midst of conversation with Joey ytd
we realised that it had been almost a yr since 4/9 did summer loving for TC day:D
it realli brought back memories:)
so, since i was lk SUPER BORED
i went to rack up the dvd that ms halimah gave 4/9 on grad day
and along, i found all the cards..

emo~
i miss sec sch days..
so much

it sems lk everyone is busy in their own ways
tired
somehow, i realli miss those days where we wld mug together
lol

in my emoness (and boredem)
I rack out all the unity VCD frm sec1 rite up to sec3
and i was lk "AH! why din mr nathan stayed till sec4.. den we have one more vcd"
moreover, sec4 was lk the most eventful year..
lol
i watched
i saw
saw mark singing for the walkathon
the bball matches that we nvr missed
the spirit of unitians.. screaming our lungs out with "let's go unity"
lol..
cca leader days..
sec1 drama comp
sec2 class video (nat jeremy wrestling)
my very unglam redcross casualty video:D
ndp:)
man, i miss ndp in unity:D

so many memories:)

lets turn back time!

less.. just let me whine:D

im..
bored

im
moneyless
jobless
ccaless
wirelessless

its holidays for poly ppl lk me
cus exams over
shant say anything for exams
cus..
melisa hates talking bout exams:D

hahas..
it's day 2 of holiday
and im lk BORED already
and i cant use the comp whole day to watch dramas
CUS IM WIRELESSLESS
if you get wad i mean:D

and..
im missing julie jolene n macy already :'(
so weird
but realli..
it feels realli weird not being able to hear jolene's "HAHAHHA" and see her late for lectures:)
not being able to hang arnd with julie aft lessons and whining to her
not being able to gossip with macy.. complaining to each other:)
=)
and i miss C02 girls..
LOL:D
i just realised how lucky i m to be in this all-girls class:D

*attention to Julie n Jolene*
is our food hunt deal still on?
HAAHS.. melisa is in need of entertainment:D

im CCAless
YES
i havent joined a cca even though me n joel was lk intending to join nyaa:)
but the cca lk Nothing de sia..
no emails.. nothing:(

so im thinking..
shld i join..
choir?
lol..
imagine me sing lalal~~
LEO club?
lol.. imagine me in the vest thingy=.=
Song Composing Club?
hmmmm...
howhow?
im indecisive

and im jobless
besides my tuition:(
I need to get a job..
need $$
lobang anyone?

~~~

i miss unitians
cant wait to meet up with the polymers(suhui,2007)
i need a little..
polymers therapy
maybe a little shopping therapy^^
and
FOOD THERAPY:D
friday..
then our exams all finish
den can date those poly ppl:)
waha~

PPCM

ahhhness:(
i cant remember all that im trying to memorise..
damn:P

today. i learnt that the best way to wake suhui:D
yes.. take note unitians:)
the best way to wake huix
is to call her hus
HAHA:D
caling her handphone
may work
i called her a few times a few times on her hp:(
ignored
so i called her hus
immediate effect:D
hahas
and that blur girl was lk so surprised:P
hahas..

ppcm
ppcm
ppcm
AH

sunshine

woo~*
im getting into goody good mood nowadays:D
must be because..
ALL THE PROJECTS ARE FINANLLY UP
yippie:D
now left with the exams :(

on wednesday met unitians for dinner at glass house
happyhappy gathering
i mean lk
it was lk MONTHS ago since i last met huix n mark!
and ppl lk heeday n luffy..
havent seen them since lk.. ~~~
LOL:D
glad to see everyone in whole piece:)

took lots of pic that day..
(huix:D do send me when u see me online yah:D)
emo a little..
in fact was DAMN emo XP
shadnt elaborate:D
hehe~*
must thank lovely aaron who pei me home
and tried to talk (more of suan n guai lan) to cheer me.. hahas
thanks:)

anyway.. ytd i finally cleared all the horrible emo thoughts in my heart:D
thanks alot to huix n mich.. realli:)if its not for them to be there on wed.. i duno how things wld be like=X
i love u girls:D
and of cus.. to jolene.. for her flower when i was not so happy:D
julie for her wisdoms:D
and macy for her "YAH! i agree.. " when i tell her all the stuffs.. HAHA:D

hey ppl:D
JIAYOU:D
i noe promos for jc are almost here
HUGS
good luck yah:)
for those on the verge of breaking down
chill:)
take a step back.. breathe some fresh air
den go back to chiong:)
SMILE PEOPLE!!

~~~~
ytd, went ndp:D
with macy joel n cheryl
initially i only had 2 tics..
suddenly my dad said he may be able to get another two
the prob was that the tics are not from same sector
=X
so it took my some time to figure out wad to do with it..
and i got a very happy bear aka. joel who accepted the tics:D
hahas..
sori for being so last min! hehe..
anyway.. the parade was..
NOT BAD
actualli a little boring n meaningless
i was lk only enjoying the parade n the effects..
the performance were lk.. not so entertaining:D
=X but it was a good effort though:D


me n macy wore the C02 shirt there:D
see.. we so proud of C02 leh.. HAHAS:D
and it just so happen that the shirt is red.. yah ^^
the goodie bags were also pretty much not-so-goodie
2 NEWwater bottle.. 2 pkt drinks. 2 sweets 2 nuts 1 tidbit the star n THIS:D

SO CUTE LAH the lion
n they have GIRAFFE!!
i would have given mine to huix if mine was giraffe..
but no:(
i got fish...
but this young boy in front of me wnt fish.. so i exchanged with him
haahs.. n then me n macy made frends with his mom.. hahas:D yahs
~*

getting into the NDP mood

that's me n macy's view

the sky was beautiful:D
n the FERRISWHEEL!!
im SO going to get on it!


the miniature thingys are the red lions:D

this is frigging cool!
when i took the photo, the planes were at the bottom of my screen..
but when the pic came out, the planes were on top!
and i love these planes!!
woohoo~


the canons were directly opposite us..
so we could here them SUPER LOUD (n scary)
and we could see that light indeed travel faster than sound..
super duper cool

Dynamic Singapore:





Singapore is pretty cool actualli.. lol



i noe this is rather random..
but i love my handphone camera!
LOL:D

yayiness:D

AHHH:D
i finally got my mi lu bing songs:D
SO HAPPY:D

eh jiafeng~*
u made my day:)
hahahaha
nicenice jiafeng sent me "lei"
and i self service kup "shi ying" from shengxun

SO NOW I HAVE TWO SONGS OF MI LU BING:D

lol
happyhappy~*

the songs are suppose to be emo
but im lk smiling away:D

man, i love mi lu bing:D:D:D:D:D
*grins
WOOoOOOO

im highHighHIghHIGhHIGH:D

~~
today on the way to sch
on the bus
i saw Kangzhi
sitting at the busstop
stoning
stone
stone.
I was on the bus trying to hard to wave to him
*waves*
*stone*
*wavewave*
*stoning*
*waving*
*still stoning*
*WAVES.. argh.. give up*
*still stoning*

lol.. i was trying so hard not to burst out laughing at him lahh
that guy.. macham stone until can be statue le..
lol ^^

~~*
unitians meeting tmr:D:D
i so cant wait
I MISS UNITIANS!!!


im in goodygoody good mood today:D

这些眼泪 我无所谓
真心的对待 最珍贵
我回头想起 爱情的甜美
永远不后悔

there's so much i want to tell you
so much i want to say to you
but you're so far away

days have been...
good
bad

too many things on my mind
i need to get them out
but i cant find the time to clear things out
and i noe that if i dun.. things arent going to get better

that's the problem with ME
i dun like say out my dissatisfactions=X
and the fact that you're so busy
so stressed up
i find myself not wanting to add on to ur burden
by telling you the things goin thru m mind now
things arent going too well

that day while whining to julie
she said something that realli struck me
she said that i have very good edurance ability
lol.
and she says that if oneday, i realli feel that i cant take it anymore
she knows i mean it.
then i wonder
how much more can i endure?

my mind says
not much.
but my heart says
endure a little longer..
everything will turn out fine.




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~*

back to real business

im supposed to be doin my IT portfolio now
but im just too not-in-the-mood right now
in fact im in a pretty bad n sian mood^^

sori macy dear=X
seems lk macy is lk doing all the web thingy and melisa is here
trying to be not-so-moody
opps XP
i'll try to be more productive
-nods-
lala~*

im so gonna miss my attachment kiddies=X
seeing them always make me smile:)
forget all the weariness
forget all the tots

shit.
getting me emo again:D


jolene's balloon flower for me:D
thanks girl:)

~*


jolenejuliemelisamacy ^^

when things go wrong
what should we do?

i was the teacher
he was the student
yet he taught me one lesson,
not many people would dared to do..

today, my tuition kid tried to put a butterfly on my hand
actually, he did.. and i screamed:D

then he said "no need to be afraid"
which was one line of comfort
it sounded much more nicer than "why you so scared"

*nods* my tuition kid loves to talk about insect
on one fine day while reading a book
we talked about butterfly
and when he asked me if i liked them
i replied that actually im scared of them :)
and he said
why? butterflies are so pretty..
next time i catch one for you

i thought he was kidding


he wasn't..
and so i was happily trying to take something out from my bag
when i felt itchy at my hand
and
AHHHHHH
hahas.. and i made him take it away:D
he tried putting it on my lap
and so , i made him put the butterly back in the box ^^
instead, he let the butterfly stand on his face..
yes.. FACE (i wld have fainted)
and he said
"teacher, u realli dun nid to be afraid.. dun nid scared one
see.. butterfly are so nice"

even though it was pretty evil of him
somehow, i felt realli comforted
that even someone as young as him
primary2
would actualli try to teach me to be brave
LOL
so sweet rite
:)
but that doesnt mean you guys can start trying to make me go near flying things and gliding things

-nods-

i have northern star to guide my way
when you're far away

a day in ech

whats a bunch of girls in early childhood edu
plus
having play and motor as a module

you get bored girls playing bear:D

that day in CD quiz,
me n jolene started fooling around with celery
celery the bear (not the veg)

say 'hi' !!
hahas
LOOK! MACY SHRUNK INTO CELERY... AHH SOS!


lol.. =.=.. i was THAT bored
during the quiz = melisa din noe how to do her quiz:D

aft quiz.. we just played n played n played:)
see.. i was so nice that i lent celery my jacket..
cus he must be freezing in the lecture theatre..
afterall, he's lk naked (not counting in the ribbon)

and i lent him my bear

isnt that beary sweet ^^
lol..
some randoms..

bear ate cookie:D

celery before wearing the latest acuvue define contact lenses

celery with acuvue define on:D

~* after the above experiment, it proves that acuvue define(Brand Contact Lenses enhance your eyes, making them look bigger, brighter and more beautiful.) works)*~
yah rite:D

~~~~~~*

today is the last day of attachment :(
emoemoemo

i love my childcare
i love the kids there
i love my WC:D

today, me n yanling took photograph with the kids
she took with her E:D
me with my WC

im dying to post those photos here
but i doubt im allowed to do so:(
bahh...
you shld realli see those photos..
lol


they din say that we cant post photos of objects..
so:D
LOOK:D
WC's bag, RED MINNIE MOUSE water bottle, and superduper small cup n toothbrush
to think that our teeth were once THAT mini..

im so gonna miss those kids :(
emo


thats me n yanling on our last bus trip back from childcare
hey!:D
it was nice having u to go to the childcare with every attachments:D
not sure if the next attachment we'll be back together as "partners"
but im glad that i have you as my very first attachment mate:D

if only that moment could standstill~*