& my world will be coloured.

Friday, August 31, 2007

Somewhere, somehow, somewhat.

Everyone is changing, everything is different. What once i thought was never what it seems to be now. Please get me out of the picture. Let me be alone.

(joanne) ♥ 1:51 PM

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Kept thinking over something

Yesterday, i was kinda pissed, kinda angry. Was never that angry in my heart before, over my friends, over what they said. Is like, i'm being accused about something that i didn't do. I was thinking who is thinking too much. Just becoming quiet, or thinking about something else, don't smile, means black face?

Now, i know why she tried so hard to convince me each time i question her, and she tell me nothing is wrong. Just because she is quiet, it doesn't mean anything. Feel that karma is falling onto me. It make me understand how she felt at that point of time. But it's over and only when it's over, you will clearly understand.

So i went out, vent all my anger and i guess i'm fine today. Everything back to normal. But thinking back about yesterday, ohh... what a day.

:)

(joanne) ♥ 2:35 PM

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Night @ SIM

Wriggle my way into the crowd to get into the carpark. Many people, wonder what event they have, but i believe is night class. Went home late from SIM, many cars and jam. My bike couldn't start, don't know what's the reason. And there came a guy walking towards his bike, super 4 which is park beside mine. Well, he already had his bike engine on, his helmet on, getting ready to go, while i am still getting my bike started. Maybe the morning rain. So he waited for me, hoping to render his service, kept looking. I think it took me at least 6 times to get my bike started. Finally, my bike is working, he smiled and left. :) such sweet guy, wonder how will he help if my bike is really down? offer me a ride home, or help me get it started? lol. (thinking too much)

cursing at the jam, from the basement carpark to the top. Took advantage of having a bike, got through all the cars by the side, and stop beside this grey lancer? the guy turn? and i stare? because i've got the intention to cut across him to get out from basement carpark and get into the yellow box? So stare so that he will not move? Then, came to stop at the slope, slope? you know i hate slope? especially with bike and not auto car and the car in front of me is manual? Went against the traffic, and still get into another jam. Why are there so many jams? well, next time.. No more going home late. I thought the place is going to be clear.

Feeling cold, wonder is it because of the aircon or because i caught rain and wore my wet clothes the whole day. And tomorrow going to be a busy day, doing focus group and projects.

(joanne) ♥ 11:05 PM

Monday, August 27, 2007

Where's my brain?

I used to sit in front of the computer, look at the stuff and can write a long essay. But now? Nothing flows into my brain, and it seems like dead, somewhere else. So much i wanna be myself once again, where i can type and finish my project at one go.

And i wanna lose weight, so that the next time i can eat more. that's my theory. is that why i'm starving myself now? Ikea meatballs and chicken wings. Weird thing is, i can eat ikea meatballs but not bedok 85 meatballs. erm.. ain't they meatballs?

(joanne) ♥ 11:15 PM

Today's lecture

I wasn't that late for school today. Timing was just right, although i leave my home late, and had to pump petrol, because its already reserve. Didn't wanna take the risk of stopping by the road side, and end up have to walk to school. Anyway, it rained only when i am having lecture, so doesn't really affect me much. I brought my rain coat anyway. Anyway, the lecturer talk, and lecture so much.

I'm hungry, my stomach is calling.

I saw someone, diligent. I think he's very nice, just that when he do things, its not that clean. And he is helpful and friendly. So sometimes, don't judge people by his cover.

Lucky knows how to open his door, smart ass.

(joanne) ♥ 5:47 PM

Movie Day

Watch Chef Rat, kinda cute. But not really worth paying weekend movie price. That uncle beside me, kept looking at me, as if i was into his territory, felt so squeezy there. Cathay is so much bigger and better. Next time movie, cathay pls.

Ate plenty of stuff, and noticed that i'm really becoming fat. so pls take all the food away from me. Went to gardens, only to find out that my fav balls o' fire is out of stock. Never take somebody's recommendation, is not as nice as what you expect. After frequenting there so many times, i then realise the food is that expensive, looking at the small portion, and the food quality. Oh, btw.. i saw 2 of my lecture hall friends.

And so, i guess i didn't have the courage to deny. But i was thinking, what for? If things are out, then let it be. There's no point running away, so i've got to face it. Even if the answer is not what i expected, is okay. because i had tried, and giving up without trying is so not me.

I can't sleep yet, not now. But still i remember i've school tomorrow and hope i'll be able to wake up. Is Sherman... I saw reports coming in.

(joanne) ♥ 1:30 AM

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Good night

I'm tired. I wanna sleep. I wanna be myself. I wanna forget everything. And concentrate on what i had lost. My grades are slipping. And yet i was thinking of some other things.

Was it one-sided? I need signs, guide me to where i belong. to where the books are once again.

(joanne) ♥ 12:50 PM

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Gaining weight

Looking at the photos i took while ago, i notice that i had gain weight even before eating that sumptuou meal. Ate at No signboard @ Vivo, dad chose the place and mum foot the bill. For our table, which is the young ordered oyster kailan (my sis fav), coffee pork ribs (my mum said is nice), Deep fried Butter Chicken (never try before), homemade beancurd (my fav, same goes for my cousins), and steam fish (thanks to my sis), the most expensive fish we ever ate. So we had some chilli crab (still casurina is so much nicer), butter prawns (which i ended up eating the most). And we had many bowls of rice. The older generation table ordered many seafood, but none is as expensive as the fish we had. So more or less, we had something of everything. Eh.. what's the fish call, the captain told me, but i don't know what is it, we ordered because is from the sea, is tender and there is no fishy smell. That's the most important.

The service was great, they refill your tea everytime they saw its not full and they don't charge service charge or cess. Mum insisted on giving them tips. Not so sure what came over her, being so generous today. As usual, fighting to foot the bill, she flashed out her new platinum lady's card and of course, i ask her... new one? why didn't i have one? lol.. Her reply was 1 is enough, cos i've been using it without returning her the money. She told me don't need to return, and now she say this? Hmm... adults...

We had fun taking pictures and dad didn't wanna take with mum, or mum didn't wanna take with dad. But i think is dad la, he doesn't like to take pic. Then he asked me where got getai? why ask me? just because he wants to find a topic to talk to me? or he thinks that i watch? Then i found out from pris who ask her dad, and it end at 11pm, which is kinda early. So we walked around though most shops are like closed or closing. Wanted to watch 881, as suggested by my bro, but the tickets are selling fast. So didn't watch. Ended the day with starbucks. So so filling.

And now, doing some facial after finally found my nose patch, and i bought 25pcs? Not all not me, some for my dearest friends who wanted 5? Anyway, the price increased but they do give bundle discounts. and the shape and texture is different. So let me peel out now, and tell you the results....

I teared, cos very pain... But it works! :) Wonderful.

(joanne) ♥ 11:52 PM

Programs programs

There are few movies that i wanna watch. The harispray, which is corny and cheezy. That was what my lecturer told us. But still, i wouldn't mind watching, because of john. lol. Another is the chef rat. I've been waiting for it to open, and next week i'll be able to watch it. hurray!! eh.. but i've got test next week and projects to finish. Still, i will learn to manage my time really well. (yeah, right)

Heard that comex fair is next week or so, so i think i'll make a trip down to buy a new thumb drive. I guess i need it for my projects, music, documents and stuff. And besides, i need to go to Macpherson to pass the clothes, which are by the way washed and ironed.

Huge family affair tonight. And after that, drag them to altivo? lol. That's kinda ridiculous.

i'm sneezing away, and had a hard time catching some sleep.

(joanne) ♥ 3:45 PM

Relationships

A friend of mine, just broke up while ago asked me a question. And i didn't know how to answer. Simply because i don't know the person well. It was a secondary friend of mine, whom i don't know if i was even dating at that point of time. How to get over a relationship? Moreover, is years and not months. and who say months cannot compare to long relationship? It all depends on love, the depth you love a person. Can it be measured? How do you know you love a person? And how do you know if you stop loving the person? Time. Time is the only factor that will tell you the results.

Letting a person go, does it mean you had stop loving the person or you want your love to be happy? It all depends on how you see it.

Who doesn't want a long relationship? I love to be in one. Who doesn't yearn to settle down when you met someone who loves you and you love? Everyone is the answer.

Suddenly i wondered, and realised that many relationships have been broken. And is up to the person if she believes in second chances.

(joanne) ♥ 1:55 AM

Friday, August 24, 2007

What's for today?

I woke up in the late morning due to a ph call that wake me up. The whole morning was raining, can you imagine how nice it is to sleep in? And i've got tons of food for brunch today. My cough got a lil worse, not so sure if its the food i ate yesterday. But i ate little of the fried stuff. Is ok, i've got a day at home to take care of my health. So i shall go eat and take my medicine, but is BITTER.

-thanks-

Was suppose to go out today with my 2 girls. But 1 couldn't make it. So i guess today is project day? Better call up the lady to check what time they close, so that i don't have to leave that early.

Sis is leaving monday in the early morning, and at that time i am still sleeping. But i'll send her off, because i think i should have breakfast with her at the airport.

(joanne) ♥ 12:13 PM

Thursday, August 23, 2007

What's for breakfast?

Woke up early today, and saw my dad when i was in the kitchen, making my usual honey water. He pass me the keys and i spoke to him, saying that i thought he need to use the car. Then i realise communication error. Of course i went back to sleep, saying that he should tell me earlier so that i could wake uplater. Took the med before going to school even it says after meal. Was very tired, sleepy during the whole lecture. My eyes were closing, shutting, ears somewhere else. and i just shut my eyes up for while before he catch me sleeping. That isn't very nice, having to see your students feeling so bored during your lecture. Seriously, is not the lecturer's fault, he is nice and speaks well, a comedian. It's just the drowsy cough syrup. Came home, hoping the food is still on the table, nothing was there. The table was empty, is so early and they clear the whole table? I check on the food, none is my favourite, so end up eating maggie mee. And not my favourite flavour of cos, someone stole all my tom yam. Hoping to stuff myself with food before i can take the med and go to sleep, because now i really know its effect.

The bike shop hasn't call me up to ask me to pick up my bike. Usually, the lady will call mewhen i am in school, but till now nothing. Think "she" is undergoing a major repair.

(joanne) ♥ 2:36 PM

Smile again

In life, there is nothing that will bring you down if you do not want to. Nothing people can force you to change if you don't want to. There are choices you can choose not to make, there are ways to forget and remember. You can choose to listen, choose to play along. But ultimately, is your life. Each of us are given one life, and we are to treasure and live it to the fullest.

I remember once telling you not to be stubborn. Although is hard to resist and even if it hurts, everything will be fine. Karma is what you told me, but don't you recall? The next will be better? I wish to remember the sweet about you, and is possible to leave it that way. Even if it hurts, it will not last that long because time will heal. I had encountered many before, cried and heart ache many times just for love, being lied to. But ain't you should be happy that i didn't lied and hide anything from you? Is smiling means being happy and is crying means upset (or vice versa)? And is that why now i was being called heartless and judged by people who don't even know me and assume they do?

Don't give up on love, because the next one will be better. And remember i'll always listen and my hotline is open 24 hours everyday.

If ever one day you are reading this.

(joanne) ♥ 12:20 AM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Not time to sleep

Was tired today,but could not sleep although i took the cough syrup. Is drowsy. Thanks to my sis for asking me to fix up her webcam. Had a very full supper today, travel the whole BKE and end up almost home again. Damn, but smart enough (lol) to exit and travel to Jurong by another way. Although long, but didn't get lost. All thanks to my ablility to read the neighbourhood signs.

I'm getting very pissed for walking here and there to help her set up her cam, and copy the music. Then at what time can i sleep?

I will have to travel to little india myself to buy helmets.. Finally, going down after project to see if there are nice helmets. Budget, unsure because i haven't check how much i left in my bank.

Happy 21st Birthday Natasha. :)

(joanne) ♥ 2:23 AM

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Honey's for breakfast

Was awake by call yesterday, thanks to you.

My throat's sore, having flu, coughing and stomach ache. These are the symptons of? Guess i haven't been sleeping well. I better learn to take care of myself before my health deteriorate. So i took honey for breakfast.

I was hungry the whole night, since i hasn't been eating much, and now started to waste food. I decided to get back to sleep, so that i wouldn't be so hungry. But i couldn't sleep because i'm thinking of food.

I'm tired, so i guess i must get going. Just took some of my maid's cough syrup. :)

(joanne) ♥ 1:54 PM

Sunday, August 19, 2007

School tomorrow

Hmm.. was thinking if going and not going doesn't make a difference, so what's the point of going. But just to be there for poject allocation? which takes 15-30 minutes? And my journey to school takes 20-30 minutes? What should i plan to do tomorrow?

Anw, cupcake (white maltese) is bullying me, biting my feet, fingers and jumping, crawling all over me. But think she's tired now, because she is chewing her doggy bone on my bed. What a lovely sight. And most important is she barks when i leave my room. Meaning she hasn't forget about me. That's sweet.

(joanne) ♥ 7:25 PM

Appetite's Low

Seriously, my appetite went down compared to the past, i ate lesser and get full very fast. Somehow,i'm craving for my dim sum and beancurd @ Geylang. Luckily, i didn't watch license to wed yesterday, it wasn't that nice, that's what my sis comments.

Was thinking if i am happy now. My eyes are feeling better, but sometimes it will automatically tear.

my stomach is aching, and cupcake is licking me. it's ticklish.

(joanne) ♥ 1:48 PM

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Ohh...

I'm feeling sleepy, unusually sleepy. Going out to buy some IT stuff. But i'm feeling sleepy, you know?

Mambo Jambo, i like the last few songs. definitely i don't know how to dance retro but just trying hard to follow the hand signs. I guess pop, rock songs are more for dancing. Place is damn squeezy, and thanks to people squeezing and pushing. I move away and change spots many times after so much of unknown people's sweat on my arms, and their hands hitting my hair clip. So does the night ends up good? ... ... ...

I need to go town to buy a new pair of shoes.. Who wants to accompany me? Hello... friends?

(joanne) ♥ 6:41 PM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

I hate my momo

Realising my the other helmet spoil, but still use it this morning because if i dilly dally, i will be late for school. And so i came back with my momo, haiz... more and more black heads and the damn road, so dusty. I need to send my bike for repair, the engine sound is getting that loud again, i need to change the collar bearing (whatever is being spelt), the cover for the signal light.

its gonna cost a bomb again. Recently, i fell in love with two bikes, the yamaha auto bike which i saw at krabi is in singapore. cost is half of my vespa price, tempting.. another is the two wheels piaggio, but only 2a licence holders then can ride.. but that cost 1.5 times of my vespa. well, pay money to upgrade bike and licence. is it worth considering? yes, when i have tons of money in my pocket.

(joanne) ♥ 6:22 PM

Monday, August 13, 2007

I'm feeling UNHAPPY

Though i did not go to school and listen to that lecturer's craps, i'm still not happy. I'm feeling that tired, just that tired. my chest hurt, don't know what's the reason behind. I'm feeling damn stuffy, i wish to cry, but i told myself stop crying my heart out. Just when i wish to go wakeboarding, it is the 7th month. Feeling that unlucky.

What can i do besides staying at home? Going out to movies? Then i'm running out of movies. What about eating? I've been eating less, only when my friends ask me out, then i will have a satisfying dinner. What about taking up sports? Time is running out.

But i was thinking... if going out too often means missing my shows, emptying my pocket. then why do i still wanna go out? Be watching simpsons later, have to drag myself to town... I'm so tired, but i have no choice.

So much rubbish to say, but i just couldn't say it out. (*___*)

(joanne) ♥ 1:51 PM

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Mj for the day

Found enough players, so i guess that is my program for the day. Finish part of my project, had enough looking at the computer. I've still have many work to do, and its already 6pm..

Dinner's on my aunt at Ivins.

(joanne) ♥ 5:35 PM

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Great

packing off for some bbqing. someone, bring camera please. And where is my coffee prince?!! I've been waiting.

(joanne) ♥ 12:23 AM