celebration season~

my blog was neglected since so long~...

okie,i shall keep this up!!
hmm,my holiday so far...kinda stupid and frustrating....things kept coming up like nobody business...i knew that a lot of people cant be trusted, things tat i wanted to haf is just good frens...some acted as,but in the heart and the back of me wasnt...so forget about it~shall not mention it anymore.

okie,things in my life was not so easy goin nowadays,it was so bumpy,so many humps...but thank God for giving me an Angel who gave me hope for not breaking down...she is my hope to move along~ tho in her heart,i was her Angel....but fact is she's mine,giving me hope~ thank u!*not to mention her* and my reli good fren who is in Canada right now...haha...may u enjoy ur xmas holiday~ thanks for hearing me out all these while, thanks for being there for me all this while...reli appreciate it~*gonna hug u when u're back! miss ya*

well,i hope i will be stronger next day....

my xmas....haiz, it was kinda disappointed~ only able to see some fireworks, tat's all~ sad sad xmas but still happy because i found a way to my life~

dear santa,i want a happier life...a stronger n peaceful peinee....santa, show me the way of being a kind person too....thanks santa~

new year is also js around d corner....hmmm,any plans anyone? .....hehe....

well anyway, wish all of u....a merry xmas and happy 2008!!! haf a great year ahead~

Finally it's over~

finally finals are over!!!

well,guess what happened during my second paper....i did d most stupid thing on Earth that i,peinee will never do!!!....

i have at least 45mins extra...and i was like wasting my time staring at the clock and dreaming~~...and tat subject i scored the lowest marks among my other subjects during my class test...so to get a better result i have to get a good grade here since my assignment was quite okie....but...i checked everything and i tot i finished...well,it's true that i finished doin....when my lecturer said, "pens down...";to me it's stil so fine...until she was collecting the objective paper....i looked back at my paper....OMG!!!..i did darken the last four questions!!!!i started to do so,but she saw....she said,"peinee, i said pens down means pens down!...u cant do this!!!...."...my heart and mind was crushed to millions....i wanted to break down n cry but i knew it was my mistake!....i hold it....the next day,my lecturer saw me while i was on my way to my exam...she called me and said,"peinee, i had told prof about yesterday incidence but everything is too late to take any action...the result had already key into the database and nothing could be done..."...in my heart, i was like thank God!....but she continued,"this time it wun affect ur grades...why?u have enough time...."...i kept saying sorry and okie....haiz...dunno how wil i do for that paper....butterflies flying around my stomach.....

i cant imagine that i did something stupid like this!

well,exams r over....yet result coming out next week...mon will be the viva call and wed wil be d commencement of our result...fast rite?

anyway,i'm BACK in mlk....
tat's wat i always wanted and i haf more more free time now!!....can do a lot of things and mind are finally clear at least quarter....thinking and decision making will be more wise now...
hope to see friends during this holiday too....
well...off to go now first~

stressful exam period!

exams stress is killing me...i hate exams...
i have 6 subjects to study but only finish one....sigh~~
how m i supposed to finish it in time?haiz....next week is approaching but i'm more in holiday mood rather than in study week mood;P

everyone is having holiday but i'm having my exams....wat lar,imu shud arrange it properly,always like this...haiz...actually i'm afraid i will screwed up my exams;P..(well, i guess other will be thinking tat i'm saying the same old things but...seriously, each time exam i wil have those doubts that freaks me out....tho i'm not alone but fears are there..)i seriously wan holidays~~

oh ya...tat day went over to tesco to find geo to buy contact lenses....geo was so shocked *i tink*...haha...wanna noe y must ask him....but he was so professional~he checked on my eyesight but all the time was interrupted by someone...haiz....wanted to ask geo so many questions but ppl kacau~...
life has been so colourful for me once again....but at the same time,drops of water are sprinkle on my colours....colours were seen so fade and not clear....but behind those shades,i saw shadows....shadow brought me here and giving me strength to be who i am...my acts doubts a lot of people,i noe...proving it to others is not wat i want to do,but proving it to myself is wat i wana do...everythin i'm doin is for myself...so,i guess i really knew wat m i doin but i knew the consequences too...any consequences i wil bear it for myself,i knew the pros n cons...i might not be good n perfect as others...i dun like comparison either...i wil be who i am and i am who i am...
-pnee~

a new month~

today is 1st dec...
another new month and guess wat...i'm having my study break now!...haiz, exams are so so near...approaching me like nobody business...
well, people i dont know what to say regarding my previous two posts...i got lots of comments and advices...and i haf my five senses n a lil brain to think...i used all these to the max and i do know that is depends solely on how i see these things...
maybe i'm too blind to see those things that i never see for the time being...
too much of consequences to be beared after one decision is made....
sorry, i shall delete d previous two blogs as i wana remain my secrets close to my frens only...anything js ask me personally:)

for now...i'm too busy to prepare my exams d....
-pnee~

lazy blog~

wel....i noe tat i din update this blog for a vr long time d....

hmm...what shud i say?

i lost contact with internet life...due to long stay in sban...i miss online....

to summarize...i was on n off wif my life in ward...and guess wat, one doctor said that i was vr confident in things i do and even ordered staff nurses to do things during an emergency...i din do tat but i duno whtr is tis rite o wrong....

but i was very stressed up wif life like this....life which are so boring, i started to felt bored especially if there's no super duper sick patients....got once,i started to dun like being a nurse...but i still have to go on....

i wanted to say so much but limited time for me to express it here....i will continue next day....lazy d...haha....sorry frens....i will update during my sem break which is like....hmm...mid dec....

busy Fri n Sat~

weekends are super duper tiring for me!!!

fri....
we went to pn robiah's house for raya open house...
oh yeah, that wat i've been waiting for...her lemang n mutton's rendang....delicious..yumm yumm...
then we ate so much till my stomach also burst out....

after that i rushed back to kl....for my scholar's dinner...
buffet again..in saisaki-japanese buffet in wisma oua....near klcc...
omg....i have to eat like nobody business..so that it doesnt waste money altho not i'm paying...hahaha...
it's darn worth it as a lot of stuffs to eat...but reli unfortunately i din manage to eat much:(
and guess wat....me n a few of my friends there challenge each other to take wasabi like tat....not a lil bit but it's a lot~~oh gosh...i still can smell wasabi taste in my stomach....my stomach was burning after tat....we challenge each other twice~and i did made it without shedding tears:)
after buffet....went to klcc park...so romantic views....took a lot of pics....hmmm, i will upload it later cause too much d...hahaha....

sat...which is today...
hmm...i went sunway lagooon~~~~~~~~

so happening rite evn tho i havent finish my assignment....

esther, me and waikeey...(in bathroom)

my useful rm5 which will never gets wet~

all of us~

thank God, it wasnt too much people...so we din have to queue up like nobody business....we even occupied some of the games and played more than once....but it was real fun...good way of destressing~
i will show my pic in the roller coaster....omg, i feeel like falling down especially those which turns 360 degree round...but i love the water park most!wana go again.....

outside sunway pyramid~

4 of us again~

in sunway, i had my haircut....cause we walked pass the a cut above having charity run...only rm 10 per cut....as i wanted to trim my hair, i went for it...hmmemm....it was a student who was practicing on me!scary scary experience...she cut it and she has to ask her educator to come....but in d end, it turns out hmmm..a lil funny but like never cut get....so i guess i will cut it off again soon....hahaha...

i'm very tired....tmr imu open day again....have to work again!
sleepZZZzZZzzzzz....

tagged~

xia shien n jul tagged me~~so being forced by xia shien who accused me of being too free to blog....
so here i am to blog again....

well...

5 things found in my (current) room

(where is my current room?...in BJ...or mlk?....okie la...we say in BJ cause stay there more often)

1. my lil pillow which travel which me all the time~
2. precious laptop
3. lectures notesssssss n bookssssss
   
4. stitch...
5. piggy...
   

5 things I've always wanted to do

1. Eat all those nice stuffs without gaining weight instead loses few kilos...
2. Brain wash people to be more understanding;P
3. Exercise to lose few kilos...but no time(excuses...*giggles*)
4. Travel around...anywhere....with lots of $$$$...
5. Earn $$$$ so that my parents can be more relieved~
   

5 things found in my bag(pack)

1. Clothes...
2. Assignments....
3. Sanitary pad...*giggles*(i'm travelling now okie..)
4. Hand lotion...can't live without it..
5. Renu solution...can't live without this oso...
   

5 things found in my wallet

1. Money
2. IC
3. ATM card
4. Driving license
5. Kedai Sumber Member Card...(gosh....stil can be used...havent been there for years...js realise it is still in my wallet..)
   

5 things I am currently into

1. Facebook~...
2. Pseudomyxoma Peritonei(my assignment)
3. Holiday mood...
4. Taking self-pics....kakakaka...
5. Teasing and making people being speechless...
   

5 persons/victim to be tagged

everyone has being tagged~~...

1. eeleen
2. joanne
3. beng huat
4. sook yee
5. chi fei

LoSt.....

taa daa...here am i again....
to destress myself here....
i looked into my timetable and calculating the time i left to study...
oh goodness...is less than 2months!!
okay, it might sounds very long but....i have to finish up two case studies!
which i only found one so far...that oso not confirm i can take it as my case study...

suddenly, i felt so lost...duno where am i heading...
i lost myself...i'm there being someone who is so so not peinee....
i'm just not myself anymore....
i wan to be myself again....
but people around arent the same anymore....
all are selfish and sarcastic fellas...
i learnt to be darn sarcastic too...
i hurt people feelings without realising....
i hate the new me~
i just wanted to protect myself...
who is there to protect and talk for me...
if it is not peinee...
shall i learn to be more kind...
turn my ears off...
keep my mind off from them....
keep my mouth shut most of the time....
i think i should~~
-pnee-

1 litre of tears....

i just finish watching 1litre of tears...
it was indeed made me cried 1 litre of tears oso...if i wasnt on medication due to my nose, i think i wun think so much before crying...
it was indeed a very touching series...
i highly recommend this series to those who r free...it is just 11episodes,only takes u d most 3days to finish it...

well..for now, what am i doin at home everyday...sleep,rest n do my assignments...study to catch up with others(kiasu syndrome?) no okie...i slacked too much in my studies d, so must catch up...

i lazy wana type so long, so....tat's it for now...
slowly i will progress to blog more:)
tata...

lazy~

blog?!?!
i got nothing to say for now...
having my raya holidays but haf too much things to be done...
assignments, studies,.....
so kinda busy this holi~
sob... sob...

p/s: sorry ya, i kinda lazy to blog;P
(just dropping by here to let ppl noe tat i'm still ALIVE!)

life is.....

after so long din blog again....

well, it about a week i'm here in seremban....

i wana share few things wif u guys...everything happened to me yesterday~~

1) got one male doctor...he was doing some procedure and we observing him... unfortunately i was the one nearest to him...okiez...what happened is, the doctor was sweating like nobody business...and my colleagues went to took some tissues and hand over to me...i was like??....okies the staff nurse told me to wipe his sweat...i was like huh??...okie then i asked him, he said okie...i pat a piece of tissue over his forehead and his left cheek but not enough for his right cheek...so, i took the left over tissues which i tink about 3 to 4 pieces...and suddenly everyone burst out in laughter cause i was too clumsy~ *i was not meant to wipe his sweats le...so sorry for tat...* but if he is my patient then i noe how to do it in a more proper way~

2) finally, i got the chance to do tube feeding for my patient~*okie,u all must be wondering wat is tube feeding...a tube which is inserted thru the nose into the stomach...* and tat patient was 92yrs old d... i mixed her milk well but the milk was not flowing.. so i went to get help from my preceptor..she came and things were going smoothly after that..okiez,so i took over the feeding...my perceptor was asking me to observe the patient respiration in case the patient collapse, so i do...i saw the chest was moving very slowly and then no more, i tot i saw wrongly so i observe more but my preceptor kept talking to me...js before i told my preceptor that i din see her breathing anymore, the staff nurse came n told me the same thing..so at the same time, all of us realised there is no more breathing...the staff nurse rushed to take the ECG machine and there was asystole-no more heart rate...the doctor came n checked...she pronounced her dead...*omg...i was so unfortunate rite...*

i was so stunted at tat moment, then haf to do last office for her...(cleaning her up and all those la)...

life is so unpredictable~....

but one patient told me that i'm still young and wouldnt be able to understand what life is...she told me that she went through lots of ups and downs to bring up her children but now...her children dont even wana care about her....even tho she's in hospital, her children js came thr and stand around...she said she vry jealous to see the next patient's son came and hug the mother and tell her not to go....she is so so sad....all her children want from her is just money!!

but this is reli wat life and reality is...


-signing off..pnee-

confused over my reaction~

Currently I’m a year two nursing student… but I felt tat I’m extremely useless at times… yesterday there was a patient who is going for mastectomy, she was so scared but didn’t voice out only… the moment before she left, she told me, “nanti kalau abang datang, cakap dengannya saya pergi operation…”

What I can do is just assuring her by saying okie and give her a pat on her shoulder…I don’t know what else can I tell her… I felt that I’m extremely useless for not being able to help her going into the theatre calmly… when she came back, I really don’t know what to do again… she was in deep pain that I can see from her facial expression… yet I don’t know what can I do….

Another patient who has a bloated abdomen and underwent surgery…I felt very bad for her also…that day she told me that she had pass motion in her diapers, so as usual I will have to change for her…while changing, the dressings on her pressure sore at the sacral area(above buttock line) stuck at her diapers and I was pulling the diapers… I suddenly said, “oh my god….” Then I realized the patient heard it and she was very sorry for troubling us…but I really don’t mean that…I was just too afraid that her pressure sore will get the faeces and later got infection…but I guess I was over-reacted… and according to the staff nurse experience, she told us that this patient will not last long… I was so stunted to hear that…

I really don’t know what else could I do for this patient…she was at the end of her life, difficult to voice out, at times will be confused…didn’t know where she is, what’s her own name….

What can I do for this type of patient??

I just felt that I’m really useless at this point of time… even tho I tried my best to make her happier but what else can I do to make her happier?

How to make a person like this happier???

-confused…pnee-

(sorry for many jargons...)

life in sban~

finally got internet access....guess how we got it...i came to my landlord house in seremban here which is just beside our house....hehehe...
and the line is very limited which we cant use all the time...so sad rite?
anyways..my life in seremban...

so far, i haf been in the female surgical ward...

i have my own patients which is quite ill...she had her abdomen open(laparotomy)...and have the staples replacing the sutures...well,i guess i used too much jargon d....normally we will have stitches on an open wound right, but this she has the staples(looks like the one we used to staple paper)..i removed them!! it was very frightening cause after removing them my preceptor when and open the wound...according to her we haf to do it bcause there's a lot of pus and we haf to clean it first so that the wound can heal properly....i was shaking at that time but actually i did saw tis type of wound before...so it still okie for me...

and life here is not too miserable~

oh ya, today the blurry doctor who wanted to draw blood for my patient yesterday and also today asked for my tel no...my gosh~*u noe how he asked?.....*...he was asking me a lot of things, so just to entertain him a bit, i answered him~....then suddenly he said do u ahf handphone no?...i was like...hmm....thn he bring out his phone and passed to me...he said key in ur no...i was like...hmmm...how to reject so i just haf to key in(no choice)...how to reject when someone gaf the phone to u d??....*haiyo* and is because i'm alone there wif him as i haf to accompany my patient... i was so happy after that when one of my friend came in...relief~~...but i scared dunno when he will message o call....similar case happened to me when i'm in PD....well, i will update u guys soon...

okies, till then....pnee~

Blood Donation!

i donated blood today~~

i donated blood for the third time since i came to IMU....

the bag tat supposed to fill with my blood~
*my blood group is B*

after few minutes....the bag is finally full...my blood flow darn fast...hehe:)

my blood~

after a while...it turns out like this....
quite okie d compare to others:)

donate blood saves a life~

Joy Luck Club~

i watched this movie twice!...just for the sake of my assignment...
and can u imagine...it got so many compliments...it was the best movie of the year??
and i cant appreciate nor sees the beauty in it...some said is a very touching movie but...to me is the most boring movie...too culture based....haiz....anyway i stil have to struggle in watching for few more times before can understand what am i supposed to do...sigh~

if u're just too free, u can watch this movie...actually it's okie ler,quite nice as u need to be attentively listening to every single word...and believe it o not, some parts they spoke in mandarin...

well...yesterday went out wif kell ly and ting for dinner at kaki corner in cheras...supposed to meet up wif xiashien and gang but.....long story....(communication sometimes seems to be so important~hehehe)

then at last met up wif them at petrol station-esso?petronas?...*ops,i forgot...* joined them for "yamcha" session~refer to xiashien's blog as he said he will blog on it...(xiashien since u so free...blog!)...we have assignments*cries*

kler,till then...chaos...luvs pnee~

a lil sense of relief~

exams are over for me at tis moment....
moments of relieved but two assignments to hand up by fri!!
now currently only finish one but haf to do another one based on a movie named "the joy luck club"...who watch this movie before?...(anyway this is a super boring movie which i dont reli like it as i felt asleep when i watch it...but most of my classmates think it is interesting!...okiez, maybe i'm d weirdo~)

so finish exam that means the end of my stay in Bukit Jalil here...
i will shifting to Seremban on Saturday~ so sad... but there's something i'm looking forward...hehehe...*secret*

and i realised that my laptop's battery lifespan is reducing...so sad...one full battery can only last for 1hr now....charging it takes few hours...what happened...so so sad okie...last year just bought it but so fast spoilt d...maybe the fella knew i got new resolution- Apple MacBook!!...after my degree la of course...hehehe...

i guess i have to go now...currently still have no internet services at home...so i have to bring my laptop around and come IMU to online...so sad rite?
i think in Sban will be even more worst, no internet services anywhere, in the campus only have the computer provided which cant get access to most of my fav websites...those chatbox will never appear and no MSN...no wireless there oso....

anyway i try update as much as possible!

till then...pnee~

Manners~

How many Msians have good manners?? i seriously don't think there are a lot...

Even those who are highly educated are so no manners..(i mean they dun haf any!) simple manners like thank you, excuses me, etc cant come out from their mouth... i CANT stand this type of people~!~!

Those who arent so highly educated know the right manners... but currently so many people rushing into colleges and universities; publics and oso privates... (parents can support and mouth feed them even tho they arent qualified for it!) sorry, if i offended anyone...but there are reli people like this!...tat's why ending up like G-H-O-S-T!! whole country is full wif dumps of rubbish adding to social problems in the country.... should the government look into this? should they instill the teaching on manners to the kids nowadays...teaching and practicing it is actually different thing..they are been taught but how many take it in practice?

Now, i really realize the difference in everything... realistic o humble people...freaking my nerves out...i wana get out of tis realistic world immediately from now!!!! don't like staying people like tis....

just love to be HOME~

On the eve of merdeka, I went back to Malacca!... I just cant help myself or even wait any longer to be back…the clock stricks…3pm and yet my lecturer talked so much, went on and on… but my friend told her, “some of us need to leave cause we need to go HOME!” …to me is HOME SWEET HOME…just love to be home…

So I went off and got to Pudu…so many people as I predicted…. Went looking left and right….just in case…any strangers following..hehehe..(just in case)

My way home, thinking how to celebrate merdeka(so patriotic right?)…but actually just wanna go out wif frens…

So message soohui but she said she’s too tired to come out as she just came back from kl too….she wanted to collect her result, but unfortunately HELP din help her!...

Then as I was thinking…haiz…this is gonna be a very boring merdeka eve…

I thought of geo…who was shaking his legs(not currently anymore)…so I message him up…

Hehe…guess what, geo is free!...so we decided to watch ratatouille…

Unfortunately, we just cant make it in time…so there goes my ratatouille again…(I still not yet watch ratatouille!)…so sad,right?

Then we went to Wings café…we met up wif koksoon, joyce, englai and calvin….

Saw Steve and Jove(my ex-colleagues)…steve was singing there as usual…while jove was with his gf…

Celebration there wasn’t that great, but they kept singing birthday song and lastly they sang tanggal 31….(I actually requested that song and also negaraku…and guess what, I doubt in spelling out t-a-n-g-g-a-l!)so long didn’t use BM what do you expect from me although I got an A for it…hehehe..

After that, we went home…..

On Merdeka day I was extremely good girl~ I did my assignment… I knew I must do it now or else I will be half dead by next week…so I dragged myself, keeping myself in front of the comp whole day doing my “primary health care” assignment…at last, finish it by night time but….still need to reedit it later on….

On the Saturday, went out with MingLing, SooHui and Eugene…we went for satay celup in OngKimWee!...so many people but we got a nice place at least….

We went on talking till quite late…haha…(mingling is leaving to UK on the 15sept…)

Another friend going off overseas and almost finishing their degree….and me still stuck here~

But my Sunday was a miserable one…came back BJ but no internet access(Nasioncom officially announced bankrupt!)….so now cannot online d…even though campus has wireless, but what’s the use? Cant log in to msn…so stupid!...so I stayed at home, doing nothing…rotting whole night through….(so miserably sad and lonely….)

And I have another test soon-on Wednesday…haiz……

Well…I just update my blog that often anymore...

So, friends…keep in touch as much as possible,k….

I will keep myself up-to-date everyday…hehehe….

Till then….pnee...

depression~

another test....sociology??
why do i need to study this?
i'm just too depressed nowadays..
i'm just sad,only sad is all in my mind...
what is happening to the world around me?
why must all this happen to me?
everythin around me is just not right, i was just practically depressed...
another test is coming soon...but i just cant get myself into the mode of studying...

Reasons to be sad:-
1)My sociology test was terrible done...i'm just too afraid that i might flung this paper...then tat goes peinee in imu....nobody will be able to see me anymore....
The moment my lecturer read out the answers, i was like so dumbfounded...everything just doesnt seem to be right and doesnt come my way....i just dont know what to say, who to talk to or even what to do....

2)My relationship wif my friends are getting worst...i just dont know what to say o how to react to the way they bring theirselves...i felt so lonely and sad here...what am i supposed to do to just stay d same old me?i felt so bad being myself...i felt that people here are just too realistic....i cant put myself in this type of situation...the way they talk o bring themselves,i just cant accept it...i felt so uncomfortable wif myself...

3)Nowadays the stupid nasioncom doesnt seem to be working....cant online at home,making me even more depressed...i just lost myself these few days...i just dont know what should i do to make my life and myself to feel better....

I just felt lonesome at times like now...only here and my family are there for me to talk and share things...

i just dont know how to put n words my feelings anymore....

so,til then...pnee....813pm~

secret not to be told~

another movie...
secret...
by jay chou...
a very nice and romantic movie....

i should rate this 4stars...
jay chou played piano like....gosh....impredictable....hehehe...
watch watch watch!!!.....

next movie....ratatouille....
but test is monday and wednesday...hehehe....
so haf to study hard now~...
chaoz...

Tagged~

i was being tagged....by karen....
then when i was visiting jul's blog, then i found i being tagged by jul too...

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1) Each player must post these rules first. 2) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. 3) People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. 4) At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. 5) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
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8 Facts About Nee!...

1) Addicted to internet!
I just can't live without internet more than hmm....maybe not that chronic yet...js few days stil can tahan lar....guess wat, i lost myself when i cant connect through internet,can't study at all...can u believe this,i was dreaming for hours with my notes in front of me!....

2) I will cry if i raised my voices or scold people face to face
I just don't know why i will cry when i scold people but it's my nature~ so i just cant scold people or raised my voices...so anything tat i dun like, i will just keep it to myself...(kinda hard at times)

3) I had slacked too much since form 6
I had slacked too much in everything....eg studies, friendship, relationship...everything...mostly everything...but now catching up with family n friends....doing good i hope:P(must go steps by steps,k)

4) I love McD!
I just love it nowadays...evn our lecturers keep stressing tat tis is bad for health...but stil i luv it:)...i'm lovin it!

5) I love wearing contact lenses...(being lame~)
Wore it since form 4?well,cant really live without them too but i can't depend on them for the rest of my life...so another option wil be lasering my eyes!!....hehehe...in few years time and hopefully i don't go blind by then...

6) I'm IMU scholar!
Can't believe this right?just believe it....hahaha....i'm just too lucky for this!

7) I'm gaining more weight especially in clinical posting:(
I just don't know why i will gain weight during clinical posting even tho haf to work like cow!
maybe is stressless there....and hot in the hospital,mayb myself got expanded in the hot places but shrink in cold places:P(okie i know i'm giving myself lame excuses, so must diet:P)

8) I have gastrointestinal (GI) problem
Believe it or not, i'm facing constipation, diarrhoea n gastric in a week!!..which i don't know why:(

now....it's my turn to tag people.....(i cant tag those who tagged me rite?..)
1) joanne
2)eeleen
3)peiyee
4)daphne
5)benghuat
6)xiashien-u're being tagged again!
7)chifei
8)weimeng

luvs..pnee:)

weekends holiday~destressing!

weekends holiday....

at last, someone reached out for me!!...to go for a short break....

and the person was my godsis...

she called me on thursday, made an appointment wif me*winks*.... she told me that we're going for a short holiday to bentong's waterfall*at last i got the name right!*

i waited for her to come on saturday...she came arnd 7pm!....meantime, i went to library to study*i'm good girl that's why won't simply waste time*

she came wif her husband and 2 of their clinic nurses.... then we went to puchong for our dinner!....guess what we ate....

we went to one shop in bandar puteri, restaurant tak fok(a hong kong seafood restaurant)...we ate crabs and lots of deli food there...super nice...(sorry can't manage to take any pictures because we're too hungry, so when the food arrive....we just mumm mummm...) their specialties are their crabs!!...we ate marmite crabs, salted eggs crabs, and one more duno called what d...they even have cheese crabs!! i shall rate this shop...4stars!...nice!

then we went home...watch "Just Follow Law"....i know is kinda outdated that i just watched it yst!....but it's really a stupid show...don't like the ending as i can already predict what's gonna happened....so i rate it...3stars?...


well,the main destressing day...

we went to bentong,pahang....somewhere near fraser's hills....

we left house at 8am and we reached there around 9am....it's quite near from damansara what!!...

we went to chamang waterfall for our picnic...hehe....we ate things that had been prepared by kakak...thn we went in the water for a while...the water was on a very fast flow and the water was very deep....but the water was icy cooling!!....
play play with kids and talking....

bentong waterfall....

our picnic sites...with some reading newspaper:)

they're trying to catch tadpoles;P

then we left there around 1pm...we moved on to the hot spring!!...on the way, we stop by few stalls to find for durians!....we stop at one stall,and ate durians by the roadside!!!....something new...and the durians are super duper delicious....my god bro said it's called mausang,D2, and one more type....forgot the name d...but the most deli one was mausang!!!the skin of the durian was yellowish and thick!....better than D24~~....but again,food...no picture!....can't show you all..hehe..

we reached the hot spring bentong....hmm.....the water in the pool is kinda dirty with brown and also green algae....and some people can go in somemore...
very very dirty.....but i felt the water,it's quite hot!!....but we din wana go down as the pool was not properly maintained and dangerous looking....

hot spring pool....

so after that,we went home....

that goes my weekend holidays!....btw,i'm having pathophysiology test on tuesday and also CVS&Respiratory test on thursday.....

come back all the stress.....haiz....this is life.....but i'm happy!!......i will continue in my next blog...tat's all for now!~...

metallising my heart....

wat are feelings meant to be??
crush and true love how do u exactly differentiate it?
i dun like crush...wana crucify myself for being in such a situation....
someone help me out here...
preventing me from drowning...
evn though i saw the light,i still felt that i'm drowning...
i need hands...
to bring me out frm tis pool...
if there's no hand....
how could i get myself out here....
how could i get myself from drowning...
i just don't want to be drown!....

i wish i could cry out loud..................................

wana metalise my heart so that it wun be so vulnerable anymore....
wun be hurt so easily...
nothing can penetrate in so easily...
then i won't be so emotional ard...
successful or not is stil in experimental period*cries*............

life goes on......

single's nite...luv it=)

another one for rush hour!!...



went to watch it with geo, sookyee and yeongming..tonight was our single's nite!!we went to the new cinema in mlk,mbo...tat cinema is nice but unfortunately, we got a lil short break in between tat movie....hehe...technical problem happened!!...anyway, it was funny movie with chris tucker in it!!...he's the best joker man...i bet u will laugh from the beginning til the end of the movie...really funny...no regrets watching it!...

after movie we went havana for a drink...and chat til the shop oso wana close d....shy...kekeke...after that,we went home and here i am blogging again....but, i'm very happy today!...met geo after so long...we promise to go out so many times,finally....hehehe....

okies,need to zzz d....

Foot massage!!:)

today after class...i went for foot reflexology for my very first time....i went because janet wanted to go for body massage....so i just went and try...

a chart showing the location of the points at our foot!

firstly d lady brought me into a room, where she threw a sachet of tea like thingy into the small lil bathe tub...then she fill it wif water and left me there....i was wondering wat m i supposed to do...so common sense told me tat i should soak my leg into it...but,when i dip my legs in...i realised tat it wasn't enough...i took my leg off again...so shy rite?? then later a guy came in ask see the water and also the temperature...after tat,he asked me to soak my leg into it....so i do as he said...

my legs wif the sachet of tea like thing(duno wat's tat)....the water is hot!!!

then,he brought me a lil towel and i wipe my leg myself...hehe....after tat i just went out and sat on the special seat they had provided....and i waited for the massager to come...

finally he came...yes is a he!!

he began by bringing me a cup of tea which i din even haf a sip at all...then he drag the chair and placed the towel from my lap down to tip of my toes...he opened one side of my leg(providing privacy i supposed)....he asked do i everytime come for massaging?....i said tis is my FIRST TIME!!okie,he just smiled...he prepare things like folding my long long pants upper even tho i already did! he then placed the small towel at my pants as well..then the massage started!!...he started by applying some cream, as lubricant i tink...it was so painful and ticklish at the beginning...i wanted to laugh but so shy....(so embarassed)....then when he's massaging my big toe it was so so painful!!!....he said is my head problem...then goes to the second and third also the same....it was also painful,he said is because my eyes problem...maybe i dont have enough sleep....

my first leg....with the massager!..kekeke...

when he finish wif my left leg, he goes to my right leg...same procedure was done...and same sites of pain were felt!!

my right leg....

after all, it reli worth the trip visiting them!!
i found a new way of destressing!!....it was very very relaxing to me and at least ease all my worries n sadness at the moment...luv it!!...

after test....

finally....test is over...though i know tis is d only the beginning of the disaster...
during my test, can u imagine wat was i thinking...i'm thinking of secret recipe's tom yam n it's spaghetti....i'm not thinking of anything related to my test!..gosh...and unfortunately, God knows what am i thinking....therefore He made me did stupid mistakes....*peinee, u deserve it...thinkin of food while having exam??*

after classes...we went to secret recipe...hehehe...i haf tom yam...
yums yums....but stil prefer their tom yam spaghetti....*hungry nows* and wanted to buy simpsons dvd since no one wanted to go wif me*sad* but no one selling in sri petaling....din see anyone selling....sad sad....

well,came back home...so tired....clean my room a lil bit....thn sat in front of my laptop again for hours...non-stop typing...duno why...haiz....msn's fault lar...okie i better say is my fault or else bad things gonna happen to me again...

oh ya...on d way back,we saw a msian actor in between vista b n c which is near imu!!...he looks damn cool...he's d one acted in d show the beginning,as the guy who likes ting li...he look so so damn chun....i wish i wud haf a bf like him!!!....so start hunting....175cm,75kg,6 packs good looking guy....kekeke....

okler..i wasted too much time on internet....and worst thing i guess someone must be hacking into my computer....my songs were lost!!!how could tis possible right...happened for the second time d....yer....or maybe my laptop is haunted?*eerie*
it's reli getting late...off to go....
another beautiful song....(xiashien tis is oso beautiful song!)

unfortunately cant get it's real mtv....tis i tink a bit fake..but love the song!

day before test!

few hours wasted in front of my laptop again....
i'm reli super addicted to msn,friendster,and blogging nowadays...wonder if one day without internet svc,i will miss those times...
addiction makes me cant concentrate fully on my studies...giving myself lame excuses...
i'm currently oso a music addiction...more precisely i;m always a music addicter..*winks* stil very happy even tho test is on monday which is about few hours away...

this song specially dedicated to .....(someone who i reli misses a lots deep down)

"when we were together, we never appreciate each other....but when we were separated, we realised importance of each other in life...wanted u back by my side sometimes, but people around telling me not to...i saw u doin things tat hurt me yet i still ignore all them...tis is what i call love is blind....trust n love is so different thing to me now...."

till the next post....

shopping in supermarket...

another day passed....and i'm still the same old me...sitting here after studying to do some blogging...
guess what i haf a terrible ulcer in my mouth..so painful...but still can eat so much things...
today actually planned to watch simpsons....but the plan didnt work out in d end...so ending up in pathetic carrefour again...there goes my simpsons...i wana watch it so much, so badly...wanted to get dvd but cant find in tat pathetic carrefour-endah parade....like eugene said it's liek our malacca tong hup...but my fren said it was better than tong hup...
but i'm happy at least for a lil bcause i bought Tinge!! a spritzer lemon flavoured drink..and on the bottle,have my dear's picture...daniel's pic...

my dear advertising for spritzer:)

for one thing he really brighten up my day....when i was so down and have loads of work to do,i was so relived when i saw it!!hehehe....i know this might sounds crazy n nuisance...hehe but i still like him so much...

helping dear to promote...

then i saw a very high tech thing also....a electrical vibrator by durex with battery!!....cool ler..
unfortunately,i forgot to see the price....hehehe....sorry about the insufficient info....kekeke...but i took a picture of it:) can get it from supermarket near the cashiers like carrefour in endah parade,bukit jalil...hehehe.....(thy din pay me for tis adv,i mus claim from durex company soon:P)

my class test is next week and i stil cant pay 100% attention and put 100% effort in my studies...i beginning to realise tat my memory cells in my brain beginning to decrease....i cant remember things clearly and exactly...i'm getting old and i have to admit it now...*sob sob*...

tmr must really study as hard as possible....or else i will have to bid farewell to all...

p/s: i hate copy cats...i mean those who imitates me, my style...it makes me indifference....*frust*...

well to be continue....(now too tired already,old d k...bear wif me ya)...chaos!

bad & sad day...

mood for today: BAD & SAD....

exam coming soon but i cant concentrate...when i saw my so thick-medical surgical book,i already feel like fainting...

my thick thick book.....

my thick thick book(in nearer view)

early morning woke up around 9 something...but went back to sleep again cause i knew tat today is the only day i can sleep so long...hehehe...cause class starts at 1pm...tho i know i haf to get up and dragged myself to the library to study...

and for the first time, i msg a fren "wtf"...i'm reli sorry but i just too frustrated....

i don't know why it seems like some of them dun like me, and against me.... whateva i said,is like crap to them....but one thing, when i said about guys....they wil treat me nice! sorry...please let me say again..."wtf"....

i was so so frust n dont know who to tell...then i told vf cause he's the only one know what's happening at least partly....

but yet,i don't like the feeling of being like this....i felt tears flowing at tat moment, i quickly ran to the toilet...i hide in there for at least 5mins?....i cried but i realised people wil heard me...so i went out as i have class too....

in class,i was so so freaking out wif those ppl....i just duno how to communicate o live together wif those people...

some were really at the tip of my bursting out sensation....sometimes i felt i want to scold o just shout out...but i knew i'm too weak inside...i may break down n cry....

keepin to myself is making me more sad....so i word it here....only for those who i trust...

just a moment ago, went to celebrate a coursemate's bday...whenever i celebrate people's birthday especially them,i had a vr stucked up feeling....i just dont know why....people here are too realistic for me....i just cant stand the attitudes of theirs....dont get on my nerves anymore!!!

i dont know where is the real me....wif them i can try to be happy...but behind them i felt tat they are just not the type of good buddies i haf in mlk....i reli miss all of u all....

well,signing off now...tmr class 9am....nites.

the beginning~

finally this lil blog is set up...
it's easy but took me so long to come up wif it...don't know why oso...
cause haf so much things to do since my new semester just started last week....

and guess wat, crazy IMU set my exam next week...and continously til end of tutorial lessons in BJ....

they must be thinking tat we're too free o smart....

but i'm just not in d mood...not in d mood of doin anythin...not even a single thing EXCEPT....holiday!!!

on the other hand, the smart sem 5 medic students organised cuti cuti msia exhibition somemore...

making me more distracted by it...

i just can memorise o even recall hmm....more than 80% of wat i've studied...

and found tis lyrics is super nice n cool....dedicated to fellas out there who make me dun trust them anymore...

"I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If i ever gave a f*** about you
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
So this is goodbye...."

signing off....pnee:)