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I love you.
I love my Creator.
I love His beloved Prophet pbuh.
I love Islam.
I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love those who contributed to my upbringing...
I love you. I love you so much, lillah insyaAllah and thank you. Thank you all of you.
Let's spread the peace.. Let's spread the love.... Let' spread..... Tk psl2... =P
I've just finished reading a book... and I really recommend this book, for everyone of all ages. I'm not the type who reads book for leisure... what's more kalau story story lagi... But this is different, I got hooked up and fall in love the first moment I read its 1st chapter.. Actually buku ni ade at our clubhouse library, a gift from Muis. Tapi tk sempat abeskan baca and I end up bought it for myself....
Good for those who needs motivation. Lagi best kalau baca and bole relate dgn Rasulullah's pbuh teaching. Mostly selari~ ^_^ Success people shares quite the same life story....
nah, ni special utk anda... Same author!
Click Here! Tapi ini saya baru half way baca.. so far best juga. :)
Salam.
Hampir sebulan saya cuba settlekan buku2 ni.. akhirnya dapat juga susun dan mengkatogerikannya. (ade ke kalimah ni?) Alhamdulillah. Skrg at least saya tahu kitab apa yang saya kurang. Bila lihat, stress juga, bila agaknya nak baca kitab2 ni semua... Yang lagi menstresskan buku2 penting masih ada dalam satu kotak di Cairo, belum sempat di bawa pulang cargo... Habeslah nk cari rujukan semalam pun terkial2... nasib baik ramai kawan yang byk kitab2 juga.. dpt juga tanya mereka. :)
1) Quran & Quranic Intonation (Tajwid)
2) Quranic Exegesis (Tafseer)
3) Prophet's Hadith (PBUH)
4) Supplications (Dua)
5) Islamic Jurisprudence (Fiqh)
6) Comparative Jurisprudence (Fiqh Muqaaran)
7) Islamic Inheritance (Mirath/Faraidh)
8) Islamic Jurisprudence - Textual Study (Fiqh Nossi)
9) Fundamentals of Jurisprudence (Usul Fiqh)
10) Fundamentals of Jurisprudence- Textual Study (Usul Fiqh Nossi)
11) Contemporary Issues/Rules of Jurisprudence (Qodoya Mu'asoroh/Qawaid Fiqhiyyah)
12) Monotheism/Believes (Tauhid/'Akidah)
13) Good Behaviors/Self Improvements (Akhlak/Tasawwuf)
14) Biography/History (Sirah)
15) Dictionaries (Mu'jam/Kamus)
16) Mixed English and some Malay Islamic books
(majority published by IIPH, Darussalam, Light, Tughra, Al-Falah Foundation, New Vision, etc)
17) Arabic Language (Nahu/Sarf /Balaghah/Mantiq/Insya')
18) Others Uncategorized
19) Fictions & Music
20) Old Academic School Books
21) Notebooks
22) Files and Papers
So much for my 'healthy diet'.
Today nanny blanje McD, and western foods. Yesterday, dpt KFC treat. Last 2 days, Nasi Minyak orang kawin treat. I didnt buy any~ rezki melimpah ruah. Alhamdulillah.... syukur sgt2! tapi... makin bertambah kiut lah saya nanti! macam mana...? Mungkin itu pun rezeki juga~ ^_^"
Have you ever watch the documentary "Super Size Me"? (
link) An experiment by a guy who eats breakfast, lunch & dinner from McD for a month all over US. It's scary how these foods are killing you. To a certain degree, saya rasa boleh illah kannya seperti bahaya merokok. Tapi untuk saya insyaAllah belum sampai lagi lah. Dr advice patutnya once a month saja, kalau boleh elakkan terus lagi baik. hah.
Hari ini saya ke Masjid Al-Iman... Saya dan teman-teman hadiri majlis maulid, kami duduk di depan jemaah. Saya senang lihat mereka. Ini mungkin suatu lagi permulaan awal bagi mereka, semoga ianya akan terus meningkat lebih daripada ini, agar masyarakat boleh menerima lebih manfaat dari kami semua. insyaAllah.
*Listening to Sami Yusuf & Maher Zain... tak ada Kareem Salama...):*
Do you see a light right on the middle of this picture? Guess what that is....
Yeah, that's Mr Moon. I am able to gaze at His magnificent creation from my room, lying down on my bed... :) Alhamdulillah for this beauty, for this ni'mah...
It's nice to know there are still people who pray the best for you... May He grant you more than what you have prayed for others. Amin.
Oh Allah, I love these people. Please give them Your guidance, Your blessings, fill their hearts with peace and happiness here, and the hereafter. Amin.
Doakn saya, doaknn semua...
Something in common.
I've been asking myself a few questions.
One of it is on similarity, something in common, the common way of thinking of a certain group of people.
Saya sedang berwudhuk tadi, terperasan pula something.
Among us, there are those who prioritize result, academic result, filtering anything that might be harmful to the real goals, they think critically and most of them are elites. I can say Sg Gov is one of them.
And there are those who does not. To them result is also important, but in a totally different perspective. They have their core beliefs, their own goal. They are critical thinkers too, but unlike the other.
I have not grab this fully, still trying to understand human behavior and their way of thinking. Well, at least this minus off some doubt and cancel off a FAQ in my head.
Q: We've gone thru the same process, faced almost the same challenges, we lead others, we have almost the same goal, but in the end the way we handle it is sometimes the exact opposite, but we both succeed. Alhamdulillah.
Hmm, Academic huh. Thank you Allah. Please show me more. I want to know, so that I can get closer to You.
Kalau tak paham, tak apa apa ok. Monolog dalaman saja.
Ok, time to pray. (^^,)
Doakan saya, doakan semua!
Salam...
It's been a while, hasn't it? It's that time again. Where I will get super lazy to write or update. A friend told me that it's about time I update, but really, I'm not sure what to write (or maybe too many to choose from), but I wont know unless I try, kan? ok, friend punye psl~
*I'm killing myself with food*
I just got back from Manhattan Fish Market. (
Web) Punye lah best. org blanje lagi.. Alhamdulillah~ Yesterday went out with sec sch classmates, to Orchard Sakura International Buffet (
web).. it was quite fun, varieties of food. Few days before went to Beach Road for their famous Sup Tulang Merah, org blanje jugak, ate at the airport's canteen.. food bazaar at Expo.. all in one day. I thought of starting my 'healthy diet' today.. tapi... hehehehe... org nk blanje sey. Pape pun alhamdulillah.. Inna haza larizquna maalahu min nafad.. Quran 38:54
*as of today, i've just shaved off a few days of my life span..*
well, at least according to those healthy lifestyle sites.. ahah. Wallahualam, Allahu yaqdir wa la aqdir. ya'lam wa la 'alam.
If u think I've been doing nothing except enjoying myself all these while, think again. Cey. Egypt's in trouble. A part of me am very glad to see some changes, (like finally!) but the other was also really worried for my comrades there. I was following the news very, very closely. Day and night on Jazeera's site watching live streaming news. I was bored to death, I couldn't do anything about it.
A few days later, my phone rang. Muis needed assistance to help out with the calls and other administration work to get those students back. Ape lagi.. Volunteered. I was awaken once again! Did a lot of stuffs, we actually managed to map out Nasr City where Singaporean lives and point out their home location. Interesting work indeed. It feels good to comfort others.
Sometimes I would go off to work at 10pm and leave at 4am (midnite shift!). There's also a time I would turn up in the office at 6pm, overnight and go to the airport in the morning to fetch them. All in all, I'm glad almost everyone's back. Syukurulillah.
God gave me the chance to help fellow friends, I help whatever I could with all the resources I had. It was a volunteering work. But they decided to remunerate us who helped out, and their payment is good.
It's true what they say.. just do ur best in helping others and in the thing you do, the money will take care of itself. :):)
That's that.
Moving on to my career, I got proposed a few positions. It feels weird people coming at you, asking you to work for them. But I'm really grateful though. Alhamdulillah. I don't know who to share this with. Whether I should just grab the opportunity or leave it flew off.. Yang penting hati saya berat. If I agree, I know I'd be learning lots and lots of new stuff insyaAllah, but I don't want to get involve in a workplace where there's a tendency people might say bad things about it. Kata-kata boleh menjadi suatu dua.
Takpelah, kalau da istikharah, ape2 pun pilihan, insyaAllah yang terbaik dan tak akan merugikan, kan? Doakan saya ye.
Mommy received $1,000 voucher to spent at any CapitaMalls in Singapore (
link) after working in the same company for 15 yrs. She gave me some to buy clothing since I left most of it in Cairo. You know, I'm not the type who likes to shop for clothing, unless I really really need it. I went around the malls to get anything that caught my eye... It is.. quite an experience. Baru saya faham perasan shopaholic ni. It's 'final year' sale everywhere. You can get discounts up to more than 50%! Look at the price tags and the stated discount, and do the math.. Like.. wah! really ah now at this price.. Nice, must buy! ..... -_-" Hah, dah, last, saya tk nk terjebak lagi dgn consumerism, ok.
Oh, I met my wonderful team of successors yesterday. I'm really proud of them. Everyone's a team player, they've work hard extracting everyone to return home. It's nice to see they're all moving together, none left behind. Alhamdulillah, I left it in good hands. May He assist us all.
K lah, doakan saya, doakan semua...
I am just glad you're happy. :)
I don't have an absolute plan. I'm not 100% sure what I want. Doakan!
Salam,
I'm home. the 4th day here.
Had a great time catching up with friends. Cuma macam nak menangis dengar cerita2 dorg.
ada kwn under probation dan akan di interview oleh orang-orang atasan hari ini.
ada kwn just started working, demanding boss, high expectation, beban.
ada kwn da habes satu course, tgh struggle cari duit utk bayar balik loan.
ada kwn didnt make it thru in his course in one of the local university.
ada kwn dah mula kerja, no time for himself, too tired, terlalu byk kerja.
Ini takdir buat mereka, buat saya belum ketahuan lagi.
Ya Allah permudahkan segala urusan mereka dan beri yang terbaik buat mereka.
Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kerjaya yang terbaik buat diriku, buat keluargaku, juga agamaku. Amin.
Doakan!
Di dalam perjuangan, tidak semunya indah. *peringatan buat diri*
...........
Sebelum ini saya dah taip panjang panjang panjang lebar. 4 hari disini, mcm2 berlaku, yg menyedihkan, mengembirakan, menghampakan... But I think i'll skip all that and post only this...
"In the plane, I sat alone right beside the window. I could see the clear night sky. I gazed at the bright stars, not affected by the city lights, there were plenty, maybe thousands. At one point, masyaAllah, He let me see the beauty of the full moon. That was the closest, brightest, prettiest moon I've ever seen in my entire life. But it happened so fast, for just a split second. I wanted to capture that moment. The next thing I know, the moon was already covered by the clouds once again. Still am grateful for that few seconds of beauty though. alhamdulillah. :)"
weird weird day.
Went to 'Asyir, class sheikh Awad. Dia ajar talaqqi kitab Al-Azkar, Sunan Abi Daud, Al-Kifayah, Khoridah & Ulum Hadith Ibn Solah, mula Zohor sampai lepas Maghrib biasanya. I'm guessing this is my last day going to a talaqqi class before going home in less than a week. My loss.
weird weird day.
Tadi bila datang, sebelum masuk kelas (di dalam rumah, sebuah apartmen), terlintas dalam fikiran, "Hmm, kasut baru beli ni, selamat ke letak luar? Letak jelah tawakkal, kasut lain lawa2 pun banyak".
Selepas solat maghrib dan tamat kelas, dapat lah juga salam sheikh, buat kali terakhir rasanya peluang sebelum pulang ni. Sejurus selepas beliau keluar, saya pun turut keluar. Tapi...
"Mana kasut aku ni?" tercari-cari, tertoleh-toleh kiri dan kanan. "tak ada.. tak nampak pun... da kene sebat lah ni...". Pelajar-pelajar lain satu persatu keluar meninggalkan tempat pengajian. Hanya tinggal beberapa kasut saje, tiada empunya saya. "Dah lah, confirm lah ni kene curi, innalillah, nasib baik tadi da prepared and anticipate, tkdelah surprise sgt, jalan balik kaki ayam pun kaki ayam lah...". Ape nak buat? Dah takdir, redha sajalah.
Weird Weird Day.
Lalu saya pun turun lah anak tangga, nak keluar dari blok rumah tu. Tiba-tiba mata saya terpaut kepada sesuatu "Hmm, ada kasut bawah motor... cuba tengok... Hah, macam kasut saya! Gelap tak nampak, bawak keluar terang sikit... ahh! betol! kasut saya!" Macam mana boleh ada jauh di bawah motor pun, saya tak tahu. yang penting, Alhamdulillah.... (:
Weird Weird Day.
Sepatutnya lepas kelas nak teman kawan pergi makan, tapi dia tak jadi. Jadi dah telanjur di daerah asyir ni, saya pun plan nak beli barang2 yang ingin dibeli di daerah situ. Pergi lah ke kedai baju. Ikutkn hati, macam-macam nak beli bawa untuk balik. Di Singapura tak ada, kalau ada pun mahal. Jubah berjenis2, jaket-jaket, tapi.. tak apalah, simpan duit untuk yang lebih penting.
Saya cuma beli beberapa helai songkok putih. Harga semuanya 48 genih. Saya beri 200 genih, pulangan wang sepatutnya 152 genih. Penjual keluarkan 102 genih lalu bertanya "tak ade fakkah(duit kecil) 50 genih?" saya kata tak ada. Penjual pun suro saya tunggu, dia nak pecahkan duit 100 genih ke 50,50. Setalah dia kembali, saya pun ambil 50 genih saya, ucap terima kasih dan terus keluar.
Weird weird Day.
Sedang berjalan, berkumandang azan Isyak. Tergerak hati nak singgah masjid utk tunaikan solat. Di sini byk masjid, azan pun seperti echo, sahut menyahut antara masjid-masjid berdekatan. Tetapi saya tak nampak masjid pun, cuma ikut suara azan dan tembus lorong-lorong blok, jumpa sebuah masjid. Saya pun masuk.
Dalam ada ramai familiar faces, pelajar-pelajar Malaysia dan Indonesia. Bersaf-saf. Dalam hati, bestnya tinggal sini, ramai-ramai belajar, 'itikaf, solat jemaah. Semua dalam masjid, dgn teman-teman...
Weird weird day...
Setelah tamat solat jemaah Isyak, selesai sahaja saya memberi salam solat sunnah, ada seorang arab dekati saya. "Eh, ada ape ni, nk tegur something ke...?". Lalu dia pun bertanya, "tadi kau beli songkok kan? harga dia 48 genih. Kau kasi aku 200 genih, aku da balikkan kau 50 genih". Baru saya perasan, eh.. ni penjual tadi. saya angguk mengiya kan kata-katanya. "tadi aku da keluarkan 102. tapi kau tak amik". Saya ragu lalu check beg duit. Betol, cuma ada 50 genih sahaja. "Aah, aku lupa tadi, aku ingat kau da bagi". "Ok takpe, lps solat, kau pergi kedai balik, insyaAllah ada duit tu".
Weird weird day..
Saya pun kembali ke kedainya, dalam perjalan ke sana, macam2 dimainkan dalam kepala otak saya, sambil tersenyum. "ai, dalam banyak-banyak masjid, macam mana dia bole tahu aku kat situ. macam mana dia tahu aku pergi masjid pun? jauh plak tu dari kedai dia..."
Setelah menanti beberapa minit, dia pun tiba buka kembali kedainya dan membalikkan penanda "tutup utk solat". Dia kembalikan 102 genih saya, saya pun bertanya "kau tahu ke tadi aku ade dekat masjid tu?" dia jawab, "tak, aku tak tau, selepas aku beri salam, aku nampak kau dan terus jumpe kau". hah!
weird weird day.
Hari ini sepatutnya saya sedih, kasut baru beli hilang.. 100 genih hilang... tapi Allah dah tentukan hari ni bukan hari untuk saya sedih. alhamdulillah. saya terfikir2, kenapa agaknya takdirNya yang kurang baik bertukar sebaliknya. Wallahualam. saya tak ada jawapan, yang penting saya bersyukur atas nikmatNya.
weird weird day.
Selepas tu, saya jalan merantau sorang-sorang ke kedai stationery Samir wa Ali, beli barang-barang yg patut. Selepas tu ke maktabah Qimah pula berdekatan. Berejam-rejam saya dalam kedai buku tu. Enjoying my time alone. Lihat buku satu persatu. Banyak juga jumpa buku best! Adalah beli dalam 7 buah buku. Hee.
I think I'm getting very old. Waktu nak beli buku tu, sering kali terlintas di dalam fikiran "Ah, this book is good for my kids." Knp agaknya eh. Mungkin saja ianya reflect actions, I dont want my kids to experience the same childhood as mine. Bookless, fatherless, lack of so many things, informations, guidance, always left alone, etc. Nasib lah baik dpt masuk Madrasah. Alhamdulillah. I should add, but if ni semua tak berlaku, saya tak kan jadi seperti apa saya sekarang. :) hah. I am going to find myself a wonderful wife to asuh and take care of my kids.
Dah penat round satu kedai tu, saya pun bayar dan keluar. Lapar tahap nak makan kepala orang. hah.
weird weird day.
Alhamdulillah.
Wallahualam.
Salam,
3am. Mcm2 hari ni buat... :)
Woke up early this morning, hari ini saya tekad nak ke Souq Thamin, a wet market. 4 years, and this is my first time. Saya tak pasti mcm mana nk ke sana, seperti biasa, gamble jelah tanya2 org. alhamdulillah, sampai juga... Tapi sampai 3 transfer, dari van tramco.. ke van.. ke bus.. baru sampai.
Hampir semua orang sedang exam, jadi saya ajak lah teman yang tak ada imtihan. Kita berdua saja. Bila sampai je, oh! ini rupenye Souq Thamin! Da lama dengar, akhirnya sampai juga hajat jejak kaki disini.
Banyak, banyak sangat sayur2an! lebih 20 gerai, straight! semua sayur. Keeps me wonder, macam mana dorg berniaga? I mean, so many competitions. But I'm guessing this is the rightful way to do it, how it was done since the Prophet's (pbuh) time. Zaman dulu mana ade Super/Hyper Market mcm Giant, Carrefour, Spinneys dan sebagainya, ye tak?
Kedai ammu ni, saya banyak beli sayuran dari dia.... knp? jap, nnt awk tahu.
Jln2, selepas sayur2an, kita nampak buah-buahan pula! Fresh fruits. Sekali ternampak buah yang tk pernah nampak... bestnye sini dpt test mkn sebelum beli. Bila rasa, not bad lah. Belilah suku kilo, tanya namanya, jawabnya 'Harankash'. Rasenya masam manis sikit, mcm buah Peach, tapi saiz Cherry. Stylenya dia bersalut daun! :)
Jalan punya jalan, mula nampak binatang. Mula2 nampak... Burung.. Quail, Merpati...
Lepas tu Ayam!!! mmmm..
Lepas tu lepas tu, Arnab!! Itik, Turkey pun adee~
Then Kambiinggg!~ Hah! Interestingnya kat sini, dorg akan sembelih binatang-bintang ni on the spot time order! Saya pernah beli ayam, pilih yang hidup2.. pastu dia sembelih dpn mata, biarkan jap, lps tu rendam air panas utk cabut bulu2, lps potong ikut cita rasa. Hah, cepat je dorg buat.
Kita sambung jalan2... mana kedai seafood ni... ah! jumpe~! sebelah dalam... mula2, aik, satu kedai jee....? hampeh sekejap. jalan ke dalam lagi.. oh! byk! satu stretch lorong semua seafood, lebih 10 gerai.
Tk tau ape psl sebahagian besar rakyat Mesir ni suke gambarnya dipetih. >.<
Pantang nampak camera.
oh, k, back to seafood, mcm2 ade ahhh.. udang ikan sotong ketam, berjenis2!
See what I mean? LoL. Mungkin sbb org2 ni org2 kampung, kot.
Anyway, surprisingly saya jumpe barang2 yg susah nak dpt! excited sikit bile jumpe. Daun sup!! 4 tahun kat sini, tk pernah beli. rupe2nya kat sini byk....
and thats not all, ya ALLAH! SERAI! SERAIII!! BYK! SERAII! MURAH LAK TU!! Kita dua da.. ehhh... wahh! serious??? Borong lah... ape lagi. satu ikat gitu cuma 4 genih je, dlm 90sen sg? ahah. sbb tu saya byk beli kat kedai ammu ni.. ade cili merah... daun sup... serai... kedai lain tk ade~! gerai ni within first few gerai kat entrance. :)
Ada org ckp pasar ni busuk giler, kalau gi sini, balik mesti kene buang baju yg da dipakai tu. bedek~! biasa je. ahah.
Ape pasal sebok nk gi sini? oh.. sbb nk cari satu benda ni lah.. tujuan dia satu je. SOTONG! Sotong pisang ni pun first time saya nampak kat sini. heh. teruk teruk.. ape buat ni 4 tahun kat sini? Slalu nampak sotong katak atau batu aje. tk pernah nmpk org arab masak/jual sotong pisang ni.
it's cheaper than sg. Saya ade imagine, susah dpt ni, mesti mahaaalll giler. Dan saya salah. hah. dia bukak harga S$7 sekilo.... saya nk beli bebanyak, tawar punye tawar punye tawar... dpt lah dalam 5 sekilo. hah. not bad lah... mak saya kata kat sg pun $7 sekilo. Sotong katak dorg jual lagi mahal, about $12/kg
Saya beli 4 kilo, ade lah dpt dlm 45 ekor. hee. oh, lupe nk bilang, nk try masak sotong hitam lahh.. first time ni nk try.. hmm.
Below, that is the average sotong size. Above, that is one HUGE sotong okeh! jakon! ahah.
Abeh abeh abeh... ni tulang dia~~ mcm plastic stick! kalau cuci betol2 gaknye bole reuse. heh.
Ok, skrg da ade sotong, nk start siang and potong uh.... potong.. potong.. potong.. wait. asal mcm lain je.. ahhh.. mcm ne ni nk bersihkan and potong actually...? memandai je. Ting! oh, zaman internet ah skrg, kat net mesti ade....
Tgh potong2 tu.... ade satu sotong ni... ape pasal dia gemok.. kembung... hmmm... potong jelah... eh.. ape ni? IKAN! ade ikan kat dalam. LOL! besar lak tu.. belom digested~~ weird.. mcm ne sotong ni telan ikan ni. besar betol mulut dia? ^_^'
Ah, yang ni, this is the most important part of the sotong, The Black Ink. ahah. Main ingredient for my dish..
Tadaa~ selepas potong dan bersihkan. looks nice, and yummeh.
Bahan-bahan pun da siap.
Campak! Campak~!
Tadaaaaa~~ da siap! eh..? jap.. ni bukan. ni kobis goreng. hee. tadi bolot jugak kobis...
ah, tadaa~ siap. alah, gambar btol ilang. ni tinggal belen2 lauk je. lol. ok lah,, not bad, alhamdulillah. the taste is there.. cuma terpedas je. hee.
Click Here for more better pictures. :)
The most trickiest part bila masak ni, tk tau mcm ne nk extract the black ink. Tanya mak saya. kawan saya pun tanya mak dia. hah, last2... pandai2 sendiri lah tapiskan. Jadi juga. Alhamdulillah.
And, stylenye, weirdnya, byk giler bole air kluar? tk letak air pun lauk ni, tau2 lps tumis sotong tu, jap lagi periuk stgh da full air.. mana ntah air tu dtg... jadilah lauk dia. hah.
Dpt lah juga share dgn teman2 seperjuangan saya. Saya cuma harap ianya dapat mengukir senyuman di bibir2 mereka waktu imtihan ni. Bagi yg kempunan/mengidam pula, hopefully da tk lagi. :) Last masak. Lagi seminggu ni.. seminggu!
Doakan.
Wallahualam.
Salam,
Last 3 Fridays was my last contribution to PERKEMAS. Today, another Friday, was my last participation in its program. InsyaAllah. I wasn't able to conceal my grief, not even in public. My voice was shaking while speaking on the mic, fighting hard not to drop any tears. After the whole four years of commitments, to think that this day would finally come, one last gathering at the Clubhouse, looking at the crowds, comrades, future successors, looking at every corner of the clubhouse, everything that me and others worked hard to build, to know that I was going to leave everything behind in few weeks and move on, it was just too much.
I thanked Allah for lending me the power to shape the organization, somehow. Alhamdulillah. I hope that He would accept my good deeds and sunnah hasanah all these while. But more importantly, I am hoping that all my shortcomings would be forgiven and that non of my sunnah sayyiah, if any, would ever continue through out the following years.
I don't know why, but Alhamdulillah God highlighted His Love and Mercy on me today. I was dispirited, and He let me read something I really needed from a favorite book. I was trying to get back up, out of nowhere He surprised me with a beautiful, colorful fireworks in the air, from a very near street, 30 secs walking distance. That, unconsciously made me smile, I was at ease. Not to mention all the wonderful people He sends. MasyaAllah. Alhamdulillah.
If today was already this hard, what would happen on the day when I had to leave Egypt for good? I am hoping I won't be alone during my journey back home, coz if I am, I doubt I can be at my best.
Wallahu'alam.
Ps: maybe I over-reacted and this is just today. :)Prayers, thank you.
Salam.
I don't feel so good.
I figured I had two choices; either I cook, or I write and let it out somewhere... Well, it's 4am in the morning, cooking alone at this hour is a much inconvenient option, so I guess the choice was obvious.
At least, that's what I thought the only choices I had a few minutes ago. But I realized there's actually a third. Berkhalwat, muhasabah, whatever you call it.
Think about the purpose of this life. Why are we here, the good and bad deeds we've done. Why do we feel uneasy sometimes. Have some time alone, think about it. Think about God. Trust me, it helps. We neglected this part of life much too often. This is, in fact, a part of our Prophet's PBUH teaching.
With that said, I guess no writing is needed tonight.
Good morning.
Doakan saya, doakan semua.
Salam,
It's 2am. I just reached home from Maadi. Had a very looooonnggg day today.
Went to talaqqi from noon till Asr. Today I finished a bit early, so I decided to go Maktabah Darussalam to check out on some books and hopefully find the books I've been looking for. I enjoyed my walk for 15 minutes, passing by my faculty in Al-Azhar and saw the book shop full of customers.
I entered the shop and began browsing through the books one by one. Ahah! found one! Got a little excited. Ahah! found another! and another!! oh wow! This is quite unusual. I've been here a few times, and today I finally found some. Alhamdulillah.
Which book? Oh, I've been searching for Sheikh Yusuf Qaradawi's translated books. I am going to find and buy all his translated book, before buying his full list of other Arabic books, ranging from his fatwas and ideology on creating a better Muslim community. Same goes for Dr Ramadan Bouti and other famous Islamic scholars.
Why look for translation instead of the original book? First, translated books by these famous contemporary Islamic scholars would mean that the book is widely use around the world, a must to read. Second, I can simply share the book back home in Singapore with anyone, not everyone can read Arabic you see. And third, I am still going to buy their non-translated books too. insyaAllah. :)
So I spent about S$55 on eight books and two Mashaf Tajwid. Very cheap indeed. Hopefully I will be able to finish up reading all these wonderful writings soon. Oh, oh. I also have a full collection of Harun Yahya's ebook in PDF! ready to be shared.
The sound of call to prayer filled the shop indicating it's time for Maghrib. I end my book hunt and went to Gamie' Al-Azhar to do my prayer. As I was praying, a policeman got very close to me, his feet and shoulder touched mine. I wasn't sure whether he wanted me to be his Imam, or was just praying alongside with me. Later I found out it was the first. The difference! Back in Singapore usually you will get a tap on the shoulder! heh.
Travelling back home was quite tiring, the traffic was really bad. Took me twice as much time than usual. The seven seater Peugeot cab I took for my first half of the journey back home passed through cemeteries. It's a very, very dark small alley between a long stretch of cemeteries. If I'm in Asia, this would be quite scary. But here, they don't believe in ghost, just Jins. Really, you won't feel frighten anywhere you go, even how alone and dark it is. Interesting.
Before I reached home, a friend called in need of my help to bring her to a clinic, and another friend to a tuition but was cancelled. So I head back home, rest a bit, pray and went out again to the clinic. There were two of them.
We went to Taisir Clinic, but there were no specific doctor to examine specific sickness that we need. He would only be available tomorrow at 7pm. You see, unlike Singapore Polyclinic, the public clinics here are made up of a few doctors treating only specific illness. Doctor for eye, doctor for ear and nose, doctor for stomach, doctor for bones, doctor for wound and scars, and so on and so forth. There's a lot of departments! And and you'll have to pay first before consulting any of these doctors. Public clinic will cost you about 20 EGP (S$5) depending on your sickness, but private hospital can reach up to 100 EGP (S$25) just for consultation!
And so the three of us went to Markaz Rabaah, a clinic near our place. Unlike the previous clinic, the queue her is quite long. So we paid and waited for some time. Then I remembered, my house mate too need to go to the same clinic to have his Hep A check up. I asked him to come along and join us. While waiting, I got to know the other friend was also ill, having a back problem. In the end, everyone went for consultations! Except me. One consulting a doctor from ear and nose department, another in the stomach department and the other in the bones department. hah!
We felt very hungry after all those waitings and consultations, so we decided to eat. After dinner, my room mate came and join us with a car. Someone he was driving for rent the car till next morning, suddenly "Carrefour?". "Eh, Jom ah! Jom ahh!" and off we go...
I DROVE! Drove all the way there and back again. Been wanting to drive there since... forever! Hee. Alhamdulillah. It's a less than 40 minutes drive from home. We shopped a lot at Carrefour. I only bought five stuffs but it already cost me 80 EGP (looks a lot but it's only S$20)! And it's all food! Vitamilk, Nestle Lion Cereal, Skimmed Milk, Stuffed rice with meat (arab dish) & Chicken Kofta! Bought those I really wanted try, before going back to Sg. One of them even bought a 3-in-1 HP printer for only S$65! Cheap!
We sent everyone home and returned the car. Had a wonderful time together. Cherish your ukhwah k everyone.
Just an hour plus before Subh. Harap-harap tidak terbabas!
I've already asked for my flight ticket home. Yes I'll be home real soon.
Doakan. Jazakummullah kheir!
