It's been a very difficult few weeks for celebrity deaths. Legendary
cinematographer Vilmos Zsigmond, Phantasm film star Angus Scrimm, Motorhead frontman
Lemmy Kilmister and acclaimed actor Alan Rickman are just a few of the talented and
beloved entertainers that have left us recently. Truly it seems that Death is
overdue for a damned long holiday after this string of reaping.
But the death that has hit me the hardest is the passing of
David Bowie. Not only was it unexpected but it comes so soon after the release
of his latest album that it seems like something seriously wrong has occurred.
As if there was some odd crack in reality I've stepped through where Bowie is
creating some new project that requires his apparent death to set up a third
act revival to the strains of a song that will forever be a part of my internal
soundtrack. Because that is what so much of his music has become over the years
- the soundtrack of my life. I love much music and the playlist in my head is
vast and diverse, but one eternal is that I always return to
Bowie's albums year after year. And, much
like any good piece of art, I see new things in his work each time I revisit
it. Things I thought and felt in my teens or twenties seem incredibly distant
but his music can bring those memories rushing back even as my older self
reflects on how different I am now. A song I've listened to hundreds of times
can remind me of my youth and simultaneously clarify something that I'm
experiencing at that moment allowing me to see a connection between the past
and future I could not imagine before
Bowie's
voice and music threw it into sharp focus. It is this stunning ability, this
magical gift for showing us ourselves in the mirror that he could hold up, that
makes me weep that he is gone. He helped me know myself for over thirty years
just by being the creative man that he was naturally. And now that is gone. And
I know I'm not done looking in that mirror or needing the help he afforded me.
And I fear that the time will come when I need his voice - a new song, a new
insight - and I'll have to hope that age continues to bring me fresh ways of
understanding what he has already said. Because David Bowie is dead. And he
won't be there to offer his vision or his sound anymore.
Loving the Alien
Watching them come and go
The Templars and the Saracens
They're traveling the holy land
Opening telegrams
Torture comes and torture goes
Knights who'd give you anything
They bear the cross of Coeur de Leon
Salvation for the mirror blind
But if you pray, all your sins are hooked upon the sky
Pray and the heathen lie will disappear
Prayers they hide, the saddest view
(Believing the strangest things, loving the alien)
And your prayers they break the sky in two
(Believing the strangest things, loving the alien)
You pray 'til the break of dawn
(Believing the strangest things, loving the alien)
And you'll believe you're loving the alien
(Believing the strangest things, loving the alien)
Thinking of a different time
Palestine, a
modern problem
Bounty and your wealth in land
Terror in a best laid plan
Watching them come and go
Tomorrows and the yesterdays
Christians and the unbelievers
Hanging by the cross and nail