Crying meant the shedding of tears due to emotional reasons.
Many times, we cry without tears.
Many times, we cry without reasons.
i'm just seeing crying as a way to distress.
break down, get up, and move on.
I just attended some gathering with my mum and her bunch of drama class friends. i seriosly do not know what is th epoint of me being there because
a) i'm not their age
b) i dont know them
c) i'm not interested in what they do
BUT i was immersed in the atmosphere of strong friednship and memories.
As usual there was the yum seng thingy. 1st yum seng was for health (which they would need at that age) 2nd was for the mentality to overcome all obsticles (i liked this) and lastly, was for the everlasting friendship.
That set me thinking, could i ever have such friends who would celebrate with me 30 years down the road? even if so, the number of close friends would probably be not more then 10.
i promise myself.
that i would make more effort to get involved.
that i would interact more.
that i would keep my friends.
that i would not be lazy.
that i would not predetermind who to mix with.
friends was my life and it would still be a major part of it.
now who wants to go party with me???
=D
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
speech
i do actually have a speech for my sec ones, for them who have grown up soo fast i coulnt catch up. it is super obvious that i had been trying to claim credits and probably at times i thought too great of myself for what you are today.
i just want to say that all of us are always and often trying to hard to gain recognition from those we look up to/love. you seven had been the best of cadets i have ever seen, mainly because of the exceptional bond between you guys. sometimes, i really doubt that a good cadet can be a good leader. But after what i've heard during the party from your cadets, it proved to be otherwise. Count the number of tears and you'll know how much impact you have left behind.
don end the journey by blamming yourself that you could do better. i trust that you have done your best and thats all it matters. mendi said that she want to be there for all your cadet's POP. well i've just done that. it isnt easy to stay or even say that one will commit to that because you dont know when your passion will die off. winny ' wo pa wo xian zai bu jiang, wo mei you ji hui le' - my reply for this is 'you xin de hua bu pa tai chi'
i'm done here now. just rmb to move pass your past and hope we stay in contact. Cheers
Monday, May 10, 2010
Thank You
How many of us actually meant what we say nowadays?
How many of us truly thanked someone and appreaciated what they have done?
i dreaded to say 3 words when i was in lower secondary. " Thank you", "Please" and "Sorry". Well i havnt quite got over the fact that i had to use them for good manners or just basic ettique. its quite bullshit if you dont mean them. Like in work. all i've heard is that a thank you probably meant an order. you cant not do what you're asked to.
However, i have to raise an issue. I was totally shocked when a banglah thanked me after i played piano. i could feel his gratitude and appreciation. NEVER did i feel that way before. i respect him for that. we should learn from them, their sincerity and morals. i tink humans are detoriating. probably only those who truely worked would appreciate small stuffs.
Friday, April 9, 2010
little voice
Amazingly i went to cugc - combined uniform group ceremony - today. There, principal mr tan chee siong said something bout this little voice every one have within them. that set me thinking, wheres this little voice, what is it saying or if its even saying anything at all. Probably it isnt loud enough for me to hear them or even push me to fulfill my destiny.
Then he mentioned bout commitment. the last last time i commited in something, it got me a chairperson posting (of cause that comes with a little talent). Then how bout the last time i set my mind to study Tlaw exam, and it got me a B. lyk wth, esp when my proj and test i scored As. Shit this. So probably commitment couldnt bring one very far. I should have some talent somewhere right?
I need something to look forward to, something to push me hard enough for the lazy bum in me to move. Maybe commitment isnt the word that he should dwell on in his speech. The right word should be "Determination Galore". well at least i know i need that.
What have i been doing since i graduated from AMKSS? nothing worth celebrating. If so then i should probably say smt lyk
'Hi little voice, its time to wake up!'
