Aidilfitriku 1435H

I supposed when I write this one memory down, it will help me refresh my memory later.

That's why I decided to write. 

Well, this one will be about my Syawal 1435. 

We hadn't have many days to celebrate Syawal. We only had until day 3. I feel sad of course because..you know, I love Syawal more than my birthday! We have to carefully plan our time so that we wouldn't miss anything.

The night before the 1st of Syawal, takbir at my in laws. I love this event!

We spent raya morning at my mother's. These are my nieces and nephew at duit raya delegation event. bahaha xp. Oh, I miss them :)

My nephew lost his Playstation, so PakLang came to the rescue! Thank you PakLang!

With my soulmate forever until jannah, inshaAllah:) 

The family of my side minus my mother. She's just doesn't like taking photo. So...sigh...haha.

Then, in the afternoon we left for Temerloh. Visiting Mr. A grandma with other relatives. Alhamdulillah the journey was a smooth one although we have no idea how to get there and where is the house. We happened to pass by a small junction which my memory recognize, and tadaaaa....we were there in 1.5hour. That's quite an achievement :)

Inroducing Girl's Generation AAW. That's our initial. they are my sisters in law who taught me Running Man. heh. Oh, it's been a while since I watch RM. How many episodes are there already?

Family photo 1

8X clan.
Yea, it was a very blue raya. Im glad I decided on royal blue:)
What's yours?

Eh, I still haven't finished!

Syawal 2nd

On the second day, my in laws held an open house. Oh, who doesn't love open house!!

Para pelayan menunggu ketibaan tetamu jemputan :)

Among the guests

Guests again.

Us! Oh, it's very hard to dress a husband! *roll eyes* I have to wear something that can match whatever I can find him. See...that's why I need a bigger wardrobe, to meet the probability! hahah!

My relatives.

Syawal 3rd

Managed to squeeze 2 houses and....a trip to Tesco to buy groceries to bring back to Japan. We left for the airport that night...sobss.

This gorgeous home belongs to my brother in law. If any of you can recognize him and his wife-the writer of the famous book, Diagnosis. 

A must to do. Visiting my best friend. How I wish Im in KL. We can meet up more often. InshaAllah Yani, give me a few more years. In the meantime, take care of yourself and that angel of yours:)

In front of KLIA2. It was 3am. I can't thank my in laws enough for driving us at an odd hour. Our flight got delayed for 5 hours. I can't imagine those who live outside KL. How do they cope with flight delay? Us, we can just go back home and sleep!hahah!

Our 5 hours delayed was compensate with sandwich and bottled water. I appreciate the thought and what's more, the sandwich was really tasty. Good job AirAsia!

At first I was a bit mad at Air Asia for the delay. I was putting myself at the situation what if...I don't have 5 hours to waste? But then, I guess this was a blessing a disguise. At that early morning, 3 am I gotta see KLIA2 closer. We had breakfast and filled our hand luggage with Johnny Rocket's burger! It was a nice 5 hour delay after all:)

Because of you, Dad...

I was not born in a rich family.

The good thing about it is, I am simply satisfied with small things, only simple gesture is enough to make me happy.

Last week, Hiroshima is having weather transition from spring to summer.

So, the days are always breezy especially when the sun was about to set. 

Anyway, one of the day, I decided to come home early. 

I usually use my journey home, the cycling time as thinking time.

That day, my mind keep running the memory of me and my late dad.

The weather reminded me the day when I was in standard 1-2, when I was still wearing the dark blue pinafore to school.

If I have to school in morning session, my dad will send me there. I will always be the earliest to arrive. My dad like it that way. Not just school, but anywhere that he has to send me. He likes to keep time that much.

When I was in the evening session, he will try many ways to pick me up.

I was always a small child. That made him extra worries I heard.

When the day he fetch me and it was raining, we always stop by the nearby roti canai stall and he usually had a roti canai with kuah banjir and air milo panas. When he had to share the drink with me, he will avoid caffeine, I know.

He knows his kid well. He knows I eat and drink very little. Anybody who knows me would know that.

So, my dad usually will just koyak sikit the roti canai for me and pour the milo on the saucer for me to drink.

That's one thing I really miss (I feel like crying at the moment).

Yes, he always pour a part of his hot drink on the saucer and tiup to cool for me. I love that anyway:(

I really miss that.

Then, when he started talking with some of his acquaintance in the stall when they happened to meet, he will proudly told them I was his anak. hehe.I was cute back then, people will always found me entertaining.lols:p

My late dad was a good dad.

He is not a rich man, but he did everything to provide his children. 

Let's say my abang and kakak who are way older than me.

My abang is the most untung among us siblings. He got the tertiary education fully sponsored by our dad. He even provided with car and a motorcycle during his student years. 

Then during my sister's time, my dad did everything to get my sister a car. Because he was so risau my sister riding a bus to university.

Then when he managed to buy a kancil for my sister, my kakak pula tak berani bawak.

So, he took time to patiently train my sister to drive. That time, my dad was not advised to drive due to his eye condition. 

Then I expected the same when my time comes.

But the universe denied that. My dad passed away just a few days after I finished my matriculation final examinations.

That time, I never really think about what my brother and sister have obtained but not me.

Never. Till I write this entry.

So, I live with whatever I have during my university years.

When my dad passed, I have to get a loan to pay for the fees. Alhamdulillah we are in Malaysia, as long as you are secure for university, inshaAllah, it's easy to get the money.

For pocket money? I work many part time jobs as tutor. Alhamdulillah..I earn so much with the help of people around me, the nice people I met during the journey.

When I reach the bump in my path, I always pray to Allah and at the same time talking to my dad silently.

I am so much convinced, even though he is not around to be with me during my journey, he had actually assisted me, protected me, until today, that I have achieved so much.

I have to say that he was the only light in my life. Sometimes I feel he was the only reason I am doing what I'm doing. And, I am still. Because of you, dad.

Al-Fatihah..

Qalish

It's my brainstorming time. Frankly speaking, bathtub is the best place for me to get ideas especially in problem solving! I don't know why..I think my brain got stimulated with the sound of water running?o_O

I am in my office now. Hence, I ended up blogging instead of biting my pen, brainstorming:P

Anyways, this post is important! to remind me of the arrival of my long awaited niece, ms Qalisha Nuwairaa ^_^

Look at her..big eyes, rambut mcm lalang...wahaha..She is adorable ^_^ 

Do you know that her mother is such a troublesome? >,<
Her blood is O-ve pastu tumpah darah:/ Kalau darah tu banyak stok xpe >.< (bahaha...kutuk kakak senirik:P)
Alhamdulillah..semuanya selamat.

Oh, anyways, Ms Qalish (I decided to call her that despite it sounded like a boy's name. For me, Qalish is a boy's name sounded like a girl's. Paham?Lol XD)  was born on the 8th of December, 8.45pm (Thursday). Berikut adalah conversation between me and Qalish's mother:

Me: Bengs!!!(I call both my sisters that..haha) sakit tak >,<
Qalish's mom: Sakit la..serik..(suara mcm br lepas jadi komander kawat)
Me: Caner ko bajet beranak malam jumaat nih. Do you know people tried so hard to labor malam jumaat?
Qalish's mom: ha?yeke?Alhamdulillah..
Me: Berat berapa?
Qalish's mom: 2.7kg. Tapi x larat nk push..last2 tu jerit2 suruh doktor belah je perut..
Me: Lol XD

But my sister did it. Normal labor despite of screaming to have somebody belah je perut beliau. hahaha..
She always have the physical strength if compared to me. I never can lift beras 10kg more than 2 steps. But she could carry it till the kitchen:/ Even she cannot pushes a 2.7kg baby out of her. She said till she used her last drop of energy, the baby came out. Scary *_*

I wish I will be blessed with miraculous strength when the time comes for me. InshaAllah..

I can't wait to hold baby Qalish >,< Now..I have to create a nice story to convince 'my baby' :D

Congrats kakak!!for the arrival of Qalish..

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This is for you..mom:)

The front page of my thesis:)

Submitted even before I got married..now I'm married, the happily done correction was at the last line of the last paragraph:)

Congratulations Wani!!

Today is the istiadat for me..but I can't (refused) to attend it..hehe..
My feelings is too much around relieve than happy. I don't feel like celebrating it. My mom is again, the happiest person on earth. I did this all because of her, so she deserved all the happiness in the world for this. hihi..But then she has to know that I am no Einstein :/

The path for me to get this second highest education degree was not easy. I have to say it was torturing in which at one stage I cried hard!I never thought that I would cried for already completed thesis! The procedure had once drove me crazy. It took me about 1 year for the thesis to reach examiners and another year for the thesis to be returned to me again. Absurd...I know. But Allah knows best. He gave me the best place right now:) Alhamdulillah..

For you readers, never ever you stop halfway in anything you already started doing. Never. With lots of dua' and tawakal, trust me, at the end point of your journey (God knows) everything will be in miraculous speed like what I had experienced in my journey getting another scroll.

Can you do me a favor? DON'T BE A LOSER.

p/s:seriously..the hardest part of a study is not the study itself! >.<

BIL got married

I told my friend that I cannot make it on this one Sunday sebab my BIL is getting married.

He replied..who is Bil??

I was like...face palm:|

Therefore, pre note here..BIL means..brother in law:|

My return to Malaysia in the last summer was not purely for raya..

Some part of it was because, the brother in law is getting married.

Well, we have heard about him wanted to settle down for so long...hehe..even before I got married:p 

Finally the day arrived...

Cut the story short, let`s start with the solemnization.

The akad and reception were held in one place, different hall. Therefore, overall all events were for me, done really nicely. If there`s any hiccups, I, as the guest of the day didn`t really seem to notice. For me, it was one perfect solemnization event. I was so happy for both of them.

The bride. She had the seri. She was wide smiling all day!

Welcome speech by the bride`s atuk with nikah dais as the background.

Three of the above are just few hantaran from her. I am so liking it >.< I guess it was solely due to the red roses and malay elements injected to it..Yeah..I am biased like that:P

Some of the hantaran for her. Our side chose purple as the theme with pink as additional flavor. All hantaran consist of expensive items >.< !!

Immediate family..Those who could attend. Definite sgt that I cannot wear hijab gaye gitu >.<

Meja beradab yang tidak terlepas untuk di tatarias ke tahap awesome!

Pengantin berarak masuk. The theme was red and orange. 

Lovely. Match made in heaven:)

Seriously..I couldn`t fit the whole dais in one screen...Dais was tremendously pretty!!

As I was just about to eat, my phone rang. My brother already downstairs waiting for me. I gotta rush to see my love:)

That`s the only picture I got with the pengantin baru.
Overall, the majlis was beautiful and nicely planned.
Yours truly doakan semoga rumahtangga mereka juga beautiful forever ^_^

Selamat Pengantin Baru to Dr Aizzat and isteri.

Warisan Kuala Pilah,

I am one useless lady when it comes to kitchen chores.

But, now not anymore..ehe..at least in my own kitchen. And at least I got my husband to gain 10kg 1 week after we moved in together...ehe=p

However, no one knows...the fact that I don't know how to cook daging!>.<

Long time I fed myself and husband anything but red meat. ehehe..

Then when I went back to Malaysia..the first thing I wanna do was..eat red meat..a lot..and a lot (dengan perasaan tak sedar diri yang diri ini ade low blood pressure).

So, I assumed I'll eat various dishes of red meat cooked by my favorite cook in the world, Emak and Kakak. But..turned out..Emak suggested a better (for her) place to fulfill her not-pregnant-crave-for-red-meat daughter.

My mom has Negeri 9 blood. My kampung (where my granny still lives) located very near to the Seri Menanti Palace. If you knows Kuala Pilah well, you must have passed this one huge 'pintu gerbang' before you reach pekan Kuala Pilah. My kampung is located inside there=)

Opposite the pintu gerbang..is where you can find the most authentic restaurant of Negeri9 food=)

The restaurant is called "Restoran Warisan".

Our hungry face. Yeah..we came straight from KL to here just for a luncheon=) It's ok..we are used to this absurd idea of...my sister=| (we had once went to Terengganu just for sata before..in Kelisa=|). This restaurant serves real N9's cuisine. Podeh!!!But I don't get it..why the waiters all Kelantanese..We had a hard time catching up their accent >.< except Emak yang bersekolah di Kelantan once upon a time=|

The story hasn't ended there..I still didn't get my daging!!We arrived at 1.30 and all the popular dishes finished >,>..So, guys..better go earlier..

My mom kesian..then she singgah to buy this..

Daging salai..

Kuala Pilah and places nearby also famous for daging salai. And Emak's cook daging salai with belimbing and mangga is...legen..(wait for it..)dary=p haha...

Because we wanted to buy a lot..the hawker has to salai some more. So, we have to wait. (and abang [my brother..I called him abang, so, I don't think I can call my husband that already] decided to buy from there cz..the makcik sexy T_T).

While waiting..the makcik asked us to entertain ourselves around her house!

So, we go see a real kampung environment..

We weren't just went 'around'..Baby insisted to go see baby webbit!inside her house!
Baby with baby webbit! (kesian gila rabbit tu kene seksa dengan budak2 T_T..budak2 yang tinggal di kampung sgt berani mengendalikan binatang ape sahaja..)

Baby yang jalan terjingkit2 sebab tak biasa dengan keadaan rumah kampung and my sister as the criminal mind..

End of story..I still didn't get my gulai daging salai until..today sebab later I fell sick and no selera to eat the whole trip back to Malaysia T_T

I posted this because...yes..you got it right!I missed the whole Rosli's clan T_T

Puan Wani

Eight years ago..

Assalamualaikum..

8 years ago..

24/2

It was the final day of matriculation year. My sister and brother fetched me up and we arrived home late in the evening.

As I sit in front of the TV, my dad arrived home..and I remember he was moved so quickly and was looking for me while I was just in front of him.

He said "Mana Wani??"

and I was like??"abah..ni la Wani..x nampak ke??" and turned my head back to the TV.

during dinner..my dad asked, "How's final??"

I was almost choking coz I know so well that I didn't used my maximum brain capacity.

It's true that I played too much cz there, nobody was around to monitor me T_T..

I told him "I didn't do good".

He wasn't scolded me. Because he knew so well the rule of talking to me. I will be so honest that it will be no use to scold me.

And he didn't get angry..he just said very simple things..which usually very successful in touching his daughters heart. He always a good motivational guru for me and my sister.

Me and my sister agreed that we could not listen to my dad's talking about how we should think about future and life. Because it was all true..and usually we ended up with tears.

And yes, I was in tears after he talked to me how I should not wasted all the chances that I have T_T

I stayed in the room, crying because of a few sentences he said that night.

That night, I passed him sleeping on the couch on my way to the toilet. My step was hold. I didn't know what was holding me. I looked at him and my heart whispered, "Your dad will leave you tomorrow."

But my brain tried to deny it!How could I said that to my father!I slapped my chest a few times to stop the whispers.

I went to sleep.

25/2

12p.m.

I was at home alone. received a few phone calls asking for my mother.

2p.m.

Again the phone call for my mother from the same woman. Luckily my mom was there and she managed to receive the call.

She was told to come to the hospital because my father was admitted. We got no idea about the worst it could be. The nurse who called my mother did her job so well I guess. We could not catch anything from her voice.

That time my sister was having her final examination. So, we decided to wait for her to finish and wait for my brother from work. Only at 3 we arrived at the hospital. We were greeted by 2 doctors and brought to a room. I was so stupid. I could not read anything from the situation.

Until..the doctors told us about my dad..who they could not saved..

My mom was so devastated..she vomited a lot. Fainted so many times.

I still can hear my dad sang for my mother before he went to work..and I remember cursing them for being romantic in front of the neighbor..early in the morning T_T..

At least my mom had the last sweet moment with his husband.

Oh my..I almost cried in the middle of work.

I thought I had recovered..

Looks like I am still keeping the devastation over Abah's lost inside.

Rest in peace Abah. My pray will always be with you.

Si kecik Bangah,

Wani

The Minis that I missed

Hello everybody ^_^

Well, do you guys have nieces or nephews??

hehe..I do I do!! (sambil loncat2)..

When I was a child, I used to be called 'adik' cz I am the bongsu.

My life that time revolve around my one brother, who is the eldest and my one big sister whose that time very close to my brother cz you know..some weird chemistry between the 1st child and 2nd child.

I bet you guys mesti drop jaw if you heard about how my brother being so over protective towards my sister.haha..He used to be kaki pukul if ever my sister hated some guys (which also..definitely another kid.haha).

I used to play with other neighbors..and I got my dad who was so over protective towards me. But still, this two duets (my bro n sis) looked after me kdg2 la..

They don't usually play with me coz..yeah..I am so gurly=p haha..

So, we are the three stooges in the family until my baby sister arrived (you would not believe me if I show u my baby sister cz..she's twice my size T_T). Since she arrived later in our lives (which we are all have reached puberty=p) so we did not had the child memory together..hehe..

One of the funny thing was, when my brother bring my baby sister walked around the neighborhood, some people were talking as if the baby was actually my brother's T_T

Trust me, all God's plan all are good. My mom gave birth to my baby sister at her 40's. My late father was much older that time. We are all grown up. 7 years after that, my father passed away, leaving my mom miserable. With my baby sister now, she spent her old days at home doing things that she is passionate about (helping out people in needs). If my baby sister hasn't arrived, my mom must be very lonely right now=(

Well, my brother is married. He is blessed with 3 stooges too! And it was scary some times to see your child hood memory became clear again in front of your eyes!

They are my brother's children.

During my bertandang..

The boy is Amir or Abang (my brother's miniature), middle girl is Qistina or Kakak (my sister's miniature) and the small girl is Qasrina or Baby (my miniature).

Their behavior very much like us??Wasn't it scarier T_T..

Abang and Kakak have such a good chemistry (like my brother and sister too T_T). So, they usually play together..

And Baby..always do her own business (haha..like me once upon a time=p)

Another thing is..Baby is very small for children at her age (I am a petite too T_T) and she has this very 'becok' and outspoken mouth (which I believe she got it from..who else.??me T_T)

What's the purpose of this post daa???

Nothing..I just missed them sooo much!!Really hope they will grow up..and be a good person. They don't have to be a doctor or engineer..I just want them to be proud of themselves and be happy in their life=) Good luck guys!

-Mak Lang-

Kekejaman Coco

Konbanwa..

Looonggg time since I posted here. X kire la...I still feel it has been so long=p
Why is that?
Got nothing to post.

Why got nothing?Is my life that plain??
hehe...yeah..apparently I am getting busier now. In a way I am glad that finally I can do the real job other than parking myself in the corner and study.sigh..
So, you want me to babble about my work??bluerghh...haha..

While I browsing through my pictures in my phones, I found this;

Coco park herself a.k.a butt on my wedding album T_T..Coco..waaa...u know how much that cost??

Coco:
It's a she.
Jahat...another cat from hell..
My sister la kutip bawak balik from...I bet you guys will be surprised..KEDAH..
If she is comel..it will be okay even if it's from Thai or Vietnam..name it..but she's sooooo not adorable!Please.
But I could not blame kakak on how this cat finally inhabit my house and..yeah..the whole area..she is now like the head of the taman perumahan or something..just don't be in her sight..or u'll die (amaran tok kucing2 lain).

Kakak drove all the way from Kedah (from his outstation la..) and kutip this cat to give to her friend..but..when coco arrived, she was sooo sweet..so adorable and so like a 'cat'!Love people..golek2..ngiau2 manje..all la.then my heart melted by the way coco loves so stick with me.

Just after I decided to let Coco stays, Coco transformed to an evil cat that you never seen. Seriously..haha..Only people who had visited Coco would know..and later curse her. Err...like she cares..

So far..Coco has killed a few cat in my house..including my first baby, Lilo T_T..since then..I really hate Coco..T_T

Tgk tu..nobody can sit near her if she's taking over the sofa..or..u'll be bitten..
when she came home moody..she'll find the nearest people hands to bite!Crazyy!!!!!!

Oh, she weighs 5kg and two questions that people usually err..no..MUST asked when they sees Coco: 1) Pregnant ke kucing ni??=|
2) Jantan kan??=|

See Coco..how not adorablenye you..=p

She's now kakak's cat. When kakak around..she shows her adorable face la!menyampah gle!

Oh, Coco got hobby too..she loves weddings!She'll force you doing DIY or any wedding stuff when you are at home!haha..

Crazy Coco!

Jya Matta;
QueenForADay

Murasaki to ao wedding theme

Konnichiwaaa...

I remember..people usually think of wedding theme as 1 color. But nowadays, everything has changed whereby people came out with a more daring color palette, combining rare colours together as one theme. But seriously all to me came out sooo beautiful.hehe..hence I had never been able to decide on my own wedding theme..yeah..reason for my wedding without color palette or..theme..one thing I was sure that time..i want red roses as main deco=p

Like other brides of this era, my sister also combining two main colors as her wedding theme..

They are murasaki (purple) and ao (blue) ^_^..typical sister!combining two sweet colors together..(I know..she's trying too hard to run away from pink=p)

Oh well..my sister did so much for my wedding..Known as the poorest sibling (in financial), she did helped me a lot in a way that visible to me or not. I am sure there were so much more that she did without me knowing that. So, I determined to at least sponsor something for her wedding! ahaha..

I was back home 1 week earlier than her wedding date in order to help her in wedding prep. My husband was back a day before the ceremony..hence the ability to give my full service for the wedding prep. Even so, we still failed to pull out the plans perfectly as per discussed.

Also, I didn't know about her wedding dress, dais and whatsoever. All she find it herself with the husband. Knowing how she likes to waste her money=p haha...I thought she'll pull something that stunning with unreasonable price! but turned out...she chose a very simple wedding!

*Actually the money mostly gone for 'the stuff' that she can keep after the wedding T_T..* bahaha..

The bunga telur..she made them herself. I think total cost for one flower was about rm8. She used all fine synthetic flowers..but still..mahal T_T..The doorgift bag. They were silver bags and newspaper basket (for lucky guests)

The setting

Arrival of the lovebirds..Oh, I love her dress...coz the kain was chiffon! So it flows! The w-boutique didn't even use the fine wedding lace for the dress..it was just a plain white lace which then improvised with loads of manik!it looked much more 'lavish' than my dress (which uses fine wedding lace T_T)Oh..nothing..I just love the picture=p looking at me functioning there=p ahaha..

oh, that's my engagement's dress..finally..I got reason to get into that dress again ^_^

Me with my sister feeling touched. Finally we are moving on=) Good luck to us. May we get older happily in the side of men that we love. Really hope I'll have a new niece or nephew when i get back home after this=)

Us with husbands..hehe..

Pity husband..he just ate after a long day=( Sorry darling!*cheese!!*

waaa...teruknye muke ku dgn perpeluhan itu T_T

I was actually bringing my very own personal photographer that day (hubby T_T)..but I failed to get all the copies as he was busy T_T..therefore, the stolen pictures from my cousin's fb T_T..hehe..sorry yazid=p

I intend to show you more of the details when I got the piccas ya..just sharing ideas and experience here ^_^

*Writer remembers she was crying when her sister attempt to get married back in 2005. She was just devastated to know that she'll lose one person who she shared her life with. Losing a person who cares so much about her back then. In fact she thinks that her sister was the only person that care about her and took care of her more than a mother could do. Secretly she was feeling grateful when her sister ended up the relationship with the man a year later. But now..she really was happy to know that her sister was married and was so calm during the wedding day! Hopefully, kakak can now move on with her life and stop wasting ur money and love for me T_T..So, hubby..can you replace kakak in my heart??*

It's snowing outside..and raining in my heart;

QueenForADay

I miss You

Salam..

Well guys, I'm going back to Malaysia this Friday.

I know..I just started my life here + the bankruptcy, that's kind of too much isn't it.

It's actually for my sister's wedding. On the new year. Alhamdulillah..I am so glad that we finally now a wife=)

I still remember the first few weeks I'm in Japan. That time I was a housewife. I refused to call my mom or any of my family members. My husband kept telling me to call..and questioning why I didn't call them??

When second week was over, I decided to call..after..this one incident. The incident..oh, let that be classified T-T

When my mom said 'Hello'..I was burst into tears..

So, that's why I didn't wanna call them..until I find the strength to do so..

Now, I am strong enough to laugh again through phones=)

It's just the matter of time kan??=)

This is my small immediate family. It will be perfect if abah was still around=) Look at the 3 stooges there..they reminded of us during our childhood. My childhood was all about my brother and elder sister (my younger sister was born at the time of us all already teenager..so, she doesn't had that moment with us). I would probably share more stories about our childhood memory someday=) hehe..oh, the smallest one..is exactly like me when I was about her age. That's her that I missed the most=)

Dear Baby, wait for Mak Lang k ^_^V

I can't wait to watch TV by my mom's side..hehe..she's just a cozy cushion for us=p Lol!

QueenForADay

Sisters sisters

Salam and Hai!!(I should have put a universal greeting by now ^-^)

Do you have a sister??

I mean..a sister who meant a world to you??

Who you spent most of ur life with and always support you that you never have to be worried of your future??

well..I do=)

I don't care if it is a good thing or a bad thing to have an over protected sister.

But as far as I concern, I love it. I did enjoyed the moment of being under her shelter. She supported me in every angle that you ever think or never think of. It's really hard for me to explain in words how the bond between us.

We survived our family doom together. When my dad passed away, I had totally lost direction. I didn't know what to do next in my life. I just finished matriculation. Just. In fact it was just 2 days when the final finishes. I got a result which I consider cemerlang jugak la=p ahaha...But, I don't know what I'm gonna do.

So, it's her that helped me going through it. Made selections even though now I think the decision I took was totally wrong! (what do you expect..I am still a child...n I seek opinion from another child!bahaha). It's not wrong in the sense of 'wrong' (fuh..how do i put it=p)..it's just that..I didn't realized the thing that I would love to do yet. Now I know that I hate my job T_T

Before I decided to get married, when my husband start talking about marriage..ending the longgggg un-bonded relatioship..one of the thing that bother me was.."how do she lives without me??" Apparently, for her, I am her guardian angle.haha..er..not really..I was like a cute contagious bodyguard. Due to her too many soft spot in her heart..people always took advantage of her. So, I will be the one people always feel afraid of (because..I was born with a bitch's tongue).

In a distinctive way, kakak looked over me like a mother. She fed me well. Dress me up like a princess and over protective that she never teach me how to ride a bike and also she never let me drive (especially when I first got my licence!). All the time, I ended up rebellious in order to experience things myself=p

I didn't cried as I salam relatives around me. But I was automatically broke into tears when I hugged her=( I was so worried how she's gonna go through days without me T_T

Somehow I think she didn't get married because of me.

When I decided to get married, soon after that she brought a news that she..gonna get married too. I was so happy and at the same time..there's a BIG question mark bugged me (and I was so sure the whole family was bugged as well). We had never heard of her going out with this future husband of her. Y suddenly??In the middle when all people were focusing on my wedding?

I don't care if people questioning. But I'm glad that she finally moving on. She being like a mother to me and my younger sister. haha..I wonder how she's gonna b a wife=p She's too old for her age=p Lol!

I love You Kakak!!Can't wait to transform into bridezilla for your new-year wedding!lol!

I would not dare to become one for my own wedding!Wedding org laen xpe=p

QueenForADay