Of getting married

Assalamulaikum

Sometimes, when  I thought about getting married, I had a huge worries telling me that I would lose myself, lose my inner self and be a failure. I become so scared that I couldn't handle myself. Grow up Fareha. Grow up! You know like every girl has that feeling. Do I make the right choice or some thing like that. Not that I would miss my single life, but I am more concern about being unprepared on being a wife. How would I not feel afraid and scared thinking that I have trusted a guy that I would spend my whole life with and devoted my life to be with him. 

I told Amirul about my worries. He constantly let me talk about about my fear. But instead of being offended by my tears, he always give me conformation and affirmation answers.   Eventually I learned that I shouldn't. Amirul, I feel beautiful with you. I don't mean physically beautiful here. Every girl would love having a guy waking up next to especially those she loves so dearly to her heart.

Why you should be afraid to get married?

NO. You shouldn't. Why would you? You know, when you get married, you solat is wayyyyy better compared to those who are not married in term of the rewards. Allah will reward you double or even triple in every good deeds you do. I've read some where that 2 rakaat solah of married man, is better than 70 rakaat of those who are not married. How can you not want that? It's silly or even not grateful to think about being scared. Jodoh is a gift  from the sky (read Allah). The gift to complete you. To complete your deen. 

"And of His signs is that He created for you mates from among yourselves that you may dwell in tranquility with them and He placed between you affection and mercy between your hearts: verily in that are signs for those who reflect." (Surah Al Rum 30:21)

With that, I'm a happy bride to be.

7 days to go. Hew Hew Hew

Truly, 

Fareha

I'm engaged

Assalamualaikum.

Okey. Hurm, how do I start this so that it doesn't sound so euwww dan orang yang baca rasa nak muntah sebab kegelian. Hahaha. Ok la, let's get started.So, I'm officially engaged to Amirul. We started as friend because I always wanted to marry someone I know by myself. I want to marry  someone I know in person before anything else because what you heard from other might some kind of exaggeration or even a lie. I know his personality first and eventually getting to know him day by day. I'm not into match making and arrange marriage thingy. 

I understand as human he has flaws. I have flaws too. It's impossible to be perfect. Mana lah boleh kau nak cari orang yang perfect. Contoh kau nak cantik dan hot macam Megan Fox tu kan. Tapi nak yang baik dan solehah macam Anna Althafunnisa. Both just don't tally.

Be realistic. 

Amirul,

Thank you for not giving up on me. Despite me being heartless sometimes, not knowing what I want life (which I actually do, but I'm too shy to tell you) and sometimes I give no reaction to you (I have to understand you're an extrovert person).I'm trying my very best to keep up with your hyper activeness. Hahaha. I never want to disappoint you. Sorry for the joke that you can't accept. Amirul, thank you. Thank you for making me believe good guy still exist.

I love you. I love you so much. I have no word to describe how much I love you. It's beyond what I could comprehend. I understand, I should not love human like more that the creator. I completely understand that. The love for Allah is eternity. Insyaallah. Amirul, thank you for making my life come fresh and alive.

Izzati said she's officially off market when she got engaged. I was amused. Me? When I'm engaged and  I'm officially not looking for any guy. I choose to be faithful the man that I love. Semoga perkahwinan yang bakal dibina akan meningkatkan keimanan dan kami lebih mengagungi kuasa Allah s.w.t dengan nikmat kasih sayang dari mu melalui insan-insan disekeliling kami. 19 days to go and I'm nervous like heck!

I know this post is so mushy. Please excuse me for the jiwang karatness overload. Hehehe

Sincerely, 

Fareha 

Warm Up

It has been 2 month. The last time I writing was on his birthday. Busy. Tapi tak tahu la busy apa. Just banyak kerja. So, jadi super kalut. Dah la aku memang jenis kalut. Disebabkan aku jalan laju, cakap laju, pegang barang pun laju-laju, orang nampak aku macam Masyaallah, kalut nya budak ni. Padahal aku cool je sebenarnya. Gitu pulak eh. Ntah. Aku rasa aku dah terbiasa buat kerja laju.