a letter for yanie

my dear yanie,

for the time being, even we're apart, i know ur always there for me, catching every single things happen around me, the sign that you care about me, you never wanna miss every single things i face. you never leave me walking alone, even from far. for me, that's the best thing i have about you. the true meaning of a friendship. you know where you are deep in my heart....

here, i have a confession. i owe you thousands of hugs, millions of words and billions of time, for all the love. and today, i made the biggest sin ever towards you. it's the 3rd day and i was about to notice your birthday just passing by.. i feel so guilty....

22nd of June : i was feeling so sick. fever, horrible cough, dizzy, body ache, went to work at celcom roadshow. did work all alone without other promoter, i was feeling so sick. the night, i went to clinic, and the result i received, low blood pressure plus virus infection. thanks doc. and i was totally forgot about you.. i'm a bad friend =(

23rd of June : still with the roadshow, i was accompanied with a fellow of mine, huda, and we're totally lost in helping the customer to fill in the registration form. so horribly sick while facing a mental disorder boss. and i was totally forgot about you.. i'm a bad friend =(

24th of June : it's the same thing. but we moved to other location. looking for the location and we got lost. everything turns to chaos. and again, the boss wasn't there to monitor us, doing things independently, feeling so stress. thinking of low payment they have offer us, not worth while thinking of the expensive parking fees. damn you. i was so so so so fucking bz. shiyyytttt. and i was totally forgot about you.. i'm a bad friend =(

today, 25th of June 2010, i'm here to present you the simplest 'happy birthday' wish you ever heard in your life. a letter for your birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANIE. your a big girl now. bo la duk takut spider nyo.. must be strong =) i still refuse to say the 'belated' birthday. will definitely not saying those word. for all the love i have, may you always be blessed. you know how much i love you. take a very good care of yourself ok.

love ♥ from malaysia to ireland , 

jue

nuff earning jue

morning! jue bangun je pagi terus terkam blog. dah x mcm sbelom ni. bgn je, terkam facebook. dah terbalik la. huhuhu.. hari ni nuff earning jue dah klua. dah ckp seminggu dah rupe nye. hihi.. teka brape? RM3.25. dgn state visit 353. kih3.. ok la tu. jom berusaha lg!

hari ni jue nk klua ngn anne, my bff, jap lagi nk g amek die. so end up jue xdpt blogging lg smpai mlm. td dah track u all ckit2. byk dpt new moon. nnt klik2 jue lg okay. sama2 kte usaha. gogogo! :)

she's my girl

juhanifah bt musa. that's the name. my very very very best friend, she's celebrating her 22 birthday today and sadly i'm not able to be there.. here i would like to wish her a thousand time happy birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNE!

my dear.. i know it's been hard for you to go through this.. but i'm here to always hold you tight. to listen to ur pain, to cheerish u in everything. whenever i see u smile, it makes me feel relief, but i know deep inside ur heart, u just fake it. hang on, coz i know u r strong enough to face this. and must believe it, the sun will shine for you a little bit longer. yet, another year to make u stronger! 22, that's the way u live ur life. me? i'l keep u hang on. just hang on, anne. love u to bits.. smile... :)

teman xoxo

ah. hari ni nk ckp psl teman. ye, kwn, sahabat, friends. boleh ke jue ckp psl ni? and seriously i have no idea at all. though i'm not an expert to judge teman, even to talk about it. to tell that i have less teman. ye, teman ketawa mmg ramaaaaii. tp teman menangis, teman utk mengadu hanya seorang dua. tp jue dah ckp bersyukur dgn seorang dua itu.

mereka la tempat mengadu, tempat mengutuk, tempat nk luah rase x puas hati, tempat menangis!, tempat berkongsi kegembiraan yg terlalu, tempat bermanja, tempat marah. ya, hanya mereka.

sekarang era xoxo gossip girl. so begitu la perjalanan persahabatan jue dgn teman2 rapat. kalau diimbas blk, mmg lumrah persahabatan begini. and yg paling penting, dlm persahabatan mesti tiada sifat cemburu. ya, jue mmg tidak mudah melatah untuk cemburu, lebih2 lagi dgn sahabat sndiri! itu bukan diriku. tp jue pelik, ada sesetengah teman2 (bkn teman jue), konon nya tersangat la sayang sahabat nya, tp cemburu bagai. hairan. betol.

teman adalah untuk menyokong, to support her in any situation or difficulties. bukan untuk dicemburui. ah.. complicated nye dengan teman. sebab itu jue x gemar untuk bercakap tentang aspek bingung ini. sampai sekarang, jue hairan dgn mereka. kalau teman cantik, dia beli baju cantik, jue mmg suka sgt. tambah2 lagi jue mmg suka teman yg cantik. sebab tu jue susah nk punya ramai teman. ya, sebab teman2 jue semua cantik2, xkira luar dan dlm ;)

teman, ya, mcm gossip girl lg (huhu), kita boleh marah dia, kita boleh maki, boleh kutuk dia. kita bergaduh dgn dia... (itu la kisah perjalanan jue dgn teman baik) tp kita akan merindui dia. dah penat marah, maki, blk la teman dgn teman untuk bersama-sama lagi. huaahuaaa..

teman, sesungguhnya jue tersangat la sayangkan teman2 jue. kalau ada terasa hati ngn jue, harap jgn di simpan. hanya luahkan. jue sgt berbesar hati.. ya, kerana hanya kamu la teman2 yg jue ada. harta dunia jue yang tak tenilai harganya. ya, kamu tau dimana letaknya kamu di hati jue.. xoxo, jue.

babbling part 2

i have a lot to tell.. yeah right. the boring part of me. but still, i need to babble like this, cz it's been a while i hadn't had any chance n so lazy to babble. so? ekk.. why plak part 2? haha saje! dun get me wrong.

ok.. first of all,, jue wanna wish someone who is a good friend of mine, a blessing happy birthday! Nur Arina Mohd Amin, just got to know her for almost 2 years, and getting close since 8 months ago. heee.. Rina, Happy Birthday!!! next month is my birthday plak, and i'm truthfully don't want to accept any birthday wishes! hahaha.. coz i'm getting old lah.. lol.. 22? wuaaa.................... so rina, may u have a prosperous year ahead, not to label the wealthy thingy anyway, but the prosperous of healthiness, happiness, luckiness, and all the 'good'-ness la. who knows, arina nnt jd monster cam aryan. rina, thank u for being a good friend of mine, it was one i couldn't treasure anymore :)

btw, talking bout birthday, my high school besfriend (and we still a bestfriend hee), yanie, had turn to 22 on the last Monday, which is 22th June. ek. cam ngam je tarikh tu ngn umur kmu la makcik! lol.. and i'm so happy cz finally can meet her yesterday. we did exchange a lot of story since our last meeting last year. hm.. actually, she studying in ireland doing medical course. takot aku die ni nk jd doctor. scary wehh! haha.. btw yanie, happy birthday to u! like always, i'm wishing u the same birthday thing like the past continuous 9 years. dah 9 kali buat kerja ni rupe nye. hehehe.. hope u read this. hope to hangout again with u this weekday, before i got back to KL, lalala, jd ke x our plan nk buat cupcake ni weh. plz plz plzzzz,,, teach me how..

finish of birthday2 thingy.. so nk story bout my routine at home since 10 days. hari tu blk cam lipas kudung. and i almost miss my flight. luckily flight delay 20 mnt.. well, air asia la kate kan.. huhu.. blk plak, during submission day of our project, mayagraphi team with other 9 teams working hard on this, competing among each other. sedih, xdpt stay ngn all my group members for even 1 day after the submission. whatever it is, my group members is the best n the coolest! hm.. back to my routine at home, just one thing that i know, i eat a lot! and sadly, the weight is static. 44kg still. damn! why is it so hard to gain weight. hm.. this time of holiday is quite heaven compare to before coz umi byk cuti and jue ddk rumah je ngn umi. ape lg, umi msk all the time. hm.. feels like having a fully household mother la plak. she was on leave for 4 days since tuesday lg coz nak main dgn aryan smate-mate. hish.. dasat tol.. and smlm pon cuti cz she had cough. sian umi..

as usual, my house organize an aerobic class in every friday, and it was under Kementerian Pembangunan Wanita, Keluarga dan Masyarakat. haha.. how come la benda2 camni jd kat rumah jue. bontot je. haha.. yg penting, best betol dpt aerobic. huhu.. dah lame x terkinja-kinja tergedik-gedik. yg xtahan nye, makcik2 sekampung pun dtg. poco2 pon ade td. bangge x bangge, i know the poco2. lalala.. miss the time when we were in BTN with my ICT friends, learn how to poco2. but few of them is not my friend anymore. n i don't regret it, but regret to know that such kind of person. hoping that i never know them. luckily, i cam simply forget the bad thing that happen in my life. that made me sure that i'l forget them soon. thanks to the love i had given. hm.. ape jue merepek ni..

tomorrow i need to continue my work, sewing my own baju kurung! hehe.. 2 pairs to go. btw, ni baju kurung yg nk pakai g kelas. haih, suke sgt pakai baju kurung cotton now, selesa. k la, jue is waiting for her bear to arrive home soon, td gadoh, sedih die g tgk transformers tp x gtau. smlm ckp nk tgk ngn jue.. tuptup hari ni dah kua nk g tgk cite tu.. mau x sedey. at least kalau bgtau awal2, i can consider it well.. but i'm ok now.. hm, syg pujuk nk tgk harry potter same2. oh it's a must. lol.. btw, i miss my anne a lot! mek, 8hb ni amek aku ye. kte ronggeng! lalala.. k la, the end of babbling part 2.

more ages to go!

yeah2. for the super girl frens of mine..

one year to younger n mature ;)

happy birthday lia!

siti alia amirah binti abdul hakim

may u always be blessed

happy in whatever course

and achieve all ur dreams!

si comel alia. curi ur pics kt fb! mcm akak jgk ;p

new semester, new hope

huu.. and the challenging semester sudah bermula! will determine my majoring course at the end of it. yup2, i'm so excited, but soo sooo extremely worry. if i might not strong enough to perform well for this term.

and more, this blog will not always be updated. thank u! hihi.. yer la. too serious too buzy. huh? and sebermula nya new semester, i had hang out wit my tubbies! except ena, coz ena hasn't be here yet. lameee gileee x hangout ngn diorg ni. so dah tau lepas2 ni dah susah nk hangout lg. jd kami keluar la awal2 sem ni.

main purpose we all out last night adalah untuk belanja akak makan! and yeah, makan besar di pizza hut at One Utama. sronokk. and we were all in eating mode. the order list was, a set of 4 meals with additional spaghetti bolognaise and a plate of cruss cut fries. and we all finished it all. 3 org je ok. me ate 4 slices of pizza + spaghetti sket + a bowl of soup + 2 breadstixs. and i was full! happy happy..

actually, mase smpai d ou tu, i had msg along earlier, and happy nyer, along atst pon coming to OU, with baby aryan n abg nan. later after eating. we all gi jumpe they all. suke2. baby aryan xtdo. comel sgt!!

after all, we all go back at 10.30 with the jam in and outside the OU, even in the basement 2. haih.. and arrived gombak at 11, dengan rushing nye g danau. huu.. thanx god everything was alright. sorry ye my tubbies, smlm blk, sy drive laju2. huhu.. nk kejar mase la konon, but we all happy coz atst dpt shopping baju. lalala..

before i end this, coz i don't know when will i update this, i would let it remain here as a small gift but maybe will be meaningful for her, my beloved sister, norhasnizan bt ab rashid, happy birthday to u! hope everything u wish may all comes true, u know that i love u so much! and i always pray for ur happiness and for u to be a successfull kakak.. =) hugkisshugkiss

21st December, akak, 22 years younger. 22 years cantek ;p

(curi this pic from akak's profile picture at facebook)

the day of alia

hari ni had a day out with cik alia. one of my best friend, n cute one. for those yg xtau lg, we all kenal since form 1. slalu meja die behind me. n slalu tempat nye kena curi ngn amir. ala.. zaman2 mude dulu.. time2 ngorat.. huhu.. n now die tgh abroad her studies in tesol kat sydney but tgh hols. summer break tu. huhu..

td pg lia fetch me at home. ktrg kua g ukur jalan. best2.. smpai PCB (Pantai Cahaya Bulan). ngeh.. then, tgk ramai couple berdua-duan n bermesraan. tepi2 batu.. dlm kete. huh. apakaaaa... tepi pantai.. romantik sioott! lia, our latest theory was..?

igt nk g MAHER. coz kerinduan yg amat menebal kt our school tu. uwaaa... but then suddenly rase cam segan lak nk g. hehe.. lia, some other time ok? hee.. we shud be there, whatever happen. hehe.. sarcastic. lol..

lia, we forgot one thing la td.. tau la kenye doh mkn noodles.. hm.. makan kopok lekor!! uwaaa... patot la rase ade kureng. tp pape pon, hari ni mmg best. n i'm afraid we might not have the chance like that anymore.. huhu.. coz nnt we all ramai2 da x g merewang camtu dah. kte g hols kt pulau lak ok. berangan ni. please make it come true.. *wink

my respond to aradledashina =)

oit oit.. apa kamu membebel itu? hehe.. a lil bit i got the feeling, "ur right".. yep2. bkn senang nk cari kwn sejati. kwn baik bleh cari but not kwn sejati. for me in fact, maybe i dun have any kwn sejati pon! kwn sejati that i can describe here ialah kawan yg sgt concern psl kite. kwn yg even kite beribu batu jauh pon dr die, we'r not just cut the distance like that je. and more, the connection we have between each other shud be so damn great. kire ade give and take la. yeah2. definitely maybe, i dun have any! luckily u, ade gak kwn sejati coz i think i dun have one. i repeat, i dun have one. heheh.. i do have lot of kwn baik. coz sy baik ngn semua org. just be nice to me and i'l be 100x nice to u. like that lah my motto in friendship. ha rina, anda faham? hehehe.. and for ur info, sy sgt senang begini, xde kwn sejati pon my life is fantastic bombastic gtu.. coz i have family, i have my amir (this is serious. hehe), i have some trusted frens. that's enough for me =)

for me, kwn datang dan pergi. hilang yg tu, dtg yg lain. sy suke berkawan. x kire la di mana sahaja. hee.. i can make friends with anybody. for example when the first time i step my feet to ur studio. lalala~ new student gtu.. haha. tegur je sape yg berhampiran. ske ati aku la. nk idop. eheh. last2 dlm studio tu, i get close to shima. tu yg plg ngam la. ehem. yg lain2 biase je. tp when the time terjumpe, boleh je bergurau 'manje. hehehe.. apakaaa..

rinaaaaaaaaaaaaa... ni lg satu. i'm on ur side! ape tu ek. ala.. yg penyanyi2 korean tu. omg.. sgt annoying nyee ngn studio mate yg minat giler2 diorg ni. geli lah. seriously i tell u ha. mcm nk muntah. bile dlm studio, denga diorg ngadap laptop ngn bijik mate nk tkeluar tgk lid laptop, huh, jue layan lagu omputeh, sumbat earphone, psg kuat2. i cannot go! n i have the feeling like u. btw, in fact, i'm not so fanatic in this thingy, ye la.. cam penyanyi korea ke, pelakon omputeh ke.. semua gwe nggak hafal nama2 mereka. i'm not that kinda fanatic fan. tgk bole. bg la ape sahaja citer, sy pulun semua. cartoon ke, horror ke, action movie ke, romantic comedy ke blablabla.. semua bley layan. best x sy? eheh. puji dr sndiri. tp satu je, i'm so into english song, jarang sgt layan lagu lain. kte geng ;p

hey2, kuatkan semangat ye. biase la tu. kwn mmg mcm tu. i also cerewet dlm bab2 ni. n i really concern bout my stuff sme. ye. sy sgt syg all my stuffs. bkn la nk ckp kedekut. tp like ur side la. kdg2, kepala sndri kena pijak bile bwat baik ngn org. so just be urself. buat hal sndri blabla. but have to remember, kwn ttp la kwn. rite2? cannot be deny tanpa kwn, siapa laaaa kite. hee.. talking bout stuffs, dat's why my room kt asiah tu so pack with my stuffs. sy susah nk pinjam stuff ngn org coz i know how it feel org lupe nk *&^%^%#. mcm kt mrsm dlu pon, i was totally like this. budak yg bwk barang plg byk. hehehe.. complete, sme ade.

tp jue nk highlight kt sini, sy ade sorg kwn yg sgt close to me. her name is norhasnizan bt ab rashid. n die bkn sekadar kwn semata-mata kerana sy anggap die mcm kakak sy sndri. i can lean on her.. n i will to do anything for her coz syg die yg amat. n i trust her so much. i can share anything with her n die pon slalu share bout her feeling towards friends to me. yeah2. mengarut itu semua kwn sejati. sometimes i got sick with the title kwn sejati. ok la for now. ilang mengantuk sy bebel for this entry. td mengantuk giler ok. now i need to be sleepy back. thanx to rina coz i can share with u bout the serious dilemma in our own self. even all of us have this dilemma. jom2 same2 kite muhasabah diri jap...